#Let them have this. Be respectful. Don't misgender people. Even if you hate them.

[moongothic]

I love the crocodad theory a lot but I fear that the fandom will start misgendering him or respect the character less because of transphobia.

Oda have written queer characters before who are respected by the fandom such as Bonclay but for Crocodile its another story. He is their alpha male badass character and adding queerness to his character might make them mad. Not that I care about those bigots feelings but its already not easy to navigate this fandom without queerphobia being thrown in your face.

Ppl can digest a queer character who fit in the stereotypes but once they dont, its another story.

Same, people are weird as fucking hell and gross about Crocodile maybe being trans already, we can be sure it would get worse if him being trans was confirmed in the story, there would be absolutely no avoiding it

But at the same time...

Transphobes are gonna be transphobes regardless, and I don't want that to become a reason for any storyteller to not create trans characters. I don't want Oda to bend over backwards to please the transphobes when they're the ones in the wrong. If anything, I want Oda to just go all the way with the message of queer liberation and freedom in One Piece. Like it's not perfect, but it's already there, but it's so subtle many queerphobes have been able to ignore it this whole time and I don't want Oda to let them ignore it anymore. I want him to rub it into their faces so hard they'll start complaining about "Oda going woke"

And like, let's be real. If Crocodile was trans and Oda pulled it off just right (without falling into certain pitfalls that he's be stumbling with this whole time with queer rep), that could unironically be like. Great not just trans rep but trans masc rep in particular

Like maybe it's just the media I've consumed but trans masc rep is typically very non-existant and/or very much like Yamato, who, while valid as hell, might not be how many trans masc people want to be seen as by others (as in, "confused girls")

We've known Crocodile as a character for 23 years at this point, and for the first 8-9 years of that he was very much seen as A Manly Cis Man (like you said) without a hint of a doubt (until Impel Down). If it turned out he had been trans this whole time, that would force people to rethink how they view trans people.

As just regular fucking people

That person you knew for years turned out to be trans? So what? What does that actually change about them? It's still the same person deep down. Those are the things Oda could force people to think about.

And honestly? If that helped convert even just a single transphobe, or educate someone without an opinion on trans people, to just letting trans people live their lives in peace, I think it'd be worth it

But like, yeah. The transphobes are gonna be loud regardless. It fucking sucks, and I hate the fandom for it. But, damned if you do, damned if you don't, there's no avoiding it. And I think the potential positive impact would outweight the already festering negativity.

#Moon posting #Sir Crocodile #CW Discussion of transphobia #Mind you this is assuming Oda pulled it off right #By which I mean he doesn't give Crocodile some stupid fucking excuse to why he transitioned #Like ''wanted to escape being a woman'' or ''because being a woman was weak'' or something fucking stupid #I don't think Oda knows what gender dysphoria even is so the idea of Crocodile transitioning to deal with that feels like a bloody pipedrea #But literally even just ''preferred being a man'' would be fine #The bar. Is so fucking low #My other thing is that I absolutely do not want to see him get detransitioned. At all. #Like a lot of people have been speculating that the reason we never see Crocodile use Haki might be because it could detrans him #And regardless of if that's canon or not-- I do not want to see him detransition. At all. #If we see him pre-t in a flashback that's fine #I just don't want to see him have to sacrifice his comfort for a dramatic scene where he has to ''go all out'' or something #(Especially because knowing Oda there is no way he would do that without sexualizing him for no good reason) #Honestly I am more concerned about Oda fucking it up than the fandom being gross #My bar is so fucking low and yet so impossibly high for Oda #Also what gets me about Crocodile is that usually the queer characters are young and/or amab #And this is true for literally all of the other queer rep in OP rn #Crocodile is almost a middle aged trans man and honestly would that not be like a breath of fresh fucking air #OP Meta

[artistic-intrxvert]

TBHK characters reacting to you cutting your hair (ftm!reader implied but you can imagine it how you would like)

I left out Aoi Akane (girl) since I didn't feel like writing for he but when I (eventually) open requests again and you guys want Aoi's reaction, let me know :)

Warnings: Mentions of dysphoria, I think that’s it? (Slight angst perhaps? There's fluff to it as well don't worry)

Definitely NOT proofread. You're welcome✨💅

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Hanako

I feel like Hanako would have a few different reactions depending how short you cut it

For writing purposes, let's say that you get your first FTM haircut (again, you may imagine it how you would like, I'm doing FTM because there ain't a lot of those out there)

Boy would be

Shocked

To say the least

He'd need you to explain to him what exactly being trans means-

It'd take him a moment but then he'd understand...for the most part

He really likes your new haircut because then he can scruff it up a bit like an old man would do to his grandson

If anyone ever said something transphobic or you ever felt dysphoric, he'd be there ready to either kick the other person's ass or your dysphoria's

Overall very supportive but might mess up every once in a while (he's trying and that's all that matters <3)

Nene

She'd be quite shocked to say the least

She'd be very supportive tho!

She'd ask to mess with it if you felt comfortable with that, maybe and to see if you will let her try different styles for it (depending on how short you cut it)

100% respectful of your pronouns and name of you'd want her to refer to you as such

If anyone says something transphobic to you or your having a tough time...let's not forget her ass whooping from vol. 0... as for your dysphoria, she'd make sure you refer to you with more masculine terms to make you feel yourself that day.

Example: "You look so handsome today, (Name)! Did you style your hair differently? Looks very masculine!"

Overall very, VERY supportive and there to kick anyone's ass if she needs to

Kou

SUPPORTIVE. KOU.

(I love this man sm-)

Kou would probably be super busy around you at first, thinking your haircut looks really good on you

If you go by a different set of name(s) or pronouns, he will easily adapt and will make sure others respect you too

If someone is being an asshole about it, he will most certainly stand up for you and might even threaten to get the student council president involved (Teru here the sage the day-)

If you feel dysphoric, he's there to talk to you and just overall be there to help make you feel better

(i have a feeling he'd make donuts with your pride flags in icing on them ougjfahghgou)

Doesn't mess up once (okay maybe once or twice) and is there for you all the way

Tsukasa

Alright listen-

He deadass thought someone shaved your head in the hallway or smth- 💀

You had to explain you got your hair cut and that you use a different name and set of pronouns and all that jazz

He'd just kinda be like "ok. Nice.😀 . . .give me attention"

He'd still cling to you as normal and he surprisingly doesn't mess up once

He says it's like name-calling and he hates it because he says people used to do that to Hanako, or Amane, as he sometimes calls him

At any rate, he wouldn't let anyone misgender or dead name or even think of making fun of you because he'd immediately threaten that person with just a glance alone

If you ever felt dysphoric he'd just solve it with either cuddles or whispering nicknames for you with masculine meaning

Surprisingly supportive and respectful about it

Sakura

She knew about you being trans before you got a hair cut

For some reason i have a feeling that you told her about it before others since she seems like such a good person to talk to

When she sees your haircut, i think she'd just smile and say how it suits you

If anyone else in the broadcasting room says anything negative about your hair, she will not hesitate to hit them over the head with a book

If someone says something that is transphobic, she will use the broadcasting as a way to get revenge

If you feel dysphoric, she will invite you to a tea party date and dress you with some of the most masculine clothes for it to make you feel yourself

Sakura is honestly one of the main reasons i say i love women-

Very neutral reaction, but that's not a bad thing :)

Natsuhiko

I personally don't like Natsuhiko but i will try-

I think he'd believe that the LGBTQIA+ community was a myth or something (we all know he's dumb)

He won't be transphobic or anything, tho

He'd be supportive of you and say how your hair cut looks nice and that's about it lol

If anyone was ever being transphobic he would tell them to piss off

If you were feeling dysphoric, he'd comfort you with his best ability (mostly just saying how handsome you look in your uniform or something like that-)

Also very chill about it, supportive :)

Akane

Akane would be a little shocked but supportive

Honestly would be ready to shmck anyone that was rude to you about anything invoking your identity or haircut

That being said, if what the person said was transphobic, he'd beat that person up

If you were feeling dysphoric, he'd be there to comfort you offering to get a distraction if it would help you

Pretty supportive and very threatening to those that don't accept you

#tbhk x reader #jshk x reader #tbhk #jshk #hanako kun x reader #hanako x reader

[sophieinwonderland]

Angry

I just out about this post from November. I think this might be the oldest post in the "Sophiecourse" tag. It starts with this screenshot of my post.

The ask itself was super gross.

And... I legitimately thought that was it. I shut them down, and I don't think the anon said anything further.

And then I found this...

Apparently, gender identity is only worth respecting if you explicitly identify as transgender. Otherwise, this is totally acceptable behavior. /s

And just a reminder, we're not in the minority when it comes to having headmates who identify as cis while having headmates of differing AGABs.

This is the overwhelming majority of systems who answered.

But the post still got 13 likes...

Which might not seem like a lot, but it's legitimately surprising to me that 13 people saw that, nodded their heads, and decided this was acceptable discourse because it was against somebody they didn't like.

And yes, I'll say it: misgendering headmates who don't identify by their body's AGAB is transphobia, even if the headmates don't identify as transgender.

It's also pluralphobic, sanist and ableist to try to justify misgendering systems using that as an excuse.

Everything about this post is completely disgusting.

And you know what I just learned... here is a cherry on top.

The system who made the above post is the admin of the Survivor's Network discord server.

Wait... do most people even know about this... I'm going to need a separate section dedicated for this. Well, this post is getting way longer than I meant it to be. I just was going to make a quick post here, but okay! Let's get into this!

The Survivor's Network

For those who aren't aware, there was a bit of discourse several months back with a former member of The Survivors Network who left and started talking about disturbing behavior they witnessed there.

This included multiple users making fake Tupperbox profiles of me to roleplay as me and mock me. And to be clear, the one speaking out on this was anti-endo and very passionately hates me, and whatever was going on there made even them uncomfortable.

They didn't mention the server by name at first, but immediately got several hate asks, as well as people calling them out the Confessions blog. And again, they didn't even name the server by that point. They just said they had been in a server that had done these bad things.

It was only after continued pushing that the user finally named the Survivor's Network as the place responsible.

I... don't like making cult comparisons... but in the days after this user blew the whistle, several major Syscourse blogs started making posts praising the Survivor's Network. I would be lying if I said it wasn't a little creepy as an outsider how the Survivor's Network being barely criticized, not even by name, elicited that type of response. Both the instant praise to prove their allegiance to the group, and the attacks against the whistleblower.

Other anons sent in asks to the whistleblower talking about bullying, toxic and clique-y behavior they witnessed in the Survivor's Network

Ugh...

I legitimately started writing this with no idea of the connection. I just was going to write about this really gross post I found out about. But this does give me a much clearer picture of the Survivor's Network if the admin is saying things like this.

And many of the major syscoursers are part of this group. Especially anti-endos, "neutrals" and "unaligned."

Anyway, if anyone is considering joining The Survivor's Network, I think it's important to know the type of people who run it.

#syscourse #pro endo #pro endogenic #system #multiplicity #systems #pro tulpa #sophieinwonderland #sophiecourse #survivor's network #anti sophie DNI #vent #fakeclaiming #transphobia #queerphobia #ableists #ableism #bigotry #hate group #hate groups #survivors network

[jinx-on-mars-19xx]

Two things I can't stop thinking about 😂

1) some people have sensitive stomachs. How can so many people watch Dom cook something so in depth and ask "where's the spice?" He's talked about having a sensitive stomach before. Garlic, onion, salt, and pepper are spices. I can't have anything more either. His comment section is insane- can he ever do anything right? That's one of my new favorite videos, he's so precious 🥹

2) The absolute trouble someone went to just to spell my name wrong and piss me off. Your phone wouldn't even autocorrect to Jenk or whatever so you did that shit on purpose. You wanted to disrespect me for no reason when that should have been a respectful conversation. It just makes me even more flustered. It had to have been a MF fan because I hope EST don't push each other's buttons that way 🙄

I know I don't rant very often anymore, I try to keep my page light and happy because a large part of my life is bullshit these days and I want to spread love and hopefully a little happy. I think sometimes it just helps to vent. Hopefully it lets people know they're not the only ones stressed about little things sometimes. I just get so fucking tired of disrespect whether its to me or the boys or my friends on here.

Kells gets hate for everything to the point that's all he can see and I'm so scared for him lately. Dom does something huge for basically nothing (I could go to Bludfest if I wanted on my disability check if I felt I'd be healthy enough, and that means it's affordable AF) and yet people say it's still corporate and overpriced until he's not sleeping and trying to explain himself as politely as possible. Cause god forbid he have anger to anything, he'd be cancelled. I watch my friends get hate on here just for speaking their mind (normally something plenty of us agree on) and I can't help but defend them. I'm still so fed up by the added disrespect of spelling my name like an asshole. Jinx- it's not that hard. Spell it right or keep it out of your mind. Or better yet, be brave enough to tag me. So you think I don't get enough disrespect every day of my life? Getting deadnamed constantly and misgendered. You don't have to fuck up the only safe space too.

Sorry if my ranting was too much, I just needed to get a little off my chest. Especially after the song release today I'm scared for Kells and I've been scared for Dom for a while. I hope you're all doing amazing and having a lovely night. Spread love so people don't have to be hurt 🖤 you never know what small act will stick with someone, let it be kindness. I love you all so much 🩷

#jinx rants #jinx rambles #jinx is tired of disrespect and bs #please know i love you all #but its been a while since ive ranted #enjoy 😅

[ashtonisvibing]

"I kissed a boy, and I liked it"

Fandom: Jacksepticeye Egos

Alternate Universe: None? (Jackie isn't a hero in this universe)

Ship(s): Marvelsepticeye

Character(s): Jackieboy Man, Marvin the Magnificent

Warning(s): Alcohol, Sexual Actions(?)

Originally Published: Aug. 30th, 2023

Author's Notes:

so, you guys ever heard of that way better cover of "i kissed a girl", by jupither where it's instead gay (mlm)?

yeah so what if that but it's marvelsepticeye? but also minus the "hope my girlfriend don't mind it", only cuz i feel like it tbh. jackie's single here. and it's more loose inspiration (just the "kissing a fellow guy and getting confused by liking it" bit)

jackie thinking he's straight as a ruler until BOOM, hot guy comes walking up to him at a club

turns out he's very much not straight-

uhhhhh please note that i have NOT written people making out in... a while, so this might turn out like complete shit, and i apologize for that. but hey, can't get better if you don't start somewhere, right?? just be lucky i'm not turning this into a smut piece like i'm thinking of doing, the cringe levels with that writing would be off the charts- unless you guys would be fine with that then i dunno, part two maybe??? you'd have to watch a guy try to fumble around trying to describe sex LMAO

also, you might notice me using masculine terms for marvin. while yes, (my fanon interpretation of) marvin uses they/them pronouns, they're also just totally cool with masc terms! they're fine with any terms, i just sort of default to masc terms with them lol. but don't you worry, i'm not misgendering them, they just got that fun gender where they don't care.

okay, that's it, let's see some guys kiss!

jackie: he/him

marvin: they/them

Full Story:

Clubs were always too loud and too bright for Jackie to enjoy them like everyone else. He could barely stand to look at the flashing lights, and the music was so loud he couldn't hear anyone. That was ignoring the multiple conversations he could hear around him. He couldn't make out a single one, there were too many speaking at once. And that didn't help when someone tried to talk directly to him. It was like their voice became blended with the sea of others. The only safe spot to keep him from developing a migraine was the bar, but even then he'd need noise cancelling headphones to keep the voices from overstimulating him. It didn't help that he also got weird looks from the other bar patrons because all he ordered was a glass of water. He just hated the taste of any alcohol, no matter how much added mixings you might put into them.

The only reason he was even here tonight was because a friend of his wanted to celebrate their birthday here. And despite knowing that clubs were a sensory nightmare for him, they still begged Jackie to come along, even claiming that he was "trying to ruin their birthday". He... Really didn't understand why he still hung around his friends. They never really seemed to respect his boundaries, and he'd laid those out several times for them. He didn't have his car with him but he could easily just call a cab and leave, and he doubted any of them would even notice. They were too absorbed in the dance floor. That's how these club outings always went.

He was just about to pull out his wallet to pay for his water when someone sat down next to him. A man, seemingly a few inches shorter than himself, with long lavender purple hair tied into a loose braid. There were patches of burn scars on their face, hands, and neck, and those were the only ones that could be seen thanks to their long sleeved black dress and tights. Honestly they looked like they were somewhat dressed for Halloween with how much of a witch-y vibe Jackie got from their outfit. And god, were they gorgeous. Jackie didn't need to be queer to recognize that. They had such an elegant and mysterious aura to them, and he took one look and just wanted to know more about them. He wanted to know everything about them.

"So, what's a hot guy like you doing all alone here, hm~?" The person practically purred as they looked over at Jackie, a soft and playful smirk on their lips. Now that they were facing him, Jackie could see that the four card suits were drawn onto their forehead in a diamond layout. Or maybe even tattooed? Their eyes were also a vibrant blue and purple, seemingly glowing in the slight darkness that the bar area provided. But the strangest part of all was their voice. It was a heavenly sound to Jackie, almost hypnotic by how it pulled him in. But it also sounded so... Clear. Like every other voice was immediately drowned out the moment they spoke. But that didn't seem possible, maybe Jackie was just so curious about this person that he could push past the conversations for once.

"Just enjoying a glass of water. And considering leaving." Jackie yelled over the music and voices so the other person could hear him, just in case the noise was too much for them as well. But they just simply laughed and quickly ordered themself a drink; a Bramble, no ice.

"No need to yell handsome, I can hear you loud and clear." They chuckled softly, leaning an elbow against the bar top. "But then again, wonder what other ways you could yell~"

That caused Jackie's brain to just stop all trains of thought it had. Oh, okay, this guy was flirting with him. He didn't really know what to think right now, he'd never had anyone besides women flirt with him. And he never expected to actually... He quickly shook his head in the hopes he could clear his head and make his bright red cheeks fade back to their usual paleness. He didn't know why he suddenly got flustered like that, this had never happened before.

"So- Sorry, you've got the wrong guy, I'm straight." Jackie mumbled a little as he took a sip of his water to try and calm himself down. And to try and ignore how weird it felt to say that. A bad kind of weird. "I'm sure there's plenty of other guys that would love someone like you trying to get into their pants.

The mystery person simply hummed as they took a sip of their own drink now that they had it, swirling it absentmindedly in their hand. "Really now? Never seen a straight guy blush that hard over my words. But hey, what's one quick fuck? Or will that hurt your masculinity too much?"

That got Jackie to nearly choke on his water. He coughed a few times to get his throat cleared before looking back at the other. "Look, I don't know who you are, but you're being a little bit of a dick. I'm sorry I'm the first guy who didn't wanna fuck you, I guess." Oh wow, someone who actually bit back. The other person had to take a moment before just... Smiling, extending a hand to Jackie. Their fingernails were painted a crimson sparkly red.

"Marvin, they/them. Pleased to meet someone who actually has a back bone." They chuckled a little. Jackie looked at the hand held out to him like this was a trick. Marvin had just insulted him a second ago. But he still shook it nonetheless, albeit with slight caution.

"Jackie, he/him. Please to meet someone who spits venom, I guess."

That got a laugh this time from Marvin. "Sorry about that. Sometimes I forget to hold my tongue, it gets me into so much trouble you see." They leaned their head on their folded hands, propped up by their elbows. "But you must admit, quite strange of someone so straight to become so easily flustered, especially with no alcohol. I hadn't even reached my peak."

"You just- Caught me off guard, that's all." Jackie quickly looked away from the other lest his returning blush be shown. He hated that Marvin wasn't really wrong. There was something about them that sparked a feeling in his heart, one he'd certainly never felt before, not even from any women he'd been with. And it was scary. There was nothing wrong with being attracted to other genders, obviously. But he never liked change, even now. Change was unpredictable, he couldn't rationalize it. He didn't know if this was temporary or meant to last, this new feeling.

Marvin only gave a little nod in response, finishing their drink and pulling out the money needed to pay for it. "I'm not one to be lied to, darling. I can read people all too well." When they looked at Jackie, they didn't have a flirty smirk or a condescending look. Just a small smile that actually seemed genuine. "But hey, you clearly don't want to be here. Overstimulating, I'm assuming. You've been wanting to leave for a while. Why not leave with someone you can talk to? Nothing more than that, I promise." They chuckled a little and stood from their stool. "I know when I need to keep my hands to myself."

Okay, at the very least they weren't trying to invite him over for any sort of sex. He thought it over for a few moments. It scared him so much, not knowing what this feeling in his chest was. But at the same time... He wanted to know more. He wanted to discover who Marvin was, even if just for the night. Maybe he'd be able to figure out this feeling if he went. And it wasn't like his friends- No, not really friends. It wasn't like the people he came here with would care. He could just block their numbers if any of them tried contacting him. So with a shrug he stood up as well, placing his pay under his glass and putting his jean jacket on. "Alright, lead me to your place, then."

That brought a smile to Marvin's lips. As said they could easily read people like they were open books, and Jackie posed no challenge. They could see that curiosity now showing in him, over both themself and what happened with himself earlier. And that's why they invited him over: To hopefully help him learn something about himself, in whatever way they needed. Marvin didn't say a word, just taking Jackie's hand and quickly leading him outside and into the alleyway next to the club. Jackie just let himself get towed along. Maybe their car was parked behind the building. But when they stopped halfway through the alley he got confused.

"Um, I don't think this is where we can get a car from."

"Oh trust me hun, we don't need a car." Marvin chuckled. "Just for some privacy." They then held a finger up in front of them, and as they drew shapes in the air those same shapes appeared in front of them both, glowing a soft teal. And once they were done drawing they tapped the middle of the shapes, causing them to glow brighter until they revealed a living room. A portal right into a living room. Jackie backed away a little. There was a portal, right in front of them.

"What the fuck...??" Was the most he could muster. Marvin only chuckled before they stepped in and disappeared into the still image, their hand poking out a second later and beckoning Jackie to follow. He knew, logically, he should be running. He should be trying to wake himself up, there was no way he wasn't sleeping right now. But his curiosity was so peaked right now that he really didn't care. He needed to know what the fuck was currently in front of him. So he decided to take the hand poking out from the portal, just in case something might go wrong, and let himself walk through. And he was in the living room that the portal displayed. And no limbs were missing or suddenly a different color, nor were his clothes suddenly gone. He stepped through and was perfectly safe. And now standing pretty much chest to chest with Marvin, who was letting soft giggles that they couldn't help.

"Pretty good for someone who's never seen magic before, I was fully expecting you to have run off on your heels." Marvin giggled, unknowingly intertwining their fingers together. Just something about how their slightly smaller hand fit into Jackie's so nicely... It had a cozy feeling to it that he wanted to keep for as long as he could.

"Holy shit, that was actually magic..." Jackie ran a hand through his hair before letting out a soft laugh. He actually just experienced magic. Magic, that shouldn't be real, yet there it was. Maybe he really was just dreaming right now. He didn't know when he could have run into someone like Marvin in real life, but that didn't matter. For the moment he just let himself believe without turning to logic and reason. Just to let himself have a little bit of wonder for once. "That was magic, you just used magic."

Marvin found it adorable how excited the other was over such a discovery. Some simply didn't believe them, no matter how many tricks they pulled. Others just ran away out of fear. Jackie was the first to react so positively, and with such joy as well. They were thanking their lucky stars that they met this man tonight. "And I can pull off a lot more than just portals, hun." They giggled softly and tugged at Jackie's hand that was still in theirs (the realization of it making Jackie blush), guiding him to the U shaped couch and sitting him down in the middle. "I'm going to go make myself some tea." They said as they walked out of the room, presumably to the kitchen. "You want any?" They called out.

"Oh, uh, no thanks. More of a coffee guy personally." Jackie responded. And now that he was alone in the room he had the chance to look around and observe all of the surface level things. The living room had a very dark magic vibe, having a dark blue, purple, and red color scheme to it. Against the wall in front of him was a television stand with the standard things: TV, internet box, blueray player, as well as several movies stacked in the side cubbies of the stand. A coffee table stood in the middle of the couch with a stack of moon shaped coasters off to the side. Silk drapes and glow-in-the-dark stars hung from the ceiling to give an even more magical vibe. There were two shelves on either side of the TV that were filled with books, photos, and various knick knacks. He wanted to get a closer look at the photos to see who or what was in them, but he didn't want to be too intrusive. He didn't know how much of their private life Marvin wanted to give out to a complete stranger.

After a few minutes Marvin returned with their tea, sitting down next to Jackie and setting their cup down atop one of the coasters. "So, what do you think?"

"Um- About what?"

"About my living room, silly." They laughed softly, which pulled a sheepish blush to Jackie's cheeks. "Obviously you were looking around at it. But you don't seem like the type to snoop in other people's drawers so I trust you."

"Well, it's... Definitely you. I- If that makes sense." Jackie shrugged a little as he took a quick glance over everything. "Like, when I look at you, this is definitely what I can expect from a living room. At the very least." He rubbed the back of his neck once his eyes returned back to the person across from himself. "Sorry, that probably makes no sense."

Marvin just chuckled and picked up his tea, taking a sip now that it was a little cooler. At least not so hot that it would burn their mouth off. "It's actually the best reaction I've gotten. Every other guy I've brought home has told me it's so dreary, that I need some color or whatever. I suppose it's a good thing that they were all one night stands."

"So what, picking up guys from bars is a common occurrence for you?" Jackie laughed softly. He already knew the answer for that if their interaction at the bar was any indication of how the magician acted around other men. "But I've never been one to judge people on their taste in... Whatever. I guess unless it's, like, genuinely harmful or something. But this just looks like a vampire threw up over everything." Marvin had to keep themself from laughing lest they choked on their tea. Thankfully they got it down and just turned into a coughing fit. Jackie immediately bolted up in his seat when he noticed, rubbing the other's back in a poor attempt to help a little. "Shit- Are you okay?? I- I'm sorry, I didn't mean to almost kill you."

"No, no-" Another couple of coughs interrupted Marvin's sentence. "Don't worry, you're fine." They chuckled a little before clearing their throat to try and get rid of the tickling feeling now sitting there. "Sorry, I didn't mean to scare you. Nearly choked on my tea from laughing."

Jackie let out a small breath of relief. Admittedly he was scared that maybe the magician would have been upset at him for making a joke while they had tea in their mouth. "Well, it would've been a hell of a way to go then." He let out his own little chuckle, earning a small laugh from Marvin.

"Truly would have been one of the stranger possibilities. But to answer your question, yes. But you're the first one to not push me against the wall and shove a tongue down my throat so... You at the very least have class." And now it was Jackie's turn to nearly choke, but this time it was on air and out of complete surprise. He needed to get used to Marvin's bluntness over everything, even intimate details like that.

"I- I mean, there's also the obvious bit of me being straight, so of course I wouldn't do that."

"Denial doesn't look pretty on you, hun." The magician hummed as they took another sip of their tea.

"I-" Jackie was about to protest. But the words got caught in his throat, and he really had to consider if it was worth it to just... Keep ignoring this feeling in his chest over the person next to him. He didn't know how long it would last... Maybe he could get some answers. "Is it really that obvious...?"

"With how much you bring up your lack of gay, yes." Marvin chuckled a little, earning a sigh from the other, who was running his hands through his hair.

"I just-... I've never felt this way about any other gender." He leaned forward to rest his elbows on his knees, his foot tapping out of a need to do something. He always got like this when having important talks, and this was very clearly important. "But then you come along and... Not to get too personal, but suddenly I've got this want to pull you in and make out with you. And I don't even think it's cuz you present femininely, but I don't know what else it could be besides... Apparently I'm gayer than I thought!" He did little jazz hands as he exclaimed. "And obviously, there's nothing wrong with that. But when you think you're one way your entire life and suddenly something happens and you're now something else..."

"It can be really scary, yeah." Marvin interjected, looking down at the scars on their hands. "I get that, trust me. Maybe a little more than you." They then shifted themself so that they could be closer to Jackie's face. "But you've got the urge to make out with me? Well, why not go for it then?"

Yeah, Jackie really needed to get used to that bluntness.

"Wh- Because I've literally never met you before tonight??" He backed away a little when he realized just how close Marvin had gotten. His cheeks were now red and he was looking at literally anything but the magician in front of him. And there was that urge again. To grab this person by the face and see what their lips tasted like. And he really couldn't push it down now. "I'm not going to just kiss a stranger without permission."

The magician then gave a shrug and a playful smirk in response. "I give you permission then. Go on. You don't seem like the kind of guy to try and take advantage of me, not in this state anyways. That and I could easily overpower you with a quick spell. But let's see if maybe this feeling is a one off thing. And if it is, no need for a sexuality crisis."

Okay, Marvin was really opening the floor for this. They were fine with Jackie experimenting with them. He was... A little thankful for that, honestly. At least he was experimenting with someone he probably had a genuine interest in. And so, he gave a nod for confirmation, leaning back in to Marvin to rest a hand on their cheek.

"Just, um, let me know if I do anything wrong. First kiss with a guy and all that."

That got a laugh out of Marvin. "I don't think it's any different than kissing a woman. But I've never kissed a woman, so who knows. Just... Do whatever feels right." They couldn't help as they bit their lip a little from anticipation. Jackie wasn't the only one who'd been having strange new feelings towards a complete stranger. The magician had felt a pull towards the other this entire night, something they hadn't ever felt towards someone before. They wanted to do so much more with this man, and for once they weren't even thinking about sex. To even just lay in his arms seemed like it would be a blessing. Jackie only gave another nod, taking a few seconds to prepare himself before finally connecting their lips.

Cherry. Marvin's lips tasted like cherry. He hadn't noticed any lipstick, so maybe this was lip balm. It was a surprising taste, he would've never associated them with cherries. But he loved it all the same. He loved this kiss all the same.

It remained slow at first, with Marvin making sure they let Jackie control the speed the entire time. They didn't want to possibly go too fast and overwhelm the other, no matter how much they wanted to. Jackie's lips on theirs felt like a breath of fresh air. Like they could finally breathe after having waited all night. And when Jackie wrapped an arm around his waist to pull them closer they were quick to respond with an arm around his shoulders, their other hand reaching up to undo his hairbun and tangle their fingers into his hair. And that pulled a hum from Jackie that nearly sent shivers down their spine. Oh if that simple hum caused such a reaction who knows what the other sounds that Jackie had would do to them.

Unfortunately the kiss didn't last for much longer, as Jackie pulled away for air, leaving them both staring at each other as soft pants left their lips. "So... How was that...?" Marvin spoke softly once they caught their breath enough.

"Good... Really good..." The other spoke just as softly. He didn't want to break whatever atmosphere had been created.

It only took a second for Marvin to be pulled back in for another kiss, much to their pleasant surprise. But this one was much harder, needier than the last one. It nearly turned the magician's brain to putty from the rush of emotions they were getting. And Jackie felt all the same, plus so much more right now. He didn't know why he kept himself in denial for so long if this is how amazing the kiss would feel. It didn't even matter if this was only his first with a guy, it was enough for him to know he wanted it all from Marvin.

A soft noise of annoyance and displeasure came out of him when it was Marvin's turn to pull away. But it was only to place a hand on his shoulder and push him back against the couch, now straddling his hips as the kiss resumed. Evidently the magician was a touchy one. Jackie's arms and shoulders weren't left alone from Marvin's hands. Those hands found themselves moving down to the other's torso, and with a hitched breath and slight arch of his back they were given permission to slip their hands up his shirt to keep feeling around. Jackie was a sensitive one when it came to touch, the magician was learning. His back was almost painfully arched into their hands, and they were sure that if they weren't making out right now they'd be hearing loud moans and whimpers from the other.

And Jackie managed to get some revenge for it. All it took was a little nip at their lip and a slip of his tongue for Marvin to become weak in his arms. Not like Jackie wasn't practically the same way, he was glad that his brain hadn't been turned to mush from all that he was feeling. The way their hands trailed over every inch of his chest, all of the soft moans he was managing to pull from them, the knee now pressing itself and rubbing a little against his crotch.

He was quick to pull away at that new feeling, gently pushing Marvin's knee away a little bit. The magician hadn't even realized what they were doing, but they were filled with dread with how fast the other stopped them. Maybe they'd completely ruined this now. "Shit, I'm... I'm sorry, I didn't even realize... I was moving too fast..."

Jackie shook his head at that as his grip tightened around the magician's waist, taking a second to catch his breath. "No, you're good, I... I just got thrown off is all.." He chuckled a little, his eyes now meeting Marv's. And theirs looked quite happy that they hadn't ruined anything. "But if we're going that far I think a bed will be better than the couch, yeah~?" Oh stars, help Marvin. That voice was enough to drive him up the walls.

"Yes, please~"

#ashton is writing #marvelsepticeye #jackieboy man #marvin the magnificent #jacksepticeye egos #jse egos fanfiction

[lunes-interlude]

As a person who is black, bisexual and genderfluid to have a white trans woman @trans-girls-who-eat-subway-2016 say that I said I hate trans women on an app that regularly dogpiles onto black people is INSANE. You and you're little lesbaphobic friends may think that shit is funny but my account is literally at risk of being banned again.

You couldn't even respond to any of the points I made or the stuff my mutuals said. You just kept taunting me and replying with dumb shit because you know I'm right. And the fact that you had the audacity to not only misgender me seen here is so pathetic.

I'm sorry that lesbaphobia is seen as "nonsense" and "twitter brainrot" but if this was about niggas being transphobic or homophobic you people would be up in arms. Also that fact that you wanna misgender me is crazy. I don't use they/them pronouns bitch I use he/void/it, it's in my carrd, we was mutuals you saw it. And even if wasn't you could've asked I would've told. Not once did I use he/him pronouns or they/them or be transphobic not even in my mutuals DM's. I made sure to respect your trans identity but when it comes to me and lesbians you wanna be a quirky bitch and act dumb because you think "well it doesn't affect me so who cares :3" like all you're showing is your lack of intelligence. You didn't eat in fact you vomited all over the table.

You wanna say that I am "using my identity" when I bring up how you're using your white privilege to say something that isn't true but all of a sudden you forgot how you used yours when you called me a terf on a post calling out people being transmisogynistic and not seeing trans women as real women. Isn't that funny? Like I said before I will use my BLACK ASS IDENTITY till the day I die, because I know it pisses you white bitches off. Y'all gag at the fact that y'all still have privilege and it pisses y'all off when people don't wanna center homophobia or transphobia in and outside the LGBTQ community. But don't worry you and all you're friends will be blocked after this, I don't have time for annoying lesbaphobes and unlike you, you don't stay in my mind and I have other shit to do (hence the late reply). And if anyone needs more context or screenshots PUH LEASE let me know.

Also P.S. you won't die if you reblog a black trans person (scary I know)...

#rants n rambles #lgbtq community #lgbt pride #white woman tears #anti blackness #queer community #trans community

[leorawright]

Mercs reaction to their nb friend who looks androgynous cause of their looks and deep yet soft spoken voice, constantly gets comments like, "Welcome! Sir- uhm.. ma'am? Alright uh Mx." Or anything that's similar to it. But the thing is, they use any pronouns so they just go along with whatever pronouns the person gives them plus it's so funny for them to witness a person struggle with what to call them

Dude that happened to me one time (I was at a zoo and I tried to ask a question to one of the employees and I had my Junkrat jacket on and my hair pulled back so he said "yes Sir?" Then spotted my hair and said "Oh ma'am?" It was kind awkward)

Mercs with friend who looks androgynous

Scout

The first couple times he talked to you he messed up your pronouns and profusely apologized

But knowing that other people mess it up makes him feel a little better

He's also always there at restaurants snd stuff to explain you're non-binary and to clear up any confusion

Soldier

He asked you at least 3 times what your gender was

It just wasn't sticking in his head

You'd better bet he'll make sure everyone knows your gender in public

He refuses to let any misgender you even on accident

Demoman

He guessed your gender in his head around 5 times before you told him

He's thankful he didn't have to ask because the he'd feel awkward

He does enjoy listening to your voice but makes sure people don't misgender you in public

He'll quickly tell them your gender if the seem hesitant to address you

Pyro

They absolutely adore your voice

They're non-binary so they're used to being called a 'he' or a 'she' by other people

If you don't correct someone's guess of your gender in public they'll interject into the conversation and tell them

They don't mean to be rude they just hate seeing you misgenderd

Heavy

He assumed your gender but quietly asked when you two where alone so he didn't get it wrong

He's very respective and thinks carefully before addressing you to make sure he's using the right pronouns

He'll be a little antsy if someone misgenders you in public because he wants to correct them but doesn't want to upset you by making a scene

Medic

Medic doesn't mind your looks or voice because he knows your gender so that stuff doesn't really matter

He will make sure everyone gets tour gender right and is not afraid to threaten someone if they do it on purpose

He's very adamant about getting your pronouns right and making sure others understand your gender

Sniper

Sniper doesn't mind your pronouns he's just glad he didn't accidentally misgender you

He's pretty quiet about your pronouns for the most part

Unless someone misgenders you

He really wants to correct them and just glances between you and them for a minute

If you affirm its okay he'll correct them but if you don't say anything he won't do anything

Spy

Spy simply files away your pronouns into his inner file about you and moves on

He does think your voice is a hit strange but eh he's not one to judge

He'll make sure people don't misgender you by using that little almost unnoticeable threat in his voice

#tf2 x reader #tf2 medic x reader #tf2 sniper x reader #tf2 scout x reader #tf2 demoman x reader #tf2 heavy x reader #tf2 spy x reader #tf2 soldier x reader #tf2 pyro x reader

[rjalker]

A lot of people in fandom clearly believe that the only kind of media analysis you should ever be doing is "interpret it solely in an endlessly praising, strictly homosexual sense, with emphasis on the sex part"

No other forms of analysis are welcome. You're not allowed to criticize the media for any of its flaws, or even point out the fact that it's flawed. You are not allowed to talk about the things in the work that are explicitly Queer and not in a strictly homosexual way, especially if the explicit Queer rep is aspec in any way, and especially not explicitly aroace. Because in fandom, everything has to come back to sex one way or another, no matter how many Queer and Disabled identities / traits the fandom has to erase to get there.

You can have an explicitly nonbinary character who's aroace and disgusted by the idea of being in *any* kind of relationship, including queerplatonic, who is touch averse and the narrative does nothing but respect this and show this character getting more comfortable with asserting its boundaries around being touched, and the fandom will still insist on misgendering it and shipping it with a guy they're whitewashing and pretending that it actually enjoys being touched, it's just too socially anxious / self-loathing to admit it.

Even when the author is going out of her way to show that the character hates being touched and as soon as it starts to realize that its boundaries will be respected instead of trampled over, it starts stating and enforcing its boundaries more and more firmly and easily. Until it becomes second nature for it to tell people not to touch it, instead of saying nothing because it's learned helplessness from never being able to say no before.

Even when the entire theme of the series is "respect people even if they're different from you", fandom cannot let any kind of Queer representation exist unless it's the white gay men having sex kind. Even if it means they have to misgender and whitewash the protagonist and whoever it's being shipped with, and erase literally everything that makes it who it is as a character, to do so.

There are literally endless white, gregariable, not explicitly sex repulsed characters people could be writing porn about instead, but fandom always has to whitewash and erase Queer identities they don't like so they can write porn without having to give a single shit about other people or think about the bigotry they're perpetuating by taking nonbinary, touch averse, aroace characters and turning them into misgendering porn fuel.

These people will literally even resort to shipping slaves with their legal fucking owners, despite the author repeating endlessly over and over again not to fucking do this. Literally. The author tells you not to ship slaves with their owners. But fandom will still do it because they are that fucking poisoned by amatanormativity and cannot fathom the idea of just treating aroace people like whole people who aren't missing anything.

They'll literally ship slaves with their owners and then act surprised when people think they're absolutely vile people.

#Murderbot deserves a better fandom #Murderbot #SecUnit #The Murderbot Diaries #Rjalker reads The Murderbot Diaries #Fandom bigotry #TMDD Fandom bigotry #The Murderbot Diaries Fandom bigotry #Fandom racism #TMDD Fandom racism #The Murderbot Diaries Fandom racism #Amisia #Fandom amisia #TMBD Fandom amisia #The Murderbot Diaries Fandom amisia #Exorsexism #Fandom exorsexism #TMBD Fandom exorsexism #The Murderbot Diaries Fandom exorsexism #Transmisia #Fandom transmisia #TMBD Fandom transmisia #The Murderbot Diaries Fandom transmisia #Aroacemisia #Fandom aroacemisia #TMBD Fandom aroacemisia #The Murderbot Diaries Fandom aroacemisia #Ableism #Fandom ableism #TMBD Fandom ableism

[circusgoth-dotcom]

I Don't Want To Meet Your Parents (2/2)

Ship: Billy Lenz x Gabriel Starling

Word Count: 1018

Summary: Part 2 of 2. Part 1 here. Gabriel and Billy arrive at Gabriel's mother's house, where no one inside respects who Gabriel is. Billy tries his very best to be good for Gabriel, but he cannot deny the rage these people fill him with. CWs for transphobia (deadnaming and misgendering), food mentions, brief suggestiveness, implied murder.

Tag List: @canongf @futurewife

It was around six-thirty when Gabriel and Billy arrived at its mother’s house, a slightly decrepit two-story building in a neighbourhood just on the cusp of being considered low income.

“Home sweet home,” Gabriel muttered to itself, keeping an eye on Billy as it walked up to the door and rang the doorbell.

It wasn’t long before the door opened. The only thing Gabriel had in common with the woman beyond the threshold was his eyes. She poured most of her income into fitting the societal standards for beauty. Gabriel did not.

“Donna! Welcome home!” Their mother reached out her arms while Gabriel remained still, a sinking feeling forming in their stomach.

“Mom, I told you not to call me that. Even if you’re not going to call me by the name I chose, you could at least call me by my middle name.” He spoke in a low, firm tone before clearing his throat and gesturing to Billy. “Mom, this is Billy, my boyfriend. Billy, this is Barbara Bennett, my mother.”

“How do you do?” Billy’s voice quivered slightly as he offered a hand. Barbara shook it.

“Well well well, my little girl went and got herself a boyfriend, isn’t that something? Charmed.”

Gabriel’s stomach continued to turn, but he said nothing. Meanwhile, one of Billy’s eyelids twitched.

“Charmed,” Billy echoed, physically straining not to mimic Barbara’s tone accurately.

“Well, no reason to keep you two on the doorstep any longer, Donna’s grandparents are already seated.” As Barbara disappeared into the rest of the house, Gabriel cleared his throat and pulled his suitcase into the foyer, followed closely by Billy.

“Old hag,” Billy spat like an angered cat, fussing over Gabriel’s clothes and pressing as close to them as he could get.

“I’m okay.” Gabriel quietly deflected, leading the way into the dining room. They waved briefly at their maternal grandparents. “Mawmaw, pops.”

“Your hair’s short,” the old man commented.

“Uh-huh. C’mon, Billy, let’s sit.”

The two sat at the opposite end of the table while Barbara served the food, most of which was nothing Gabriel liked nor wanted to eat. Tension remained as the meal went on, with all three of Gabriel’s family members deadnaming and misgendering him throughout.

“So, Billy, what do you do for work?” Pops asked.

“I-I don’t work,” Billy answered as he absently shredded the ribs on his plate with a fork, legs bouncing anxiously under the table.

“You don’t work?? How’re you going to support Donna, then? How are the two of you going to have a family when she graduates?”

“Pops,” Gabriel scolded through clenched teeth.

“Family?”

“You are going to give me grandbabies, aren’t you?” Barbara asked. Gabriel pushed a pickle around his plate with his knife.

“If Billy keeps--” A familiar perverted tone had gripped the man, forcing Gabriel to gently yet firmly nudge his calf with their foot, making Billy swallow with an audible gulp.

“I’m full,” Gabriel suddenly announced, standing and picking up his plate.

“Donna, you barely ate…!” Mawmaw spoke, but it was already making a beeline for the kitchen.

“Where’s your w-w-wa-ashr-r-room?” Billy asked, trapped on the verge of losing himself for a moment.

“Just up the stairs and to your right,” Barbara instructed. “Are you alright??”

Relieved, Billy nodded and tromped upstairs. As soon as he was enclosed in the cat-themed bathroom, he burst into a fit of manic giggling, gripping himself tight and staring into the mirror above the sink, disgusted by his own visage but unable to look away.

“Billy hates Barbara and Mawmaw and Pops,” he seethed, spit forming on his dry lips. “Calling piggy by the wrong name, Billy’s pretty piggy, Billy’s perfect cunt, they make it sad, they don’t feed it right…!”

His chest heaved and his eyes rolled wildly as his lividness consumed him. He wanted to hurt this broken family. He felt closer to Gabriel than ever. Gabriel deserved liberation. Gabriel would not suffer anymore. A knock at the door behind him made him jump, staggering against the toilet.

“Billy?” It was Gabriel. He opened the door, immediately wrapping his palms around Gabriel’s cheeks.

“Billy’s going to make everything better,” he choked, hands shaking as he stroked its skin.

“What are you talking about??”

“Piggy’s staying here tonight?”

“Wha- well… yes. We don’t have much of a choice, but I can book a motel for a few nights tomorrow…”

“Good!” Billy laughed insanely. “Piggy needs its rest.” He began ushering them toward the nearest door, but Gabriel dug his heels into the carpet.

“Slow down there, hon. My room’s at the end of the hall.” Gabriel pointed to the respective door. “If you’re insisting that I go to bed, will you at least bring up my suitcase for me?” They paused before whispering in a genuine manner, “Thanks. I didn’t really want to stay up and talk to them anyway.”

Billy sloppily kissed their temple. “Anything, anything, anything for you.”

Gabriel slipped into its room and Billy retrieved its luggage, sitting at the foot of the bed while it went through a shortened version of its nighttime routine.

“Are you going to bed?” It asked.

“Yes,” Billy lied. “Lay down.”

Gabriel yawned and did as they were told, snuggling up under the sheets and resting their weary head on an uncomfortable pillow. Billy sidled behind them, laying on top of the sheets. He hadn’t bothered to take off his new clothes, nor his old boots, as he spooned his partner. As he listened to its breathing slow, he let his hand trail down its chest and stomach, before resting his fingers inside the waistband of its underwear, instantly giddy at the familiar feeling of its coarse bush against his fingertips. He did not move from this position until he was sure Gabriel was fast asleep.

Cautiously, Billy removed himself from the bed and exited the room. He strained his ears against the noise downstairs. The family was still up, listening to the radio and talking. Silently, Billy descended the stairs. When he returned to Gabriel’s room at nearly midnight, he was sweaty and smeared with blood.

#self shipping #self shipping community #self insert #self insert x canon #self x canon #self insert oc #oc x canon #gay self ship #trans self ship #🎄📒.s/i #☎️Waiting By The Phone☎️ #circus scripts

[girlstrider]

I finally managed to finish the captain laserhawk fic with my oc Rayya!

Warning! Mentions of violence, misgendering and ableism

The fic is under the cut

Ever since Rayman accepted his position in the studio, his little sibling had been prone to autistic meltdowns. He lost count on how often he had to soothe them as they bawled out their eyes.

What worried him though, was that because of that, the staff treated them ableistic, infantilising them and calling them things like "Daddys little girl" or "spoiled brat".

And frankly, he could understand why Rayya lost their temper after hearing that. Honestly, those names insulted him too. He felt like the staff was looking down on him for his parenting, but they were too afraid to say that in his face because of his fame, so they instead let it out on his sibling.

"Daddys little girl" was a punch to the guts in itself, he wasn't their father, he was their brother and they weren't a girl either, but they didn't respect their identity and pronouns anyway, which disgusted him.

"Spoiled brat" however...

Back in his dimension, he never heard anyone use that term in context of Rayya. Everyone understood and respected their autism and tried to accommodate them to the best of their abilities. That's what ticked him off. That, in this dimension, people assumed they were just a brat and that he couldn't take care of them.

Rayman sat in his boss's office and listened to him.

"Your sister stabbed a staff member for no reason, Rayman..."

"That's not what I've heard", the limbless interjected, ignoring the fact his sibling got misgendered again, "I've heard that the staff member said I should be ashamed of my sibling and , quote, unquote, 'spank them'..."

"That's still not an excuse to stab someone!"

Geez, they all acted like he did nothing but cuddle Rayya and tell them they're a very special kid...

Of course he scolded them when he heard what happened. He was shocked, even! This went against what he taught them, and yet...

... In hindsight he thought the staff member... deserved it.

——————————————————————

The TV Star was pacing up and down in front of a locked door before hesitantly knocking on it.

"Rayya? Please come out, I'm not gonna yell at you anymore."

Nothing.

"Rayya, please! I'm sorry that I upset you but I'm not gonna apologize for scolding you. You stabbed someone!"

He knocked on the door again.

"Go away! I know you hate me!", Rayya said muffled through the door.

This broke Rayman's heart. He didn't hate them! In fact, they were the reason he was doing all of this!

"I don't hate you, butterfly... I was just shocked you would stab someone, that's all..."

After what felt like an eternity, the door finally opened and Rayya stepped out. It was clear they had been crying.

"Hey there, buddy... Need a hug?"

Rayya immediately fell into his arms and bawled their eyes out, like during every meltdown.

"I don't wanna be treated like a baby!"

"I know, I know, my little butterfly..."

Rayman thought about what to do next as he embraced his little sibling. He nuzzled them comfortingly while his brain searched for a solution to this problem.

"Unfortunately I can't do anything about the infantilisation, Rayya, but... Maybe you can use it to your advantage. That way I could even excuse the more... violent meltdowns and pass them off as self defense or something."

"But that's not what I want! I wanna be treated fairly like they used to at home!"

"This is our home now! And..." Rayman took a deep breath, feeling bad for having yelled at his sibling. "... I know this is a major step back and nobody knows about autism and its characteristics here... Maybe I can raise awareness on your condition if the network allows me. And maybe I can even bring people to treat you fairly like they used to in our dimension. But until then, I want you to use the mistreatment to your advantage, butterfly. Just... be a charming little kid, like your brother is the charming little limbless on TV, ok?"

Rayya looked at their brother while wiping away their tears. "Rayman, I don't think this is a good idea, but... If you really think it'll benefit me, then i'll use it to my advantage..."

#rayman #captain laserhawk #rayman oc #oc #fanfiction

[emersonfreepress]

For trans MCs, you said gender angst can/will manifest in the form of people who knew MC pre-transition can accidentally call them by their wrong pronouns and their deadname. I'm curious about the mechanics of it.

How will you handle the deadname part? Will we have to enter a name or will the narration be like

"And there is you, with the name you...

a) used to have (enter the deadname) b) still use even after transition (name remains the same) c) no longer use after transition. (skip entering a deadname)"

Related to it: will we get to be nonbinary and trans?

Can MC be nonbinary from the start even if cis? Like with the deadname option, will it be like:

"Before coming out as nonbinary, you...

a) used she/her pronouns b) used he/him pronouns c) ... well, you don't want to think about that time (avoid putting pronouns)"

Coding and narration-wise though, I can see that would be hard, especially if those few people who knew MC pre-coming out have dialogues or direct conversations with MC, or even just talking about MC's past to someone else.

Like using direct speech if pronouns and/or deadname is put:

""Yeah, then (Deadname) did (former pronoun) best," said Character A."

vs indirect speech if not:

"Character A said you did your best, using your deadname and former pronouns before apologizing and correcting themselves."

So I'd understand if you don't implement such options.

Ok, there's at least three questions here 😅 That's why it took me a while to properly finish this answer, I think I ended up confusing myself a few times lol

Regarding MC deadnames

I only plan for deadname customization around the time of the first scene it is actually relevant to, which isn't until Thanksgiving-times (typical). You'll be able to write in a custom one or choose that you've always had the same name. That won't extend to misgendered pronouns, though; it wouldn't be anything like the examples used here. Feels shoehorned/immersion-breaky.

Can MC be non-binary and trans?

We don't get assigned or raised as our gender, yeah? Non-binary is trans, so yes.

Can MC be non-binary from the start?

Yes, but with caveats.

I wasn't any less agender when I was using she/her pronouns for the first 20 years of my life; I just didn't have the vocabulary or established language to express it. I still had the queer feelings and thoughts, but I only had the words available to me through others and a ton of straight, cisgender media. I probably referred to myself as a tomboy or a person a thousand times more than I ever referred to myself as a girl. That word bothered me; not she or her. That was the word that was heavy to me, it meant too many things. It held the weight the of the expectations of my family, my peers, and the world at large. It shackled me to activities and mannerisms that I had no inclination towards, it forced me to conform to mannerisms and assumptions that never fucking fit.

When I still thought that not being a boy automatically means you're a girl, all I ever understood about myself was that I was not a boy and that I despised being a girl, wished I didn't have to be a girl, largely hated girls who naturally enjoyed conforming to things that tore me apart inside. There was a distinct hatred of being born a girl but an equally distinct disinterest in being born a boy instead. I didn't know "neither" or "none" was a box I could check or a thing at all and yet that is always what my gender has been.

ANYWAY let me hop off this soapbox ffs /personal rambling over. all of that is to preface the following:

As progressive and different as Emerson is, singular they as an indicator of gender identity and neo-pronouns were beyond obscure of a concept in the late 90s to the general American public; forget about it as an actual practice or show of respect. Book 2 takes place in 2008 and will introduce singular they/them as a third pronoun option if MCs want it. All the rest of my IF projects (🤞🏾🤞🏾🤞🏾🤞🏾) will take place in the current day or the not-so-distant future (or literal Hell ☺️) and will have they/them and pronoun customization as options. Because moderntimes.

So! As it stands, Book 1 limits the MC to using one of the two binary pronouns (he and she) but both books will use 5 variables to represent MC gender: cis boys and girls, trans boys and girls, and non-binary kids. Non-binary MCs get the additional option to clearly indicate that they don't ascribe to, subscribe to, or generally mesh well with binary gender norms and expectations—they will be written as non-binary. it's kinda important to me

I also want the beta and final version to have a "gender angst" toggle that runs the game filtered in such a way that largely leaves out most gendered flavor text and most references to being trans outside of just a few scenes or lines. This would also let MCs use "they/them" pronouns throughout the game without fanfare. I talked about it a bit here.

Idk if it will work for all queer players... and it's possible this is an unsatisfying answer for some folks. But it's what this one queer coder wants to do for their game, so 🤷🏾‍♂️

Ultimately, this is all smoke and vapor until it is properly coded and written anyway. Execution speaks louder than planning, so I'll be trying my damn best ☺️

#lovely anon #answered #gender stuff! #new kid #customization #hot mess walking #did i answer the question...? #god i hope so i am tired of reading what i did say lol

[fuck-customers]

God this job is making me so fucking jaded. I honestly don't hate people, I'm just generally uncomfortable around them because I have pretty poor social skills (I'm only in customer service because I'm not qualified to do anything else), but this job tries my fucking patience. The way the customers behave and the way they treat me is infuriating, and the fucked up thing is, I know I have it better than a lot of other people (although I have plenty of complaints about management as well — the fact that I work alone with no backup is a big one, even if my store is pretty small). The customers are all selfish, demanding, messy, and carry an attitude of "I am the center of the universe and you should be grateful to serve me". They don't want to pick up after themselves, they don't want to stay out of my or anyone else's personal space, and 99.9% of them can't be bothered to read my very visible pronoun pin and expect me to take being constantly misgendered with a smile. Almost none of them wear masks anymore and I have to go to work every day with the knowledge that none of them care whether I live or die as long as they get to buy their stupid fucking oven mitts or whatever. I genuinely can't stand working here, but I can't quit because I need the money, and if I don't have a job I might lose my housing. But I honestly don't know how much longer I can do this. It's wrecking my physical and mental health, and it's getting really hard to get out of bed, let alone do anything else. Fuck customers. I'd hate my job a lot fucking less if they treated me with some basic fucking respect. I know submitting this isn't going to do anything because the types of people who do these things aren't the types of people who follow this blog, but I had to get it off my chest.

[just-an-enby-lemon]

Every time I get into youtube this days there is like five videos about terfs and four that are exclusivaly about JK and always from new people debating it again and again and I don't know why the algorithmic thinks that because I watched some of thoses videos some time ago I'll want to keep doing it forever and like I'm just soo tired.

I don't know how to explain it because I feel shitty all the time about a bunch of things and transphobia is on top and I'm tired. And when I enter youtube I don't want to be bombarded with the memory that there is a vocal group that hates my existence and has a lot of political support. I just want something to play while I try to finish all my monthly solitary challenges and destress so I can think.

And that's nothing against the videos. I understand we need to talk about it and it's good that the bigots aren't the ones completly controlling the narrative but I don't know I guess I just want some queer joy. I just want to be happy for half a second. And I used to not care. But I'm the only trans person (and nb person) on my friend group and somehow even though all of them are some degree of queer I became the one that has to talk about it all the time. To explain my existence, to explain their existence to others (they ask me to do it), to try to explain to good intencioned bigots why they are still bigots and I just... I just want to exist for half a second man.

I'm not perfect. I literally just misgendered a characther for stupid reasons like five minutes ago and I still have to be the one that has to explain shit because idk I'm open about it? I'm not. I gave up talking to my parents about it after my mom said the reason for my gender confusion was because she wanted a boy when she was pregnant but I'm just a confused girl and said she was sorry for having post partum depression and making me queer or something and I don't even dare to try to talk about it with my family. I love my family. My grandma gave me happy birthday and said I'm her favorite grandaughter and I want to keep living in their lie thatthey love me unconditionally and we can only keep that if they never know. Maybe is because I'm vocal about being autistic? Because it sucks. I had a panick atack reading an old academic article about autism in class because it was soo dehumanizing and no one else saw it that way. The future ABA people treat me like a kid and are shocked that I'm just a fully functional 21 yo. And I have to debate them! To respect their choice of activally pursuing a path that harms kids and if I question it I'm just silly and my personal experiences don't matter because I was diagnosed later and never had ABA and the mothers of the kids they intern with love ABA and I don't even know what this post is.

I'm just having a burnout from existing I guess. From existing and being a good public speaker while having perfomance anxiety. And no one ever used they/them or any neutral language to reffer to me and I always say I use neutral pronouns as well and list it on my bio. And I was listed as woman for someone who accepts me and when I mentioned they thought someonelse did it and I just let them gaslight this person because I knew it wssn't on purpose and had no energy and the other girl would have done it anyway.

I think I wish I had just an opportunity to be rude. That I didn't need validation and to be liked for everyone. That I wasn't so afraid of being a problem. That I could just say that it's good that you don't see my boobs as a part of my gender and I know it isn't your intencion but it gives me dysphoria sometimes andbit really really annoys me how everytime someone goes "you really want top surgery?" yeah. I'm sorry you feel dysphoric for having small boobs or whatever but I literally have to do a drag persona in my head everytime I use a dress or make up because I can't see myself as the person in the mirror and I'm just tired because everyone has valid reasons except me. I only have valid reasons when I'm actually wrong. And I just want to be a prick to everyone even if they don't deserve it at all because I don't deserve it also and I don't know how to solve it and I just wanted some queer joy. The euphoria of being the "somehow this is the most feminine and the most masculine look you had" by a close friend. The silly smile when my aunt reffered to me on the masculine for accident. Hanging out with my queer friends and feeling I have a place. The quiet moments of just existing and feeling good with it. The happiness of when someone actually gets it. The niceness of just being myself to myself at least.

#mental health struggles #trans #burn out #i just need some fucking depction of queer joy rn #enby #autism #fear #personal #might delete this later

[sleepy-shutin]

people really need to accept that by taking on an inherently dehumanizing pronoun, you’re going to trigger people. you’re going to come across trauma survivors who can’t use those pronouns. personally i’ve pulled away from the larger lgbtq community because i’m extremely triggered by the word “queer,” it doesn’t bother me as much anymore thankfully but the amount of hate and vitriol i’ve gotten just for simply asking to either keep the word usage at a minimal around me, tag it so i can blacklist it, or just let me know if you can’t do any of that so i can unfollow or whatever, is fucking insane. which is all very funny because there’s a very big movement on here for respecting triggers, even the “weird” ones, until said triggers are an inconvenience. then you’re whatever -phobic they can think of regardless of your own identity, all because you had the audacity to state a boundary. also threatening to “beat the ass” of severe trauma survivors when that’s a threat many of us have genuinely heard against us is fucking deranged behavior.

literally. like i'm not even asking that these people in particular censor their identities. i'm literally asking that you have compassion for people who have been severely dehumanized. i'm literally of the opinion that trigger-tagging queer for people who are triggered by the word, (NOT tagging it as "q slur" but perhaps something like "q tag" or "q word" or even "[name] don't look"), is perfectly fine. because just as much as queer is an identity, it's also a slur that has been used to abuse and murder people, just like how it/its has been used on people who have been severely abused.

i have especially heard of its use on queer people, (trans people in particular), trafficking survivors while they were still being trafficked, and people of color.

i really do think it's because many (not all) of these people have a very strange concept of dehumanization trauma, where they understand it as an abstract concept and it doesn't come to mind when talking about it/its pronouns because it covers a very wide range of experiences and many of the more "severe" ones are just unimaginable to them. they just don't think about it, "it just doesn't happen to people".

like literally, for all intents and purposes, think of it/its pronouns similarly to a slur, or some other kind of horrible insult that has been used to degrade, demean, and abuse people, like "bitch" or "whore", or like the other example i gave, "queer". it's an identity with a LOT of weight behind it, and it's going to trigger the fuck out of some people because of it. you cannot deny that it has weight behind it.

i'm not asking to misgender people, i'm asking people to actually understand the weight behind the identity. i'm asking that people have compassion for those who are triggered by it/its pronouns because of their inherently dehumanizing nature, instead of insulting, harassing and further dehumanizing someone who has already been abused through dehumanization.

not to mention that many people haven't just been *threatened* to have their ass beat. many people literally fucking have, and sending a threat like that to someone who has been severely abused from childhood... bestie that is not a good look for your side, lmao. like i didn't threaten you buddy, i just asked you to have compassion for survivors of severe trauma. maybe think about why you've decided not to, lol.

#ask #anon #part zero #discourse

[ftm-radio]

tw: transphobia, aphobia

I was really close with a friend and then I came out to her as transmasc. She made me promise I wouldn't transition and refused to respect my pronouns, misgendering me at every turn. She listened to every transphobe, agreeing wholeheartedly with healthcare for trans people being banned and trans people being forced out of society. She was "uncomfortable" with me mentioning trans stuff and made me stop talking about that altogether. I hoped it was just shock and she would change.

I came out to her as aroace and she decided it was time to tell me about how I'm "going against my natural predisposition" and I "need to find out whats wrong and get treatment" all the while saying she wasn't trying to invalidate me. I'm just so lost and broken right now.

The worst part is, she's the nicest anyone is about this around me. Mum's a billion times worse, going on about how I need to "get married and have kids" and that I'm broken and need to get fixed.

I'm so done with everything now. I hate my life and every part of it.

Sorry about this. I guess I just wanted to vent to someone. Sorry for wasting your time on this.

anon, please don't think that you're wasting my or anybody else's time by reaching out. never think that. you are not a waste of time or space, and you are allowed to seek help and comfort whenever you need it. fuck whoever told you or made you feel otherwise. 🖤

I am so so sorry that your "friend" and the other people in your life are mistreating you like this.

you deserve better. you are not broken, you do not need to be fixed. nobody else can tell you what is "natural" for you, and they cannot dictate who you are.

if that absolute trashbag of a person claims to be your friend, she should have been supportive and accepting of you from the beginning, but she obviously isn't. you say that she treats you the best out of everyone in your life, and that thought honestly horrifies me. it makes me so deeply angry on your behalf, because the behavior you have described is vile. she sounds like a terrible person to be around, and if I were you I would stay away as much as you can.

It breaks my heart that I can't just snap my fingers and fix this for you. I can't magically pull people's heads outta their asses and make them decent folk. If I could, I would do that for you in a fucking instant, a hundred times over.

because you deserve a life that feels livable. you deserve to have people around you that see you and accept you.

I am so sorry and I am so mad that you don't have that right now.

I know that all I can offer you are words on a screen, but I hope you can take them and have some comfort. it won't always be like this. getting through it won't be easy, but someday you will be away from these people and you will have better people in your life. you have to believe that for yourself, so you can make it happen.

the people in your life right now don't want you to be happy. they'd rather you be miserable than be different than them, and I don't know about you, but I want them to be fucking disappointed. don't let them make you feel bad and lost and hopeless and like you want to give up. be upset, be sad, but most importantly be angry. be furious. be defiant.

stand your ground and keep your chin up, because your new mission in life, should you choose to accept it (and I really hope you do), is to be yourself and be happy, even if it's just to spite those assholes. even if you have to bide your time and wait it out. one day, they won't be able to stop you. one day, you're gonna be free, and they can die mad about it.

#oh and tell your mom that if she wants to control somebody else's life so badly that she can go play a fucking sims game ✌🏻 #ftm radio #listener call in #ask #anon #transphobia mention #aphobia mention #long post

[jaredthebc]

The reason people think it/its can be offensive is because some people use it specifically to dehumanize trans or gnc people (referring to you as an item/animal, aka less than human in their eyes, which is a recurrent thing people have used to diminish and take away trans' peoples rights and basic respect)

still even if people are uncomfortable about it being used towards them they should respect if someone actively wants to use those pronouns. it's really just misgendering if you refuse to use the pronouns someone else has explicitly said to use for them

Oh no trust me anon I 100% hear what you're saying and agree with a majority of it. I assume you're referring to the post I reblogged with my tags explaining my viewpoint on all of it. My tags are very similar to your ask here so sorry if I unintentionally worded it weird to make it sound like it/its is bad (I could be wrong interpretating your ask so sorry if I am unintentionally assuming debate, text can be hard for me to get the tone of sometimes)

And trust me I do get why some would find it/its offensive at a first glance. People have used calling others it as an insult, and people who do that are assholes who should be called out. *but* people who assume automatically it/its is to dehumanize need to step back and reflect some, cause someone using it/its isn't harmful at all so long as calling someone an it is with people who use those pronouns. Assuming it/its is inherently harmful just hurts people who do use those pronouns

In my tags I used an example of how I myself am trans, I use He/Him exclusively and hate when people refer to me with she/her or they/them. I know it's different than identifying with it/its, but I know what it's like to be called something you don't want to because some are too stubborn to adapt. It fucking sucks and we shouldn't let assholes overpower us and our freedom of expression and boundaries

#bc answers #// misgendering #sorry for the long post