#PLEASE DO KEEP HER AROUND

[cuoredimuschio]

okay, but where's my steddie AU where steve wants to learn to play guitar to impress a girl he's infatuated with and he remembers that munson kid was always hanging up posters for his weird band at school, so he hikes out to eddie's usual dealing spot behind the track and asks (with far less groveling than he really should have) if eddie will teach him how to play, and obviously eddie says no because why would he want to help king steve, but of course, steve offers to pay him, $20 a week, and well, that's the kind of get-the-hell-out-of-this-shithole-town cash eddie really can't afford to refuse, so fine, he'll teach steve to play and they'll spend inordinate amounts of time together tucked away in eddie's room and they'll start to see that they have more in common than they thought and that they kind of had each other all wrong, and eddie will put his hand over steve's to help him get the placement for a tricky chord and it totally won't awaken anything in either of them?? where is it??

edit: i started writing it

#steve x eddie #steddie #stranger things #someone tell me this has already been written because i need it. please. #bonus points if steve shows up to the first practice session empty-handed #and eddie nearly calls the whole thing off when he has the Audacity to grab at eddie's sweetheart as if eddie'd ever let him play her #and he doesn't even teach steve anything that day because rule number one get your own fucking guitar and keep your mitts off mine #but by the end when eddie is deep deep deep in love and it's time to send steve off to woo this lucky girl of his #he offers to let steve take his sweetheart because she's guaranteed to make him look ten times hotter and cooler #and he'll have no trouble sweeping his girl off her feet and maybe eddie's breaking his own heart but it's fine—as long as steve's happy #except steve doesn't seem nearly as happy as eddie thought he would be #he seems sad actually and eddie kind of hates that so he starts to make some lame joke about how steve should be honored #because eddie wouldn't lend his baby out to just anyone and that gets steve to crack half a smile #but then he puts the guitar down on eddie's bed (with all due gentle reverence) walks over takes eddie's face in his hands and kisses him #kisses him like he's been dying to do it for weeks. because he has #because somewhere along the line it stopped being about wanting to impress a girl and started being about wanting to be with eddie #it started being screwing up on purpose so that eddie would grab his hands and show him how it's supposed to be done #and forgetting about lessons entirely and just sitting around and listening to eddie talk or just watching him play #because somewhere along the line steve fell out of infatuation and into love with the last person he ever expected.... #anyway idk where i'm going with this

[dungeons-and-dragon-age]

Hiii everyone, say, how do your Hawkes go go about sharing their estate? If they do it at all? Is everyone free to come and go or are they more private? Or do they only invite their LI to stay? I'm curious!! :)

#lay rambles #my ocs #oc: liam hawke #oc: lilian hawke #both my hawkes are very social w their friends but i love comparing their boundaries around it #theres variation in rules for specific ppl with both of them ofc but theres still general differences #with liam its all very open and everyone can p much come and go whenever #they dont get extra keys (theyll get lost and he doesnt want randos finding them lol) but they know where to find the spare key #and bodhan and sandal and orana know to let them in whenever #hes very lenient in this this regard but he does have rules abt what he does and doesnt want them to do #mostly its about not making too much of a mess lol bc liam prefers to clean himself #(he doesnt trust the crew with his household and also he has particular ways of doing things and Hates when theyre done differently) #so things like keep your dirty garb at the entrance dont cook by yourselves (this was banned after they did it one (1) time lol) etc #also no fucking allowed. do that somewhere else for the love of the maker he does NOT want to walk into that in his own house #(and it also comes back to liam not trusting them with cleaning but also Not wanting to clean that up lol) #also he is not fond of them going into his room uninvited. most of the house is chill but that is *his* space #he accommodates these rules by e.g. having spare slippers and a little washing basin in the entrance hall for dirty shoes/feet #always makes sure to have snacks in stock that he knows they like #food will have notes abt what to leave for leandra/orana/etc but otherwise food is prepared with his friends in mind #and in general he'll make sure to adjust the space/routine in little ways to accommodate them #(air out when fen isnt there cus he doesnt like drafts; keep curtains open cus anders prefers open spaces; etc) #lilian on the other hand doesnt like when her friends come into the estate without a heads up (cept for emergencies) #but once they have her 'ok' its basically mi casa es su casa #dont yknow. overdo it and get too rowdy but otherwise do whatever #however. she also expects everyone to clean up after themselves. she aint here to play maid and youre all adults #also liam has a general 'please try to not be too wild when leandra is here' and lilian doesnt #not cos she doesnt care but cos leandra is bothered by sth she can speak up herself #oh and lilian uses the basement space as temporary refuge for anyone who needs it (mostly escaped mages) #also side note: both offered gamlen to stay but he refused (out of pride/remorse) #...this got long and i ran out of tag space lmfao so this is it for now xD

[dylanconrique]

once tim meets lucy’s parents it's all gonna click for him why she got so defensive about his belief in her taking the detectives exam.

#*carly catalogs #once they start berating her in his presence it'll all make sense cause how the hell can you belittle your only daughter that way?????? #i can imagine them all sitting around a table at dinner and tim trying to take lucy's hand underneath but she pushes him away #keeping her own in her lap and anxiously fiddling them while she sits in silence and lets them continue to bully her while trying not to cr #i'm just thinking about the hoops lucy lept through all throughout her childhood just to please her parents and make them proud #but for some reason none of it has ever been enough #it's so hard to believe in yourself or believe anyone else could believe in you if your parents showed very little to no belief in you #i do hope we get a chenford meet the parents date and that tim will snap and defend THE HELL out of lucy to her ungrateful parents #i hope he tears them a new one fr #the rookie #the rookie s6 #tim bradford #lucy chen #chenford #otp: you know me so well

[artbyfuji]

Art Summary 2023 🙏 OOPS!! All Summer Rose 😋🥂

#yippieeee another year down 🎉🎉🥂🥂 #summer rose 2023 pipe bomb. you know it. you love it 💥🧨 #told myself last year i need to do a summer sweep for the bit woohoo. featuring raven who keeps tryin to sneak her way in... #anyway thanks to everyone for sticking around! please look forward to more from me in the future i have a few things planned already 😏 #okay guys write this down. new year's resolution: more rsbrd sex.

[8bit-mau5]

NEW TROLL IS HERE! I've been wanted to go all out in an incredibly self indulgent design for so long, especially with people that look more like me (': and I'm rlly happy with how he turned out!

So meet Akhxa (ahk-sha), a former legislacerator-turned 'some guy that does garage gigs'. Still gotta figure out a last name and symbol, but he's open to backplotting as well as general RP stuff! Real easygoing dude with simple wants and simple pleasures.

Asks are open! I'll be doodling responses for this guy since he's so easy to draw.

(HE/HIM + SHE/HER)

#artists on tumblr #fantrolls #homestuck #hiveswap #Gabriel's arts #Akhxa Deiros #Akhxa art #tag later #(for when i figure out her last name) #ANYWAY HOPE YALL LIKE THIS GUY COS I SURE DO #i cant remember the last time i drew for myself. so late last night i got around to doodling a little something for myself! #i told a few mutuals/friends abt him already so.. legit if ive reached out to you w/info on him already #you are more than welcome to ping me and clink our lil guys together #also please fullview idk why tumblr keeps turning my image posts into text posts and blurring my shit

[volivolition]

reading Kim's Disco Inferno and i absolutely needed to read this fic earlier than im reading it right now. this is so fucking interesting.

#chemi chats #AIRHGHGHHHHH THE SKILLS THE SKILLS I WILL SPONTANEOUSLY COMBUST ABOUT THEM ARUGHGJHGKJFHF!!!!! #okay im normal. back to it #kissing voli on the forehead. my friend. this is how i imagine my life these days. voli sitting on my shoulder as i do things #echem's also there but he can't do shit except go ''hey you should get a treat today'' so he just keeps voli company. #EMPY HAS ARRIVED AND I LOVEEEE HER. CRIES AND CRIES AND CRIES AND #''Stop fucking around Esprit'' LMAO. LMAO. THANKS AUTH APPRECIATE IT. oh my fucking god this fic is so cool. this is so good. #SUGGESTION YOU SILLY FUCK GET OUT OF HEREEE!! oh thats FASCINATING!! 'I'm not... shit. I am.' THIS IS SO COOL. OH NO WAIT DON'T LEAVE VOLI? #oh of fucking COURSE ITS ECHEM. OF COURSEEE. oh hi halflit. little kiss on the head before you scamper off sweetheart #i miss voli i want voli back. voli come back please. oh there he is hi little guy!! oh echem. silly guy. i love you. this fic is so fun?!!! #oh hey!! composure. nods. ''Harry; Kim. We're Harry.'' YEAH! YAHHGKJGH!!! like i sure have my faves (empy; voli; echem) but #OUGH. MOTORICS AS A WHOLE. MY FAVORITES i love the team smiles :) oh they were all so sweet hahskj motorics have never done anything wrong #NO VOLI CAN'T COME WITH US?? WHAT'S THE POINT EVEN. STARTS CRYING. oh nvm hes with us in the glasses WE'RE ALL GOOD #this fic. is so cool. good morning lieutenant. OKAY!! DONE!! COMMENTING TIME!!! thanks for looking at my spontaneous liveblog lmao

[dykeza]

Ichigo being a stay at home dad who works online is so in character for him actually…… he’s the type of dad to enforce 1 hour of no screen time outside playing in the yard and/or playground. He texts Orihime goofy pictures of Kazui jumping around in some water fixture in the local park and carries him home soaked to the bone and shivering with the biggest smile on his face and then they eat ice cream and wait for Orihime to get home so they can have family game night.

#I cannot see how someone can dislike ichihime and their beloved baby boy #they’re so silly!! #honestly I think a lot of it comes from forgetting Ichigo isn’t Just his badassery and trauma and stubbornness #Ichigo is goofy and funny and likes playing games and has shown how genuinely warm and welcomed/welcoming he is around Hime #and a lot of the times when I see posts referencing how Orihime is bad for him or is like… a creep or whatever #I can’t help but notice that it just. doesn’t sound like Ichigo at all #Ichigo Kurosaki is full of love and compassion and he adores everything around him #he loves and honors even the most evil of people and recognizes others struggles even if he can’t relate #there isn’t a single thing about him that conveys this supposed dislike for Orihime or this discontent with his life #Ichigo is like. a happy person #he suffers and he endures so much and he keeps finding new ways to love and understand others #he fights so hard to be happy… so why can’t people except that maybe he is? #at some point you just have to accept that a character can be content #Ichigo is married to Orihime. he works from home. he adores his son and his wife and his family #and like. that’s okay? there doesn’t need to be some deep reason. you don’t need to try and drag even more character out of him #he has enough!!!!!! he has more than enough character to go around!! #please let Ichigo Kurosaki love his wife and his son… and also let Rukia do the same #I know I just now mention her but this tangent is directed towards the Weird ichirukis I see poking around on twt and tumblr #Rukia is happy with her husband!!! she likes Renji!!!! she likes him so much in fact that she married him and had a kid with him #Rukia and Ichigo both are very hardheaded characters and if they’re unhappy with their circumstances THEYLL DO SOMETHING ABOUT IT #they’re not scared to be honest with themselves and others anymore!! they’re very vocal about their opinions if you haven’t noticed yet #some of the first things we learn about both of them is that they aren’t scared to speak their mind #I am fucking certain that if they happened to Not Want to end up with their respective spouses they would’ve just. not married them #idk what copium ichirukis that don’t like Renji and/or Orihime are smoking I really don’t #you love these characters so much and yet you discredit one of their most recognizable traits!!! their readiness to DO WHAT THEY WANT!!!!!! #they’ve proven time and time again thag they do whatever they want within reason #there is not a possible universe where either of these characters would sit quietly and let themselves be unhappy for the sake of the others #because they’ve learned. and they’ve grown. and they trust Renji/Orihime enough to understand their decisions becuase it’s in the fucking— #—text how much they respect and trust them to understand their feelings #this ramble is too long I’ve reached 30 tags URASHIN CANON GOODNIHHT AMERICAAAAAAAAAAAA

[grassbreads]

I have to organize an event at work. I asked the assistant of the guy running the event whether he wants anything changed in the event room (tables moved, chairs added, etc).

She said "he wants the same layout he always uses for events."

I said "Can you be more specific? You know what the room's default layout is. Does he want anything moved or changed?"

She said, "I think he'd like the same setup he has always used."

MA'AM

#ma'am please #I work with her often. I like her #but. #the event guy does not have a singular setup he always uses #sometimes he wants extra chairs added #sometimes he wants extra room around the front podium #sometimes he keeps the default #ma'am I cannot do anything with 'the same as always' #I get you're just the messenger. but for the love of god #if I say 'can you elaborate' please just don't say the exact same thing again #I'd so much rather just get an 'I don't know' lmao 😔 #I have to rant about my petty frustrations here bc the coworker I can complain to is home sick 😕 #ah well #not my problem if they don't get their chairs arranged #invasion of the frogs

[crowcryptid]

Questioned my coworkers dumbass orders for once.

If this gets me in some shit, oh well. I didn’t say anything wrong. She’s just a dumbass.

Basically:

She told the new girl to organize 3 months of paperwork.

Then she tells me to go pick it up and bring it back. (We work on different floors)

Turns out she only needed a single page from that and then tells me to take it back, but to double check it, because it “might not be organized how you guys want it to be organized”.

“Want it to be organized” You mean in order? In order by date? How else would we be organizing things? Seriously. I don’t know about you guys but I hope the people I’m working with can manage to do that. Without the need of me double checking. I’m not a baby sitter for someone older than me. Also she’s been here a few months already it’s not like it’s her first day.

So I told her “What exactly do you mean? How else would they be organized? I can see each day is separated by a clip.”

Then she very quietly said “Ok, whatever you say. Just take them back then.” and pulled out her phone and stopped talking.

wtf

#you don’t trust someone to put pages in order? yet you’re making her do your job??? bro #unfortunately text does not convey they way in which they talk to me #it’s like the way a parent would talk to a little kid who isn’t listening #like. holy shit. you 2 have kids around my age. I’m not a fucking 8 year old #PLEASE GET ME OUT OF HERE #I keep applying to jobs and nothing. NOTHING. not even a rejection email. #I’m dying. please. get me out of here.

[sudokuplayer]

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#boris was attacked by my neighbor's dog and i've been crying so much. i'm so scared #it's 9pm so my sister is driving him to a vet 1 hour away cause the vets near close at 7pm #idk why bad things keep happening to him i'm so heartbroken idk what i'll do if he dies #my neighbor is a cruel bitch cause this happened around 1 pm and she didn't tell us. she hid him in a room #she was gonna let him die like that #my sister was supposed to take me somewhere tomorrow so she came home one day earlier #i'd been crying all afternoon and i told her to please ask around and then they (w mom and brother) went to my neighbor's house #they brought him back and he looked very weak and with blood all over #my sister called a friend of hers who's a vet and she came to see him and adviced to take him to a vet clinic #cause he was bloated and there was air(?) and her face was worried when she said that cause.. where does air come from #plus he was breathing weird #i had the worst panic attack the whole time since they brought him from the neighbor's house until they left with him #i couldn't even speak cause i couldn't stop crying #now i'm calm but i'm so worried #if my sister hadn't come home today boris would be still hurt and locked in my bitch neighbor's house #cause my mom thought i was being paranoid :( she wasn't going to ask around #cause she thought boris would come back since he's been missing before #also my sister's the only one who can drive #:( #i'm so angry cause that bitch next door heard me calling boris name all afternoon and didn't say shit #i hate her. not only bc of this but she's suck a snake in general. she's always gossiping shit about everyone #she didn't do anything and locked him in a room for like 7 hours. maybe those hours were crucial #idk. if boris dies i'm gonna do some crazy shit to this bitch so she'll have a reason to call me crazy

[brokenyouth]

trying to feel better by telling myself that my crush possibly overhearing me telling someone that i don't hate him i just talk about him bc it's fun to gossip or whatever bc i was trying to downplay and hide how much i actually do like him is mr darcy coded actually

#txt #e.s. #i'm like what if mr darcy was born in the 20th century was poor and a girl #it's cause my mom was asking me if i hate him for the third time in the recent months mom please #bc in her words i'm always complaining about him being around and shit #when i always say it in a joking manner 😭 but also not joking #sometimes i get annoyed that he's around so much bc ik it's gonna make me like him more smh #nobody gets me except for gorgeous dot mp3 by taylor swift #anyway so she said that and i was like haha no way mom i just like to joke or gossip about him bc he's the only non family person around ha #and then i told her to stop bc what if he actually showed up and then MY COUSIN aka his best friend showed up #looking for the bag he forgot when he came over on sunday AND THEN a few minutes later we heard his voice outside and i was like #it's so over for me #bc it was after i told my mom to keep quiet in case he was around and she was like nah it's ok and why do you care anyway don'tell me #you actually have a crush on him or something #and then after he left i kept sighing and saying how embarrassing out loud and she kept questioning me why i cared so much #anyway. terrible experience

[dreamlogic]

...

#chronic blogging #shit chat #well at this point both of my parents (who i inherited my Just Tough It Out streak from) have #upon hearing how bad my post-hysterectomy pain has been #told me 'umm no you need to go see someone.' and 'please just go to urgent care i will pay for it if your insurance won't.' respectively #haunted by the ghost of my right ovary (sharp stabbing pains & debilitating muscle spasms around the incision site) #it's been 1.5 years since surgery and it's getting worse not better #at my 1mo post op i was like 'hey right side hurts a lot worse & the incision seems really wonky & off-center. thoughts?' #they said it was nothing to worry about give it time i might still be feeling pain up to 6mo post op #sooo 8mo post op contact surgeon again 'hey remember that thing i mentioned? yeah still hurts bad enough i struggle to walk sometimes' #she says eeehhh maybe you developed pelvic floor dysfunction or always had it and surgery made it worse. read this book & do some stretches #book stretches & muscle relaxers helped for a bit so i just carried on but it was not improving in fact becoming more persistent #lil over a year post op contact surgeon like 'HEY do not ignore me i am in an amount of pain that is NOT NORMAL and you WILL see me' #drive 1+ hrs for her to poke at me for ~10 minutes ignore most of what i was saying and determine it's just muscle spasms do more stretches #said physical therapy MIGHT help if i did it 2x monthly for at least 6mo. which would've involved commuting over an hour during the workweek #no THANK you i'll just keep doing my stupid stretches. and the thing is. #the stretches ARE helping. i feel my overall balance/flexibility/stamina improving #but that by contrast is making the STABBING PAINS WHERE MY RIGHT OVARY USED TO BE all the more obvious #'oh it's just muscle spasms' well why the FUCK are my muscles spasming around THIS SPOT EXCLUSIVELY for SEVENTEEN MONTHS STRAIGHT #i have essentially no pain on my left side at all. i feel overall just fine & dandy but i am convinced there is something #like. very seriously wrong on the right side causing this #and yeah if my surgeon won't listen to me maybe i will check myself into urgent care and demand an ultrasound #(which btw i asked for during my last visit & she told me it was unnecessary & to fuck off) #but now the two people who instilled me with a very deep mistrust for the medical industry #and from who i learned from via a lifetime of observation how to dissociate from chronic pain in order to function #are telling me 'yeah no this is bad you need a DOCTOR.' umm. i probably need a doctor. #was talking w/ E last night about degrees of pain & like. avg day is like 4-6 on a 0-10 scale. good days 2-3. #i don't consider calling out from work unless it's like an 8 or higher cause i'm just so used to it. #i'm sick of it. so fucking bored with being in constant pain. i want my life & energy back. i want a personality beyond Oh Just Tired back. #i wanna be able to enjoy touch again with immediately hitting overstimulation threshold due to pain.

[sysig]

Hey, those look familiar! (Patreon)

#Doodles #Villainsona #Just Desserts #I decided to go back and give a second chance to the scrapped outfits - and then since I still had more I'd made for funsies I did those too #Everyone gets another go around! Lol #It really was the scrapped outfits that started it tho - I was still very much of the silhouette mindset and I wanted to see how they fared #A mixed bag! Which is about what I expected tbh #I was the most pleased with the way over-scalloped design lol who could've guessed ♪ But it Does have the strongest silhouette! #Like yeah okay capes and capes - the Little Red and Queen designs do nothing for me because they start too high #Obviously I wasn't thinking about how her modified wings would interact with her outfit until later but they're a very important element! #A cape kinda defeats the purpose of the wings or becomes self-defeating lol #Either it enhances the silhouette behind her - which the wings are meant to do - or they cover her wings completely #Or in the worst case there's a slot for her wings to poke through and she gets tangled in both lol #There's themes there but it's not the visual I want! Haha ♪ #Tails are probably the strongest silhouette I can work in that won't conflict with her wings but hmmm I'm still unconvinced #Which is a shame! That's one of the oldest design elements that I wanted to integrate! #A large collar also keeps making a reappearance but I still don't know how to make it less clunky lol #Returning to the digital outfits was fun too :) Since I never doodled them on paper and all #Drawing her with those metal shine lids is really fun too hehe ♪ #I think my favourite is still the Ren Faire outfit :) It just looks so comfy! I'd wear that irl haha

[themyscirah]

Started thinking about the Amanda Waller + Ben Turner relationship again.... fuck, I'm gonna need a minute

#I JUST- SHDIAUDJSHDSHEYEYRYRYRY guys. guys #i know none of you see my vision and thats okay. i will make you see my vision. i will force you to see my vision. i will- #like jesus fucking christ oh my god. its so interesting and gives me so many emotions and just!!! #i know im not making sense bc none of my moots are sui sq fans and also like half of the content fucking me up specifically here is in my #head because i cant stop thinking about my absolute power fix it au but like!!!!!!! #also the fact i have a fix it for a comic that isnt out yet is so funny to me. its literally fucking real though. god knows we need it #may my own content carry me through the dark times (extreme villain waller arc) #anyways this fucks me up so bad you dont even know. someday ill actually explain it #dc hire me to write a suicide squad ongoing PLEASE. i could do it so good it would be so fucking good dc PLEASE 😭😭😭😭😭😭 #also like this isnt me shipping them btw. like 110% not that. just to clarify. #i wouldnt even call it a friendship bc like. theyre not friends really. he has the most equal dynamic with her i would say but it still isnt #equal. shes v much his boss even though they have an understanding and respect there #like she believes and trusts in him much more than anybody really even himself. like she sees the good man and the leader even when he #doesnt. but she isnt nice about it. and there is a lot of conflict between them when there needs to be #like as much as ben is “wallers man”--the team leader she wanted from the beginning before rick flagg pushed his way in #ben i would say is still a very moral person even when lost and unsure of himself and his goodness (which is like one of his main things) #like i feel like while amanda can lean very into a “the ends justify the means” mindset in her worse moments and do bad things to get #herself out of a corner ben has like a deep and meaningful understanding of how the choices of your methods and how you act can weigh on you #like even though he was brainwashed and whatnot (thats still the story right? i cant remember) he holds a lot of guilt and baggage over his #actions and i think is able to temper amanda's worse tendencies in terms of that by calling her out when he recognizes that behavior #idk. i just really think that amanda waller and the suicide squad as a whole has lost its way without a more moral authority presence there. #like someone who can call her out and keep them more on track. which i really thing ben is and could be #i just very much am interested in their dynamic and how that would look like as equals and how i think they could help each other. #which ofc is what my wip is about and revolves around #blah #sui sq

[danielnelsen]

there’s so much i wanna do this week/month/etc but i’m just too sick, i have no energy, i can’t sleep, i’m constantly nauseous and headachey and on the verge of a migraine, i’m stressed and irritable and impatient and panicky…….how tf did i survive nearly 5 years of high school untreated if i can’t even manage this when i don’t have any major obligations rn

#at least i finally got my meds so hopefully i feel a little better soon #although i’m now on 20 pills per day which is Just Great #whenever i’m in remission it’s nice to just. forget sometimes that this can happen at any time #kinda wish i had the typical kinda chronic illness that people talk about with ‘flares’ #or at least triggers that i can plan around #the other times have all had an easily identifiable stressor tho tbf. idk what caused this one #the first time was whooping cough and the next few were all very major life stressors like my cat dying right after i started uni #and i think also towards the end of my honours thesis? #but this…….there’s no major stress right now. nothing wildly beyond normal #i’m a little concerned about my joints tho. they’ve been so much worse than normal the last few months #so i’m kinda worried i’m developing rheumatoid arthritis (also an autoimmune disease and it runs in the family specifically) #so if that’s happening then it could set my thyroid off? probably should get to the doctor at some point #obv i’m seeing my endo for thyroid stuff. but i should see my gp and get her to run all the autoimmune blood tests again #i’ve done that before but it’s been a few years and my ankles and knees are so painful i can’t even walk properly a lot of the time #BUT I JUST WANNA DO THINGS I ENJOY AND I CANT AND I WILL CONTINUE TO COMPLAIN ABOUT IT #‘oh you’re so lucky you don’t have as many obligations because you’re chronically ill’ ha ha ha please swap lives with me immediately #personal #but seriously. i wasn’t diagnosed until i was nearly 17 and we can trace it back to whooping cough when i was 12 #so it was the last half of year 6 and then all of years 7-10 and the start of year 11 of just being. uh. ‘very lazy and complaining a lot’ #and TEACHERS joking about me and my sister (who was dealing with an arguably more severe undiagnosed disease) missing so many classes #wow so funny pdhpe teacher who’s supposed to be teaching is about health #and the thing with being a mentally ill teenager is that hyperthyroidism can just look like a very severe anxiety disorder #so i didn’t go to the dr until i was too sick to go to school at all. and luckily had a good dr who did a blood test #i’m just rambling now because i can’t sleep and i don’t wanna lie here doing nothing #might go play pvz or something. that’s been keeping me entertained

[bejeweledmp3]

tell me why i'm considering opening the doc and writing fanfiction during my lunch break. ON MY PHONE

#talking tag; #totp tag; #i've been meaning to make a tag for the fic so. there #ok if anyone is curious (probably not but like. i like talking about these things) i split the fic in sections in my head #so every ''kimberly finds her father in blah blah'' is a section and that's how i keep track of them #so chapter 1 had sections 1-3 and chapter 2 had sections 4-5 #and chapter 3 will have sections 6-7. it has to. for structure reasons #but section 6 is a very important one and she's at like. 8.5k words at the moment???? and i still haven't gotten to the last scene #OF THE SECTION. THEN THERE'S ANOTHER SECTION #which should hopefully be shorter (around 5k or less is my guess) because fewer things happen but. god #we're looking at a 15+k word chapter. if you're reading the fic hopefully you like long chapters cause!!! it'll be a long one!!!!! #also i am once again pointing out that if you're reading the fic and have absolutely anything to say about it PLEASE tell me #i love talking about this fic she's my child that i created. she's like a clay sculpture to me #i do mean to reply to ao3 comments but i'm shy 😭😭😭😭 but i reread them all a billion times and cry about them every time #i'm still thinking about the lengend that dropped that page long comment on chapter one. king (gn) if you see this i love you #when i reply to comments yours will be first. know that you have me and nat's infinite love forever and always. #truly i hope you like it and cand find peace in it. lord knows we all need it #well. anyways! i think i might edit the doc i'll see