#PLEASE IT’S ONLY 6:30AM I CANT-

[mysticficti0n]

hey girlie I have a question!

sooo I rlly rlly love ur writing and literally I read most ur stuff every night 🤭 but I was wondering maybe if you could write one about Colby Brock.... and just any idea but like I rlly want to see what you could do

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Bun

I do not mind one bit! I grew up watching Sam and Colby so ofc!! For this I am gonna make up a place because I feel like it heheheh but this is my first Colby fic so don't judge pretty please <3 Ive tried my best and checked for mistakes and hopefully there's none (or very little)

Haunted house

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warnings- ColbyBrockxFem/Reader, swearing, mentions of death, death of children, fire, hanging, fluff/teasing, Y/H/T= your home town, smut!! kissing, smut, P in V, no protection,

words- 10k (sorry ☹︎)

"sooooo are you gonna come tomorrow?" Sam asked me over the phone, it's Halloween tomorrow and he, Colby and some friends had been working really hard the whole of October and decided on the 31st they wanted to do a haunted house sleepover, and this house was in the middle of fucking nowhere, 4 hours away, and miles from the nearest town "because we need to leave like... 9am ish tomorrow to get there in time to meet the owners" I waited a few seconds mentally reviewing my life and really asking myself I wanted to do this

"umm- yeah okay" I agreed and already regretted it "I'll walk to yours and be there for like 8-8:30?" Sam made a noise as if he was talking to someone else then made a huh sound to me "I said I'll walk to yours-"

"ohh- Colby said he can grab you but you'll have to go to the store with him"

"okay no problem, what time though?" Sam said 8am so I set my alarm for 6:30, enough time for a shower, get ready, pack then get in the car with Colby, our conversation continued until another voice interrupted telling the boy he needs to get ready "alright then, see you tomorrow"

"Bye-Bye" he sung and the phone cut. Tomorrow was about to be very interesting...

BEEP BEEP BEEP

I opened my eyes to find my room dark, and my phone reading 6:30am "ughhh" I groaned rolling out the warm covers and slowly made my way into my bathroom, I switched the light on and then put the shower on, turning the heat to the warmest it could be, sleepily I pulled my clothes off and jumped into the shower humming as the water washed over my skin. My morning went quick, at one point it was 7am and I need to still pack and now its 8am and my front door is being knocked because Colby is already here "shit shit shit" I chanted quickly stuffing chargers, torches, batteries and whatever else I could quickly grab before I sprinted to the door "morning!" I panted

"good morning, you okay?" he laughed putting a hand on my shoulder

"fi-fine yeah" I smiled standing to look at him properly "you good?" he nodded walking in "I've just gotta put a few last things in my bag, wanna come sit in my room?"

"oooh" he cooed, I slapped his arm as we made our way to my room, he walked in and quickly jumped onto the bed that was freshly made and crumpled the sheets which I made a face to, a cheeky smirk painted the tatted mans face as he shuffled creating a larger mess "you excited?"

"oh yeah- cant wait" I sarcastically answered grabbing my card "how like- bad is it?" I asked which I probably shouldn't have with the wide smile that crept onto the mans face

"well its known to have had 6 people hang themselves in the attic, two of those were children like 10 years old" my stomach sank, eyes widened "i'm kidding! only one 10 year old was hung" I sighed again regretting agreeing to going to this place and mentally slapping myself

"you're not helping the nerves I have right now" he laughed lying himself back, grabbing a pillow to go under his head "what are you grabbing from the shop?"

"water, snacks, any like little bits we need, plus were not filming it so we don't need much, oh and Amanda is coming, you guys will get on great" I smiled, I had seen Amanda in a few videos with the guys before and she seems really fun and interesting to work with as she's a medium

"okay well I'm ready now" with a breath he stood, fixing my bed and giving the pillow a slap to make it 'comfy', I pulled my little suitcase of the bed and onto the floor to follow me

"you'll love It once were there" Colby spoke grabbing my bag off me, carrying it down the stairs and walked to his car to put it in his trunk as I locked my door

"I've been told that one to many times" we shared a look before a laugh spilled from both of us

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The shopping was done, some water, crisps, and some lollipops, I sat myself in the front and waited patiently for Colby to get back in "oh another thing- one of the spirits at this place has a thing for touching girls backs and leaving like little bruises"

"great! gonna get molested by a ghost man" I grinned sarcastically looking to the dark haired boy "as long as I don't get like pushed down stairs or something I'm good-ish"

"well-"

"ugh" Colby laughed starting the car, sending me a quick smirk before we drove back to his house. It was a quiet drive, only the radio playing some songs, and the noises of traffic around us, It was defiantly the calm before the storm tonight.

We arrived at the house and went inside, I saw Sam and a blonde sat on the sofa talking but quickly stopping as we entered "Ayyyy she's here!" the man called holding his hands in the air "Amanda this is Y/n, Y/n this is Amanda" I looked to the girl

"hey how are you!" she asked sending me a warm smile, she was really pretty, dressed in a white knitted jumper, blue skinny jeans

"hi i'm great, how're you?" she looked a little taken-back but still with a smile

"Oh you're British?" I nodded "ohh- where are you from?"

"Y/H/T (if you're not from England just chose somewhere to be from), grew up there then moved to Kansas when I was like 14" she smiled and looked back to Sam, I turned to Colby who was stood leaning up the door way staring back to me "what?" I mouthed and he shook his head with a smile

"right guys, we need to leave like in 5 minuets, it's a 4 hour drive- and I have to drive" he groaned "who's sitting in the front with me?" I watched as Amanda quickly placed a finger onto her nose "Amanda is sat with me then!" she grinned grabbing her bag

"Looks like were together then" I said looking to the dark headed man still behind me, he giggled before quickly hurrying away to the stairs and went up, he's so weird sometimes "okay before we go ima go for a piss" Sam threw me a thumbs up and I went to the bathroom. I finished and washed my hands, I looked into the mirror and stared at my make-up, I hadn't put much on but my lips looked slightly chapped so I pulled out my lip gloss and swiped it onto my lips, with one last look I walked out and was met with the blue eye gaze of Colby

"that for me?" he looked to my lips and back up

"of course" I smiled, biting my lip jokingly, I walked past hitting his shoulder slightly, but the feeling of his grip on me pulled me back to be in front of him, I turned to look to his face but he nodded to his free hand, the one not still holding my other hand that was gently drawing circles on with his thumb, I looked to his hands and saw him holding something "whats that?" he opened his palm and revealed two cross necklaces

"one for me and this one is for you" I smiled at the gesture taking mine from his hand and putting it into my pocket, but that made me think- how bad will this place be if I need to wear a cross...

"right come on were going!" Sam called and hurriedly I grabbed my bags to now put in his Tesla, we didn't all have that much, just some extra clothes, food, drinks, and equipment for the investigations we'd be doing, everything was in and I climbed into the left side of the car, fastened my belt and took off my shoes getting comfy, Amanda got in after me and turned to me passing me a bag of something

"try one!" she offered, my hand dipped into the purple bag and pulled out a yellow boiled sweet "mango and passionfruit" my eyes widened at the tase, it was great

"holy shit" I laughed "please tell me you have another bag?"

"I have three- they're my favourite sweet in literal world" we high-fived in agreement and she sat back into her seat, the boys joined us, Sam in the front, Colby with me. As the car turned on some random song began to play which Colby let a huff out, throwing his head back in some sort of protest

"Dude put something good on" he complained "put- Christina Aguilera on" Sam flicked his head back to his best friend who just shrugged

"why her?" he asked with a confused grin

"first name that came to mind" Soon the sweet voice Christina came on and our journey began, I went into my pocket pulling out my phone, flicked onto snapchat and quickly felt my phone pulled from my hands and Colby turned the screen to him "pose bitch" he yelped, I quickly sat forward putting my hand on his shoulder and my head rested next to his, he thew up a peace sign and the picture was taken "I look so sexy"

"sure you do" I sat back feeling the gaze of him fall on me, crossing my legs and letting my head fall back "so whats up with this place? I asked this dickhead and he told me basically people hung themselves and me and Amanda might get touched by a ghosty man" the group laughed before the girl in front turned to me

"okay so the house is called Elgor Manor House, it was passed through around like six generations of the Sails family, the one of the last known member of the house walked out to find a women stood at the gates, she said she had red-ish eyes, very boney and long dark hair yelling it was on fire, and when she turned around she saw smoke and flames eating the house, she ran in to try find her children and they were found in the hall crying pointing to the attic, she supposedly ran up and found the attic door open and matches up there- her husband Charles Sails had done it" I nodded taking in all the information "Charles was known to have some mental issues... so assumed, but she said when she saw him, his eyes were black, skin very white, and his shirt was ripped open and where his heart was a huge red mark was there, like as if he'd been clawed. Cherrie, the mom then just ran out with her children but sadly- 3 out the 5 died but when she got out the women wasn't there but Cherrie believed it was a saviour as without that women she would've been able to save the children she did despite her appearance being quite devil like- thats what she told the newspaper anyways, and then she died about a year later; Charles was never seen again so he was told to be dead, and then the 2 children she escaped with both were mysteriously shot two days apart the day after their mothers death" my jaw dropped "all under 18 years old too" I couldn't believe what I herd, and Amanda just nodded

"fuck- when did that all happen?"

"1926, but thats not even the weirdest bit, Charles' great granddad, Stephan Sails was told to always let the children start fires around the land as if they got out of hand many times it resulted in some servant dying and never landed back on him, there's still a tree there thats all ashy, but anyways, the way he died was getting into the attic, and then there was a fire, and when they found his body- even though he was so badly burnt- there was a huge red mark over where his heart was" Sam added, pulling to a stop at a light "the odd thing is though, so many people died in that attic, Charles, Stephan, the other 4 and then one of those were a girl named Marlie, from what we know she was about 10 and was Stephans Grandmothers sister, and she was found hanging off the 6th rafter with a rope, wrapped 6 times on her neck, and 6 of her toys surrounding her, and one of those toys still remain in the house after the fires and over about 200 years" I sat astonished, no words able to leave my mouth

"so 6th rafters, 6 times around her neck and 6 toys around her? could this mean something maybe... took over her? because well 666 is the devils number" Amanda agreed sending me a knowing look "holy shit" I breathed

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"anyone hungry?" Sam asked looking back at everyone "there's a McDonald's over there" we all agreed to go grab something to eat, we still had a while to go till we got to the house anyways, the blonde pulled into the car park and all got out. The four of us walked in and went straight to the touch screens

"whats everyone having?" Colby asked, Sam quickly chose his food and Colby went after him, Amanda went next then me "ooh they have ice cream" he hummed in a childish tone, clapping his hands excitingly

"shall we all get one?" I asked and everyone nodded, so I added 4. I grabbed the receipt, me and Amanda stood waiting at the counter for the food while the other two went to find a table

"so how did you get to know the boys?" she asked

"oh I joined there school when I was 14, so... freshman year? because I had just moved from Y/H/T to Kansas because my mom got a job there, and I was in a few lessons with Colby but I was mostly with Sam, and they knew each other because of band that they were forced to do, then we started talking more and more until I found out we didn't live that far apart, started going to Sam's more, Colby was there a lot and then yeah, just stayed being their friends and we all moved here together but I bought a little place like 5 minuets away" she nodded, grabbing the one bag of food while I grabbed the two trays of drinks and ice cream

"to be completely honest when I first herd about you it was through Colby and I thought you guys were together from how he was saying it, he kept smiling while thinking of things to tell me and showed me photos of you, even blushed when I said you were pretty but I can see you two are just like really good friends" we laughed as I shut down the allegations, we were just best friends, every best friend sometimes have little flirty games together right?. We found the guys sat in a window seat laughing over something and me and Amanda sat across from them

"Whats funny?" I asked passing out the drinks

"just watching you two gossip like girls at school" Sam giggled red faced, him and Colby began impersonating us with high pitch squeals, I looked to the girl next to me and we just sighed ignoring them.

We all finished and got back into the car, I flicked my shoes off again and placed my legs over Colby who gave a stare to which I just smiled, placing my hoodie behind my head and laying back "really?"

"mhm" I yawned closing my eyes "feel free to give me a massage" he pretend heaved, but still placed his arms over my legs leaning back himself, the feeling of his rings felt cold against my skin, even through my jeans as he softly rubbed my legs. Slowly my body began to feel lighter, and the chatter and music became quieter.

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"Y/n.... Y/n/n" my eyes fluttered opened to the smiling face of Colby "we're here" he sung pulling me up, I turned to look out the window and saw the sign, a concrete block engraved with 'Elgor Manor' and soon the house came into sight. Sam parked the car and we all got out, a chill ran down my spine despite the warmth of the day. The exterior of the house seemed to loom over us, casting an eerie shadow across the grounds. The structure, though grand, appeared worn and weathered, as if the weight of centuries pressed upon its dark, aged wooden frame.

Massive, gnarled trees surrounded the property, their branches reaching out like skeletal fingers, seemingly trying to grasp onto the last remnants of life. The overgrown bushes and tangled ivy obscured much of the house, adding to its air of neglect and foreboding. The windows, adorned with tattered, moth-eaten curtains. Despite the expanse of land stretching out around the manor, it felt suffocatingly claustrophobic, The overall appearance was not shabby but uncannily surreal, as if the passage of time had twisted the reality of the place. It was as though I had stepped into a realm where the laws of nature and perception bent in unsettling ways.

"woah" I sighed "this is....creepy but beautiful" I spoke looking back to the group, they nodded staring back to the home, soon the noise off tires scraping along the rubble drive appeared behind us, we all turned and were greeted with two people, one walked up, a grin put across his thin lips covered by a white beard, his matching long hair tied into a pony tail, the next to come out was a women, black hair, freckles, and bright red lipstick painted on her lips, with a pearly white beaming smile.

"Hey there!" the man greeted shaking all our hands "I'm Jack, this is my wife Mary and welcome to Elgor Manor" his wife came over shaking our hands again then finding a spot next to her husband "so Elgor Manor, is a very very old house, built around 1798 from what we know, past through many generations of the Sails family but nobody has lived here since 1940's, We found out in about 2020, our friend, Timothy, is actually a distant relative of this family, he was Charles Sails fourth great-grandchild and his great-aunt was the last to own the house-which is now a great new fact we can tell you all" he laughed

"yeah we've herd so much about this place its crazy the history behind it." Colby spoke to the two "We herd about Charles and Stephan"

"Oh oh- they're just the start of it all, its when you hear Marlie's story and her mother Carol-Anne" we all went quiet "you haven't herd about her have you?" we all shook our head no "you'll learn" I gulped, a cold feeling running through me "what're all your names by the way?" Mary asked

"Y/n"

"Colby"

"Amanda"

"Sam" she smiled nodding

"so Y/n, Amanda- you being girls need to be careful tonight, if you go into the back dining room or sometimes in one of the bedrooms there's a man there, his name is Christopher Sails- he was very well known around here for being quiet the player, a playboy you may say in the late 1800" Me and Amanda shared a look, one of slight fear "he's known for touching girls back, leaving marks, and sometimes you may feel your cheeks get warm but then in the middle cold- thats him giving you a kiss... but he is... nice... just be- careful" she sounded slight unsure, I gave a look to Sam who sent me a small unsettled thin lip smile

"well we will get to the tour -we are going to quickly unlock the doors but anyways after that we can take you round!" Jack smiled walking away with his wife, Sam and Amanda went back to the car to grab different bags and I turned back to Colby

"I am terrified" he laughed wrapping an arm around me, giving me a slight squeeze "if I get fucked by a ghost or some shit I'm going home"

"eh don't worry- a ghost wont fuck you" I looked up to the man who smiled back

"who will then?" I hummed walking away from him feeling his eyes follow my moves

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It was time to go into the house, Colby and Amanda went in first and me and Sam followed behind, we walked into the hall and it was grand, gold accents everywhere, two huge mirrors, little objects protected by glass coverings "this part has been restored to how it would've been in 1910's, as you can see lots of gold and dark oak, this rug you see here has been here since 1890 and has been seen to move or make noise like its being slapped against the floor which is what the maids would've done" The couple went into another room, one with green-washed walls, plaster pulling from the walls, two sofas, wooden details decorating the outline, and a TV, we were told about the objects that have been told to move, especially one called Jessies Glass, it was a piece of glass with some spikes coming out

"so this is Jessies glass, so you see all the spikes- this was used agaisnst misbehaving children and staff, either they would stand on It or it was pushed into their backs" Mary commented making all of us do a collective groan "we've had experiences of people hearing screams by children and mostly maids as the heads of the house would usually punish those who didn't do their job right"

We carried on the tour around the house till we reached the last door on the third floor, it was shut, locked and had a sign reading 'Do not enter' I didn't even have a handle "so this is the staircase upto the attic. Obviously where Charles, Stephan, Marlie and others died" we nodded looking back to the ominous door "just- don't go up" we all nodded again and followed the guides down the stairs back to the last room

"think they'll know if we go up?" I hushed Colby who had a playful smirk twitching the sides of his lips "I know we all thought it" he whispered as we walked

We all walked into the dining room and stood around the grand oak table "so see that rocking chair in the corner, thats Christopher's, he's not here right now but That'll start rocking when he's in. He usually -in the day visits the yard, sits in the swinging sofa" all our eyes cast a gaze outside to the yard "mh doesn't seem to be out there either- odd" Mary spoke "well, thats everything, please call if you need anything, keys on the table so yes, just be careful, and respectful"

"thank you" Amanda spoke, the couple said a quick goodbye before leaving us in the house, we went back to our car pulling out all our things: EMF reader, music box, tap torches, spirt box and cat balls, then our things "Y/n wanna stay in one of the rooms up stairs or down here?"

"I think we need to sleep upstairs"

She agreed and the two of us ended up running up two the second floor "which room, Yellow or blue do you think?"

"oh defiantly blue!" as I spoke I herd a dismissive noise from below "what was that?"

"we want the blue room!" Sam yelled coming up the stairs "it's literally the most active, you herd what Jack said- we want it"

"we've already dibbed it" I sassed looking to the blonde

"fuck you" he pouted walking back down the staircase "Colby they're having the blue room"

"NU UH!" the other groaned as a smile crept on mine and Amanda's faces as we placed our things on the bed

"tonight it going to be amazing, do you see anything yet?" I spoke out of interest as I pulled on my hoodie

"no not yet, not even had any feelings either- might just have to wait a bit" I hummed listening to her explanation "why don't we go into the garden, see if Christopher is out there?" quickly we made our way down the stairs and into the kitchen to get to the garden, we stepped out and the warm air hit us, my eyes looked to the swinging seat, it was still.

"maybe we should try sitting there" I spoke making my own way to the cushioned seat, I sat back looking round while Amanda came over, I swayed gently on the swinging bench, my gaze wanders across the garden, taking in the peculiar blend of beauty and eerie ambiance that surrounds me. The garden appears deceptively tranquil at first glance, with an abundance of vibrant flowers in full bloom. Lush, colourful petals dance in the gentle breeze, painting a picturesque scene that should be serene.

The fragrance of the flowers hangs thick in the air, a delightful mixture of sweet scents that should evoke joy, yet there's an underlying sense of foreboding. It's as if the very essence of the garden is intertwined with an unspoken mystery, a silent narrative woven between the petals and leaves. Then I see a pond, the pond, nestled amidst the blossoms, reflects the azure sky above, mirroring the beauty of the day. Yet, despite the shimmering water's surface, there's a certain depth that seems to hold secrets, as if it conceals more than just fish and lily pads beneath.

"its really nice for a place thats meant to be extremely haunted" the girl spoke next to me "maybe... maybe it wont be bad" I hummed relaxing more into the seat

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The time ticked away, 2pm, 5pm and then the time finally hit 9pm "nothings even happened" Sam groaned "we've been around the whole house with all the equipment and nothing this is so stupid" The four of us had sat In the living room, Amanda in the arm chair, Sam, and Colby on the two seater and I sat on the floor flicking through channels on the TV "I mean even you haven't seen anything" he argued, I finally settled on some random sitcom and sat back leaning against Colby's leg for support

"it might just take some time" the brunette behind spoke

"fuck it taking time- we've been here since fucking 1:30 and nothing, I'm calling bullshit" Sam got up from his place and stormed into the kitchen grabbing a water bottle and basically gulping the whole thing muttering some words, I looked back to Colby who gave me a smirk then looked back to the TV

"well I'm gonna go change" Amanda said standing "come?" she gave her hand to me, pulling me up to meet her height, still in hand we began to go up the stairs, running like children to our room "Sam is so pissed off"

"I know, I've never seen him like this" I laughed pulling off my jumper "like he's never this angr-" I was cut my a creaking sound, then a thump "fuck was that?"

"probably the guys?" she spoke walking to the door "Sam?! Colby?!" she called, no response, then another bang- above us

"that was upstairs..." quickly I pulled my hoody back over me and walked out the room up the small crooked staircase, I looked down the hall, Amanda stood close behind me "nothings moved-"

"Y/n- there's a little girl, ran into the door down there" the blondes voice was small "red hair, blue bows, light blue dress" I looked to where she was gesturing to

"that...no- that fucking door is open" my heart sank "we need to grab the guys" the two of us hurried down the first flight of stairs then the second "the doors open!"

"what door?" Colby asked sitting up

"the door with no shitting handle and the don't enter sign" we all shared a look before they quickly came up past us running to the door, I quickly grabbed the Rempod and followed, switching it on so It was ready when we got to the door. I crept up the steps and was met with the back of Colby, I let my arm creep around his waist

"FU-fucking hell Y/n" he breathed turning to look at me, I gave him a quick sorry smile before squeezing past with the Rempod, I walked past the other two and went face to face with the door "be careful" he warned

"If there is anyone here... please touch this antenna" I spoke stopping the conversation between the two blondes , I took a few steps back looking at the machine intensely "we're not here to cause any stress, harm, anything negative- just want to talk" I spoke again. the box began to beep, red light flashing, I took a glance back to the group who's faces lightened "who are we talking to, erm can you touch once for a child, twice for adult" and there again it beeped once

"she's back- behind the door" I looked up facing the door, slowly I went to my knees, holding a warm smile on my face

"hi" I whispered and the box buzzed again "are you Marlie?" everyone went quiet "Marlie Sails?" the Rempod beeped again, I tried to not seem terrified and kept my stance, hands shaking by my sides

"She's gone... I'm guessing up the stairs" I stood going to take a step through the door

"wait" a hand gripped my forearm, I felt all the cold rings press against my skin, the same familiar feeling from earlier in the car "be careful- have you got your cross?" I nodded going into my pocket and pulling out, Colby took the necklace from my grip and gently moved my hair to the side, lifting the dainty metal over my head and clipped it around my neck "okay" I looked back seeing a tent pushed into his cheek, eyes low looking to me, sending me an unspoken message, Slowly, I pulled the door open more listening as it creaked, revealing deformed, water-damaged steps that ascended steeply to the attic. Each step groaned and protested beneath my weight, as if the old wooden structure itself was begging me to turn back.

With each step, the protest of the wood grew louder, a cacophony of distress that reverberated through the dimly lit corridor. The air felt heavy and suffocating, as if the very walls were watching, waiting for my next move.

Reaching the top, a chill slithered down my spine, instantly sending shivers across my skin. The attic lay engulfed in darkness, besides the faint glimmer of moonlight that seeped through a small window, casting elongated shadows that danced along the floor.

I squinted into the darkness, my eyes adjusting slowly. Shapes emerged, barely visible in the dim light, and among them, the faint outlines of rafters became visible. Counting softly, my voice barely audible in the oppressive silence, "One, two, three, four, five... six." My gaze fixed on the sixth rafter to my right, the very beam from which Marlie's life had been stolen. As I extended my hand to touch the wood, a shiver of uncertainty coursed through me. "You were so young," my voice quivered, barely louder than a whisper. "Why?" The words hung in the air, swallowed by the quietness of the attic.

A sudden change in the atmosphere sent a wave of warmth around me, a stark contrast to the chilling aura just moments before. My hair prickled on the back of my neck, standing as if trying to flee the unseen force that enveloped me. "Is... is that you, Marlie?" I stammered, my voice faltering as the air grew thicker, charged with an otherworldly energy.

"Y/n? everything okay?" Amanda called, I turned my head to look down the staircase where her voice was coming from

"can you come up?" I asked and herd the quiet steps coming up the stairs and then the face of the blonde girl appeared, her smile quickly dropped "what?"

"the little girl is down there- by the window" I turned my head looking to the window, it seemed blurred unlike before "she's looking directly at you"

"H-hi Marlie" I spoke "how are you?" I felt my stomach flip, my head going misty "does she look- happy?" I asked and Amanda looked back her eyes flicking around the girl

"she seems- okay? not happy but not anything else, almost emotionless, I...oh" my head went back to Amanda who seemed worried herself "she's gone"

I felt a cold chill run through my body as if something walked through me "shit" I spoke feeling my body quiver "shall we go back down?" I asked seeing Amanda's shadow nod, we began back down the staircase, we left the last step and looked to the two boys who stood silent looking to us "she was up there"

"I've never seen something like that- so....so clear" Amanda breathed scratching her head

"Marlie?" Sam asked and we nodded "woah- maybe we should take the spirtbox up, or at least stand here and do it, maybe she could speak?" we all agreed, Sam hurried down the stairs to the first room grabbing the things

"I need a drink before we do this" Amanda spoke looking to us "you guys want one?"

"please" I spoke looking back to the door, the girls footsteps wondered away leaving me and Colby again "this is crazy"

"Are you alright?" His words were barely audible, whispered with a gentle concern that wrapped around me like a comforting embrace. His arm extended slowly, encircling my waist and drawing me closer. I hummed softly, shifting my gaze toward him "you had me worried going up there" and a wave of reassurance washed over me as I met his eyes. There, I found a small but warm grin gracing his lips, instantly soothing my unease and bringing a sense of safety and care. Our eyes met, his piercing blue ones looking into my Y/C/E, Our breaths seemed to halt as we watched each other, our faces inching closer and closer, my heart stopped, falling but in the best way possible "can I-"

"Y/n grabbed you a water" hurriedly we pulled away, turning to see Amanda holding three waters, and Sam not far behind "have you felt anything since?" she asked handing my the bottle, I couldn't tell her the hot feeling that ran through my body was because I was close to kissing my best friend of 13 years

"er- no, nothing" I answered quietly pulling away from the man next to me to grab the bottle

"mh strange" she spoke

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The four of us now sat in a small circle as the clock struck 3:30am, little tea lights surrounding us, the spirit box in the middle "anyone wanna do the Estes method?" Sam asked

"can I try?" I wondered seeing everyones eyes flick to mine

"are you sure?" Colby said, I nodded picking up the blind fold and bringing it to my eyes, I held it behind me and faced my back to the brunette boy, he took the silky material out my hand, slowly he tied the knot and it tightened to my head "okay here are the headphones" he put the pair in my hands and I put them on, the static noises filling my ears almost defining me, I kept listening waiting for some words

"up..........tight..........sick..........momma..........help me..........waiting..........Rosa..........Dining room..........blue..........you..........Samual..........ten..........no care..........duck..........help..........kill..........he did..........made me..........devil man..........father..........fire" My breath began to pick up, chest heaving up and down, my body rocking trying to catch breath, 'he made us die' voices breathed into my ear I ripped the headphones from my head, pulled the material from my eyes "fuck that" I shuffled back from my place clutching the sofa behind me

"what what happened?" Sam looked to me with slight panic in his eyes

"something- something whispered 'he made us die' in only the left ear- and it was like multiple voices said it" I cried, eyes filling with tears "like a little girl and loads of others too but I could hear her the most"

"we do think it was Marlie we were talking to a lot" Amanda said gently, my lip kept quivering, I couldn't stop it was all to real "I saw her twice, peaking around the door" I smiled weakly

"need a break?" Colby spoke, I nodded I really needed some air, I got up walking to the front door and stepping out onto the porch, I let myself hang over the railing catching my breath while wiping away the tears that kept falling down my cheeks, I looked out into the pitch black landscape "drink?" I freaked turning to see the tatted man holding my water bottle

"thanks" I breathed taking a sip "that was terrifying" the warm feeling of his hand cupped my back, standing closely behind me, comforting me after the fright. I sucked another breath and leaned into him resting my head on his shoulder

"every question we asked got answered you know- but at one point you started rocking and...eh doesn't matter" I looked up to him, questioning him with my eyes "I was gonna grab you but didn't wanna ruin the experiment... yeah the experiment " he answered avoiding my gaze

"mh, maybe you should next time" I followed looking back to the darkness

"only if you let me" he whispered into the shell of my ear making my body go from freezing to burning

"maybe I will" I teased, I turned to meet his gaze, a smile teasing the corners of my lips. "So, what were you going to ask me earlier, upstairs?" I inquired, leaning in slightly, feeling a rush of excitement as Colby's head fell closer to mine, our breaths meeting in the air between us. Our lips were tantalisingly close, the anticipation crackling like electricity, a teasing tension building with each passing moment.

"you really wanna know?" I hummed, nodding my head gently "I was wondering if maybe I could-" before he finished his sentence another person walked out

"oh should I" Sam coughed, we tore apart going away from the sides of each other "erm me and Amanda are gonna go to bed its like 4 am so" I pulled my jumper straight and gave the blonde boy a quick smile

"yeah I'll go up- night guys" I said quickening my pace back into the house and up to mine and Amanda's room "hey" I called walking in

"hi- feeling better?" she asked settling into the sheets

"much" I grinned going to the bed and pulling my side open "first day meeting and already in bed together" I joked hearing a laugh come from the girl "anyways goodnight" I smiled one last time before I turned my lamp off and closed my eyes

"night"

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"Y/n....Y/n" I heard a whisper shout in my ear "wake up.... Y/n please" my eyes flickered open "someones in here" her voice was small

"what..who?" I asked sitting up, the room was pitch black, I grabbed my phone turning on the flashlight "one of the guys?"

"no...well its a man, he's In the corner watching" I turned my head to the corner of the room, shining my light there and there it was again a hazy mist "Y/n I see things like this but he seems different- I cant get anything from him, he seems.. I don't even know"

"shall we leave?" I asked pushing the covers off my body

"yeah- erm let me just grab my paper quickly" rapidly I left the bed, grabbing my jumper I seemed to have taken off and waited for Amanda to come to me, she followed me as we left the room and went next door, I pushed opened the door to reveal the two sleeping boys tucked untidily in the sheets "should we wake them up?"

"yeah- Sam, Colby" I called seeing neither of them shift, I went over to the bed shaking Sam by his shoulder and his eyes opened

"what the fuck Y/n- what?" his whispered, voice full of sleep "its like- 6 in the morning" the covers on the other side shifted and a murmur came from the boys mouth

"Amanda saw a man in our room" I spoke being quieter, I turned back to see the girl sat In the small desk chair looking to her notepad

"what do you mean? a real man?" Colby spoke up, the covers fell from him showing his toned body

"no- it was an older guy, green robe, little hair, and like I kept getting the words like 'ladies' 'kiss' and 'beauty'" Amanda told with a breath

"sounds like that Christopher guy" I shook my head feeling my cheek go hot then cold in the middle "Y/n whats wrong"

"I think you're right" I answered "he kissed me, like I felt what Mary or whatever told us" I sat myself on the bed setting back onto the frame "my cheek felt hot then ice cold In the middle"

"why has he followed you guys into here though? he must really like you" as soon as Sam finished a huge bang rattled the house "fuck was that" he called

"did you follow the girls in here Christopher?" Colby asked "Knock once for no, knock twice for yes" we all went quiet listening to the two thumps that filled the room

"you have no right to touch us- don't ever do that again" Amanda warned, her tone slick with anger "its wrong to follow girls like that- or anyone for that matter. Never do that again you hear me Christopher" the sound of footsteps rattled through and soon faded down the stairs, he left thankfully

"fucking hate this so much" I muttered looking to my phone, I unlocked it I switched onto snapchat, soon the dark outline of Sam Colby appeared on my screen "smile" I voiced, trying to take my mind from everything thats happened seeing the two sleepily posed and I pressed the button snapping a picture, it loaded back onto my screen and I went to look "no- fucking - way!"

"what?!" the three asked scrambling over to see, I pointed to in-between the two "is that a face?" Sam yelled, hands gripping to his hair, and there it was two eyes, nose and mouth "who is that?"

"let me see" Amanda said taking my phone "it looks like...Carol-Anne? like the painting in the living room, thats gotta be her"

"we never learnt anything about her" I spoke "is that you, Carol-Anne?" I felt a nudge next to me "oh" I called looking over my shoulder "is that a yes?" I felt the push again "Okay- erm why don't we get the spirt box out again" I said

"yeah but no Estes this time" Sam answered going into his bag and pulling at the box switching it on, the static taking me back to only a few hours earlier

"what happened to you?" I asked

"daddy" we all looked to each other

"your dad did something?"

"push"

"he pushed you? where did he push you?" Amanda asked grabbing her note book again writing something dow

"woods"

"pushed you into the woods?"

"dark...cold"

"where in the woods did it happen?" I questioned

"grave"

"holy shit was she buried alive?" I turned to Colby who's jaw was open

"yes"

"OH MY GOD" we all called horrified by the response

"why?"

"Naughty baby" it answered

"naughty baby? maybe she was looking after the baby and it did something?"

"moved"

"did you hurt it by accident?"

"poorly head" my eyes widened "speak no more" it finished and the static got louder and louder

"fucking hell" I sighed "well thank you" Sam reached over turning off he box

"well I'm not sleeping anymore" we all laughed "and why dod everything touch me!" I called flopping down into the bed

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the time ticked by until it reached 9am, we all decided to get ready for the day and wait down stairs until Jack and Mary returned, Me and Sam sat slouched in the living room looking around at the different history in the room "did we ever check if that other door closed? the one in the attic?" I asked looking up the the blonde

"me and Col checked- its closed and I couldn't even pull it back open.. do we tell the owners it opened?"

"maybe but just don't say me and Amanda went up" I told sitting back up "speaking of I think they're here" together we got up, watched as their range drover pulled onto the gravel drive

"Hi guys" Jack called walking into the house with Mary in hand, we all greeted the pair again before they led us to sit in the dining room. I pulled a chair between Amanda and Colby, across from the couple

"So what happened?" Mary spoke crossing her hands

"well nothing happened till about 9pm, erm me and Manda went to change or something up stairs and then we herd a massive noise from the third floor... we went up to see and you know the do not enter door?"

"did- did it open?" Jack asked with a worried tone

"mhm and we promise we did nothing to it, we hadn't touched it or anything, we put the Rempod there and it beeped, and I saw a little girl, red hair, blue bows..."

"Marlie- she doesn't come round much" Mary smiled "did she speak to you? she's often very shy" we all nodded telling her what we knew "was there anyone else?"

"we had Marlie, Christopher and Carol-Anne" Colby answered "can you tell us what actually happened with her before we tell you what she said?"

"sure, so she was the mother of Marlie, Kelsie-Rose, Robert and a toddler we believe the name was Marcus or Marc, one day while looking after the children she was struggling and Marcus kept misbehaving and while in her arms and she dropped him and he passed out but her father caught it happen, bare in mind she was 20 with 4 children, and her father was so angry he made the servants of the house dig a grave in the woods and she was buried alive because of it on January 9th, but the wood was chopped away for the garden and her grave is actually in the pond" my heart skipped- I knew there was something wrong with that pond

"thats what she told us" I said, my voice barely above a whisper

"its a horrible story- poor girl" Mary told looking down "when did she tell you?"

"this morning, around 6ish"

"thats when it happened, 6am she was buried, we found it in a diary that was brought up from the old basement- obviously that basement is gone now though" the group as a whole let out a breath, one of pure shock

"fuck" Sam groaned

Soon it was time to go, we all went up grabbing our stuff saying our good byes to the house, Jack and Mary too, we all went out to Sam's car, putting all our things into the back. I opened my door getting into my back seat and looked to the floor, the same sweets from the day before, I picked up the pack tipping a few into my lap.

"guys were going to do no stops so if you need a piss then fuck it" Sam called staring his car

Soon everyone was settled in and the trip began again, Colby looked over to me sending a quick smile my way as I toyed with the sweet pack in my lap , I handed him a sweet and he happily opened it putting it into his mouth

"good?" he nodded letting his head fall back leaning onto the window "I'm so tired" I jawed, Colby looked over to me again, patting his lap "you sure?" he nodded not sharing any words but turning himself to be comfier for me, I leant down letting my head rest on Colby's thigh "goodnight" I joked, I closed my eyes feeling a soothing warmth come over me, subtly I felt Colbys hand stroke down my arm, stopping near my wrist and his other going to my scalp drawing small circles around my head, slowly I felt myself become lighter and soon I was fast asleep

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"look at them" someone spoke "they're gonna laugh at this when they're awake" someone else said, my eyes flittered open to the two smiling, staring faces of the two blondes "hello" Sam cooed

"mor-morning" I hummed stretching slightly, my hand hit something and I looked up to see the other sleeping face of Colby above me, I couldn't stop the shy smile from appearing on my face "Col" I called shaking him slightly

"no babe I'm tired" he muttered turning away, my heart stopped 'babe'? he was asleep, he didn't know he said it.. but everyone else herd

"he's gonna regret saying that" Sam sinisterly grinned with a wicked laugh

finally we all got out, Colby sleepily shuffled inside the house, scratching his hair out his face "that went fast" he huffed falling onto the sofa

"indeed it did babe" Sam giggled looking to me and back to Colby

"what?" he spoke looking to us

"nothing- anyways I've gotta take Amanda to the airport" I looked to the blonde girl who pouted coming over to me, I wrapped my arms around her

"thanks for the last day it was so cool, and it was great meeting you, we'll, have to hang out again" I grinned coming away

"absolutely! I loved this so much, see you soon Colby" the boy stood hugging her too and we both waved goodbye as Sam and her pulled away, we both walked back into the living room flopping into the couch with a sigh

"gonna come to the next haunted place?" he spoke looking over to me

"hm maybe- just don't wanna be kissed by a random ghosty man again though" I giggled facing Colby again, I hadn't noticed how close we were, our shoulders grazing against each others, faces inches away

"maybe you could get kissed by someone else?" he questioned, eyes falling to my lips then back up to me "...can I tell you what I tried to tell you this morning?" I nodded, no words able to leave my mouth "I was wondering if maybe I could...if I could kiss you?" I looked to the boy, paralysed by his words

"yes please" I answered, it came out my breathy then I imagined but the smile that crept onto the boys face made me realise it wasn't a bad thing. Gently Colby's hand slithered up to my jaw, cupping my face pulling me in lightly

His breath hitched, a low, deep moan escaping as our lips melded. It was a soft collision, yet every touch carried an electric charge, as though our mouths were destined to be together. Each motion felt instinctual, a choreographed dance of desire. Sensing Colby's longing, his tongue traced a path along my lips, a silent plea for entry that I welcomed eagerly. The kiss intensified, a symphony of heat and passion, a growing ache in my stomach got so much needier.

My actions became thoughtless, almost instinctive as I straddled him, our connection unbroken. ''God, you're incredible'' he murmured, his hands finding their place on my waist, his voice a deep, gravelly whisper that sent shivers down my spine. The air crackled with an intoxicating blend of desire and appreciation, his lips moved from my lips to my jaw and then my neck

"Mhmm Co-Colby" I whined as he reached the sweet spot, hearing my sigh he kept going, sucking deeper and harder "agh fuck" my hands gripped his shoulders, scrunching into his shirt, my back arching making me come away from his lips

"if you keep acting like this we might need to go somewhere else" I smiled looking down to the boy "my room?" he spoke and I just nodded jumping from his lap watching him intently as he stood grabbing me again, lifting me to meet his lips, I curled my arms around his neck pulling him as close as I could.

We began climbing the stairs, Colby's hands keeping me steady around his waist until we reached the top, he set me down softly and my hands went quickly down to his waist, fingers curling around his his shirt lifting it above his head and threw it to the floor, his actioned mirrored mine, my shirt quickly being on top if his crumpled on the floor, his hands quickly found the underneath of my thighs again and lifted me up carrying to his room.

"you're so beautiful" he whispered, as he set me on his bed, my fingers went to my jeans, pushing the button out the hole and soon down my legs and onto the floor, as soon as they were off Colby crawled above me, eyes eating every inch of me "look at you" he cooed, hand drawing up the side of me until it met my bra

"take it off?" I teased, a playful glint sparkling in my eyes as I curved a seductive smile on my lips. A subtle nod from him and I propped myself up, stealing a swift kiss before turning around. I could feel the warmth of his gentle fingers as they skillfully unhooked my bra, his lips tracing a tantalizing path against my bare skin, sending shivers down my spine. I turned to meet his gaze again, a coy expression playing on my face, silently inviting him to continue

"holy shit" He gazed in awe, his eyes tracing down my body as his head dipped closer. With a delicate motion, his lips caressed my breast, the tantalizing touch of his tongue flicking along my nipple sent shivers cascading down my spine, igniting a thrilling sensation that lingered

"fuck fuck fuck" I sang as he sucked harder his hand massaging the other "Colby- please fuck I need you" I cried, hand wrapping into his hair pulling him up "please" I begged, I pulled his hand from my waist to my heat letting him feel my need, his pricing eyes glared into mine with the most lustful grin play along his lips

"shit" he smirked, quickly he stood pulling down his cargos revealing the tent that had formed in his boxers that were tightly pulled on his skin, he sat back onto the bed and I couldn't help but crawl onto him again, my heat meeting his bulge, my lips went to his jaw, sucking as sweet mumbles fell from his lips. Unintentionally I let my hips grind against his, I couldn't help but create some sort of friction "fuck doll" his head lulled back, his body hitting the mattress moments after, my hand lay against his abs keeping me up while I pushed harder onto his tent

"Colby?" I asked seeing him look to him again "I really need you" my voice was shaky, needy. My finger traced a path from his v-line to his boxer strap, toying with the underneath begging for entrance

"fuck- need to be in you" he spoke, as he sat on his elbows, I grinned taking that as a yes to pull off the restraint from his cock "ughh" he quivered as it sprung to his stomach

"fuck me" I breathed, it seemed to light a fire in the boy, I felt our position switch, Colby towered above me, his arms reached above my head

"let me take care of you Y/n" he asked, peppering my face with small kisses, I nodded feeling his fingers go to my hips pulling my panties from my skin, the cold air hitting my burning core.

his fingers sweep my entrance "unnngh" I sighed eyes clamping closed, I reopened my eyes to watch the boy stick his slick fingers into his mouth, sucking off the reminiscences of me off

"you're so sweet baby girl-just like those fucking sweets" Colby looked to me, and without any words shared my mouth opened, and his two digits entered my mouth "mm"

It was enough teasing, we knew we couldn't keep teasing each other, it was torturous, his hand grabbed his cock slipping it gently between my folds "Col-Colby please" before I could even finish my pleas his tip pushed in me "aghhh" I called, my finger tips dug into the sheets, slowly he pushed deeper, incoherent noises fell from my lips, he stopped, our bodies meeting as he bottomed out

"shi-shi-shit Y/n... fuck" slowly the brunette pulled back achingly slow, feeling every inch of my inside before plowing back in, moans, groans, yelps of pleasure started to seep from us as he found a fast pace, the sound of sex filling the room, Colbys hands gently groping the skin

"Colby- Colby" I chanted, I grabbed one of his hands leading it to my neck, delicately his hand held me, not restricting my breathing but enough to make me want more of him, I traced sharp lines against his skin until my grasp fixed to his hair, every time his tip brushed my core my body shivered and pulled a tuft of his brown locks

"thats it Y/n- Take it take it take it!" Colby growled, his cock disappearing into my body "shit-" he swallowed

"Deeper Col- Fuck- Dee-deeper" I cried as I curled my hands around his head. Colby's eyes snapped to mine, those god damn blue eyes- the ones I stared at for years but never got to see them like this before, half shut but open enough to see his pupils growing larger with every hit

"say my name-" he moaned, I took one last gasp of air before the name 'Colby' flowed from my mouth sending rhythmic shivers down his back "ugh- Y/n I need you to keep doing that for me" for the first time since we began the pace slowed, his cock barely coming out of me "Fuck Y/n/n I'm so close" he whimpered sending a chill through my burning body "are you?" I nodded, no words escaping my mouth, our eyes locked, his eyes seeming to be darker and more lust filled than before, his hands moved from being around my neck to caging around my face "I cant hold it any longer babe" he moaned, his hips stuttered each time hitting my g-spot

"Co-Colby I'm going to- fuck- I'm gonna cum" I purred, hands scratching into his skin making him hiss in pleasure, soon we both groaned, his head falling into the crook of my neck

"ffffuuucckk" he cried as he pumped his load into me, I rolled my hips against him gently, riding out my high before I felt myself come down to the soothing feeling of lips against my face

"fuck you were so good sweetheart" Colby breathed, looking at my face checking I was okay

"I... I cant even speak" I smiled, hands holding onto his face, tracing his features

"fucked you that good?" he smirked jokily, slowly he pulled out, his hand rubbing over my stomach

"shut up" I grinned. The two of us lay there quietly for a moment, his arms coming around keeping me embraced to his side.

"you wont believe how long I've waned to do this with you" he soothed, pressing a kiss to the corner of my lip

"I always thought it was just me" I spoke

"wanna go grab a drink?" I nodded standing going to grab my panties off the floor "need a shirt?"

"yeah I think someone through mine onto the floor"

"Oh who was that?" I shook my head taking the t-shirt the boy handed me, I slipped it over my body taking in the cent of him, I went to take a step by my body felt shaky "you okay?" he laughed, hands gripping my arms

"mhm- just need a second" I giggled standing myself back up, soon we made it down stairs walking to go in the kitchen, my view was full with a blonde giving the most evil look, but not evil in a bad way, the way were straight away I knew the both of us were in for it

"so?" he spoke cocking his eyebrow up

"when did you get back?" Colby asked, pulling the fridge open and getting two bottles of something out

"about 10 minuets" I sighed, closing my eyes trying to ignore the blush from burning a hole in my face

"I called it years ago" Sam grinned coming from his place and hitting the back of the other boy before walking away

"aha don't go all shy Y/n- it's fine" the hands of Colby wrapped around my waist pulling me into a hug "you know he's only playing- but he isn't wrong, he called that we'd be together one day"

"Together?" I asked looking up to meet the eyes of the boy

"well- that was my next question" he sighed, lips pressing against mine "what do you think?"

"mh- I think its a good idea" my arms wound around his neck, pulling him to kiss my lips again "what do you think?"

"I think calling you mine sounds perfect"

#xplr #xplr club #sam and colby #sam golbach #colby brock #colby brock smut #cole robert brock #hell week #colby brock x reader #Colby Brock #samandcolby #2023 #january #x reader #smut #Amanda xplr #the conjuring #haunted #youtube #young love #emo #emo king #tattoos #colby x reader

[hiraya-rawr]

my prof: we're only asking for a little bit of your time :)

my class schedule every other day:

7:00AM - 9:30AM // 9:30AM - 12:00PM // 1:00PM - 3:30PM // 3:30PM - 6:00PM

literally no morning or afternoon break. please im sorry if i cant write as much :,)) i have tuesdays and most of weekends off but it'll get busy soon. I'll get used to thinks quickly, once i do, ill add tumblr to my schedule :>

#hira rant

[nasaty]

Noctiluscence

Student Aizawa x (she/her) student reader, so much angssssttt and grief and a bunch of fluff. (Do not bring any pedo shit into my presence or I will fucking destroy you)

MANGA SPOILERS until episode 107 comes out. - also this requires context that I am not providing from MHA manga and the arc with Aizawa in Vigilantes. TW: death. 9 part series.

Ch. 1 here | Ch. 8 here

Ch. 9

Uncertainty hung in the air the next morning. You peeled yourself off of your bed and patted it down, trying to find your phone that you fell asleep using.

Direct Message - Aizawa

Y/n- (2:03AM)

Shouta….I didn’t mean to upset you. I was just really surprised at what you said. I know that took a lot do you to say…I’m so sorry.

Aizawa - (read at 2:04AM)

Y/n - (4:27AM)

I understand if you don’t want to talk to me anymore, I was just in my own head and I wasn’t thinking straight when you told me… but please, at least talk to Hizashi. I don’t want you to just fall off the face of the earth. I’m worried…

Aizawa - (read at 4:29AM)

Y/n - (4:30AM) please go to sleep, you shouldn’t be up this late. you’re already overworking yourself.

Aizawa - (read at 6:45AM)

You hoped that the time stamp meant he got at least a couple hours of sleep. Contemplating how to explain to him how you felt, you got ready for school. You didn’t really even know how you felt. You had a crush on Shouta for a long time, but you didn’t want to lose him or ruin the friendship. He meant so much to you, but you didn’t know how to show it. It seems that his inability to express emotions somewhat rubbed off on you.

Once again, you drifted through your classes in a stupor, only thinking about your lunch hour today. When the bell rang, it jolted you back into reality. You hesitantly made your way to the roof and gently pushed open the door.

No one was there.

Direct message - Aizawa

Y/n - I missed you at lunch today

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A couple days passed without hearing from Shouta. You had reached out to Hizashi and Nemuri to see if they had heard anything, but they had no idea what happened. Nemuri pried it out of you.

“HE SAID THAT TO YOU?! Holy shit did you fuck him or something??”

“WHAT no! We’ve been doing the same thing for a while” you explained.

“You mean constantly watching movies together on the couch and snuggling?” She smirked.

Your pulled your palms to your face as you blushed. “No…. I mean…. Kind of… but it wasn’t like cuddling it was-“

“I knew it. You need to talk to him. He’s being a shithead”

“No he’s not,” you defended him. “He’s..fragile. I don’t think he knows how I feel about him…”

“OMG WELL SHIT GO TELL HIM, IDIOT!”

You attempted to match her volume, “I CANT FIND HIM.”

“Girl what the fuck. He’s probably in the training gym. He hardly ever leaves that place. Only for yoOOoouUuuU.” She sings.

You scoffed at her, but you ended up taking her advice.

The next day when lunch hour arrived you made your way to the basement, to the training gym, to search for him. Surprisingly quickly, you spotted him leaving the restroom, and throw away a brown paper bag on his way out. Was he eating his lunch in the bathroom to hide from you?

You ran up to him and grabbed his forearm, startling the hero for the first time. You were too stressed to be proud of yourself for making it past his senses.

He turned to you and seemed to be astounded that you reached out to him. You stood with his arm in your hands as he froze, and you fixated on his eyes giving him pleading look.

“Shouta…why…are you avoiding me?” You said, looking distraught and almost shaking.

His gaze bounced back and forth between your eyes in silence

“I….don’t understand, I thought we had a great time together….isn’t that what you said? And all the sudden you disappear on me? Did I imagine our whole friendship?”

His voice cracked, “you didn’t imagine it… I’ve had a wonderful time with you. I just thought you felt…differently.” He lightly slid his arm out of your grasp.

You racked your brain trying to comprehend what he meant. “What do you mean differently? Do you think I dislike you?? After all of this? I’m the one that invited you over!”

“That’s uh.. not what I meant..” he retreated into his hoody a bit which made you realize your tone. You were agitated, almost shouting. You took a bigger breath and continued.

“What do you mean, Shouta? I’m so confused and I miss you.”

His see his pupils widen as he looks at you and then turns away. “I’ve been feeling differently for a while… like… in a more than friends way….” Your jaw dropped, “but…I understand if I read into things too much… I promise it won’t happen again”

You moved without thinking, placed your hand on his cheek to turn his face towards you.

“Shouta…. When I met you, I knew somehow that you would be incredibly important to me. I had no idea how or when, but I’ve been drawn to you forever. I have been convincing myself that you were just being nice, and that I was imagining feelings this whole time…. What you’re telling me is- “

“I’m in love with you.” He confessed an grabbed your waist to pull you into the most saccharine, captivating kiss. As he pulled away, you noticed his eyes were so beaming so much it was blinding. You almost had to squint.

“I’m in love with you too, Shouta.”

#aizawa fanfiction #aizawa fluff #aizawa slow burn #aizawa x female reader #bnha aizawa #character death #hizashi yamada #kayama nemuri #loud cloud #mha #bnha #shirakumo oboro

[netflixmomma516]

We’re Not Dead | Bryce Walker Imagine

*BUZZ BUZZ*

I lazily turn over and see my phone lighting up the room. I grab it and swipe it open.

I see a text through half-open eyes.

Unknown; We're not dead. I'm coming back for you I promise. I love you and always will. - Bryce

I sit up in bed fully awake.

I rub my eyes to clear the crusty out of them. I reread the text.

Unknown; We're not dead. I'm coming back for you I promise. I love you and always will. -Bryce

My heart starts to race.

I immediately text back.

YN: Where are you?

Bryce: I cant tell you yet, but I promise I'm coming back for you.

Tears well in my eyes.

YN: I need you back please. It's hell with out you.

Bryce: I promise I'll be there soon.

I toss and turn all night. The last memory I have with him is the night of Homecoming. He gave me a promise ring. A promise to always be there for each other and love each other. NO MATTER WHAT!

I know all the fucked up things he did, but he was getting better. I was a witness of him getting better.

My alarm goes off.

I rush to get ready.

YN; Stel, I need to talk to you meet me at Monet's before school.

Estella: Of course sweetheart.

Estella and I have both had our fair share of heartache. She lost her brother and I lost the love of my life. They were both labeled monsters and in their own way they were. Stell and I both know Monty didn't kill Bryce. But we never figured out who.

Monet's 7:30am.

"Just an ice coffee with cream and sugar," I say with a smile. I look around the shop and see Estella look directly at me with a smile. I grab my coffee and meet her at the table.

I whisper, "last night I got a text…" I say and look around. "From Bryce." She gives me a weird look. "There's no way." She looks dumbfounded. I pass her my phone. She reads the text and rereads the text. "What does it mean we're?" She asks. "I think he's talking about him and Monty." Her eyes glass over. "Stell, I don’t know but I know I'm going to find them." "Consider me in." She says with a smile.

Me; Bryce please text me. Bryce: Yes? Me; Where are you? Bryce: Meet me at the campsite we always went too. Me; On my way.

"Lets go." Stella says.

I grab my keys and head to Bryce and I's campsite.

We get to the middle of the woods next to the clearing of the lake.

I park my car and go to the clearing. I take a deep breath and close my eyes.

My mind goes to the last night we were here.

The smile and laughs. The joking and flirting. The kissing and sex.

Tears fall onto my freckled cheek.

Its almost as I feel Bryce wrapped around my torso. I snuggle in closer with my eyes still closed.

"Please come back Bryce." I whisper. "I am back." I hear him whisper in my ear. I open my eyes, and turn around.

I see the dark haired, brown eyed, man I fell in love with. I touch his face making sure he is real. The last 6 months have been hell without him. I have no one except for Estella, she's the only one I know that understands my pain.

"YN, I'm back for many reasons. But tonight it's all about us. I promise."

#13 reasons why #13rw #13 reasons why imagines #13 reasons why imagine #Bryce Walker #bryce walker imagines #bryce walker imagine #s4 #monty #monty de la cruz #montgomery de la cruz #montgomery de la cruz imagine

[lieberts]

tagged by @jidai​ and @zenien​ and @dicennio​​ to do these <3 not tagging anyone, but feel free to say i tagged you if you wanna do these

1. MUSIC TAG MEME Rules: Post your first twenty songs in a playlist on shuffle

can’t let you go by adam lambert oh god

the giant’s exit from the majora’s mask ost

sing for absolution by muse

all that we see by the black ryder

offering by black city lights

miss moneypenny by placebo

spusti svetlost na put by kralj čačka

dance of the knights by prokofiev

suspirium by thom yorke

the hills by the weeknd

i don’t like mondays by the boomtown rats

silence by azra

spirit of peace (part 3) by popol vuh

build that wall from the bastion ost

politik by coldplay

jenova from the ffvii ost

akira the wild from the devilman crybaby ost

jazzman by carole king

morning after by ariel pink & weyes blood

modern man by arcade fire

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2. Rules: MAKE A NEW POST, bold what applies to you and tag whoever you want to get to know better.

APPEARANCE I’m an I-need-to-pull-the-driver-seat-all-the-way-in kind of a person // i wear glasses or contacts // i have blonde hair // i prefer loose clothing to tight clothing  // i have one or more piercings // i have at least one tattoo  // i have blue eyes // i have dyed or highlighted my hair // i have gotten plastic surgery // i have or had braces // i sunburn easily // i have freckles // i paint my nails // i wear makeup // i don’t often smile // i am pleased with how I look // I prefer nike to adidas // i wear baseball hats backward

HOBBIES & TALENTS i play a sport // i can play an instrument  // i am artistic (ehh??) // i know more than one language // i have won a trophy in some sort of competition // i can cook or bake without a recipe // i know how to swim // i enjoy writing // i can do origami // i prefer movies to tv shows // i can execute a perfect somersault // i enjoy singing // i could survive in the wild on my own // i have read a new book series this year // i enjoy spending time with friends // i travel during school or work breaks // i can do a handstand (kind of...... not for long tho)

RELATIONSHIPS i am in a relationship // i have a crush // i have a best friend i have known for ten years // my parents are together // i have dated my best friend // i am adopted // my crush has confessed to me // i have a long-distance relationship // i am an only child // i give advice to my friends // i have made an online friend // i met up with someone i have met online

AESTHETIC i have heard the ocean in a conch shell // i have watched the sunrise // i enjoy rainy days // i have slept under the stars // i meditate outside // the sound of chirping calms me // i enjoy the smell of the beach // i know what snow tastes like // i listen to music to fall asleep // i enjoy thunderstorms // i enjoy cloud watching // i have attended a bonfire // i pay close attention to colors // i find mystery in the ocean // i enjoy hiking on nature paths // autumn is my favourite season

MISC i can fall asleep in a moving vehicle // i am the mom friend // i live by a certain quote // i like the smell of sharpies // i am involved in extracurricular activities // i enjoy mexican food // i can drive a stick-shift  // i believe in true love // i make up scenarios to fall asleep // i sing in the shower // i wish i lived in a video game // i have a canopy above my bed // i am multiracial // i am a redhead // i own at least one dog // i have a cat ---------

3. THIS OR THAT TAG GAME (1)

sage green or baby blue | moon or stars | paperback or hardback | piercings or tattoos (neither tbh) | drawing or writing | saturn or jupiter | line without a hook or mr. loverman | ancient greece or ancient egypt | prague or amsterdam | dark academia or light academia | indie aesthetic or cottagecore | stargazing or late night drives | strawberries or watermelons (these are hard wtf both??) | rings or necklaces | extrovert or introvert | dragons or griffins | ocean or mountain | silver or gold | dawn or dusk | creative or free spirit | early bird or night owl | cook or bake | dagger or sword ---------

4. THIS OR THAT TAG GAME (2)

indoor plants or gardens // cloud-watching or star-gazing // water or fire // paperback or hardcover // running or hiking // sleeping with socks or without socks // fruit or vegetables // hanging plants or succulents // dark wood or light wood // handwritten or typed // instagram or pinterest (both suck and are full of reposts but instagram is seriously bad) // braids or pigtails // books or movies // oceans or meadows // forests or fields // sweet or salty // ice cream or chocolate // hoodies or sweaters // long hair or short hair // piercings or tattoos // summer or winter // boots or sneakers // cars or motorcycles // curls or straight hair // castles or cottages // sunny days or storms // reptiles or birds // disney or nickelodeon // strawberries or watermelon // essays or posters // phones or laptops // glass or stone // dark or light // photos or paintings // circuses or theaters // reading or writing // dogs or cats // poetry or novels // monsters or ghosts // thrift shops or libraries // fiction or non-fiction

5. Post one picture from my camera roll (no new downloads) to sum up my personality!

6. 30 QUESTIONS TAG GAME RULES: Answer 30 questions and tag others

Name/Nickname: jeja, jeca, j, lena Gender: female Star Sign: aries Height: in a surprising turn of events im 167cm not 165 as i initially thought <3 Time: 10:30am Birthday: april 10 Favorite Bands: arcade fire, muse, placebo Favorite Solo Artists: hozier, chelsea wolfe, idk Song stuck in my head: vive la fete by noir desir Last Movie: interview with the vampire Last Show: i have no idea i havent finished a tv show in ages tbh When did I create this blog: i think january 2011? jesus What do I post: anime, art, video games Last thing googled: vive la fete by noir desir to see if i spelled it correctly Other blogs: wessobrunn but its inactive Do I get asks: i get bullied by sen a lot Why I chose my url: because i love the liebert twins from naoki urasawas monster<333 Following: 147 Followers: nah Average hours of sleep: like 7-8 hours? Instruments: none What am I wearing: beige sweatpants and a black hoodie fashion icon jelena Dream job: i dont dream of labor Dream trip: japan, asia in general, central europe Favorite food: too many im not a picky eater Nationality: montenegrin (derogatory) Favorite song: BRUH i dont have one fav song there are too many Last book read: mađarska rečenica by andrej nikolaidis  Top three fictional universes I’d like to live in: i think it says a lot about the kind of content i consume when i cant think of a single one that would actually be enjoyable to live in...........

#i have a whole folder with liam payne pics like that its very important to me #jtp

[chicagopd2020]

New Beginnings Are Good For Everyone!!!

Kim Burgess has loved everything about her job. Honestly it was getting to be a little to much for at times. She loves being an FBI Agent & helping save lives of the people & putting away the bad guys but she is ready for something different. She still wants to work in law enforcement but something with a smaller unit of people. Luckily she made a new friend with a woman that had some into the FBI a few months ago. Erin Lindsey.

She was given the job of showing her the ropes of how everything was done. Within the time that they had soent together they had become very close, she would even go as far as saying Erin was her best friend. She was jealous of her a little though becayse tge unit that she came from in Chicago was exactly the kind of work that she has always wanted to do.

It just becomes a bit much at times. I just sometimes wish I work in a unit like you used to work in, Kim says to Erin

Kim you have been here for right at 5 years if you a change nobody would judge you. Erins tells her

That may be true but I honestly wouldnt even know where to start, all I know is how to be an FBI Agent.

If I can set up a metting between you and my old sargent in Chicago, would you be willing to fly out there for a few days.

You would really do that for me? She asks

Of course as much as you have done for me its the least I could do.

Kim thinking that it wouldnt actually happen told Erin if she could set it up that she would fly out and me him.

Erin let Kim know to keep her a couple days & she would have an answer for her.

Kims weekend was pretty uneventful for the most part. It was just her & her couch...with the work week she had she thought she deserved it. Knowing Monday morning would come quicker than she wanted it to. As her alarm goes off at 4:30am like usual she gets up so that she would have enough time to get ready to make it on time to the office.

She arrives at the office at 6:30am like normal with her & Erin's morning coffee to help them survive the day.

Erin spots Kim walking her way with the extra coffee in her hand. She met her halfway because she was just so excited to let her know about the phone called that happened this weekend. She just had to let her know everything that she was told.

Good Morning Beautiful    Erin says excitedly with a huge smile on her face.

Good Morning to you too.    Smiling back to her

So I was going to wait til lunch and tell you the information that i found out this weekend but I dont think I can wait that long.

What are you talking about?    She asked puzzled

So I talked to my olf Sargent Hank Voight and he actually has an open spot in the Intelligence Unit. He is willing to meet with you next week to see if you would be a great addition to the team or not. I vouched for you and told him that he wouldnt find anyone better.

Kim had this blank look on her face...she just couldnt believe this was happening. She had pushed it of her mind thinking it wasnt going to happen.

I cant think you enough for doing this for me. What if he doesnt like me?

Just be yourself & he will love you. Plus ive seen first hand what you can do in the field. I know you are an amazing cop & would be a perfect fit for the team.

All Kim could do is hug Erin so tight.

She left for Chicago tomorrow & would be there for couple days. She has never been more nervous about anything but the only reason that she was this way was because she wanted it so bad. Everything was packed and ready to head to what she was hoping was the beginning of a new start to the rest of her life.

**Jay**

Ever since Erin had left without saying anything to him he just hasnt been the same. He goes to work does his job but besides that he doesnt really care about much of anything else. His job is the only thing that he has good going for him right now. He would only hang with the team at mollys for few drinks but he would always stay quiet just thinking about maybe what he done to cause her to up and leave him without as much as an explanation.

Everyone was worried about Jay, they knew he was hurting because of her leaving but he never let it affect his job performance. They just want him to be happy and find someone to make him happy again. They all know that she isnt coming back this time. She is gone for good and there is nothing that Jay,Hank or anyone on the team could do to bring her back. Maybe they could talk him into letting them set him up on a blind date.

5 months had gone by and he knew that he should put himself back out in the dating world but he didnt really want to start caring about someone again the way he did her just to be hurt again, but he also knows that he cant compare every woman to her and not every woman out there is going to hurt him or leave him. He just has to be a little more cautious this time before letting someone competely in. Maybe just maybe he might take the guys up on their option of letting them set me up on a blind date, I mean if it doesnt work out i mean at least he cant say that he didnt try.

He walks into the pin and he sees Adam & Kevin having a conversation so he walks up to them with a slight smile on his face.

Set it up. He blurts out

They both look at him kind of lost.

Ok..What exactly are you setting up?

You said that you wanted to set me up on a blind date & i thought that i would give it a shot. Whats the worst thing that could happen....Get stood up or End up not having a good time. I will never know if I dont give it a shot.

They were surprised but they are just glad that he is finally putting himself out there or at least giving them the opportunity to get him back in the dating life.

You got it brother..    They both say with a smile on their face.

Saying that he was nervous was a little bit of an understatement. He had arrived a little bit early just to make sure that everything was fine and set up to his liking. He had been sitting for 30 mins. She was a few mins late...whoever she was.

After sitting there for a little while longer he realized that she wasnt coming so he just decided to go to the bar and have drink or 2 or 4 he hadnt really made up his mind. He was sitting there looking at his drink when he seen a shadow standing next to him.

Is this seat taken? The nice lady ask

Not at all feel free he says as he goes back to nursing his drink getting lost in his thoughts.

Im sorry i dont mean to intrude but are you ok? You dont look the best...No offense. She ask him

No offense taken. I let my friends set me up on a blind date and whoever she was decided that to stand me up, so instead of sitting at the table looking like a fool i decided that i would come over here and have a few drinks. So i guess you could say that i have been better. Whats a lady like you doing out at this time of night?

I am staying in a room upstairs & have alot going through my mind so i thought that maybe if I came down here and had a drink that maybe it would ease my mind a bit and that i would actually be able to get some sleep. She informs him

Are you in Chicago for business or fun?

I am here for business I am currently living in Washington but I have an interview tomorrow and if all goes well then i may just end up permanently in Chicago. Heres to hoping she says as she holds up her glass.

He holds his up as well. I hope everything goes the way that you want it to tomorrow. My name is Jay he says as he sticks out his hand with a small smile.

My name is Kim it was very nice meeting you Jay but I think that it is time that i head upstairs to get some rest so that i dont look too tired in the morning. Good Night and I hope that your night gets better.

Thank you Kim, Good Luck tomorrow on your interview.

As she walks away he couldnt help but to look over his shoulder one last time before she was out of his sight knowing that he may never see this woman again. He was surprised that when he looked over he shoulder that his eyes was met with hers looking right back at him and she turn the corner with one final smile. When she was out of his sight he finished the drink in his hand he decided to just head home, turns out that being stood up turned out to be one of the best things that had happened to him. He really had to thank the boys for choosing such a horrible date for him.

PLEASE LET ME KNOW WHAT YOU THINK...AND BE TRUTHFUL & LET ME KNOW IF I SHOULD CONTINUE OR NOT????

#jay halstead imagine #jay halstead x reader #kim burgess #chicago pd x reader #Jay halstead x kim burgess #chicagopd

[jadeimpala67]

Let me be clear... I didnt make this blog to be political. And if anything here needs to be corrected or addressed, let me know. I mean nothing but respect here and am just sharing my experience.

When I made this blog, roughly 3 years ago, I made it to escape other social media apps and indulge in fandoms, and crush over my favorite celebrities.

However. A lot has changed in 3 years. And I feel so strongly about what's been going on, that I need to write something in a space I know it will be heard.

Some of you who have been following me for years will remember that I was homeless for just about 6 months.

And I want to talk about this specifically because I feel it's an important example of white privilege that most people wont ever experience.

Many people in nice towns or city areas will get a specific image in their head when they hear "Homeless Person."

But that image, will not be a 5'4, bathed, 21 year old kid, working two jobs.

While homeless, I was ALLOWED to camp for 6 months inside of an external storage unit facility. I'm 85% positive the woman who ran the place knew I was living in the unit I was renting. There was an alternative gate you can get to just outside of the cameras that she never kept locked.

I would work from 10pm to 7am, to walk (I did not have and still do not have a drivers license) down the street to my morning job to work 7:30am to about 3-4pm for tips.

I often fell asleep outside at one of the tables at my second job when my shift was over, because the woman running the storage units shift didnt end until 6pm.

I never got asked to leave.

When the heat wave hit my state, temperatures up to 100⁰F, I was allowed to spend 3 entire days in the breakroom of my overnight job. Which was against the rules of the company. My supervisor told the store owner about my situation, and he took pity on me, letting me stay in the AC, with access to free samples from the grocery department, and a microwave to cook tv dinners with.

On the days where I didnt work my morning job, I would often walk down the streets, singing to myself outloud, and would camp out on the grass in front of anywhere i pleased.

I was never asked to move. I was never threatened to have the cops called on me for loitering.

When I needed to bathe, I had friends or coworkers, or my grandmother take me in for the night to shower, wash my clothes, and sleep on their couch or bed if it was available.

I almost never had to ask.

I spent money recklessly, because I didn't see a future for myself beyond my situation. I drank almost every day, because the bar was really the only thing there was to do in town when you're alone. I took uber's out of state to concerts. I participated in GISHWHES 2017, and did the tattoo item. I almost never had money saved.

I was never judged for this, or looked down on. I went to work drunk many times because I wasnt paying attention to the time, and left the bar late. My job was never once at risk.

And the biggest thing here is I ALWAYS had my backpack with me. I never went anywhere without it. And in it I always had snacks, my electronics, deodorant, and sunscreen. I was never questioned. My presence in a public store with a black backpack never made anyone nervous. I never had the cops called on me.

And to be clear, I still carry that backpack. I've had it for 3 years now, I still take it with me everywhere. I've never had one single person ever make a complaint or even give me a side eye for it. I've never had store employees ask to check it before waking in or out. Was never accused of stealing with it. Nothing. It's just an oversized purse.

And I cant help but wonder how different my situation would've been if I wasnt white. I sure as hell was not the only homeless person working at my job, yet I never saw anyone else stay in the breakroom to escape the summer heat... how many nights did they sweat or freeze alone on the streets? How many of them were arrested for trying to find shelter on abandoned property? How many of them got lucky and found somebody to take them in for a night or two? How many of them could actually drive and sleep in their cars? And out of those people, how many were arrested for falling asleep with the key in the ignition?

I never thought twice about my situation back then. I thought it was just a town full of good hearted people willing to help someone in need. Someone who took pity on a homeless 21yr old, blatantly obvious LGBT kid.

But how much of that was factored into simply because I was white?

I could sit by a lamp post and have an officer pull over and just ask me if I was okay, before leaving again.

I could take a jog around town.

I could fall asleep at my job, in public.

I could walk around with a backpack, anywhere.

I could do a lot of stuff even homeless that a lot of other white people take for granted as much as I have. Stuff that POC have to be on guard for every day or it might cost them their LIFE.

And realizing this has shaken me to my core, but I refuse to let it scare me. I'm using this time to educate myself and learn from the communities around me what *I* can do, with my privilege to help them and their communities. I may never experience their hardships, but I have enough empathy in my being to know that trying to live your life, terrified every single day from the people who took a job that's supposed to protect you, needs to change. And I'll fight on their side during this revolution with every chance I get

#black lives matter #white privilege #homelessness #personal #viva la resistance #justice for geroge #justice for george floyd #i stand with you

[robogirldick]

*nails this list to the wall like martin luther king*

(its 2:31 am and i know this is my own beef if you can stand double ear i have nothing against u especially mutuals i love yall, also please take this lightly its like half a joke)

THE LIST OF NOT VALID ANIMAL GIRLS (due to double ear)

1. cat planet cuties : my first forre into catgirls, it sucks

2. im sad to say, blake rwby: my goodness i love her so much but the double ear makes me want to scream my whole head off BECAUSE i love her so much

3. that vutber dog girl: she is so fucking cute and i wanna love her with all my heart but the double ear makes me puke in my own mouth

4. that one girl from the gif that gets scritches, i know nothing about her

AND NOW TO BALANCE OUT THAT NEGATIVITY IM GUNNA POST ALL THE AMAZING GIRLS I CAN THINK OF, UNBURDENED BY DOUBLE EAR

1.entire cast of ‘dog days’

2. the girls from nekopara (not that i wanna play the game myself cuz its strait)

3. pink tokyo mew mew girl

4. CATRA, OH MY GOD CATRA SHE BRINGS A WHOLE NEW BALL TO THE GAME 

5. kipo when shes like halfway in, shut up it counts she only ever has one pair at a time

6. every fucking miqo’te

7 miss fortune skullgirls

8, ahri league of legends 

9.kit ballard from blade kitten (fun side scroller play it)

10.catra again, question me and taste my blade

11.MAD MEW MEW, MY GIRL MADDY HAS TO BE ON HERE

12.captain amelia from treasure planet

13. i cant express how mad i am that i cant put blake on this list

14. the somewhat cat-like girls from centaur no nayami

15. horse girl racing anime i dont wanna look up the name

16.HOLO SPICE AND WOLF!

17.lunalight panther dancer/ ghostrick nekomusume/ felis, lightsworn archer (all yugioh girls)

18.michiru bna (shut up furries count in my book, we’re all just bitches with tails)

19.ferris from re:0 (im pretty sure, its a little hard to tell with her hair)

20.bastet from SMITE

21.catrine demew and catty noir from monster high

22.elh solatorobo (im sorry i love her too much not to mention her)

23.i can barely even follow my own rules ive added at least 2 full on furries now

24. im fucking unhinged yall

ok ive been working on this for an hour its 3:30am i hope i got my fucking point across, no more doulble ear ruining good designs

#fugking nightblogging like its 2013. heratigeposts come lock me up for saying that #i really hope nobody like actuallt gets mad about me hating double ear #catgirl #doggirl

[dirtycreekwater]

Three Hours Behind, Five Hours Ahead

description: Logan Roman and Virgil are in a long distance relationship and trying their best to deal with that. having separation anxiety, Virgil struggles the most.

genre: fluff & hurt/comfort. human au.

word count: 1,109

ship: romantic analogince

warnings: some implied nsfw stuff. not graphic at all. don’t think theres anything else but hey lemme know if you need something tagged

a/n: this isn’t really gonna be a chaptered series?? i don’t really know what it’s gonna be tbh but it’s something. also Remus might be a minor background character at some point so remrom/incest shippers please do not interact thank you

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Sunlight was slowly starting to filter into the room; not that Virgil had even noticed. His eyes were glued to his phone screen, the blue light emanating from it putting a strain on his eyes. He was sure they were bloodshot, having stayed up all night staring at said screen in the total darkness. He could hear his boyfriends’ voices scolding him already.

As if on cue a quiet ping brought his attention to the top of his screen. It was Logan, his Logan, in the group chat he and his boyfriends had created when they first met online. He already knew exactly what that nerd had said. He didn’t even have to read the preview.

Logan 🐝🖤 6:04am

Why are you on tumblr at 6 in the morning, Virgil?

Surprised he took this long to message me, Virgil thought.

Virgil 6:05am

bc i love torturing myself apparently idk

Logan 🐝🖤 6:05am

Please stop doing this to yourself, love.

Virgil 6:07am

but babe i need the memes

Logan 🐝🖤 6:08am

What you need is sleep. Try to now, please?

Roman 👑❤️ 6:08am

Ugh Virge wtf go to sleep 🙄

Virgil couldn’t help but smile at that. Roman cared in his own way, he was quite different from Logan. And Virgil himself was pretty different as well. They were certainly a strange trio, but it worked so well.

Virgil 6:10am

i don’t wanna sleep

Virgil 6:10am

also shut up Ro you should be asleep rn too it’s 3am for you

Logan 🐝🖤 6:11am

Why don’t you want to sleep? And yes I agree. Go to sleep, Ro.

Roman ❤️👑 6:12am

Aw but guys I don’t wanna either :(

Virgil 6:13am

sleeping alone sucks

Virgil 6:13am

i miss you guys

Roman 👑❤️ 6:13am

Same 😭

Logan 🐝🖤 6:15am

Oh, loves. I miss you both too.

Roman 👑❤️ 6:15am

😭😭💔💔

Logan 🐝🖤 6:16am

But you can’t keep doing this to yourselves.

Virgil 6:17am

you cant stop me

Logan 🐝🖤 6:17am

Virgil, please.

Virgil bit his lip, maybe a bit too hard, and set his phone down. He hadn’t realized he started crying until his vision completely blurred. He felt silly really, crying just because he was alone. He wasn’t really. He had his boyfriends, he did. He had group chats, and facetime, and other video calls, and tumblr blogs. He had them. It just didn’t feel like enough. He recalled the first time they all met in person. They stayed in Roman’s house in Los Angeles, California. Logan flew in from London, England and he himself flew in from his small Pennsylvania town. It was truly the best week of his life. Roman had a huge bed, too big for just one person. It was perfect for all three of them, and god he felt so lucky. He remembered the way Logan’s Quasi-British accent sounded in person, and the way Roman’s boisterous voice seemed to fill an entire room. He especially remembered the way Roman’s sheets, and their skin felt against his own; the way their hands tangled in his hair, and lips moved over his. All he wanted was that week back.

Logan 🐝🖤 6:22am

Virgil? Roman?

Virgil took in a shaky breath, and picked his phone back up. He was just going to let himself be vulnerable, completely honest. He could do that.

Virgil 6:23am

i just hate being long distance so fucking much,, i can’t handle it,,, i just wanna be held again,,,

The next five minutes were the most nerve wracking minutes in Virgil’s whole life. Okay, maybe less nerve wracking than the time he waited for their responses to his crush confession. That was quite horrifying, but honestly this felt pretty similar. Like swallowing knives. The typing bubble had disappeared, and reappeared many times. He almost wanted to turn his phone off, and never turn it back on again.

Then finally a message appeared.

Logan 🐝🖤 6:28am

We’re not going to be long distance forever, my love. I promised you both that a while ago did I not? And I always keep promises, yes? Come on, it’s been two years. You should know that by now. Don’t lose sleep over this. Everything will be okay soon, very soon.

Virgil almost hated how good Logan was at comforting him, and Roman. He was always saying emotions were gross, and they just weren’t his thing, but yet somehow he always seemed to handle them perfectly.

Virgil 6:30am

damn it L how dare you make me cry more

Roman 👑❤️ 6:31am

How dare you make me cry as well!

Logan 🐝🖤 6:32am

My intention was only to reassure, and comfort. I apologize.

Virgil 6:33am

yeah well you did exactly that you stupid nerd

Virgil 6:34am

but um can we start facetiming more often? like at night? hearing your voices and seeing your faces really does help me sleep

Roman 👑❤️ 6:35am

Yes!!!

Logan 🐝🖤 6:36am

Well, being a few hours ahead of the both of you makes that quite difficult, sweetheart. I’m sure we can work something out though.

Virgil 6:37am

man fuck timezones

Virgil 6:38am

im gonna fight time

Logan 🐝🖤 6:38am

Maybe do that after you sleep.

Virgil 6:39am

no right now

Virgil 6:39am

im gonna do it

Roman 👑❤️ 6:40am

I’ll help 🗡🛡

Virgil 6:40am

sick 🔪💣

Logan 🐝🖤 6:41am

No fighting the abstract concept of time. Sleep now. Both of you.

Roman 👑❤️ 6:42am

But Looooooo

Virgil 6:42 am

:(

Logan 🐝🖤 6:42am

No. Sleep.

“God, we’re dorks,” Virgil said aloud to himself. He then took a deep breath to calm himself before he typed out a new message. “Quit being a little bitch, Virgil.”

Virgil 6:43am

ok but can we facetime first? pls?

Roman 👑❤️ 6:44am

Yeah!!! You free rn Lo?

Logan 🐝🖤 6:44am

I’m always free for my loves.

Virgil 6:44am

thats gay

Logan 🐝🖤 6:45am

Excellent observation skills, Virgil. You never fail to impress me.

Virgil 6:45am

shut up

Logan 🐝🖤 6:45am

Why don’t you make me?

Virgil started to respond but the facetime screen, and obnoxious ringtone cut him off. Of course Roman would purposefully interrupt his and Logan’s bickering. Logan always did the same to them. Rolling his eyes he hesitantly accepted the call, and rolled over onto his side so he could hold his phone more comfortably. He broke out into a wide grin once he saw his beautiful boyfriends smirking back at him.

“Hey, guys.”

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tag list: @royallyroman @crazyfangirls-stuff @easy-meta-knight @shyanonarchives

#sanders sides #analogince #logan sanders #roman sanders #virgil sanders #long distance au #three hours behind five hours ahead #thbfha #olisfics

[vogelmeister]

Content that no one asked for- My favourite Eurovision winners of the past decade (Note how I said favourite and not best, because lets be real, Euphoria will slap all these bitches.)

10. 2011

This I feel, is a common opinion. I recently was watching a rerun of 2011 with some ESC friends on discord and I kept on calling this song “Zero Chemistry” because,,,, well. The lack of chemistry the two singers have here make me straight up uncomfortable especially after the bridge (and my boyfriend agrees with me). Like, I can tell they’re not actually in love and they’re acting and when it’s that obvious, its just- egh. As for the song, well its cute (may have even been stuck in my head in my final art exam) but there were ten out of ten better songs that year (Lena) and while it defs is a qualifier, it ain’t a winner.

9. 2017

Thing is…. I can totally see why this won, unlike 2011, so that’s why it’s not last. But I didn’t like the guys attitude (the winner speech) and the song isn’t my jam. The winners reprise with the sister was sweet and tbh I cannot fault that as she really was half his journey. But thats all I have to say about is.

8. 2016

First, this has NOTHING to do with Dami Im. For political reasons,,, this is quite low but that doesn’t mean I hate it. It’s actually quite a good song and oh my gosh her voice. It’s just- *chefs kiss* But also, whenever I hear this song I have a specific embarrassing memory comes to my head (think, high note no earphones silent room) and that has turned me off the song a bit. And yes, I think this song was far too politically included to compete in Eurovision, but there are always those that slip through the cracks (Armenia am I right). And I am a history nerd so I cant fault the history behind it. Just that damn memory- 

7. 2018

Picture this. I am 17, freshly getting into my big europhase. And so I pay attention to the contest for the first time ever, pick my favourites and then this won. I was shocked. Yes it was quirky but I never thought it would win, and I think it’s victory might have been partly because of #MeToo. It’s a bop though, just still don’t think it was a winner. Sorry, Israel. (although i am a tiny bit happy that Salvador handed over to this oops)

6. 2015

Ahh, 2015 and your overwhelmingly strong top 3, what would we do without you. Let me preface that while Heroes is a bop and defs deserved to do as well as it did, I personally think Italy or Russia’s performances were more powerful and raw than this. That said, Sweden still earned this win, and I cannot fault that. However, since I am so undecided on whether I like it as a winner, it cannot be higher. Sorry Mans. (also we must humble Sweden)

5. 2019

I really wanted Australia to win in 2019, and  I was a little taken aback when they didn’t place as well as they should have. And I really think that that affected how I saw The Netherlands’ win, even though it was a rightful winner. Now looking back on it, I can see why it won. It is a beautiful song, almost haunting in a way, and I think it really takes you on a journey. It’s simplistically beautiful. Tired 5:30am me just slept on it in favour of her own country. 

4. 2012

Please do not shoot me… please. I know this song is the crowning glory of the ESC and I get that that and I see why. It is a masterpiece, a great song (and excellent for the shower). But I can get sick of songs and often I go through periods of straight up hating Euphoria, and not being able to listen to it. And that alone bumps it down a few rungs. 

3. 2014

This changed things, not just in Eurovision but this queen became an icon! How many winners can say that? Her winner’s speech, the fact that she wasn’t what people saw as the norm- I love everything about this win and believe it was so so important for the LGBT community and it calls for acceptance. Not only that, the song is so good too? Like, this song makes my straight ass feel like a drag queen ready to take on the world. And I can vibe with that. Also, the subtle lyric change in the finale,,,, mmmm yeah that’s what I am talking about. (also i will die in the golden dress)

2. 2013 

I really love this. It is so beautiful and just sounds so fresh and new, and I think that is thanks in part to the flute with really gives the song so much flavour. Like, this song makes me want to run through the Danish forests in a white dress. The lyrics also are pretty universal and you can relate them to nearly anything, something as intimate as a break up or it can be a call for peace. Emmelie is absolutely beautiful too, she seems like a super sweet person, which always helps in my books. I just,,,, really like this, go Denmark.

1. 2010

Remember how I said favourite and not best. This and Euphoria are what come into play. Anyone who knows me well enough can testament to how much I love this song. This song is a staple on my playlist, I never can get sick of it and it has nostalgic value as it’s one of the first ESC songs I listened to. Asides, Lena is straight up adorable and I love how she won it with charm and not a stage show or anything. Overall, I don’t really care what people say about this one, she earned this win hands down (it’s one of the biggest margins ever) and it will always hold a special place in my heart.  (i may or may not love germany but even then i still think i would love this song)

Please feel free to agree/disagree I know some placings will raise eyebrows

#esc #eurovision #my top winners #eurovision 2010 #esc 2010 #eurovision 2011 #esc 2011 #eurovision 2012 #esc 2012 #eurovision 2013 #esc 2013 #eurovision 2019 #esc 2016 #esc 2019 #eurovision 2016 #eurovision 2014 #esc 2014 #eurovision 2015 #esc 2015 #esc 2017 #esc 2018 #eurovision 2018 #eurovision 2017 #my top esc winners

[ledamemangociana]

2020 20 questions meme time UWU

i was tagged by @decertatio to do this! i havent spent enough time on here recently to tag anyone, B U T! if you see this and would like to do this, consider yourself tagged, and let me know! i wanna read your answers UWU

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1. Do you make your bed? - GAWD NO, at least not 70% of the time, im so bad at this. it’s coz on the weekdays, i start working at 6:30am or 7am at home coz my bosses are in Australia and a lot of our clients are in Australia and/or New Zealand, and they’re 3 or 4 hours ahead of us, so i gotta get on those emails and support case tickets as soon as i can, so i give myself about an hour to catch up, and then i hurry out of the condo to get to the office before im marked late at 10am lolololol. on the weekends, when im at home, BECAUSE im just at home, i never fix my bed coz im in it 85% of the time anyway lakdjf

2. What’s your favorite number?  - 13, cliche as it sounds. not coz i think it’s lucky or anything, but because other people around me thought it was. i kind of clung onto it when i was in high school coz i wanted to fit in by standing out.

3. What’s your job? - An accounts and client services manager at a digital services agency.

4. If you could, would you go back to school? - Probably not. I love learning, HATE studying. 

5. Can you parallel park? - i never got far enough into being taught how to drive by mom to get to parking

6. A job you had which would surprise people? I think every job I’ve ever held, tbh. I graduated interior design mainly because my dad told me to when i asked him if i should enroll in advertising instead (the entrance exam i passed was good for either course). the only ID job i ever had lasted only two weeks, at a firm i had to do my internship/OJT at. it was my first job, and i was let go after two weeks. after that, i was a call center agent for two months, and then a copywriter for 6 months, and then an SEO specialist for a year and a half, and then a social media content/community manager at one firm for one year, and then for another agency for 3 and a half, and now im in my second year as an accounts manager at a digital services cloud agency. even i’m surprised at this job list tbh.

7. Do you think aliens are real? - i absolutely do believe that we are not the only life in this big, huge, wide, expansive universe that the planet earth is but a miniscule blip on. there’s definitely other life out there.

8. Can you drive a manual car? - i haven’t driven a car legitimately outside of learning how to drive, but yeh i probably can, since that was what my mom taught me with.

9. What’s your guilty pleasure? - junk food and soft drinks, but in general i try not to feel guilty about anything i take pleasure in

10. Tattoos? - none, but i am ACHING for them. i’ve had ideas for a loooong time. one that i DEFINITELY want to get as my first one is part of a letter that i found that my mom wrote for me in high school. “i know that you will be able to stand up for yourself and the world will stop and take notice.” i still have the letter, so i still have it in her handwriting. i want it on the inside of my left forearm. 

11. Favorite color? - Pink! lighter/softer/pastel shades are my preferred ones, but i love any shade or hue of pink tbh

12. Things people do that drive you crazy? - i hate fake guilt trips. like, when someone wants me to do something that i can’t do, they’ll come in with like “nah, it’s fine, i’ll just drop all these SUPER IMPORTANT things im doing and go out of my way to do this thing that im asking you to do because i’m SOOOOO sorry that you’re unable to do it yourself” coz it’s like...dude, if you really were able to do that or if you wanted to actually do that, you wouldn’t have asked me to do the thing in the first place. like, you’re clearly just saying that to make me feel bad enough to make me drop everything im doing and do whatever it is you asked me to do. i also hate when ppl fish for compliments by being falsely humble or self-deprecating. like. PLEASE, y’all, i’ve lived with negative amounts of self-esteem for literal decades, i know the difference between actual self-loathing and you just wanting to hear good things about yourself that you don’t want to be called narcissistic for saying about yourself. i know what it sounds like when someone is actually going THRU something or is actually having an actual hard time accepting themselves and/or asking people for what they need as opposed to when someone just wants to be told something. like. don’t insult my intelligence and experiences like that. granted, there are nuances to consider for all of these things, bUT like i said, i know the differences when i see them.

13. Any Phobias? - i have a phobia of drowning that’s light enough to NOT keep me away from water but bad enough to sometimes make watching or listening to scenes where someone could potentially drown to set some triggers off for me. i also just have a really really bad fear of dying because of getting my oxygen cut off, coz that sounds like a really slow, painful way to die.

14. Favorite childhood sport? - i was never really a sports kid. the only sport i ever really enjoyed playing willingly was badminton. i trained for a few summers but never competed, but i got good enough to make games in a court fun. i still have my badminton racquet, it’s the only Legit™ badminton racquet in the house (it’s a Yonex, handed down to me by my trainer, only been restrung twice or thrice coz the last restringing was done so damn well), all the other racquets were inexpensive unbranded knock-offs that were good enough for me and my family to have casual games with.

15. Do you talk to yourself? - yes but mostly as a product of deep focus or concentration, or really heavy emotion. having social media has lessened doing it for the latter since i can just vent on here or on twitter, but when im doing stuff for work that’s hard or needs a lot of focus or concentration, i have full-on stand-up meetings with myself.

16. What movie do you adore? - “Romy And Michele’s High School Reunion.” it’s not a perfect movie by any means, but for someone who was a bullied outcast for much of elementary and high school years in a private, all-girls, Catholic school where everyone was tall and thin and pretty and pale and smart and popular, ALL the things that i wasn’t, it was - is? - like a beacon or a hug.

17. Do you like doing puzzles? - heck yeh, coz solving them makes me feel smart, and not being able to solve them but learning HOW to is so much fun for me.

18. Favorite kind of music? - i don’t know that i have one, to be honest, i haven’t listened to current radio in literal YEARS because i dont own a radio in the condo, i barely watch TV anymore, and i dont spend enough time in a vehicle to really know what’s up. i enjoy pop, hip-hop, rnb, showtunes.

19. Tea or coffee? - more of a coffee person myself, actual tea always just tastes LEGITIMATELY like leaf water to me, and i cant find a liking for it. i do really love sweet tea and milktea tho. but yeh, im mostly a bean juice person.

20. The first thing you remember you wanted to be when you grew up? - An architect, like my dad. i thought i would be one, up until i discovered writing in high school, and then i thought i wanted to become a journalist until i took it up as my first course in college and hated it. but yeh, it was always “architect! like daddy!” when i was asked that question when i was a kid. i looked up to him so much as a kid, and he and i were super tight when i was younger coz i was his firstborn and a daughter. we used to call each other best friends. i miss those days a lot; things between us seemed simpler, but maybe that’s because i didn’t have the ideals, knowledge and capacity to question the way he loves/loved me as My Parent™. our relationship these days is absolutely skewed and skewered.

#personalciana #Mango Goes to Jail #memeciana

[unsweetenedcoco]

Denki Kaminari x barista! reader

quirk: the quirk in this oneshot is not said, so you can choose :) Y/n worked at a cafe called '(café name)'. It was a quiet cafe, where not many people showed up. The cafe members treated eachother like a family and accepted y/n with open arms. She enjoyed working there, but her favourite part of the day was at around 7:30am when the pro hero 'Charge bolt' ordered. Each day y/n would take the blondes order, then the boy would take a seat and enjoy the atmosphere of the cafe. One day at 7:31am the pro hero entered the café. He took off the glasses covering his eyes and placed them in the pocket of his tshirt, while strolling to the barista. His eyes gleamed to see y/n working at the register. "One strawberry cake frappe with extra cream and sprinkles." y/n wrote down the order then placed it next to her. "$4.50 please." she smiled back at the man. He gave her the correct amount of money then walked towards the waiting area. She blended the ingredients together then poured it into a cup. The girl then placed the whipped cream and sprinkles ontop before serving it to the blonde. "Here you go, you sweet tooth." she teased while making the drink look as presentable as possible. Denki gave a large grin to the barista before taking the drink and taking a sip. "As good as ever, miss.." He paused and glanced to her nametag. "y/n." he continued his sentence then sat in his spot. After he had finished the frappe he took the glass then placed it on the counter. "See you tomorrow, y/n!" He called out to the girl as he left. The staff swooned at her lovesick attitude, pulling jokes and mocking the way she acted. "You've got to get his number! You cant keep making lovey dovey faces at eachother and not do anything about it!" Her friend, ochako teased. "You know I can't do that! He's a pro hero!" The girl remarked before washing the blender she just used. "That's no excuse, my girlfriend is the rainy season hero, Froppy. And she asked me out!" She rolled her eyes and grabbed a tea towel to help dry the blender. "Just give him your number, whats the worst that could happen?" she egged on. The girl knew that ochako wouldn't stop bugging her until she made a move on the pro hero. "If I give him my number will you leave me alone?" she said nervously. Ochaku squaled in delight, clapping her hands together happily. "Yes Yes!! No backing out now!" she declared with a smug smile displayed on her face. After 6 hours of work it was 1:30, the time y/n could go home. She took off her apron, placing it on her hook and headed towards the door. y/n knew the next day would be frantic. Soon enough, came the next day. the girls heart was beating hysterically and it was only 5:45. "Stop freaking out! you've got like, 2 hours till your loverboy comes!" Ochako tried to assure y/n. "All you've got to do is give your number! Its really not that hard." she smiled. y/n smiled back to her, still unsure if it was a good idea or not. The (h/c)nette wrote down her number on a small piece of paper and tucked it in her pocket. Later a blond entered the door, wearing his usual wide grin. The girls heartbeat increased dramatically as she watched the pro hero walk towards the counter. "Hi y/n! Am I able to order.." He paused still thinking what he should order. "Let me guess, a strawberry cake frappe with extra cream and sprinkles?" The girl smiled at him nervously. "Spot on!" he gave you $4.50 and started walking towards the waiting area. This was when ochako gave the girl a harsh nudge implying that she has to give him his number. "Wait!" She said, stopping Kminari's tracks. "I was wondering if you wanted.." y/n tried to choke out words but her lips jammed shut from fear. "Wanted what?" the blonde replied slightly confused. "Extra whipped cream. did you say you wanted whipped cream?" She mentally face palmed for backing out last minute. Kaminari nodded before continuing to walk to the waiting area. "You've still got a chance to give him your number!" Ochako whispered to y/n. She pretended to ignore her and continued making her customers drink. Once again, she made the frappe look as presentable as possible and handed the male the drink. Kaminari took a sip of the drink and applauded her ability. "This is amazing y/n, also can I order something else for today?" He said confidentially waiting for her to answer. "Yes ofcourse, what would you like?" She responded. "Your number. I overheard your conversation." He said with a crooked grin and started laughing awkwardly. The girls cheeks heated up, unsure of what to do in this situation. Her hands moved to her pocket and took out the piece of paper she wrote her number in. "$4.50." Y/n joked while handing it to him. He laughed while taking the piece of paper from the girls hand and placing it in his front pocket. Chargebolt looked at his watch then gave a panicked look. "I've got to go, I'm late for work. Ill text you later!" He said, grabbing the drink and rushing off. They both said their goodbyes and y/n got back to work, cleaning the blender she just used. "Sooo.." y/n heard behind her shoulder. "How did it go." Ochako egged on. "Well, he heard our conversation because someone was speaking too loud." Ochako giggled in response. "But because of that he did ask for my number.. so thank you I guess." Ochako began squealing with delight. "We can finally go on double dates!! I'm so excited, y/n!" "I only gave him my number, were not dating yet!" y/n retorted giving Ochako a bad look for being so loud about the topic. The girls took their aprons off and started heading out. 'That was one chaotic day' y/n thought while heading out of the café. 

#denki kaminari #denki #denki kaminari imagine #kaminari #bnha kaminari #bnha denki #my hero academia #my hero acadamia fanfic #denki kaminari x reader #denki x reader #kaminari x reader

[semi-friendly-emo]

Update

Made an appointment with my psychiatrist for Wednesday. Was up till 6:30am and 5:36am the previous night. With the manic episode I had that prompted me to seek help this is exactly how it started so I know I need to buckled down on this. Im currently on 900mg of lithium which is meant to stop mania so clearly I need a dosage change. I want to apologize to everyone/anyone in advance because I am most likely not going to respond to everyone but will still be posting. I dont really want to talk about how im feeling atm because ill break down which I know 100% will land me in psychiatric care. Ive tried to tell my mom im getting manic again and she ignored the urgency of it so im feeling really hurt by it. I am also dealing with connection issues with people I hold close to me so. I was also sent home from work yesterday after only being there 20mins because the coworker that hates me complained to our managers that I refused to bus tables. Yes as a host I refuse to bus tables since at my job bussers get higher tip outs than us hostesses so unless I’m getting proper tip outs I wont bus (except in a rush). I told her I cant carry much and run back and forth because in December I had hip/femur surgery and im still unbalanced and get sore quickly. I worked Friday and Saturday and supposed to be Sunday so I was in a bit of pain. So she complained I got pulled into office and they said I can go home. Im not in any trouble at all they even offered to buy me dinner before I went home. Its just a matter of it being stressful to deal with. So again I apologize now to anyone who feels im ignoring them or being rude I just need to put me first. I don’t feel like having constant notifications and draining my phone 4 times a day so im turning notifications off but ill still be on/posting.

Send me asks. I will 100% respond to them. Honestly getting asks/anon messages make my day. Just please don’t ask about my “triggers” (hate using that term) like work, roommates, family blahblahblah.

Stay Frosty 👑🥛☕️

🥀 Ash

#actually bipolar #bipolardisorder #bipolar disorder #bipolar #manic depressive disorder #manic episode #lithium #breaking down #self care #self love #self help #mental heath support #mental health #mental disorder

[pvrrhadve]

tagged by @awrnikleintime, @aforeffortenjolras, @mirkwouldnt, and @empressofnothing wow i'm popular today thanks guys

rules: answer 30 questions and tag 20 blogs you would like to get to know better 1. nicknames: one of the orthodontist assistants calls me jill 

2. gender: female

3. star sign: capri sun 

4. height: approximately 163.79cm 

5. time: 2:30am

6. birthday: 3rdthnd of january

7. favorite bands: twenty one pilots, day6, bts, shinee, red velvet, coldplay, the staves, haim, florence and the machine, the national, seventeen 

8. favorite solo artists: lorde, the japanese house, luna, bleachers, monica heldal, laura marling, vancouver sleep clinic, iu, sleeping at last, kate bush, marina and the diamonds, gallant 

9. song stuck in my head: change up by seventeen

10. last movie i watched: castle in the sky which was beautiful and kind and i love my kids

11. last show i watched: age of youth season 2 (not as good as season 1 but i didn't expect it to be and i really missed my girls so . i think i'm gonna rewatch all of s1 after i finish it which will be whenever someone is kind enough to sub the finale for me)

12. when did i create my blog: the actual creation of it was i think late 2012/early 2013 but i didn't start using it until june 2013 (i just made it so i could like tree pictures and look at them later when i was sad and in the mood for tree pics) 

13. what do i post: it used to be mostly fandom (lotr, doctor who, marvel, sherlock, and whatever else went with that lifestyle kjbnkfb) but it's just memes now lads. there's only esoteric nonsense and crowd-pandering confusion around here folks. i see a garbage can, tag it 'me' and call it blogging. what will u cactus slurpers do about it. 

14. last thing i googled: was it “how do i open raw files in gimp“ or "how to remove popcorn husk stuck in throat" someone please shoot me 

15. do i have any other blogs: @jeanneofarcs is my amazingly consistent aesthetic blog and @nue5t is the evidence that i was too much of a coward to just become a kpop blog and lose the followers i've spent over 4 years amassing to no useful end

16. do i get asks: maybe once or twice a week but i'm bad at replying :/

17. why i chose my url: here’s an interesting doctoral dissertation on the subject of my url which is too good for me to even have in all honesty 

18. following: 89

19. followers: 414, only 6 away from 420 after which i'll pull the plug on this mess (i won't actually but it's a cool concept) 

21. average hours of sleep: somewhere between 4 and 9 but i do drink 1.5 litres of water a day so it's all good 

22. lucky number: 5 is easy to work with mathematically so i've had great success with it in the past but 7 really keeps coming through for me these days 👀

23. instruments: once upon a time i could play both piano and harp, but i've downgraded to being able to play exactly one (1) song on the ukulele

24. what am i wearing: sweatpants, a hoodie, and really nice red nail polish to balance out the look

26. dream job: uhh i cant imagine how nice it would be if someday i get to the point where i make a comfortable living off of sprawling gracefully across the arts. for instance, i achieve a respectable amount of knowhow and capability in, say, 3 different artistic areas and people pay me for it and i never get bored and it all works out very well. there's also an alternate universe where I wasn't an academic flop and i become a successful and respected linguist or historian or both and enjoy it to a reasonable degree. 

27. dream trip: when am i going to italy. when’s that gonna happen huh

28. favourite food: my relationship with food is weird but when i actually do feel like food is a good thing, potstickers, pizza, italian hamburger soup, sushi, and pitas are among my favourites. (although right now at this moment i would really like the kimchi beef udon and tempura roll from the japanese korean restaurant i went to last week when alightfromtheshadowswillspring was staying with me for a few days. i miss mary and kimchi beef udon. Where Are They And Where Is My Tempura Roll) 

29. nationality: canadian 

30. favourite song right now: right now?? i need my girl by the national probably. but serendipity by bts did manage to pass i need my girl as the most played song on my phone in under 2 days (though to be fair i got my phone quite recently so only a fraction of my inmg plays are accounted for here and i was in a good mood those 2 days). also hannah hunt by vampire weekend. i think that’s a neat song.

#tags

[peaachjaam]

I was tagged by @erza155hasleftthebuilding for this about me!

1.Last Time you cried and why?

The last time I cried was to months ago and I was just having a really shitty month and I kinda really wanted to die :)

2.Theoretical aesthetic if there was nothing hindering your lifestyle?

I really want to be a modern day witch like I want to l look think and breathe in that lifestyle. Like I literally want to exude the raw mother earth energy and third eye awareness.  

3.Which of the seven deadly sins are you?

I’m either lust or wrath I cant really choose between the two but both are me. 

4. Last time you disappointed your mother and how?

I went out to party on Halloween night and my curfew was supposed to be like 2:30am but I ended up coming home at almost 4am. She was asleep by the time I got there which good because I was wasted but she was definitely blowing up my phone for two hours. 

5.Favorite place to chill and unwind?

My room. Or the beach on a cold dreary day when the water and the sky is gray. Its really calming and a rarity in sunny South Florida.

6.Green Lantern or Batman?

Neither? I don’t know much about either. 

7.What are you tired of/totally over other people hyping up?

cuphead. Please stop. 

8.Favorite shade of Black?

V̴͕͙͎̗̯͎ͭ͂̂ͨ͊̇͒̑́͘͠ ̧̝͙̱̙̀̓ͪͯ̿͐̆̃̚̚͟͜͠O̡̟̣͎͔̪̱͍̲͚͉̹̊̂ͨ̇̌̊͐ͦ́͘ ̴̩̹͍̞̺̹̹̱̪͙̮̩̖͍̱̤͂̒ͥ́͊͋̿̕͟͜͠ͅI̶̟̫̹͔͙͆͊̔ͬ͂ͨ̍̒̍̍́͛ͪ̊̊̕D̸̆̈̓ͪ̓ͫ͠҉̼̹̩͎̜̮̮̮̗̦̤̩̟͍͇

9.World peace or Space travel?

If we achieved a safe and effective way of space travel and ended up meeting another species , we as a human race would only infect them with our toxicity. Sooo World peace first.

10.Preferred way to die or favorite color?

I’d like to die old and in my sleep, also pink.

I’m tagging the first five people in my activity feed so: @ahotmesswithoutthehot @sheabuttertwistout @samanthastephens @doctorninjaspy @gothic-punk

1. What is your favorite kind of weather?

2. How long have you lived on the dark hell site referred to as “tumblr”?

3. What is your pet’s name/ what pet would you get if you don’t have one. Why?

4.When you were younger did you root for the Disney villain or the hero?

5. What food are you craving right now?

6. What cryptid do you most resonate with?

7. Marvel or DC?

8. Are you a naturally passive or aggressive person?

9.Who was the last person you thought about and why?

10.Smoothie or Milkshake?

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