Had my first Tinder date tonight and it was fun, idk what I'm supposed to feel or even want. So woo, I guess.
I also got a text from Brooke on the drive home about her being hurt about how I addressed a decade and a half of being in love with her this week.
And I'm just tired. I'm trying to live. I'm trying to let her live. I have hurt so much for so many years. And I have loved her so deeply I've questioned if anyone has loved like this before. And I just. I can't hope anymore.
I'm sorry it hurt you, the way I decided to drag my heart across the ground, this time out where you could see it. I'm sorry that the way I killed my hope, brutal but reluctant, I'm sorry that hurt you. I wish I could have done it without you there. But I'm trying to do something new. I'm trying. I'm sorry I hurt you. I've been hurting me for so long, I didn't know what else to do. The only way out was through. I'm trying. Be mad at me, or don't. But at least now you know what to be mad about. I'm so tired, but I'm trying.
Dosi Dos tossed with moon rocks, and wedding cake shatter stuffed into a quarter pound joint, before the Laker game. Forgot the front door open and smoked out the whole 5thfloor. People thought the building was on fire, it was.
remember when Tahereh Mafi gave us a badass Juliette “I-killed-my-boyfriend’s-abusive-father-and-now-I’m-drinking-his-most-expensive-scotch” Ferrars, self-confident enough to shave her own head, only to destroy all that progress on the final book
Listen people in my town know I am already weird and eccentric,,, but for some reason they are more weirded out by me watching the weather channel for fun than 95% of the weirder shit I do.
Listen its not my fault I hard core hyperfixated on weather for a year n a half and it became a special interest. Plus you get to learn about some crazy ass shit the weather can do, its like- genuinely interesting and fun to watch-.
hi my mum finished the first shatter me trilogy and she’s onto the second one ( ik they’re really a series but ,,, in my head it’s two trilogies ) and THIS MF shes always like ‘i don’t cry at romance’ ok so why am i getting facetime calls at 4am crying over shatter me...