#Let it be known I don't like constant angst tho. I don't like crying and suffering all the time like

[girlyliondragon]

More fic writing praise and really just for writers in general so... the moment you can make me sorta FEEL through a character as I’m reading something that’s when you know you’re a good fcking writer.

If I can feel their joy, sadness, terror, and everything else like, THROUGH them, not as a reader but as the character(s). I know that’s sorta like standard for good writing is it making you have those emotions as you read through certain moments but man I still dunno if I’ve found folks that do it as intensely as I do yet but man I have had multiple moments where I really feel the emotions through the characters I’m reading about on and am so attached to on such an empathetic level it’s insane to describe... I feel what they’re feeling in that moment, like I am them. I’ve had multiple instances where I would reach a climax that I know shit will hit the fan and I’m so overwhelmed from the buildup and know I’ll be even moreso I’m sometimes like “Aight I gotta give it a minute off the computer before I read this” because I’m reeaally feeling their tension and anxiety and all that but I haven’t had a instance of that for so long experiencing it again is so alien to me. The feelings I get from reading feel so real I’ve even gotten so distressed from stories I’d feel sick for a while. It’s not just a case of like going to a movie and seeing a really touching scene and crying from it like this is deeper than that I cannot describe it.

That level of Empathy is a REALLY hard emotion to get out of me if you expect me to do it for real people (For reasons obvious for me, I’m autistic and I have massive empathy problems irl ya know? it’s extremely difficult on a normal day, I’ve had to deal with family death and I still couldn’t get myself to feel as much as I tried and I hate the struggle x.x) but man I really feel something for fictional characters going through shit whatever that may be.

I love fiction, I love how it can make me really FEEL for the characters within the genre in a way that I struggle with irl. I love when writers get those intense emotions out of me. I’ll get sick from feeling the stress a character feels in the fic I’m reading and still go back for more just for the potential closure, IK that doesn’t sound good but in cases like suffering before you reach that happy ending that is deserved and you made me cry through the suffering feeling for them and being like “They deserve that happy ending after all that shit and I deserve it after reading and crying through all that” it’s an achievement to me to make me that immersed okay, it really is.

It makes me feel... idk. human.

And I will kiss every fic-writers shoes that does that to me.

#Emerald go the fuck to sleep #It's almost 2AM AND YOU'RE RAMBLING ABOUT YOUR INTENSE ATTACHMENT TO FICTION AGAIN YOU WEIRDO #Okay but listen you don't UNDERSTAND this is another gushing happy rambling and I want writers to know about it #Let it be known I don't like constant angst tho. I don't like crying and suffering all the time like #I like it in HEALTHY AMOUNTS if that makes sense #also please don't use this rambling to fuel some ''fiction = reality'' spiel or something plz don't make me regret writing this #I just have veeeeeeeeery strong empathy when it comes to fictional characters and ONLY fictional characters as well #had it for years in multiple fandoms even. it's the only time I feel human because I struggle so hard with empathy #in the real world #it's not something that affects me IN reality. More like I get THAT immersed in the fiction world. #that I just start f e e l i n g idk. idk how to explain it #In fact I'm currently reading something that I'm edging on hyperventilating from rn! #do you have any idea how hard it was to write this post while in that state I am going through some INTENSE shit emotionally rn okay #it's making me BR E ATHE #long post #Em Speaks