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swimmingstudentchaos8912 hours ago
Headcannon for cabenson starting a family? (Long before Noah is a thing)
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You know what
I have a good answer for this one
Remember Antonio? The little boy that was testifying when Alex had to face the guy that shot her in "Ghost"?
I have the idea that Alex grew so fond of him she kept contact with him
For this HCs purpose let's say he's like 8
And when she came out of WPP she of course went back to Olivia but she did some digging and found out that Antonio had nowhere to go as he didn't have any other family
So she looked at Liv like this 馃ズ馃ズ馃ズ
So what the hell is Olivia supposed to do
But have them both adopt him
And when I tell you he is the sweetest boy
And the littlest, softest gentleman
Alex is ready to spend all her money on him
But Antonio is a kid with a simple soul so it's not like he doesn't want any presents but he doesn't ask for a lot either
Like he'd rather go out to the park or stay inside drawing
Olivia teaches him to play sports and they read together
Alex has gotten used to finding both of them asleep on Antonio's bed with an open book in Liv's lap
Alex always asks him about his day and that all his feelings and emotions are valid so he grows to be a respectful man
But she also teaches him to say a lot of lawyer like arguments and that if someone messes with him he is allowed to say both his moms work in law enforcement
If there is one person that Alex will learn to cook for it's Antonio
So she prints out a bunch of pinterest recipes and tests them all out
Kathy! Kathy is also very helpful
She teaches her to cook basic breakfast lunch and dinner staples and how to be a mom
Alex learns that there is more to life than work
And with Olivia they take turns to go to all his school things (if they can't both attend otherwise they both go)
Alex has been banned from invited to skip a couple of his soccer games for her aggressive intense cheering
Don't even get me started on how Antonio writes them cards and makes them breakfast for mothers day bringing Alex to tears
They also always leave flowers to Antonio's biological mom and dad on important days
If he ever goes to visit the precinct Munch, Fin and Elliot always give him little gifts
And when he goes to visit Alex at her office he gets little gifts from Petrovsky, Donnelly and Casey
Casey takes him to NBA and MLB games when he's older
Alex and Olivia also take him to Disney World and he and Olivia ride all the rides and Alex watches them because she discovers she is terrified of rollercoasters
Just a happy, happy family I have nothing bad to say about Antonio I think everyone in the Benson-Cabot household has gone through enough
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esparz-uh5 hours ago
Traitor (Reader x Rafael Barba/Olivia Benson)
Word Count: 4,500+
Warning(s): No actual cheating but Rafi definitely isn鈥檛 going to win the #1 bf award with you; angst, :(
Author鈥檚 Note: I鈥檓 not a Barson stan (I鈥檓 strictly a Benson/Tucker shipper and every Ra煤l character is shipped with me thx) but since Barson is a popular ship, when I listened to the Olivia Rodrigo album (we love being sad and mad, queen!!) and heard Traitor, it highkey made me think of Barson. Also, it started out being inspired by the first verse and I was like "I'll do the whole song!" but this was sooo long and kind of veered off in a different direction at the end so idk. Maybe a continuation some time?
Brown guilty eyes and little white lies
Yeah, I played dumb but I always knew
That you'd talk to her, maybe did even worse
I kept quiet so I could keep you
Olivia Benson always seemed to have a glassy look in her eyes. If she was sad, angry, happy - her eyes would gloss over and she would seem to be just one simple word away from having tears slip down her cheeks and her body rock with sobs. But that special thing about Olivia Benson was that she was strong. No matter how sad, angry, or happy she got, Olivia wouldn鈥檛 break down. It was a blessing and a curse. She could help each victim through their investigations and trials with such vigor that her passion alone could make the defendants want to make a plea deal right then and there, but Olivia didn鈥檛 know when it was the right time for her to take that moment for herself and breathe.
That was until A.D.A. Rafael Barba made a place for himself in her world. Olivia was ecstatic to have another powerful being added to her small army of justice seekers. Seeing Rafael strut around the courtroom with his quick wit and an equally quick mouth made Olivia swell with admiration and respect towards the Cuban man. Even after his first case that he worked on with SVU, Olivia knew that Rafael was a man who could be trusted, not just as a fellow colleague, but as a friend.
You and Rafael had started dating around the time that he started working with Special Victims. When Rafael first told you of his new job months ago, you were obviously happy for him. Getting justice to those who needed it the most made you feel proud of your boyfriend. You both knew how hard these cases would be to prosecute but you knew your boyfriend. He was too smart for his own good and would certainly work himself into an early grave but his job was all for a greater good.
Over the course of a year, you saw your boyfriend transform into an even stronger attorney. But something inside of him changed. He definitely had a fire lit within him but he was also sad. A part of him knew that after he closed one case with a successful guilty verdict and handed the victim a full plate of justice for their trauma, dozens of more cases would be slapped onto his desk by his assistant before he could even get down the courthouse steps. Constantly seeing victims come forward with their traumas - physically, mentally, and emotionally - was hard not just for Rafael, but for the rest of the SVU team.
You would try your best to help him deal with his pain. You never knew about all the gory details because Rafael would never disclose them to you. He wanted to keep you safe. He didn鈥檛 want you to become jaded like he would soon be with each new case that would introduce him to just how disgusting and horrible people could be. And the fact that they were walking around the same planet, let alone the same streets as you and him - it made his blood boil and his mouth filled with a foul taste.
You would bring him a fresh cup of coffee. Or make a favorite meal with the recipe that you got from his mother. You would hug him and kiss him. You would listen to him voice his thoughts - even if they weren鈥檛 one hundred percent honest. When you confronted him about it, he paused, grabbed your hands, and said, 鈥淭hank you for worrying, mi amor.鈥 You blinked. 鈥淚鈥檝e been talking about it with some... colleagues, though. I think it鈥檚 been helping.鈥 He pressed his lips to your forehead before asking you what you wanted for dinner that night. You gave a small nod when he suggested Mexican.
Over the next few weeks, you noticed Rafael become happier. While he was still jaded to a point, he was always seemingly reminded how there were people out there who would try to be their best like their own life depended on it. Like the only reason they existed on the Earth was to remind people that they could be better whilst also being given compassion.
If Rafael was asked about who he admired the most, he would certainly have to pause. He would need to know the overall context. He admired his mother and Abuela dearly. Those two women raised him to be the strong and headstrong man that he was today. He would consider his childhood best friend, Alejandro Mu帽oz. Alex was a boy who had charisma, drive, and showed kindness to Rafael when no other boys would. Even his own mother adored Alex. The last person he would consider for his admiration would be Olivia Benson. Ever since he met her, she was the poster child for what SVU stood for. If Rafael had been a mad scientist, he would have copied Olivia thousands of times and sent the army into the streets of New York. Rafael would be sure that crime would disappear overnight and the world would find peace.
But he couldn鈥檛 do that.
And so instead, he became friends with Olivia. The two would spend more and more time together. Whenever his office door would be pushed open without Rafael鈥檚 permission, he was always ready to bark and bare his teeth to whoever tried to interrupt his work, but all of that would be swallowed down when Olivia walked in. She would either have a sad smile on her face from having to give Barba a new case or it would be scowling and bubbling with anger because she had just gotten bad news about a current case.
Rafael didn鈥檛 like either of those looks. But he did enjoy what came out of it - conversation. Olivia and Rafael had gotten into the habit of talking with each other. Things seemed to flow so easily between them. After a particularly horrid case that involved children who were scarred for life because of some rotten man who betrayed their trust - Rafael hadn鈥檛 gone to you to talk about it. He knew he should have. Hours after the guilty verdict was won, Rafael had found himself in a cab and told the driver to head over to the precinct. He made his way through the eerily quiet police station.
The bullpen was empty. Amanda had gone home to her daughter. Fin had a dinner reservation with his son and son鈥檚 fiancee. Nick had the weekend off for a short trip to D.C. to see his daughter who lived with his ex-wife. Carisi was probably in one of his night classes. And the light on in Olivia鈥檚 office would tell Rafael that she was still here. Before he reached the door, his phone vibrated in his pocket. He dug for it and the screen lit up with a text message.
Working late?
Rafael鈥檚 tongue flickered over his lips. His thumb hovered over the keyboard, mind reeling.
When the text was sent, the door to Olivia鈥檚 office opened. Rafael鈥檚 gaze flickered up as his fingers fumbled to lock his phone as it let out a quick buzz. You had texted back but Rafael didn鈥檛 read it. He eventually made his way home hours later.
It was late. You were already asleep in your shared bed. Rafael鈥檚 heart was thrumming so loud in his chest that he thought it would wake you up. He felt a thickness in his throat. He thought he was going to throw up. Stepping out into the living room, he fell back onto the couch with tears in his eyes. He ran his hands over his face. His fingers struggled to loosen the tie around his neck. He felt claustrophobic. He felt hot. Pushing his suit jacket off, he blinked quickly. His vision was getting blurry. He tossed his jacket onto the coffee table as his fingers went to his tie again but they didn鈥檛 reach their destination.
His jacket made a louder thud than normal. Taking a shaky breath, he reached for it and grabbed his phone. His vision blurred again as his screen lit up with two texts.
Thank you for tonight, Rafa.
That was from Olivia.
The tears finally slipped down his face when he read the second text that was from you.
Don鈥檛 work too hard. I love you, Rafi.
Rafael slept on the couch that night. When you found him the next morning, you were confused and worried. Practically jumping from the couch from his weak slumber, his lips pushed against yours, hard. His hands held your face in a vice and when his lips weren鈥檛 kissing yours, they were mumbling 鈥淚 love you.鈥
You didn鈥檛 know why, but you felt sick.
You had only met the SVU team a few times. They were quite a memorable bunch. Each detective had their own quirks. You found that Amanda and Fin shared the habit of gossiping. The two of them had come up to you numerous times - whether when you visited the precinct or met at Forlini鈥檚 after a long day of work - and asked you about any dirty secrets about the very private A.D.A. Despite their nagging, you found them to be friendly and funny.
Nick seemed to be brooding whenever you saw him. And from the information that was given to you from Amanda, you understood why. That man seemed to never catch a break. But he was still polite. He bristled whenever Rafael鈥檚 name was brought up and you could put it together that the two Latino men have gone head to head more than once.
Sonny was maybe your favorite. He was a charismatic Italian man with an accent that took some getting used to and he was so eager to learn new things. He told you about his night school classes and how he wanted to be a lawyer. One time at Forlini鈥檚 when you were both grabbing some refills at the bar, he had quietly asked you, 鈥淚 don鈥檛 uh, wanna sound weird or anything-鈥 he peeked over his shoulder, before leaning closer to you, 鈥渂ut uh, what does Bahr-bah like? Like, I know he likes coffee and stuff, but whenever I try to be nice to him... He just-鈥 Sonny鈥檚 cheeks started to get pink. Probably more than they normally would since he had a few drinks already. 鈥淚鈥檓 studying to be a lawyer and he鈥檚 really good, you know. Couldn鈥檛 hurt to get on his good side.鈥
You awed at the man, pinching one of his cheeks before telling him of Rafael鈥檚 favorite brand of bourbon. You warned him of the price but with the holidays coming up, maybe it wouldn鈥檛 be looked at as something too outrageous to get. Sonny gave you a hard nod and you could tell he was trying to lock that information in his intoxicated brain.
When you met Olivia, it was鈥 weird.
While you had met the rest of the SVU team here and there, you met Olivia late one night. Rafael had texted you earlier that evening. Working late, love. He had texted you a variation of that message every day that week. You barely saw him in the mornings when the two of you did the early morning dance of getting ready for your jobs. A quick peck on the lips would be the only physical contact you would have until the next morning since you were typically asleep by the time he came home.
But it was a Friday. You were hoping he would come home at a reasonable time with the weekend coming up. Wanting to do something for your boyfriend, you made dinner and packed up a portion for you and a portion for him, and left your shared apartment hoping to distract your hard-working boyfriend for a little while.
The night air was chilly and 1 Hogan Place was practically empty. You passed a security guard, flashing him a smile and your reasoning for being there so late. His brows knitted up, grunting out, 鈥淚 don鈥檛 think anyone here鈥檚 ma鈥檃m.鈥 But he let you head over to Rafael鈥檚 office without much of a fight.
The hallways were empty and the offices you passed were dark. You could hear the faint sound of a machine of some sort that was down another hallway. A janitor was waxing the floors of the immaculate building. When you finally reached the familiar outcove of Rafael鈥檚 office, you saw Carmen鈥檚 desk. Papers, sticky notes, and Rafael鈥檚 schedule were plastered all over her desk. A button flashed on the phone, ready to let her know that there was a plethora of messages to listen to when she clocked in the next morning.
When you stepped over to Rafael鈥檚 office, the door was shut, which wasn鈥檛 unusual. But it was dark. Your brows furrowed, adjusting the tote bag that held your freshly cooked meal on your shoulder. Your hand grabbed the handle and tried to turn it.
Your lips twisted as you tried to think. You grabbed your phone from your pocket, opening up the thread of messages between you and Rafael. You read his last message for a long time. He鈥檚 working late. So where is he? You gave the knob another try as if it would magically open but nothing. You even rapped your knuckle against the wood, the hoarse whisper of Rafael鈥檚 name filled the small room.
You took a step back from the door, finger shakily finding Rafael鈥檚 contact. The line trilled loudly and your mind was filled with awful thoughts. 鈥淧lease,鈥 You begged down the phone, 鈥淩afi, please-鈥 The trilling stopped and you took a breath.
鈥淵ou鈥檝e reached Rafael Barba. Please leave your name, number, and message. My office number is-鈥 You ended the call. You felt like you couldn鈥檛 breathe. Your head felt dizzy and the tote bag on your shoulder felt like it was a thousand pounds. It slid off your shoulder and your hand gripped the straps hard as it knocked against your leg, inches above the carpeted floor.
Your other hand redialed Rafael. When you listened to his voicemail for the fifth time, your eyes were watery and you could barely see what was around you in the dimly lit room. Your feet were guiding you through the building, and past the security guard with speed. The guard looked up at you briefly as you flew by him before going back to his phone.
You didn鈥檛 know what to do. Do you call the police? Do you keep trying his cell? The New York streets were dark and you knew that you shouldn鈥檛 be out and about. Especially on the verge of tears. After listening to Rafael鈥檚 voicemail for another time, you searched your contacts as best as you could. The words on your phone were blurred and you squeezed your eyes shut to stop it. When you opened them again with a sniffle of your nose, you found Amanda鈥檚 contact.
She answered on the fourth trill, 鈥淗ello?鈥 She paused like she was seeing who was calling her. When she saw your name, she put the phone back to her ear and said your name, confused. You had never called Amanda before.
You tried your best to steady your voice, 鈥淚 don鈥檛 know where he is.鈥
You sniffled again, 鈥淩afael-鈥 A tremble rocked through your body as you watched a cab pass by. 鈥淚-I don鈥檛 know where he is. H-he鈥檚 not answering his phone. He鈥檚 not at his office. Amanda-鈥 A tear slipped down your cheek and you wiped it away harshly.
Amanda took in a breath. 鈥淎lright,鈥 There was a rustling over the phone like she was moving around her apartment. 鈥淐alm down, okay? Where are you?鈥 You heard the clunk of shoes and the jingle of keys. You told her that you were outside of Hogan Place. 鈥淥kay, get to the precinct. Text me when you get there. I鈥檒l call everyone else and we鈥檒l meet you there, okay?鈥 Amanda鈥檚 voice was stern but even you in your almost blubbering state could hear the tremble of uncertainty. Amanda knew Barba enough to know that him not answering his phone was out of character.
You nodded at her words before assuring her in words. She hung up with a click and you adjusted the tote bag onto your other shoulder, needing to give your right arm a break. Your coat sleeve was brought up to your cheeks, trying to soak up the wetness that trailed down your face. Hoping you didn鈥檛 look too scary or vulnerable, you hailed down a cab and told him to bring you over to the 16th precinct.
The precinct was only slightly more alive with life than Hogan Place. You exited the elevator onto the floor where Special Victims was with your stomach in knots. You made your way to the bullpen, passing some cops who were stuck with the night shift. You found Amanda鈥檚 desk which was marked with the various pictures of Jesse and slumped the tote of cold food onto the desk. Now free of the dead weight, your hands went to cover your eyes as you tried to steady your breathing.
You had sent Rafael a handful of texts in the cab ride over.
Raf, please pick up.
Hello?? Are you ok??
Call me, please.
I can鈥檛 have anything happen to you.
Your hands dropped from your face and your body perked when you heard something鈥 a laugh? You blinked a few times, needing to adjust to the lights in the bullpen. You took in the room, glancing at all the desks of the detectives until your eye caught the sliver of light coming from behind a door. Your eyes drifted up the wood. A small window was in the middle of the door, a small curtain drawn. Then, you saw the plaque above it.
Captain Olivia Benson.
Your chest heaved when you read it. She can help! A thankful smile graced your lips as you ran over the door. Your hand twisted the handle with lightning speed and you pushed the door open with your whole body. You didn鈥檛 care if it would be looked at as rude. The only thing on your mind was finding Rafael. And even though you haven鈥檛 met Olivia yet, Rafael had mentioned more than enough times that she was a good cop.
You practically fell into the room, your gaze landing on the wide-eyed brunette who was sitting at her desk. 鈥淚-I鈥檓 so sorry,鈥 Your lips were moving fast, 鈥淚-I need help finding my boyfr-鈥
You cut yourself off. A noise of disbelief bubbled from your throat. Your hand still gripped the handle of the door and you thought you were going to rip the entire slab of wood off the hinges. You blinked rapidly, trying to see if the scene in front of you was some hallucination. Like some weird, absurd dream. Or a nightmare. Would this be considered a nightmare?
In the office that you barged into, sat Olivia Benson at her desk. Her hair was down, her eyes were wide and worried. She didn鈥檛 know who you were. She immediately thought of you as a woman who needed to report an assault or worse, a rape. But when she heard you start to explain your reasoning being there - before you cut yourself off - she was still worried and would help. She was just relieved. The team had just closed a rough case involving multiple rapes on the West Side. Having a softball of a case would be preferred, even if it wasn鈥檛 a sex crime. Olivia had on a form-fitting t-shirt. Her blazer was hung on the back of her chair. In front of her was a few white boxes of Chinese takeout. She had dropped one of her chopsticks onto her desk when you had barged in.
But Olivia wasn鈥檛 what you were looking at.
In the chair sitting on the other side of her desk was Rafael Barba. When you first came into the office, his back was to you and he was slurping on a noodle. His chest struggled for air as he choked on his food. When he turned to face the intruder of his late night dinner with Olivia, his jaw dropped.
His eyes flickered over your appearance. Your jacket was pulled tightly against your body to keep you warm from the chilly New York night. Your eyes were red and swollen. Your cheeks glistened in the light of the office. He could see the invisible trails your tears had carved out on your face. He tossed the white carton he was holding onto Olivia鈥檚 desk without care to where or how it landed and stood up quickly, wiping his mouth from the grease of the noodles.
鈥淐ari帽o,鈥 He whispered as his head filled with the same thoughts Olivia had moments ago. Why were you here? What happened to you? Did you get raped? He stepped towards you, arms outstretched to grab you and pull you into a hug but you took a swift step back. His brows furrowed as he watched you. After saying your name and taking another step, you kept the distance between you two.
Your brain felt empty. Walking in on this late night work session had absolutely wiped your mind. You stood in your spot as Rafael watched you cautiously and Olivia stood up from her seat. She didn鈥檛 say anything. She just watched. As your whole being rebooted itself, your gaze looked anywhere other than Rafael and Olivia.
You took in the decorated office. Shelves with books. File cabinets were in the corner, filled with cases that went all the way back to the 鈥90s. There was a small couch against one of the walls. You saw pictures on the wall - some of Olivia, some of nameless people, some of a small boy. You didn鈥檛 look at Rafael until he said your name again. It was stern. He wanted to know what the hell happened to you.
His green eyes locked with you and for the first time, you hated to look at them. Your bottom lip was sucked into your mouth and you chewed on it. The hamster wheel in your brain hadn鈥檛 started running again yet. You were surprised at how calm you were right at that moment. Rafael was hesitant, but he took a half step towards you. He didn鈥檛 want to scare you off like you were some small wild animal. When he moved towards you, your gaze hardened and he saw it.
He got the first syllable of your name out before you finally spoke, 鈥淚 thought you were dead.鈥 His eyes widened again and he looked at you like you had three heads. You took a deep breath in and out through your nose. 鈥淚 went to Hogan Place.鈥 Your grip tightened on the handle and Olivia watched as your knuckles tried to break through the skin of your hand. 鈥淚 made dinner and decided to bring it over to you at your office. You said you were working late and we hadn鈥檛 seen each other much this week.鈥 You looked over at the cartons of food that sat on Olivia鈥檚 desk taunting you. 鈥淵our office was locked. Empty.鈥
Your free hand went to your hair. Your fingers threaded through your hair and you gripped the strands in frustration before speaking, 鈥淚 called you. Probably twenty times.鈥 Rafael鈥檚 eyes moved from your face and to the carpet of Olivia鈥檚 office. His stature began to slump the more you went on. 鈥淚 texted. I-I,鈥 you shook your head, 鈥淚 thought you probably went home early but when you didn鈥檛 pick up, I thought the worst had happened.鈥
Olivia watched you. She took in how you were trying so hard not to yell or cry at Rafael. Your eyes had that oh so familiar shine to them. 鈥淚 didn鈥檛 know what to do. If I should call the cops,鈥 You had added a slight snicker to the last word, 鈥渟o I called Amanda. She told me to come here and wait for her. I saw your office light was on,鈥 You locked eyes with Olivia, speaking directly to her like Rafael wasn鈥檛 even there. 鈥淎nd Rafael has always told me how amazing you are as a cop. The best he鈥檚 ever met.鈥 Rafael鈥檚 throat bobbed as he swallowed. 鈥淏ut you鈥檙e fine.鈥 You finally looked at him again. He lifted his head and his heart pounded in his ears. He winced when you spoke again, 鈥淚鈥檒l leave you to finish your work.鈥
You didn鈥檛 intend to slam the door of the office of a woman you had just met but your blood was boiling through your body. Your coat felt like a cocoon of heat. You ran a hand through your hair, trying to think, trying to process. You didn鈥檛 even hear the elevator ding, alerting the arrival of Amanda who was leading the pack of a yawning Fin, a furrowed brow Nick, and a Sonny who was mumbling about an assignment for one of his classes.
The four of them looked at you, standing in the middle of the bullpen, pulling at your own hair. They could visibly see that you weren鈥檛 currently in the real world. You were stuck in your head. Amanda stepped forward, placing a hand on your shoulder. You jumped at the touch, eyes snapping over to the blonde. She was taken aback by your energy. Something felt off.
鈥淎re you okay?鈥 She whispered to you.
You shook your head.
Nick jumped in, 鈥淲hen was the last time you heard from him?鈥
鈥淗e said he was heading here after the trial,鈥 You heard Sonny say. While Sonny didn鈥檛 mean anything by the statement, it felt like the lanky detective had thrown a hard punch directly to your chest. You let out a sharp chuckle. It was dry, cold. Amanda鈥檚 face contorted into confusion.
鈥淗ey,鈥 Fin grabbed the attention of the other men, 鈥淐ap is still here. We should let her know he鈥檚 missin鈥.鈥 Fin made his way over to the office door of Olivia and rapped a knuckle against the window. The sound of the glass being tapped made your legs start to move you towards the elevator. Your shoes echoed in the quiet bullpen. Sonny made a noise of confusion, watching you leave. His thumb was pointed over in your direction as he looked over at Amanda.
Amanda called your name, ready to ask you what was up when the door to Olivia鈥檚 office opened. Fin scowled before stepping back. Olivia let out a shaky breath, stepping out into the bullpen. Your finger jabbed the button to call the elevator. You heard Nick grumble and Amanda let out a 鈥渉uh?鈥 The four detectives watched as Rafael stepped out of Olivia鈥檚 office. His hands were in the pockets of his pants.
鈥淲hat the hell is happening?鈥 That was Amanda.
鈥淚 thought you were missing?鈥 Fin said.
You heard the ding of the elevator and the doors slid open. Rafael watched you as you stepped into the small box and when he heard the doors closed, he saw the colorful tote bag that was resting on Amanda鈥檚 desk. The food inside of it was empty of any heat.
Just like his relationship.
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simpforbarba5 hours ago
鈥淪quabbling With You鈥 Quick Links
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Chapter 1:
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simpforbarba5 hours ago
Squabbling With You: An SVU [Barson] Fanfic
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Chapter 1: Love Makes A Home
Quick authors note: thank you for all your love! Likes and reposts are appreciated! It makes you happy you like this series! I鈥檓 so looking forward to this more happy book. Love you guys.
Good morning Livie.鈥 Rafael said as he gave Olivia a kiss as she was waking up. Last night, they had closed the deal on their new home so they鈥檇 be getting ready to move into their new house soon.
鈥淕ood morning Rafa, you鈥檙e eager. I鈥檓 looking forward to it too. It鈥檚 egg retrieval day so we can expand our family. It鈥檚 also seven months until our wedding day.鈥
鈥淵ou鈥檙e right. Happy marriage and happy baby on the way.鈥 Rafael replied as he gave her a kiss and got out of bed. He slid his arms through the wrist straps of his crutches and went to the bathroom.
鈥淎nother victory today was I didn鈥檛 wet the bed, again. I can鈥檛 believe we鈥檙e going to have a baby.鈥 He said.
Olivia loved seeing her fianc茅 in a good mood, considering all he鈥檇 bed through. He still needed crutches to walk and used his wheelchair for long distance or when he was in the courtroom. The both got dressed for the day and headed to the doctors office. Rafael paced the waiting room as the doctors were prepping Olivia for the surgery. He was nervous but crutching around the waiting room eased his nerves since he wasn鈥檛 allowed to drink coffee.
鈥淩afa, you鈥檙e okay and I鈥檓 okay. Brittany is looking forward to being our surrogate.鈥 Olivia said.
鈥淢y part of the process is easy, yours isn鈥檛 as much. You鈥檝e done so many injections and treatments just so we can have a baby. It just makes me nervous it won鈥檛 work.鈥
鈥淚t will Rafa. It will. You鈥檙e going to be a great dad to this child, you鈥檙e already a great dad to Noah.鈥 Olivia said. 鈥淗old onto this okay?鈥 She put her her engagement ring in Rafael鈥檚 hands
鈥淲e鈥檙e ready for you now Ms. Benson.鈥 The nurse said as the took Olivia to another room for the procedure.
Rafael had taken a lot of things into consideration when choosing a ring for Olivia. The band was rose gold with a very subtle pink opal gemstone. He knew she didn鈥檛 want anything flashy or expensive since they just bought a house and planning their wedding and baby. He remembered nit picking in the jewelry store with Noah.
*flash back, I still don鈥檛 know how to do italics on AO3 so bear with me*
鈥淎lright Noah. I told your mom we were taking my suits to the dry cleaners, which we actually have to do but we鈥檙e actually are looking for an engagement ring for her.鈥 Rafael said as Noah was holding his hand so he wouldn鈥檛 wander off.
鈥淭hat means you鈥檙e going to ask Mommy to marry you right?鈥 Noah said.
鈥淭hat鈥檚 right. Remember we talked about it the other night and you said it was okay?鈥
鈥淲e鈥檒l I already call you Papi and you love my Mommy a lot and you make her happy.鈥 Noah said. 鈥淎nd you said when you love someone and you wanna spend forever with them, you buy them a ring.鈥 Noah said as he looked around at the different rings.
鈥淲hat are you looking for sir?鈥 The jewelry said.
鈥淲ell I鈥檓 trying to figure that out. I鈥檓 looking for a ring for my girlfriend. I brought her son with me.鈥 Rafael said.
鈥淲hat are you thinking about style wise?鈥
鈥淪omething unique. Olivia is a beautiful, kind and caring soul. I wanted something different.鈥 Rafael said as he was looking in the different cases of various rings.
鈥淚 like this one.鈥 Noah said as he sat in the chair next to Rafael and pointed to the rose gold one in the case.
鈥淚 think I like it too. What are you thinking Noah?鈥
鈥淲ell it鈥檚 pink and pink is pretty on Mommy. If she鈥檚 going to wear it forever, it needs to be perfect.鈥 Noah said as he looked at the ring in closer detail.
鈥淚 would like to make it more personal though. Maybe our names or something engraved on the inside and something more custom with. The gemstones. I鈥檝e been looking at ideas for months and I鈥檓 struggling on picking a ring for the woman of my dreams.
鈥淵ou鈥檒l do great Papi and Mommy will love it.鈥 Noah said with a smile.
*end flashback*
Thirty minutes had passed and the nurses had brought Olivia back to the room. She was still groggy and sleeping soundly as Rafael held her hand and kissed her forehead.
鈥淲ell you did it Livie and I鈥檓 so proud of you.鈥 Rafael said as he stroked the hair out of Olivia鈥檚 face. 鈥淗ere let me put this back.鈥 He then put her ring back on her finger and kissed her hand softly.
鈥淗i there, I wake up and see the man of my dreams.鈥 Olivia said groggily and saw her fianc茅 in front of her, staring with his bright green eyes.
鈥淚 get to take you home in a little bit after you eat something. Then we can snuggle in bed like you used to do with me after a procedure. The doctor said your stomach pain and nausea were normal and would start to go away in a few days. I鈥檓 here for you okay? Whatever you need.鈥 He said.
鈥淭hank you love. You鈥檙e pretty cute so I鈥檒l keep you.鈥 She replied.
鈥淕ood, cause we鈥檙e getting married and having this baby together. It鈥檚 going to work out. In a few days the cell will be transferred to Brittany but for now I鈥檓 focused on you.鈥 Rafael said.
A little while later, Rafael took Olivia home and helped her into bed. She was still groggy so Olivia was mumbling to Rafael that she was cold.
鈥淗old on a second.鈥 Rafael said as he took one of his hoodies from the closet.
鈥淎rms up, there we go. Are you warm now?鈥 He said as he kissed her lips softly and nuzzled his nose into her neck.
鈥淭his hoodie smells like your cologne. Thank you.鈥 Olivia said. 鈥淐an you stay here in bed with me?鈥
鈥淚 wish I could amore but I have to get some work done. I鈥檒l just be at the kitchen table. I鈥檒l come right back and snuggle. I鈥檒l make you something to eat if you want. I took off tomorrow to spend time with you.鈥 Rafael said as he gave her another kiss. 鈥淎lso I was really embarrassed that I filled the container and my knees got shaky and I spilled some of it on the men鈥檚 bathroom floor and it wasn鈥檛 enough to I tried again. I was just anxious and I was already taking a long time.鈥
鈥淚t鈥檚 okay honey. We both did it. I love you. Drink you water okay? You always seem to forget when you鈥檙e anxious.
鈥淚 love you too Livie. Get some rest alright?鈥 Rafael said as he went into the living to get back to his work.
Rafael wasn鈥檛 actually working. He was using the standing extension desk on the kitchen table so he could practice standing while looking at ideas for the new house and hopefully a baby room. He had spontaneously bought a baby crib the other day, yet they hadn鈥檛 said anything to anyone about The couple and those son were moving in ten days to their new house. They wouldn鈥檛 know for a few weeks if the surrogacy process had been successful but it was always nice to think about it. They had a high success rate but it was still a chance.
After working for about an hour, Rafael made some soup for his fianc茅e and snuggled in bed until Olivia woke up. Sometimes he wonders how Olivia was such a great caretaker while also working. He always wanted to check in with her to make sure she was okay. He often wondered how many hours she spend awake with him though those rough nights of reliving the trauma in his own mind.
鈥淚t鈥檚 time for your pain medication and you can鈥檛 take it on an empty stomach so I made you some soup.鈥 He said as he got in bed next to her while holding the bowl ok his hands. 鈥淗ere you go.鈥
鈥淩afa, you have to be the sweetest, kindest, loving soul ever and I鈥檓 grateful that I get to marry you. You鈥檙e also a pretty good cook.鈥 Olivia said with a small smile.
Rafael chuckled a bit as he fed Olivia some soup until the bowl was empty and handed her the bottle of painkillers. He then connected his feeding tube and snuggled close to Olivia.
鈥淚鈥檓 finished working for today so I鈥檒l be right here with you. I鈥檓 here for anything you need.鈥 He said.
鈥淐uddles and hearing your voice sing to me is all I need my love.鈥 Olivia said she and Rafael held each other close.
Today was moving day for the future Benson-Barbas. Their friends were over helping them put the boxes into the moving truck.
鈥淗ey honey, what鈥檚 this?鈥 Olivia said when it was just her and Rafael were alone in their room.
鈥淲ell I know you wanted to wait but it鈥檚 a crib for the baby.鈥 He said.
鈥淚 like it. Gray is a nice neutral color. Did you think I would be upset? I鈥檓 not. I鈥檓 just as hopeful as you are. Hold on, Brittany and Paul are FaceTimeing us.鈥 Olivia said as she gave him a kiss.
鈥淗ey there what鈥檚 up?鈥 Olivia said answer the call.
鈥淲ell we couldn鈥檛 wait to tell you two butttt congratulations on this baby due in January!鈥 Brittany said as she and Paul showed them the positive pregnancy test and the paperwork.
鈥淭hank you and thank you two for being part of our lives and carrying out baby. Even after this, we still want you in this this baby鈥檚 life.鈥 Rafael said as put his arm around Olivia.
鈥淲e鈥檒l have the first ultrasound at six weeks and find out the gender at twenty weeks. I have to have blood work and tests done so we may know sooner.鈥 Brittany said.
鈥淭hank you. We鈥檒l have to have you over for dinner once we finish moving into our new home. 鈥 Olivia said as the couple hung up the phone.
After a day of unpacking with the squad, the group of friends sat at the dinner table. It was a nice day to actually celebrate Olivia and Rafael鈥檚 engagement.
鈥淭hank you guys for helping us today. You guys are amazing and part of our family. We鈥檙e celebrating our engagement and our new house.鈥 Rafael said as he stood up and put his arm around Olivia鈥檚 waist.
鈥淲e have to put some finishing touches on this house and organize Rafael鈥檚 closet. But today we鈥檙e celebrating today.鈥 Olivia said as she put her hand on his shoulder.
鈥淲e also set a wedding date: October 3rd. There鈥檚 a lot to do but I鈥檓 grateful for you three: Fin, Carisi, Rollins and Hannah, You all have been incredibly helpful in this journey the past few months. Also thanks for being patient with me at work. You鈥檝e helped with our family so much and I鈥檓 grateful you all.鈥 Rafael said.
鈥淚 know we don鈥檛 talk about work at him but I think this weird season of life did something for us all. You two got together and so did Amanda and I considering our first kiss was under weird circumstances. What do we do with all these all over the place memories?鈥 Carisi said.
鈥淵ou hold them close and don鈥檛 let them go.鈥 Olivia said. 鈥淗ere鈥檚 to love I guess. I鈥檓 not good at making a toast but I love you all very much and I鈥檓 grateful for friends Rafael and I can call part of our family.鈥
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barbra2718 hours ago
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Olivia Benson, 2 ADA's and the same meaning of words
"I gotta move on"
"I have to move on"
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barbra2718 hours ago
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"He鈥檚 her other half. He鈥檚 her husband, her man, her life, her rock鈥
"...when you see somebody that you loved so much that was your life, who abandoned you , who was married, that you loved and then their life crushed, and that their life is a mess"
Mariska Hargitay
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incorrectcabensonquotes9 hours ago
Olivia: baby.
Alex: now is NOT the time for pet names.
Olivia: no. I'm calling you a baby. I'm insulting you.
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yhamh10 hours ago
You've Been On My Mind, Girl, Like a Drug - youhaveamerryheart - Law & Order: SVU [Archive of Our Own]
Takes place during and after Liv and Kathy's conversation in 'Burned' S8E11
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happenstanced10 hours ago
Richard Wheatley: "Captain Olivia Benson. Wow. Elliot, now I completely understand. She's a knockout."
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321pm11 hours ago
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It's hard not to like SVU or OC because the main characters are all HOT ASF 馃サ
And the ones tagged can ruin my life...
#respectfully 馃槇
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seblainerworld13 hours ago
SVU Binge Timeline
Timeline of my binge of the show:
Started season 1 in December 2020, finished January 2021. Started and finished season 2 in February 2021. Started and finished seasons 3-6 in March 2021. Started and finished seasons 7&8 in April 2021. Started season 9 in May 2021 and finished in June 2021. Started and finished season 10 in June 2021. Started season 11 in June 2021.
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abbyscameron14 hours ago
I know I was rewatching SVU to spiral over Rollisi again; but I just watched "Next Chapter" and I can't get over the interaction between Liv and Carisi right before they go in that house after Tom Cole.
Like, it's so subtle, so simple; but so damn good.
"Be careful, Carisi. "I'm good." "Hey, I said be careful."
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A commanding officer telling a detective to be careful is usually just a normal thing, right? You just kind of expect it. But there's so much more to this moment.
It's how, at first, Carisi kind of brushes it off, like, yeah ok. But Liv steps forward and is all like, no I'm telling you to be careful. And it's the look in her eye, how worried she is and how much she needs him to be careful, to watch himself.
Because homegirl is still thinking about Dodds. She's still thinking about leaving Dodds alone in that house with Munsen - which got him killed. She still blames herself for what happened (even if it was so out of her control) and she can't stomach the idea of something happening to another member of her squad on her watch. And It's only when she steps forward and says it again (and how she says it) that it finally clicks for Carisi exactly what she means.
Excuse me while I go cry over baby Dodds again.
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coltcameron16 hours ago
Okay. I need to go on a rant. Maybe it's misguided and I need to calm down.
Facebook. Why do I go in the Facebook comment section of ANY bensler post? It's full of crusty, straight, mostly male, but many Karen, boomers who CLEARLY have a very specific view of how the world is and it's not on fact how the world is.
1.) If one more dusty man calls her "saint Olivia" I swear to fucking GOD. If you think her version of a cop is "not realistic" because she is empathetic and always does what's right, then you are literally proving everyone's point that cops can't function without being toxic. I'm leaving my career, but I have been a cop for over a decade and if every officer I knew had some of Olivia's attitude....yeah.
Yes. Sometimes the writing is unbearable and they torture her to the point it's ridiculous, but that's not what these simpletons mean when they throw around the "saint Olivia." They're annoyed a female character is the lead and has been generally on the right side for 20+ years. Men and their Karen wives can't relate to a boss woman. They can't. Right-wing cop show watching men can't relate to a cop not doing something corrupt every third episode. Maybe I'm sensitive to it because she's not just a character to me, but fuck off Tim.
2.) They are not platonic. Even if they never get physical. They love each other. It.Is.Not.Platonic. What show are you watching? If you don't want them together in the end....fine. But if you honestly believe Olivia & Elliot walking into the sunset at the end of the series would "ruin the show" hello WHAT?
3.) They FREAK OUT if you even suggest that Elliot is problematic. At all. And they also post (the Karen's in particular) that Olivia needs to get over it and stop "being mad at him." Excuse me WHAT SHOW ARE YOU WATCHING? I think she's been very supportive and patient and there for him considering he fucking left her with no explanation for 10 years. His wife died. I get it. But to invalidate Olivia's feelings because of it? No Karen. She should not have to set herself aside because of a dude. Even if it is Elliot.
4.) They complain the shows are too political. SVU has ALWAYS been political. What they mean is, they don't like the shows addressing Black Lives Matter because it doesn't align with their right-wing bullshit. Fine, Dave. Don't watch it anymore. Nothing is more dangerous than a keyboard "patriot." And SVU has been accurate. PD's are closing ranks instead of addressing it. Ugh.
Maybe I just can't take criticism of Olivia, but from what I've read it comes from a place of misogyny and I'm over it. I'm not going on Facebook anymore. I need a drink.
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rahleeyah16 hours ago
Changes - Chapters 2 & 3
an SVU story
TW: smut for ch3
Chapter Summary: after Fin鈥檚 not-quite wedding, Elliot and Olivia finally say all the things they鈥檝e needed to, for so long now.
Read on FFN
or AO3
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