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animeyanderelover · 8 months

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Request: firstly, id like to request more yanderes of your choice, maybe the newer fandoms, with that prompt i suggested long ago, about darling distancing themselves to plan on how to confess to yanderes.

Tw: Yandere themes, unhealthy mindset, unhealthy relationship, possessive behavior, obsession, delusional thoughts, stalking, threats, manipulation

Darling distances themselves to plan on how to confess

Heiwajima Shizuo

🚬 Somehow Shizuo can't bring himself to be surprised by this. He's scared a good couple of people away due to his temper and sheer physical strength, he's probably more surprised that you stayed as long with him as you did. Does that mean that he's any less hurt by your actions? Absolutely not, his poor heart is crushed. He's put so much effort into trying to better himself around you yet it appears to have been in vain. It's just unfair. Poor Tanaka has to deal with the aftermath of Shizuo's broken heart as the man's temper essentially becomes a brooding volcano waiting to explode at any moment and wreck havoc. Shizuo refuses to let anyone know about his feelings but his emotions are out of his own control as everyone can tell that something is wrong. He's vulnerable right now and doesn't know how to cope with it, prays to all gods that Izaya will let him be.

🚬 He nearly crushes his phone when he receives a message from you, asking him to meet you. The whole way to the place where you two are supposed to meet, he already feels like cracking multiple times but his delicate composure shatters finally when he sees you and you give him a shy smile as if nothing has happened. You know, he used to adore that smile but now it almost fills him with pain because how can you smile like that after the stunt you've just pulled? Everything he's stuffed down breaks out of him as he starts shouting at you, confused, hurt and angry all at the same time. You flinch a bit when he starts yelling but you manage to get him to listen to you and finally tell him why you've done what you've done. One might as well have deactivated Shizuo as his mind wents blank and he just looks down at you, frozen. Eventually his face twists into one of still slight anger yet also overwhelming giddiness, his cheeks turn pink as he's flustered and embarrassed at the same time. Ultimately he mutters that he has to go somewhere as this is too much for him at the moment so he sort of runs away. Give him a bit to calm down and then he'll be the happiest man ever.

Takumi Aldini

🍝 He truly doesn't understand what has happened between the two of you as in his eyes, everything was going quite smoothly. He had finally gotten over his pride and bashfulness and had approached you and you two have grown quite close since then. So why are you avoiding him all of a sudden? Takumi tries to talk with you, wants to ask you what's wrong all of a sudden but you brush him off and always excuse yourself, barely able to look him into his eyes. This just serves to fuel a growing paranoia as he starts looking back on all interactions he's had with you, wondering if he's done something that unintentionally hurt you. He can't figure anything out though and the lack of knowledge drives him up the wall. Soon questions turn to desperate pleads and he relapses into old habits of stalking you. Takumi tries to keep it together but Isami catches him crying when he thinks that he's alone a couple of times.

🍝 Takumi's confidence is shaken and that even shows in his cooking skills so his twin brother and all of his friends try to help him. Eventually you inform Isami that you want him to retrieve Takumi for you since you have a surprise for him. Seldom has he run faster in his life, out of breath when he arrives. He's instantly drowning you with apologies for whatever he's done and pleads to just stop distancing yourself from him before you hush him and point to a plate in front of you and encourage him to lift the lid. He does so and a mouth-watering scent fills the air as an Italian dish is revealed and written on it, in tomate sauce, is a love confession. His brains stops for a moment, his eyes nearly pop out of his head and he looks absolutely flabbergasted. As his brain slowly processes what's going on, a blush starts spreading across his face. It starts from his ears until it covers his entire face. You finally reveal to him that you've practiced to cook Italian Cuisine to surprise him and hearing that you've put so much thought and care into this for him finally makes his heart burst. He probably starts crying a bit, hides his face behind his hands out of sheer embarrassment and happiness. Very much happiness.

Sohma Hatsuharu

🐮 Hatsuharu is normally always nonchalant, although also quite shameless around you. Yet your sudden ignorance regarding him brings out his worst sides which is Black Haru as he grows aggressive and rude. Deep down Haru is just very hurt because he loves you and thought that you cherished him too yet your sudden absence in his life makes him feel lost and lonely, a feeling he despises and wants to go away. As White Haru he has tried to ask you what has happened but you've never given him an answer, triggering his other side. Worst for him though is that you only ignore him and still interact with others which is only another blow to his fragile heart at the moment. He expresses his hurt with sheer rudeness though. It's quite scary as he suddenly follows you around persistently, threatens your friends and even grabs people by the collar if they annoy him. He's even attempted to drag you somewhere where the two of you are all alone so he can just have you to himself and force an answer out of you.

🐮 He catches you one day clutching a letter to your chest, the hearts drawn on it immediately setting him off and before you can stop him, he yanks you closer to him and rips the letter out of your hands before running away. His heart is pounding against his chest with anger and fear. Is there someone else you like? He's tempted to just rip the letter apart but wants to know which bastard he has to beat up since you're only his so he rips the envelope open and starts reading it's contents. You find him a few moments later and realize with horror that he's reading your letter, deeply immersed. His eyes shoot up when you storm to him and a smirk forms on his lips. Before you can react, he grabs you by your hips and pulls you closer, his own lips smashing against yours. Your thoughts stop as for a short moment you're just in pure shock before your whole face heats up with embarrassment and you try to pull away, a fruitless effort as Haru doesn't allow you to break the kiss. When he finally pulls away, you're out of breath and feel like your head's about to explode, unfortunately the mischievous boy doesn't give you a break as he goes in for the next kiss. You owe him that for what you've put him through.

Leah Clearwater

Leah is pure spit and bitterness, which in itself isn't anything new. It's so much worse now than it has ever been though because it's her imprint who has started avoiding her all of a sudden. It's just so unfair because Leah felt finally happy again after years of being heartbroken and sad over Sam. She physically can't stay away from you and your sudden avoidance of her drives her crazy and makes her immensely short-tempered and aggressive. It gets to the point where no one from the pack wants to deal with her antics anymore besides Seth who is at that point the only one able to approach her without her snapping at him. Honestly, Leah is pretty bad as she's relentless and unwilling to allow you to leave her. She scares your friends as she's insanely jealous that you still spend time with them but not with her and guilt-trips you.

It's a miracle that you stil pull through with your plan but love is blind after all. So you eventually invite her over to your house for dinner and she jumps greedily at the chance to just be alone with you after you've been avoiding her for so long. That doesn't mean that she's not angry at you though, she's still holding a grudge and so her words are sharp and snarky. A part of her is even a bit sceptical to why you've invited her over all of a sudden but her possessive feelings wouldn't allow her anything else than meeting you. Dinner with her is awkward for a while as you feel her hard gaze on you, at least until you decide to confess to her. Surprise flies over her face before she narrows her eyes and observes you, unwilling to fully believe you just yet even if she really wants to. When she sees nothing but sincerity in your eyes, she feels a fuzzy feeling buzzing inside her chest and head and lets out a small scoff, doing her best to play it coo, although there is a small smile on her facel. She's still a bit mad at you for avoiding her but she'll probably forgive you if you promise to make up for the time where you avoided her and spend from now on much time with her.

Hijikata Toshiro

🚬 Toshiro officially goes crazy and Okita's comments that he's more surprised that you managed to handle the Vice-Captain as long as you did and that it was bound to happen. Normally Hijikata can ignore Okita's words but this is the first time his words get stuck in his brain as he can't help but consider if he's right. Have you had enough of him? Why? Surely not because of his excessive controlling streak and his overprotective antics. He just wants you to be safe after all, he has only the best intentions. This officer is stubborn and unwilling to slip up during his job and show any weakness but he fails miserably. He's brodding all the time, the slightest things can set him off and he shows higher aggression against anyone who breaks the law as his emotions are a mess. Any attempts to talk to you normally have failed and by now he's that close to breaking your door down, dragging you out and forcing you through an interrogation.

🚬 He snaps when he manages to catch one of your close acquaintances and asks threatens them about what has been going on with you. They stutter out that they suspect that you're in love with someone and plan to confess, words he shortly mulls over in his head before he storms to your house, suddenly having troubles to breathe. That shouldn't be possible, he's sure that he's familiar with every person in your life thanks to his "diligence". He nearly breaks your door down but you open it just in time to see a frenzied Toshiro in front of you, out of breath and slightly twitching as he instantly pushes you inside and asks you with a harsh and slightly betrayed voice if you're in love with someone. Your eyes widen an suddenly he's interrogating you who it is, his mind racing with ideas how to successfully threaten them. Unable to take this anymore, you yell at him with tears in your eyes that he's the person you wanted to confess to. Within seconds his face changes colors from red, to green to a sick-looking grey. Shit, he's messed up. He stumbles out of your house, muttering an apology for the inconvenience before leaving. He comes back the next day with the biggest bouquet of flowers he could find, ready to beg for forgiveness for making the wrong assumption.

Seras Victoria

🩸 Seras has always been a bit odd, brave yet timid, smart yet childish. She's a vampire who has her fair share of battle experience and fights yet this woman is more than often a flustered mess when she's with you. Alucard obviously knows about her massive, and partially unhealthy, crush she has but he isn't discouraging her. However, when you spontanously decide to cut off contact between the two of you, Seras is shocked and shaken as she can't even begin to imagine what has happened. Sure, she is a Draculina but you knew that and it never bothered you before. The poor woman falls into a hole and is often just sitting somewhere all by herself, wallowing in self-pity. She can't even begin to describe how hurt she is and whilst she is scared of approaching you and asking you what has happened, she still ends up stalking you as she stays true to her protective instincts. She doesn't want to lose any more people important to her.

🩸 Eventually you send a letter addressed to her, one she rips more eagerly than anticipated out of Integra's hands when she hands her the envelope. A strange mix of hope and nervousness wells up when it says that you want to meet her in the evening but she appears nevertheless, doing her best to hide her nagging fear. She's constantly looking at her as you begin to chat with her casually, gauging your reaction. She feels like she's on fire, unsure what your big purpose is for inviting her over and eventually you notice that and decide to end her silent torment. Out of your bag you pull out carefully a single red rose adorned with a bow and give it to her, admitting to her your feelings and your reasons for having avoided her for a while now. Seras stares at you, stares at the red rose, blinks a couple of times and then starts going slightly pink, all bashful all of a sudden. She's so relieved and most of all, happy though that you avoided her because you wanted to work on your confession to her. Giddiness starts flodding her body until she can't stop herself anymore and nearly crushs you in a tight and clingy hug. Congratulations, you've earned yourself a clingy and strong vampire girlfriend.

Gokudera Hayato

🧨Hayato is just such a loyal simp, it's rather cute. If one ignores his aggressive and jealous attitude because oh boy, he can definitely be very obnoxious. He tries to prove a point here though, one can never start showing to his crush that he'd be the best choice. So a long story in short, he does not take well to the fact that his darling suddenly doesn't spend any time with him anymore and straightup avoids him. Initially he thinks it's the fault of someone around you but after a good amount of stalking you and threatening your acquaintances without finding anything suspicious he suddenly starts considering that the problem may be with him. Has he done something that angered or upset you? Have you figured out his obsession? Have you grown tired of him, like Hibari told him once due to his annoying behavior? Gokudera immediately starts overthinking, quickly starts doubting himself and questions everything he's ever done.

🧨Now he's all on you, trying to ask you frantically if he's done something wrong but your shallow reassurances only fuel his paranoia as he's by now convinced that it's his fault. He becomes unbearable to be around to the point where even Tsuna and Yamamoto have troubles calming his flaring temper down. All gets resolved when one day he receives a message from you where you apologize for having treated him so coldly and that Tsuna has informed you out of concern for Hayato. At the bottom of your message is a sentence that Hayato can't help but read over and over again as if the words don't want to enter his head initially. Then his expression transforms from confused to dumbfounded to thrilled until his cheeks are glowing in a pretty pink. His legs begin moving on their own as he starts dashing outside, to your house. He's tripping over his own thoughts, far too flustered and excited to think straight. He runs past a flower shop, jogs back, buys a bouquet and finally reaches your home, ringing one too many times. You've been hoping for him to visit you after you confessed per message and open the door to be greeted by a out of breath but clearly thrilled Hayato.

Usui Takumi

💚 Now, this here is a man who has made it a hobby to monopolize his darling's time as he's very possessive and easily jealous when seeing them being close to someone else. Honestly, he's acting almost normal when you initially start to avoid him, even if it is unusual considering that you two have been close up until now. He's going to stalk you anyways and for a while Takumi makes it sort of a game to see how long you can ignore him and avoid him until you give up. When he realizes that you're serious though about sort of taking a break from him, this becomes a problem though because you surely can't expect him to just accept that peacefully. He suspects that you're keeping something from him and that is something he can not accept. He doesn't like it when you keep secrets from him. Takumi becomes an utter nuisance as he tries to coax your friends into telling him your secret and follows you around, insisting on you to admit to him what's going on.

💚 It's quite difficult to plan your confession with him quite literally breathing down your neck at times, miraculously you still manage to do so. By now Takumi has become a bit impatient which is a bit of a dangerous game as he starts pulling you aside to drag you to places where no one can see you, traps you between walls and his bodies and towers over you as he questions you why you're avoiding him and what it is that you try to keep a secret from him. Only that this time when he slams you against the wall, you can actually give him an answer. His green-eyed gaze on you is intense as you nervously fumble out the poem you made for him out of your bag and hand it to him, flustered and shy. His eyes go back and forth between reading your letter and making sure that you don't try to run, until he realizes what the poem is about and his eyes hastily fly over every word. Just like that the slightly intimidating demeanor about him is gone and his green eyes shine brighter as he pinches your cheeks slightly, scolding you for making him worry over you like this before leaning down to give you a kiss, a smug grin still present on his face. You poor thing, he's going to tease and embarrass the living daylight out of you.

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subarashiihibi · 3 months

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my thing about izaya is that he's so strange and weird and i love that so much. i didn't want to ramble too much in the notes of that poor person's post but i find the way he speaks and the words he chooses so interesting so let me ramble a little bit. this may or may not even be coherent so bear with me here im just going to speak my thoughts.

ok this got really fucking long and all over the 0place so im putting this under a read more sorry.

so i have volume 9 of the novel in both english and japanese. i only have two novels in japanese and that is this one and yuuyake wo. so i'm pretty crazy about this izaya speech analysis shit. anyways i was rereading thru the jp ver the other day just to compare it to the eng and i kinda realized that like.

a lot of people you can separate their speech in either formal and informal speech right? someone like shizuo speaks really informally and uses a lot of rough, dragged-out versions of words and stuff (しゃーねえ vs しょうがない) and then someone like shinra who speaks in a ton of yojijukugo and generally sounds like a nerd emoji gijinka.

izaya on the other hand rly... doesn't fit in either? i mean sure he sounds like another nerd emoji gijinka but it's kinda different. it's not so much the words he speaks but rather the intonation and his tone...

and he has his moments where he speaks pretty seriously and whatnot of course, but in general he just... doesn't sound very human when he speaks? i don't know if that's a conscious effort or not. is it his attempts at distancing himself from his own individual humanity? or is it just because he's a weird guy? i dunno. but it's interesting nonetheless.

one thing i will note though is that despite his somewhat inhuman speech patterns, it's also pretty...dramatic? to the extent where it's really exaggerated but also very cute and charming. (this part is important.)

i think a lot of what makes izaya's speech so weirdly inhuman is because he doesn't really use a lot of slang or similar lingo that people his age would typically use. i know mikado said in the novels that he doesn't really try to fit in with his age group's fashion sense either so it makes sense but still. he's like an old hag it's so funny. and it's because of that that when he says stuff like 'i don't get all hot and heavy over headless women' or whatever he said to celty it's really amusing to me because like... why is the strange man saying this?💀

another example i kinda giggled about on my twitter when i read it it's not even crazy and i sound corny and cheesy and stupid but theres this scene in vol 9 where izaya messages celty for business and hold on let me just put it as a quote.

he sounds so old saying 'video game' like 😭 idk it's just funny cause he barely even knows anything abt games like bro knows nothing im crying

in the jp hes like 「…ゲーム中なのかい？」 and then when celty tries to explain herself he says 「何を言ってるのか、良く解らないんだけど」 and im rly bad at tling parts of sentences and stuff but just know that the way he words it makes it sound like this gif to me

i love both versions i think the original jp makes him sound like hes so lost and confused (hence why pw gif cause lord that man always looks lost LMFAOOOO) and then eng tl just blunt ass "I don't know what you're talking about." makes him sound like full on hag 😭😭😭

OMFG WAIT I HAVE TO MENTION THIS FUCKING SCENE WITH SHINRA ITS SO FUNNY.

first i think it's funny the translation has izaya say fuck here cause he very rarely swears and i did read this one thing about how he only swears when his mask slips so to me this is like genuine bewilderment that he cant even hide LOL. second why is he so excited to hear about 'whatever sexual fetish' shinra has im crying he's so damn nosy . okay but this is not the funniest part let me add that now.

???

ehy the hell is izaya orihara talking about foot fetishes???😭😭😭😭😭😭😭😭😭😭 im crying bruh i was so flabbergasted when i read this i was like WHAT did he just say? he says it in the jp ver too which just makes it even funnier. this goes back to what i said earlier but i always get so amused when izaya has something to say about sex or whatever cause he's so fucking weird and unsettling why does he know that

(i mean i also get so hard i nearly pass out thinking about izaya tlaking about sex but thats probably just a thing with my heart condition and stuff)

oh also another scene i think is really cute and amusing and funny is back when shinra was first still trying to get izaya to form the bio club w him.

1. shinra is funny as fuck in this scene but also izaya's "Hmm. Can I punch you?" made me havbe a good laugh. in the jp he says 「んー。殴ってもいいのかな？」 which is pretty much the same thing just with the intonation of like 'hmmmmmmmmm should i hit u or not...' sorry like i said im just bad w explaining this stuff. but i felt the need to point it out not cause im one of those annoying ppl who praise the original jp ver and reject translations and localizations i just think it's important for izaya specifically cause i love him and i want to analyze his speech patterns as best as i can.

i was going thru the novel just now for other stuff i wanted to mention and i forgot abt this part but it's so funny.

'Let's not get hasty. Type calmly, please.' its not even funny or nothing i just find it so amusinf whenever he talks like that💀 i will say though the english translation kind of makes him sound more weird and inhuman than the original. that line in the original was basically just him telling her she needs to calm down enough to at least type properly LOL. idk if im just being nitpicky cause this is izaya tho so feel free to ignore that. fwiw i like the eng tl bc while it's a different intonation than the original japanese ver i think if he did speak english it would probably sound smth like that anyways.

this too made me laugh like ??? seriously he is really nosy when it comes to people's intimate affairs. in the jp ver he calls them an 'intimate couple' which just is like .. ok bro💀

does anyone else see my vision of izaya getting cucked by celty (does it count as cucking when celtys the one dating shinra) while he looks sad and pathetic and miserable that he never decided to shoot his shot w shinra back in the day

if i were commenting on the actual stuff going on in this scene rn this post would be a lot olonger and even more terribly all over the place so im just gonna focus on how i think it's funny izaya says 'easy, man...' this is like one of the only times his words are somewhat natural and sound like smth you would hear someone else say. in the jp ver it's 「おいおい…」 which is somewhat less out of left field in terms of coming from izaya but still it's pretty surprisingly normal. i have to wonder if in that moment he's too worried about shinra to care about keeping up appearances.

this is just random and me making fun of izaya as usual but why the hell does he weigh himself after his showers💀💀💀 it's cute and endearing and only adds to his strong gap moe but still... it's strange...

speaking of cute things this is from a volume i forget but he says this one phrase a couple of times and it is just both really cute and also kind of idk... saddening. one of the times i can remember he says it is when namie was making fun of him or something and he replies 'Don't tease me. I'm only human.' or something along those lines and it's like . hm. ok.

i think it's cute he says 'dont tease me' a few times cause eughhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhh (trying to ward off severe brain damaged incoherent thoughts) but 'im only human' is like... are you really? even after you try so hard to escape your own humanity and individual self so much... im going to try and give my thoughts on it here but this is just based off my hc that izaya has bpd so yanno. im basing a lot oif this on my own experiences sorry. i do that a lot. (gestures over to all the posts i make abt fob/mychem fan izaya)

when it comes to just straight up acknowledging his humanity izaya has no problems with this because 'sure, i'm human. isn't that obvious?' is probably something along the lines of what he thinks. it's easy for him to just say that because it's just that. it's just words. it holds no real meaning and shows no true insight into how he actually perceives himself. but when it comes to actually having to come face to face with his own humanity and the fact that yes, he is only human, it's a lot more difficult because now it's out of his control. i wonder also if he has problems with perceiving his own self.

i say this a lot but i truly do believe izaya is so so so beautiful and i love him so much. also i just saw a funny post on twitter so i wanna say this here idk if yall know this but izayas actually a latina hes got chismosavirus❤ ok thats all i have to say sorry for rambling so much

#my media literacy suddenly skyrockets when it comes to izaya #anything else im like zzzzzzzzzz as soon as its time to talik abt izaya im like I'M UP !!!! 💯💯💯💯#but ya this isnt meant to be like anything crazy or nothing i just felt like talking abt izaya and some stuff in particular i found amusing #sorry if i sound stupid in some spots im trying not to just add 20 skull emojis or crying emojis and make fun of him #it's either that or im trying not to sexualize him #it's a battle. it's prety hard.#theres a REALLY easy joke i could make there but im not going to . im gonna be mature .#ok sorry thats all i dont have enough energy to think anymroe #i started new meds today and my heartds feeling a little funny so imight die after posting this</3

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shigaeru · 9 months

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I am literally on my knees begging for your trans Izaya headcanons. I will pay you for them I am deadass serious how much do you want please shigaeru please

signed,

a trans durarara fan

OKAY SO

- Izaya figures out pretty early in life and when he meets Shinra in middle school he already has a pretty good passing- Shinra is like "oh yeah hormones are pretty easy to find, I can get some for u". A few years later, he'll be known for home brewing hrt.

- Izaya wears a binder until he meets Shizuo in highschool. Outrunning Shizuo in a binder is Hell. He meets Shizuo and then he goes straight to Shinra like "you have to get rid me of These". Shinra goes Oh I see. (I know what you Are dog pic) Yeah I can definitely do that

-Izaya gets his surgery at Shinra's and has to stay there for a few days because there's no one home to monitor him, and he doesn't want the twins to see him bedridden, but it's the worst few days of his Life. Having to endure the pain AND Shinra 24/24.

- Shizuo chases him around after surgery because Izaya is out too soon. fuck around and find out, Izaya gets major chest pain and has to stop during a fight because OUARGH ARGH

- Shizuo finds out (Shinra probably outs him because he's a sociopath and doesn't see how it's bad to do that and/or just want to see what would happen.) What happens is Izaya is Very Mad at him about it whereas Shizuo SOOOO DOESN'T CARE OH MY GOD

- Shizuo's even a bit angry on Izaya's behalf? Like 'hey that's kind of a shitty thing to do. I wouldn't want you to say private stuff about me to other people what the fuck". And Izaya is. Weirdly touched.

- It's not only that Shizuo doesn't care, he Gets It. Very straightforward logic. It's so evident to him that "you don't feel like a woman? then you're not a woman. You don't have to be one, what the fuck do you want me to tell you?" and Izaya, who hasn't heard anyone say anything like that to him before, feels so much lighter. Shizuo Gets It.

- Izaya's scars look a bit messed up because Shinra did a poor job (he was 15 and had never done it before) and Izaya did not take care of them very well

- He regularly skips injections. it's been a long time he just forgets he's trans sometimes.

- Only Shizuo, Shinra, Celty, the twins, and that mf Shingen know about it

#saw someone in the tags say he forges his documents and you're so real for this #ask #i had so many ideas for post surgery izaya sillies when I was zooted out of my mind on painkillers in my hospital room #my drains were killing me and my dumb ass would try to sit up on my elbows and OUCH OW ABORT #big izaya moment #headcanons

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bengiyo · 8 months

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The Novelist: Playback (2021) Stray Thoughts

We've watched The Novelist, Mood Indigo, and Spring Life. Let's watch these two try to survive long distance.

Yes, please recap for the people who maybe got dragged to a theater for this.

No car BJ? So glad I watched Spring Life already.

Oh, we're getting a bed scene. I forgive them.

Finally, we're talking about insertion and then immediately going to realistic angles. Good job, BL.

I like the way the age gap is playing into how Rio handles his disappointment that Kuzumi frequents sex clubs with his senior.

Oh, I like that we're getting more interactions with Kamuuda.

Rio's sister is always punking him.

"People who are happy have no need for art or literature," is such a cynical read.

Wow, there is a lot of resentment here.

Oh shit, this woman took out his writing hand. That's ironic. I am amused.

Oh my goodness, are we going to make an even younger boy write for him??

Never have I been happier that a boy was illiterate.

No man is immune to Kijima's sexual energy if he turns it on them it seems.

OR WOMAN, IT SEEMS!

Poor Kuzumi. Rio is a hard man to love.

Oh lord he got this boy doing the writing now. Goddammit.

Oh good Kuzumi is here. Please fix this.

I'm so glad Kuzumi caught him with the boy.

HE REALLY SAID THAT HE ACTUALLY HURT HIS HAND THIS TIME!! 🤣

Is this the first time Rio has said his given name?

I love this woman.

Oh, please don't slow zoom onto just Haruhiko to tell me that they're not going to make it.

Oh, I shouldn't have gotten attached to Haruko.

Interesting. I suppose they did foreshadow that Haruko is popular with men.

I'm going wild over the cinematography of Rio's pacing during this fight. Incredible acting from both of them in this long take. Rio can be such a jerk.

Did Rio never recognize the crazy in Haruhiko's eyes? It was the first thing I noticed about him.

Japanese characters are so good at staying still and pretending to sleep when someone looms over them.

I just love Japanese filmmaking. I love trusting actors to act and I love the composition of these shots.

"It's not about being tough. You become tough when someone is important to you." Come through, Haruko!!!

I'm fond of Shizuo.

I'm glad Kuzumi didn't answer his phone and Kijima has to take the leap of going to Tokyo without reassurance.

Kido, you have a daughter. Why ask that question?

Finally a forthright, vulnerable apology and confession from Rio.

I love that these two always kiss like maniacs.

I just love trains.

Families are difficult, but Rio is still loved.

Hands only, baby!!

Y'all awfully vocal for hands only.

The moon is beautiful tonight.

Wow these two have incredible blissed-out faces.

Oh, Rio. I felt that wall breaking. Goddamn Takezai Terunosuke is good.

"Is there really such a life without loneliness?" is a great rebuttal to Rio's cynical view.

Aww, she smiled for her brother.

I'm so glad things ended well for Haruko and Shizuo as well.

Final Verdict: 10, If You Are Male and Queer Please Watch This Franchise Immediately. I'm giving this movie a 10 for the way the entire franchise has been the most satisfying experience I've had in BL in a really long time. I keep begging for realistic approaches to male-male intimacy and relationships, and this franchise hits it constantly. Rio is layers of bullshit hiding an incredible loneliness and sense of worthlessness, and it was so satisfying to see him claw his way out of that because he found someone else who finally connected to him. It's been a really long time since I felt this good about going back to something I skipped over for one reason over another, and I can say confidently that I fully trust @lurkingshan recommendations. If you are gay and feeling a bit displaced in BL, please watch this, and then ping her, me, @harurio @ginnymoonbeam or @waitmyturtles. I promise it will be worth your time.

#the novelist #Pornographer #the novelist: playback #pornographer: playback #Japanese BL #bl series #lgbt film #Ben watches

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pretend-erin · 10 months

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Stray thoughts on Kururi & Mairu

So I am probably one of the very few Kururi & Mairu fans and I want to talk about them. They are, unfortunately, victims of being anime girls from the 2000s - there are a lot of problematic things in drrr that we, as a fandom, should acknowledge and discuss. Simon, Namie, the treatment of characters like Vorona and Anri, I could go on. But right now, I want to talk about the twins.

We don’t get a lot of information on the Orihara family as a whole. All we know is that Izaya was very isolated as a child, and seemed to resent his sisters for being carbon copies of each other. So the girls decided that they would be opposites. They picked their personality traits, splitting them evenly. That’s why they act opposite in the chat room - they do it all on purpose.

I can only speculate here, but it seems like the Orihara parents may not have been around a lot. Actually nobody seems to have parents in drrr. Why was Masaomi able to do all that while he was in middle school???? And the only parents we see are awful - like Shingen?????? He’s our parental figure in this show????Anyway. It’s a pretty common headcanon that Izaya’s parents were not very present, so we can only assume the same for the girls. Izaya, due to his own issues, resented them. All they had was each other. And that is not good!

If you think about it, their codependence is really sad. They’ve had to rely on each other for everything. Even though they purposefully act different from one another, they need the other one in order to feel whole. Izaya said they were basically the same person, and they changed that. But in the process, they cut themselves in half. They’re still operating as one.

When we meet the twins, they seem pretty comfortable around the people Izaya frequently interacts with - mainly Shizuo. He clearly knows them, and knows them well enough to evade them gently. He’s a lot kinder to the girls, even if they get on his nerves.

They quickly befriend the van gang, Mikado and Anri, Shinra and Celty, and Akane. They are present at the contentious Hot Pot Party. And Izaya knows that. He knows his sisters are hanging out with all the people on his chessboard.

Suddenly, they’re part of the chatroom. They’re directly interacting with Aoba (which, are they not kinda parallels to Anri and Masaomi to Aoba’s Mikado??). They have their dojo. Akane Awakusu looks up to them. And even though they get bullied, they have a community to fall back on. They’re not alone anymore.

It kinda seems like everyone who knows Izaya stepped in as big siblings to the twins. They continuously reject him, and he rejects them back. But they have something he doesn’t. Something he’s clearly jealous of.

They’ve never really been alone, they’ve always had each other.

And yeah, the canon portrays that in a super weird way. Sometimes they take the “twisted love” concept too far. But these characters are a lot more interesting than the jokes made at their expense. Sometimes I just pretend the canon isn’t true. I don’t like it! I wish they didn’t do it!!! That’s why I never used to talk about how much I like the twins - people will always fall back on the same joke like it’s 2009. Sometimes you just have to snatch them out of the canon. Take them out of their shitty narrative, they’re mine now >:3

Unfortunately, a lot of the female characters in drrr get ignored or misrepresented by the fandom. Even Celty! Hell, the anime goes out of its way to not make Celty the main character. We get stuck with Mikado for most of the show’s run.

I guess I just find it odd that the fandom doesn’t give the same grace and understanding to the girls as they do the guys. Izaya is everyone’s poor little meow meow (and I’m including myself in that statement) but what about the TWINS???

Idk I think their parallels to Izaya are really interesting, they have everything he doesn’t have. They’re still strange, and may not fit in with their peers, but they’re treated with respect by the very people Izaya focuses most of his time and energy on.

I also think it is so funny that Izaya had two little freak sisters the entire time and we find out about them in an OVA lmao

Like the funniest thing you can do to Izaya is give him annoying little sisters and then not mention them until it’s funny to do so

It’s like when Roger Rabbit can’t take his hand out of the handcuff until it’s funny, it is so funny to introduce these two after you’ve built Izaya up so much. Like he’s just a weird guy with weird sisters. He gets mad when they join his chatroom where he pretends to be a teenage girl. They’re a cringefail family and we simply must respect that.

#brain scramblies #drrr #durarara #kururi and mairu #kururi orihara #mairu orihara #I just have so many thoughts and feelings about them #I want to steal them from Narita. they’re mine now. you did a bad job with them so now they’re mine #this is also kind of Izaya analysis uh oh #don’t discourse me I’m an old man

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bellamer · 4 months

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Having the rare durarara thought because someone said “Izaya deserved better and shouldn’t have ended up the way he did”

That dude poked the bear that was Shizuo Heiwajima for almost a decade when Shizuo just wanted him to leave him the hell alone. Whenever Shizuo was trying to do better he came along trying to ruin it just for funsies and out of jealousy because Shizuo has a whole group of people who care for him despite his violent tendencies. What happened to him wasn’t some “poor baby” moment it was literally the consequences of his actions that were long overdue. That freak literally fucked around and found out. He did it to himself and I don’t feel a lick of sympathy for him just because he’s in a wheelchair and has PTSD. Dude literally tormented people for kicks and I’m supposed to feel bad because he got his ass beat ? Like I really wanted it to end with Izaya dying for real for real even if he just bled out in an alleyway because he got stabbed off guard by someone’s life he fucked up.

Y’all really only excuse Izaya’s behavior and feel bad for him because he’s attractive. Shizuo has done some shitty things but at least he sometimes tries to be better and get his life on track. Not once has Izaya even attempted.

He fucked around and found out and the hard way and now he has to live with the fucking consequences.

#durarara #drrr #drrrx2 #anti izaya orihara #shizuo heiwajima

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azumasoroshi · 1 year

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minidura chapter 11 react

ok i found chapter 11 translated by amnemonie on tumblr (thank you thank you thank you and if you want me to take this down i will!!) but there's no guarantee ill be able to find the rest lmAOo we'll see

HOT MAN!!! HOT MAN

i mean what no pathetic sopping wet man

cat face izaya i thought id never see you again

man after realizing there's a minidura tag i saw a post that was like "i wish minidura got animated like bsd wan" and like. YEAH. PLEASE

it would be the perfect revival of the durarara fandom pleaseeeeeee do it for meeeeeeee we could revive durarara like we revived trigun

and i need shizuo izaya and shinra cooking together being animated. please

anyway izaya looks like he really doesnt wanna be here in that last panel and i mildly spoiled myself on the comments/reblogs saying this one is really mean to izaya which you know i live for. [cracks knuckles] i hope he gets hit by a truck but like an emotional one because that's the only one he'd really react to

oh god he's more pathetic than i thought he'd be

they're really looking at him like "damn bitch you good" which is fair

bro summoned up all his courage to ask 😭rip bozo

??????????? THEY TOLD YOU HE'D BE WITH THEM

izaya simultaneously has the best social skills known to man and the WORST social skills known to man

ill never stop bringing this up but. now presenting orihara "i love humans because they're so unpredictable" izaya getting fucked by humans' predictability everybody

and here we see izaya walking awkwardly in his natural habitat, trying to eat cake with high schoolers /j

kadota casually calling out izaya on his bullshit bkgjdSGKHDSHds

he just wants to eat cakeeeee someone go with him

not me though i wouldnt be caught dead with that man

i swear walker's face gets longer every time i see him and it tickles me so much

aaaand cue shizuo on stage right

god bless erika for suggesting that he invite shizuo cuz id have done it myself

also "just today". are you implying that you want to see shizuo every other day. izaya.

WAIT

WAIT IS TODAY IZAYA'S BIRTHDAY

oh my god thats actually sad okay

id say to ask namie but namie probably rejected him already without even letting him finish the question bkfdgjhgf

shinra keeping up the stupid anniversaries trend from that other chapter we love a consistent malewife

man shiki he wasnt even here for work 😭 at least he got some food although karasumi does not look that good if im being honest

at least compared to cake

shinraaaa you FORGOTTTT

may 4th is the date of my statistics exam but i swear ill celebrate it for you izaya. ill even mark it down on my calendar

oh 💀 namie is as delusional as i am. love that for her

he's even singing to himself ohhhhh poor baby...(i say this as if i'm not grinning wildly to myself in my room rn)

i swear i feel bad for him but he's so fun to bully

man i remember those fics where shizuo was the only one to remember izaya's birthday bgkjhfdgfd i guess those were founded from somewhere (even if his gifts were things like 'not chasing him today' or sending him black roses)

oh my god 😭 he's so desperate at this point i didnt think he'd actually be happy to see shizu-chan

even grabbing him by the arms bkgdssdkahdskjhgsdsd

this is gonna end badly though if the comments/reblogs i read have anything to say about it

😭yep the izaya bullying is real

SHIZUO NOOOOOOOOOOOO THATS BASICALLY THE WHOLE CAKE

izaya's conscious too 💀 MAN

part of me feels like this is narita's personal revenge against the shizaya fans in his fanbase askdbgskjhsdhgsd shizuo needs to be extra cruel to prove he's not gay

he's so happy to just get birthday textssssss this is so sad

#shizaya #izaya orihara #shizuo heiwajima #shinra kishitani #celty sturulson #oh wait i just remembered that tagging all these names clogs up the tags. FUCK #i should. stop doing that bskdgjgshjgsdhg #have to learn my lesson from doing the incorrect lov account #durarara

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stupid-sloot-headcanons · 2 years

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Now I'm thinking about yanderes who'd be upset/angry and immediately feel the need to fuck their Darling: just pulling them onto their lap or putting them on their knees or pinning them on the bed. Darling always makes those bad feelings die down, just by their touch, their taste, their voice.

The ones like Dabi and Grimmjow and Fu are focused on fucking the anger away and won't realize how rough they're being until they've cummed and calmed down (and might even be turned on by that). Once they've relaxed, they might still be a bit pissed and not bother to check up on Darling and give aftercare until they see the poor shape Darling's in. They feel a twinge of guilt for going that far, now that they've got a clear head.

Ones like mature!Tomura, En, Satan, and Heisenberg would be rough too, but they'd immediately be gentle and affectionate. They know how far they went and want to tend to Darling, and they want to show how much they appreciate Darling too.

Ones like Jason Todd, Beelzebub, Shizuo, and Kylar would realize the second they cum what they've done: they're gripping Darling too hard, Darling's softly whimpering, and they have so many little marks on them. They'd immediately feel a sick wave of guilt and apologize profusely, holding Darling close and maybe even tearing up as they promise to make things right. They'll tend to their every need until they heal up and treat them like glass for a while afterwards.

#thots #.myshit #yandere #tw: dubcon

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icestar-74 · 1 year

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Happy Birthday ya Flea Bag

"Bout time you showed up. You're late, such a surprise. Late seems to be your thing these days." Izaya smiled at Shizuo.

Shizuo stood holding a lunch for Izaya. "Cmon Flea. This is stupid! How long do I have to keep apologizing?"

Izaya smirked. "I don't know Shizu-chan. How long have we been together? Wishing me a happy birthday shouldn't be hard."

"Ugh!" Shizuo groaned. "You're just being a brat!"

Izaya shrugged "If that's how you feel about it then I guess you're just going have to keep up the apologies."

"Are you serious!? I told you that morning! It's been days and you're still mad about it!?" Shizuo couldn't believe it. I mean he could but still.

Izaya only smiled. "Yes."

"Izaya please." Shizuo sat the tray down and moved towards Izaya. "Please. I'll make sure to get it right next year. This is just torture."

Izaya cocked a brow. "What are you doing?"

Shizuo ignored him and forced himself onto the couch, moving Izaya over to wrap himself around the smaller man's waist.

"Oh this just isn't fair. You know I can't stay mad at you when you get like this. All clingy and annoying." Izaya grumbled.

"Shuddup." Shizuo grumbled into his stomach. "Just forgive me already."

"Fine you big idiot." Izaya sighed and ran a hand through the blonde locks in his lap. "But next year if you don't say it AT midnight I'll make you grovel for a whole week."

Shizuo smiled and moved to get in Izaya's lap. "Yeah yeah ya drama queen." He kissed Izaya's ear. "You're lucky I love you."

Izaya giggled "Stop stop stop. I already forgave you!"

Shizuo grinned against his cheek. "Yeah so? Maybe I'm not done celebrating."

Izaya only continued to giggle. "I swear you're insatiable."

"Happy birthday, again, idiot flea."

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repeatingdreamsxoxo · 2 years

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Only Fools Fall - Izaya Orihara x Reader

The Gist: You like Shizuo Heiwajima. Izaya can't allow the monster to receive such affection, and thus he hatches a plan. It doesn't go smoothly.

Word count: 2.7k

Warnings: little bit of angst, really that's it...

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You liked him. A lot. So much, in fact, that sometimes you worried your poor little beating heart couldn't keep up.

He was strong. Stronger than anyone you knew, both inside and out. He took down any opponents that came his way, never showing a glimmer of fear or doubt in himself.

He was kind. Others thought him scary, intimidating... and you were ashamed to say you were no different. Until you spied him in a back alleyway after school, offering the last mouthfuls of a bottle of milk to a scraggly black kitten with no collar.

He was always trying his best, especially when he didn't succeed at something. You'd see him lingering behind after class sometimes, stopping the teacher with a notebook and a few questions.

The only problem? You were shy. You didn't even know where to begin, or what to do or say. The only conversation you'd had with him, was at school, when he turned around to ask for an eraser. You'd stuttered through a reply, and nearly jumped five feet when your finger brushed his.

But today, today you were determined to have a proper conversation with him. It was after school, and he was out in the front courtyard, smoking. A terrible habit, but you didn't mind it. His bleach blonde hair stood out like a beacon among the grass, and the smoke created a trail that led right to him.

You ran the same scenario you planned out over and over again in your head, till it stuck there like cement. When you finally got up the courage to call out his name, he glanced around, looking confused.

Shizuo Heiwajima wasn't used to feminine voices calling out his name.

You trotted over, retrieving your cellphone from your uniform pocket and fiddling with the hem of your skirt. You rubbed the dark blue fabric between your thumb and index finger, the texture sending soft, soothing signals through your nerves.

"I wasn't here yesterday, and uh, I was wondering if you'd taken the note from Ancient History? If not, don't worry, I'm sure I could get it from someone else."

Shizuo cocked his head to the side. "Yeah, I've got it. But why ask me? I'm not exactly an outstanding student." He was blunt. But, you kinda liked that kind of transparency.

Well, see, this is all a stupid lie, since I already got the note from my friend. But I concocted this whole scenario just so I could get a chance to talk to you. Wow. It sounded so much more pathetic that way. You forced a smile that turned out too shy and sheepish, "I forgot to ask someone earlier, and I just caught you on the way out of school. But if it's too much trouble-"

"No, it's fine. I left my notes at home, though..."

"Oh! That's okay, do you have your cell phone?"

The sun burned down on you as you exchanged numbers with Shizuo, who, unlike you, was utterly calm and unfazed throughout the entire situation. With a casual assurance that he'd send you pictures when you got home, he stowed away his pack of cigarettes and headed off.

You stared down at your phone for a long time. The new contact "Shizuo Heiwajima" shined back, and a shot of pride swelled in your chest. I did it. I actually did it. You jumped when someone tapped your shoulder.

"Oh? Someone looks pleased with themselves. Honestly, you're pathetic."

None other the infamous Izaya Orihara slunk around from behind you, eyes sharp and lips tugged into a contemplative frown as he studied you. After what felt like hours, he spoke again, "Hope you don't mind the sudden interrogation, but I've just got to know- what about that monster appeals to you?"

Now, it was your turn to study him. To try and figure out what is angle was, what exactly is was that he wanted.

Izaya kept on to fill the silence. "I mean, I can't understand what any human would see in a monster. And Shizu-chan's the biggest monster of them all..." Reddish brown eyes tried to pry into your soul, desperate to seek answers. Because, Shizuo wasn't supposed to have girls crushing on him- everyone should be in fear of him, the beast. But here you were, swooning over Shizuo like he was any ordinary high schooler. It had to stop. It wasn't right. No where did this fit into Izaya's vision of Shizuo Heiwajima.

You fidgeted underneath his gaze, but forced your spine to straighten and your chin to lift. You'd known Izaya Orihara for a long time, been to the same elementary and middle school as him. And you'd watched how he'd changed over the years, but one thing never did. He always kept his distance. Never got too close to anyone.

So, you sucked in a breath through your teeth and armed yourself with the truth.

"With all due respect, Orihara-san, I think you're just jealous of Shizuo, because you're too scared to love anyone."

Izaya froze. Where on earth did a quiet, shy and unassuming girl like you get the audacity to call him out? This little interrogation was supposed to be about Shizu-chan, not himself. And yet here you were, turning the table around to him. He didn't like that. Not one bit.

The third year's gaze darkened to something cunning and malicious, but instead of scurrying away in fear like you were supposed to, your lips parted and your eyes softened. You had a near maternal shimmer in your eyes, like you were trying to comfort a child.

"I'm sorry," you spoke, a pastel kind of apology and unwavering genuine quality he couldn't see through- because there was no trick, no hidden motive. "It was the truth, but I shouldn't have said it. I'm sorry."

In that moment you saw right through him. And, he hated you for it.

---

Izaya watched you hopelessly chase after Shizuo Heiwajima over the next couple of weeks, and pondered every which way that he could make your life miserable. But then, an idea caught. Perhaps his goal should be the opposite. If he could play you like a fiddle, not only would he take you away from the monster, but, he'd also prove that no one could get the better of him.

So instead of making your life trash, he'd shower you in the love you so desperately craved, and steal you away from Shizuo all the while.

---

You fretted over Izaya Orihara the next couple of days, and deeply regretted what you'd said. Not really because it hurt him- many would argue that he deserved to be hurt- but because you'd just made an enemy out of him. Izaya was, well... he was Izaya. That was not a good thing. He was the worst person, even worse than Shizuo, to make an enemy out of, and you'd gone and pissed him right off.

Third year of high school was gonna be hell.

That week, you kept your head down, and stayed away from Shizuo temporarily. Because wherever Shizu-chan went, so did Izaya.

The fledgling info broker caught you on your way to your last class.

"(Name)!" He piped up, a smile as false as ever plastered on his face as he matched your pace. You quickened your stride and tugged your books closer.

Again a shocking confidence came with ease. You wish you could keep your mouth shut. "Izaya, what do you want?"

He smiled. "Just your time. What are you doing tonight?"

Tonight? What am I doing... oh. I get it.

"No, Orihara."

"No to what? That's not a proper answer, you know,"

"I know. But I also know why you're asking, and so the answer's no."

"Oh? And pray tell, why am I asking?" He drawled back, shoulder bumping against yours as the pair of you navigated the busy hallways of Raijin.

"Because you don't want to lose to Shizuo, that's why. I'm not going to be another one of your pawns, and whether you like it or it or not, I like Shizuo. You're just going to have to live with it, Orihara."

For a moment, the noir haired boy was at a loss. But like always, Izaya was quick to recover. "Perhaps. But did you ever think that maybe I am interested in you? Just you, nothing to do with Shizu-chan. You know, a girl's never quite talked to me in the nature that you did the other week, and how can you blame me for wanting to know more about such a unique human?"

"Whatever you say, Orihara. Excuse me, but I'm going to be late to class." You chuckled, like he'd told a funny joke. Then you brushed past him like a ghost before he could catch you.

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Izaya's ploys for affection didn't cease.

The next week, he followed you around during lunch, successfully scaring off all of your friends. Then a couple days later, he invited you for dinner. You declined. Not long after, he wrote you the most beautifully constructed poem you'd ever read. He should've entered it into a contest, or something.

You pondered, not for the first time, how deeply Izaya must hate Shizuo Heiwajima. Going to such lengths for the sake of taking something from Shizuo...

Today, you'd artfully evaded him at school, and spent some time after class in the library. It was time to crack open the biology textbook, and start studying.

Twenty minutes later... and you snapped your pencil in half.

"Stupid biology... stupid phospholipid bilayer..."

"Struggling, are we?"

You jumped at first, then turned to cast a glare over your shoulder. "Oh, it's just you, Orihara. Could you pass on the antics for today? I really have to focus or I'm gonna fail this test." Flipping to the next page in the textbook, you turned back to your notebook and retrieved a new pencil. The library was empty except for the two of you. God knows where that useless librarian of yours had wandered off to now.

"Fail? Nonsense, not when you have me as your tutor," he took an unwelcome seat in the chair next to you. You made a loose shooing motion with your hand and shook your head.

"Nope. No way. I'm not letting this happen." You didn't know if you were speaking more to him or yourself.

Izaya smiled, all pearly whites, "don't be childish, biology is my expertise."

"Everything is your damn expertise," you muttered under your breath.

He took the snide remark as a compliment and grinned, "ah, learning about the bilayer? Well, it seems complicated at first, but if you look at it this way..." He'd snatched your pencil and started writing in his own neat scripture below yours, putting your penmanship to shame. His voice was constant and calming as he spoke, and you found yourself allowing him to shift a little closer, and you didn't even comment when his knuckle brushed yours.

All in all, you were shocked to admit that you'd enjoyed spending time with him.

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Today you'd done it. Izaya had watched from afar, face lighting with a smile as Shizu-chan rejected you. You'd spent two months working up the nerve, all for Shizuo to say a simple no. But what irked him was that the smile wasn't simply one of hate towards his dear Shizu-chan, but one of relief directed to yourself.

It didn't make sense. And, he didn't want it to.

---

Izaya didn't understand why, but even after facing rejection, you continued to pine after Shizuo, like nothing had changed at all. The most obvious obstacle apparently meant nothing to you.

That afternoon Izaya leaned against the school's hard exterior with a yawn as a mousy third year confessed her love to him. He typically liked to play around with the girls when this happened, and he liked to see how long it took before he could make them cry. Not that he had anything against them, just that it was entertaining to see the limits at which he could push his dear humans.

But the longer he stared at this girl, the more her features began to tweak and twist into a very familiar person... you. He imagined how he'd react if it were you standing here and giving the confession instead. Instead of the expected disgust and slight humour, he felt a warmth swell somewhere within his icy heart. It threatened to thaw the ice, and that was not okay.

---

Very abruptly, Izaya stopped with the advances. It had been almost four months of his continued attempts and ploys for your affection, and now that he'd seemingly vanished... well, you kinda missed his company.

When he wasn't plotting or scheming, he was actually an okay guy to be around.

Maybe he's finally given up...?

For some odd reason, that thought made you very sad.

One day your feet brought you to his favourite rooftop spot before your brain could catch up. Sure enough, there he stood, waving off a group of guys as you approached.

"I'm afraid I can't entertain you today, I'm a little busy." Izaya replied smoothly.

"Oh please, you harassed me against my will for months, you can put up with me for a few minutes."

Smiling bitterly, he raised his hands in mock surrender. So, you went on.

"You finally throw in the towel, Orihara? Realize that my feelings for Shizuo are so out of your league?" Enunciating your words just enough to bug him, you continued on, a light breeze taking your hair and dancing with it, "I mean, there must be a reason you suddenly dropped out of my life, right?"

Izaya didn't answer right away, instead he turned to stare past the rooftop fence and out at the city. Horns honked, lights blinked, and buildings buzzed. You took time to look at him. Like, really look at someone. When you actually look at someone, you can find so many unique things. For example, his eyes- were they brown or red? You couldn't tell. How unique. Izaya's complexion was flawless, it was highly suspicious that you'd never once caught a single pimple on his face. His hair was nice too, it looked silky- you had a sudden urge to run your fingers through it.

Izaya's voice broke your trance.

"I stand by what I said a few months ago... you're a unique human."

"That doesn't answer my question," you quipped.

"You want an answer so badly? Fine, I gave up. Simple as that. Shizu-chan can have you, for all I care. Oh, wait. That's right, he doesn't want you."

Ouch. Clearly someone was upset. Your eyes narrowed, gaze growing heavy.

"You know how I said you were too scared to love someone?" He didn't answer, "well what if I told you I could relate to that?" Because I don't want to love a guy like you. But I think I might be-

"-then I'd say that's silly, since you're still pining after Shizu-chan."

"I wasn't talking about Shizuo."

The air prickled, charged with electricity. Both parties stood their ground, neither of you refusing to give in to the other. Finally, you spoke back up.

"You're a really crappy guy, you know that? Every time I turn around you're plotting something, always busy ruining someone's day. Don't you ever get tired of it?"

When he spoke, his voice was light as a feather. "Tired of what?"

"Of holding back, of limiting yourself to observing humanity but not allowing yourself to be among them were you belong. Isn't it exhausting?"

He didn't answer with words. Instead, he decided to take your advice against all of his better judgement, and let go once, if only for a few fleeting seconds. The kiss was slow, your lips soft. He didn't want to pull back, because he knew this would be the last time he got to experience this- this feeling, without holding himself back.

With the desperate nature of the kiss, he guessed you knew that just as well as he did, that this would be the exception to his golden rule. A brief, fleeting window that was about to pass.

As brief as it was, you let yourself love Izaya Orihara with all you had.

#izaya orihara #drrr #izaya x reader #durarara #durarara izaya #durarara x reader #shizuo #anime #fic #drrr x reader

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kasururigoth · 1 year

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oh poor shizuo he would’ve loved mary shelley’s frankenstein and kafka’s the metamorphosis

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ayesakara · 4 months

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So I've rarely cared for ship names.

I always wrote #Kirk/Spock instead of #Spirk. All the other ships I wrote, back in the day, were always character names with a "/" between them - the old-fashioned way. #Brian/Justin. #Chakotay/Paris - yep, that was my first ever slash pairing. #Chakotay/Seven - oh yeahhh, that was my first ever het pairing 😆 - and I still love it.

So I've never liked the idea of smooshing 2 character names to make a pairing name.

Other than #FRATT for #Frank/Matt - which, for whatever reason, always seemed to fit these two, I've always preferred using the names and "/" approach when tagging my ships.

But I think I'm gonna start using the #SHIRONA tag for my Shizuo/Vorona fanfic. Because it's wayyyyyy better than that other very popular (and imo infernal) ship tag that poor Shizuo gets dragged into in this fandom. You know the ship tag you see everywhere in this fandom? Sigh.

So yeah. #SHIRONA FOREVER

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As I am back with, yet again, another Shizaya fanfic, I realise I like Shizuo to unreasonably help Izaya out that my writing could be better.

For summary and warnings follow the link.

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Another job to do, more shady business for Izaya to deal with. So what happens when the raven follows a mysterious man into one of the many narrow streets at the end of Ikebukuro and things don't go as planned.? At least, not as the raven had planned that meeting to go.

Not long after the two men had started to talk about things and sharing some information, from the shadows suddenly appeared two more guys. One of them had a bat, while the other one had a knife. Izaya already knew this was going to be very annoying to deal with. That's why he was about to turn around and simply make a run for it. But then, as he was about to do just that, his way was blocked. Now from both sides. All of those guys had some kind of weapon and Izaya knew, if he tried to fight them all off, he most likely couldn't get out of this situation without a scratch. Some of the people surrounding him were mockingly laughing, others were saying things like finally getting their revenge or something like that.

Izaya needed a way out.

Looking around, the raven could see only one way to get away from this whole mess - upwards. From a chair someone had left next to the trash bin that was pretty near him, the red-eyed boy made a jump to a staircase leading to the building's roof.

The ten or so guys that were about to or had already tried to attack Izaya, didn't even understand what had happened at first. The guy they wanted to and were about to attack... suddenly disappeared.? Just like that.?

After getting on top of the roof swiftly and fast like a cat, Izaya looked down and couldn't help the little laugh that passed his lips. Seeing all those buff, huge, half-tattooed guys looking like some poor lost and kicked puppies... Can you actually blame the flea for laughing.? The view you could see from up the roof was absolutely hilarious.

The laugh Izaya left out, however, did bring attention to him and gave away his position to the guys at the narrow streets, and so, the raven knew it was now really time to get away. Time to run. Being on a roof though, the only option Izaya had at that moment is to jump from a roof to another roof.

This went on for awhile. Time was passing by, the adrenaline not letting Izaya realise how fast. It even slowly started to become dark, the sun trying to hide in-between the buildings and behind the horizon.

Annoyingly enough, since they were a group of people, and not just one or two, for a pretty long time Izaya couldn't make them lose his tail. If one or three of them lost sight of him, the other four or just one would still somehow see him. Jumping down from the roof would waste time and there was a chance they might catch him if he tries to get down. So from roof to roof it is then.

The problem with that was, if he didn't lose them soon, Izaya knew he will most likely be caught. Running, jumping over whole streets and creating paths that could let him get away took much more energy than simply following some guy from the ground. In other words - the raven would get tired before all of those guys. If even one or two of them get tired, someone else will still continue from their group, taking the missing person's position.

Izaya had a job in Ikebukuro earlier that day and it hadn't been long before this sabotage that he was chased by the strongest man known to most - Heiwajima Shizuo. Of course, the raven knew he would most likely be literally sniffed out and be chased around, maybe a vending machine or a street sign thrown at him here and there too, if he went to Ikebukuro. Not that the raven didn't strike back with his knives, but that's not the matter at this moment.

Right now, the problem is Izaya had already fought with his Shizu-chan and that had tired him out quite a bit. This sabotage was supposed to be his last job for the day. Just a simple exchange of information and then going home. But as we all know now, that's not how things actually went.

As the people were all going around the streets, the day coming to its end with the sun slowly hiding. Most were getting off from work, some were just now about to go and either work or have fun.

Among one of the huge crowds that had been gathered because of an annoying street light that turned green only for fifteen seconds, there was poking a tall blond. And who else could that be, other than the dangerous monster with some anger issues, working as a bodyguard for a dept collector.? Of course it's Heiwajima Shizuo.

With a cigarette in hand, he was slowly making his way back home. After his chase with Izaya, that lasted maybe around two to three hours, Shizuo needed to get back to his job. And he did. He met with his boss and good friend - Tom, and they collected the depts from several clients. And now, it was finally time to go home.

The last client had arranged their meeting to be very far away from Shizuo's home and so the blond knew it was going to take a long time to get back to his place. That annoyed him quite a bit, but the cigarette was helping him keep calm.

Suddenly, as he was walking, the tall blond abruptly stopped in the middle of the street. It didn't take long for all the people to pass him by and the light to turn red once again. Cars were beeping, drivers angry, telling him to get out of the way. Shizuo just closed his eyes and smelled deeply. He repeated that action once or twice, before suddenly opening his eyes - anger and something akin to excitement shining in them.

He went running in the opposite direction he had been heading in at the beginning. His legs were carrying him before his command could even reach them, anger and annoyance fogging his mind, that familiar and often bothering him smell getting stronger and stronger with every step Shizuo made.

He ran and ran, not knowing where the final destination was even going to be. But his mind was fogged by annoyance, anger and instincts were simply taking over once again. And then... he came to a stop. Confusion taking over.

Shizuo was sure he could smell Izaya really close, the scent was very strong, so surely the raven must be close by. But the blond couldn't see him. He looked around, not many people were walking around this area. He couldn't actually see anyone, besides some bastards that were rushing to somewhere and screaming at the roofs.

"Are they drunk.? Or are they simply stupid.?" Shizuo thought, as he decided to try and see what exactly was going on for them to be looking up there.

He saw some shadow was moving around. It had already gotten dark, so Shizuo needed some time to let his eyes adjust to the darkness. And after several seconds, his eyes finally did adjust to the darkness. And, oh boy, what a surprise hit him.

He finally saw what all these guys were all looking at. It was his annoying flea.! What the hell was going on.?

"Are they chasing him.? Are they chasing my Izaya.? Who do they think they are to chase him.?" Shizuo didn't even think further than that. He didn't realise he had even put Izaya as his own. He didn't think about why those guys were chasing him.

The tall blond charged at the group of people, picking up a street sign and swinging it around, hitting almost all of the guys away. Those guys ended up crashing into a wall, most of them losing consciousness from the impact.

"Heiwajima Shizuo.. That's him. Run.! Run for your lives.!" One of the guys, as a stammering mess, shouted and ran away as fast as his legs could carry him. His words did nothing other than angering the tall blond. The street sign soon ended up getting thrown and actually pierced the guy's back, as it crashed along with the guy to a wall.

Shizuo had lost all self-control. His mind was blank, only one thought seemed to repeat itself.

"Who are they to dare and try to touch him.?"

Those guys seemed to had asked for even more people to come and help the ones already there, leading to more and more of them flying through the air, clothes tearing and blood starting to drip on the ground, forming little puddles.

Izaya, on the other hand, didn't really understand what had happened at first. Up until that time, he was already really tired by running and jumping from some roof to another. The guys chasing him seemed to have become even more and that made it much harder to slip away for just a second to at least take a little break and catch his breath.

But then it happened. A sudden crash was heard from somewhere underneath him.

"What was that.? Did a car crash into a wall or something.? But there were no lights.. maybe that's why it crashed.? It must have been a distraction for those guys though. Now is my chance to get away and disappear." Izaya thought that, jumping to another roof.

Checking the ground, there was nobody there or even around, so he finally jumped to the ground. After spending a minute just catching his breath, he expected to be greeted with silence and maybe a few curses from those guys for actually managing to lose him. But what he heard was a little different.

Sure, there was still a lot of cursing, but it wasn't in the contest he expected. There was a lot of screams, seemingly because of someone going through pain and not simple anger.

Izaya was confused. And absolutely curious. These guys were all chasing him desperately until minutes ago and were now suddenly screaming in agony and pain.? Well, if that isn't interesting, the raven didn't know what it could be.

And so, he told himself he would just check for a second. Stay in the shadows and take a quick look. Then disappear as fast as possible. He didn't want to be caught or pulled into another messy situation, after all.

But before he could even get out of the street he was on, hiding to take a little break, he heard a very loud scream.

"Heiwajima Shizuo.! That's him.! Run.! Run for your lives.!" Was what was heard. The voice desperate and filled with fear. Like a cry for help. At least that's what Izaya thought of it. Before confusion hit him again.

"Shizu-chan.? My Shizu-chan.? There.? Right now.? Beating up random people.? Why would he be fighting them.? Did he think they were stirring up trouble in Ikebukuro and decided they need a beating.?" Izaya finally got to the corner of the street and a person almost hit him.

And no, not with his fists or something. The dude had been sent flying and almost landed on the raven.

"Yep. That's surely Shizu-chan." Is what Izaya thought with a small smirk playing on his lips.

The view in front of him was surely interesting. His beast was surrounded by many people, some with bats, others with knives and several with guns. Those with the guns hadn't made a shot yet, since they couldn't even point to their target, the darkness making it hard to see anything.

Izaya, however, easily let his eyes adjust to the darkness and could see almost perfectly. Even if the only light was coming from the moon and stars, along with some broken lamps here and there.

It didn't take long for many unconscious bodies to be laying around Shizuo and for a few guys to get away. The blond's breathing was heavy and quick, but getting slower and lighter as he was trying to calm down.

Izaya was amazed. There were over at least seventy bodies laying around by now and Shizuo had been left almost untouched. Of course, the raven did make sure that the guys who had guns couldn't shoot away, stabbing their hands by throwing his knives or separating them from their weapons. He had obviously stricken on point, as no gunshots were heard or fired.

After calming himself down, Shizuo looked around himself. He roared with all the power his voice had and then curled up in a ball, his legs not leaving the ground, but just getting down to hug his knees. The blond felt horrible. What had he done.? There were so many people around him, laying unconscious or grunting in pain, not being able to move.

"I truly am.... a monster." That thought kept on repeating itself, traveling all around Shizuo's mind, consuming him. Until he felt a touch on his shoulder. His mind went completely blank, no thoughts passing by. And then he heard a very familiar voice. The flea.

"Hey, Shizu-chan, good job proving you are the monster I always accuse you of being. But you won't just die because of guilt, are you.? I can't have you die in such silly way. Get up." Izaya tried very hard to hide the worry from his voice.

This was Heiwajima Shizuo. Nothing could really harm him, but right now, even Izaya, who should have just stayed hidden and left unnoticed, got a little worried. He hadn't seen his beast like that. So... sad and depressed. If there was something Izaya never wanted to see, it was his Shizu-chan crying. That would be so... bothersome. A monster like Heiwajima to show such human emotion. Izaya just couldn't let that be.

And so, he went up to the beast. Shizuo didn't seem to realise he was even there, so Izaya touched his shoulder lightly. After all, the raven could never fear anything, not even the one known as the scariest among them all. But really, to the raven, Shizuo had always seemed like a very good guy. Too good even. A monster shouldn't behave like some good guy. So the raven simply wanted to prove to everyone just what an actual monster Heiwajima Shizuo was, even if it took him his own life.

Hearing Izaya's voice, Shizuo didn't know exactly how to react. He seems to have fought a bit too much to actually go berserk and chase Izaya. Anger or annoyance didn't cloud his mind at that moment either.

"Go now. Just go. I'm not in the mood for your bullshit, please, just go." Shizuo's voice was quiet and somehow dark. It was also kind of.... empty. And that really was not to Izaya's liking.

"That's it.? You will just let me go.? Not throwing some vending machine or street sign at me, while my back is turned.? You will have to excuse me for not believing that possibility, Shizu-chan." Izaya didn't speak any louder. He didn't need to. Besides some grunting from the bodies around them, the night was quiet.

Surely, what Izaya said wasn't true. He could see that Shizuo was in fact letting him go just like that. Not only did that annoy the raven, but he had run so much, and while at it, he had a very bad landing on some of the roofs because of the height differences. Pretty much, his legs were hardly holding him up at this moment. He hadn't felt it until then, because of the adrenaline most likely, but now Izaya could feel blood tickling down his left leg, probably had hurt himself while running not that long ago.

Shizuo suddenly got up from his low position, and loomed over Izaya. The raven made a step back out of reflex, but that led to his hurt leg forcing him to make a grimace because of the sudden pain. Usually, he would have hidden it easily, but it really surprised the informant, so Izaya couldn't react on time.

The grimace obviously didn't escape Shizuo's eyes either. At first, the blond felt afraid that even the flea was now scared of him. The blond had in fact just beat up over seventy people in less than fifteen minutes, making them all suffer, maybe forever. That thought almost broke Shizuo right at that moment, his mental health not able to take it in well at all.

As strange as it was, it was somehow comforting for Shizuo that there was someone that wasn't afraid to approach him, to talk to him, to keep him company.

Maybe not in all the ordinary ways someone would think. Approach Shizuo meant being in Ikebukuro to stirrup trouble, to talk to him meant mostly teasing and annoying the blond, to keep him company... probably referred to their usual chases. But it was still somehow comforting and Shizuo was afraid to lose it just like that.

Even if he saw it for just a second, the grimace Izaya made had its impact on Shizuo. But then the blond thought... that was not the face of someone afraid, was it.? Shizuo was someone who had seen too many scared people, faces filled with fear. And the one Izaya showed didn't seem anything like any of them. That's when Shizuo made another step forward, getting too much into Izaya's personal space and forcing him to take another step backwards.

This time, even if he expected it, Izaya still couldn't fully cover up the uncomfortable feeling he was getting from moving around. Now that the adrenaline had left his body, the pain had gotten much worse. Izaya did a decent job at hiding it, but in front of him was staying no other than Heiwajima Shizuo. The raven could never fool him as easily as he could other people. Maybe exactly because the blond was not a human, but now was not the time to think about that.

Shizuo let a sigh of relief pass from in-between his lips. He had now proven to himself that Izaya really wasn't afraid of him, but his grimaces seemed to be triggered by the movement the blond forced him to do.

Shizuo got even further into his personal space, but because of several bodies behind him, Izaya couldn't back away any further and couldn't really prevent his forehead being touched by Shizuo's. That's how close they were now. Their eyes locked together. Shizuo was desperately searching for fear, as if it might as well be better for the shorter boy to fear him. Izaya wasn't searching for anything in those honey-mocha eyes. But he did find something akin to.. worry.?

Why would there be worry.? And who was it focused on.? Maybe it wasn't worry, but there was something... off about the blond right now. And the raven wanted to know what it was.

"Shizu-chan, are you... okay.?" This was surely a very awkward attempt to speak up on Izaya's part, but he couldn't help himself and not ask. He was very curious and really wanted to know what was going through the blond's head right now.

Izaya's voice seemed to pull Shizuo out of some kind of trance. The blond's eyes were suddenly filled with something completely different than worry. The very familiar anger and annoyance. Izaya let a sigh of relief of his own. That's more like the beast he knew. That was Izaya's norm and he liked it this way the most too.

"Didn't I tell you to go away.? I gave you the chance, so why didn't you take it.?" Shizuo didn't speak very loudly. He was too close to Izaya for there to be a need to do so.

"You must know I'm not one to follow orders, Shizu-chan~." Izaya gave a smile kind of playfully.

The anger Shizuo felt moments ago seemed to have once again settled down for some unknown reason.

The blond signed heavily: "Right... not the type to follow orders.."

Izaya looked up curiously at Shizuo's face. Not that he needed to move much. Opening his eyes was enough, a familiar face that Izaya didn't usually get the chance to appreciate right in front of him.

Shizuo had closed his eyes, still calming himself down, Izaya guessed. This whole night was... an interesting experience for the raven.

The silence that had taken over, beside some people still grunting in pain, Shizuo spoke up, his voice clear and calm: "Why did you grimace when you stepped back.?"

"Of course you would see that.. how could you not.?" Izaya asked quietly and words filled with sarcasm before continuing speaking. "Have been running for a while now. Jumped from roof to roof and I seem to have pierced my leg at some point. The feeling isn't exactly comfortable, so.."

Shizuo and Izaya had known each other for a very long time by now. So, the raven knew that it was safe to share this with the brute. Shizuo's heart was a little too kind and found it unfair to fight someone without giving them the chance to fight back. Also, it seemed that getting the blond angry tonight would be a hard thing to do for some reason.

Shizuo grimaced himself, thinking if it would be appropriate to help the one he wants dead. The blond's wish was for that guy to disappear, right.? He hated him and seeing him in pain should bring him something akin to joy, no.? So how come Shizuo felt exactly the opposite right now.? He would still beat Izaya given the chance, but as he felt the way the raven was tightly holding himself up by those 'monstrous' biceps, Shizuo felt somehow conflicted.

After several more minutes spend in a very strange and quiet atmosphere, Shizuo suddenly moved. He grabbed Izaya for his hamstrings and started to walk in an average speed.

The raven was stunned for a moment before realising what had happened. He stayed quiet, also realising Shizuo was not harming him in any way. So Izaya just ended up not really knowing what to do with his hands. They stayed pressed at Shizuo's chest but the raven felt uncomfortable with that position and wanted to change it. The problem was, he didn't know if that wouldn't somehow trigger the blond or something like that.

Taking the risk, Izaya slowly started moving his hands towards Shizuo's shoulders. The blond caught up with what was happening and raised Izaya in a way to kind of force him to get a hold around Shizuo's neck.

After a while, just as Izaya had started to wonder what in the actual fuck was going on and why was Shizuo just carrying him like that and not squeezing him to death or something, he realised where the blond was heading towards. It was the way to Shinra's apartment. And they were really close to it by now.

"Are you... going to drop me at Shinra's place.? Do you realise just how late it is.? And do you realise exactly who you are holding in your hands.?" Izaya pushed himself away from Shizuo's grasp enough to look into his eyes as he spoke with a hint of curiosity in his voice.

"Yes, I know who I'm holding in my hands. The flea I hate more than anything. Don't think that's changed. I just feel.. obligated to bring you for at least a check-up or something. I'm probably feeling guilty because you would have outrunned them if you hadn't wasted a lot of energy because of me earlier today. So... as strange as it is, temporary peace until your leg gets better. I sure hope it's a long and agonising process for you to go through." Shizuo gave a smile like no other as he finished speaking and Izaya wasn't sure if he felt insulted or impressed. Maybe both.

Shizuo hadn't even bothered to answer about it being too late in the night to bother anyone, but Shinra was someone that was probably used to their crazy bullshit by now.

After some more time passed, mostly in the silence of the night, the two boys were in front of their friend's apartment. Before Shizuo could knock, Izaya again pushed himself away from the blond’s neck and spoke quietly: "Don't you think it would be a little bit too shocking for them to see you carrying me like this.? Shinra might as well think he is dreaming and shut the door in our faces. That is, if he even opens it at this time of the night."

"You are probably right. I'll just leave you here. I'm sure Shinra will deal with you without my help anyway, so.. good night, I guess." Shizuo awkwardly scratched his head and turned to leave, after gently letting Izaya's feet touch the floor.

"If I didn't know any better, I would say you have a secret crush on me and were now trying to make me see you in a different light." Izaya laughed at the silly thought and Shizuo smiled at the stupid little talk they were having.

"Well... there's always the possibility of your guess being kind of right so.." Shizuo bend down himself a bit, getting closer to Izaya, and whispered in his ear: "Sweet dreams", as he gave the informant a little peck on the cheek.

The blond was quick to take his leave afterwards, leaving Izaya dumbfounded in front of the door. The only reason he got his composure back was the gentle sensation of blood sliding down his leg.

Izaya then turned around and knocked on the door behind him.

As sleepy Shinra opened the door for him to get in and a single thought crossed Izaya's mind.

"What an interesting shady job."

Shizuo was walking in the night, not sure why exactly he had done what he had just done in front of the apartment’s entrance, but seeing Izaya's reaction brought a tiny shiny smile on his face. A nice feeling the blond couldn't name tickled his heart.

But then he felt a strange sensation from somewhere around his hands and, looking down, he realised his knuckles were bleeding pretty badly. A sudden wave of annoyance replaced the nice feeling from seconds ago and all Shizuo thought at that moment just annoyed him even more:

"Tsk.. another shady job of his."

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