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#Spotify now thinks I’m a hopeless romantic oof
deadlycupid · 3 years
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Here is the link to the playlist for the fanfic for Callan that I’ll be posting later.
I wanted to share the playlist before hand because I highly recommend listening to it while reading, it sets the mood just right.
the link will be on the fanfic post too so don’t worry if you can’t find this post later.
(also I spent hours making this playlist so you better go and listen 😤)
playlist link
taglist
@writerfae @writing-is-a-martial-art @annoyingwritingtrash
(I’m tagging you guys bc you are also on the taglist for the fanfic, sorry if it’s annoying)
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babyboyuto · 6 years
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rules: answer these 83 statements about yourself, then tag 13 people
tagged by @wooseok; I get so excited when people tag me in stuff! mwah 💋 ily
tagging: @jellybeanmulti @adachiyoujinjin @marcus-lee9 @peachyunz @nakamotens @kristian-do @cheolshu @3ten @renjunchokingnct @headbandmark @ihatewhites @spearbin @yeosprout
last
1. drink - Dr Pepper 
2. phone call -domino’s lol
3. text message - faith  
4. song you listened to - I Smile by Day6
5. time you cried - a couple days ago while watching meteor garden oof
ever
6. dated someone twice? - yes
7. kissed someone and regretted it - yes
8. been cheated on - no
9. lost someone special - yes
10. been depressed - yes
11. gotten drunk and thrown up - no I don't drink
fave colours
12. black
13. rosy pink
14. yellow
in the last year have you…
15. made new friends - yes
16. fallen out of love - no
17. laughed until you cried - no 
18. found out someone was talking about you - no
19. met someone who changed you - yes
20. found out who your friends are - you mean my one friend 
21. kissed someone on your facebook friend list - no lol facebook??
general
22. how many of your facebook friends do you know irl - I don't really use facebook anymore, so I'll use instagram instead. I'd say I know about half of my followers, so about 500?? (follow me on instagram @/ellabensen)
23. do you have any pets - yes! a dog (he’s 13) and a kitty (he’s 9) 
24. do you want to change your name - no I love my name 
25. what did you do for your last birthday - slept until 2 pm and went to dinner with my fam
26. what time did you wake up today - 8 ! too early!!
27. what were you doing at midnight last night - watching a bts universe compilation, trying to figure it out 
28. what is something you can’t wait for - going to college! this Saturday!!
30. what are you listening to right now - my “all time faves” playlist: All This And Heaven Too by Florence + the Machine (follow me on Spotify @/ellaaben)
31. have you ever talked to a person named tom - I mean yeah but not like TALKED, like I've conversed with someone named tom 
32. something that gets on your nerves - ignorance
33. most visited website - youtube
34. hair color - dirty blonde/light brown
35. long or short hair - long
36. do you have a crush on someone - no
37. what do you like about yourself - my intelligence and my legs 
38. want any piercings? - I want more on my ears
39. blood type - B neg 
40. nicknames - El, E, Bean
41. relationship status - single
42. zodiac - Leo sun, sag moon, pisces rising 
43. pronouns - she/her
44. fave tv shows - meteor garden, the office, avatar
45. tattoos - not yet but soon!
46. right or left handed - right
47. ever had surgery - no
48. piercings - ears are double pierced 
49. sport - did cheer in high school
50. vacation - love Hawaii, want to visit tokyo or some island idk
51. trainers - I'm guessing this is talking about shoes so high tops
more general
52. eating - Hawaiian pizza
53. drinking - nothing. I am parched. 
54. i’m about to watch - new meteor garden episodes
55. waiting for - dream comeback :)
56. want - new clothes
57. get married - I don't think it matters when, whenever you're ready. I’d rather focus on my career than try to marry before a certain age 
58. career - international business operations 
which is better
59. hugs or kisses - kisses
60. lips or eyes - lips
61. shorter or taller - TALLER 
62. older or younger - older
63. nice arms or stomach - stomach
64. hookup or relationship - relationship but hookups are nice too
65. troublemaker or hesitant - hesitant
have you ever
66. kissed a stranger - no
67. drank hard liquor - no
68. lost glasses - no
69. turned someone down - yes lol rip joey sorry I didn't go to prom with u 
70. sex on first date - maybe? depends on if you're comfortable 
71. broken someone’s heart - yikes yes I've broken up with every boyfriend I’ve ever had 
72. had your heart broken - no
73. been arrested - no
74. cried when someone died - yes
75. fallen for a friend - in like middle school so it doesn't really count
do you believe in
76. yourself - YES
77. miracles - no 
78. love at first sight - yes (I guess this is a miracle but I'm a hopeless romantic and a cynic)
79. santa claus - no
80. kiss on a first date - yee
81. angels - no I'm atheist 
other
82. best friend’s name - sammi
83. eye color - blueeee
84. fave movie - we bought a zoo lmao
85. fave actor - I don't really have one? I love going to see movies and watching movies but i’m not invested enough to care about actors
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oracles · 5 years
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All of the emojis for the sweet and pure asks
DSJFHFDJKHKFJFFF honestly you’re probably like the only person who cares about what i say on here … thank u .. my savior 💖
(obviously imma put this under a cut .. if it doesn’t work on mobile, i apologize in advance aadhjfdkff since when things are under a cut i tend to write long ass rambling answers)
🐰- do you believe in soul mates?
as an utterly hopeless romantic, i certainly want to. i think because of like … insecurities, self hate and stuff (not to get too deep), it’s a comforting idea to me to like Know that there’s someone out there who doesn’t see me the way i do … but realistically? no. i think you gotta realize that relationships are hard and something you have to work to keep healthy and happy and not as magically problem-solving as soulmate tropes make it out to be. so short answer: realistically no, ideally yes. 
💌- diary or journal?
the one i write in is honestly a mix of both, but i think it’s more of a diary. it’s cathartic to write things out when you don’t wanna talk to someone else about it (or in addition to venting to another person) and for the journal aspect of it, i really like looking back on things i did back in the day. i’ve had a diary/journal hybrid since like 2008-ish? so i love that !
✨- which fictional character (book, show, or movie) do you relate to most?
ooh good question …. there’s a lot! i think i see bits of myself in a lot of characters so there isn’t any One (1) person i relate to the most. shaw from person of interest keeps coming to mind but maybe i’ve just absorbed parts of her, rather than actually being like her so who knows . jessica jones is another one, in some aspects. i think just from those two you can tell the Type of character i not only gravitate towards, but relate to too
💕- are you crushing on someone?
irl? no, i’m not. i have plenty of celebrity crushes though so i can’t even begin to start listing those. honestly most of the celebs i talk about / reblog on here are most likely a crush . to paraphrase an iconic pisces, yeah i’m a love whore and what about it ??? dfjkdhkjff
💋- kissing in the dark or kissing in the rain?
both !!!!! but kissing in the dark may be more ideal so i can hide how flustered i probably would be
🐝- describe your aesthetic in emojis
💌💣🌙🥀🖤  less of an aesthetic and more so just emojis i like, i feel like
🍼- what is your favorite memory?
oof … this is a really hard question. honestly, i don’t know. there’s a lot of memorable things. i feel like it’s mainly just the lil things – moments that i look back on that don’t seem like much but are really warm and comforting to reminiscence about (sorry, this isn’t really an answer)
🌸- what is your favorite flower?
a more recent fav but i’ve been really interested in diphylleia grayi / skeleton flowers lately. part of me doesn’t even know if they’re like real, but i’ve written a lot about them lately (and ofc listened to the jonghyun song about it) so i’ve had a sort of attachment to them lately. aside from that, i don’t really have a favorite? i think they’re all pretty
💖- have you ever been in love?
a lot dkjfhkjff probably more of a crush / infatuation than anything else in actuality, i suppose, though. platonically in love, however? absolutely
🍰- strawberry or vanilla?
vanilla, hands down
🍯- describe your favorite smell
ironically, vanilla is a big favorite smell of mine. i think i have a pretty sensitive sense of smell so there’s a lot of different things. i also like tea / coffee smells? idk, just stuff like that. which is part of why i enjoy baking, i think
🎂- if you had 3 wishes, what would they be?
1) for more wishes … bc im a gremlin
beyond that, i never know what to say for these questions beyond things i obviously want like world peace, ending world hunger, etc etc. like for personal things maybe … like being happy with myself? bc i think my self-image issues hinder me a LOT.
🍪- cookie dough or cookies?
both!!!! i eat the left over cookie dough when i bake but the final product is always really good too. (cookies, if i had to pick one though)
☕- coffee or tea?
tea !!!! don’t really feel like the coffee type of person (aside from enjoying the smell of it)
🍃- would you rather live in a sea with mermaids or a forest with fairies?
a forest with fairies, that sounds absolutely lovely
🍂- what’s your middle name?
it’s my dad’s first name
💫- what is your sun, moon, and rising sign?
gemini sun, pisces moon and leo rising
🌧️- favorite thing to do on rainy days?
stay inside in bed with chai. basically just having a lazy day – reading, watching something, etc etc
🍭- how tall are you?
5′7″, though a part of me likes to hypothesize that if my posture wasn’t absolute SHIT my actual height would be 5′8″ (wishful thinking probably, but my posture is bad though)
💒- which show would you want to live in?
the good place was the first one to come to mind but idk about that … they go through a lot of shit and i for sure would just be in the bad place, without a chance of redemption. to appeal my Babey side ……… can i say winnie the pooh or smth (also, im just blanking out on any decent tv show where the universe isn’t one where i will probably instantly DIE in bc of how inept i am)
🎄- what is your favorite holiday?
i often say christmas for this one actually. not because we really celebrate it or anything, i just like the atmosphere around this time of year usually. mostly bc of childhood memories and how fun it was for me then
🍦- what scented candle is your favorite?
i don’t use any, but probably something vanilla-y so im sure there’s holiday candles that fit my taste
🎶- favorite song right now?
not necessarily a favorite (bc i have a LOT), but im listening to pirate king by ateez right now (thanks winnie)
💘- 3 ways to win your heart?
idk !!!!!!! have a good/similar sense of humor to me, listen to what i have to say (and like ….. don’t make me feel like shit or annoying for bringing up my interests or showing you things i think you’ll like), and uhhhhhh maybe like do cute lil romantic things for me ??? im a sucker for that. esp when people remember lil details about me based off what i’ve just casually said, idk .. it’s bare minimum time i guess. i just can’t fathom anyone Wanting to win my heart in the first place so it’s really easy bc im touch and romance starved
🍩- current mood?
okay ? just kinda here – not really happy but not sad either. neutral. procrastinating
❄️- what is your favorite season?
spring because of my birthday and the weather is decent, i guess. though i’ll also nominate winter
💍- your current relationship status?
what you think? .. DJKHFKF SINGLE of course . when have i ever been anything else
📷- a photo of yourself
absolutely not. though i have posted some before (you can click my name in my description to see this ugly minion mug of mine)
💅🏻- do you like being spoiled?
it’s weird because as a concept, yes i absolutely do but in reality, i will feel guilty and bad if anyone spends money on me at all because i don’t think i’m worth that so in practice, i guess i have to abandon my sugar baby dreams
🕊️- 3 habits you have?
1) keysmashing ? dhfkjffjkf like it’s genuinely so instinctual to me that i have to stop and make myself stop before i type it to locals i know or in emails to my teachers. in a similar realm, is my lowercase aesthetic . if only i could type my essays like this
2) saying and typing ‘like’ a lot. i guess i really AM the valley girl that envi says i sound like ………. tis a sad day. i never really noticed how much i do it till i reread old messages
3) not sitting properly. at school i do it obviously, but at home i most often sit cross legged on chairs or with one leg up or something. gay culture, babey ! the amount of times i’ve been told off for sitting “improperly” or “like a man” .. amazing
and bonus 4) being a dumbass. i just felt the urge to say that. don’t expect me to think or say anything intelligent ever. especially if we’re talking irl because my brain will exit immediately and i won’t be able to put a single coherent sentence together. i sound better online than offline, trust me.
🦄- how do you perceive yourself?
i don’t wanna turn this into oversharing emo o’clock but i’ll summarize it in one word … BAD. gremlin and scum are also fitting words. perhaps i have made points sometimes but that’s just after i go to rent-a-brain-cell ‘ r us . otherwise? complete fool . a clown, if you will . don’t get me started on my looks
🦋- how do you think others perceive you?
this is what i REALLY want to know. i have an irrationally strong desire to just know what people think of me. it’s what gives me a self-identity and a better sense of who i am bc idk !!!!!! is my quietness making me look mean ??? who knows ! just how ugly am i actually ???? someone tell me
🌈- things I find attractive in girls/guys
there’s a lot of things and i’m also feeling lazy to list things. but pretty smiles have always been a huge weakness of mine. and perhaps i have an arm kink ….. like not super muscley arms (i.e: body builder types) but kinda toned/defined ones? NUT . (not a necessity ofc, just a bonus)
🍓- one secret about yourself
well it’s not a secret online, but my sexuality i guess? offline, aside from kendra, no one else knows. beyond that, i wish i had something scandalous i could reveal but im genuinely a boring person
🍒- how do you act when you have a crush?
inside im a mess. usually i just like looking at them and going into my Daydream World (patent pending) to fulfill my romantic desires there. outwardly, i don’t do like anything. idk how obvious i am honestly. i don’t interact with them at all, aside from sneaking glances, bc i am scum !!! and also i lack any confidence whatsoever 
💔- the reason behind your last breakup?
never had one, so this is non-applicable :/
💬- what your last text message says?
to summarize, it was just me in the gc talking about a song i listened to a lot that i saw in my spotify top 100 list thing and about how i recently realized the singer/rapper was malaysian
🎥- what show are you currently binging on?
currently, im not really marathoning anything exactly ? i guess the closest would be blackish, but i haven’t watched that in a hot minute. i’m trying to catch up on it though. 
⛅- what is your morning routine?
usually it’s just get up, brush teeth / wash face, and then change into my clothes for the day and then have breakfast 
💗- who do you miss?
who i used to be ……. :( IM KIDDING . ummm idk, no one really? i guess i miss the people i don’t talk to as much anymore, though it’s really my own fault most of the time since im a horrible communicator 
🥀- last time you cried?
oof i don’t really remember …… like i get emo a lot but i don’t exactly full on cry a lot? one semi-recent time i remember crying was when envi sent us this one song in the gc and it was just really pure and romantic and i got in my feelings about it. funny how my crying works ……. i don’t cry a lot but it can be brought on by the weirdest, most random things
🎁- when is your birthday?
may 29th !!!!!
🔪- scariest/creepiest experience?
not really either (since im not scared of ghosts, though i do kinda believe in them. like i don’t NOT believe in them, but im also not gonna fight someone who doesn’t, y’know?) but long story short – i got smacked in the back of the head (like it felt like a hard slap) once and no one was there/did it. must’ve been the ghost in our apartment. i joke a lot about there being one in our place but i wouldn’t be surprised if there was, with the random stuff that happens sometimes (mostly things just falling). again im no huge believer in ghosts, it’s just whatever to me but getting hit in the back of the head like that was definitely WEIRD. bc it honestly felt like how my little brother hits me but it wasn’t him so …….. hm.
💤- date someone younger, older, or same age as you?
same age or older (not by a lot), probably. being with someone younger makes me feel weird (weirdly, usually with men. like i’ll be more comfortable dating a girl a year younger than me than a guy for example.. for maturity reasons i GUESS). but it depends. if i like someone within a reasonable age range, then i like them. 
🎀- any question you want
you didn’t ask one so n/a (and neither did i in the ask i sent you so rip)
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