#THAT FRESH FEEL

[stuckinapril]

friend wanted to see my tumblr, and when i told him i can’t show it to him bc it’s basically my personal diary he went “oh so I can’t see it but a bunch of strangers on tumblr can??” he literally does not get me. no one will get me like the people in my phone get me

#It’s just so different #even though it’s public it still feels secret and safe. i feel comfy sharing a lot more on here than I do in my actual day to day life lol #in my head I’m also just speaking to myself 90% of the time which helps #if a friend off tumblr saw my thoughts I’d feel so weird ab it #esp bc they might get the vagueposting about certain situations and tell mutual friends #no thank u. this is for me. I’m not about to start censoring my thoughts bc someone I know knows my tumblr #u guys literally saw me have LIVE BREAKDOWNS #meanwhile I’ll have the worst fucking day in history and tell no one about it. I’m already cripplingly private but way more so in real life #this is basically a low stress journaling outlet for me. it’s so important for me to maintain the separation #like this is actually my diary & has been so handy for letting out emotions / articulating thoughts / staying on track !! #& I’ve met so many kind people on here who actually get me. which is so hard to find irl bc I’m surrounded by pre-med gunners/overachievers #who are by standard not very good w emotion & can be competitive/judgmental. or at least it’s hard for me to be vulnerable in front of them #and I’m part of that crowd so I reserve my emotions only to a handful of very close friends #it’s nice to hop on here and express negative emotions!! or positive emotions!! just whatever I want and it’s low stress and people get me #I don’t have to worry about judgment or competitiveness etc etc #like everyone on here is so kind & nice & understanding. & just a breath of fresh air from the types I run w. it’s just nice to have this #so idk that’s why I think I’ll always be strict about keeping the worlds separate. it just works #p

[floweroflaurelin]

How do you want to do this?

—

Goodbye, Faithful Caregiver.

#critical role #fcg critical role #cr fcg #bells hells #critical role fanart #critical role campaign 3 #cr3 #bells hells fanart #critical role art #cr fanart #otohan thull #fresh cut grass #floweroflaurelin art #ashton greymoore #fearne calloway #dorian storm #orym of the air ashari #cr frida #imogen temult #laudna #chetney pock o'pea #sam riegel #critical role spoilers #cr spoilers #rip fcg #AHHHHHHHH #SOBBING AND SCREAMING #this took SO LONG but I had to get these feelings out #four days on a single project I need you to understand how unprecedented this is for me #sam riegel WHY do you keep making me CRY

[selfhealingmoments]

#feeling free #stress free #fresh start #freedom #loving life #self worth #self help #self reflection #self improvement #be yourself #mental health #new life #inspirational quotes #letting go #new beginnings #positivity #new day #new me #moving forward #moving on

[cloudyydraws]

more mario and luigi doodles but i took their mouths away

+ extra unfinished stuff under the cut

#the dear doppelganger weeg one is purely self indulgent bc ive been playing it on loop recently im normal #and i know doppelganger is a different whole thing than what he has but. hey its ok we ball #more spm on the way (i hope!!!!!! as long as i dont get distracted by avemuji or sekai for a bit) #most of this was practicing mario bc i still dont like the way i draw him tbh but i think we're getting somewhere #shoutout priv twt oomfies for dealing with my mario fix bullshit youre all so real #drawing these little guys is so much different from my other little guys i think thats why ive liked drawing them so much constantly #it just feels fresh for me!! i just get to fuck around when i draw them its fun to experiment again #ok done talking i like them a normal amount #mario and luigi #mario #luigi #super mario bros fanart #super mario bros #super mario fanart #spm #super paper mario #mr l #starlow #smb #super mario brothers #mario bros #mario fanart #art #fanart #my art #cloudy draws #nintendo #nintendo fanart

[inkskinned]

no, but really, we need to talk about the casual objectification that has become the fallback discourse of the internet: if you're pretty and dressed nicely, you're a slut. and if you're even vaguely outside of their body standard, you're fucking disgusting.

too-frequently, people position sex workers as being "the problem". they sneer you're addicted to pornography, you don't know what a real woman looks like. but real women are in pornography. the real bodies on display are not the issue here: the issue is that other people feel extremely confident when commenting on someone's physique.

2000's super-thin is slowly worming its way back into the public ideal. recently i saw someone get told to "go for a run", despite the fact she was on the thinner side of average. not that it would ever be appropriate to say that: but it's kind of like sticker shock when you see it. people think that is fat? holy shit. do they just have no idea about things?

but what are you going to do about it? that's the problem, right. because chances are - you're a normal person. we can say normalize carrying fat on your body, but we are not the billion-dollar diet industry. we are not the billion-dollar fashion industry. we are just, like. people. who are trying to make content on the internet, without being treated shittily.

as someone who has been on both sides of things: you are treated better when you are thin and pretty. this is statistically correct. i am not saying that you cannot be bullied for being thin; i'm saying there are objective institutional biases against certain bodytypes. there are videos of men and women who lost weight all saying: i now know for a fact exactly how much worse you're treated. in the comments, some asshole inevitably says something akin to you deserved to be dehumanized when you were fat.

which means that ... the easiest thing to do is be pretty and thin. it is the path of least resistance, because of course it is, because any time you post a picture of yourself without a thigh gap, someone immediately comments something like you need to try a diet.

the other half is also dehumanizing though, huh, just in a different way. when i put on makeup and nice clothes, i am told i slept my way to the top as a professional. do you know how many women in STEM have told me they purposefully dress to "unimpress" because they already struggle to be taken seriously and if they're ever considered pretty - it for some reason takes away from their authority.

so they make it seem like it's your fault. you, existing in a body - it's your fault! if you didn't want shitty comments, don't have a body. they position us against each other like chess pieces; vying for male attention we don't even need.

and i can be an authority on this unless you think i'm fat and unattractive. when i am pretty and thin, i'm an activist. when i am just a normal person who makes a good point: i am immediately dismissed. nobody fucking believes you if you're not seen as attractive. you literally lose value. you cease to exist.

but the whole time, it feels like - is anyone actually grounded the fuck in reality? the line of "pretty and thin" keeps shifting. nobody seems to understand what "a normal weight" even looks like, because it's not something that exists - you cannot tell a person's health by looking at their body. even if you think you could tell that, even if you're sure a person is dangerously overweight - people are not your dolls. they do not need to be dressed up or displayed properly to soothe your aesthetics. you aren't concerned for them, you're stealing their agency. you don't get to say if they're "allowed" to take pictures and post them on the internet - you don't get to tell them how to exist.

people hide behind "the obesity epidemic" without any actual qualifications. they crow things about "normalizing unhealthiness".

but it's bullshit. i have visible abs. there is a pair of parallel lines on my body, even when i'm relaxed; where my obliques meet my abdominal wall. i am proud of this because it means i'm strong, because i overcame an eating disorder only to be ripped as fuck. it is genetic and physical luck that i even get any definition, i'm pleased as punch.

but it does mean that my abdominal wall sticks out a little bit. the other day i posted a video of myself dancing, and, for a moment, my shirt slipped. you could see a little bit of my stomach. i was cartwheeling to the floor. moments before this, i'd had my foot over my head.

a guy slid into my DMs. a row of vomiting emojis prefaced: you should really lose some weight before you think about dancing.

i stared at it for a long time. there was a time when i would have been triggered by this, where it would have encouraged me to starve myself. i would have ignored the fact i'm flexible, agile, good at jumping: i would have lost the weight for a stranger's passing comment. i would have found myself and my body fucking disgusting.

and for what? to please what? because why? so that he can exist in this world without an unchallenged eyeball? what would my self-hatred even accomplish? usually i write paragraphs. obviously. on this particular occasion, in this body i've been at war with for ages: i just felt exhausted.

it shouldn't be even worth saying. it shouldn't be hard to explain. all of this emotional turmoil when he cannot even comprehend the most basic truth: i am not an object on display for him.

#spilled ink #writeblr #warm up #like if im getting fatshamed. babe......... wake up #is there fat on my body? yes :) #btw this behavior wouldn't be okay even if I WAS overweight!!! that is my point!!! #it is both that people have no idea what weight is supposed to look like #and even if they DID... they do not seem to understand that PEOPLE ARE NOT DOLLS #YOU DO NOT GET TO TELL THEM HOW TO EXIST #if you respond anything akin to ''but raquel there IS an obesity epidemic'' #you're blocked and reported. #go fucking DONATE TO A FOOD BANK THEN. volunteer in a food desert. start a free fitness program #GO GET A DEGREE AS A MEDICAL PROFESSIONAL AND PRACTICE IN NUTRITION IN UNDERPRIVILEDGED LOCATIONS #FIGURE OUT HOW TO LOWER FOOD COSTS. FIGURE OUT HOW TO NORMALIZE AND STANDARDIZE #ACCESS TO FARM-FRESH FOOD. PROVIDE ACTUAL FREE ACCESS TO OUTSIDE ACTIVITIES #FIGURE OUT HOW TO TEACH PEOPLE HEALTHY CHOICE MAKING WHILE ALSO LOWERING THE COST OF MEALS. #THE AVERAGE GROCERY BILL OF THE AMERICAN CITIZEN HAS QUADRUPILED IN THE LAST YEAR. #SHUT. THE FUCK. UP!!!!!!!!! #you don't want to help these people!!!!! #you want to bully them but still feel like a good person! #you want to be justified in your hatred of an entire CLASS of people!!! #you don't give a fuck about how it makes them feel!!!! #you care ONLY about whether or not YOU get to VIRTUE SIGNAL that YOURE so thin and pretty!!!! #it is BECAUSE of people like you #and the fact you tolerate fatphobia - BECAUSE of that normalization. that men like the one who called me fat #feel like they can get away with it. #bc there's a line for you where you WOULD be okay with it. where if i WASNT thin you'd be okay with it. #which means the line can always be pushed in a certain direction. and it's always going to appeal to male aesthetics. #''well you didn't deserve it'' maybe fucking NOBODY does babe. maybe we should just all agree not to comment on ppls bodies!!

[vroomvroomwee]

Who was gonna tell me that sitting down on a cold hard floor alone in a room barely illuminated with only a small lamp light in the dead of night, hugging your knees while putting the same song on loop to play over and over and over again as you close your eyes and start rocking side to side softly and slowly for 30 minutes FELT SO GOOOD??

#ive never felt more fresh #i honestly teared up a bit #because i felt myself relax #i dont think i remember ghe last time i did that #god the feeling hit me like a train #stimming #is this stimming? #i think i should really get that diagnosis #autism #adhd #audhd #actually audhd #audhd things #neurodivergence #neurodivergent #neurodiversity

[ministarfruit]

day 5: hands for holding ♡

(femslashfeb prompt list)

#minifemslashfeb2024 #witch hat atelier #tongari boushi no atelier #arkco #wha agott #wha coco #I really like these two... #witch hat atelier is a great series and I recommend it to everyone #it is just so darling. so so gorgeous #charming and magical in every way #drawing new things this month feels so fresh and fun!!

[martyryo]

Need to draw them being stupid at least once a month

#artists on tumblr #digital art #illustration #pixel aesthetic #fight club #fight club 1999 #the narrator fight club #tyler durden #soapshipping #I just wanted to put them in stupid outfits #tyler chose both of them honestly #love them when they're idiots #I wish girls were real #feeling like those cats whenever I drink water #I literally visualize fresh water source on top of mountains with fish swimming and lot of sun #the dehydrated experience #the kaczynski crop trop stays on during sex

[biggest-gaudiest-patronuses]

you want a new kind of guy, fine, i raise you: the lady i was briefly roommates with in college who once smoked a blunt at a party and then spent an hour confessing earnestly to me that she genuinely preferred reading detailed episode recaps over actually watching the tv show in question

#she sounded so remorseful & i just stood staring like an anthropologist watching their phd thesis spontaneously manifest before their eyes #apparently she would watch the pilot episode to get a feel for the characters #and then just read a bunch of recaps & episode reviews instead of watching future episodes. what fresh steaming hell #this conversation took place like a year and a half after we were roommates btw. i had seen her maybe twice in that time period #i thought she was a standard frat girl but then 18 months later she appears in the wild grass to reveal unhinged character background to me #and i'm just standing there nodding feeling like i missed a weird opportunity i did not want or ask for #honestly thought i was the weirdest person in that apartment situation but now i'm wondering what our other 2 roommates were hiding #not my strangest college experience at ALL but like. definitely top 20 #this wasn't the same person as Aquarium Girl btw but oddly enough they were roommates actually #(not at the same time that Recaps Lady and i were roommates but at different intervals idk) #anyway i probably should have interviewed at more than one apartment before taking over a sublease but summer sess is a weird time u know #oh and this happened in Hong Kong btw

[carnivalcarriondiscarded]

hi!! howdy!! hello!! i have a question about the lights out au !! :D How did Poppy, Frank and Wally react to Howdy waking up? How did HE react to waking up?? sorry if this was already asked hhaha

lots of emotions! i will portray Two

#howdy got a little too loud and attracted Very unwanted attention #which is fair! its a lot to process all at once! #but yeah picture frank and wally sprinting the distant sound of howdy yelling #to try and get to him before anything else <3 #i dont think i need to explain poppy's! its just Emotional! #she's awake for about two 1/2 years before howdy joins them #so a fresh face brings tears to her eyes! #i feel like howdy would be a little awkward at first maybe? #everything is different and everyone is touchy (both emotionally and in the physical affection sense) #scribble salad #wh lights out au #but yeah howdy had a proper freakout #sobbing ranting the whole shebang

[iconicname]

do not drink the purple vial

#babys first time feeling pain #i havent drawn fresh in like 6 years #my art #art #ink sans #ink!sans #undertale #sans #sans au #undertale au #fanart #digital artist #digital art #animation #fresh sans #fresh #underverse #utmv #utmv fanart #utmv sans #utmv au #utdr #utau #undertale multiverse #undertale meme #animatic #artwork #artists on tumblr #ink #meme

[zer0point5ive]

“the worst they could do is kill you” actually the worst they could do is crawl closer to you instead of leaving even though they’re currently bleeding out after cutting their own foot off with a hacksaw in order to escape and the door is open for the first time since you both woke up in this room, just to pull you away from beating the now lifeless body of the man who was about to kill them and proceed to cup your face with the sort of tenderness that wasn’t meant for someone like you, wasn’t meant for either of you not here not now, before saying things that you both so desperately want to believe but know deep down are near impossible all while you feel the searing ache of the bullet wound they put there not moments earlier and then, even as they start to make their way towards the door, even as their shirt slips out of your grasp and your scrabbling fingers can no longer reach their wrist and the chain around your ankle starts to feel like your fate, they still turn back to assure you that they wouldn’t lie to you. if you’re adam saw 2004

#woahh. lovers #‘the worst thing that could happen to you is death’ actually the worst thing that could happen is waking up to a man splashing water on your #face w no idea where you are and said man proceeds to ‘save’ you in a way akin to torture & he won’t let you go back for the person you got #to know in the bathroom the person you promised to get help for he won’t let you and years go by you change you no longer recognise yourself #in the mirror & have nothing left. then one day you go back to that bathroom & the wound is so fresh it’s unbearable #saw 2004 #chainshipping #adam faulkner stanheight #adam stanheight #lawrence gordon #feeling soo normal. feeling so average about them #📹

[fell-contract]

Spring awakening 💇🏻‍♀️

#me #fresh cut made me feel wholesome 🥰

[beescake]

are you secretly the CEO of solkat

solkat r the ceos of me. actually

#am but a fresh minnow in this decade old aquarium i dont feel worthy of this title #as a chaser of the trail left by the established reigning fish i say‚ #the yaoi game of the og slkts are insane!11 i cannot hope to come close #also i think solkat might b more than tumblr.? #there are bubbles of slkts living in other ecosystems that we tumblrinas are not privy to for sure :o #ask #anon #homestuck #2024 #sollux captor #karkat vantas #solkat #vioart #ok as candidate-in-training my slkt take of the day is that they have a startup tgt ☝️🤓 #worst bosses ever btw these two grind so fucking hard #if u dont keep up w them whoopee youre booted off for killing the team spirit so dead even the mediums wont absolve u #their company culture bonds over shitting on ex-employees :(

[sydneysageivashkov]

when you are Orpheus leading Eurydice out of the underworld but you don't know if there's even a way out. when Eurydice herself ordered you not to look at her but she doesn't understand why you won't. she's begging you to look. you'll die if you don't look. you don't look. you still don't even know if there's a way out. when your mourning is so deep that you create an underworld of your own but you still can't look for her. that a whole world was made from mourning, where everything was present once again.

#the locked tomb #griddlehark #rapha says getting me into tlt is revenge for me writing the sydrian orpheus and eurydice au #so I am here to ensure everyone feels the same griddlehark orpheus and eurydice agony I do #I have a griddlehark orpheus and eurydice web weaving somewhere but I'd forgotten about gideon telling harrow not to look at her #so! fresh post

[st4ngray]

Some more proper fanart but mm this series is so,,,

#art #my art #digital art #artists on tumblr #i love amy #idk like something about this series feels like a breath of fresh air?? #idk maybe it’s just cause I personally really identify with amy and bibi is precious and aa- #my fav part was the cookie jar arc won’t lie #haven’t been the same since mm-