There's an unbearable emptiness inside me. So heavy that I clench my fists as I feel my ribs break. An outburst of something causes my veins to rupture, and my mouth begins to bleed. Worn-out, I look at the graves in my heart, and I wonder, which secret have I left uncovered today? Which loss did I forget to mourn?
As I transition into adulthood, I realize that age is not the sole factor shaping my destiny. Rather, it is a continuous exploration of the path that Allah has decreed for me. Every moment, every decision, and every challenge I encounter is a part of His divine plan. There is no roadmap or guidebook to follow, for the ultimate guide is my unwavering faith.
In embracing the uncertainties of adulthood, I am reminded of the beautiful verse from the Quran, "But they plan, and Allah plans. And Allah is the best of planners" (Quran 8:30). I find comfort in the understanding that my destiny is intricately woven into the divine plan, and I am but a humble servant, walking the path that Allah has chosen for me. This is my faith, my surrender, and my unwavering trust in the journey that Allah has destined for my soul.