#MJOriginal

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#…PussyFellOff? #mjoriginal #dicks: the musical

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To all the people I’ve loved too much

KT

I love you

I do

But you won’t talk to me like you used to

I will always love you

And it will never be the same

I still wonder if anyone else

Could ever love me that way

AP

The last time you said my name

Was the last time I loved it

I’m MJ nice to meet you

She just wants her shirt back

Trust I don’t miss you

But sometimes I do

So here I am in Denver

It’s not easier but it’s farther

Would you be my friend if we started all over again

Would I have kissed you had I known how it would end

Would you have written my name in your poem

Would “us” have still have felt like home

I guess I better go to sleep again

Before I start to think I miss you again

Gotta numb the pain

Better take the medicine

Because you held a knife to me

And I ran to it

Bleeding, we both loved the thrill of it

You twisted it inside me,

Imagining you,

And I wondered if I might be in your nightmares too

And cigarettes are zero calories

And packed full of memories

I’m not ready yet to let go

And I know I never will be

I’m not ready to deal with my insecurities effectively

Those memories

Your stuttering

Did you ever really trust me

When will someone love me

I let her down

I know that now

I fucked up

But miss her touch

I miss your touch

I just need to be touched

An ode to those I’ve loved too much

CF

In the trenches

I see your face

And I think maybe everything will be alright

I see my loved ones dying all around me

And then I see you lying right beside me

I know you don’t love me

But I know you don’t hate me

In the war in my mind

I hold your photo like you’re mine

It’s keeping me alive

To imagine you by my side

MJ

I love all the wrong people

In all the right ways

And feel all hurt

When they can’t reciprocate

So I’ll find someone new

To let me down

But of course I can’t even sleep now

What’s fuckin wrong with me

I’m not enough

But I’m being too much

I can’t talk

I can’t breathe

Why can’t anyone help me

Why won’t anyone touch me

I kinda want a cigarette

But I can’t breathe

I kinda wanna die

But I can’t leave

An ode to those I tried to let love me

#Me #Mine #MJOriginal #Words

[thefireoutsideyourwindow]

#writing #poetry #mjoriginal #6years

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Find a penny, pick it up

Bend it over, back it up

#MJOriginal #Words

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Breaking news!

All my attempts at trying to emotionally distance myself from people who I thought were being emotionally distant to me has been for naught!

#MJOriginal #Words

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Damn the way this boy spun me around the dance floor in a way I almost thought I could be straight again lmaoo

#MJOriginal #Words

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#poll #pls answer my poll #send help #tumblr polls #mjoriginal #words

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I will never forget Kathleen saying she was going to come to my job interview with me and sit on their toilet a while. Lmao hands down most terrifying moment of my year

#mjoriginal

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To pack the vibrators or not to pack the vibratiors?

That is the question

#mjoriginal

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Avenger? I hardly know ‘er

#MJOriginal #Words

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“This is very cringe to admit but you are my friend so be kind to me.”

- KT

#mjoriginal #words #kt #quote #def gonna need this disclaimer next time I black out and have to ask what happened the night before lmao

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Omg ghosthoney/tyler just liked my book review on goodreads

#mjoriginal #words

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Damn I had a vivid dream that I had my interview and it went well. I woke up chillin, thinkin I was already done with it, you know, before reality set in. But it was a great sleep, great while it lasted lol

#MJOriginal #Dreams

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I had a dream I hit Emerald’s brother’s car in the parking lot of a church. When Emerald and her brother got out of the car though, her brother was now Emily Jones’ little brother, Alex, instead of Emerald’s little brother, Evan. I asked if he wanted my car insurance info. He said Idk let me check and see if there’s any damage to the car. Emerald and I walked into church while he was checking out the car situation. He came in the church and this time was an entirely different guy I didn’t even recognize. He was like “so how does this work?” I was like “I think you just call the number and tell them what happened.” He was like “when do I say the prayer?” and I realized he was standing in line for confession, not talking about the car insurance.

#dreams #mjoriginal #dream

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#dicks: the musical #mjoriginal

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Apparently 2023 was the year of realizing so many people are fuckin obsessed with me no matter wtf I do or where the fuck I live, and I should def invite more people to come visit me in CO even if for no fuckin reason at all

#mjoriginal