#Moments choose your story

[koshka-sova]

HOMOSEXUAL

I KNOW WHAT THEY ARE.

WOW

#arknights #when they say swire is snowsant's sugar mommy i underestimated how in-your-face it was #what do you mean its hard to find a travel companion swire. did you deliberately choose snowsant #ik its almost time to say so long to adele (heh) and i actually already finished the story last week but #i thought itd be nice to compile these moments between the two

[goldkirk]

Hi, just wanted to say that I also escaped a high control group (not quite a cult) because of fanfic. Go us! I hope you’re having as wonderful a time as I am being human!

I AM SO PROUD OF YOU! I am SO delighted for you! I’m so excited you get to live your life as hard as you want to and get so much joy from it now!

I’m filled with so much grief and suffering etc etc but I also experience so much gratitude and pure wonder and excitement and delight and good amount of the time too. This is more than enough for me. 🤙

I love this new wonderful experience of life we both get to have now! I wish you a bright and deep and rich and magical recovery as you keep always exploring on your journey ever onward!

#thank you so much for sharing your own story with me and my story in this brief moment #cult escapee #it helps me feel less alone too and I get to have secondhand delight from you too!! #I wish you the BEST #proud of you for clawing your way to the freedom to be and choose and live who you are and what you do #shutterbug series #for bad days #anonymous #katie answers asks

[itspileofgoodthings]

The moment in Stardust when Tristan walks into the witch’s lair and Yvaine who thought he didn’t care about her at all lights up while still chained to the sacrificial table of death

#stardust #at the very end of the day the thing that gets me the most about stardust is that she literally glows when she’s happy and you can see it #it’s so me-coded #can’t hide when you like someone can’t #hide when you’re sad #and the light comes and goes as you move about your day #also ??? like?????!!? the story just lets Yvaine love Tristan first and in some ways most #it’s not unrequited it’s not unreturned and so it’s satisfying #but he sets out on his stupid little quest and it’s not just about him realizing that it’s Her not Victoria #it’s also Yvaine learning human love up close after loving it so much from afar #she tells him first!!!! she chooses first!!!!!!!!!! #her generous beautiful noble heart #(I really love her) #anyway my least favorite thing about stardust is the occasional moments of 7th grade boy humor (the princess bride would never) #but still #Tristan coming in to save her. the two of them protecting each other from the smashing mirrors. Yvaine putting her arms around him and jusT #GLOWING #and that being the highest emotional payoff and the thing that saves everybody #like. 14 year old me saw this movie and was CHANGED #because her happiness and love is something so bright it can destroy evil #and that’s what her shining IS #idk it’s just such a perfect fairy tale quality #no Star can shine with a broken heart!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!! #also when Tristan tells Victoria he found the star and quietly says yes when she asks if it’s beautiful #and then opens the handkerchief and realizes she can’t cross the wall #and then SPRINTS #to stop her #now I’m just listing random stardust moments #while we’re at it Michelle Pfeiffer is absolutely terrifying and incredible as the witch

[quietwingsinthesky]

obsessed with the idea of the doctor and the master standing together in opposition to gallifrey post-end of time. less in it being the reality of the situation, and more in it being what the master perceives it to be in the immediate aftermath of being. well. told he was going to be disposed of. the combination of that rejection with the doctor choosing him, the way that sets them up with a common enemy. but where that enemy for the master becomes gallifrey in the abstract with the council as the face of it, the doctor never sees it that way, never thinks of it as the two of them against their own world. the doctor, crucially, kept count of the children. when he saves gallifrey, it isn’t about the master at all, not to anyone but the master themself. because how are they supposed to take the doctor choosing gallifrey over them as anything other than a betrayal.

#the master and his stupid warped sense of importance to both the doctor’s choices and the universe as a whole #which is. well. i mean he’s not alone in that. the doctor has the same ideas about himself in relation to the master. and the universe. #only the universe obviously sometimes validates him because this is a story. about him. #but my point is. the master wanting gallifrey to burn post-end of time. setting up the hybrid prophecy as missy. makes sense to me. it does. #i just wish there was more. conflict to it. more to lash out at the doctor with because the master is choosing him so *why* isn’t he #choosing the master back. why is he trying to stop the hybrid plans. this is what they’re meant to *do*. this is what being on the same side #*means*. that there must be an opposition and that opposition must be gallifrey as a whole. because in that most crucial moment the master #got hurt. and time echoed back because of what the council did to make it so he’d been hurting his entire life. just so they could use him. #you get it? you get it. my fucked up raccoon of a man she has so many issues. #it’s just such a fascinating concept to me because that is still *gallifrey*. that’s still his home. the master is not heartless. #when he tries to connect with the doctor he does it to references to gallifrey’s physical features. this is a place he mourned you know? #in his way. so. you know. how do you look at your home and want it to burn right? how far do things have to escalate that you’d rather it be #ash than a place to go back to. and how do you deal with pushing forward with this plan. when you thought you wouldn’t have to push it alone #like for one minute there they were really truly on the same side. their own side. and then they weren’t. and no one told the master that #they weren’t anymore until she got punched in the head by that knowledge. you know? #rambling again im so sorry #doctor who #thoschei #the doctor #the master

[dykedvonte]

If Ulysses has a million haters, then I'm one of them. If Ulysses has one hater, then I'm THAT ONE. If Ulysses has no haters, that means I'm dead. If the world is with Ulysses than I’m against the world.

#this is slightly joking but like also not but also like am mixed on Ulysses on many factors #infuriating because i sympathize with his pain but it’s like #he is a well written and fundamentally flawed character whose hypocrisy I found doubly in #black characters I can tell were designed by white people with a semblance of an understanding of activism and bipoc oppression #but not enough for the character to not feel like hand holding for the majority white audience #plus personal grips with the whole twisted hairs thing and reference to slave braiding patterns #Ulysses irks me as a black person on a weird personal level and I can go into debt on why him being black is a big detractor for him to me #like he continues this cycle of distancing himself from his roots before remembering over and over again through his actions #he leave so much in his wake that the courier ends up correcting or helping like in honest hearts and old world blues because he’s self #righteous in a subtle way even to himself that he believes he stand out of his one man rule when he does not play an active hand #saw a post talk about how you choose to continue moving through his story and can leave at any moment and this it is partially your fault #but what of the oath that is set before you and is forced to take that he set up #I do not have to walk it but when I do the steps are not my own but those taken for me #you have to go out of your way to change it which is not something he expects because he’s playing by a story he’s been perpetuating in his #head about you two and the effect one man has when he’s continually been that one man more so than you as many of his actions directly lead #to the one you go through also the irony in the flag he continues to bear being the real reason he has no home #like he reps it when the package is likely enclave and thus use the same symbol #also still can’t get over how anyone could have delivered the package and he tries so hard to act like it was the couriers destiny or fate #when this was the one case of chance and that once man was likely a enclave engineer and how it’s really is never one man #it the process and he’s so annoying about it like he’s a cool character but if you don’t believe in his philosophy or already went through #these ideas cause they are very common talking points in poc especially BIPOC spaces he’s just old hashings and stunted #fallout #fallout new vegas #Ulysses you upset me but I’m like I feel you could be better if you weren’t so incessant #I don’t think I ever want to make a serious post stating this about him just because I’d start yapping and it’d never get finished #ulysses fnv #fnv ulysses #lonesome road

[blueskittlesart]

Hi! As someone who now kinda wants to check out Trigun because of the hype, do you recommend that I can start with Stampede? Or do I really need to watch the OG anime first to better understand/enjoy it? Thank you! 🙋🏻‍♀️

you can start with stampede! i'd say knowing the context of the original enhances the experience but isn't necessary to enjoy the show. I would consider stampede more viewer-friendly, especially for those of us who are used to modern storytelling conventions (the original suffers the consequences of general writing trends in anime at the time it was produced and of the fact that it was produced long before the manga was finished, so the story is somewhat disjointed and has a lot of filler which makes it REALLY hard to get into.) if you do end up liking stampede, however, I'd suggest trying out watching at least SOME of the original because it adds a lot of cool nuance and context to the story that stampede tells!

#your only REAL handicap is that you're missing out on references that clue you into the context of the story early on #and quite a few references in the finale. but none of those references are hugely necessary to understand the plot so you should be fine! #i didn't DISLIKE the origial and like i said im glad i watched it first but it was. REALLY hard to get into. #even as someone who understands writing trends & enjoys a lot of older anime trigun is. a product of its time. #there's almost no context given for the story you're witnessing until a good 20 episodes in. #the main villain isn't named at all until halfway through the runtime #and even TWO EPISODES BEFORE THE FINALE i still did not have enough information to fully understand what the hell was going on #vash was going into the final fucking battle and i still didn't know what knives WAS let alone what the fuck he WANTED #not to mention nick was FULLY DEAD and i still didnt know what his deal was. like ok go off king have ur moment bleeding out in the church #but can you EXPLAIN WHATS GOING ON BEFORE YOU SUCCUMB TO THE BLOOD LOSS PLEASEEEEEEEE GOD #stampede does that whole thing WAY better imo. it sprinkles the backstory more naturally throughout the show #again. part of this is 90s writing conventions. but there's only so much i can take fr #it was like comparable to evangelion in terms of LACK OF CONTEXT #anyways. this isnt supposed to be me complaining about the original. it had its moments. i watched 24 episodes of it like it was not BAD #but like. i think the story really benefits from the way that stampede chooses to lay everything out. is what im saying. #tldr watch them in whatever order but if you like stampede try the original #you might not like it more than stampede but you WILL feel cool when you realize how it all relates to stampede #asks #vash is also WAAAAAY sexier in stampede. HOWEVER. the women of the show are like 10 times sexier in the original. so. pick your poison ig

[ren-144p]

Hi! Silent admirer of your RE stuff (it's been so long since I've played these games, but you've been re-inspiring me!) - so I'm curious about "Madrid, 1996" for the WIP asks? 👀

ohh god— going for the only one legitimately named and simultaneously the one most unpolished bdhdjsjkl

as of right now, “Madrid, 1996” is a series of snippets intertwined with meta about itself and records of my convos with @bennidraws (which is what started it all!!), written somewhat as a branch of my luis study project. set entirely pre-games, it follows the story of Luis and Carlos who meet, by chance, at an Umbrella conference, and in two weeks develop a particularly deep relationship. Carlos falls in love with an older man freshly out of a personality crisis, Luis falls for a repressed boy who's just discovering himself for the first time, and both of them turn each other's world upside down. contains dog imagery, yearning, cigarettes, and—on many occasions—Carlos' dog tags clinking against Luis' cross

it's rough and unpolished and not even fully planned out, branching within itself into multiple endings. but i've been chipping away at it when i'm not working on anything else and i feel like eventually something will come out of it. too much love has been put into those conversations for the fic to amount to nothing ❤️

*

“They ever give you a break, soldier boy?”

Carlos turned towards the voice, surprised to see anyone out of the building at this hour, especially in such a downpour. It belonged to the same man he had seen earlier, except the well-cut suit was nowhere to be found, now replaced by an intricately decorated leather jacket and a pair of well-worn jeans. He held a single cigarette between his teeth and a lighter in one hand, looking at him with curiosity through the hair falling into his eyes; and chuckled, clearly having noticed Carlos' persistent gaze on him.

“You look like a rabbit in headlights,” he teased, weaving the lighter between skilled fingers. It lit up with a quiet click a moment later, and Carlos took a while to admire the way the flame illuminated the man's face when he leaned into the light.

"No breaks.” He watched how his thin lips curled around a puff of smoke. “The shifts are short though.”

The stranger hummed, as if amused by the answer, and leaned back comfortably against the wall before extending a pack of cigarettes towards Carlos.

“Care for a smoke?”

*

“You should come find me later, soldier boy. When your shift is done,” the man said, throwing the butt of his cigarette on the ground. “Room 102. On the fourth floor,” he added with a wink, turning back, but Carlos' hand wrapped around his wrist before he could go.

“Who am I asking for?”

The stranger smirked, leaning in so close their noses almost touched.

“Name's Luis,” he said, a teasing note in his voice. “And who am I waiting for?”

“Carlos.”

*

and, as a bonus, a bit of the relevant note i made for this part (and for what's supposed to follow)

something about the terrifying act of inviting a stranger to your room, something about that stranger being a soldier; something about being invited to a hotel room by a man older than you, and something about the confidence with which he does it.

the way every night spent with a stranger might've been your last; the way he didn't know if he was gonna wake up the next morning, and then he did—and then they both did.

#ren.txt #tag game #i could ramble about this one for ages #that file has some of my best work in terms of lengthy emotional monologues #and i'm STILL wondering how to incorporate them into the final thing #choosing a way to write a fic is pretty damn hard when your writing is fluid and can change from like #''average third-person narration'' to ''literal poetry'' to ''meta monologue'' in the span of five paragraphs #anyway!! yeah! ''Madrid‚ 1996'' is dear to my heart. a story about connections and how they change and shape you over time‚ i'd say #and because i feel the need to clarify: i say ''older man'' but luis is like 26-28 here— and i say ''boy'' but carlos is set at 21 #their age gap is so important to me actually #btw i read this ask with a fever and when i saw ''silent admirer of your RE stuff'' i thought i saw god there for a moment #means a lot to hear that <33 #your writing is an inspiration and i absolutely love your stuff so. yeah 🥹❤️ #serraveira

[forcedhesitation]

I finished act 2 again, but properly this time. and I cannot even begin to put into words how satisfying and beautiful all of that was. I loved act 2 the first time I played, but figuring out how to save the last light this time, properly completing halsin's quest, storming moonrise towers with jaheira and her harpers, seeing aylin reunite with isobel...all of it. I love it even more. and the beginning of act 3 feels all the more rewarding, having fixed my past errors.

#bg3 #bg3 spoilers #thoughts about media #that was. incredible. I can't believe I missed so much the first time I played. #but at least having messed up the first time gives me a greater appreciation for the full story. #I did the “lift the shadowcurse” quest SO assbackwards last time I missed like. 90% of halsin's act 2 dialogue. #he IS cute. I am just STUPID. and learned nothing from dunking on gale before- when that was ALSO my own colossal mistake. #jaheira also gets such a badass moment of glory if her harpers as still alive. if you lose last light like I did before... #...god the assault on moonrise feels so...depressing. I felt so fucking bad for her the first time I played. #but I thought that you couldn't save isobel! and that's just what was supposed to happen! fool was I! #oh and if your tav fails the perception check on mizora when she first sends wyll to rescue zariel's asset- HE renegotiates his contract! #which I like better? I like when the companions get to choose their own fate! I like wyll taking a stand for himself! it was awesome! #and well. if corydalis used his outrageous charisma stat to push mizora into giving wyll a funky new sword? that's just friendship <3 #the relationship between aylin and isobel is beautiful. I'm so happy that I replayed to save isobel. I much prefer seeing aylin happy :) #barcus. barcus. barcus. I want to criticise you but I'm in love with astarion so. can I really talk??? #well maybe /I/ can't. but corydalis is Aware and playing mental manipulation chess with astarion. out of pure intent. but still. #join our polycule barcus. please. we will treat you better. I promise <3333 #anyways. not ready for the buggiest part of the game again. but at least I know what's going on this time.

[llitchilitchi]

Oblivion did such a great job with its UI, the choice of fonts was phenomenal, the constant presence of kingthings petrock as subtitles and as the player's journal evoking medieval books, the quest updates framed with floral ornaments that look right out of manuscripts, the little icons tied to specific quests and questlines and the different crests that appear in your log to signify your rank in different factions

#tes #oblivion #litchi.txt #sorry I got hit in the feels with this stuff #Im a sucker for the borders drawn in medieval manuscripts and I really love the use of those during the quests #plus the little illustrations that we get for Everything #quests factions birth sign EVERYTHING #dont get me started on the illustrations that appear Once when you are choosing your class like they didnt have to design all those #for one throwaway moment in the start #but they included it!! because its such an important moment #Im also just a sucker for anything related to fonts that look like schwabacher #I should just set my computer's default font to kingthings petrock at this point its such a nice font #i hope tes6 takes notes and brings this back I think it would look nice #the whole game has a very medieval story vibe and I know this is such a stupid thing to say #but yeah it just feels like looking thru a manuscript or at gothic church frescos #its like the manuscripts came alive #writing this also made me realise that this is something arena and daggerfall did less successfully because of the hardware limitations #and now Im emotional cause oblivion despite all the flaws and things people keep complaining about is SUCH a love letter to the franchise #I could make a whole post on that too. but oblivion is a love letter to arena and daggerfall change my mind

[thevalleyisjolly]

I am nothing if not a backseat writer and I find it somewhat repetitive to continuously defeat the villain through "They were so afraid of my reputation that they just turned and ran" so I'm choosing to believe that the real reason the Vashta Nerada let the Doctor pull off his plan is because they recognized that the planet was about to self-destruct, taking them along with it, and the Doctor was the person best able to prevent that outcome. They weighed letting all the people go as an acceptable one-time price; they could of course renege on the agreement and just eat everyone after they popped back out, but they couldn't guarantee that CAL wouldn't 1) start downloading people again the second anything went wrong, or 2) go into self-destruct mode again. Losing a one-time meal of 4000 odd people is better than losing your life and your planet altogether.

#the valley is posting #the thing is that for all i dislike sm; i will admit that silence/forest has many good elements for a great episode #sure there are a couple moments that are a bit ooc but that's true of every dw writer at some point #the biggest thing hampering the story imo is the reliance on 'the doctor is the specialist boy' theme #which then leads into the final confrontation with the antagonist where they just give up b/c of his terrifying specialness #and it's. ok i am looking at this retroactively but sm consistently pulls this move and it's sort of fine if you have smaller enemies #but when you do a good job building up the terror and the power of your baddies (which he did do! i give him this; he's good at that!) #the idea that they would be so intimidated into giving up by a few vague threats from the doctor #starts to wear a little thin #so i'm choosing to hc that the doctor's reputation helped in that the vashta nerada realized he was capable of saving their forest #but made the decision with the threat of imminent self-destruction hanging over them #and not the extremely vague threats the doctor made

[paper-star-ships]

Rosie (@one-and-a-million-fos) literally made a completely off-the-cuff one-player DnD campaign in our last VC, wherein I wake up in a house full of shadowed people who've lost their real names and their memories as well.

I first run into Gray (version with everyone's nicknames under the cut) who kindly let's me know that I should avoid saying my real name out loud, lest someone take it from me (heavily implying that it wouldn't necessarily be malicious either; if I said the name to him he would just take it unwillingly and without meaning to). He also lets me know that in order to leave the house (which is surrounded by a never ending forest shrouded in equally never-ending fog) I have to go through three trials to obtain three keys, whereupon a door will appear (assuming I still have my name and memories) that I can unlock and escape through. From there I meet the rest (?) of the friendlier Nameless, who are all very endearing and friendly. This leads me (being chaotic good whenever I am able) to decide that I'm not leaving until I get all their names back, as well as the keys.

Will I be able to keep my name? Will I loose anymore of my memories in these trials?? Will I get around to writing any of this as a series of no-context fics because Rosie literally provided me with another British f/o on a silver platter?!?!?!? Who knows!!!

I'm excited to find out tho :)

#img.filly🎨 #The Forest Of Forever #I cannot begin to explain how good Rosie is at coming up with choose-your-own-adventure stories off the cuff #She's done this before #She was riffing with me and my singular D20 for like three hours last night it was amazing #Also just for the record: The name that would get stolen is my birth name (that was specified) #but in the moment I decided that because I've gone by Filly for so many years and consider it my name as much as my irl one #it would be just as dangerous to give away #So in the moment I decided to go by Blue :) #This is likely the only time y'all will see me with an s/i that isn't called 'Filly' #and this s/i is still just me in a circumstance aikls;ugfswkfh #I love it tho and I'm not sorry <3

[itspileofgoodthings]

I know I’m talking to an empty theater here but the writing on that episode of Lark Rise to Candleford where Robert loses his tools (and so the means to feed his family) and is facing destitution and then runs into the young guy who’s in love with his daughter and then uses the moment not to take out all his angst and anger on Fisher but to ask him if he’s ready for all that marriage and staying and giving up his life on the road actually means thus forcing Fisher to admit that he isn’t ready for it—-

!!!!!!!!

#and it’s just so brilliant because we’ve watched Robert suffer so deeply the entire episode #because of how crushing the weight of parental responsibility and poverty can be!!! #and he sees this guy that loves his daughter but has no understanding of the life that that love could and should and will lead him to #if he chooses to stay. this guy who’s just living in the moment and in the feelings of the moment but whose love is not strong enough #to endure the sacrifice that would be required of. well. ordinary married life in a small town! #and Robert uses all his wisdom to force him to admit that he’s not ready for it and doesn’t want it #and then it gets even more brilliant! because after Fisher leaves and Laura is heartbroken and angry #he presents her with the same reality/question but from HER side #her being like ‘how dare you make him not stay’ and Robert being like ‘and did I force you not to go with him?’ #‘were YOU ready to give up your whole life and world for him? to make it work? or did you want your life AND him’ #it’s the have your cake and eat it too truth in this case. their lives didn’t fit together and their love was real in a way #but not real enough to weld their different lives together without both of them hating each other in the end #idk it’s just BRILLIANT and I love it so much #because it unfolds so truthfully and all of the pieces of the story fold into each other so that it a) hits exactly as hard as it should #and b) reveals the truths of things so clearly and so accurately #Robert is so annoying so much of the time but he was a fatherly icon in this ep #lark rise to candleford

[friendofthecrows]

TW extremely triggering dark topic but with a positive message, I promise. I just needed to get this out somewhere.

It's not about whether you deserve to be happy. "You deserve to be happy" type messages never rung true to me, because sure, other people do. But me, I've been told I'm a monster, that I deserve to die. But very recently, as in today, I've realized it isn't about that. It's about whether you can be happy. If you can manage it. If you can scrape together moments of joy, then you should. Whether you deserve it or not, you can be happy, and you will, and that is worth it. All that matters is that it is possible.

You have to be alive to see if you can.

#hal rambles #tw sui ideation #depression #for the fellow 'reprehensible monsters' out there i promise it will be okay #even if it isn't we have to try #now for a personal note that no one needs to read lol: #there's a series i've been writing on and off for oh wow. EIGHT whole years #and it helped me realize this #it's like my brain clawed tooth and nail to finally arrive at this theme #i experienced so much during those eight years and you can see it reflected in the characters #there was a stage where i was exploring exactly how awful can you be before everyone leaves you #to 'how far can you go before you're irredeemable. is there a way to come back from this?' #to 'what if someone could love you even broken. even with the myriad of things 'wrong' with you' #to 'you can be okay. no matter what you did -yes even that- it is possible to find joy and it is worth it to try.' #I've also decided morality is a moment to moment decision. it is not the sum total of everything you've done in your life #and it is not anything inherent about you. even if you don't have morals you can still be good #just by choosing to be kind #this idea started sort of between stages 2 and 3 as far as story themes and still isn't completely explored haha #i am 100% sure if someone read the current draft they would not pick up on ANY of these things but that is fine because it is for Me :)

[dykemerrilll]

in one sense, of course, scherzo is a heartrending interrogation of the nature of love and its effect on the self. in some other ways, though, it’s a powerful statement in support of abortion

#dw #this is half a joke. but also #you have a child you don’t want and didn’t ask for #during what was functionally the pregnancy #you experienced extreme physical and psychological suffering in order to sustain it #and at the end of the story in order for it to live you must die #and instead you choose to live. and even though the creature is textually referred to as your child #this decision is framed as a moment of triumph and vindicated by the narrative #the desire to martyr yourself for the creature is #indicative of a broader self-sacrifical streak that the text treats as a character flaw #anyway. whatever #big finish listen

[athgalla-arts]

As much as I adore fiddauthor and create a decent amount of content for them in a romantic context, I really like them read as platonic just about equally I don't know where I am going with this at present other than I'm full of emotions about them (alas, wrist hurts and I'm very tired), but at some point I'd love to just ramble endlessly about why I find their dynamic so compelling and enjoy the ability to look at it from multiple perspectives from platonic to romantic to something ambiguous and in-between or something else that's more undefinable entirely.

#athbabble #something something it's about finding your person whatever that means it's about being understood it's about pain it's about loss #it's the incredible power of trust and the incredible pain of it being damaged and the incredible effort in rebuilding it #I love that you can have so many perfectly sweet moments with them to heart wrenching to flat out fucked up and disturbing #it's great #they have the range #blah blah blah cosmically intertwined fates #I have a full on lecture on my thoughts on Fiddleford and his role in the story as a whole too but that's yet another ramble for another da #y #when I can type more coherently and with a little less pain #something being understood and understanding #watching someone you know become unrecognizable #of risks for love and the injury pride causes and swallowing pride and choosing forgiveness and and and #yeah #idc if they're best friends or lovers or bizarrely entangled ???? somethings but whatever they have is poetic

[ofmermaidstories]

you said merms bloodlust and i thought "ooh merms vampire fic? 👀"

NO BUT SERIOUSLY i hope you are feeling better and good things come your way merms lovey <3

fun fact!! i actually had a massive vampire phase a million years ago!!! like, during the Twilight/Vampire Diaries hayday, LOL. everything i wrote back then involved vampires. fanfiction, original fiction—role-play. yeah!!! your girl here used to role-play with other people online!!! i’ve written teenage-girl-stumbles-across-sexy-bad-boy-vampire-who’s-old-enough-to-be-her-great-great-great-grandfather tropes. vampire highschools, ala Vampire Knight. Vampire Secret Societies. name a trope and i probably wrote a half-assed outline for it!!! if they had sharp pointy teeth and were driven by uncontrollable bloodlust into sucking on someone they cared about’s neck then i was there!!!

i’m kinda all vamped-out these days… i much prefer my bloodlust to come in the form like, a favourite character’s head being bludgeoned-in with a rock or something, LOL. just normal, non-blood drinking violence. 🥹🪓🫀🩸 idk if i’ll ever (seriously) write a vampire!AU for BNHA—maybe more drabbles, randomly. but to me the magic of a vampire story came with like, pairing it up with teenage girlhood (including but not limited to the connotations of the whole, blood-drinking-in-the-place-of-sex thing). and idk! it’d be hard to pull that off in a x Reader without like, flattening whichever BNHA cast member we picked for the Lead. and i write (and read!) fanfic because i’m interested in them, in their complexities and lives and the things that stretch out after canon. idk!!! now that i’ve said that, watch me pull a iida/reader/tokoyami vampire!AU outta my backside. 😭

(that’s a joke; i don’t have time. 😔 but also… 🧐 you could do some pretty interesting things with a set up like that… Dark Shadow could be like, part of Tokoyami’s vampirism? And between DS and his mutation—the bird-like qualities—he has to live lowkey. 🧐 whereas Iida could be the “youngest” in a clan of regimental, powerful vampires that have successfully infiltrated the modern world with fearless business acumen… hmmm. MUCH to think about.)

#ofmermaidstories-asks #how can i talk about the magic of going into the massive Borders in the city and seeing a wall of Twilight? #that feeling when you’re in a bookstore and you’re young and you don’t have much control over anything in your life— #but for that one precious afternoon you are standing in front of a merticulous display of books #all with the same ghostly cover #and you have enough in the way of cash to choose something for yourself— #and here’s a story promising you a girl who’s maybe a little bit like you— #who doesn’t know her place in things #who moves to a new town and ends up stumbling into the adventure of a lifetime #Stephanie is not a perfect writer and no matter the criticisms i had and have of the books back then and as an adult #i will always love her and be indebted to her for giving me that moment #that promise of picking up that book and *knowing* it was going to take me away for a little while #and the overwhelming excitement that came with choosing it #i was going to make a joke in these tags like ‘if this ask kickstarts my twihard phase i will take u all down with me 🔪’ but #mostly it just leaves me overwhelmingly fond and nostalgic for that time #and the things i created in the wake of it #cue MCR’s vampire money for the closing credits of this lmfaoooo #kids don’t care if you’re alright honey! 🎶 #pills don’t help but it sure is funny! 🎵 #gimme gimme some of that vampire money!!! 🎶