#Meaningfully

[notesofarichlycolorednight]

this fandom is dead but i'm banging pots and pans again

anyone know of any video essays or articles written by a japanese person (preferably translated as i don't know japanese) or someone who is japanese diaspora for yuri on ice?

also preferably someone who is queer and japanese

bc i'm kinda getting sick of only seeing white ppl talking about it

and i have a feeling youtube and google's algorithms are purposefully not showing me creators/writers of color in my search results

#yuri on ice #yuri!!! on ice #yoi #i don't think this will meaninghlly come to anything #meaningfully #but putting it out there #and also venting a little about it #i've wanted to write a whole essay about it myself #but i'm chinese diaspora so it's abit different #and idk how to network to find ppl who'd be willing to chat with me abt a lot of things #but hey if you happen to read the tags and are someone or know someone pls lmk #chirp.txt #chirp.tags

[sparingiscaring]

My FL OC Playlists are something lol

Damodar's is based mostly on lyrics, any songs about reaching for eternity, or doing the impossible, and defeating death, as well as any revenge songs, or anything that general fits Depression go in his. This has led to the My Singing Monsters Song Earth Island song being in his playlist, right next to My Chemical Romance and Poor Man's Poison. What else can I say but "haha funny sad man wants to kill and eat god! he IS a mountain!"

Leigh's songs are all about identity, and shifting faces, and not knowing who you are. As I have once described it, he's going through his Stranger Girlie era, and anything about not being quite human, but wanting to feel human goes in. We've somehow gotten a lot of Vocaloid in here now. I need to do something with this man that stops making him go through identity loss body horror.

Wadiya is… well, her songs are the most similar, I would argue, in genre and sound, but the intended subject of the song is always most subverted. A character who, as a rule, never drinks, gets multiple songs featuring alcohol, and one who is the designated Moral one gets songs about villainous corruption, about loving evil beasts, despite being on the Aroace spectrum. It’s less literal, more vibes! But also not vibes and entirely literal. Yesn’t <3.

Eliza’s playlist is both the biggest, and the easiest to follow. I feel like I could post the playlist in lieu of my (eventual) plan to explain these characters to people. It is villain songs. It is manipulation. It is a sweet mask, feigning sympathy and care and love, until no one is around to see, and letting it drop to hurt someone just for the thrill of it. It is gambling and becoming more than what you are physically, to become what you always were inside. It is the outside matching the inside, but the inside is vile and vicious and gnawing and blood and death and sadistic joy at it all. It is “how Bad Can I Be?” from the Lorax without a single hint of irony from ME, but a knowing smile from it.

#some summaries of their playlists and what the Vibes are underneath the cut #i just wanted to muse and got. carried away #oc: damodar wali #oc: leigh corbyn #oc: wadiya babar #oc: eliza marlow #yess i'm doing Tags for em now #in case i ever make. content #meaningfully #fl

[craycraybluejay]

I am exactly the type of person who would step into a machine that would convert me into dark matter 100% successfully but I wouldn't know what this conversion would actually do to ME with little to no hesitation.

I am the type of person who would look for a being filled with infinite knowledge that would kill me on sight and beg that being to obliterate me, knowing full well what that means.

I am the type of person who will read textbooks upon textbooks of physics, psychology, astronomy, literature, history, etc. in the wee hours of the night and simply forget to eat, sleep, or shower.

Because I have to know. I HAVE to. Knowledge is above self preservation, above nourishment, above everything. It is the priority, whenever I'm lucid enough to think straight. This is the most awake and not dissociated I've been in days. I need to get through a college course of astrophysics in a single night. N o w.

#knowledge #obsession #astronomy #send help #existentialism #eldritch #bro i would literally die for science no cap #im just that invested in knowing things #i want to go see a telescope #and all the machines #i want to contribute my theories and studies to science #meaningfully #please #i need more of this #i need endless knowledge #bury me in it #suffocate me with it #drown me in it

[seveneyesoup]

#TO CLARIFY ON THE SECOND POINT: VAMPIRES *HAVE* A REPRODUCTION METHOD THAT IS NOT SEX-BASED #THAT IS THE MAJOR POINT OF THAT ONE. THAT VAMP REPRODUCTION IS BASED ON CONVERTING INTO UNDEAD AND NOT PREGNANCY #what i think i keep coming back to is that a vampire is like. a form of pathogen or perhaps parasite #is the individual vampire meaningfully distinct from that? maybe #sort of a made up question #but that’s not a mammal #so neither is a vampire #but also like. a human is a mammal #this question sponsored by my friend who said she was done keeping mammals bc ‘they have so much fluid in them’ #and my thought that a vampire Wouldn’t #not a lot of fluids. happening there

[xtremeservers]

How do you meaningfully add to a game th... https://www.xtremeservers.com/blog/state-of-decay-2s-new-curveball-update-is-a-literal-game-changer/?feed_id=92492&_unique_id=650510df7d34c&State%20of%20Decay%202%E2%80%99s%20New%20Curveball%20Update%20Is%20a%20Literal%20Game-Changer

#Featured #NewReleases #Popular #Xbox #case #Decay #five #Game #hands #meaningfully #pc #players #state #that’s #years

[masterjiqun]

Life is not about its length, but about living wisely and meaningfully.

#masterjiqun #chan #zen #life #length #wisely #meaningfully

[warpweighted]

what grinds my gears like nothing else is textiles manufacturers greenwashing bamboo/rayon yarn or fabric as though the fact that it's derived from plant material erases the enormously toxic manufacturing process. like the first thing you think of when you think of bamboo yarn/fabric is 'oh it must be made like any other plant fiber' but no!!! that's a semisynthetic fiber that's usually made with carbon disulfide which is extremely toxic to workers and environment both!

and there ARE less destructive bamboo processing techniques you CAN make bamboo fiber the same way you do any other bast fiber theres EVEN a less common chemical process that doesnt do the same harm that viscose rayon does but NO instead we get ~natural fiber~ greenwashing that hides behind the extremely reasonable assumptions people make about plant fibers

I will never ever in my life begrudge people who buy bamboo yarn or for that matter acrylic because (a) goddamn its fucking rough out here (b) I'd be a massive hypocrite (c) the problem is the manufacturers not the individual and (d) sometimes it IS the yarn for the job but I will never stop beating my drum about this bc we! deserve! to know!

#autism.txtile #knitting #yarnblr #gets out soapbox TEXTILES' INCREDIBLE TECHNOLOGICAL ADVANCES & HORRIFYING HUMAN & ENVIRONMENTAL DESTRUCTION CANNOT BE MEANINGFULLY SEPARATED #aiden.txt

[glorious-spoon]

i think the funniest thing to witness as someone who was in supernatural fandom in the early days and hasn't been in many years is the discourse about wincest.

because like. i cannot emphasize enough how wincest in the pre-castiel days was treated as an absolutely bog-standard slash ship.

standard shippy tropes circa 2005-2009, indistinguishable from the way people wrote any other odd-couple ship of the era. the fact that the characters were brothers often didn't come up at all, and if it did it was often just not a big concern. if you weren't into it because of, you know, the incest thing, you were politely considered a little odd, but to each their own. this probably has a lot to do with the fact that until s4 there was literally no one else you could plausibly ship either character with, but it's still unbelievably funny to me to witness the evolution there

#supernatural #wincest #i was never that into it for the simple fact that their relationship was already so toxic and codependent #that i didn't think adding sex would make it meaningfully worse lmao

[nevarroes]

chosen

#ok well truly #idk what to do w this so let me just post it. bleats pathetically #i kinda spent a bit too much time on this but also keep failing at coloring it meaningfully. im so sorry #art #art tag #bg3 #casim carnavorn #dark urge #lord enver gortash #gortash #ketheric thorm

[warpfactor9]

i somehow never noticed the soft little "kirk..." right at the start here... it feels more impactful to hear spock intentionally switches to calling him jim after that to ground him, then captain to bolster his confidence once he's gotten ahold of himself again

#it's so... i'm trying to get your attention -> #i'm trying to meaningfully connect to you to offer emotional stability -> #i'm acknowledging your rank bc i believe in your ability to handle this/think no less of you after you faltered and am ready to support you #spock says so much in so few words about how much he cares #star trek #star trek: tos #spock #james t. kirk #spirk #the original series #and the children shall lead #i know i Just reblogged a gif set of this but i noticed something not in the captions okay!!!! let me yell!!!

[vaspider]

Feisty Lady Anger and other things about me you hate

My mother prizes her anger, for all that she doesn't express it openly. I tell stories about her spiteful, steel-spined responses to people who told her, "You can't do that," and I point to them as Why I Am How I Am. Her father told her he wouldn't pay for her college because "women only go to earn the MRS degree," and she could "get married and have babies" without college. In response, Mom got her bachelor's in Mathematics in 1970 on her own dime, back in the days when in-state students didn't pay tuition at state schools (just another thing Reagan ruined). She worked and paid for her books and housing, got her degree, paid for her own wedding because he wouldn't do that either. Taught school, got her Master's, had three kids, started her Ph.D. with 3 under 6 and became a professor when the youngest was 5.

Tell me I can't, my mom told the world, and I'll show you that I can. I won't just do it, I'll become a department head and a Distinguished Professor and retire after 30 years of teaching other math teachers with a list of achievements as long as my arm.

There is an anger that runs deep in the women in my family. Tell me I can't, and I'll show you I can. Show me injustice and I'll tear at it with my teeth and hands, staring you down while I do. Backwards and in heels.

I can't tell you the moment I crossed out of Feisty Lady Anger in the eyes of the people close to me, but I can tell you the moment I noticed. Maybe it was when my voice started dropping or the growing muscles on my shoulders pulled my stance more square and upright. Maybe it was when I moved from they/them to he/they, and somehow I stepped from Diet Woman to Too Close To Man in their eyes.

It's a funny thing when all of a sudden your anger becomes real enough to be startling to people. Your anger is no longer feisty, charming, and attractive. This thing that people liked about you, that people who say they love you said they loved about you, suddenly becomes frightening, upsetting, and terrible. The way you didn't let people mow over you and fought back used to be a thing that people admired. It was actively attractive. It was one of your best qualities.

Now? It's ugly. It's disgusting. It's scary. The thing you were is gone, and now your anger is real to them.

It's in that moment that the blade cuts back towards you. You realize the reason your squared shoulders and set jaw drew people in couldn't be squared with the stubble on that jaw or the newfound strength in your arms. Feisty Lady Anger isn't real, not in the way a man's anger is real. Feisty Lady Anger is admirable, sure, but it is admirable because of its essential ineffectual nature. At most, Feisty Lady Anger fixes minor problems for the kids at school, gets the principal to back down from scolding your child when she politely asks the kid calling her a faggot on the bus if he knows what that really means, pushes a woman to achieve for her family, in appropriately neutered ways.

When you stop pretending to be a woman and become who you really are, when your anger becomes real, you realize both that the thing about you that people loved is gone and that this thing was attractive in the first place because of its ineffectiveness. Your anger wasn't scary because it wasn't real enough to be threatening.

Now you have Man Anger, and, you're told, you should apologize for that. It doesn't matter if it's the same anger you've always had, or that you're angry about the same things. It comes now in baritone, with belly hair and bellowing, and now it's both real and disgusting.

The worst part is watching it come from people you thought should know better, the people who should understand. You spent nearly 40 years being told to sit down and shut up because the men in your professional career were speaking, assured that if you just waited your turn, you'd be given a place to speak eventually, and now here you are being told within a community that claims to love and understand you, by people that claim to be in community with you and love who you are, that you actually don't have any real problems to speak about, also your Man Anger and Man Privilege (when do I get that, please?) are Scary and mean you should sit down and wait, and you'll be given a place to speak eventually.

It is the Transmasculine Catch-22: if you become Man Enough to no longer fit into Almost Lady, your anger becomes Real, which makes you realize that your anger wasn't Real before, but because it's Real now, you're not allowed to have it. And by the way, you're not allowed to be neither Man or Lady - now you're Man Enough, and that makes it all the more clear how you were simply Kirkland Signature Lady right up until the point you weren't.

There will be a few people who Fucking Get It, who don't see you as either a Failed Lady or a Broken Man, and you'll love those people all the more for their rarity. It won't take the sting out of realizing that the things people you love loved about you before now disgust and repel them, but it'll make it enough to keep going.

You couldn't stop, anyway. You've never felt more yourself, and the people who don't love you, the actual you, the real you... the loss of that hurts, but not nearly as much as the idea of pretending to be something else did.

#transmasc #transmascs #transmasculine #transmasc issues #transandrophobia #personal #before someone says it #yes i recognize that this experience is very much a white experience with anger #this is a deeply personal essay #and if you come at me for it not fitting your personal experience as well #we will not talk #i will just block you #it not being fully universal doesn't mean it's not real or not deeply painful #this has taken me years to write #terfs fuck off #radical feminism has done more to neuter the ability of women to be meaningfully angry than any other 'feminist' movement #so just don't

[thatswhatsushesaid]

psa that the day there are no jgy stans left on tumblr dot com is the day i am dead

but rest assured i'll go to my grave exactly as i lived: obnoxiously proclaiming to everyone within earshot how great lianfang-zun is. narratively, metaphorically, spiritually. sexually, too, like why limit myself. i like to keep my options open

#the spirit of su minshan possessed me for a minute there but like. i'm fine with it #jin guangyao #he did crimes??? good for him 😌 #editing this post to add that while the tone here is clearly joking #i really am fundamentally still engaged with this fandom #and with this book #almost exlcusively because of my enjoyment of jgy #even xiyao is secondary for me like i love it and i'm ride or die for it obvs #but jgy as a character is the main draw for me. and he would have me by the throat even if there was no zewu-jun #(tho i think jgy's life would be more depressing for his absence obviously) #but he is just. /clenches my fists!!! #THE most compelling character in the story and i cannot stop thinking about him!! cannot will not!! #who else in this book has his range? who else can be the doe-eyed idealist AND the spy with blood on his hands who ends a war? #who else is two different greek tragedies and at least two separate shakespearean tragedies rolled into one antagonist #an antagonist who but for the POV of the novel could very easily have been the protagonist #whose moral event horizon is so deeply entwined with his own trauma and abuse that there is no way to meaningfully separate #the violence he does to others from the systemic violence that was done to him for his whole life? #who else in this book manages to get five separate sect leaders utterly obsessed with him no matter how you choose #to interpret that obsession? #no one!!! that's who!! #ain't no one else in the jianghu doing it like lianfang-zun and that's just a goddamn fact

[broodygaming]

C2 Spoilers

it drives me NUTS when people say that Taliesin and Matt decided together backstage to kill off Molly. It makes 0 sense and it's ??? just such an unnecessary rumor to spread. People on reddit often spout it like it's just a known fact. Like, as if Taliesin didn't famously complain about having to pull all nighters over a busy weekend to roll and conceptualize a new character cuz he had ZERO backup. As if Molly didn't JUST have a huge lore drop and was clearly building to be a major focus of the next branch of the story. As if Matt didn't have LOADS of lore and planning already done that he had to to redo and reconfigure to fit with the Tomb Takers going and exhuming Molly to continue their plans. Matt said he had this whole thing where Lucien was gonna show up in a different body and hunt down the M9 to kill Molly and take his old body back. He SAID that!

Idk why this drives me nuts. It just feels... almost disrespectful. Like. Y'all. Taliesin isn't a baby. He fucked up. It's okay. He made a dumb choice in the heat of the battle and doubled down and it got his character killed. Things escalated and there wasn't a healer and it's JUST as simple as that. Stop making shit up to justify something that only SEEMS LIKE IT'S ORDAINED because these people are talented story tellers. Blowing all the work they did to reconfigure the story and just HAND WAVING and being like "they planned it ahead of time" is just rude. If it all seems preplanned it's cuz Matt busted his patootie off and reweaved a frayed tapestry into a beautiful work. Happy accidents and all that. CMON.

#cr discourse #critical role #this is an oldie discourse but like just on reddit and seeing ANOTHER post about molly and ppl being like #yeah he sucked that's why Tal decided to bench him #like you really think if Tal wanted to bench his character he'd have NOTHING planned for his next character??? #you REALLY think that??? #they'd have 0 reason to lie about it too like #they're so open about talking behind the cameras and planning stuff and opening up about making sure everyones having fun #if Matt and tal worked something out cuz Tal wasn't having fun you'd be your ASS they'd milk that for all it's worth #to educate people about good table etiquette and how to sunset a character meaningfully so that players can enjoy their time #CMON

[xylophonetangerine]

People need to stop the "Adderal isn't meth!!" cope and instead just say "Amphetamines are the gold standard for treating ADHD"

#like come on now adding or swapping a few functional groups doesn't meaningfully change the action of the drug #this is literally the principle on which designer drugs work on

[96percentdone]

some of you guys talk about Damian like he's an adult man who just happens to be really small and not like. A six-year-old. every week there's like at least three new posts in the sxf tag talking about damianya and why its bad and its always because of damian's behavior like it isn't just like. standard faire six-year-old behavior. why are we upset that the six year old who experiences child neglect and grew up wealthy acts like a brat sometimes. he is a brat; he's fucking six.

#hope.txt #damian desmond #anya x damian #damianya #spy x family #sxf #i wouldn't want to date a guy who acts like damian either but y'know #the difference there is im looking for an actual adult who acts like one #and not a fucking FIRST GRADER #every day i scream #also lmao at everyone who pretends its about reading critically #basic reading comprehension is treating child characters as CHILD characters #not as adult characters #you cannot meaningfully criticize shit if you're just going to overlook a key detail of his writing #BEING SIX IS VERY DIFFERENT FROM BEING 26 OR 16 OR EVEN 12

[try-set-me-on-fire]

who guides my lonely ships on through the shallows

#REALLY the caption for this image is the instrumental part in the middle of this song #but that’s impossible to meaningfully write down #you should listen to it though #buddie #my art #911 fox