#L is my comfort character i wont apologize

[multifandoms27-blog]

Vows | Self-insert | Angst

I’ve been having a block. So have this as an apology.

Based off the song: Bleed for Me — Crape

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Content: I’m using a self-insert (J) instead of (Y/n) for this one because I can’t imagine this being an x reader. But J is still reader-ish so whatever. I also just need to write this out and put this SOMEWHERE. Forgive me <3

Warnings: Heavy character death, aggressiveness, spoiler warning for Death Note

Notes: Y’all don’t gotta read this if you don’t wanna. It wont hurt my feelings at all. I just need to get something written or I’m gonna explode. I’m blanking on ALL of my requests. I’m also throwing you into this. Also also, if the format is weird, its cause im on my phone. It’s also 3:37 am where I am.

Some info on J: She grew up with L in the orphanage. Later got into a relationship with and married L. Adopted Matt, Mello and Near with him later on.

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J sat, in shock. Her eyes wide as she stared at the news screen. It felt like she wasn’t breathing, that her heart stopped. She honestly wished it had.

It was almost as if Kira had gotten her.

The news report showed a car. A red one. One she didn’t recognize, but she recognized the driver. The car was littered with bullet holes, the class broken and shattered. A body laid limp against it, a young man. He was in the same shape as his car, but with blood all over him.

His own blood.

She knew that young man. Tears began to gather at her eyes, her hands began to shake, and she finally felt herself breathe. But it hurt. It hurt to breathe. It hurt to live.

The young man was her son, Matt.

“Mom?” Her youngest son, Near, called from the floor behind her. “Are you alright?”

She didn’t know what to do. She didn’t want to turn to Near and have him see her in this state. He was old enough to, but that didn’t mean she wanted him to see it.

Near got up and carefully stepped over his toys at his mothers silence. He was able to see the news. He knew he just lost his brother. He wrapped his arms around his mother, pressing his face into her hunched over back.

J finally began to break down and cry into her hands. Matt was gone, and Mello was who knows where. They were always inseparable, but she couldn’t help but worry for her eldest son.

Losing one son was enough. It felt as if her whole world was crashing. Again.

She’d already lost her husband four years ago — how much more loss can she take?

She twisted her body to hold Near. J wanted to comfort her son as much as Near wanted to comfort his mother. Near never hated his brothers, even though they ganged up on him after L practically chose Near.

J sobbed into Near’s shoulder. Near kept calm, but so desperately wanted to call out for his brother. J wanted it to be a prank, a stupid, very elaborate one that Matt would always pull.

But he would never get back up again. He would never pull another prank on them again. J’s lungs seized at that thought, making her crying worse. Matt was gone, and he was never going to come back home.

~*~*~*

A few hours later, J was getting off the phone with the police and making arrangements to have Matt’s body transported to England for his funeral. Her eyes puffy, mouth dry, and throat sore.

Anthony and Gevanni grimaced at the sight. In the time they’d known J, she was not one to cry. She was always a very quiet, stoic, yet verbally aggressive woman. If Near had brown hair, they’d think he was her biological son.

Gevanni handed her a glass of water. “If there is anything you need, just let me know, okay?”

She nodded to the raven haired man. “Thank you.”

Gevanni nodded and comfortingly rubbed the woman’s back for a moment before turning to Near on the floor. He’d been more quiet since Matt died. He had no idea that Near had brothers. All Gevanni knew of his family was his mother, and that his father died four years ago in Japan from Kira.

“Near, are you—“

J’s cellphone rang. She picked it up and saw it was Halle. Halle was tailing after Mello when he took Kiyomi Takada. She’d lost sight of him for a while before, J guessed she’d found him now.

“Halle, did you find—“

“Miss, I…I’m so sorry.”

J assumed she meant about Matt. But then she realized, Halle wasn’t here when J told Gevanni and Anthony about Matt. Her heart suddenly dropped to her stomach again.

“What…what do you mean?” Her voice grew shaky, earning the attention of Near.

“Mello, I…he…Takada, too…” Halle seemed to be traumatized. “They…they…”

“Spit it out, Linder!” J snapped, feeling tears gather up again. “What happened?!”

“Mello and Takada…are dead.”

For the second time that day, J felt everything shatter. For the second time today, she was rendered into a shock. Her grip on the phone was so tight she was sure she’d break it. Near thought her eyes were so wide that they’d pop out of her head.

“Mom? What happened.”

“M-Mello…” She slowly turned to look at her son. “Mello’s dead, too.”

~*~*~*

J had never gripped a counter so hard in her life. Her nails dug into the material. Her face wet from the sink water, brown hair draping over her face. The guilt swamped her head.

Four years ago, Mello and Matt had landed in Japan in secret to help the Kira case behind L’s back. J usually kept her cases as far away from her children as possible, but Mello is— was a very stubborn man. Never took no as an answer. And Matt never stood for being left behind, so he tagged along.

J had no choice but to let them do it.

After L died, just after his funeral, Mello and Matt wanted to officially join the task force. J refused, said she’d stay in the orphanage and help. Mello then wanted to join some antagonist group to counter Kira and fight him. J fought him on that decision, they had an argument, and Mello took off with Matt. That had been the last time she’d seen Matt, and the last time she’d seen Mello until he came to retrieve his picture.

‘I didn’t even get to say goodbye.’

J let out a whimper before sinking to her knees. She pushed her knees to her chest, feeling the guilt continue to swim around her.

‘L…L, I failed. I failed our children, I failed you.’

She let out a sob before putting her head down, crying for the third time that day. It had been about a week since she buried her two sons next to their father, L, and grandfather, Wammy. Roger had tried to offer support, but it honestly meant nothing to her.

She appreciated the older man, but she needed to go through this process alone.

‘But what about my only surviving son?’

Near’s face flashed in her mind. Her eyes shot open. Suddenly, J became terrified that she’d lose Near next. Her grief and guilt quickly turned to anger. She narrowed her eyes, still crying.

‘No. I may have failed L, Mello and Matt, but I will not fail Near. He needs me now more than ever.’

With newfound definitiveness, she stood and finally turned the sink off. She looked at herself in the mirror. She looked like shit, as one would if they lost their husband and two eldest sons.

There, J made two vows. The first being she would catch Kira, even if it meant she’d lose her life next. It was better than Near dying. J would not allow her only family left to die. She needed to remember L’s take on the case.

Light Yagami. He was the suspect.

‘Light Yagami,’ J growled to herself. ‘I will rip you, and anyone you love, to goddamn shreds. That I vow.’

Light Yagami would feel the same pain J felt. She was sure of it.

#Spotify #L x J #L x self insert #L x oc #near death note #death note mello #death note matt #death note #death note l #l x y/n #l x reader

[minshookie]

All Play, No Work. Pt two

Pairing | CEO!Yoongi x reader

Genre |angst, dark themed, yandere, gore.

Summary | “ Eunji just couldn’t play nice, firing her just wouldn’t be enough.”

!Warnings! 18+, yandere Yoongi, character death, descriptive scenes, murder scene, infidelity.

| this is not in anyway shape or form a true depiction or representation of BTS, this is a work of fiction and is not to be taken seriously. For entertainment purposes only.|

(this is my work, please don’t repost or steal)

Requested [request closed] words 3k

A/N : link to part 1 I hope this is enjoyable!! Unedited but I will edit soon.

“Yoongi, don’t talk so drastically...it was just a joke.” He heaved deeply, gripping the door handle severely. “It can’t be a joke every time y/n she’s done worse before, her and her husband.” Sighing, unsure if it was safe to touch him you put your hand on the handle next to his. “Min, they hate me because you love me, if you want it resolved maybe we should lay low...take something like a break?” Of course you didn’t mean it, but the complications at work were becoming a bit detrimental.

His head turned at lighting speed, with a look of disgust almost. “Break? You can’t be serious don’t ever say something like that again, and I’ll do what I please, we should we hide ourselves she’ll start waking around with her head high like she won.” He let go of the handle leaning against the door looking deeply into you. “I’ll fire her.” You rolled your eyes “Yoongi please she needs to work.” “Stop being so damn sweet, this is the same person that soiled your clothes, cracks jokes about you...she bullies you she should’ve been out of here.” He put his hand in his pocket, checking his watch on his other wrist. “We’re almost done for the day anyway... you go to my place without me I’ll meet you there.” Taking his watch clad hand in yours, you could tell he was still furious.

“Alright if you insist, but what’ll you be doing yoongs?” You attempted to turn the atmosphere playful. “Baby, you insist on disobeying my requests.” Chuckles dryly. “I’ll be talking to Kim, and Lucy.” “Lucy, why?” “I’m giving her Kim’s position, a promotion.” He leans swiftly pecking your cheek before opening the door for you both to exit, not giving you a chance at questioning him further. He follows closely behind all eyes on you, a grimace on Eunji’s features. It’s like you had a fat red target right in the middle of your face. “Actually, why don’t you just head out now.” Yoongi mumbled before leaving your side, quickly heading to his office his fist curled in a rough grip.

You hung your head low like a shy school girl, going to collect your bag and belongings from your cubicle. Only to find Jimin completing the papers you’d left. “Heading home miss Raman booty?” He mumbled without turning, a pen between his teeth, his fingers typing with stealth. “I hate you Jimin.” Laughing he let the pen fall, leaning in the chair finally facing you. “You ok?” You nodded giving a warm smile. “Good, here’s your thousand dollar sack.” He handed you your purse, he’s full of jokes today, you responded with a low chuckle. “Wait before you go, whats the 411 on the bosses mood?” “Mm angry, go in quickly and quietly and leave the same way.” He nodded going back to the computer, “Ah, so not the day for pay increase forms? Gotcha.” You laughed before walking away, ready to be rid of the grimy feeling you were getting from work today.

Avoiding eye contact, you focus on the rythmatic clicking of your pumps until you entered the silver elevator. Leaning against the glass window you watched as you descended through the building. Finally meeting the last floor quickly freeing yourself sighing one more trek to take, that being into the parking garage. Silent and eerie, it oddly relaxed you you found your car quickly. It’s always there right next to Yoongi’s ever since the first day you started.

The thought warmed you, feelings of your boyfriends love floating around you. Hopping in your car you threw the gifted purse in the back seat, just before you could start up your phone rang, Yoongi of course. “Hey Yoongi” ”Ah, you sound happier already.” Reclining your seat you sighed. “I was thinking of you.” He hummed in approval. “Cute, hm I do the same to calm myself...thinking of you of course.” Giggling you responded “reason for calling?” “I wanted to say I love you, and I want you to go straight home.” He orders blandly. “Tsk I wanted to shop a bit.” You joke putting your seat back into position. “Y/n straight home, no questions.” “Yeah I heard you Daddy.” You joked starting your vehicle. “Good, I’ll see you soon, love you...say it back.” “I love you Yoongi, of course.” He sighed softly, checking your surroundings you pulled back waiting for him to hang up. “Alright bye...Jimin get out.” The phone call ended.

Relaxed you drove through your city, it’s a bit later in the day the faces of people passing linger in your mind. A soft tune plays from the radio, resting at a light your eyes wandered to the beagle place Yoongi always insists on getting breakfast from. His friends little hole in the wall. Letting your mind wander, he really is a romantic. Finishing the length of the trip you finally reach your destination, a discreet apartment on the edge of town with a not so discreet price. Reaching for your purse you got out of the car, frankly mentally and physically exhausted. “Mrs min! Welcome back!” You’re warmly greeted at the door, “no still y/l/n,good afternoon.” Warmly you smile thanking him for opening the door, yet another elevator to take you where you needed to be.

On the home stretch, trudging towards the door unlocking it you fumbled inside sighing taking in his scent that floated about. With your eyes closed you dropped your bag shuffling to the couch. Kicking off the shoes you let gravity take over thumping onto the firm furniture. The light jingling, made a smile spread on your lips. “Is that my best boy!?” You opened your eyes, greeted with Min Holly his coffee colored paws giving you pets on your head. “My Beautiful little one.” Kissing him on the temple, and gifting him to a few pets and scratches he was satisfied with your greeting he let you be at rest.

Pulling from the couch, you fulfilled the routine of grabbing a snack and skipping upstairs to shower. Stripping you ventured Yoongi’s bedroom in the nude, in search for the clothes you’d left there. Giving up you opted for a pair of briefs and a t-shirt.

Finishing the shower, you cuddled into bed wallowing on the plush mattress in search of a comforting position, engulfing your senses in Yoongi’s scent. Turing on the tv you rolled over, the bed felt cold without your cuddle baby. “Hmm Holly! C’mere little boy!” Joyously he ran in jumping next to you cuddling into your warm side. “We’ll nap and wait for Daddy huh?”

NOW READING FROM: Yoongi’s point of view.

“Are you sure Min, I mean I’m flattered but I just started about a month ago-” I held up my hand to stop her nervous speech. “I’m positive, I’ve observed your work ethic I’m sure you could keep up Lucy, the pay is great the work is easy....more time to speak to Jungkook hm?” Her cheeks blushed light rose at the mention of his name. “But what about uhm..Eunji?” She spoke of her coworker in hushed tones,like she was some sort of demon.

“Kim Eunji has been polluting our work area, making others feel uncomfortable...and uncomfortable means less work getting done, I’ll see about her don’t worry.” Toying with her manicured fingers, such a shy girl, “so what’s your answer?” She sighed brushing a stray hair behind her ear, “Mr Min, when do I start?” She held a coy smile, slowly looking up to make eye contact. “Ah! Smart girl!” I distributed my hand for her to shake in agreement. “You’ll start Monday, we’ll have it all sorted by then.” Nodding she let go of my hand, “thank you Mr Min.” “Of course Lucy I know I won’t regret it, enjoy your night sorry for keeping you late.” Now almost all of her face had a glow of blush, “oh it’s fine Mr Min I don’t mind I didn’t have anything to do tonight anyways, how a-” “ask Eunji to come in for me please, Good night Lucy thank you.”

Shutting up he gave a quick smile and nod before leaving quicker than she came. Eunji pranced in almost eagerly a subtle smirk playing on her cherry lips. “It’s late Yoongi I have to get home.” “Home to what...a cold shower and empty bed? Come sit.” I smirked as she complied, “what do you want Min...if you’re looking for apologies you wont-” “I just wanted to talk to you.” She shut her painted lips, nodding giving me room to speak.

“You’ve been acting out Kim, and I think I know why.” She folded her arms defensively humming a response. “Oh yeah?” Her cocky tone only deepened my concealed rage. “You’re missing someone, your husband maybe?” She rolled her eyes, poking her tongue along her cheek. “What about it?” She began to toy with the small figurines that decorated my desk. “Well, he misses you too...I’ve made the decision to let you go if you’d like.”

“It isn’t time for him to come back, he’s been on the trip for months.” She mumbles smiling down at a framed picture of Holly. Scoffing I took the image back, “Joon, he likes it there he’s been having issues contacting you so he’s said....but he’s made the choice to transfer and stay at the location.” She looked intensely Into my eyes, confused yet gullible.

“He’s gotten a good place, he wants to move you there...he misses you more than you know, and the way you’ve been acting out of line I think you feel the same.” She huffs, nodding slowly. “Alright, you’ll treat my flight the same you did his?” Greedy little bitch...“yes, paid and full, you’ll be able to contact him at the airport hm?” Finally a soft smile spreads her lips, she huffs a low chuckle. “Really?” “Would you like to see the messages and paperwork?”

In hopes she’d say no I still pulled open the side drawer, a single word held her fate as I gripped the heavy weapon. It would be messy and against the plan if she’d decided to take this route. “No..no, why would you lie about sending me on all expenses paid long term vacation.” I smirked nodding while closing the drawer. “So you’ve agreed to joining him?” Sighing she tamed wisps of her dark hair, raking the back into her loose ponytail.

I pushed the legal paper forward a ballpoint rests atop of it. “When do I leave, do I get a chance to say goodbye?” She mumbles leaving her signature along the dotted spaces. Goodbye? Who would want to farewell a she-demon like you. “I’m afraid not, your flight is scheduled for tomorrow 7AM...you should get home actually.” I checked my timepiece briefly.

She stood silently, “ah ah wait, Eunji...it’s late you’re tired allow me to drive you home.” She furrows her brows, giving a suspicious look. “I’ll miss you Kim, you were one of the first people here you and Namjoon.” She lowered herself in the seat her expression now compassionate.

I didn’t lie, Eunji was exhausted...the bags under her eyes almost frightening. She was once the best dressed, best looking, and best worker here. Jealousy had eaten her, and the absence of her Lover only made her worse. “Ah Min, you won’t miss me...you’re sending me away to protect your little hook up, she moan like I used to?” My cheeks began to redden, “no, her’s are better.” Guilt set in sourly. I lied right to y/n’s face to save my ass.

Kim Eunji had made me a liar, a cheater and a bad businessman...all the more reason for her fate. “Hm, if you say so.....how about we go to your place.” Her smirk detailed more than she’d let on. “One last time.” She’s always been scandalous, she could never learn a lesson, she’d never get enough. She saw an opportunity to finally sink her teeth into what she envied, and sinking her teeth is what she planned on doing.

“Tempting, can’t wait for mr kim huh?” I attempted to participate in her now lustful staring. “Hmm, you won’t make me will you?” I set free a chuckle, letting my fingertips glide my lip. “Your place, we can make it an all night thing...you can bring me to get my car in the morning.” She collected her expensive shoulder bag. “No, y/n is at my place, probably out cold by now....I’ll bring you somewhere with a romantic view, you’ll get back to your car tonight.” She frowned at the mention of her name, pulling her wisps of hair back.

“Fine, but don’t say her name anymore tonight.” Nodding I stood offering a hand to help her up and she refused with a bratty giggle, leaving the office. She removed her heels walking barefoot to the elevator, I paced hot on her trail, finally catching her as she stood idle in the spacious elevator.

The elevator couldn’t reach the final floor fast enough for me, she’d gotten comfortable the guilt of cheating on her husband nonexistent. Sighing in frustration eyeing my watch. She toyed with my fingers leaning against me, “why’d you replace me huh?” She pouted interlocking our fingers, her fridged rings kissed my skin harshly. “Excuse me?” She sighed, “we were messing around and you...found y/n.” I chuckled as the doors pulled open. “You were engaged...nothing more would’ve developed anyway.”

Eunji and I had held countless endeavors right under Namjoon’s nose, flirtatious, casual, sexual. But he was everything but oblivious, he was just lenient until he found out the depth of our friendship. So he decided to test the waters with y/n, it was extremely unacceptable. Eunji was engaged after all, I do have some self respect. I never replaced her, I just found someone I actually loved, someone who needed me and only me.

She only laughed at my reasoning, following me giddily to my car, I opened the passenger and let her inside. I already had her fate planned. She’d been the thorn in y/n’s side ever since she’d started, she’d come running to me in tears over the things Eunji would say...the things she’d do. They treated her like a rag doll the new girl fresh to adulthood, she knew nothing better than to follow and comply.

Eunji was given warning after warning, I hate firing people but for her I’d make an exception. But y/n she’s so sweet...it’ll kill her to know Eunji was walking around jobless because of her sensitivity. So what am I to do? I’ll just make her leave silently...on her own. I’ll make her disappear.

“Where are we going?” She pushed my knee aggressively, I’d zoned out completely roaming my thoughts a dangerous thing to do behind the wheel. Absentmindedly I’d driven past our false “date”, ultimately finding ourselves in the dark. “There is this bridge, it’s romantic y/n loves it.” I fibbed, how much of an idiot could I be...this mishaps could fuck everything I’d planned. I pulled onto said bridge, vacant, thankfully just how I needed it. I turned the car off, in pitch black I could feel her looking at me.

“Huh, what a view.” She quips, “well don’t be ungrateful.” The moment before the fall is always awkward, “hm...recline the seat.” She ordered, I personally didn’t enjoy her tone. I let my seat slowly fall back and she leaned over the center console. Blindly fiddling my pant buckle. Oh shit. Oh no. Waves of guilt washed over me at the simple thought of what she was attempting.

This had to be it, she’d made it to my briefs with ease, trailing her manicured fingers along my member. This had to happen now or the outcome I’d been planning would definitely go to shit. I put an end to her exploration, gripping the back of her neck with great force she mewled like a harmed animal. “F-fuck Min, feeling rough?”

No way would this be easy or clean in the car. “Shut up.” I gritted, now griping her hair making her whine and cry out. “P-please wait.” “What the fuck did I say?” Opening my door I pulled her from the car on my side. This needed to be quick and clean, this bridge was all too public and constantly frequented for me to be leaving a messy scene on.

What smart girl, she tried to escape only to be pained by my iron grip on her mane. “Why so scared...you wanted me right?” “M-m-Min! Please I’m sorry, tell her I’m sorry...sorry-so sorry.” I kicked the pit of her knee causing her to collapse on the cold gravel. “One sorry Bitch you are, I couldn’t even pay you to keep your mouth shut.”

“Think of all you did to that innocent woman...ruined her clothes, sent her on wild goose chases in a county she’s never been in, made her fall down the stairs, turned half the office against her...so evil you even made your sleazy husband her personal predator.” She sobbed pathetically, “w-what....he did-wait?” Of course she was unaware as any idiot would be.

I knelt mumbling in her ear. “He touched my fucking girlfriend for months on end...She was so ashamed do you know how much it took for her to come and tell me?” She gagged on her sobs, choking herself on her cries. “I’m sorry, I’ll quit I’ll leave-no need to do this I’ll be gone by tomorrow.”

She whispers letting her body go limp. She thinks it’s so easy. “You sure will.” I grumbled reaching to pull my tie from my back pocket. “You can’t do shit to me- Joon- Joon will be lo-” “Joon his fucking dead. This right here.” I kicked her down pressing my foot into her soft back, to keep her still. She struggled to breath with my weight on her back, I crouch looping the long tie around her neck she ceased from fighting back as I wrapped it around my hands as well. Pulling with my angered strength, “this is the fucking business trip...enjoy the flight whore.”

She stoped struggling all together, pulling the fabric as tight as I could, I made sure the deed was done. She quit breathing, the ceased the struggle. Violently making sure she was gone, before I stored her in the trunk. My hands shook, the rush made my figure quake, I did my best to climb into the drivers seat.

Starting the car, it’s best in mind to flee as fast as I arrived. He’ll be pissed to high heaven, but at this moment theirs only one person to call. I scanned the road feeling beyond the edge, unsure of my final destination. Finally he felt the need to answer “Min, Min Yoongi-ah it is too late to be calling me this way!” He croaked through the phone .

“Jimin, hm a bonus?” “Excuse me?” He shuffled, I couldn’t continue to circle around here “Jimin...I need your help.” I groaned, I’d have to find somewhere to go before someone saw me driving suspiciously. “I’ve made another mistake....a messy one.” He gasped before mumbling complaints. “Why,Who and how much?” He grumbled, “meet me and I’ll let you know that.” “You know where to find me.” When all else fails, Jimin is the one to call. Partner in crime, cheater of justice and death.

NOW READING FROM : readers point of view.

Fear rolled over you as you came to the realization that is was almost 5 AM and Yoongi wasn’t in bed. Holly still occupied his spot, sprawled out in pure comfort. Enjoying the luxury of sleeping in the big bed.

Rubbing sleep from your eyes you shuffled your feet along the chilly floor, slipping in Yoongi’s slippers to adventure to the bathroom. You’d have to be back at work in some hours, Yoongi as well. It’s never like him to be late. After reliving yourself, washing up you’d realized the dryness of your mouth.

Aiding the feeling you took the trip downstairs, Holly’s paws hot on ur heels. “You thirsty too?” Rhetorically you questioned setting his dish for him, and grabbing a water for yourself, drinking it almost instantly. “You’ll get sick that way kitten.”

You choked in response, spitting the water onto the marbled counter. “What the fuck Yoongi, where’ve you been?” You spoke into the darkness, you didn’t hear him come in, maybe he was already home. “After I cleared some things up at work, Jimin and I had to...do some heavy work.” His voice held a quiver, unsure if it was of sadness or fear, maybe even anger.

“Ah well....come out of the dark, come over here.” You closed the the water, Holly had already met him in the living room. He neared, his features being shown from the glow of the kitchen lights. “Here, c’mon.” You sat on the island, back to him.

Something was off...he was hiding something, he was moving strangely with his words and actions. He came, leaving Holly on the floor he centers between your legs. Leaning on his palms on either side of you, “my shirt, my slippers, dressing up as me today?” You gave a soft smirk, “when’d you change?”

“At Jimin’s the work was messy.” “Ah...what’s that on your lip?” Taking your nail, you scrapped the flake of red from his top lip. “Been kissing other ladies...ladies in cheap red lipstick?” You giggled. His face ran pale at your joke, “n-no probably from Parks food, we were hungry.” You gazed in his eyes, “what’d you eat?” “Why?” Sighing you blew it off, “no reason, just curious...how’d it go with Eunji.”

He sighed leaned forward on the counter to stretch his back. It’s then when you caught a glimpse of something odd. “There was a struggle, but it’s all over now.” You held his shoulders, stopping him from moving back up, “Yoongi, you have this stuff all in your hair, where were you?” You brushed the stubborn dried substance with your fingers. “All on your neck.” You groomed him awaiting his answer. “Painting at Jimin’s.” Overpowering you he stood to his height.

You didn’t believe him, how could you? What paint job takes that long? How could it get on his hair? Down his neck? On his lips...nose as well? “I’m going to bed, kiss.” He pecked my cheek moving from my legs, Holly followed his escape. “Oh, and Jimin’s buddy gonna look at my car for a while I had to clean it out...left your lipstick.” He threw the tube for you to catch, it fell in your clutches.

“Yoongi, stop...where’d you get this?” “In the car, it’s yours baby.” He stood stiff on the stairs not turning around. “No, it’s not I can’t wear this...it fucks up my lips, I’m allergic.”

“It was Kim’s huh? You were out doing what you said you didn’t.” He turned glaring sinisterly. “I was out doing what I should’ve a while ago.”

You scoffed, he’s unbelievable, how could he. You’d began to plan your breakdown, how you’d destroy his home in a fit of rage. He’d cheated, lied, and didn’t care. “Kim Eunji and Kim Namjoon are dead.” He shared coldly, “any more questions miss curiosity?”

“No? Good now come up and clean me.”

In utter shock, you shook on top of the kitchen island. He’d made his way to the shower quickly, you heard the faint sprinkling. Sliding from your seat, in fear you followed his orders “now my love...don’t be afraid of me I do all things for you out of love.”

Minshookie 2021 | Not my image

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[drakenology]

A B C’s with Todoroki Shoto.

hiii! so I got this little idea while leisurely scrolling through bnha smut. idk if this creator is the originator of the trend but I wanna give credit anyways so shout out to @nillabeam​ for inspiring me to drabble on and on about my shoto doin the dirty. 

warnings: smut (obvi so 18+ please), slight daddy kink, all characters are aged up, and some swearing cause I feel like it. 

enjoy my little heathens!

A- Aftercare

Oh don’t be fooled by Todo’s calm and stoic demeanor. He is fucking insatiable in bed. 

But after a long night of ravishing you until you’re drunk on his cock, he’ll run you both a bath to soak your muscles in and relax.

Would help you in and out of the bath as he washed you up, rinsing your back for you. 

He’d leave kisses where he left harsh hickies. 

Would tell you how much he loved you, and gush about how delicate and pretty you were. EEK!!

B- Body Part 

He loved your breasts. 

You would often catch him staring at them as you talked to him, earning a stern look on your face to remind him to pay attention to you.

Would fuck you on your back just to watch them bounce and jiggle around 

He felt like your boobs were always so happy to see him, perking up when he would grab them. 

Would kiss them during sex and loves playing and sucking on them. 

Most of your hickies were all over them 

As for his own body, He really likes how toned and strong his arms got. 

He wants to protect you, so he got stronger so he can beat people up for you if he needed to. aww how sweet. 

C- Cum

He cums all over his favorite part of your body (see B). 

He also likes to cum inside you, cause he’s got a small teeny weeny breeding kink. 

You always cum first.. like it’s mandatory. He simply can’t bring himself to do it knowing you haven’t had your fill. 

When you go down on him thoooooo..

He loved to cum all over your pretty face. He always thought you looked gorgeous painted in his cum. 

He’d kiss your lips after you gave him head if a little bit of his hot cum was still on your mouth. 

D- Dirty Secret

As I said, Todoroki was a stoic and cool person out in public. 

He didn’t appear to be as sexually savant as he is 

but BABY

I’m tellin you, in the bedroom Todo is a beast. 

He really liked being called daddy.

It was something about watching your cute little face twist in pleasure whine and beg for him to fuck you. 

“Address me right, princess.” ASDGFJKF

HUGE daddy kink, da fuqq.

E- Experience 

eh.. some.

He had another girlfriend before you; some girl Endeavor set him up with. She cheated on him. 

but yeah.. my baby knows what he’s doing.

He loved showing you his moves. Watching your amazed and fucked out face was his favorite part of fucking you. 

F- Favorite Position

He loved them all tbh. 

He liked to experiment with a lot of different positions, getting bored pretty quickly.

But his tried and true is missionary.

He got to watch your face react to his every maneuver, kiss your neck to mark you up as his territory as he whispers in your ear sweet praises 

“Good girl, kitten.” “So good for me.” “You feel so good, baby”

Also your luscious breasts were front and center for him to stare at as he pounds you ooooooooo. 

G- Goofy

Yeah soo.. Shoto is a little serious. A little too serious in fact. 

Once when you two were making out he lifted you up, trying to carry you into your room as he bumped your head on the door frame. 

God it was like you were on life support or something

He apologized a million times, blaming himself as if he severely hurt you. 

You just giggle and kiss him in hopes it’ll shut him up and calm his worrying. You knew it was just an accident. 

H- Hair

He kept himself pretty trim, not really liking having a lot of hair on his body, for the exception of his arms and legs. He couldn’t help that he was a hairy guy (I imagine Endeavor being a lil hairy under his hero costume soo genetics?)

I- Intimacy

 he’s such a hopeless romantic it’s adorable.

he dotes on you the whole time, ensuring he’s not hurting you too much 

would kiss you over and over again

wants to you be comfortable at all times. 

in moments like these you’re the only thing that matters. 

J- Jack off

If for whatever reason he’s away, he always calls you. 

“I need you baby, what are you wearing right now?” He’ll ask, no matter if he’s in an important meeting or away on business, if he’s horny he’s horny.

Needs your voice to help him through his orgasm. 

Loves to facetime when he’s away so he can see your face and your body. 

“Yes, god Y/N you’re so perfect. Bend over for me.. yes..” He groaned, sloppily palming away at his length as he comes to his climax.

K- Kink

he’s got a lot sksksns

definitely a fucking dom

loves telling you what to do, always calling the shots in bed most of the time

Loves pet names, “baby girl” “kitten” “princess” 

overstimulates you sometimes just to see you squirm under him, the sick bastard. 

high key a sadist.. he’ll never openly admit to that tho

L- Location 

anywhere, surprisingly. 

If you two were out with friends and he felt an urge to taste you, he’d simply say you two are going to the car to get something, only to start having sex with you in the back seat. 

Fucks you in his office

Fucked you in his childhood bedroom once as a fuck you to his father. haha.

down for whateva.

M- Motivation

one thing that always got him going was you acting coy. Like you don’t know that what you’re doing is turning him on. 

You lean a little more, your blouse unbuttoned so he can see your ample cleavage. 

“What do you mean, Sho?” You bat your eyelashes, smirking at him as you watch his face turn red. 

“Fuck Y/N, don’t be cute. You’ll be sorry when we get home.” He would hiss at you, secretly not wanting you to stop teasing him.

He loved your sexy ass.

N-No 

he hated excessive hitting or pain play.

he was always too scared to hurt you, knowing he could by mistake at any given point. 

he just won’t hit you.. so don’t ask.

O- Oral

he loved sloppy, degrading head from you. 

fucks your throat sometimes, loves hearing you gag. 

when he gives you head though, he’s relentless.

he wont stop until your sobbing, begging him to fill you as he ate you out, shallowly fingering you with one finger to make you.

“Aw.. look at you. So desperate. You want me inside you, kitten?” UGHHH

P- Pace

depends on the situation or what mood he’s in. 

when he’s making love to you, his pace is slow and methodical, wanting to savor the moment

however when you’ve been bad... FUCK

he’s gonna pound you into the mattress until you’re a fucked out mess underneath him, begging him to slow down so you can catch you breath

“Don’t cry now, princess. You had so much mouth earlier.” He would mock you, smirking at your weakened state. Yall I-

Q- Quickies

as much as he loved taking his time with you, quickies were something that were quite vital for you two.

Shoto was always busy with something as he always kept himself occupied to provide for you two. 

Whenever the opportunity arises, you two strike while the iron’s hot

R- Risk 

Shoto likes to explore every aspect of sex, so that leaves for lots of room for exploration.

Finding new spots to touch and lick and suck on. 

He loved taking risks if it meant he got to listen to your sweet moans. 

S- Stamina

uhm.. yes. 

he had a fuck ton, you often cumming multiple times before he did. 

“I hope you’re not tapping out on me. I’m not through with you yet.” He would coo to you, urging you to yet another orgasm. 

he almost felt bad for you, as you twitch and shake overstimulated from his stamina being filled to the goddamn brim. 

T- Toys

he used them on you a lot.

loved little bullet vibrators, they were so handy in helping him send you into a frenzy. 

one night he had made you squirt when he used one on you as he fucked you senseless. 

“Ooh I know you’ve got some more in there for me, kitten. Be a good girl and do that again.” 

he also liked to watch you fuck yourself with a dildo. 

he found it pretty easy to degrade you as he watched you try mimic his thrusts with it. 

“You wish that was me don’t you, kitten? Too bad.” 

U- Unfair 

he totally LOVES teasing you

in public especially, loving to see you flustered and speechless as you try and talk to others. 

“What’s wrong, princess? You seem a little hot.” He’d say, caressing your inner thigh under the table at dinner. 

V- Volume

todo isn’t very loud in bed.

he’ll grunt and groan against your skin has he fucked you 

definitely cussing a lot under his breath and whispering praises or obscenities in your ear as he took you. 

“Ugh..baby. You feel so good.” “You’re mine..all mine.” “Shit, you’re so wet.”

W- Wild Card!!!

todoroki’s favorite memory of one of your ventures was when he had you bent over the kitchen sink. he didn’t think you could cum that hard around him, the feelings almost sending him into his own release.

he loved when you wore dresses to give him easy access to your pussy. 

loved fucking you in them, something about pulling it up to reveal you cheeky little panties made him feral. 

X- X-Ray

todoroki is PACKIN okay? 

i don’t imagine him being extra long, but he had really nice girth

still to this day you’re left speechless when he pulls that glizzy out his boxers. 

Y-Yearning

shoto loves you.. like a lot.

everything you do kinda sends him into a frenzy, wanting you right then and there. 

he wants sex pretty much all the time, I think the only time he’s not horny is when he’s working. 

Z- Zzz

you always fell asleep first, being that shoto wears you the fuck out

he liked to watch you sleep, leaving soft kisses all over your face. 

“I love you, Y/N.” He’d whisper, holding you close as he drifted off to sleep with you. AWWWW 

whew this shit took longer than I thought. hope yall liked this. i’m finally starting to write about more characters other than my baby daddy katsuki. bye! 

#bnha smut #bnha headcanons #bnha fanfiction #bnha todoroki x reader #bnha todoroki #bnha midoriya x reader #bnha midoriya #bnha bakugo katsuki #bnha bakugou #bnha bakugo x reader #bnha imagines #bnha x reader

[soup-du-silence]

If you are comfortable with it, I'd love to hear your critiques of the finale, ESPECIALLY with how they handled Webby and Lena's final interactions with each other. I'm seeing you talk about it a bit on twitter, and I'm vigorously nodding my head to much of what you and others are criticizing the finale for. Obviously, if you'd rather just ignore this whole fiasco, I completely understand, and I look forward to the stories you continue to make about Webby and Lena!

god. okay.

ducktales spoilers below

SPECIFICALLY the weird webby and lena moments -- Lena calling team magic sisters and Webby snapping at Lena for her strong reaction to getting her string on the board cut -- mean absolutely nothing to me. i simply reject them. i dont know where they came from. Lena and Webby havent called each other sisters since their first episode together. It feels...unlike Webby to snub a Lena apology like that.  

And then they didnt really....interact again much, after that, right? unless im forgetting. there was a lot to be mad about.

and I guess, like. Here’s the thing. aside from some really powerful moments in season 2, the romantic subtext surrounding webby and lena was EXTREMELY dialed back. we had Lena’s hyper-powered jealous freak out in friendship hates magic and...what Ive always counted as an indirect kiss in nightmare on killmotor hill, but there were no more leslie-knopisms. Far less of Webby waxing poetic about lena’s virtues. Adding Violet meant less shared capital-L Looks or hugs or hand holds. So By the time season 2 wrapped up and a lot of that stuff wasnt as apparent, and they never bothered mentioning Lena ONCE before she came back, it became kind of clear that this was not a thing that was happening any more.

Then we got Penny’s “outing” which was not at all an outing. And seeing that penny not wanting to date earth men was a “compromise” that needed to be “fought for” really nailed that coffin shut for me. If we couldn’t get an openly wlw totally original tertiary character, we weren’t going to get it from Webby.

I dont know if they got unhappy executive notes about season 1 or if there was someone around championing the relationship early in production who left to work on other things, or if they just decided it wasnt important, but any hope held out for it after late season 2 was just me being delusional. I wanted to believe, I really did.

maybe I was delusional all along. Had my shipping goggles on. I dont know. I mean, it happens. it wouldnt be the first time and it wont be the last. 

I just really, REALLY wanted it, you know?

we couldnt have gotten like...one last ...something? Something just for them, to harken back to the energy they had in season 1?

sigh.

i havent written in a long time because i dont really have any stories left to tell, but I do brainstorm many projects with PCS. while I, and especially he, have often taken canon reveals in stride (when he first started writing Longest Shadows, we did not yet know about Violet. He was able to add her in fairly seamlessly, i think) I dont think we’ll be paying attention to any of this, ESPECIALLY some shit about Webby being Scrooge’s clone. (dumb dumb stupid dumb) I mean, you can ask him about it, but I know we’ve already shared some choice words, lol. Even if I operate under the assumption that the clone thing is and has been true all along, I’ll simply be working in a universe where it never came to light.

i can’t believe we would take this story about found family and make it about genetics in the 11th hour. what the holy fucking fuck is this nonsense. ugh.

I dont want to say I cant believe i wasted the last 5 years of my life on ducktales, because I didnt. It meant a lot to me. I had a lot of fun, i met some really awesome people, and in particular one person I can count among my very best friends in the whole world. so it wasnt a waste. And im not going to go on one of these weird tirades against frank where I try to hold him accountable for my emotional damages or whatever because Im an adult and not delusional. Thats the story he wanted to tell, for some reason I will never understand. We’re going to keep writing and daydreaming our own. And maybe, if Im lucky, I’ll live long enough to see the next reboot headed by some queer kid who grew up seeing themself in little baby gay webby vanderquack and makes it canon. N...not that we need another reboot. But i would watch that one. Just saying.

#ducktales #ducktales spoilers #weblena #Anonymous

[burnedbyshoto]

m a s t e r l i s t (n - z)

updated: 9/27/2020

▹ - sfw

▸ - nsfw

notes: this list is put in alphabetical order by last name and then from oldest to most recent fic. please do not judge any of the older pieces too harshly as they were pretty bad! as of january 2020, drabbles will no longer be added to masterlist.

this is the masterlist for characters with last names n - z

masterlist for characters with last names a - m

do not repost any of my fics without permission.

sero hanta

▸ pocky challenge — kinktober day 10 (scenario)

▸▹ alphabet hc’s — nsfw and sfw alphabet (hc)

▹ colors — you can see peoples colorful auras (scenario)

shigaraki tomura

▹ kitty cat — shigaraki is a cat hybrid with a rash (hc)

▸ ready player one — kinktober day 5 (scenario)

▸ ahegao face — his reaction to your ahegao face (drabble)

▸ power — you were known to bring powerful men to their knees (scenario)

shindou yo

▸ twice — kinktober day 30 (drabble)

shinsou hitoshi

▸ cat lingerie — shinsou catches you in cat shaped lingerie (hc)

▹ ignored — in which he doesn’t acknowledge you anymore (drabble)

▹ don’t do this — being a hero means making hard calls (drabble)

▹ blood — please don’t close your eyes (drabble)

▸ torture threesome — in which shinsou is your third with bakugou (drabble)

▹ soulmate shit — you two just can’t be seperated can you (drabble)

▸ fantasy — you’re hot and you flaunt it (drabble)

▹ heartbreak — shinsou’s hiding a secret from you (drabble)

▸ here, kitty, kitty — kinktober day 9 (scenario)

▸ trust — kinktober day 25 (scenario)

▸ dom!shinsou — what’s he into when he doms (hc)

▸ orgies — more todobakukiri now with shinsou action (hc)

▸ scarves — using a capturing weapon in bed is a thing (drabble)

▹ study dates — studying with shinsou is always a trip (drabble)

▹ distractions — you can never focus when you study with him (drabble)

▸ jealous — when men touch you, shinsou gets jealous (drabble)

▸ sensei — being a pro hero means having a will of steel, too bad for shinsou that will of steel has one major kryptonite: a schoolgirls skirt. (scenario)

takami keigo (hawks)

▸ situational — you two are stuck together and tension rises (drabble)

▹ phoenix — you have a quirk that gives you the hero name phoenix (hc)

▸ caught in the act — kinktober day 15 (scenario)

▸ heats — how takami is during his heats (drabble)

▸ his ahegao — you react to his ahegao face (hc)

▸ ahegao face — takami reacts to your ahegao face (hc)

▸ overstimulation — how he overstimulates you (hc)

▸▹ alphabet hc’s — nsfw and sfw alphabet (hc)

▸ booty — slap his ass (drabble)

▸ dorm room — in which takami sneaks into your dorm room (drabble)

▹ asexual — he finds out you’re asexual (hc)

▸▹ dating — hc’s for dating takami (hc)

▹ because I love you — he broke up with you to save you, but he still wants you (scenario)

▹ frosting mishaps — baking with takami is disastrous as always (scenario)

▹ do you trust me — will you take the birds hand or die? (drabble)

takeyama yu (mt. lady)

▸ lingerie dreams — kinktober day 21 (scenario)

todoroki enji (endeavor)

▸ seven — rich and powerful men can marry seven different women in a wild attempt to produce the perfect heir. todoroki enji is one of these powerful men, and you’re his seventh bride. (scenario)

todoroki touya dabi

▹ stronger than you — dabi is a dad now and his son is just like him (scenario)

▸ dominate him — you’re a lady in the sheets and a freak in the sheets (hc)

▸ werewolf lover — they’re horny and you’re asexual (hc)

▹ stay in bed — dabi doesn’t want to let you go in the morning (drabble)

▹ wedding date — youre desperate for a date, and dabi wants a kiss (drabble)

▸ louder — make dabi a subby bitch (hc)

▹ 2 am call — you need dabi at two in the morning (drabble)

▹ laughter — dabi’s laugh is not cute but thats okay (drabble)

▸ scream my name — dabi won’t stop until you’re screaming (drabble)

▸ add another — how many fingers will fit in you (drabble)

▸ blindfolds — with no sight you sit and wait (drabble)

▹ glass doors — you run into a glass door (drabble)

▸ no boundaries — dabi will fuck you anywhere no matter the mood (drabble)

▹ you missed — getting stuck in a closet is always weird (drabble)

▸ 4 times dabi wanted you; 1 time he got you — kinktober day 1 (scenario)

▸ piercings — what piercings does he have? (hc)

▸ ahegao face — dabi reacts to your ahegao face (hc)

▸ size — dabi with a size kink (hc)

▹ happy birthday — sometimes dabi just needs a hug (drabble)

todoroki natsuo

▹ todoroki-sensei — todoroki natsuo is an esteemed trauma surgeon, and you’re the volunteer that won’t leave his mind (scenario)

▸ study breaks — natsuo needs a break and you’ll give him one (drabble)

▸ mamihlapinatapai — mamihlapinatapai: the wordless yet meaningful look shared by two people who desire to initiate something, but are both reluctant to start. (scenario)

todoroki shouto

▹ strawberry milk and watermelon seeds — first piece on tumblr (scenario)

▹ childhood lover — going from childhood friends to lovers (hc)

▹ seven days late -  part two— shouto leaves for seven days and has nothing to say for it (scenario) 

▹ sleeping — how the two of you sleep together (hc)

▹ not ready — shouto reveals the horrors of his childhood (scenario)

▹ welcome home: the series — part one  part two  part three  part four  part five the adventures of your family with shouto and your baby, kaito. (scenarios)

▹ captured — in which youre captured by villains and chaos starts (hc)

▸ and they were roommates: the series — part one  part two  part three modern!au. there are many issues when getting a new roommate. you just never expected your issue would be fucking your hot roommate every chance you had (scenario)

▹ i love you? — shouto realizes he’s in love with you and needs help (hc)

▹ lip synch queen — you enjoy lip synching songs to shouto (hc)

▹ I think I’m pregnant — you believe you’re pregnant with your ex’s baby (hc)

▹ meeting the todorokis — shouto introduces you to his family finally (scenario)

▹ concerts and songs — shouto takes you on a date to a concert (scenario)

▹ staying home — you like to stay home and thats okay (scenario)

▸ I hate you - part two — shouto is a villain and you’re the one he’s after (scenario)

▹ gone for too long — long distance relationships suck sometimes (scenario)

▹ hollow — youre an assassian; shouto is your target (hc)

▸ dominate him — you’re a lady in the sheets and a freak in the sheets (hc)

▸ my girl — jealous lovers and work don’t mix (scenario) part two

▹ drinks — shouto is upset and you are on the receiving end (drabble)

▹ confessions — you’re dying and you have to confess (drabble)

▹ come back — shouto doesn’t want to leave the bed (drabble)

▸ fuckboy — in which shouto is a fuckboy and you’re his target (drabble)

▹ dumbass — you threaten shouto with a good time (drabble)

▹ you never came — shouto never shows up to a date (drabble)

▹ apologies — shouto apologizes for being mean (drabble)

▹ hold me — shouto’s quirks come in handy to keep warm or cold (drabble)

▹ what’s happening — shouto bangs his head really hard (drabble)

▸ broken hopes — makeup sex is bittersweet (drabble)

▸ dirty talk — you help shouto improve his dirty talk (drabble)

▸ spring showers — bodies slick with rain, lips dancing with passion (oneshot)

▹ sickness and affliction — shouto burns you (scenario)         part two  alt ending  actual fluff ending

▹ believe in me — all you want is for shouto to believe in you the same way he believes in momo (scenario)

▸ body swap — you trade bodies with shouto, hormones ensue (drabble)

▸ shut up — shouto fucks you on the common room couch (drabble)

▹ tsundere — you’re a bit of a tsundere (hc)

▹ done — theres always bitterness in cheating (drabble)

▹ my heart — shouto is a fighter and youre the girl who cant watch him dance with death anymore (drabble)

▸ like ice — you’re as cold as ice and shouto has to warm you up ;) (scenario)

▹ cupcakes — you make cupcakes with shouto (hc)

▹ gone — youre gone and shouto is not okay (drabble)

▹ drinking — you get drunk with shouto (hc)

▹ phoenix — you have a quirk that gives you the hero name phoenix (hc)

▸ awaken — kinktober day 4 (scenario)

▹ faint — you wont let shouto die, not now (drabble)

▹ trust me — kissing a pretty girl is always a good distraction (drabble)

▸ orders — shouto orders you to touch yourself (drabble)

▹ ships — you make a cardboard ship with shouto (drabble)

▹ because of you — shouto gives a lovely speech about you (scenario)

▸ attraction — kinktober day 27 (scenario)

▸ sugar daddy — shouto as your sugar daddy (hc)

▹ of love and flowers — you’re in love with shouto, but is it a tragedy? (scenario)

▸ usagi and hito — kinktober day 31 (scenario)

▸ foursome — todobakukiri foursome (hc)

▸ sub — how he is as a sub (hc)

▸ ahegao face — how he reacts to your ahegao face (hc)

▸ orgies — more todobakukiri now with shinsou action (hc)

▹ happiness: the series — soulmates have the name of their other half inked on their wrists on the youngest eighteenth birthday, but why is yours rejecting you?            happiness part one  bravado part two  amelioration part three

▸▹ alphabet hc’s — nsfw and sfw alphabet (hc)

▹ marshmallow kisses — roasting marshmallows with shouto (scenario)

▹ fools — shouto is in love with you, but no one wants to confess (scenario)

▸ bathtub memories — you masturbate to an old memory (scenario)

▸ under the mistletoe — the mistletoe tradition is known by all, and if used correctly it can end in a sweet moment. too bad shouto believes that people fuck under the mistletoe and not kiss under it.

▹ distractions — you can never focus when you study with him (drabble)

▹ tortillas — you use shouto to make tortillas (drabble)

▹ writers block — you have writers block and shouto comforts you (scenario)

▹ replacement — momo dies and you and shouto try healing together (scenario)             renewed part two

▹ love letters — shouto writes a letter for every day the two of you are together (scenario)

▹ fifteen kisses — fourteen different kisses you give shouto; the one different kiss he gives you (scenario)

▹ exchange — shouto would do anything for you, even dying for you (drabble)

▸ desperate — shouto takes teasing to the extreme (drabble)

▹ too late — shoutos realization is too late (drabble)

▸ please leave — you wake up to see pro heroes shouto and ground zero naked in your bedroom (drabble)

▸ house sitting & concupcience — in which Endeavor asks Shouto for a favor, and Shouto decides to take his payment by fucking you on his bed. 

▸ winner takes it all — shouto wins a contest where the grand prize is getting to have you sit on his face.

▹ memories — shouto loses his memories, and you can’t do anything but watch as your world falls apart.

▸ wall fucks — shouto fucks you against a wall in endeavors agency.

▸ seven minutes — shouto signs up to have anonymous sex; you’re the lucky bitch who gets him. 

▹ a brush of luck — in a world where soulmates exist you can communicate yours with a brush of a pen. It just doesn’t help that you are a certified idiot with a skill in misplacing things. 

▸ forehead fantasies — you can’t help but fantasize on your boyfriend’s forehead that always remains hidden.  

▹ pay attention to me — you want shouto’s attention, but he’s a bit too occupied with trivial things. 

▹ shallow or deep — “why would you want a guy with such a large and disgusting burn?” he whispered, his tone thoroughly rejected, broken. it was then that it hit you: did he think he wasn’t good enough for you?

▹ model-worthy — sleepy mornings in with shouto.

▸ deception — “don’t you see what he’s doing to you?! he’s hurt you way more than what’s acceptable in a sparring march! you’re bruised and hurting, and he sure as hell doesn’t seem to care that this is the state he’s left you in.” — or in which, hawks manipulates how you view your boyfriend, shouto.

▸ aphrodite — “aphrodite is just a stage name, but the persona is still you. you might be a total dork, but the person you think you present has always been apart of you.” — or, in which pro hero shouto falls in love with a dominatrix cam girl, only to find out that she’s quite a weirdo in real life.

▹ eternal love — a simple love story between a tattoo artist and a flower shop owner.

▸ taoreta — the world is in ruins, but there’s beauty in everything. shouto is reminded of that when he crosses paths with a survivor who kisses him at the first meeting. 

▹ strawberry milk and strawberry milk (rewritten) — how to get through the worst summer heat: have a sweet drink, eat sweet fruit, and have someone with the sweetest kiss around.

▹ before you go — before you go, tell me this meant something to you.

▸ hole in the wall — in a party for the ages, Shouto comes across a room with holes in the wall that has him coming back for more. 

togata mirio

▸ teasing — touching yourself means teasing mirio (drabble)

▹ dead — you died and now mirio can’t live (drabble)

▸ until the last one comes — kinktober day 7 (scenario)

▸ ahegao face — how he reacts to your ahegao face (hc)

▹ sunflower — mirio tries figuring out a nickname for you (oneshot)

▸ the big three — they want you (hc)

▹ asexual — he finds out you’re asexual (hc)

▸ itadakimasu — mirio always says one thing before eating, yes that includes you (drabble)

▸ doggy style — mirio fucks you good (hc)

▹ christmas morning — mirio gives you a wonderful christmas morning (scenario)

▸ unbreakable — mirios afraid to hurt you, but you want more (drabble)

▹ soulmates — soulmates don’t exist, but mirio thinks youre his (drabble)

toyomitsu taishiro (fatgum)

▸▹ alphabet hc’s — nsfw and sfw alphabet (hc)

▹ mornings after — taishiro always knows how to make mornings the best

uraraka ochako

▸▹ villain uraraka hc’s — nsfw and sfw alphabet (hc) 

usagiyama rumi

▹ that final phone call — miruko is one tough rabbit, but eventually even the toughest of people need a helping hand. (scenario)

utsushimi camie

▹ home for the holidays — camie meets your family (scenario)

yagi toshinori (all might)

▹ years — youre sir’s sister who was in love with all might for years (drabble)

yamada hizashi

▹ back off — even aizawa is prone to jealousy (scenario)

▹ ice skating — you go on an ice skating date with hizashi (scenario)

▹ swimsuit tops — losing your bikini top is never a good memory (scenario)

▹ sweater — you lost you sweater, you wonders who has it (drabble)

▹ laughter — hizashi has never heard you laugh before (drabble)

▹ under the mistletoe — holidays are for lovers, and you’re married (scenario)

▸ sexy times — just some headcanons (hc)

yaoyorozu momo

▸ never have I ever — kinktober day 11 (scenario)

yoarashi inasa

▹ passion, passion, and more passion — childhood friends to lovers (hc)

▸ too hot — you play a game where you’re only allowed to kiss (drabble)

▹ laughter — inasa’s laughter is loud and contagious and you love it (drabble)

▸ sensitive — inasa exploits your sensitive nipples (drabble)

▹ pounce! — inasa jumps on you (drabble)

▹ stay warm — please don’t pass out, please don’t... (drabble)

▸ fantasy — you make his wildest dream come true (drabble)

▸ bday fun — you let inasa have fun on his birthday (drabble)

▸ high sex — high sex with inasa includes (hc)

#masterlist #burnedbyshoto masterlist

[bakugos-number-one-bitch]

“The Confession.”

~{Ciel Phtomhive x Reader}~

~{Extra: Fluff (Confessions). Apologies if my Ciel is out of character. Headcannons at the end.}~

Considering the fact you so easily Found out Sebastian wasn’t a human, But in fact a Demon Butler. Ciel had ordered for you stay stay at his Manner so you wouldn’t dare tell a soul. but its not like you had any interest in telling anyone, you knew it was important to keep it secret anyways. Honestly, you rather.. disliked Ciel and Sebastian for a bit while you stayed. But the longer you where there it was like you now chose to stay there, you had even developed feelings for the master, Ciel obviously, in which you though you knew wouldn’t be returned, But little did you know.. Ciel had indeed felt the same way. 

‘Today is the day’

Ciel thought, he didn't show it much, but like stated before, he indeed felt the same way about you and cared deeply for you. You where sometimes just as clumsy as Mey-Rin, but you had a more controlled balance normally, but today was one of those days.. you're just as clumsy as Mey-rin today if not clumsier. you where trying to rush to finish your duties as you woke up slightly later than usual, but that’s where your second incident happened. you tripped and fell, accidently tackling Ciel who you meant to get past instead of tackling him to the ground with you. The master groaned as he hit the ground with force, You had gasped as you sat up and you quickly got up to help The earl up.

“I’m so sorry, Ciel! I’m so so sorry for my Clumsiness Today..”

You apologized numerous times, Slightly annoying Ciel.. A sigh escaped his lips as he rubbed his forehead, which he smacked on the ground when you tripped him by accident,

“Stop apologizing so much Y/N.. its annoying..”

You nodded as he spoke, giving you a demand, but still had a concerned and worried look plastered on your face

“Ugh.. Come to my Study in 5 minutes.. I need to talk to you about.. Something.”

Your face heated up a bit, a light blush spreading across your cheeks.

“Yes, my lord.”

He grinned every so slightly and continued walking to his study.

A good 5 minutes later you knocked on the door to his study

“Who is it?”

The boys voice asked, His tone seemed distracted.

“Y/N, my lord.”

“Come in..”

He spoke with a sigh as you walked in, gently closing the door behind yourself

“By the way Y/N.. Its Ciel to you, not ‘My Lord’ or whatever..”

He mumbled, but you still where able to make out what he said

“Right.. Ciel.. You wanted to talk to me?..”

You said and felt yourself become worried as you couldnt help but think he was getting rid of you, or telling you, you weren’t doing a good job, but what he actually said shocked you and made your face heat up. He confessed, his tone while doing so was sweeter than usual, even though it still had his usual stubborn and honestly slightly bratty tone a bit.

“I.. l-.. Ciel.. I will not lie to you..Ah.. that was a bad choice of words heh.. erm.. I like you.. too..”

You said, and looked at the ground, being a bright red, being flustered and embarrassed.

“Its about time.. it was so Painfully obvious you too like each other..”

A deeper voice spoke. it was Sebastian Dropping off Ciels tea.

“Sebastian!! I told you to knock when it was done!!!”

Ciel quickly responded, being obviously embarrassed which you found kinda cute, and it made you giggle a bit.

“Im sorry, my young lord. but you too where having such an.. eh.. Cute, Conversation, i couldn’t bare to stop it.. My apologies.”

Ciel huffed and crossed his arms, looking away from the both of them.

~{Ciel Head cannons!}~

1. Ciel has a hard time being affectionate when you first start dating, but after a while he can be super affectionate when he is sure he wont loose you.

2. Ciel prefers Forehead kisses, giving and receiving, its comforting to him.

3. Every now and them Ciel spoils you with gifts and your favorite sweets

4. Ciel is a very fluffy person more into the relationship, like number 1, he is more affectionate Hand holding, forehead kisses, cuddling during the night, and he likes to (in the mornings) hug you from behind randomly and hide his face in the crook of your neck, but this is normally when hes tired so it happens a few times during the day mostly when you are by yourself in a room doing something

5. When you guys are cuddling ciel LOVES when you play with his hair, it helps his sleep better and feel safer and less on edge at least for the night.

6. He loves when you act stubborn about things, it makes you different. He tried to order you to stop working and doing chores but you refused and continued anyway.

7. He gets jealous easily and can sometimes be a bit too protective. for example one time during a ball (That lizzy forced him to throw) He saw some other male trying to approach you and dance with you, and come and held you hand, glaring at The other male.

-Love, Author-Chan (Me ^^ but feel free to give me what ever nick name! ^^’)

#black butler #ciel x reader #ciel phantomhive #fanfiction #reader #blackbutler #confesssion

[zuffer-weird-girl]

Elizabeth huffed with a hand on her cheek as she watched her father perform before seing on a nearby T.v that was replaying one of her favorite shows and her favorite actress was doing her job as her own character.

The girl often imagined herself as that actress, Miss (L/n) (Y/n), daughter. She was just too sweet and caring on her interviews and even helped everyone around her. Although she didn't make as much as appearance, just like her daddy, she did an amazing job on every role on the T.v.

She poked her head at where her character's father was talking with shigaraki Tomura and decided to just tip toe out of the set since Midoriya's actor was too distracted with his own brother to take care of her. Just to take a quick walk is all.

Although, walking through her set she gasped at seing Miss (L/n) reading some papers on her seat as other actors surrounded the area. Her eyes glowed at seing her idol right there.

"Isn't my mom great?" She yelped at the sudden voice beside her as jumping in guard to see a girl, same features as the woman she was looking at before.

"W-What-?" The girl giggled and pointed at the woman getting up from her chair.

"Is my mommy!" Elizabeth frowned at that, dissapointed at hearing such a thing but trying to not demonstrate to the other girl who extended a hand towards her "I'm Mai by the way! (L/n) Mai!"

She smiled and shaked her hand with a giggle.

"I'm Elizabeth."

"Nice to meet you Eli!" Mai smiled brightly before putting a hand on her lip and making a confused sound "Wait! I know you! You are Eri-chan!" She smiled brightly as she giggled.

"Yeah! My father got a job and I was the only one that could act with him because the other actress was scared of him!"

"Oh! Ypur father is Overhaul?! Scarry!!!" She laughed as the other kid giggled and they started to chat around. Elizabeth even discovered that mai was a actress as well!

Time passed as the two girls chatted for hours until a voice made them stop.

"Elizabeth!"

"Ops..." the girl tensed as she saw her father coming to her.

"What were you thinking?! I was scared out of my skin when you weren't in the set!" He kneeled down and holded on her shoulders as she apologized.

"Mai! Sweety!" a voice the two dark brow haired man and girl look up as the other girl squealed and went to hug you immediately "How many times do I have to tell you to not get out of the guards sign?" You sighed and petted her hair as she nuzzled on you and apologized with a smile.

Elizabeth watched the scene with a bit of envy before noticing the way that her father's eyes fixated on you and how his golden orbs seemed to shine brightly while you when looked at him gasped and seemed to have the same look.

Elizabeth and Mai shared a look before the two adults went to talk, after only God knows how much of time staring at each other.

"Forgive my daughter (Y/n), she gets bored on our set then she likes to explore some places when I'm not looking." He scratched the back of his head as you played with your hair.

"Oh no no! Dont be handso- I mean! Sorry! I mean sorry! Dont be sorry about it." You laughed nervously "My daughter does the same thing so I kinda know the deal very well."

"I do imagine." He chuckled as Elizabeth widened her eyes at how her father seemed so much comfortable around her. Before she gasped at feeling him pulling her near them "This is Elizabeth by the way. She is quite a fan of your works."

"Oh really?" You smiled down at her "Hello Elizabeth! Is so nice to meet you!"

"Same pleasure!" She squealed with exciment as you giggled and waved your hand at the girl on your side.

"Well, you already know Eli, but this is my daughter Mai. I think she has the same age as her." You looked at Kai which only nodded with a smile at her before retreading his looks at you.

Mai and Elizabeth looked at eachother before the girl with (H/c) smiled brightly.

"My mom likes your dad a lot!"

"Hm! And it seems like my dad has a crush on miss (L/n)! He never acts like this around anyone!"

"Hey!" Mai turned to her with a determined look "What about we make them both go on a date?! I would love to have a dad and you as my sister!"

"Really?" She gasped, tears burning at how overwhelmed she was "Would you like that? I always imagine your mom as mine own! Wont you be mad?"

"Mad?! No way! My mom deserves happiness as much as all of us! As long as your dad be a good boyfriend to her, we can become sister even!"

"Deal!" Elizabeth smiled and grabbed her hands as well.

The two girls were giggling and it accidentaly catched the both adults attention as you smiled at it and kai arched one eyebrow at the scene.

"Seems like they got along pretty well." You commented with a giggled as Kai sighed with a smirk.

"For some reason, I feel like these two are gonna make some trouble."

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The man pored some tea for him before handing the plate of breakfast for his daughter as Elizabeth got up.

"Daddy go get dressed! Now!"

"Huh?" He almost dropped his cup on the ground as he felt Elizabeth pushing him towards his room.

"You have to change dad! Mai and I agreed to meet on the park today!"

"What now? Does her mother even know that?" He asked but Elizabeth only pushed him harder.

"Go daddy! We're gonna be late!" He sighed but still got into the room and went to change himself.

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"You have to be more prettier than you already for your date mom!" Mai handed you some earings which you declined with a small laugh while arranging yourself on the mirror.

"Sweety is a playdate for you and Elizabeth. I am not going out with anyone as far as I know of."

"Yes you are!" Mai pouted while sitting near you "dont hid it mommy, I know you have a rush in Elizabeth's dad! Is soooooo obvious!"

You scoffed playfully, but still feeling way too embarrassed of even remembering that man... With those golden orbs that seemed to hypnotize you ever time you looked at then, his smile and his way of smooth talking, God even his body was perfect with those abs and torso that clinged to his usual black t-shirt and-

"MOM! Is almost time!" Mai yelled while constantly poking your cheek.

Okay... maybe you were a bit of a simp-

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"They're talking." Mai handed the binoculars to Elizabeth as the said girl squealed.

"They look like a couple!" Elizabeth squealed and the two girsl gushed on the playground as the both adults stopped to talking to see the kids squealing and giggling from the distance.

"Mai really likes your daughter." You commented with a smile as he smiled as well.

"Elizabeth is not one to make friends that fast, guess this was an exception."

"I can see it." You giggled and he chuckled for a bit before it was stabilized a comfortable silence between you. You seemed to notice him rubbing his thumbs together before he decided to speak up again.

"I... I know some place where it sells some great tea and coffe nearby..." he rubbed the back of his neck a bit before looking at you "Maybe would you like me to buy you something?"

You widened your eyes at that before smilling and nodding.

"I would love to." It was one of the first times you saw that man with pale skin blushing a bit, but the sign was wonderful enough and his smile was just the cherry on the top of the cake.

"Great." You two flinched when you both heard your daughters screaming in joy before both of them put their hands on their own mouth when they notice you two looking at them.

"Sorry!"

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"I TOLD YOU THAT IS NOT MY NAME ANYMORE!"

"And cut!" The director spoke as he sighed, rubbing his throat a bit since it was sore after this shout of his.

"Great acting as always!" Mirio's actor commented while getting up as Elizabeth clapped her hands at her father as he took off his mask.

"Thanks, although the creaming is gonna ruin my throat is actually fun." He commented before looking up at the sounds of another person clapping her hands.

"(Y/n)..?" He spoke, trying his best to not open a smile as you giggled while your daughter continued clapping her hands at him.

"It was amazing your job sir!" The little girl commented as him nodded at her with a smile, a form of thanking her before looking at you once again.

"I was wondering if I could see you." You laughed a bit while playing with a strand of your hair "And maybe pay back for all of the coffees you paid me so far?"

The two girls squealed silently before Elizabeth spoke up.

"So! Me and mai are going to stay on the set!" She waved at her father "You two can go on your date in peace! He loves you though (Y/n)! You dont need to pay back"

"Elizabeth!" He whispered shouted in embarrassment as she giggled.

"Same goes for my mom!" Mai squealed before running away with Elizabeth as both adults were left to deal with the embarrassment.

"Haha... kids." You commented in pure embarrassment as he rubbed the back of his neck nodding with a grunt. "..Do you really love me?" You asked before laughing at how red the man has gotten all of the sudden.

"Match making-" Mai extended her hand to high five Elizabeth's.

"Succeded!" The dark brow haired girl commented before looking at Mai "Congratilations to your soon new dad!"

"Congrats for your soon to be mom as well!" Mai laughed, the two girls happy as ever know.

#overhaul #overhaul x reader #chisaki kai x reader #chisaki kai #bnha imagine #bnha x reader #bnha characters #bnha villains #bnha #bnha au #zuffer writings

[bellestalesoffiction]

Clean Love ch. 2

Pairing: Eventual Mob!Steve x Reader

Warnings: Descriptions of violence, a swear here or there, minor shit talk

Summary: She’s a city girl, an artist with a day job, because how else is she gonna pay the bills. She cleans for Tony Stark’s offices, one day she has the pleasure of cleaning up a mess made by the most feared boss in all of New York, Steve Rogers.

A/N: This one is a little bit shorter, I hope you all enjoy it! Due to working full time and stuff at home causing me to be the only person home in the evenings for my sisters it might take a bit longer between updates than I’d like. Originally I wanted to post this back on Saturday. Anyways, I hope you enjoy this!

Part 1 

“The Cleaner is here”

You weren't the most comfortable in the spotlight, in fact you often preferred not to be the center of attention. The center of attention was always Felicia, that bitch. You stepped into the room, a small nervous smile on your lips, because of course Mr. Stark had company, large company too. You glanced at the men, both to the right in the room, one standing the other sitting, both smoking. 

The one that sat had dark hair and cold blue eyes, the hand holding the cigarette to his lips seemed to glint in the sunlight. A second glance at his hand and yup, ok he has a hand made of metal! Fun… you do not wanna be on his bad side. The other man stood tall, back straight as a ruler. His features were both sharp and soft at the same time, hair golden against the dark grey office walls. 

His eyes, like the man beside him on the couch, were blue, a different blue though. His eyes, like his features, were soft and hard at the same time, on top of that they were a beautiful shade, one that rivaled the sky above the oceans, maybe almost as clear as the Caribbean seas. Not that you had seen said waters except in photos, but still you could compare just fine and dream. Those eyes were something you wanted to paint, the shade of blue so stunning it made your stomach flip. 

“You aren’t Hardy, where is she? And who the fuck are you?” Mr. Stark stood and moved around his desk, forcing your eyes to move back to him. The tone of his voice startled you, causing you to flinch slightly. 

Swallowing hard, you met his eyes pulling back your shoulders and correcting your posture, “I’m sorry Mr. Stark, Felicia went home about 20 minutes ago with the other cleaners. She had a previous engagement and asked me to cover for her.”

He nodded, “And who the hell are you?”

“Y/n L/n sir, I’ve worked here for the past two years as a cleaner.” Stark nodded and sat back down. He frowned thinking, looking over at the tall blond. 

The blond put out his cigarette, “Buck, go collect Ms. Hardy for us please. Ms. L/n, we’d appreciate it greatly if you’d clean up that little mess we made. I apologize for all the inconveniences with this.”

You blushed softly, god DAMN! His voice was soft and smooth, it was amazing and you wanted to hear him say your name again. You nodded and headed to the desk setting down your cleaning bucket and kneeling down to work. The dark haired man stood and made his way out of the room. You took out a bottle with a slightly watered down bleach and sprayed down the blood wiping at it with a rag. 

Mr. Stark walked over to the other man and whispered with him. While cleaning and scrubbing the dried blood from between the tiles, you glanced up at the two men. Stark had his back to you and the other man wasn’t facing you, more so he stood perpendicular to your line of sight, with his shoulder facing you, he took a long drag of the cigarette between his thick digits.

Stark had a hand on the larger man’s shoulder, “Steve, we don't hurt women remember,” Stark was bad at whispering. You could hear them even if you weren't trying. Your eyes fell back to the floor, scrubbing at a stubborn spot. 

“We aren’t Tony, just scaring her. She knows the rules as a supervisor. She isn’t supposed to send others to do her job, when you call her she needs to be here.” the larger man, Steve, spoke hushed, a better whisper than Stark could manage. You could feel this Steve guys eyes on you, it made you scrub faster pushing up the sleeves on your uniform to scrub harder at the last spot.

You applied more pressure to get between the tiles and hissed quietly as your knuckles caught the edge of one of them. You yanked your hand away shaking it off and dropping the rag. It didn't break the skin and you weren’t bleeding, so that was good, but the skin was still red and a little ripped. My own damn fault for not wearing gloves, you thought, I’m almost done and then I can go home and paint and forget all of this. 

“You alright doll?” his voice called over, mild concern lacing his disinterested tone.

“I I’m fine sir, almost done and then I'll be out of your hair. No problems.” You stumbled through your words, his presence was intimidation and powerful, yet also comforting at the same time. You kept your focus on the floor picking up the rag with your other hand, grabbing blindly at your bottle of cleaner and spritzing the spot once more to scrub.

A pair of pointed oxfords came into your line of sight, stopping your movements. Your eyes slowly followed the shoes up the man's legs, past his slim hips, to his broad shoulders and finally meeting those piercing blue iris’. His face was even more handsome close up, Steve moved to kneel down in front of you, his body still large and looming.

He held out his hand, “You scraped your knuckles, let me see, doll.”

You blushed harder at the pet name, it was cute and old fashioned, but sweet. Slowly you reached out to his hand placing your ‘injured’ hand in his, “I’m fine really sir, just a scrape like you said. I I’m all done cleaning up the floor, I I can leave and go now. I promise I wont say a word to anyone.”

You thought the man in front of you was the most beautiful you’d ever seen, but the way he and Mr. Stark spoke about wanting to hurt and scare Felicia, about wanting to teach her a lesson made you realize that you should in no way shape or form want to be associated with them besides as their legal employee. A soft chuckle snapped you out of your thoughts, you glanced at his lips that were curled in a smile before taking in his face. This Steve looked amused by your words and shy demeanor. 

“Of course, why don’t you go gather your things and wait in the lobby. I’d like to give you a ride home, another apology for the inconvenience and stress Ms. Hardy has caused you this evening.” he smiled charmingly, god you could’ve sworn his teeth just did one of those cheesy commercial sparkles. 

You nodded quietly, figuring a ride in a warm car would be better than the 10 block walk and 5 minute train ride back to your dingy apartment, “Thank you Mr. uhm..”  you sat there looking at him for a moment, still having no idea who the hell the man in front of you was. 

“Rogers, Steven Rogers. Pleasure to help such a pretty dame as yourself,” he helped you to your feet and put your things into your little bucket and handed it over to you. Taking it quietly you broke eye contact realizing who exactly was offering you such sweet words and a warm ride. 

“Thank you Mr. Rogers.”

“It’s no problem doll,” he looked to the door as someone pushed it open, “ Perfect timing Sam, please go with Ms. L/n to gather her things. I’ll meet you both in the lobby in 10”

“Sure thing boss.” You looked over to see who would go with you. He was a kind looking man with a hard set face, handsome and tall nonetheless, his eyes filled with mischief and more warmth than you would've thought. You stepped away from the intimidating blond and towards the door when Stark called your name.

“Y/n, tomorrow I’d like you to report straight to my office once you’ve punched in for the day.”

“Y-yes sir, Mr. Stark.” with that you scurried out of the door back to the service elevator with this Sam character trailing behind you.

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[knybabu]

《r u l e s》

hi! im babu and im very excited to start this blog! ive never done this before so i apologize in advance if its a bit unorganized...this is a demon slayer/kimetsu no yaiba blog for now so only request about that. i hope you request and enjoy!

this blog will contain manga spoliers!

R • E • Q • U • E • S • T

the rules for requesting are fairly simple.

the request box will close once reaching a certain amount and will reopen when ive finished all of them.

please do not request when box is closed, i will ignore it!

i write fics, headcannons, and reactions so specify what you will want in asks.

when requesting please also specify what you specifically want, dont just say “please write for sanemi” be more specific!

this blog is sfw and nsfw!

all characters must be 18+ for nsfw!

if you want any specific kinks you want to add on then specify.

i will write male! reader, female! reader, and gender neutral! reader

boy x boy and girl x girl is very welcomed!

i will also write aus! 

i.e. omegaverse, modern, idol, yandere (idk if thats an au) etc.

i will write about anything mostly but i will let you know if i dont feel comfortable writing a certain request and i will update the list of things i wont write.

C • H • A • R • A • C • T • E • R • S

these are the characters i will write for! (bolded are my faves >.<)

all the pillars

aoi, kanao, tanjiro, nezuko, zenistu, innosuke, genya

muzan, kaigaku, akaza, douma, daki, gyutaro, kokushibo

shinjuro rengoku, sabito, tamayo, yushiro, yoriichi, kanae, kagaya

i hope you request and if youre curious about something then just ask if its okay!

#rules #request #demon slayer #kimetsu no yaiba #demon slayer x reader #kimetsu no yaiba x reader

[mattygraygubler]

our campus: chapter 8 (tom holland fic)

summary: frat!tom and reader go to the same college and y/n is tasked with being his tutor, they don’t really get along at first (because i love reader and tom hating each other trope)

warnings: drinking, drinking, more drinking, mentions of sex

word count: 2.6

a/n: sort of a cliff hanger at the end???? we’ll see what happens! 

as always texts are bolded

for a list of characters click here

to be added to the tag list send me an ask !

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You slowly opened your eyes and were immediately confused. You were in your room, but you felt someone’s arms around you. 

You drank almost an entire bottle of wine last night, so needless to say, you didn’t really remember anything. You didn’t think you slept with someone… But did you? 

The body groaned, but you still couldn’t figure out who it was because the lights were off and blackout curtains closed. You pushed their shoulder a bit and heard a british voice say “Whaa?” 

“Tom?” You asked incredulously. 

“Good morning, darling,” he said. His voice was raspy and low, so incredibly sexy. 

“What are you doing here? Why are you shirtless, where are my pants?! Did we- ohmigod tell me we didn’t…” 

“You don’t remember?” He asked and you shook your head, still very aware that his arm was around you and your legs were intertwined. “Relax, we didn’t have sex, love. We just hung out and then watched a movie and fell asleep.”

“Then where’s your shirt?” He laughed. 

“You’re wearing it. You were cold and wouldn’t let me leave the bed, so I gave it to you.” You bit your lip, very uncomfortable. It was one thing to sleep with someone and not remember it, but to spend the entire night cuddling? You weren’t a couple, who does that?!

“Oh. I’m sorry.” You said and sat up, untangling your body from his.

“What are you apologizing for?” He asked. 

“I mean… I’m your tutor, we’re just becoming friends, it’s weird for us to-to sleep in the same bed together and-” 

“Y/N, slow down. We’re friends. It’s really not a big deal, totally platonic. I mean, c’mon, you’ve never slept in the same bed as Kyle? Or Emily?” 

“No, I have…” “Then what’s the big deal?” He asked. 

“I guess there isn’t one…” You replied. Tom swung his leg over the side of the bed, stretching and getting his stuff together. You couldn’t help but watch his back muscles flex when he stretched. You wanted to run your fingernails along it. 

“I gotta take care of some stuff, I’ll see you later today?” He asked. You nodded. 

“Sure, I’ll see you later. Wait, Tom!” You said before he could walk out the door.  

“Yes?” He turned back to look at you. 

“You’re, uhm… You need your sweatshirt back.” You started to take it off. 

“I’m only going down two floors. You look comfy anyway.” He said and smiled at you before walking out. 

You lied back down in bed, picking up your phone and checking the alerts. You scrolled through all the drunk texts from last night, laughing at a lot of them. 

♡girly girls♡

Em

GUYS

Al

whaaaaaat em

Em

GUYS GUYS GUYS

Iz

em what happened

Em

NOTHING HAPPENED

YET

CHECK THE WEATHER REPORT

You rolled your eyes and checked the weather report, unsure of what she was referring to. It was the first weekend in February, so you weren’t expecting your weather app to show you a 100% chance of snow starting in a few hours and lasting until Monday night. 

Em

THATS RIGHT LADIES

SNOOOOOOWWWW DAAAAYYYYYY

Al

Y/N we’ll be over at 9 to play games, iz you and i are goin to grab the booze, em youre in charge of food

You

what am i in charge of? 

Al 

dont you have homework? plus were using your room, we can take care of all the stuff

Iz

are we inviting anyone else?

Em

thank you for asking i would love to invite harrison

Iz

im fine with that if i can invite cal

Cal was the nerdy boy from delt who Isabelle was seeing. It was really low key, they’d only gone on a few dates, and things hadn’t gotten physical yet. 

Em

Y/N! invite tom and we’ll make it a total delt nite !!!

You

yeah ok ill invite him. were gonna be studying anyway. 

Al

wow i expected more push back

You

were friends now, it wont be weird. its not like its a quintouple date

Iz

it is if one of those delt boys has a gay sister

Al

not interested. besides i doubt more than 7 people can fit comfortably in Y/N’s room

You

fine ill see you guys tonight.

You hopped in the shower, putting on a pair of leggings and a cropped sweatshirt. You decided to text Tom. 

You

hey so it looks like its gonna snow i was wondering if we could work at my place instead?

also ive been told to invite you to our game night tonight

Tom

interesting, because i was already invited

what took you so long Y/L/N?

You

sorry i was in the shower

Tom

likely story

but yeah that sounds great ill see you in a few hours

A few hours. That’s plenty of time for you to put your glasses on, earbuds in, and really focus on your homework. 

* * *

You were pulled from your law reading by a knock at the door. You opened it, seeing Tom in a soccer tee shirt and gray sweatpants. His hair was wet and he ran his fingers through it. 

You hoped he didn’t see the fact that you bit your lip, but you couldn’t help yourself. He just looked so incredibly sexy. 

“You look... “ His eyes scanned your body and you immediately wrapped your arms around you, insecure. 

“What?”

“No, you just never wear stuff like this in front of me. You’re always so put together.” 

“Your point?” 

“You look cute, that’s all.” Tom said and walked into the room. He thought you were cute? No, you needed to calm down, he’s the biggest player ever, he didn’t mean anything. Just some accidental flirting. 

“I brought tequila, Harrison said it’s your favorite.” He said and dropped his backpack on the floor and put the tequila on the table where you kept your booze. 

“That’s sweet of you, thank you, it is my favorite.” “Really? I thought he was joking.” “No, why?” 

“You’re just… you’re really something else, Y/N.” He said with a laugh. 

You grabbed your notebooks and started the session, you checking his homework, him redoing the mistakes, and you answering any questions he had about the material. 

“You’ve definitely made an improvement,” you said as you finished reading his essay on the power shifts in England from the 1600s to today. 

“Thank you? I think?” 

“You’re welcome. You’re almost there, but you’re still not incorporating this source correctly.” 

“That’s because that source makes no sense. The writing is so convoluted, it’s mental!” 

“Then why don’t you find a new source?” You asked. 

“Well… I thought I’d be easier if I just stuck with this one.” Normally you would have rolled your eyes at that, but instead you found yourself laughing. 

“Read it again,” You said and handed him the library book he was using as his last source, “And if you still can’t understand it, I can explain it or we can just find a new source.” 

You grabbed your own book, Rage Becomes Her, which you were reading for your Women, Politics, and Public Policy class, and started highlighting right where you left off. 

You both got lost in your books, highlighting and annotating in silence. Every once in a while Tom would stop to ask you about a particular passage. 

It was another hour or so before you both heard a knock on your door. You got up to open it, and as soon as you did Emily burst into the room, Harrison right behind her holding three pizzas. 

“TOM!” Emily said and tackled him in a hug. “It’s so good to see you again!” “I didn’t realize you two had met,” you said and helped Harrison with the pizzas. 

“Just once,” Tom said with a laugh. He made himself comfortable on your bed instead of the floor, Harrison took a seat on your comfy chair and Emily made herself comfortable on his lap. 

“I better leave this unlocked,” you said. “I would offer you guys a drink, but Isabelle and Ally are-” 

“Did someone say something about a drink?” Isabelle said, pushing the door opened. 

“What’s up bitches,” Ally said and put a bottle of wine, svedka, prosecco, and a 30 on the booze table. 

“How long do you guys anticipate this storm lasting, because that is a LOT of booze for 7 people,” you commented. 

“Lighten up, babe, it’s not like we have to drink it all tonight.” Isabelle responded. 

“Better to be safe than sorry.” Ally said with a mischievous grin. They greeted the others in the room when you heard a knock on your door. 

“I heard there was a party happening here?” Cal said as he pushed open the door. You closed it all the way behind him so no one else could stumble in. 

After everyone introduced themselves to each other, Harrison said “So what does everyone want to play first?” 

“Oh, you’re new.” Ally said. “See, we kinda of have an agenda.” “Is that so?” Harrison asked. Emily kissed his cheek. “Tell me more.”

“Well the first time we had a snow day, we took turns picking our favorite games, and then we just stuck with that formula. First is A which means kings,” Isabelle said. “Then Emily, which means never have I ever. Then me, which means truth or dare. And then Y/N.” 

“And what does Y/N pick?” Tom asked.

“Y/N picks poker, of course. But most of the time were too drunk to get there.” Ally said. 

“Yeah I really got the short end of the stick there. It’s a good formula, though.” You replied and grabbed a deck of cards and a beer. 

“Let’s go, boys and girls.” You said. Everyone sat in a circle, the beer in the middle like you were worshipping it, and you spread out the cards in a circle around it. You saw Tom and Harrison exchange a look across the circle. 

“Something wrong?” You asked. 

“Well… Don’t judge us, but we’ve never played this game before. They don’t have it in England.” Everyone else laughed quietly at Harrison’s statement. 

“It’s easy. Everyone picks a card, and each card has an action assigned to it. Ace is waterfall,” You said. 

“Two is you, so you pick someone to drink.” Isabelle said.

“Three is me, so you drink.” Cal said as you went around the circle explaining the rules. 

“Four is floor, so the last person to slap the floor loses.” Emily said. 

“Five is guys,” Ally said. 

“Six is chicks,” You said and the circle started again. 

“Seven is heaven, so last person to touch the ceiling drinks.” 

“Eight is date, so you pick someone and whenever one of you drinks the other has to too, for the rest of the game.” 

“Nine is rhyme, so you go around the circle saying words that rhyme and the person who can’t continue the rhymes drinks.” 

“Ten is categories, so it’s the same as nine but with a category of something, like animals.” 

“Jack is never have I ever.” 

“Queen is questions, so the next person who answers a question they ask drinks.” 

“And finally, king is the ruler, so you make a rule that everyone has to follow until the next king is pulled.” 

“Make sense?” You asked. 

“Not one bit.” Tom responded. 

“You’ll get the hang of it, I promise it gets easier.” You said. “Al goes first.” 

“Why?” Harrison asked. 

“Gay goes first.” The four of you said in unison. The boys looked scared. They had no idea what they had gotten themselves into. 

“One last rule. First drink is a shot of your chosen poison. After that, you can drink whatever you want.” You explained as Isabelle gave each person a shot glass and the handles of hard liquor were passed around.

“Four,” Ally said and everyone slapped the floor except Tom and Harrison. Harrison realized first, so you watched as Tom downed the shot across the circle. He tensed his jaw after, which made you wet already. When he saw you looking at him, he winked at you.

Your turn was next, so you quickly pulled a card, a six, so you and the other girls did your shots and then began to pour yourselves your chosen drinks. For you, that was a second shot of tequila and then a rum and orange soda.

“Two.” Isabelle said with a grin. “I choose our kings sponsor, miss Alexandria Park.” Everyone whooped as Ally dramatically took a sip of her beer. 

“Five,” Cal said. The boys took their shots, except Tom who took a sip of his beer. 

“My turn then?” Tom said and drew a card. “Eight. Which one is that?” 

“Date. You pick someone and for the rest of the game whenever one of you drinks, the other has to too.” Cal explained. Tom looked around the circle, but you already suspected who he was going to pick. 

“Y/N,” he said. “Would you care to be my date?” 

“You’re exhausting, Holland. What, are you trying to get me drunk or something?” That shut him up, right as Harrison said ‘seven’ and everyone reached for the ceiling except Tom, who groaned and complained about having to drink again. 

Cal was the one who finally popped the beer and had to chug it. You put the cards to the side and everyone held up ten fingers, already ready for never have I ever. 

Things started off innocent enough, with Emily sharing that she had never peed in a pool. By the time you all went once and it was Harrison’s turn, he made things more interesting. 

“Never have I ever slept with more than 15 different people.” You and Tom were the only ones who clapped. 

Harrison rolled his eyes. “Jesus fucking christ, it’s like you guys were made for each other.” He commented. Your face got red, which Emily noticed, so she went quickly next. 

You finally lost, getting rid of your ten fingers before anyone else. You were always a bag of secrets, and Tom found himself learning more and more things about you he didn’t know. Like that you had a tattoo, or that you’ve gone skinny dipping, or that you’ve never had a gin and tonic. 

You were all wasted, that was clear. Isabelle was in between Cal’s legs on the floor, leaning her back against his chest. Ally was lying on the couch all by herself, upside down. Harrison was in your big chair with Emily on his lap, and you and Tom were on your bed, you lying on your stomach and him sitting against the headboard. 

“Isabelle, truth or dare?” Cal asked. 

“Dare,” she said, looking back at him. 

“I dare you to ditch your friends and come back to my room with me.” He said. 

Isabelle shared a look with all of you before saying “Sorry guys, I’m not one to turn down a dare.” They grabbed the half-drunk bottle of prosecco on their way out. 

“Al, truth or dare?” Emily asked. This went on until Ally passed out from drinking, still upside down. 

“We’ll get her home.” Harrison said. He picked Ally up as Emily collected their stuff and bid you and Tom good night. You both sat in silence for a few minutes, when Tom’s phone lit up. 

“Do you mind if I chill here for a while? I’ll stay on the couch if you want to go to sleep, but Harrison just said him and Emily want some alone time and her roommate is home.” 

“Of course, I don’t mind.” You responded. You stumbled off the bed, going to pour yourself another drink. 

“Ok, Y/N.” Tom said, moving so he was sitting on the edge of the bed. “Truth or dare?” You turned to look at him and saw a dark look in his brown eyes. 

“Dare.” 

“I dare you to kiss me.” 

#tom holland imagine #tom holland #tom holland fanfic #tom holland fanfiction #frat!tom

[fart-gate]

SG1

Season 2 episode 9

🚨trigger warning: mentions of rape in my notes🚨

"SECRETS"

Notes by me

- the chief from abydos! Also daniels father in law :)

- no glasses!Daniel in this scene

- I love how dedicated Daniel is to his space family and their culture😌 like this random Egyptian planet was like I'm gonna keep you! And he said okie dokie

- "I couldnt possibly be safer than in the company of tealc" AKDEOSNDJSJSSKA

- Jack wants to go back too lol

- Daniel back in his robes 💕

- back home for daniel! To abydos!

- Bodyguard!tealc

- apologizing to sha'res dad for not being able to find her yet 😟 its not your fault babe!

- SHA'RE??? YOUVE BEEN HERE THE WHOLE TIME WHAT THE FUCK

- tealc:

- shes pregnant and that is....really bad. If its one of the goaulds that raped her. This got dark real quick

- "husband!" "My daniel" I CANT HANDLE THIS IM ALREADY GOING INSANE

- he doesnt want to bring his hopes up that its actually her 😭

- hes shocked but like.....i would be too

- I was right its apophis kid :\ this so fucked up

- Host Baby??? Big Yikes

- okay I'm gonna say this right fucking now before i watch any more. If Daniel blames her and gets mad at her for being raped and getting pregnant WITHOUT her consent than i will personally come thru this screen and slap the fuck out of him

- meanwhile! Jack and Sam bonding time!

- SAMS DAD

- sha're thinking Daniel wont love her anymore :( she better be wrong or I'm throwing hands

- she said the goauld is Amunet? Is that the dog goddess? Or the crocodile? I'm getting my Egyptian gods mixed up

- Daniel sitting outside to Process™

- "hasnt she gone thru enough?" My brain stopped working I'm so happy hes not not blaming her. Writers for once youre doing something right

- man hes really emotional about this

- tealcs right they need to take her anyway for her own safety.

- do u think he sympathizes with her bc hes been raped too? Its not said but I feel like thats what it is. He knows it wasnt her fault. And that also means they can comfort each other about what happened to them😟bc they understand

- okay why is sams dad being a total dill hole

- "Ive heard nothing about you, sir." Jack youre not off to a great first impression

- Jack making sam smile with sly jokes

- her dad knows she be lyin about her job

- he wants her to go to space HAHA if only he knew. His tiny brain would explode

- Daniel said he loves her no matter what and then gave her a big hug im LOSING MY MIND

- are we keeping the baby??? Am I gonna see Dad!Daniel and mom!sha're ??? 💕💕💕💕💕💕💕💕💕💕💕💕💕💕

- micheal shanks eyes are super blue in this episode for my viewing pleasure only

- protective!Daniel 😍

- I'm just remembering how they met and when she showed him the forbidden drawings in the caves and they spent days together just sharing knowledge. When he found out they were married(in her culture) and just completely accepted it. When he saved her bc he realised he was in love. When he stayed on abydos so that he could live a full life with her and her people because he felt like he belonged. I'm fine

- parents need to ask before they set up things like job interviews. I have personal experience with this and im full of rage

- this reporter literally having a recording of Jack talking about the stargate and Jack flatly denying it. Zero fucks given

- Daniel saying he wont force sha're into anything. Bc up to this point shes been forced into so much!! He knows he needs to let her make her own choices!!! He gets it!!!

- im sorry both Daniel and sha're are so pretty in his episode. My bisexual brain is just having a real good time looking👀

- I REALLY really love it when she calls him "my dan-yel" ❤❤❤

- the SGC has a mole???

- LABOR somebody boil water

- oh its my goauld mans with the sick earrings

- Daniel helping her give birth. Sitting behind her and helping her breathe. I'm love

- "this is where we hid from Ra remember?" Ajdjsisnana thats such a cool detail

- he'll never leave her again there goes my heart

- "It's O'Neill. With two L's. Theres another colonel O'Neil, but he has no sense of humor at all."

- dont you hate when youre about to uncover a huge government secret and then immediately get hit by a car

- shooting the zat gun into the camera was a cool directing choice 🔥

- sam: so I'm getting a medal for my service this week! Cool right?

Jacob Carter: I have cancer

- he could not have been any more blunt

- ok dude cant you just accept the fact that she cant tell you what her job? Dont you know what top secret means? Cant you just be proud of her for what she does already???? Dick

- "I will always love you!!"

- she is scared she will lose Daniel and the baby :(

- its a boy! 💙💙

- the goauld is back in control oh god Daniel run

- shes actually pretty scary as a goauld

- yeah ok shoot the woman who just gave birth tealc YEESH

- that was a good idea to frame Heru'hur tho

- Daniel hesitating to leave her again. My heart is breaking 😢

- they saved the baby at least

- poor sha're didnt even get to see her son 😔

- bringing the baby back to the grandfather was a good idea😊

- this baby is SO SO cute

- is Daniel a stepdad now. Is he gonna come back and play catch with the kid when hes older. Is he gonna fully adopt him. I want him to fully adopt him

- Jack blaming himself for the reporters death. You gotta stop doing this to yourself man

- black shirt Daniel 👀👀👀👀

- HAHA tealc shoving the jaffa into the vortex lmaooo

- "you dare challenge me?"

"I was thinking about it"

- WHEN JACK GRABS HIS KNIFE REAL QUICK AND SPEARS IT INTO APPOPHIS HAND

- she definitely saw them and didnt say anything

- "are you alright?"

"No. No im not.........but I will be."

"She looked directly at us, Daniel jackson. And yet she did not reveal our position." YOU KNOW WHAT THAT MEANS LADS. Theres still hope for my girl. She can fight this I believe in her ✊😤

- I will say it again tho. This storyline for her is very fucked up. No excuses, its just a bit over used in sci fi for the women characters to have surprise pregnancies.

~

Whump under the cut

Tealc whump: fought with jaffa

Daniel jackson whump: shocked, emotional, crying, forced kneeling, back handed

Sam carter whump: emotional , crying

🎶listening to You Are The Reason by Calum Scott and Leona Lewis 🎶 in honor of Daniel and sha're making me lose my collective mind

No glasses!Daniel for most of the episode

#stargate season 2 #no glasses!daniel #bodyguard!tealc #tw rape #tealc whump season 2 #daniel whump season 2 #sam whump season 2

[sanctuarymuses]

[b a s i c s]

hi im 25+/f, looking for an rp partner 21+! my limits are the usual, no anthros/bestiality, pedophilia or toiletplay. i enjoy gen, smut, shippy, action, relationships, drama, fluff, angst, humor you name it. i have no literary or activity requirements! you dont need to apologize for not being in the mood to rp that day, we can just talk n chill. im a very patient boo, i wont bug you for replies dont worry. as long as i can understand u we are good. i type in chatspeak oocly! but i use capitals and punctuation in-character. im a big plot driver, so i definitely dont mind taking the lead in things, but just try to give me more than "yeah," he said every single tag. contribute if you feel comfortable! i love working with and talking-to my partners. let's plan some gud gud shit peeple. i like using discord for rps, please msg me to exchange discord info!

[c a v e a t s]

if you use fcs, and play erik lehnsherr or james wilson, pls cast as a jewish person! also i am not looking to play anything outside of the pairings listed below. i can play any kind of dynamic or role really so lmk if u have a pref beforehand! thanks luvu!

[p a i r i n g s] [character i play]/[character you play]

[CHARLES XAVIER]/[ERIK LEHNSHERR] (XMFC, modern, sentinel/guide, veteran/civilian, TA/freshman, college students, prison psychiatrist/prisoner, first meetings, DSverse, legiterally anything im obsessed) [ERIK LEHNSHERR]/[CHARLES XAVIER] (XMFC, modern, sentinel/guide, veteran/civilian, TA/freshman, college students, prison psychiatrist/prisoner, DSverse, legiterally anything im obsessed) [JIM KIRK]/[SPOCK] (AOS beginning their five-year mission starts at end of STXI, jim coming to live with spock and sarek after tarsus IV, sentinel/guide, jim being half-betazoid, anything goes) [SPOCK]/[JIM KIRK] (AOS beginning their five-year mission starts at end of STXI, jim coming to live with spock and sarek after tarsus IV, sentinel/guide, jim being half-betazoid, anything goes) [GREG HOUSE]/[JAMES WILSON] (duckling-era, college, prison, military, international/foreign language, star trek crossover? shit with ORIONS, pre-injury, post-injury, sentinel/guide, soulmates, whatever u need) [JAMES WILSON]/[GREG HOUSE] (duckling-era, college, prison, military, international/foreign language, star trek crossover? shit with ORIONS, pre-injury, post-injury, sentinel/guide, soulmates, whatever u need)

[p l o t s?] [these are all x-men because i have a problem, we can mix and match or do one of your plots too!]

the last sentinel | set in an era where mutants dont exist as we know them, charles grew up as a hypertelepath, the only gifted soul he knew, but he's heard the stories of sentinels and guides. a long-extinct human splinter, homo superior, who held immense gifts capable of destroying whole cities, drawn together by the guidelink which kept them both stable. charles feels it across the world, when a young man in haifa moves metal for the first time and nearly brings the hospital down. (1950s redux) charles and erik go to white castle MIT | erik's the new freshman who immediately joins the mutant student union (mutatis mutandis), and starts stirring up charles's nice integrationist life with his evilbad separatist politics, there's probably a frat involved, lots of snark and debating mutant rights and maybe set against the backdrop of escalating baseline-mutant violence (modern) stranded | charles is working for the CIA and finds himself in the middle of the negev after anti-mutant thugs slap suppressors on him, beat him and leave him for dead. erik lehnsherr is a known separatist sympathizer, and a minor target of the CIA's operation. up until now he's been elusive but charles wakes to discover none other than lehnsherr as his nursemaid (modern) darkverse | i would really love to play against a darker (not insane or sadistic, more toppy as shit and hella mind controlly?) charles paired with some kind of expansive world (tHe CiA aGaIn? building school? war, violence, something something) beach-divorce didn't happen because charles forced erik to stand down, and now they're dealing with the fallout. both of these characters would be darker versions of themselves, probably dealing with stockholm/lima, d/s themes, etc etc. BUT WITH PLOT (XMFC divergence) cornfields | [spock] is a vulcan doing his first ever solar charting mission behind venus in sol when his shuttle malfunctions and he crash-lands on the only M-class planet available: the 2019, pre-warp earth. he literally crashes into jim's corn field in iowa. he does not speak english and the universal translator doesn't work. jim ends up helping him escape government agents and more shenanigans and he's an alien oh g-d (modern)

#1x1 #discord rp #1x1 rp #erik lehnsherr #charles xavier #jim kirk #spock #james kirk #star trek rp #xmen rp #indie xmen rp #indie mutant rp #rp partner ad #rp partner search #rp partner needed #rp partner wanted #seeking roleplay #seeking roleplay partner

[teenwolimagines]

Part One

The next twenty minutes of lunch was spent awkwardly setting things up.

Such as when to announce the engagement publicly, back story and living arrangements.

You woukd announce the engagement in six months, you two met in a crowded restaurant, and you would be staying with Jordan in his condo.

Everything seemed taken care of.

‘Wait.’ your mother said.

'Yes?’ Karen asked.

‘Well it seems to me you and your family is getting a lot out of this arrangement, but what exactly does my family get.

‘Mom.’ you groaned.

Could she sound more like she was selling you.

‘Oh of course, anything we can do.’ Dave said.

‘We don’t need much.’ your dad said before mom could open her mouth.

‘I just want my parents to be comfortable, they are behind on a few bills. I’m not asking you to put them in a mansion, just loan us enough to keep the house. 

‘No sweetie you don’t have to pay us back.’ Karen soothed.

‘But I will, I’m not going to take your money.’ you replied seriously

The Parrish family all seemed taken aback by this, but you held your ground, you weren’t a beggar. You wouldn’t take advantage of this nice family just because they were rich.

‘If you insist Darling, we’ll give you an interest free loan of a hundred thousand dollars for all your bills and whatever else you need.’ Dave agreed.

You and your parents sigh, a huge burden had been lifted from your shoulders.

‘Well, now that everything is officially taken care of, I think we should give these two alone for a while.’ Karen smiled as she stood.

Her husband and your parents followed suit, you watched with mild panic as they gathered their items.

Before walking away from the table your mother bent down to whisper in your ear.

‘Do not mess this up for us.’ she hissed before walking away.

You sigh as you turn back to Jordan who looks absolutely lost as to what he was supposed to do now that the parents were gone.

‘So, hello Jordan Parrish, I’m (Y/N) (Y/L/N), your fiance.’ you smiled, politely holding out your hand.

He smiled, letting out a nervous breath.

‘Hi, I’m Jordan Parrish, your husband to be, you can call me Parrish. Only my mother uses my first name.’ he introduced.

‘Parrish it is then.’ you smiled.

You looked down at the six empty plates on the table then down at the big lemon colored dress.

‘I’m sorry Parrish, but would like to get out of here? I cant stand being in this damn dress a second longer.’ you said honestly.

Parrish chuckled as he placed a few hundred dollar bills on the table and stood up.

You quickly followed him out of the restaurant, hiking up the dress to keep from tripping over it.

‘My car is parked right here, I have a change of clothes in the backseat, it will only take a few minutes.’ you said as you pulled your keys from your bra.

Parrish gave you a strange look as you unlocked your car.

‘I’m only carrying two things, a phone and a set of keys, why would I need a purse.’ you joked as you got in the back seat.

You tore yourself from the cursed dress, eager to get on your black tank top, tight ripped jeans, and combat boots.

As you put on the top you look up and catch Parrish watching you through the rear view mirror. 

You smiled as you winked at him, laughing when he blushed and turned away.

After you finished tying your boots you got out of the car a smug look on your face.

‘I should call you Tom, you peeper.’ you teased while opening your trunk.

‘I-I uh I’m so sorry I hadn’t meant to.’ Parrish awkwardly apologized.

‘It’s alright, we’ll be married soon. Can’t blame you for wanting to see what you were spending your life with.’ you said as you pulled your your red plaid over shirt and tied it around your waist.

‘Just know one day I might want a peep show as well.’ you grinned.

Parrish’s blush darkened as you wiggled your eyebrows.

‘You’re really are a little tomato aren’t you Parrish, come on.’ you said as you took his hand, pulling him along.

‘Where are we going?’ he asked.

‘A date, I want to get to know my fiance.’ you answer.

‘What will we be doing on this date?’ Parrish asked.

‘Walking, talking, telling jokes, embarrassing secrets, blushing, sneaking glances. Having our own little montage.’ you replied.

‘Montage?’

‘Montage.’ you nodded.

‘So why don’t people use your first name?’ you asked.

‘In school I knew more than ten other Jordans, and that was just in my grade, and four of them were in my class. At first they tried calling me JP, but the Jordan Pride transferred, so then I was Jay, but the two other guys named Jay didn’t like that. Finally I just by my last name. Parrish.’ he answered.

‘So complex.’ you commented, tangling you fingers with his.

‘What about you? Any nick names?’ Parrish asked.

‘A few, but only two that ever get used, both a bit embarrassing.’ you answered.

‘Well, let me hear them.’

‘The first one is... Baby I Love You.’ you mumbled.

‘What?’ Parrish laughed.

‘Shut up, they literally called me Baby I Love You, because apparently when I was learning how to talk I watched a shit ton of Barney so for a while I only knew how to say I love you. Said it anytime I heard my name.’ you confessed.

‘Aw that is adorable.’ Parrish cooed.

‘Its embarrassing.’ you whined.

‘What’s the other?’ Parrish asked.

‘This one I have no clue where it came from or who even started it, but its FooFoo. Over the years its been altered every which way, Foofy, Foofidalia, Foofs.’ you rambled.

‘Very unique. Alright, What do you do for a living?’ Parrish asked as you two rounded the corner.

‘I’m a vet’s assistant at the moment, but while I love animals, my passion is writing. What about you?’ you returned.

‘I’m the CFO of the Hell Hound Law Firm, and despite my father Owning the company I did earn my position.’ Parrish stated.

‘Oh I yeah I read that you started off working as an intern.’ you said.

‘Yeah, while I was still getting my law degree I took the internship for some extra money since my parents were only paying for tuition, Dad said it would build character and respect for the company.’

‘Did you always want to run the law firm?’ you asked him as you waited for the cross signal.

‘Well, when I was seven I wanted to be a squirrel I think, but when I was eight my parents too me to work with them. Back then it was just this five story building were renting, but they showed it to me with so much pride and so much hope. They told me they were building it all for me, even then I think I understood that they had put everything into that company for me. For me and my kids and all their kids after that, for the family.’ Parrish answered absentmindedly.

‘Wow.’ you said in awe as you both crossed the street, entering the local park.

‘Your parents are really great, to build a multi million dollar law firm from the ground up for you.’ you said.

‘What about your parents, how are they?’ Parrish asked as you both walked in the shade.

‘Well, my parents didn’t build a company or anything, but I doubt there s a bigger cheerleader than my dad. At my high school graduation he printed a huge cut out of my face and screamed “THAT’S MY SEED RIGHT THERE, LOOK AT HER BLOOMING BITCHES!” when I walked.’ you laughed.

‘He did not.’ Parrish doubted.

‘I swear, he almost got kicked out.’ you swore.

‘What about your mom?’

You let out a long sigh.

‘I’m sure she loves me, in her own way, but me and her have never been that close. I think she blames me for a lot of things.’ you answered.

‘Like what?’

‘She got pregnant in high school, dropped out. When she would have a bit too much wine she would tell me all the dreams she had of becoming an actress. She would try to put me in beauty pageants, but Dad never let her thank God. When I told her I was going to be an English major she almost popped a vein.’ you said sadly.

‘I’m sorry.’ Parrish apologized.

‘Its OK, I love my Mom and like I said I know she loves me too.’ you replied.

‘Well what’s an embarrassing secret that no one knows?’ you asked, getting away from the serious buzz kill of a topic.

‘I wont say a word.’ he said defiantly, crossing his.

‘Come on, eventually I’ll find out, why not tell me now?’

‘If I tell you, you can’t tell anyone.’ he said seriously.

‘When I was twelve, I took a girl I liked to the movies and she asked to see my...you know.’ Parrish whispered.

‘No, in the movie theater?’ you gasped, hand over your mouth.

‘Yes, so at first I’m like, not a chance, but she convinces me so I do it anyway, so I pull it out. So she’s looking at it for like a minute, then she pokes it, one finger. Looks at her hand, runs out of the theater.’ Parrish tells.

‘Hang on, I feel like we need to sit down for the rest of this story.’ you said as you pull him to sit on a bench under a tree.

‘So you’re sitting there literally with your dick out, then what?’ you asked.

‘Well I put it back and go try to find her, I see her come out the restroom wiping her hands, so I’m like why did you leave? She said I had to wash my hands, I touched your penis.’ he continued, moving closer to you.

‘Was it dirty?’ 

‘Absolutely not!’ Parrish said defensively.

You rose your hands in mock surrender.

‘So go home, I tell my friends t just didn’t go well, we met at a party a few months back. She and her wife are very happy together.’ Parrish finished.

Before you could stop it a small chuckle escaped your lips, you bit back the rest of your laugh when you Parrish glared at you.

‘I’m sorry, it’s just aha ha, yours is so much worse than mine.’

‘Well what’s your secret?’ Parrish pouted.

‘I slept with girl my ex cheated on me with.’ you shrugged.

‘You-you what?’ Parrish stuttered, eyes wide.

‘I wasn’t into her or anything, and at that point I was over him, but you know it was back when YOLO was a thing. After I did it I just ever told anyone, felt kinda bad for it.’ you sighed as you leaned into him.

‘So I seem to have a thing for girls who do things with girls.’ Parrish joked.

‘It seems so.’ you smiled as you looked up at him.

‘You are an odd little thing aren’t you?’ he asked as he leaned closer to you.

‘You have six months to find out.’ you whispered before you pulled him into a slow kiss.

As you two shared your shared your first kiss you didn’t see the guy watching you from the other side of the park, or the hate is eyes.

#teen wolf imagines #AU #arranged marriage #Parrish

[mybaby-starlight]

In Seven Days.

Title: In Seven Days Characters: Hyungwon/Reader Genre: fluff It was monday. To describe the day, it was fairly beautiful day with a clear sky yet chilly breeze. People are busy with their own tasks, works and even playing for the little children. Bodies walking here and there. People on their phones talking, checking their schedules and the current news affairs. The normal life of a grown human. After sometime of the day. A unusually tired body walks in on a cafe, ordered and sat down near the huge window over views the streets. The body slumps his bag on the vacant chair and looks outside with dread written on his beautiful face. With his heavy heart and a string of low toned profanities escaping his mouth, he took out a marron notebook and a pen. Every single time that he sees that notebook it feels like he wants to throw up or submerge his self on a tank of water and never come up again. Never. But he is Hyungwon. Chae Hyungwon he never gives up and this? This is just an essay. What could go wrong, right? After sometime of telling himself words of encouragement he begins to write on the said maroon notebook. Two pages had passed. For the forth time he started again for an hour. Yet, every time, every single time that he reaches the third page he looses words to write. Paper balls are all around the table and causally falls on the floor everytime he decided to rest his body on the table. He took his coffee to drink it but eventually stopped because it was already cold for his liking. Therefore he sat his cold coffee down on the table to be long forgotten and resume to try and work on his essay. “Thank you! Please come again!” When he heard that he looks up and saw the cashier and the bartender bowed to you, your whose back was facing him. He had a clear view of the your face when you turned around and started to walk out. Your hair was silky brown locks, tinty cheeks, plump lips that are now on the lid of the coffee cup on your hand. Unusually you had this quite untrimmed eyebrows that seems to be complementing your soft facial features, under the round eye glasses your eyes where sparkling or so does he thinks. On the sound of the chimes hitting each other made him snap back to reality, and when he did he already saw you passing by the window of his side. He saw how you hold the cup tightly on your hand getting most of the warm, because its chilly outside. As you passed by, he took his pen once again and stared to write his essay. But this time with clear and visible beautiful smile that adorned his equally beautiful face. Now. His pen is dancing rather gracefully on the paper leaving inky traces of words. His words are flowing like water on a river. The smile never left his face and once in awhile he takes the cup of coffee and drinks it, not minding it being cold. He is inspired to care. The next day, Tuesday. He is there again. On the same spot, with the same cup of coffee accompanied by a slice of cake. Hyungwon is there smiling by himself just by thinking on you who made him more motivated to write and write the whole day. Heck, he even finished writting his first seven pages. He had been on this crisis from the day it was given from him. Since that day he had been writting then after some time he needs to re-write or to start all over again. It happened in repitition for the whole week que the two lifeless covers of a notebook. Yes two. Just by thinking of it annoys him. But still. Thanks for her he is now down to eighteen more pages and he will sure be done before it will be dued next week. He will be lying to himself if he didn't dressed himself a little more, hoping that she would visit this cafe again. Once in awhile he looks outside the window or everytime that the chimes on the door will sound. Hoping that its you. But most of the time its not. He become a little moody, by the thought of she might just have passed by and gave him that short span of inspiration. It makes him want to loose again his hope, because it makes hims feel that if he will not see you again he might start all over again. Slowly his worries are again painting his face with a frown. The chimes sounded again indicating that someone might went inside or left the cafe. "Thank you, please have a sit and we'll serve you, your order~" the cashier told you and with that you walked on one of the vacant table and sat. Your back once again facing him. Groaning in frustration he tried to maintain his momentum on writing, seeing it being pointless to try he abruptly stopped and put his pen on the table and looked outside. After a few minutes he stood up and left the cafe. Wednesday came and it was really chilly outside. Hyungwon walked in the same cafe were he ordered the usual. Looking around he saw that the cafe was quite full and his usual place is currently occupied, he walks around and saw that there is one vacant chair and walks towards it asking the other if he could sit at the other chair if it wasn't taken. His pupils dilates, warmt crosses his body to his face and he swears he felt his heart skipped a few beats. His hands started to sweat and his stomach is making twist and turns. "Ah, yes you can take the other chair im not with anyone" you said with a smile that graced her face. He cracks an awkward smile which earned him a chuckle from the other making him laugh a little as well as he sat down. He took out his maroon notebook and started to write down his thoughts like how it was on monday. Once in a while he looks up to take a peak of her reading. He hears your quiet chuckles as you read, he'll look at you and you'll take a peak just to see him looking at you with a small smile on his face while you will mouthed an apology then going back on your book and he will go back on writing too. He was going to take his cup of coffee but when he was about to reach for his cup he felt another hand on top of his. Abruptly he looks at his hands with wide eyes and flushed cheeks as he looks up and saw that you has the same flushed ones. He will going to lie to himself if he didn't find it adorable. He immediately took away his hand and awkwardly looks outside, then to you and then to the cup. "Oh... I-I think that is your coffee..." he said as he trailled off looking at the two identical coffee cups. "Yo-you sure? This might be yours.." "I doubt? " "You doubt? Well... this is weird but... lets just take the cup we think is ours and claim it." You said as you looks at Hyungwon with your big sparkling eyes "how about it?" With that both of them took one of the cups and drank it. They smiled at each other as if something is off and resumed to their task at hand. Thursday. It was the same routine. Hyungwon was wearing his thick glasses and his hair rather quite tousled in every direction. He heard that the chair in front of him was pulled out and a body sat opposite of him smilling. Ah yes, it was you again. He wonders how this your eyes seems to always sparkle and you smell extra wonderful. Not like you wasn't yesterday but you smells... really fresh with a hint of minty. "You look... umm... well-" "Really handsome even if my hair is not fixed? Yeah, I always get that. Thank you very much" he said with a smug smile across his face. "Hyungwon. Chae Hyungwon by the way, you my lady? " he asked. "Y/N, nice to meet you, very handsome Chae Hyungwon" you extended your hand with a smile and he took it. "So... Hyungwon what are you writing?" "An essay. This is dued next week and im about to be finished" he said. And if not with your presence I wont be able to finish this in no time. After writing few more lines and finishes it with a period, he looks up to you adjusting his glasses and speak. "So... what do you do in your free time?" "Well... I just read and drink coffee, sometimes looking for fun things to do, and you?" You asked as your eyes wander outside the window. "Fun? Well... since im finished on my essay how about we go out?" He took a sip of his coffee. "Like a date? Are you asking me for a date?" You gave him the cheeky smiles as they locked gazes. "It seems that you took it as it is, and I think you we're the one asking me for a date" he put his notebook on his bag, standing up and offered his hand for you to take. "Ah~it must be nice to be asked out by a really handsome man isn't Y/N?" He said with a smug smirk on his face as they went out of the coffee shop for their 'date'. He feels all fuzy inside as he can't controll the smile on his face, looking down he can see that you had flushed cheeks. Can this day be any better? If it can please come true. Friday. Friday came as if it was like monday yesterday. He was walking on to the same direction he walks to almost every day. He was greeted by an old man on the flower shop as well as his wife who was smilling at him sweeetly. He looked ahead and saw that you just went inside and without further a do he took a yellow rose and paid for it. But the old couple just gave it for free. He even heard the old lady said go get her, with that he dashed his way to the said cafe. He walked in and immediately saw you on the crowd. You just simply stands out even if you just wear the simplest attire and makeup. He took the chair and sat down placing the yellow rose on the book you is reading and smiled.He mouthed 'your welcome' and took a sip of his frappé. After a good few minutes of silence, a comfortable and inviting silence he spoke. "So, what do you think about yesterday?" He asked awkwardly looking at you. His confindence vanishing. "It was... well it really fun and very tiring but..." "But what?" He asked eyeing you with worry. "But it would be fun if you literally hut your head on one of the sign posts" you giggled "why? Did you think I didn't enjoyed it?" He scratches his nape as he looks outside as he say yeah. They had talked and talked and even ate lunch together outside. They had fun again, and mainly teasing each other. They call it the day and bid farewell as she rode on of the bus and he was left there standing with a shy grin cross his face. When he looked at his hand, he saw your handkerchief and a paper fell. With scribbles. 'Call me? :)' He laughed at himself for your cute childishness. They talked and talked as the night grew darker and colder. He was on his bed twisting and turning while he laughs at your awful jokes and they even made cringe worthy acrostic poems and things they see. "So I am an inspiring writter and you my lady is a painter. This is really awesome I can say" "Im awful. Im not what you think I am. This? These are not art if you ask me" you said on the other line. He can feel that you are sad saying it. "Well... if it's awful. I would like to ask you out tomorrow and might as well tour you more around since you're new here." He paused as he heard you squealing "so.. how about it?" "Yes!" He laughed at your response as if heaviness was lifted from him. They called it the night and sleep, because they would be early tomorrow. "You helped me with my essay... and this is the least I can help you with" with that said he closed his eyes and letting darkness engulf him to sleep. Saturday. He got up as soon as his phone rang. It was unusual for him to get up that fast, but he did because well... he will help a friend with her painting. Its not a date Hyungwon. Not a date. He went to the bathroom to shower. Dressed himself casually with one last look on the mirror he kissed his mom, went out and made his way to the cafe. The usual. He ordered two coffees. One for you and for him. He sat there minding his own business as he listen to the music that flows from the phone to his ears. It was a calm day and so he was. But he almost got a heary attack when you surprised him. "Yah! Y/N! You scared me pabo!" He said as he clutches on his chest and trying to calm his racing heart. "I almost hit you!" He added as he let a nervous laugh. "Sorry handsome. You just look so... at peace. Is that mine?" You asked as you took the other cup and drink it. As the liquid passed your taste buds you looked at him with shocked but eventually smiled. "So lets go? We have many things to do handsome!" You grabbed him by the arm and walks out. "So... let me guess we are going to some place with beautiful scenery right?" You asked as she walk in front while facing him. "You'll see." He said as he spun you around and resting his hands on your shoulders. Him walking behind you was great because he can literally smell your sweet perfume and your hair? It was really silky as what he always thought they would be. As they walk, they reached an art museum. He felt that you tensed a bit so he squzzed your shoulders a little telling you that its ok. After a few hours of walking around the museum they went out and ate lunch. They been quiet for the whole time in the museum also as they eat. Both are eating in silence. Even finished it. He felt bad for bringing you there. It was stupid of him now he thinks that you hate him for that. After they ate. They rode a bus to a train station. Hyungwon bought to train tickets to Jinhae a place where he thinks you would love. It was still the same. You were quiet the whole trip, but as they got nearer to Jinhae you smiled at the place. It was already beautiful, eyes are wandering around with a smile on your face. He saw that a little weight was lifted from his chest but he still cant deny that he is worried that you hate him. They were walking here and there, he has his camera with him and takes pictures and stealing some pictures of you. They went to Yeojwa stream and there he can see that she loved it. "On april. We will go here again. When the cherry blossoms are at bloom. This place would be extra beautiful" he said as he stares far across. "Umm... Hyugwon. Im sorry" he looked at you and about to say a word. "Sorry for making you feel that you did bad, back at the museum. I just dont know how to react. But seeing the arts there. I can say that I can have my own art exhibition" you look at him with the familiar sparkle in your eyes. "Then I would be you number one fan!" He said with a smile on his face "Same here. I will definitely read your books!" After sometime they went home. Your head was on his shoulders for you were so tired from running here and there, but he cannot hide the fact that it was a great and exhausting day. As they went back to Seoul they rode their respective buses. 'Call me when you got home' he texted and you replied. As he got home. He immediately took off his shoes greeted his mom and went to his room and slumps in. He heard his mom told him to eat but he is too tired to get off. He decided to go down with heavy eye lids. He ate dinner with his mom and dad. Cling he heard his phone notification he checked it and saw that you are already home. Guess I can sleep right here, right now he looked up to see his dad looking at him as if he read his mind and shoo him off to bed. Taking a quick shower he went to bed as soom as he was in pajamas. Sending you one last message for the day, he dozed off instantly. Sunday. He didn't noticed what time it was and also his phone ringing. When he saw it he was bombed by your messages and 15 missed calls. He went straight to the shower to take one quick shower and dressed. He greeted his mom and ran down the hall outside of their house. As he got off the bus he started to run to the cafe, but as soon as he got there you weren't there. But he saw a little letter on the table. On the usual letter. Hyungwon, I was going to let you take a peak of the painting I did yesterday when I got home. I got hyped up when I saw my canvas. It'll be on the school's art gallery... so you can see it... school mate ;) -Y/N "So... your my schoolmate? Why didn't I noticed? Pabo" he told to himself as he waltzed to the cashier and ordered the usual and sat down. He took out his maroon notebook and went to the last page and wrote again. Monday. It was the school's art gallery showing day. This is the day were students, whether it is that you are an art major or not you can submit an art that you made. It doesn't need to be painting or something. It just need to portray something really meaningful. He was walking down the hall looking piece after piece. All are beautiful but he looks at the names carefully not wanting to miss your art. There you were. Standing giddily as soon as you saw his form. His body went stiff as he saw the smile on your face and when he look at your side. He saw a master piece. It was like what you said. Its not what he think you will do. But he can say you put your heart into it. As if the little tour last Saturday was the last piece. But it wasn't. "Its not how you paint beautifully, even if you do horribly as long as someone is there to appreciate it. You're good. Right?" She said to him out of the blue and he can only smile at you. "So... poetic of you Y/N" he teased you. After the short tour at the school gallery he went back to his class and passed his essay. At the end of the essay it reads. 'Even the greatest writers and painters needs more practice. Because you wont be called great in an instant. You need to fall and rise once in your life. You just need an inspiration as well a friend to keep you company, make you laugh and feel bad for the simplest things. But would never leave you.' "I dont know if I'll call you a friend or not. You seems so special but we will take everything slow and carefully." He thought as a smile graced his features looking outside the window.

#monsta x one shot #Hyungwon one shot #monsta x Hyungwon one shot #monsta x fluff

[crimsoncoatedconscience]

` they say there's a fine line between love and hate, and they're right -- you're on that side ( l o v e ) and i'm on this one ( h a t e ) ,

movie therapists tell all the sad and hate-filled main characters to write down their feelings in letters, or journals, because it'll "help." i really don't think it will, but that's more because at this point i don't think ANYTHING will help me. but if there's even the slightest chance...you should, right? i know that's what some people would say.

dear yura-noona,

you're literally the shittiest sister someone could ever have, and i hate you. i guess that's not what little brothers are supposed to say to their sisters, but. there you have it. you're a piece of shit, and sometimes i wish you were dead--or better yet, never born.

but at the same time...i really dont. i dont wish you were dead. i dont wish that you were never born. i dont hate you. not at all. and i hate THAT. i still remember hiding from mom together under your ugly barbie blankets, i still remember that time you played doctor and helped me when dad went a little overboard. i still remember singing to the few disney movies we had, and watching all your bad tv dramas.

i'm not saying everything was perfect, because it wasn't. you hit me almost as much as mom did, and we screamed at each other more than we talked normally, and i still remember when you threw my toys into the fireplace and lied to dad's face just so that he'd hit me instead of you.

it wasn't great before high school, but it wasn't the worst either. and then you did some really bad things to me in first year. things that i didn't realize were as bad as they were, until i got some...better people in my life.

...you and your "girls." ...they still give me nightmares, sometimes, when i can actually sleep. and it all only gets worse when i see your face on the news sometimes, but despite everything...im not mad. i dont hate you like i should. and i watch til the end of the broadcast, every time, just to be sure you're okay.

because you know...i get now, that it's not you. that it's mom, that it's dad. and you were just doing what you had to, to save yourself. and now that im...in a better place i guess, i realize just how shitty that is, but i'd have probably done the same. so i can't blame you.

and i dont hate you. i HATE that i dont hate you, and i hate that i still worry about you.

i hate MYSELF because i still love you,

- chanyeol

dear baechu,

i still can't believe how much i fuckin miss you. i don't think youre supposed to write to dead people, like im pretty sure thats bad and weird but i just. there's so many feelings, and this is supposed to be an outlet, and if you were here right now, i. i dont even know what i'd say. i think about it a lot--what id say if i woke up one day and you werent actually gone, and everything was okay again. because its not even close to okay right now, and i dont think it ever will be again, but...but im trying. because. because "take care?" was one of the last things you said to me, and its one of the only things that stops me when i get...bad. and then i think of that, but it just makes me so sad i actually want to die, but i CANT. ...i wont.

and if you were here again, id tell you that i hate how much power you still have over me, even if youre not here, and-- no. no i wouldnt. id tell you how sorry i am that im a piece of shit, and that im sorry you ever got involved with me in the first place, and that im sorry you suffered so much because of me. id tell you how sorry i am that i got you KILLED. that i couldn't help you because i was fucking LATE . AGAIN.

and id apologize for being the absolute shittiest oppa on the planet, and for just...everything. im still sorry i kept you waiting at graduation. i bet you looked wonderful, before all your flowers wilted, and you got upset because i didnt remember until several hours after the fact. im sorry you never made it very far into college, or pursued any of your dreams. im sorry that it was because of me, and that i took your whole life away. im sorry that you never got to do what you wanted, and that its because i had a few shots too many and spent too long falling on my ass in the crowd while they were MURDERING you.

im sorry that i was just that much too late one too many times, and i HATE that youre dead because of that. if i hadnt been drinking, or gone out at all, youd still be here, trying to get me to wear nicer shoes, and be more polite, instead of in the cemetery, and im just--im so sorry.

i still love you more than you probably ever knew, and i dont know the words to express how sorry i still am that i killed you and how much i HATE M Y S E L F for it.

- with love, chanyeol

dear zitao,

i actually dont know what to say. i think youre a pretty awful person--maybe worse than me, and im not sorry that youre dead. im only sorry i spent so long on you when i dont think you really deserved it, and im sorry about how much pain you ve caused sehun and im angry actually that you just went and got yourself killed after ruining everything--ruining ME. ruining sehun--one of the only people breathing on this earth that means anything to me.

but more than that, i hate MYSELF for getting involved with you and not getting out sooner, and ruining my relationship with yura-noona--the only person from my family that actually matters to me.

now that the shock is gone, the hurt gone, and now that im thinking clearer because i have to be sober, because you fucked EvERYTHING up im not sad anymore. im not upset. not that you're dead--only that your death caused sehun more pain than it had any right to and he almost DIED because of it.

and i guess more than any of THAT, i hate MYSELF for introducing sehun to you, and bringing you home, and into our lives and i hate that if it wasn't for that, sehun wouldn't have tried to kill himself.

sometimes i wish i'd never actually met you. so many things would be better, but even still.

i hate myself because i miss you.

- cànliè

p.s. im also sorry for all the times I hurt YOU and all the pain i caused--without thinking about it, and intentional. im sorry that you suffered because of me, and im sorry that i made everything as shitty as possible for a long time before i pulled my head out of my ass. im sorry that you were miserable enough with me to go to others for basic things like comfort or sex, and i hate myself because I did that to YOU.

and i hate that if your father hadn't come and murdered you because of reasons i still don't really understand, that you'd have probably killed yourself because of me anyway. so im sorry. i hate that im sorry, and i hate that any of this ever happened at all.

and i hate myself because maybe i'm the shittier person and you didn't deserve anything that happened to you after all.

dear sehun,

i dont even know where to start. im sorry that im an awful hyung and im so so thankful that you're still alive and here with me, and im sorry that you've had to suffer so much for me. when we were younger, i didnt realize just how much you would come to mean to me through the years--i didnt know that standing up for one scrawny kid and scaring the bullies off would lead to what we have today. and im not even sure what it is--its more than friendship, but i cant say you feel like family because my family is...well, you know. that's why you're here, with me. rather than with yura-noona.

and even if it left me with a scar, and even if it's what led to the start of everything going bad with her, and my parents--well, more than it already was--i dont regret saving you from her. part of me thinks i should. part of me thinks it was really stupid. i didnt know you. all i knew was that you were kinda lame, and couldn't take a hit for shit, and that you seemed like a nice kid, and i still have no idea why i went against the only person at the time that meant anything to me--the only one that was kinda on my side, sometimes--just to help get you out, but. i'm glad i did.

i don't know what i'd do without you. we have our moments, sure, but you help keep me grounded, keep me sane...keep me alive. sehun i cant even count the number of times i wanted to just end it all, and didn't because of you.

because you believe in me. you trust me, even after i failed you too many times to keep track of. you're there for me, and im sorry that i'm not always there for you. im sorry that i dont give you 100% like you give me, and i'm sorry that i dont always notice things, and that i'm the shittest hyung you could ever get stuck with IM SORRY.

...im sorry that i was almost too late to save you when you...yeah. i'm sorry i wasn't there sooner. i'm sorry that it happened because i ...brought zitao home,a nd got us into this mess in the first place. i'm sorry that i couldn't do better for you, that i cANT do better for you, and im sorry that you're stuck with me, and all of the pain that comes with me.

im sorry that i've failed you so many times, and im sorry that i've broken almost every promise i've ever made, and that i can't always keep you safe, or happy, and i'm sorry that i'm not superman, and i HATE that i can't be.

you're the best thing that's ever happened to me sehun, and im sorry and i hate myself because i must be the opposite for you. im really trying harder to be the person you make me out to be, and i hate that i can't achieve it. im sorry.

- chanyeol

dear joohyun-noona,

im sorry that we met the way we did. but im thankful that you helped me, instead of turning me away or leaving me to just...yeah. and i dont have the words but...thank you. without you i'd actually be dead, and even though it hurts and im more ashamed than i know how to say, i'd rather feel that than be, you know..gone. so thank you. thank you.

thank you for believing in me too, and for always saying the nicest things, even though i dont deserve to hear them, and i don't understand how you mean them. i know youre sincere, i just dont know how or WHY. im a monster compared to you, and i dont understand how you havent run screaming yet, or why you insist that im not because i AM and.

and i hate that i can't believe you. i want to noona, i do. but i can't, because there's just so much bad, and so many things i've done wrong, and i just. between stitches and real food and crashing on your couch ive come to love you a lot more than i have any right to, and im sorry that i dont deserve what you give me in return.

im sorry im always a mess, and taking up your time, and getting your clean floors dirty. im sorry that i cling, and break down too often, and i know you say you dont mind but how can you not? i haven't done anything in return except give you headaches, and i hate that.

i hate that you say nice things about me, that you tell me nice things, and make me think that i can be something better than i am, and i hate myself because i can't live up to those standards.

i hate myself even more because i know, if i really tried, i probably could. but im selfish, and there's so many things wrong with me, and so many things ive done WRONG that i dont...i dont deserve for things to get better. i dont deserve to try harder and turn things around, and i dont deserve the good that would come with that.

i dont deserve you at all and i hate myself because i can't let you go.

- chanyeol

dear yongguk-hyung,

i really dont know what to say except im sorry. i know you tried to help me in school and i really do appreciate it. even if it seems like i've thrown away everything you tried to help me with, its not because i hate you or what you tried to teach me. i just. bad things happened, and i hate that everything we did together just...fell away. i dont even know a good phrase for that, because nothing stuck, and im sorry for that too. that im a fuck up and a failure, and i hate myself because all i did was waste your time--time you could have used to make money off of other kids who actually had a future.

im sorry that i couldnt live up to what you wanted, and im sorry that we met again in the way we did, and i hate how awful i've become, and how awkward it is, and i hate that you look at me the way you do, but i dont hate you hyung. i hate ME.

i hate that im worthless, and useless and that i'm the actual biggest screwup ever, and im sorry that i broke the promises i made you. im sorry that i couldnt do better. and im sorry that you have to see me like this now.

every time i see you, the shame and regret and guilt are almost too much for me, and im sorry that it gets in the way of anything you try to say to me now. im sorry that i cant listen like i should, and i hate that i've disappointed you so much. ...and not just in school. or based on how many english words i remembered from our lessons.

im sorry that i'm an embarrassment, and that you have to deal with me again, and im just. so sorry that i didn't live up to your expectations.

i'm sorry that i can't be the person that you wanted me to be, and i hate myself because i still want you to treat me like i am.

- chanyeol

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