You want to scream and beg about everything, that's wrong. Everything that's right and still wrong. What you should be. What you want to be. How your whole body hurts and the pain seems to go beyond. How it makes the whole world hurt. You plead for death or life or anything but this. You are chocking on your words as you realize... This is not how it works.
And your deity takes your hand. They hold you tight as they say
Do not kneel.
I walk with you. Help you. Teach you all I can. I care for you. But do not kneel in front of me and plead.
I feel like Loki would be a great storyteller. He'd bounce around the fire being theatrical and shape shifting into the characters in the story to give it life. He's making everyone laugh and feel safe. 🥺💚🫶
You know what would be fun? Fan fiction style retellings of the Norse myths. Like how I would tell them if it were up to me. Fanfic stories of the Old Gods. Just wait until you see what I do with Loki. I’m gonna do it.
Idk if anyone else is like this with their deities/spirit family, but if I'm reading a fiction book about !Myth Loki, sometimes it's hard for me to read more than a chapter at a time. The detail in which the characters get to interact with Loki, their familiar descriptions of him, their details of his voice, facial expressions, mannerisms, even loving entanglements- it all plays with my heart in a way that makes me mourn. Mourning the way in which I can't have such a vivid interaction in this mortal skin suit that I currently live in.
It's like the veil separation is unbearable sometimes. And these books trigger that sore reminder.
I'm very much in my feels tonight and I blame the full moon lol 😭
15 days of devotion with Loki - Day 1: Basic Introduction
While scrolling I came across @noctivague 's 15 days of devotion template and I loved it so much I decided to do it too. Without further ado, here is day 1 with Loki.
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Loki ᛚᛟᚲᛁ is a god shrouded in both mystery and controversy. His trickster nature often gets him and the other gods in the Norse pantheon in trouble, but he’s also the one who gets them out of it, which often leads to the gods acquiring priceless gifts.
His role within the pantheon is a contradictory one and he holds many of them. He is the son of the Jötunn (giant) Fárbauti and the Ásyunjur (goddess) Laufey, and the sworn blood brother of Óðinn. Loki is married to Sigyn, and is the also the lover of the giantess Angrboða, both of which he had childern from. But more on that later (day 2). He is also the favourite travel companion to Thor, leaning into his association with lightning (more on that later too). On the flip side, he’s also known as the doom of the gods due to his part in Ragnarok and also a key player in the death of the god Baldr.
And to conclude day 1, here is a quote from Dagulf Loptson’s Pagan Portals - Loki: Trickster and Transformer: “He is the teller of unpleasant truths, the breaker of the bonds, the fire born from lightning that changes everything it touches. He is the challenger of authority and the disrupter of stagnation.”