#Kes is having a bad time

[bumblingbabooshka]

Mirror!Neelix & Mirror!Kes Thoughts: Shared theme of destruction. Leaning further into Kes' 'insect' vibes where the Ocampa are actually a locust-like species that require a near constant source of food, though any food will do (it doesn't have to be a cooked dish). The caretaker was able to satisfy that but since Kes is alone now she finds that she's hungry a good deal of the time. Ocampa have been known in the past to cannibalize one another if there isn't another source of food. Also, I can imagine Mirror!Kes playing into the fact that other species view her age as being very young and pretending to be naive or in need of help in order to get others to let their guard down. Manipulative and often irritated by others. Despite playing into the fact that others might see her as a child, she deeply resents it. Lashes out in covert ways which she can deny. Wants to unlock her telepathic abilities to gain more power. Views herself as special and above others for being able to reach the surface. Mirror!Neelix I can imagine as having a direct hand in the destruction of his home and family. Basically, he became a soldier instead of running away. Has a poor reputation with other Talaxians because of this which he resents. Is still deeply sad about the deaths of his family but tries not to think about them at all. Also unlike regular Neelix who somewhat oversells his abilities, Mirror!Neelix undersells them. Much more lethargic and outwardly jaded/bitter than regular Neelix. Intentionally poisons Voyager's crew on a monthly basis but not Janeway or Chakotay and never lethally so she doesn't kick him off. Can make amazing dishes but often intentionally ruins them. (Good food is a special treat). Obviously dislikes his lot in life and enjoys bringing others down. Finds Tuvok intriguing because he seems immune to this. ('I want to make him happy!' is mirrored as 'I want to make him sad!') Since Voyager's Mirrored goal in my mind is 'conquer' instead of 'explore' - they often see Kes & Neelix as nuisances since they don't seem to care at all about growing their influence or being feared throughout the quadrant at first. However, Kes quickly learns to like conquering and power and grows to admire both Janeway and Tuvok. Neelix doesn't much care about conquering so much as he wants to mooch off Voyager's resources and make others miserable. Eventually becomes attached to Voyager's crew but that doesn't mean he'll poison their food any less, especially if he hears them complaining. Even after this change they're still viewed as nuisances because they don't care about any command structure except for 'Appease the Captain'.

#also in the mirrored verse Neelix is just as possessive at first but Kes is very irritated by it and they fight a lot #eventually they stop their on-off romance and just become partners in crime and their relationship improves (to everyone's dismay) #<- they are twice the nuisance 24/7 #In the mirrored verse Kes wants to the doctor to make some sort of serum/medication that can keep her alive longer #st voyager #Neelix #Kes #mirror voyager #mirror Kes also wants to eat dead crewmates v_v EMH will NOT let her until he does an autopsy thank you very much #mirrorverse to me is: Voyager crew is still a fucked up little family made unhealthily close due to the circumstances <3 #they just ALSO kill and conquer and torture people and are evil #WELL....that's the more 'zany' mirrorverse. My other Voyager 'mirrorverse' is just basically 'wrong decisions' AU #where they're still a fucked up little family made unhealthily close due to the circumstances <3 #they just ALSO have made so many impossible and bad decisions that they're paranoid beyond belief and have essentially abandoned Starfleet #code and many of their own morals to focus entirely on survival while feeling guilty and miserable the entire time #but this is the zany version where their backstories are changed - in the 'wrong decision' AU they start out as the same people/backstories

[cringelordofchaos]

Emotion achieved: empathy (only for a fictional character though)

#djxmd #d.d......... #episode 87 jacksons diary. #the whole time i was feeling rly bad for exer bc exer said “i canngo to therapy. i love you” to his dad. but his dadz face looked soulles #and for some reasjn mt brain is making me think that means his dad DOESNT want exer to improve or thinks he doesnt deserve love ... WHICH IS #WRONG !! “i need to find a way to help both jackson and exer” - harry campell. direct quote #but still. it made me FEEL LIKE he hated his son for some reason (WHICH IS UNTRUE) #which made ke feel bad for exer? and i accidentally thought of me and my own parents. like “lmao what kf your mom doesnt think you deserve- #- love but js only pretending you do“. and i got really sad and i cried. idk why i dojt have mommy issues just #uhxkx. mannnnn. #i LOVE HARRY BTW !!! AND HIS FATHER-SON RELATIONSHIP W EXER #MY BRAIN JUST MAKES ME THINK IRRATIONAL THINGS SOMETIMES #jacksons diary #webtoon #exer campbell

[vilelittlecritter]

Me: "I don't like people, I prefer being on my own and not talking"

People: "oh okay we'll leave you be then"

Me: "wait no PLEASE COME BACK I WANT LOVE-"

#its not that i dont like people. its just that i have resorted to avoiding people out of habit and a sense that i make things worse #like its not that i DON'T want to message my friend. its just that I cant bring myself to since i usually dont #ha ha ha. god i am desperate to just speak to people but I want to be left alone and im scared of people turning out to be mean #i kinda feel like crying when i see people say how they love their friends and cuddle up with them and have fun #lol one of my old best friends caused me to have awful anxiety about myself because he judged and made fun of ke constantly #oh yeah and that other time after i broke up with a friend because we stupidly decided to try and date and it didnt go well #the bastard asked the person out that night. they said no because they aren't an ass or dumb. god i should have left him when he said that #oh yeah he also made fun of my sunny cosplay i did and then left me alone in the comic con crowd for half an hour #as someone with anxiety that fucked me up just a little #so yeah bad past friendships and terrible social skills have left me to just go lol cant get hurt if i dont have friends! #ha ha. this is agony. #i have like one actaul friend i talk to and she's going through some stuff and wants to be left alone #which is understandable but now I'm talking to absolutely no one #also even if i were to talk to people i just feel i make things worse #i feel like im obnoxious and weird constantly and I'm sobscsred that people are going to think I'm creepy #its not that im doing anything super weird its just that with my autism I can get overly excited and start rambling and not thinking #yet another reason why I've chosen to stop speaking as much #im also just really snappy sometimes #I remember a while ago someone i was kinda friends with asked me if i was okay and i said i was fine #they kept pushing because they were concerned and no ones ever really done that so i kind of panicked and raised my voice at them #i wasn't angry i just never had someone try and actually pry that deep before other than maybe my parents #they seem like a lovely person but i still feel so horrible for doing that to them #sure i apologises later and they understood but i felt like it was one of the most awful things ive done to someone #i hate even the thought of being cruel or mean and all they were trying to do was help and i snapped at them for it #sorry for being ranty but I'm starting to think im really not okay #I've pondered the idea of possibly having deppression but thats a conversation for my counselor #again sorry for sumoing and ill probably delete this soon #if anyone has read all of this im honestly impressed #personal rambles #vent tag

[the-official-account]

Not everyone who we can sit in a room with is a friend. I have higher standards! Friends take genuine interest in me as a person and also my interests for the sake of me! These are true statements. Friends do not refuse to engage with me to only use me as an emotional trash receptacle or to confirm how great they are. I am not a supporting character! I am not a fucking supporting character! I am no one's Black Best Friend! I am a person who deserves to be treated as such. These statements are not only true but generalizable!

#I AM A MUSHROOM i am not an aphid #though even aphids expirience mutuality that is inherent to agriculture... #still #i am so bad at recognizing when i dont like people until im sitting there smiling and soooo furious <3<3 #this is not about anyone on my tumblr obviously. that'd be an asshole move #tumblr is full of people who care about ke and what i care about because otherwise i can block them so easy <3 #maybe i should ask myself 'would i block this person on tumblr.com?' rather than 'do i like this person?' #and get better at finding polite ways to leave long conversations #hmm... #but at the same time: #Have You Double Checked You Are Treating The POC In Your Life Like Real Human Beings? #EVEN AND ESPECIALLY IF YOU ARE ALSO A POC we are not immune bestie chop chop 🕜🕜🕜

[pepprs]

crying again lol ok

#purrs #and posting online abt it so i get immediate validation / support instead of asking for help from anyone im close to i know. but god fucking #damn it to hell. ok im going to be candid about this because it hurts so fucking bad. five years ago i met someone so important to me. and I #miss her so so so so much. and every space here i have a memory with her in. and she left in July and she’s gone. and im sobbing my eyes out #FOR WHY because it was over 6 months ago and im happier and she’s happier and we’re all happier. but i think im getting some aftershocks #being here for the first time without her exactly 5 years to the week we met: when she was so important to me. she was the whole reason i #even saw myself as something. and she’s fucking gone. she left. but she’s not dead like LMAO idk why im crying so hard when i could just #text her any time and tell her that i miss her. but idk. it’s just everything is stirring memories and they’re painful to think about now or #at least today because she’s gone and it all changed. i was just saying that i feel like im not having any emotions and tonight the grief ju #just rammed into me like a train and my fucking counselor sucks ass and won’t even help me work through it and everyone is busy and tired an #and im a staff coach so im not supposed to be having a fuckjng mental breakdown over **** pacing around in my bathroom at 1:23am but ive be #been thinking about her so much and remembering all the formative interactions i had with her here and missing her so much i want to explode #and die and p*ke and whatever. so stupid to cry about it but i fucking miss her. and i hate that she’s not here. and i’m trying so hard to b #be her but i have to be me but i can’t not have what she brought here and im just crashi ng and burning and can’t be honest and im having a #breakdown and crying so hard and i don’t know what to do. i ithink i’ll be fine after some sleep and reflection but my heart is like seizing #on itself right now and nothing takes my mind off it and i just keep crying LMFAOOOOOO. i hate it here #delete later #like how can you look at me like that and then fuck off to ****** 4.5 years later. you know? im about to punch a hole into the hallway #and i have to be quiet bc ppl are trying to sleep but it’s making me fucking crazy. #retreat tag

[the-kestrels-feather]

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#oh boy oh boy i love being backed into a fucking corner and unable to escape #i love that i have to live with a mother who every time she gas a bad day it becomes “yell at kes” time #because im available and dont fight back #i love that i get yelled at for a messy room thats not even that messy #i love having to rely on my parents for a car so i can go to work and for a house so i have somewhere to live be ause i have no money #and it seems like no one wants to fucking hire me in or out of my desired career path #i love dreading going home from olaces because i hate being at home #i love wgen my mom comes home and says to her 2 mentally ill kids that “if she had a razor blade she would've committed su1c1de at work” #because someone hit and ran my sister today #i love this i love it so much #fucking hell i hate it here #personal #suicide cw #Suicide tw

[intergalacticaquarium]

Just outlined the next chapter and got some of it written and have I mentioned before that my core competency as a writer is writing angsty arguments that drive forward character devopment bc it is and I have

#and it is. good. #99% of the time i do it bc im actually arguing in spirit w fanon #bc it kinda annoys me when i see a fic w the cheerleader main and eddie is like babe u dont have to tell anybody bc i know u worked so hard #2 be popular ur too good for ke and then like ghosts her its infuriating #eddies childish but i dont think he would just completely ignore somebody or assume that they had a huge fight #based on something insignificant and i dont really think hed have the patience for somebody like that either. nor should anyone #also wow lost my original point about the cheerleader i do not buy that hed be cool w keeping ur legit official relationship a secret bc he #doesnt want to put your fucking popularity at risk #he might keep it a secret to stop u from being bullied but not bc youd stop being popular he would have 0 respect for that #also when hes like ur the only person that doesnt think im a freak #WRONG #do u not remember jonathans talk with will in season 2 where he says so what ur a freak im a freak id rather be friends with a freak than #a normie #eddie only says freak in a bad way when he says hunt the freak right bc now its bad and they turned on him for being a freak #not that hes a freak because everybody hates him #ppl dont stand on tables and say pretentious shit like that if they dont absolutely relish #in people insulting them by saying something true about them and then feeling cocky about it #old subcultures used to just be about lettin ur freak flag fly bc you didnt want to fit in i do not accept an eddie that is not #absolutely deliberately where he is on the social ladder he knows what hes doing hes enjoying every second of it #until everybody gets fed up and tries to fucking kill him for it #wow ok that was a rant #when ppl say that ppl write fanfiction bc something in canon is lacking theyre wrong its bc fanon interpretations are lacking #boy got woobified within 24 hours of s4 dropping i just need to be on the defense #and be out here screaming that hes a wild little freak boy that is probably very unsettling at times and needs to be transported #in a cat carrier #and hes doing it on purpose #all of this is said with all the love in my heart btw

[metropoliseaten]

Gonna be sooo obnoxious this disability pride month <- will probably forget within the first week just like in june don’t rb

#i’m bad with time!! i was trying to schedule with a friemf today and was like oh huh why do you have the fpurth (a weekday) off? and he’s li #ke the fucking federal holiday and i’m like ohhh thpught it was still may

[neonkoii]

IT FELT SO !!!! DEHUMANIZING IG THE WAY THEY HANDLED WILL !!!! QUEER CHARACTERS R NOT FUCKIN PLOT DEVICES TO PROGRESS STRIAGHT RELATIONSHIPS !!!!!

the way they handled will was completely disgusting and i'm going to be mad for DAYS

NO FOR REAL!!!! IT SUCKS SO BAD AND THERE ARE SO MANY THINGS THEY COULDVE DONE WITH THAT STORY THAT WOULDVE BEEN GOOD BUT THEY DIDNT. AND IM SO MAD.

#i was snapping a friend as i was watching bc he was a few hours ahead of me so he can vouch for my utter disappointment at a handful of ke #key scenes #and he’s a straight ass hockey dude but he agreed that the way it was written was bad and wrong and could’ve been done! a million times bet #better! #UGH. #rowe responses #shawn tag #volume 2 just left a bad taste in my mouth on so many levels and i think a lot of characters and actors alike have been completely done- #done dirty by the writing #stranger things spoilers #SHIT SORRY GUYS FORGOT THAT TAG ORIGINALLY <—

[bumblingbabooshka]

I want Tuvok and Neelix to watch a movie together bc I know it’d be an absolute disaster. Tuvok is either asleep or cinemasins and Neelix talks the whole time and they both keep asking each other questions which neither knows the answer to bc they were either half asleep or not paying attention. They both have very strong opinions of the movie despite all of that.

#they're AWFUL to watch movies you actually care to pay attention to with #Kes will watch movies with them both...Janeway will only watch a movie with Tuvok.. #Tom Harry and B'Elanna can't stand either #Chakotay will watch a movie with Tuvok but only if its EXTRAORDINARLY bad and he wants to pretend he likes it to piss him off #The doctor would hate watching a movie with either of them even though he'd definitely do the exact same things #Seven won't watch a movie #the doctor is the type of person who gives you fun facts about the movie while you're watching it #I love when characters are annoying I sincerely do <3 #tuvok/neelix #<- though this is true even if they're not gonna make out about how much they hate each others movies #Neelix: (experiencing this through a romantic lense) Are you free to watch a movie with me tonight~? #Tuvok: (experiencing this through a hatedate vulcan relationship lense) I will see if I can find time. #though I also like Neelix also experiencing it through an alien relationship lense #they both close the doors to their quarters after having a conversation and go 'IhatethatdudeSOMUCH!!!!!<3<3HE'S SO ANN OYING<3<3'

[partyswirl]

there’s a fan which keeps me up till 3am and a heater in the walls or whatever and i can’t sleep on thr pillows or actually anything i hat eit here!! can we leave!!

#aka just everything bad about home but i don’t have anything with me. that allows me to actually sleeo #like the plushie that mskes less noise than a pullow when i lay on it. if that gets thrown out i will #i dont wanna say kms cause i dont mean it but like it’s 3:35 in the morning i csnt think of better verbage. #not a big fan of buildings. to be honest #im gonna fry to sleep again cause this is the first time being on tech since lke 10:30 i’v e just been straight tryong to sleep. #LET ME OUT OF HEEERRREEEEEE!! just let ke stay gome i’d rather subsist pn a chips lnly diet (cant cook) than stay here #i’d rather get sick forever and explodee. #rambles

[sirenofthegreenbanks]

i feel like no matter how often i read the novel, i still fall back into a default state that feeds off the show. not talking about characterization, vibe, or anything significant. more like the little details, plot points, backstories of side characters, and so on. for example, it hasnt been that long since i last read tyk, but between then and now i went back to thinking mhy is responsible for both cwn and axiang’s death, and that wen kexing takes his revenge on him both as a stand-in for axiang, but also because he lost his little sister because of this man, which isnt true, as i found out just now. i also forgot the atrociously different-to-woh detail about zzs’s sword; something woh handily embroidered a sect heirloom story around, and which i thought qhz might have gotten as a payment or smth from yby: not the case. when will this torment end? cry

#tian ya ke #does it have something to do with the fact that i consume woh verse in many ways beyond source material #while i consume tyk exclusively by reading tyk and interacting with tyk? #the thing is i dont think im alone in suffering from this phenomenon #ive seen other fans confuse these two canons. novel fans. fans speaking about tyk #its like there is a sort of. readiness to accept woh canon as The Canon #i dont mean that in any bad way #its moments like these that make me want to turn back time and to change the order of things #i love both canons in their own ways. i love them precicely for their differences #but when one constantly overlaps the other even when it has no buiness to do so #it really makes it agonizing to be a fan #sometimes i wish i had read the novel first #and discovered the show later #independently. ignorantly. without knowing one has to do with the other #and only dicsovering the link when im already emotionally invested and knee deep in the show #and would have realized instantly how dissimilar they are in the same moment i would find out about the link #it would have made things. easier #it would be like. consuming both things like the seperate stories they are #instead of being entangled in it like this #talking to the moon

[steviesbicrisis]

A Barbie AU where the Kens decide, in order to get some recognition, to get individual names.

Steve, who’s just a Ken very good with kids, is having an identity crisis after his Barbie, journalist Barbie, broke up with him.

Not even picking a name as unique and special as Steve, so much different than Ken, managed to cheer him up.

Everyone keeps saying he should be happy about the change, and discover who he is outside of Barbie’s orbit, but he can’t see what was so wrong in their relationship. He loved waiting all day for Barbie to look at him, even if it was for a brief second.

As if going through an existential crisis wasn't enough, he has to do it under the constant mocking of his archnemesis, Ke- Eddie.

Eddie, with his long curly and annoyingly gorgeous hair, who has a sense of style he would give all of his rollerblades for, and who's always there to notice whenever Steve makes a mistake.

Eddie even has his Barbie still by his side, cheerleader Barbie, and every time Steve sees them together he gets a sick feeling in his stomach, like a tummy ache. Doctor Barbie visited him a couple of times and found nothing wrong with him, he imagines he's a little jealous of Eddie for being with a Barbie.

Steve talks about this with Polyglot Barbie, his best friend, annoying her to death.

"Why are we talking about Ken, again?" she interrupts Steve's retelling of his last encounter with Eddie.

"It's Eddie" Steve corrects her.

"Right," she nods. She's very supportive of their silly-name-thing (how most Barbies call it), but she still has trouble remembering all the names, "why are we still talking about him?"

They're hanging out at the park, sitting under a tree, Barbie's leg on top of his, and they're holding hands. It's nice. Steve is happy to have a best friend like Barbie.

Steve looks up, meeting Eddie's gaze. He's sitting at one of the picnic tables not far away from them, doing nothing besides glaring at Steve.

Barbie squeezes his hand to get his attention back, and Steve looks away.

"Because he keeps tormenting me! he's even glaring at me right now, I'm gonna get stress wrinkles!" Steve finally replies, in a distressed tone.

"You're being dramatic," she says, matter-of-factly, "Eddie isn't so bad with you. You know, he kinda treats you like his Barbie."

If Steve had a beating heart, it probably would've stopped right at this second.

"What?"

"You know, he's always looking for you, he is always giddy whenever you give him a crumble of attention. He hangs out where you hang out... why do you think he's sitting all alone at a picnic table, just staring at you?"

"Maybe he's waiting for his girlfriend" he suggests.

"Are you talking about Cheerleader Barbie?" she giggles, "she's not his girlfriend, trust me."

"But he picks on me! all the time! Like this morning, I tripped and he made a comment about my legs!" He gestures at his legs with his free hand.

Barbie tilts her head to the side "you mean this morning at the beach when he held you in his arms for ten minutes to prevent you from falling and Barbie had to tell him to let you go?"

"… yeah” he manages to say. He hadn’t realized how long Eddie held him in his arms, he was upset about almost falling in front of him, but he also liked the feeling of his arms around him.

Everything feels different now.

Barbie's look softens "How does this make you feel?"

"I don't know" he answers, honestly "I just can't stop thinking about him."

A loud noise at their right startles them off of their conversation. They turn around to see Eddie lying on the floor, a trash can at his feet.

Steve doesn't give himself the time to realize that Eddie has probably heard their entire conversation and has tripped on that trash can because of it, he just rushes to Eddie's side to help him out.

Eddie stammers while Steve pulls him back up, not making much sense.

Steve is used to see Eddie as an intimidating guy, someone to compete with for Barbie’s attention. He never realized how much he liked to have Eddie’s attention instead, nor how he loved to give that attention back in equal amount.

“Nice legs” he tells him, repeating the same words Eddie told him that morning.

Eddie stops his incoherent stream of words when he hears him “what?”

“You heard me” Steve says.

“I did” Eddie admits. He pulls the trash can back up, to have an excuse to not look at Steve when he asks “you can’t stop thinking about me?”

For some reason, that’s the easiest question Steve has ever had to answer to “yes, I can’t.”

Eddie jolts back up startling Steve, the trash can falling out of his hands and hitting the ground once again.

“Cool” he says, using all of his willpower to hide his excitement by keeping a relaxed face, failing miserably.

“I guess” Steve grins. Knowing he has that effect on Eddie is making him the most confident he has ever felt in his life.

“So, since you can’t stop thinking about me…” Eddie repeats, in a tone that Steve would’ve mistaken for a mocking one until few hours ago “…we could hang out on the beach later. I’ll bring my guitar.”

“I’ll bring mine too then” Steve replies immediately.

Eddie panics “We can’t both have a guitar!”

Steve crosses his arms on his chest “who says that?”

Eddie opens and closes his mouth a couple of times then mutters, defeated, “fine.”

“Great!” Steve takes a step forward and gives Eddie a peck on his cheek “I’ll see you later.”

Eddie, who makes a face again trying to hide his excitement, nods and turns away “cool.”

He walks away slowly, towards the park’s exit. Right by the gate, he throws himself into an hedge. Steve can clearly hear him when he screams words along the lines of “FINALLY”, “I HAVE A DATE” and “SUBLIME”.

Steve turns to Robin who has witnessed the whole thing, while Eddie is still screaming random words from the bushes.

“I think I’m in love.”

#I’ve been wanting to write this since I saw the movie #but it never felt right #this is the best I could do lmao #in case it wasn’t clear I’m making fun of Steve for going from basic name to basic name lmao #I love him #I just think they’re neat #steddie #steve harrington #eddie munson #stranger things #steve and eddie #steve x eddie #platonic stobin #barbie #Barbie au #Steddie au #steddie au Barbie

[jpitha]

Vocal Mimicry and Ear Worms

Every time the drink machine finished, it played a little song.

It was pretty simple, less than 10 notes, but it was the same song, every time.

It wasn't even that it played the same song every time. It wasn't even that everyone on the ship - except the humans - got a drink from the machine.

The song was catchy.

Peg started it. She just found her self whistling the "drink finished" song one day. "beep beepita beep beep beep beepita beeeeeeep." She couldn't help it.

Then, Kelly picked it up. The song worked its way into her head too. She'd be working at her station and suddenly she'd be struck by an intense need to sing the song.

After about three cycles, every single human on the ship was singing it. Normally, this would be chalked up by the rest of the crew as "just another strange Human thing" but the problem was that it was the 'drink finished' song. Everyone onboard was conditioned to want to go get their drink when the song was done.

The humans could mimic is perfectly.

"beep beepita beep beep beep beepita beeeeeeep."

Captain Flowing River Rapid's feathers fluffed in irritation. Two people on the Command Deck got three quarters of the way out of their seats before they realized what they were doing and sat back down, sheepish. "Desmond! What have I said about mimicing the drink finished melody?"

Desmond ducked his head at the reproach. "Sorry Captain River, I couldn't help it. It's just so catchy."

Captain River clacked his beak. "It wouldn't be so bad if not for the fact that you can all mimic the sound so well."

Desmond turned and looked at the Captain. "What? We are? We're singing it, but it doesn't sound exactly like the drink machine."

The Captain pointed at Desmond accusingly. "Don't deny it! You're all singing the song at all times of the cycle! You know that everyone thinks a drink is ready when you do it. You sound exactly like the machine!"

One of the Sefigans who got partially up from their station nods quickly, their antenna bobbing. "Captain River is correct, Des. You all really sound a lot like the drink machine. How are you doing it?"

Desmond shrugged. "I mean, we heard the song, and it gets like, stuck in our heads. Singing it feels like one way to get it out. Plus, it's fun to sing Kel. Fun to make sounds."

Kel's wing covers clack. "Can you mimic other things?"

"I don't know Kel, I don't really think of myself as a mimic. There are others who can do it much better than me. Some humans made a whole career out of it."

"That sounds like a thing I human would do, yes. But what about your Des? Let's see...." Kel looks down at their station. "What about this?"

Kes runs a test for the collision alarm. It's a warbling rising and falling tone."

Des thinks for a second and sings - for him - a pretty close approximation.

Captain River gasps and leans back in his chair. "How do you do that?"

Desmond wails. "It wasn't even that good! I just heard the tones and repeated them."

Kelly entered the Command Deck just then. She was carrying a pad and her overalls looked stained. "Captain River, I've just come to report tha-"

"Kelly! Mimic the collision alarm"

"What? Um.." Kelly makes the same noise."

Now, everyone on the Command Desk gasps. Kelly is taken aback and looks at Desmond. "What's going on Des?"

Desmond sighs. "They say we're all mimics. It started with the drink machine."

"Oh that. I still can't get it out of my head! 'beep beepita beep beep beep beepita beeeeeeep.'"

Kes starts to rise from his seat again and catches himself, and sits back down swearing.

#humans are deathworlders #writing #sci fi writing #jpitha #humans are space oddities #humans are space orcs #humans are space australians #humans and aliens #humans are space capybaras

[pulquedeguayaba]

Holy shit, those predictions were so true, brain really went 💡 Maybe I'm a bit behind on the time but not overtly so.

Now I gotta dedicate the entire year (especially the first half) to make money money money.

#if i can specialise as a translator in both legal and medical shit my Antarctica dream can become true in 2024 #🙏 #anyway i had seen that call for applications late last year so even then i couldn't had applied #so I'm giving up on the phd then? seems that way #anyway wanted to do it in the uk but that place is falling apart #and most importantly my currency already did bad there now with the inflation is both impossible and obscene #im still quitting my job around February or march tho I'm tired of that old lady #and the fuckers that won't pay ke on time #was planning on hardly drinking this year anyway and since i seldom have beer the other stuff is way more expensive #now i ranted in the tags instead of writing this in the body text as always lol

[chaos-coming]

My aunt and cousin dont understand why my sister and i are fucked up, bc our parents abused us and did not make decisions based on our wellbeing, only their own. But my aunt was not abused by her parents the way that her brother (our dad) was, so she isnt fucked in the head like our parents are, and so in turn she did not abuse her son (our cousin), and neither of them can comprehend just how badly our parents treated us in comparison to how she raised her family. And it makes it really hard for me to see how my aunt did everything so that my cousin would have good experiences and grow and learn and explore, while our parents did everything to make their own lives easier, and their children were just a nuissance that gave them anxiety and whom they disposed of at the earliest convenience (lock them in the house) or else needed micromanage because they had too much anxiety and no desire to view children as humans instead of housepets who obey orders and produce academic successes they can brag about, and never have needs of their own or want to leave the house. My aunt took my cousin travelling all over the country, we were taken to the house and dropped off like luggage, forbidden to leave or interact with anyone. To say that i'm jealous my cousin had a childhood that didnt come straight out of a shrink's notebook would be a wild underexaggeration. I resent our parents so much for being shit at being parents and my aunt and cousin have zero clue how terrible they were and all they can say is stop being so negative not everything is your parents' fault. Which is super frustrating and invalidating bc its like if YOUR parents had abused you the way my parents did and their parents did, then youd understand just how thoroughly and deeply abusive parents can fuck your life up

#also hes an only child so hes not used to sharing. anything #which becomes really obvious every time we travel together as a family #and also like my aunt will be like stop asking ke every 5 seconds if im ok or mad at you #and the time i accidentally sbapped the handle to her tote bag bc it got stuck in the car door and i didnt realize #then was so so scared to tell her i broke it and apologized profusely for like 5 full minutes #and she was like calm down its not a big deal its a plastic strap #and im like np you dont understand if this was MY mom id get a 20 minute scream-lecture about how i was a bad person for breaking it #and not taking care with her things amd how upsetting it was that the strap was broken and its my fault and now i need to make it up to her #if this had happened when i was a kid i would have been punished and screamed at for at least 30 #min #(not even getting into the fact that my mom is autistic and very very emotionally attached to inanimate objects #and they must be kept in their perfect original condition or she would tell her kids that they are a bad person) #(and also she is so mentally ill and literally made of anxiety that the idea of any permanent alteration to literally anything makes you #a bad person #basically doing anything except being an inanimate object makes you a bad person #and a problem child #and because im therefore a problem child it justifies the abuse #now in all fairness i dragged them to fsmily therapy for a year (well my dad got kicked out halfway for being uncooperative. #there is no salvaging an ego that big and hes an academic to boot. completely intolerable.) #but at least they were forcibly told in session that they were abusive parents and i think they kind of see it #at least reflected in how fucked up their kids are. my sister is literally nonfunctional and so volatie that we #cant be around her for more than a few hours at a time. max. #but my aunt doesnt understand amy of this she thinks its completely unnecessary to do family therapy and that im just trying to blame them #for all my problems. bc she only ever heard their perspectives for 25 years and also never saw how her brother was abused bc she was spared #its like no you dont understand i got shit parents and my upbringing was hell. you did such a wonderful job raising your son tjat #you literally cant comprehend how shitty our childhoods were #you put your son first but our parents put themselves first and if we were miserable nonfunctional and traumatized it wasnt their problem