#Just don't waste your energy on this yk

[your-local-baguette]

They see you wearing glasses for the first time

Characters: megumi fushiguro, gojo satoru, itadori yuuji, nobara, sukuna and nanami.

Warnings: fluff maybe a little spice?? Not proofread. Iapologize if some characters aren't accurate and hope you enjoy...

Megumi fushiguro

You were simply reading a book by same place you usually neet up for a reading date. You came in advance and decided to grab some random light novel. You had your hood over your head, halfway curled in a ball in a bean bag. "What are you reading ?" You looked at megumi who had just arrived " hi. It's they were ten. I think the original is ils étaient dix. It's a translation of a french book." "I see, make some space for me." You move a bit and sits down next to you, you turn a bit so he read as well. You noticed he kept peeking at your face, you put the book away. " Is something wrong" removing your hood. His eyes widened and a deep blush spread over his face, he put his hand over his face and turned away. You raised an eyebrow, leaning closer, puting the back of your hand over his forehead. "Are you sick ? You should have told me, you don't have to force yourself to come" you said worried " no it's not that, it's..." You raised an eyebrow again. " You look really good with those..." He pointed to your glasses, while you were completely shocked.

Gojo satoru

You were just in the teachers toom and finishing up some work. The door was opened with do much energy that you weren't even wondering who it was. " Y/n~" you turned in your chair, your glasses resting on your nose. He stopped in his tracks, his hand in the air, a slight smirk making it's way on his face. Suddenly his face was inches away from yours, " now now~ i didn't know you wore glasses" you pushed away his face with your index " that's one way to say i look good" "you alway look good!" he said waving his arms around like the silly man he is. You sighted opening your arms, he didn't waste a single moment and hugged you really tight.

Itadori yuuji

"woaah! You wear glasses?!" Your gaze turned towards itadori, pushing down your glasses a bit. " I do, you like them?" "Hell yeah! You look awesome!" "Thank you yuuji" he had a bog smile on his face" can i try them?" You took them off, handing them to him" be careful" he nodded and when he put them on he looked around. "I can't see anything" you laughed at your boyfriend's silliness but he was adorable. You took them off his face " you looked good in them too" a red blush spread over his face and he kind of froze

Nobara

You were just reading some paperwork, waiting for nobara at the entrance. She jogged towards you after waving at her friends. When she saw you she stopped in her tracks and litterally tripped. The pink haired dude and other one looked at her a little worried. "Nobara?! Are you okay?" You yelled, she lifted her tumb and raised her head "hot" she said while staring at you "huh?!" Her friends catched up and itadori was shaking her like she was dying. Megumi just stood there, with his resting bitch face. You sighted and walked towards her, she looked up and extended her hand, you pulled her up and she shook you. "Since when do you wear glasse?!" "A...long..time. st op sha...kiiiing meee" she stopped and looked directly into your eyes. " Wear them more often because it's hot" "what's hot?" Gojo said arriving " who is that dude" you said "my teacher" nobara answered "well your teacher is fine as fuck" "i know right, but you're finer" "i know, i'm so pretty" "yes you are"

Ryomen sukuna ( spice)

You were lating in bed, reading a book. Shirtless sukuna walked in, you didn't budge and kept reading. Glasses resting on your face, the mattress sunk to your side and a naked chest was pressed against yours. " Well well.." you lowered your book and made eye contact with sukuna. He smirked "don't you look good in those" "that's unusual, but, thank you" his smirked grew bigger and he crashed his lips with yours, forcing his tongue in. Yk what's after....

Nanami kento

He actually ignored it at first, he wasn't bothered, why should he ? But when you squinted your eyes and pushed the glasses down that was it. There was a light blush on his cheeks, he sat in front of you. You raised your gaze at him " hello, love" he didn't reply and just looked at you. You wre slightly confused but remembered something" what do you think about my new glasses ?" " You look good" he instantly replie, no hesitation. "Thank you" you smiled at him.

Note: nanami thought were a little yk...

Hope you enjoyed!

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[luvyeni]

Nerdy changbin(changbin with those glasses yk what i mean). Changbin just begging for you to let him dominate you, “just for this one time, please?” Hes pussy drunk now. Repeatedly slamming his cock inside of you. Giving you no time to think. His harsh thrust drives you insane. “F..fuck baby” he said while having his warm hands around your waist. Hes so loud that the whole dorm hall can hear him. Hes moaning and whimpers, asking for you permission to let him cum. Once you finally gave him permission, he hasn’t stopped since then. Watching your belly get full of his cum makes him wanna breed your swollen cunt. The room is so hot and heavy that his glasses are getting foggy. Hes so obsessed with you that he can never get enough.

he follows you around , begging you. "baby , please , just this once." he pleads , you finally agree and he waste no energy , picking you up , taking you to his room.

he's rough , basically manhandling your poor body , putting you into different positions , fucking into you. "fu..fucking hell baby , look at that ass go." he holds your waist , abusing your cunt , grabbing your hands , holding it behind your back , you scream at the new angle he was hitting. "ch..changbin fuck!"

he his loud , grunting and moaning , you're both sure you'll be getting a noise compliant , but the way he's making you feel , you both don't give a fuck , the way you're making each other feel.

"you...you're so big." you moan , your brain fuzzy. "your pussy is taking me so well , squeezing my cock -fuck- im gonna cum , please can i cum inside you." he's begging you to let him breed you.

once he cums inside , it's like his mind goes dumb , instead of pulling out , he fucks his cum back in you , filling you up a few more times , small bulge in your stomach. "to..too much, i can't take any more." he's panting , his glasses all fogged up , as he's emptying another load into your abused pussy.

"just another one baby , just another load , i want to see it leaking out of you."

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[miyaur]

oohhh i love your blog!! how about some morning sex headcanons with albedo, ayato, kaeya and cyno?

⟢ a rising sunset in the east ft. albedo, ayato, kaeya, & cyno ・synopsis. early mornings, busy afternoons, it all calling for intimacy in the bright sun rays through the cracks of the curtains that spill onto the floor, and slow sensual sex at the crack of dawn, right before he goes. ・notes. ugliest and cutest color combo ive ever made, #696969 for the win tho, bro why did i ever think writing was easy without fancy ahh words. day ii: im losing it, i cant write dom albedo, its ok i tried ・warnings. nsfw, morning sex, gn!reader, dom & sub!reader, dom & sub!character, strap/cock mentioned

THE ALCHEMIST: ALBEDO ・such a sweetheart honestly! wants to make those little moments between you two at least somewhat sweet, but he can't help but whimper at the way you went so slowly up and down his cock. and damn did it feel good. probably likes cowgirl / missionary the most. probably has a lot of stamina too! could go on 'till night time again if you wanted him to. orgasms too easily though, so overstimulation with him can barely be avoided. likes to call you an angel, or just basic petnames (i.e. love, darling, dear, etc., he's really cheesy). pretty loud in bed if i don't say so myself. like dom or sub, either way he whimpers and groans a ton, gets turned a whole bunch when you moan, lets him know you like it too yk? ・oh and if you the one pegging/thrusting him from behind or what, do wtv u can to his nipples, he likes that. like a lot. tug on them, rub them, like just doing that and being the one pounding his ass and he'll fall in love, praise him while doing it, tell him he's a good boy and you are on your way to make him orgasm another time. probably real sensitive too, like i said he is prone to orgasming a bit early into sex, like after tugging on his nips for a bit he probably will come as soon as that dick/strap come inside of him!!! anyway back to srs writing, he loves praise a lot, do that and rub his nipples, he'll come untouched. more sensitive in the mornings btw ・aftercare w him is soo soft, like he'll make sure you're both showered and stuff, makes sure you're okay, continuosly asks actually, cuddles you to sleep, before he goes in the morning, forehead kiss and goes out the door feeling like a man with the greatest partner ever.

THE YASHIRO COMMISIONER: KAMISATO AYATO ・likes being in control, any position will do honestly, whatever you're most comfortable with. major tease & wastes 0 time, wastes 0 time is going drunk on your taste, i feel like he's more into sucking/eating you off/out, doesn't have the energy to rail the fuck out of your hole, but maybe a taste of you could give him more energy, yk? gets so drunk on your taste he almost doesn't realize you've already came and your cock/pussy is already off his mouth, will probably overstimulate you a bit too, maybe even edge you a bit after that. ・degrades you like no tomorrow, but likes being degraded when you're the one pegging/thrusting into his ass. likes being punished too, probably the type to go "i'm too tired for this" when you ask if he's your slut to purposely piss you off. will gladly bounce on your dick/strap though, absolutey goes crazy on it, please place hickeys on his neck, show everyone that he belongs to you when he goes out <3 ・loves aftercare, loves also to shower kisses on your back while you both get ready for the morning activities, and as long as you ask for it he'll get for you, makes sure everything you want and need it there for you while he isn't there, so a kiss to your forehead, and he's out the door, and those little things that you had kept your eye on but don't wanna go out anytime soon? he'll get it as soon as possible! just sit tight, and wait for him, that's all he needs from you.

THE CALVARY CAPTAIN: KAEYA ALBERICH ・god damn, he is definitely a big tease while you sleepily ride his cock, your eyes barely open, pleasure running all throughout your body, your hands on his chest, the only thing that really helped your body up, and kaeya can't help but groan, you felt so ethereal, it made him feel like he's falling in love with you all over again. he just needed this before work, just needed you this one more time, he's been almost too busy, it took too long this time for a single mission to be completed, he's glad you can help him relieve his stress! ・probably praises you immensely, and whatever position is okay as long as neither of you have to move that much. pound him while his face is in a pillow, literal praise prince, seriously loves praise so bad, tell him he's being such a good boy taking all of you in. his loud moans in pleasure echoing through the hallway, loves even more if you fuck him in front of a mirror, seeing how much of a mess you've made him, gets turned on so bad, even if it's just you jerking him off, your smooth hands running over his red tip, aa just please keep going!! ・the type of guy to call you mommy/daddy, just depends how far you guys are into it (as in round wise yes.) anyways, aftercare is a dream!! so gentle with you honestly, getting showered with him is so heavenly too, smooth talker plus showering you with affection? such a sweetheart, and if you really can't walk after like in the other headcannons i made for ayato, he'd go for errands for anything that you need, but not 'till 8am, it's still 6am, he'll stay with you for a bit. just a bit 'till he goes.

THE GENERAL MAHAMATRA: CYNO ・WAAA baby is so sensitive, literally just touching all over his cock for a bit makes him wanna cum soo bad, just say the word and he will paint your hands white <33!! his drowsy eyes could barely keep up with the speed of how fast of a pace your hands were going up and down his dick, spurts cum everywhere honestly, kinda heavy load everytime he does too. will let you dominate him in the morning, doesn't really care ・make him choke on your fingers if he's being too loud, definitely likes getting degraded, but praise isn't out of the choices. a mix of everything, really, just don't let it be related to gory stuff, makeout with him and jerk him off, and he'll be off happier than ever. sensitive all over, just seriously do anything to him, more prone to cum just by you stroking him. ・if he does end up being a dom, lots of praise and kisses, really just soft thrusts into you. the belly bulge on your tummy is really what keeps him going, seeing how much of his seed is inside you, holds your hand throughout most of the rounds too, lowkey arrives late to work because of aftercare with you. ・treats you like a queen/king, reminds you all the time how much he loves you and cares about you, that's why he doesn't go that hard during sex, wants to make sure you're comfortable, likes to hold you in the shower, just you and him.

you can tell i was dying while writing this it's kinda icky too so mb.... cg on 700 followers for me ig.......

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[potential-fool]

How would sage react to reader refusing to get healed by her or Skye? Reader doesn’t want them wasting energy and much rather just patch themselves up and go (even if it’s a shit job).

How would Sage react to after countless times of reader turning down the healing and slowly recovering her finding out why they refused?

A/N: First of all, I love me some sage x reader so thank you for requesting this ;-; Second- where are my dom!sage enjoyers?? I need to collect y'all so I can be surrounded by dom!sage content This became a lot more wholesome than originally intended but yk what we chillin

Tags: Established relationship, fluff, GN!reader

"Let me help you love" Sage x Reader

You were not one to ask for help, or accept it when it was offered. As a child you were praised for this trait, people would tell you how strong or tough you were because of it. And while this wasn't done with any malicious intent it still had a negative affect on your life to this day.

You were a Radiant, with an ability you called "blood-bending." The name alone being fairly self explanatory you could manipulate the blood of yourself and other creatures. You tried not to use your own blood... though... you didn't always have other options.

Lately you haven't had other options.

You were dedicated to the protocol, already having accepted that each mission you took could very well be your last. This, along with your refusal for help led to a lot of.. well.. you refusing to accept the help of your fellow healers.

At first you were able to pass it off as needing easy access to your own blood, and most of the time it works, even if they don't like you exerting yourself like this.

It was another long mission, you were engaging enemies on a map dubbed Haven, it was a grueling mission and another instance where you'd been forced to use your own blood to fuel your abilities. It was a long.. very long.. and very hard battle.

Though your victory was ever more satisfying.

Sage was checking in with everyone over the coms as you all headed back to the rendezvous point.

"(Y/N)..? you're awfully silent, are you okay?" Sage's voice rang through your earpiece and the deadly projectile you made of your own blood changed from a hard object to liquid as you released your focus from it; the blood splattering down onto the ground and making your uniform stain red.

"I'm..." You struggled to speak through the dizziness in your head "I'm fine Sage... really.."

Sage did not believe you and unbeknownst to you while she had the others make their way back onto the ship she went out to your location, meeting you half way to the pick up spot.

You'd wrapped a crude bandage around your arm where you'd drawn your own blood but it was hard to do even a half decent job when the pounding in your skull was all you could think about.

Sage's pace quickened as she spotted you "Oh my darling.." She cupped your cheek, worry flooding her tone "I can patch you up, let's get back to the ship"

"It's okay.." You heaved, each breath feeling like a task to complete "I..- I can do it myself,, you look tired... don't waste your energy on me... I ca...." Your voice faded, trialing off and you fought for consciousness. "I can do it... do it...." Your head was spinning, and the spinning soon morphed into darkness as blood loss and exhaustion took over.

Sage caught you in her arms, more worried now than ever before, she called for Sova to come help carry you--she knew she could carry you herself--however--not while trying to heal you at the same time.

Sova arrived quickly a concerned look on his face as he saw the state you were in "Again...? It's getting bad Sage.. you must talk with them.."

Sage sighed, nodding a small nod. Sage was fixing the bandage on your arm and patching up the major cuts on your body before simply healing the smaller ones; cyan fog emitting from her hand as she used her gift to help you.

The next time you awoke it was in the infirmary of the Protocol's home base. Sage was by your side when consciousness finally returned to you, "...mmph.." You managed to pull yourself up into a sitting position, the sound of movement alerting Sage that you were awake "..shit...I'm sorry Ling- you shouldn't have to-"

You were quickly cut off with a soft kiss from your lover, a quick and loving kiss, though one that did the job Ling needed it to.

"Don't ever apologize for needing help, it's okay my love.. let me help you, let Skye help you.. I could've lost you-" Her voice began to break, as she cupped your face, tears pricking her eyes, "You may be okay with death but It's my job to keep you alive. My love.. I need you.. and I need you alive.. please... why do you refuse my aid?"

The desperation in her tone.. in her eyes.. it was a look you couldn't stand to see and as the tears began to roll down her face you felt them in your eyes as well

"I just..- I.." "I don't wanna burden you- waste your energy- it should go to anyone other than me... gods know I don't deserve it.."

You'd never admitted that to anyone before.. it felt.. nice... to get it off your chest.

Ling's expression shifted to one of grim determination, "My love.. my darling, my starlight, you are far from a burden. You are my north star, my guide in the night, and you are anything but a burden. This ends, no more feeling like this, the next time you feel like this please tell me, we can work it out... it may not be easy but.. you must try... for me...?"

The tears rolled down your face and you pulled Ling closer to you in a warm and loving embrace,, "oh'kay... for you.... thank you.."

"Anytime starlight"

#sage valorant #valorant sage #sage x reader #valorant x reader #valorant fic #valorant #valorant fluff #sage x you

[itsmynothing]

personal binge prevention tips

(note - theres are just what work for me cause a lot of tips don't and i had to create my own)

chugging water until i feel sick combined with sipping on it constantly (yes i have to use the bathroom constantly but it's worth it, plus my hair and skin are doing great so).

caffeine: coffee tends to suppress my appetite a lot, I try to either make it at home or order something small with no sugar because it can get pretty high in calories (I'm looking at you Starbucks).

tea: it has caffeine in it + it just makes me feel a tiny bit sick and not want to eat which helps me as someone with shit self control.

alcohol weirdly enough - don't do this often but a glass of wine or some vodka drinks make me feel a bit nauseous so it's great if I'm out with people and there's opportunities to eat it helps me avoid (obviously alcohol has a shit ton of calories but I'd take one or two drinks over eating dessert at a restaurant or getting late night pizza yk)

"forgetting" my wallet - sometimes I'll not bring it when i go out so i physically can't buy food even if i want to. sometimes if it's a long class I'll bring in change enough for a zero sugar energy drink and buy it before class so i don't decide to spend it on a vending machine. doesn't work sometimes if your freinds are super generous tho.

taking "bathroom" breaks except you just sit in a stall and scroll through triggering pictures and posts until you don't want to eat anymore.

logging every single calorie BEFORE you eat it. if you say fuck it and decide to eat some snacks but you log it first and realise it's over half of what you're supposed to eat that day it really doesn't seem worth it.

giving away any binge food: i did this over Easter, i had friends staying over and I'd open an Easter egg like every night, have a little bit myself and then offer it to them and they'd normally finish it off mostly by themselves. great way to enjoy a little chocolate without cracking and eating the whole thing but you're also not wasting food.

tactical sleep schedule: if you're a night binger then try to wake up super early so by the time night comes around you're exhausted and you'd rather go to sleep than eat. if you tend to binge earlier in the day like during lunchtime then stay up late and sleep in so when you'd normally be binging you're actually just waking up

identify your triggers: i tend to overeat either right after having a carb heavy meal or if I'm with someone who keeps offering my high calorie food. so I avoid eating meals that are mostly carbs and make excuses not to be offered food (eg. my teeth are fucked and I've got the dentist soon, "just had a big meal" but you have to make it believable, the classic "i feel sick sorry", bringing healthier food if you can)

there's some more stuff i would share but it's really unhealthy so I'd rather keep those to myself :)

#pro for me not for thee #@na trigger #@n0r3xia #@n0r3xi4 #@n0rexi@ #@na motivation #low cal restriction #tw m14 #low cal diet #⭐️rving #⭐️ve #⭐️ ing motivation

[your-fave-adopted-you]

Hi! If that's okay could i request platonic nrc staff reacting to MC wanting to go to an art school after nrc? Specifically for tattoos?

Based on the fact that i went to look at universities yesterday lol

As an art student this is very interesting.

in fact I made my pfp myself lmao

Also additional drinking game : drink every time you read the word tattoo and get absolutely wasted!

Guardian! school staff + MC who aspires to be a tattoo artist

Characters : Crowley, Crewel, Trein, Ashton

TW : none

Gn pronouns were used.

Context : It's not uncommon for young artists to be discouraged by their families and teachers when mentioning that they want to seek a career in art, and that it's not just a hobby.

But do you know how much worse it gets when you say that you don't plan to live by selling paintings like Picasso? do you how how many people won't think of tattooing as a proper first option?

Oh, you do. And that's why at first you're a little bit worried about telling them.

Dire Crowley

Actually it just came up in a random conversation

he told you that even if you couldn't get back home in the worst case scenario ofc

at least you were lucky that you studied at such prestigious school.

you had much more possibilities career-wise than most people.

and he finally asked you what you wanted to do, if you wanted to continue studying, or what was your dream job.

You told him your plans about art school, and being a tattoo artist.

"Oh, are you sure?" he said expressionless.

and like always, you had to explain why you wanted that, what it meant to you, yk, the usual.

"it's art school actually necessary for that?"

and again, you explained that in some schools they even had courses dedicated especially to tattooing, comics, animation,

and even if it wasn't the case, art school really helps with your skills.

and he went silent, contemplative.

"would i get one for free?"

"sure, but only if you volunteer for me to practice."

that's it, that's all he needs to hear.

Researches any school that seems worthy enough for your talent.

even privates ones.

ESPECIALLY THE PRIVATES ONES.

good lord he's actually calling and emailing and shit.

if only he put that much energy in everything else.

also he will stop anyone he sees with a tattoo and will bombard them with questions. "how much did this cost you?" "how long did this one take to- 6 hours? oh... do they get paid by the hour or?" "do you know if they're hiring?"

it's actually embarrassing.

One day he even asked Leona and made the terrible mistake of mentioning you, "Oh what a.... yes, it's definitely a design alright! where did you get this? I'm sure my y/n would like to know!"

next time you saw Leona he was actually curious about what kind of tattoo you were getting-

Also he stopped kalim once on his way to P.E to ask about his 😭

because??? they're white??? white ink??? oh his little artist will thank him for the info!!!!

poor kalim thought he was about to get dress coded or something.

long story short he fully supports you, he doesn't really get why you want to do it but, he doesn't question it either.

Divus Crewel

One day he just asked the class about what they had planned for the future.

There were all kind of answers tbh, some wanted to work in cosmetics or acting, some wanted to open a bakery, some wanted to be teachers, and there were people in your class that were rich already-

And then it was your turn.

again, the usual.

Half your class was already asking for free tattoos.

But Crewel was quiet for a bit.

He was probably thinking about those faded, gross tattoos that covered people's entire chests or backs, with eagle designs or exes names or something like that.

"Is art school really necessary for that?" pt.2

after you defend your position 😭 he asks you how much do people pay for it.

after you tell him that it can pay bills quite well, he finally agrees that's a good path to follow 💀

would NEVER in his life get a tattoo.

But after you show him the kind of designs you want to make,

he admits that it looks very good on people, it's like their skin is a canvas. in a way.

yeah so, as long as it pays well he will support you 💀 that's it.

Mozus Trein

He already knew that you were an artist but he assumed early on that you would sell paintings at expositions and paint murals and shit like that yk, maybe even sculpt?

And he knew that you wanted to go to art school. He fully supports that alright.

but then one day you corrected him. You wanted to be a tattoo artist, actually.

Mr.Trein is very well educated in art, it's an essential part of history and he kind of expected you to be the next Dalí or smth

He's not going to tell you that it's a lesser form of art, or that you should aspire for more,

but yk, he's an old man. he definitely thought about it.

"does it pay well?" pt.2

even if you got rich by that, he's still a little worried about your future.

"People will always have skin, and they will always want to do something cool with it so don't worry, i won't run out of work!"

it came out a little weird but he got the point. it helped a little.

his mental image about tattoos is very much likes Crewel's at first, and even when you show him your designs he's still somewhat hesitant about the whole thing

then you showed him that some people got tattoos after the loss of a loved one, or some kind of big recovery, meaningful stuff in general.

and ngl it made him see it under a different light.

your dream job could actually be... important??? helpful for some people??? wow.

After that he fully supports you, he won't ever admit it but for a second he wondered if he would ever get his wife's name tattooed 😭

Still he doesn't respect people with anime characters tattooed on their forearm.

Ashton Vargas

He's actually chill about it.

"is art school really necessary tho?" pt.3

Has the same mental image as the previous two about your profession

but like, in a positive way?

the kind of man to get a tribal tattoo, or an eagle across his entire left arm, or even his mom's name inside a winged heart on his chest 😭

doesn't even ask about the money lmao

"Can I get a free one?" pt.2

he thinks it's really cool but that going to art school for it is a waste of time and money, he thinks it would be better to study with 1 professional and then work for them for a while.

he really likes your designs

and genuinely thinks you have a bright future ahead of you!

he won't do the same thing as Crowley, but since you told him he would stare at kids with tattoos too.

then he would tell you about them.

"Huh. But what if someone comes to get their butt tattooed??? would you have to do it??"

"Probably yes?"

"BUT Y/N! WHAT IF THEY FART!?"

also

"Hey but what if your client sneezes? what if they get hiccups???"

he's asking the real questions here.

but yeah, fully supports you from the start, a very solid, proud dad.

#twst x mc #twst x reader #dire crowley #divus crewel #mozus trein #ashton vargas

[groven4]

Markiplier Egos with an Aromantic DA / Viewer

a/n: I randomly decided I really wanna get something out for aro week, so I've got a oneshot mayhaps involving a certain adventurer in the works, but knowing me that might take a while (if I even finish it all) and these tend to be easier for me. So, that's why this exists...not that you asked.

(edit: made one for Ace hcs.)

WILFORD WARFSTACHE

He wouldn't really care, but in like a supportive way.

He may not look like it, but the guy's got some common sense.

I can't see him as the type to ask a lot of questions especially if you're visibly uncomfortable around the topic. (tho ig he might if it's for an interview, not sure)

A big part of Wil's character is just accepting shit as it is and not questioning what you can't understand because falling down that spiral is ultimately unhealthy; so if you were to come out to him as any sexuality/gender identity, he'd most likely just accept you immediately and move one.

Expect to receive a lot of aro themed stickers on pride month though.

DARKIPLIER

Also doesn't care, but it's less him being supportive (tho he is) and more: it doesn't affect him, so why should he care?

Like you do you. Your love life is none of his business.

Quite frankly, he couldn't give a shit.

Though, he might find some relatability with you.

Despite how one might interpret ADWM, I cannot see Dark as an entity with the capability to feel much of anything. (other than rage, vengefulness, etc.)

There are some vague memories of past feelings from both Celine and Damien (and possibly the house entity, idk) mostly shown through his clear favoritism for Wil.

However, I don't think he really can feel romantic feelings, nor does he want to.

Being loved sounds nice, but ultimately it would just get in the way.

So having someone around that's kind of like him in that regard is almost nice...cathartic even.

You both like to watch 'marriage gameshows' (the bachelor, love is blind, etc.) over wine and laugh about how you'll never have to deal with relationship problems. (idc if that one's ooc)

GOOGLEPLIER

He can't really feel romantic attraction himself, yk being a robot and all.

If you tried explaining aromanticism to him he'd probably just be like: "Yeah, and??".

He's supportive in a sense, that sense being: you not having a partner would mean one less meat sack he has to deal with once he manages to get admin privileges.

BINGIPLIER

Kinda stumped on this one ngl.

I just can't find a reason why he'd care whatsoever.

He'd just be like: "Oh...siiiick, brah." with total Bill and Ted energy.

ACTOR

(edit: this is pre-wkm btw. idk why I did that, it doesn't really fit with the others that way. so I probably won't do it again in future hcs. sorry ig.)

I imagine it comes up at a party.

He starts asking you about your love life.

You tell him that you've never really been interested in that kind of stuff, and you probably never will.

What does he do?

...

He calls you boring.

...

AND THEN JUST FUCKIN' WALKS AWAY- like- ????

In all seriousness, he's mostly chill about it throughout your friendship, but it's hard for me not to picture him as the type to think you're just being naive and that 'everyone has to find someone someday'. (I believe WKM takes place in the 1920s, so like, what were you expecting?)

That is until Celine cheats on him.

It was just such a world shattering thing for him, he genuinely loved her more than anything.

It's not a complete 180°, he doesn't suddenly understand your lack of attraction from this, but one night you check in with him to find him wasted in his wine cellar and he's basically like: "You had it right all along, my friend. Love...Love is not for everyone. ...Certainly not the faint of heart."

Which like, you didn't choose this, but you were more focused on making sure he was okay at the time to care.

YANCY

A part of me wants to think he'd be a little confused at first just cause the idea of having to explain aromanticism and/or asexuality to him because he's just genuinely curious is really adorable to me.

However, the rest of me refuses to believe his friend group isn't entirely comprised of both people in the lgbtq+ community and hardcore allies who would happily beat the shit out of aphobes on a daily basis.

Not to say that they think of you as child-like because of your sexuality, but it's a prison family and you're 'fresh meat' so you're their little aro-bean now whether you like it or not.

Yancy especially is protective of you in an almost older brother type way.

So if after/during coming out to them (or just him) you mention how scared you were/are because you've had a lot of bad experiences or something, he's like constantly ready to sucker punch and/or ballerina kick anyone giving you flack over just being who you are.

He's always willing to tell you how valid you are when you need to hear it, and overall is just a really great friend.

...Even with the stabbing.

ILLINOIS

In an odd way, he almost feels...relieved?

Call it a humble brag, but literally all of his past work partners had fallen in love with him at some point, and while the attention certainly feeds his ego, that kinda thing just gets tired and even annoying after a while.

So knowing that'll never happen with you is actually a nice break from what he's grown so used to.

He's never had someone around who genuinely enjoys adventuring as much as he does.

And who isn't like constantly ogling him. (I mean probably anyway, idk what it's like to be aroallo)

Having you around may also cause him to start questioning some things about himself, particularly when you're explaining your orientation.

But that's a topic we'll be getting into at another time! (*wink* *wink* *nudge* *nudge* *stares at empty draft*)

He's still used to trying to fluster people cause he finds it funny and in general is just the kind of person to be a bit touchy with his friends (meaning: platonic hand holding, hugs, head/back pats, standing weirdly close a lot of the time just naturally, etc.), so if you're ever uncomfortable just tell him and he'll cut it out straight away.

You're both just kinda really good friends, and he's not at all weird about it like you thought he might be.

CAPTAIN MAGNUM

Supportive Pirate Dad! 10/10!

You definitely have to explain what it means to him, but he verbally accepted you before he even asked.

Kinda like: "That's great!...What is it?-"

Would have the crew sew you a flag if it would make you happy.

They are still pirates who have been sailing across the deep blue their whole lives with presumably no contact with the mainland however.

So unless you for some fuckin reason told them what it looks like, you can expect to receive a relatively small, plain black flag with the word 'Arrowmantik.' spelled incorrectly and somehow sewn on in perfect white Helvetica.

...

You hung the flag right above your hammock.

It is your most prized possession.

HEAD ENGINEER

Might be a little discouraged at first. His crush on you was a tad obvious.

But he figures it's for the best. You are the captain after all. Pursuing that relationship wouldn't have been professional in the slightest.

It does take a bit but he gets over it eventually.

He still genuinely loves you platonically/as a person, so things don't really change all that much.

You still have a strong friendship and work really well together.

He tends to go a bit overboard now about giving you personal space cause he doesn't want to make you uncomfortable. So you may have to reassure him multiple times if it wasn't an issue.

During when pride month would be on earth he might gift you little aro themed stuff, like a patch you can't actually add to your uniform for work reasons but love and appreciate anyway.

He may not fully understand how you feel, but he never stops trying to, and either way he's always gonna support you no matter what.

Your orientation could never change how much he loves and trusts you both as a captain and as his friend.

MURDOCK

He doesn't really care since it doesn't affect what you guys do, though he is openly accepting, especially if it seemed like you needed to hear that it wasn't something that bothered him.

In a similar vein to Illinois, he's strangely grateful.

He's not sure how he would've dealt with the situation had you developed a crush on him. Such emotions tend to get in the way more often than not in his line of work.

He didn't wanna have to kill you just to make his life easier. Taking a life out of necessity isn't as much fun, plus he'd grown a tad fond of you.

I like to think he cares quite a bit about your mental health, it would make sense given the whole murder thing.

So if you often go through periods of doubt or even internalized self hatred regarding being aromantic, he's gonna be there to help you through it.

He goes with you to pride parades and if anyone tries to tell you that you don't belong there, they're immediately getting put on a black list.

He got you a nifty little keychain once while you were there.

Overall, surprisingly wholesome.

a/n: I went back and forth on whether or not I was gonna use the pronouns I hc them all as using, but in the end I just said 'fuck it, appeal to general audiences, why not at this point'. I'm really fuckin' tired, dude. Just- HAPPY ARO WEEK! ig.

#markiplier egos & reader #wilford warfstache & reader #darkiplier & reader #googleplier & reader #bingiplier & reader #actor mark & reader #yancy & reader #ahwm yancy & reader #illinois & reader #ahwm illinois & reader #captain magnum & reader #ahwm captain magnum & reader #head engineer mark & reader #murderplier & reader #iswm murderplier & reader #iswm murdock & reader #aromantic reader #aro week

[spenzitz]

MITSKI AND YUTA?????? IM LIVING FOR IT PLEASE ELABORATE 🙇🏻‍♀️

🤭 sooooo this is very much confident!reader but yk...

forget what i said about it not being problematic...

yuta has been thrown into this world where he knows nothing and is told he has tremendous power. even after he defeats geto, he's sent on all these jobs where no matter how hard he tries, people always get hurt. he has all the tools he needs to succeed, and yet he still fails. if only he were as strong as maki or as fearless as toge. he's simply not good enough.

so why did you take such an interest in him? you were stronger than him in every way (barring cursed energy output) and, most obvious to yuta, confident. you knew what you were and your place in the world, and you took it as your own. why would you ever care about a waste of space like him? he didn't get it. but he really didn't need to.

whenever you talked to him, he felt important. like he was worthy of being kept in the loop of your life. when you lend him a hand off the ground after being knocked down and brush off his shirt, inspecting him for any grass or dirt, he feels a sense of belonging to you. he's now something that should be taken care of. just your presence in his everyday life makes him valuable.

when you go away on a job for a few days, he finds it harder to take care of himself. you're working, so you really don't have time to reply to his messages or call him back. the whole first day goes by, and he realizes he hasn't eaten anything all day, he feels pathetic.

it's almost 10pm, and you still haven't seen the messages he sent this morning telling you and maki to stay safe. he figures he'll take his mind off you by catching up on his show and getting a snack before bed.

eventually, one episode turns into a whole season, and a snack turns into anything salty yuta can get his hands on. It's almost 2 am when yuta feels his phone vibrate beside him on his bed. he snatches it immediately and sees you've finally responded.

thank you, yuta! me and maki are ok, just exhausted. we should be home by midday tomorrow. ik you're probably asleep by now, so sleep well! <3

you thought he'd be asleep by now. there was no way he was going to tell you that rather than going to bed at a reasonable time, he actually binged for almost 4 hours straight. it's only then that he realizes his current situation.

yuta becomes painfully aware of his full bladder, sweat-covered body, and grease-stained hands. surely it hasn't been this stuffy in his room the whole time, right? yeah, the ac must have turned off... but he's definitely needed to pee since two episodes ago. and his mouth was so... dry? he felt disgusting. what would you think if you saw him like this? you'd probably lose respect for him, he thinks.

the thought of you knowing he devolves into this pathetic mess the moment you're gone terrifies him. this fear motivates him to get his act together. he leaves you on delivered and plugs his nearly dead phone in before heading to the showers.

once he's all cleaned up, he puts on pajamas to convince himself he'll get some sleep soon... he cleans up all the crumbs and throws away all the trash in his room. but of course, once all the trash is gone, he can't help but wonder if his room would look better with his bed in the opposite corner. well... he could just try it out and move it back if he didn't like it.

he, in fact, did not like it. but maybe if he moves his other furniture around to accommodate, it wouldn't be so bad right? this redecorating went on until the morning when his bed is back to where it started, and yuta gets dressed for the day, not getting an ounce of sleep last night. yuta wanted to push through until midday so you could see he was doing just fine.

yuta and inumaki are sparing when inumaki suddenly stops and points behind yuta. when yuta turns around to see what he's pointing at, he sees you and maki walking towards them on the field.

you all say hello and tell them about the mission, saying how you just want to sleep for the rest of the day. maki goes off to find gojo to report back to him, and before you can start heading off to the dorms, yuta offers to carry your bag for you since you were so exhausted.

you accept, and he takes your bag off your shoulder. you don't miss the small groan he lets out from taking on the extra weight. you both walk back to your room as you tell him everything that happened on your trip. as you walk, you notice him panting under his breath, trying to control his breathing.

you make it to your door and take your bag off his shoulder for him. you look into his slightly bloodshot eyes and ask him, "yuta, are you ok?"

yuta feels the weight of the world crashing down on him and strains to keep his tears from peaking over his eyelids. that is, until he feels your hands on both his shoulders, rubbing small circles with your thumbs.

he squeezes his eyes shut, knowing if he looks at you now, he'll break. he feels your hands slide down his arms into his own. you hold them so tightly like he belongs to you, and it's only natural.

"yuta." you start with a stern but still empathetic tone. "what's wrong?" you wouldn't know from how you're speaking, but he knows you're demanding an answer.

he slowly tilts his body forward until his head is perched on your shoulder and his face is buried in your neck.

"just glad you're home." he says, letting out a sigh before inhaling the scent of your body wash that still lingers. "how about we get some lunch hmm?" you say, bringing your hand up to lightly pat his head.

you don't give him time to respond before you're pulling away from him to lead him to the common room. he deserved to be taken care of. he was important.

me and my husband is probably my favorite mitski song next to francis forever(ik basic)

i deal with depressive episodes a lot so this is definitely me projecting in some way lmao i'm sorry 😭

ok well this is awkward... i'm so sorry i always bombard you win ;(

#ems ideas #my loves #yuta okkotsu x reader #lmao what is this

[taomyou]

The Romance of Reimbursements - Chapter 3

Pairing: Levi Ackerman x Reader Status: COMPLETED Summary: There’s a guy you see every Friday on bus 143, and you think he’s pretty hot. It wouldn’t hurt to tell your best friend about him, would it? or, you and Levi take the same bus home from work every Friday, and you fall in love slowly, clumsily, and with all the time in the world to fold as many paper stars as your heart desires. Word Count: 5.7k Tags: slow burn, friends to lovers, modern au, office au, fluff, romance, meet-cute, matchmaking

(A/N: this fic is entirely available on ao3 here if you would like to read it there instead! "www" is also shorthand for "haha" or laughing!)

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After a good night’s rest, your regularly set alarm rings you awake at 6 AM.

Once you were home after dinner, you didn’t spend much time thinking about your night out. Against your worst judgment, you decided that going to bed and choosing to ignore whatever feelings you had about dinner was the best decision you could’ve made. You stripped down, hopped in the shower, and crashed on your bed with your plush rabbit. You fell easily into your slumber, the anticipation and fear that plagued you over the past 2 nights finally gone.

If there was anything for you to think about, though, it would’ve been Levi.

You stretch your arms above your head, letting a yawn escape. After you blink a couple times to get the sleep out of your eyes, you walk over to the bathroom to brush your teeth. After you finish brushing and flossing, you hum to yourself as you shuffle through your cabinets for an outfit for the day. It's routine by now: choosing your outfit, putting on your makeup, getting your briefcase ready.

As you walk out your door, you realize that seeing Erwin at the office is probably going to be a bit... awkward. Him dropping formalities at last night's dinner wasn't unlike how he was back when the two of you used to take your lunch breaks together so you didn't waste any energy questioning it, but you have no idea how he's going to act at work.

You're not opposed to the possibility of becoming closer—Erwin is a good work superior, a good friend—but even if he does start getting warmer, you still have to worry about him snitching on your client to upper management. There's already enough paperwork as is, and having even more of it is something you don't want to have to deal with right now.

You try not to worry about all of that as you hop on the bus after the short walk down from your apartment. After greeting the bus driver "good morning" and taking a seat at the back, you take out your phone and aimlessly scroll the various SNS you have installed.

In the middle of a random video you were watching, you get a notification from Hange. You tap on the little icon at the top of your screen, not being able to see the attached message, and to your confusion, it's a screenshot of a conversation between them and someone who's nicknamed 'Shorty' on their phone. You don't even bother reading the conversation, instead swiping down from the screenshot and quickly typing out a response to Hange themselves.

You - 7:32 AM

wtf why did you send me this???

You don't need to wait for even a moment before Hange replies, the dots on your screen appearing just seconds after you text them.

Hange - 7:33 AM

Just read it!!!! :D

You - 7:33 AM

no that's weird why would you send this to me www

Hange - 7:33 AM

BECAUSE I need you to read it B)

You - 7:34 AM

this is an invasion of privacy yk sharing private dms to a third party i can get you sent to prison

The three dots you expect to see don't appear, and so you quickly type out another message for them.

You - 7:35 AM

that was a joke hange i'm not gonna send you to prison

You sigh at the continued silence, taking a look outside at the window across from where you were sitting. You hear a faint beep and look back at your phone. Instead of a text, you see a play button and an accompanying audio bar. Rolling your eyes, you go for the side pocket of your briefcase to get your earbuds and connect them to your phone to hear the message without disturbing others on the bus.

Hange - 7:37 AM

"Well, since you're not going to read the screenshot I sent you, I'll just tell you what it says. Ok, ok, so last night, I drove Levi home, right? And when I got home after, I texted him, and I was all, like-oh, yeah, I know, you're too nice to send anyone to jail, that's kinda your thing-anyway! I asked him, like, 'is it cool if Astraea starts hanging out with us?' You know, because you're my best friend and I obviously want you to hang out with everyone, but also, I'm trying to set you up! And he was all like, 'why don't you ask the group chat, Four Eyes,' and I was like, 'just answer the question!' And guess what he said! Guess!"

The voice message ends there.

You probably would've cared more about what they had to say if you had spent some time thinking about Levi at all after dinner, but, again, it's a Monday, and you really can't care to be bothered about something like this right now. You bring your phone up closer towards your lips after holding on the voice recording button on your screen, speaking quietly into the microphone.

"Hange, I'm not going to guess. Please, I'm about to get to work, you're probably getting ready too. That's the end of it," you pause. "Also, I don't send people to jail because, for the millionth time, I'm a family attorney."

Hange - 7:42 AM

"Yeah, yeah, yeah, if that's how you wanna avoid this. I'm gonna tell you anyway! He said, and I quote, 'I-'"

Before you can hear what Hange has to tell you, you tap the play icon and pause the recording, not wanting to hear. At times like these, they tend have a (to be generous) distant relationship with the truth. It's not worth it to know, anyway, now that you're determined to just be friends with Levi; you don't need Hange getting you excited over things like this.

The bus announces your stop a stoplight away, so you tuck away your phone and earbuds into your pocket so you don't have to worry about having to do it while getting off the bus. Once it stops, you say a quick "thank you" to the driver and head over to the firm's building.

When you're through the doors and in the lobby, you spot Eren, Mikasa, and Armin, all of them coming from the entrance at the other end of the hall. They all greet you with big smiles and waves before meeting you halfway right in front of the elevator. When it opens for you and you all enter, Armin leans over to press the button for the 8th floor while you and Mikasa stand towards the back of the elevator.

"How was your weekend, Astraea?" She asks, looking over at you as the door closes. Eren and Armin don't turn towards the back to face you, but you're sure they're listening from where they are.

"It was a bit stressful, but it was alright," you answer, smiling to reassure her. She doesn't seem to want to press you on it, trusting that you'd tell her if you wanted to, but Eren doesn't quite get the memo.

"What happened? You accidentally used salted butter in your cupcakes or something?" He jokes with a chuckle.

"Eren, that's not nice," Armin says, lightly bumping his elbow against Eren's side. He turns to where you and Mikasa are, shooting you a sympathetic smile. "You don't have to tell us if you don't want to, we stress you out enough as is."

At that, you laugh and cover your mouth with your hand. The doors open again, the 8 button now flashing to tell you you're on the right floor, and you all step out before they close in on you.

"Armin, it's okay, it's my job to watch out for you guys. Well, just Mikasa, but you guys too," you start, looking around the office to try and find Erwin. You should probably talk to him before he can talk to someone higher up in the chain in command. "I'll tell you at lunch, yeah?"

They seem satisfied enough with that suggestion, and once you spot Erwin, you tell them to have a good start to their workday and go over to him. He spots you before you get the chance to greet him, and he nods at you, not able to wave with his briefcase in one hand and a cup of coffee in the other.

"Good morning, Erwin," you greet, looking up at him now that he's closer to you.

"Good morning to you too. Need me for something?" You nod, and he tilts his head towards his office. "We can talk in there, let me set my things down."

You walk with him over to his office, opening the door for the both of you.

"Close the door, would you?"

He silently puts down his coffee and briefcase, motioning for you to sit at the seat opposite of his own behind his desk. The little jar at the corner of the table brings a small smile to your face. He notices your eye on it and picks it up, rattling it a bit to see the little paper trinkets move around.

"I assume you want to talk about what was brought up yesterday," he starts, not meeting your gaze and instead keeping his eyes on the jar. You sigh and tense up in your chair, not wanting to accidentally say or do anything out of place.

"About that, could you not bring it up with anyone? I'd really appreciate if you just kept it between us."

Erwin moves to put the jar down, looking at you with steely eyes. You shrink back even further into the seat, fearful of what he has to say.

"Is that really what you want?"

You nod, breaking your gaze on him to look down at your lap.

"I know I should've came clean about it after it happened, but I handled it just fine. I don't want the higher-ups to think I can't-"

Erwin interrupts with a chuckle, taking a sip of his coffee. "Are we talking about the same thing?"

"You were pretty adamant about getting me to report that client to management. If you were thinking about something else, I wouldn't know."

"If that's what you're here to talk about, then you don't need to worry. I respect your decision not to report it. I shouldn't have pressed during dinner, so accept my apology."

You let out a sigh of relief, finally letting your shoulders drop.

"Thank you, Erwin. I promise I'll come to you if something else like that happens again."

Erwin hums in approval before opening his briefcase, a stack of papers in his hand now outstretched to you. You shoot him a look of confusion but get up from your seat to get a better look at what he's holding. When you don't move to take it from him, he nudges it forwards toward you.

"...What is this for?"

"Your paperwork for the day," he says. You hesitantly take it from him and flip through the pages with your thumb and pointer finger. It's a lot thicker than the stack you usually get, but it is indeed your paperwork. Usually, the interns around the office would hand papers out to everyone after their stint at the printer every morning. You remember Petra telling you, though, that Erwin, who was always the first one in the office, always printed out his own things to avoid his documents getting mixed up with someone else's. Why would he print yours for you?

"Why are you being so nice to me?" The question comes out before you can think. Realizing your mistake, you look to another part of the room to avoid making eye contact. "Sorry, that was out of line."

For another time, Erwin chuckles and takes out his own papers for the day now that his hands are free.

"I suppose dinner made me think of when I first started here, and I'm feeling nostalgic," he says. The look on your face reads as skeptical, so he continues with a smile. "And as much as you try telling me it's fine, I still feel guilty about giving away your parking space."

You shake your head, a quiet red making its way up to your face in embarrassment. Is he ever gonna let this whole parking situation go? You guess it's fine he hasn't. "It's okay, I really am fine taking the bus."

He laughs, shaking his head in response. "I'm sure you are. By the way, how are the interns doing? I've noticed that they tend to spend a lot of time with you, but I hadn't had the time to ask about their performance yet with you privately."

You smile at the thought of the three of them, a warm feeling settling into your chest. "They're doing well, getting stuff done. I know I'm only officially in charge of mentoring Mikasa, but I'd be glad to write all their performance reports once their internships are over." He nods in approval.

"That won't be necessary, but I appreciate your initiative."

"It's hardly initiative. They're all good kids," you praise. After the last couple of months you spent getting to know them, you hope that they all get offered positions after their designated time is over, just as you did after your own internship.

Unlike you, however, it'd be impossible for them to all stay here in your department.

You and the other seasoned attorneys on your floor were already told that there was only enough in the budget to allow for one more full-time member on the family floor by the time Eren, Mikasa, and Armin were finished with their internships (hence why nobody aside from you really made much of an effort to get attached to them).

Petra did tell you a month or so ago that someone on the financial law floor had quit very suddenly (which gave Oluo more work to complain about), so maybe one of them could go for that, but it pains you to know that they'd eventually be split apart.

"I'm sure they are. Productivity has been better since they started." Getting out his glasses, he yawns behind his hand before glancing over at you. "You're welcome to leave, if there's nothing else."

"No, that was all. And, uh, thank you for my papers."

He smiles, and it seems to reach his eyes. "It's not any inconvenience," he pauses. "Knowing Hange, they'll be bringing you along more often. I look forward to seeing you more outside of work, Astraea." After the two of you bid each other farewell and you put the papers into your briefcase, you turn to open the door and head back to your own office. To your surprise, however, Mikasa, Eren, and Armin are all there, seemingly waiting for you.

"What're you still doing here?" Ordinarily, the three of them would go straight for the printer once they got to the floor, so it's a bit strange that they wouldn't be there right now.

"Why'd you go into Erwin's office?" Eren asks, earning him a shove from Mikasa. "What? We all wanted to know!"

Armin sighs at Eren's comment. "It isn't our business, Eren. We're sorry, we were just waiting to ask if you wanted a drink from the breakroom since Mikasa needs to put her lunch in the fridge before we head to the printer."

"Okay, then, I wanted to know," Eren rephrases.

Looking around the office, you see that there's quite a few people here already—enough that you don't want to say anything about it until you're back at your office. The paperwork you have for today just from the regularly distributed items is already more than enough to keep you busy this morning, so you decide that waiting until lunch to tell them about everything is the better idea. You start heading to your office, the three of them following closely behind you.

"It's okay to be nosy, Eren. I'll just tell you during break—I have a lot to do this morning," you tell them, getting a small laugh from Mikasa. "Could you brew a pot of chrysanthemum tea for me?"

Eren groans at the mention of the drink, getting yet another shove from one of his friends.

"I tried some the last time you had me brew it. It tastes like shit! How could you like it?" You hurriedly shush Eren, looking to make sure none of your coworkers heard him.

"How many times have I told you not to cuss at work? You're lucky that it's a Monday and everyone in here is a zombie right now."

"That was rude, Eren. Apologize," Mikasa chastises.

"No."

You roll your eyes at him, going for the doorknob now that you're in front of your office.

"I'm gonna get you fired. Anyway, I'll see you during lunch, go be productive or something."

Before you exchange waves with them, you step inside and get your teapot and the small container of dried chrysanthemum petals to give to Mikasa. Once they're back en route to the breakroom, you head back inside, sighing as you move to sit at your chair, set down your briefcase, and get your laptop out.

You go through the same motions you have for the last 3 years: responding to emails, reviewing cases from the past week, looking at new cases sent from upper management and Erwin. In the middle of replying to someone inquiring about meeting times, Mikasa comes in with your teapot and sets it down at your table. You thank her, and she moves to sit at the desk adjacent to yours.

When she first started working here, you would try and force conversation, not sure if she was comfortable working on her own yet. It was... really awkward, but as the two of you spent more time together, it got easier. No longer did you need to try and fill the silence—it just became a comfortable quiet.

You like to think that she's gotten used to working, you assigning her tasks as you see fit for her and her occasionally asking you questions about anything related to working at the firm.

You keep your teacups in the bottom drawer of your desk, so you roll out with your chair to grab them. You pour yourself a cup of tea and wordlessly ask Mikasa if she'd like one, to which she shakes her head. After you take a sip, she speaks up.

"It said your documents for the day were already printed when we went to do it earlier. Did you start working over the weekend?" Mikasa asks you. You check the time at the corner of your screen; 8:49 AM.

"No, Erwin got them for me before I got here."

"Why? I know that you're friends with him, but I don't remember him ever doing that before."

You nod. You'll tell her about yesterday's dinner with Erwin, Hange, and Levi later, but, right now, you're both too busy to have any sort of girl talk. "Yeah, I used to be the one giving him his papers, ironically enough. He said something about still feeling bad about having me give up my parking spot."

"I thought he was over that. He stopped coming around here a while ago."

"I guess he isn't over it."

12:00 PM comes around soon enough, and you're grateful that it does because your hand cramps from all the typing and writing you had to do. You walk with Mikasa over to the breakroom for her to grab her lunch and for you to heat up some food you brought from home. You don't quite have the energy to make any small talk and Mikasa seems to be still unreeling from her work, so both of you are silent as you get your lunches ready. When you're back at your office, Armin and Eren are already inside, having rolled in their chairs from the main floor.

Once you and Mikasa are seated and the door is locked, the four of you eat in silence for a good ten-or-so minutes. Eren's the first to finish, and so after he throws away his trash, he comes back and starts the conversation.

"So, was I right about the salted butter?"

"Yes, I'm so stressed out about using the wrong butter that it ruined my entire weekend." You roll your eyes. "Hange invited me to dinner, and I went yesterday."

With Eren, Mikasa, and Armin, you were less careful with names, knowing that they were much less inclined to try and look them up online unlike Hange. They all nod, albeit looking a bit confused.

"Isn't Hange your best friend? What's so bad about going to dinner with them?" Armin asks. You groan and dramatically melt onto the table, making a scene.

"They wanted to introduce me to their friends, so I met them."

"Were they weird?" Mikasa inquires, looking at you from her seat.

"No, not really. But one of them was Erwin."

To that, all three of them freeze for a second. Armin's the first to speak.

"Is that why you were in his office this morning?"

You nod. "I made a joke about that client from last week. You know, the one that cursed out me and Mikasa?" They nod. "I just wanted to make sure he wouldn't file a report on my behalf. I really don't need the paperwork."

"Is he different outside of work? I don't think I could imagine him as anyone other than he is when we're in the office," says Mikasa. You shrug, taking another sip of your tea.

"Not really. A bit funnier, but he still acts the same, more or less."

"Who else was there?"

You opt to not tell them about Levi being someone you knew before yesterday, not wanting a (less intense) repeat of Friday's conversation with Hange.

"There was only one other guy, he said he's a professor over at Sina." Before any of them can ask other questions, you hear a knock at the door. "Who is it?"

"It's Erwin," the voice says back. You get up to unlock the door, looking back at the interns with your pointer finger over your lips to shush them. They all motion zipping their lips, and you smile back at them. When you open the door, it's still hiding the interns behind you, but you can hear them shifting around to get a better look at your interaction.

"Did you need anything?" He nods.

"Do you have any tea in your office? The breakroom's out." You look at the interns who look back at you in confusion, wondering why he's here instead of getting lunch somewhere else.

"I thought you didn't drink tea," you comment, opening the door further to let Erwin into the room. He follows you inside, staying near the doorframe while you go to your desk to get the basket of teas out of your cabinet and set it on your desk. He doesn't pay any attention to the other three in the room, instead looking directly at you.

"It's not for me, Levi's here to have lunch with me."

At the mention of Levi, you take a sharp breath in. You're past the initial overwhelming blush that normally overtakes your face when you're in Levi's presence, but you're sure that your ears are beginning to turn red, so you immediately move to hide them, feigning fixing your hair. The thought that he's here is a bit daunting, considering you might run into him, but you try to ignore that to save face in front of Eren, Mikasa, and Armin.

"Oh, well, um.. What kind of tea does he like?"

Erwin comes a bit closer to get a look at what variety you have. "He likes bitter things, but I'm not sure what exactly he likes. What would you suggest?"

You move around a few containers and riffle through packets before deciding on a yellow canister.

"How's dandelion root?"

You hold it out to Erwin, and he happily accepts it. "Sounds good to me. Thank you, I'll have him come by with me on his way out."

At the suggestion, you scratch the back of your neck before laughing anxiously.

"There's no need, I'll probably be busy."

"Nonsense, it'll take a minute. I can drop off the rest of your tea, too."

Just like with Hange, you know you can't keep Erwin from getting what he wants. You smile at him, bitterly giving him a thumbs-up. You can hear Eren snicker at the interaction, followed by a "please be quiet" from Mikasa. You're going to have so much fun getting grilled about this. Soon enough, Erwin's walking out of your office. You groan as you go over to close the door again, slumping into your chair afterwards.

"Are you okay?" Mikasa asks first, followed quickly with Armin asking the same thing. In a pathetic attempt to hide your face, you pour yourself another cup of tea and take a big sip, coughing afterwards from the aftertaste.

"Yeah, yeah, I'm good."

"Seriously, what was that? Is Erwin pulling the moves on you?" Eren sure is getting smacked around a lot today, but you suppose he deserves it.

"If I had to guess, it's that Levi person Erwin mentioned that gets Astraea all flustered," says Armin. Mikasa nods, agreeing with him.

God, there it is again. Your heart beats just that tiny bit faster, thinking about Levi.

"Is he the professor you were talking about? Hange's friend?" Mikasa asks. You nod slowly, an exaggerated tight-lipped smile on your face.

"Yep. I probably don't even need to say anything." You groan again in excess, putting your head down on the table. Mikasa gives you a good-natured pat on the back. "My heart isn't prepared."

"Is it so bad for you to like someone?" asks Armin. You lift your head a bit, looking at him briefly before slumping back down.

"Yeah, you've been single for a while, right?" says Eren.

"I don't like him. He's just really hot," you lament, voice slightly muffled. "And I've never had a boyfriend before, so you could say that." You don't look up to see their reactions, but you hope they're at least surprised someone as successful as you has never been in a relationship before.

Armin, seeing your obvious discomfort, shifts the conversation over to his own weekend and pokes fun at Eren for giving bad directions to their destination, and you four spend the rest of lunch talking about anything and everything that comes to mind. At 1:00 PM, you boot Eren and Armin from your office (lovingly) so you and Mikasa can go back to work. It takes a while for the two of you to get back in the groove, but after about half an hour, things are running as smoothly as they usually are.

"I'm going to the bathroom," says Mikasa, getting up from her seat.

"Don't fall in!" You tease, smiling up from your paperwork for a second. She rolls her eyes before going to open the door. You expect to hear it close shortly after, but instead you hear Erwin.

"Good afternoon, Mikasa," he greets cordially. You immediately forget about whatever papers you're in the process of reviewing and look up to see Mikasa awkwardly looking up at Erwin with her hand still on the doorknob.

"Good afternoon." Not wanting to entertain any chance of small talk, she opens the door wider and sneaks past Erwin for the bathroom.

Good grief, why is Levi even here? He's right there, standing next to Erwin with his hands in his pockets. Thank goodness Erwin is the one to speak first.

"Thanks again for the tea!" Erwin exclaims, positively beaming. He seems to be in a better mood than he was earlier, speaking more freely now. You nod at him, unsure if you're meant to get up and actually get the tea from where he's currently standing. He makes the decision for you, stepping in and coming up to your desk. He waves Levi over, and you try your best to avoid making eye contact with either of them by fiddling with your teapot.

"It's no problem, I have more than enough to share," you say, which isn't a lie. All of your coworkers prefer coffee, so the breakroom is mostly stocked with that instead. The person previously in Erwin's position liked tea well enough to keep some there, but after they moved up the ladder, nobody ever bothered to restock the supply. After you drank through the rest of what was left behind, you decided to just bring some from home to keep some in your personal office.

Erwin looks between you and Levi, and you assume he wants you to greet each other.

"It's good to see you, Levi."

"Yeah, you too." You look up from the teapot to see Erwin still expectantly looking at you.

"How'd you like the tea?" You ask.

"It was fine," Levi says, looking around your office. Erwin chuckles, the smile on his face getting bigger.

"He loved it! He even took a picture of the label," says Erwin. You blush a bit at that, feeling a bit flustered he liked the tea that much. "Oh, speaking of, I forgot it in my office. Let me go grab it." And with that, you and Levi are left alone for the first time. Well, maybe not the first time; Hange and Erwin aren't there when you're on the bus, but there's other people there too. Yeah, this is the first time you've ever been alone with him.

"I'm glad you liked it, the tea. It's one of my favorites." He hums in response, now settling to look at your teapot.

"What tea have you been drinking?"

"Chrysanthemum." He seems a bit awkward, standing in the middle of the room, so you decide to take out your basket of teas to show him. You motion him to come closer and take a look. "You can take a couple to try, if you'd like."

He doesn't seem to be in much of a mood to talk, but that's fine. Good for you, even, since you don't have to overthink everything that he says. He takes well to looking through your collection, stopping every couple of seconds to read the labels. There's quite a lot to get through, the basket being about the size of a briefcase, but he takes his time, seemingly looking at everything.

"Why are all of these caffeine-free?" He asks, stepping a step back, probably to tell you he's done looking. You're a bit disappointed he doesn't end up taking anything, but you try not to take it personally; he probably doesn't want to seem rude taking something from someone he hardly knows.

"My mom didn't want me getting addicted to it, so I wasn't allowed any when I lived at home. I think I just grew to be too cautious of it."

He scoffs, and, for a second, you think he's going to insult you.

"Can your mom go back in time and raise Hange too? They're always hopped up on caffeine, I don't know how their brain still functions."

You giggle at that, covering your face with your hand. He isn't wrong—Hange probably drinks more coffee than water.

"Even with all the coffee, somehow I still think that's just how they are."

Suddenly, Erwin comes back into the room a bit out of breath, the container of dandelion root tea in his hand.

"Sorry I took so long, I ran into someone on the way," he apologizes, putting it on your desk.

You look between him, Levi, and the canister. You realize that if Levi liked the tea enough to take a picture of it, surely he wanted to buy it for himself, right? You don't know what spirit, entity, whatever compels you to do this, but you pick up the container and hold it out towards Levi. He stares back at you, probably confused as all hell. You're also confused, honestly—an hour ago, you probably would've leapt at any chance to go across town just to avoid making eye contact with him, but right now, you feel a bit calmer than usual when you're near him. Though, like usual, your face and ears feel a bit hot.

"Are you giving it to me?" He asks.

You nod. "Yeah."

"You literally just said it was one of your favorites."

"That means I have other favorites!" You smile at him. "I'll feel better if someone else gets to enjoy it, anyway. Nobody else here appreciates tea."

Hesitantly, Levi takes it from you. Erwin looks a bit surprised at your exchange, but otherwise, he looks just as he normally does. He checks his watch before looking back at you.

"Levi's got an appointment soon, so we better get going now. Again, Astraea, sorry for taking so long!"

You nod in understanding, waving at them from where you're sitting. Erwin's the first to leave the room, as Levi lingers a bit, looking back and forth between you and the door.

"How much is it? I can pay you back," he says, deciding to keep his eyes on you. How ironic—you were the same way last night with him, except now you're not ready to faint just thinking about his face.

"Don't worry about it. I'm a lawyer, you think I can't pay for some tea?" He sarcastically laughs at you, his face staying completely deadpan throughout. You smile again and motion towards your office door. "Enjoy it for me, yeah?"

He nods. "Thank you, I will."

Without saying any "goodbyes," he's soon out the door, and you're finally able get back to your paperwork.

You don't question why Mikasa takes nearly 30 minutes to come back from the bathroom, but you suspect that she was talking to Eren and Armin for some part of that time. She doesn't question the smile that's stuck on your face either, but she knows it has something to do with the short professor that's holding a yellow canister in his hand as he walks with Erwin to the elevator.

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#levi ackerman #levi x reader #attack on titan #tao.levi #levi ackerman x reader #the romance of reimbursements #levi aot

[usercookie2008]

Yk there's a reason why I block, called keeping a sense of mind and oh yk a kindly STOP INTERACTING, I chose my path and you're going down your's

I blocked you all across Every platform for a reason, give us both a piece of mind cause I knew you'd fucking react that way, I probably missed a couple of you and I know that but I'm not going to waste my energy talking, There was that chance but honestly fucking good riddance You unknowingly Drove me further apart from you guys, You're fucking assholes whether you wanna believe that or not and I feel a hundred times better away from you guys than I ever did trying to fit into that little group of yours, like wow I really felt welcome there even before I actually even started thinking about it.

Edit: ( Except you Arr, you were actually nice, I'm sorry that I cut you off like that but yk I doubt you'd want to be associated with me anymore too, saved us both a Painful Conversation)

You claimed to be my friend and flattered me with your words but still in the end you hardly ever Included me even when I tried so hard to include everyone and make them feel welcome, but fucking no one else did for me so I left!

And yk first time I left wasn't because of me being Proship', no It was because you ALL made me feel I wasn't welcome and constantly belittled me I mean who the fuck calls someone a "Devils advocate" (yes I'm still fucking salty about it) When someone's just trying to actually ask Clarifying Questions??? I wasn't trying to start shit I was actually trying to have a fucking conversation

Second and when I actually left was because then I chose to be a welcoming space fuckin regardless of what type of fiction, I do Not I REPEAT DO NOT ENDORSE THESE IRL, NOR WILL I EVER. But yk I'm not going to be apart of a Group who'll actively Dox, Harass, Threaten, and say absolutely fucking horrible things to people just because their taste in FICTION is darker than yours or Different in a way you don't like.

Antis will Never be welcome in my space, regardless if you 'like my work' or whatever

I don't even care if you're an "Anti who doesn't do that"

The moment you put that Antiship, Anti, Fucking whatever in your Bio, You're actively advocating Bullying and harassment and you are not welcome here.

Now if you don't fucking mind I'm going to continue on my Tuesday and continue to pretend you don't exist, because to me, you really don't anymore.

I'm going to go calm down cause fucking- take a hint. Just fucking take a hint and Leave. Don't try to persuade me, don't. Just fucking don't.

#voidling rants #Proship #Antis DNI. #not that i really care I'll just block you anyways #Kindly take the Hint and leave me alone. #vent #vent post

[oldmanffucker]

just want to address something i've been getting in tags of reblogs of my art, and something i've seen in regard to other artists/writers with a great deal of skill who decide to use that skill to make fan art.

I received two separate comments on two separate art pieces of House fanart just yesterday saying my skill is wasted on them, and i have a lot to say about that.

while i dont think either of the comments were intended maliciously, i think we need to reframe our idea of good fanart being a waste of time/energy/skill by the artist/writer.

in real life, i am a professional artist. i am an art instructor. i make "real" art that goes into exhibitions, and yes, i also decide to spent my time/energy/skills on drawing blorbos.

I think that drawing the things you are connected to and drawing silly fandom art for the heck of it is exactly how you Get those skills. I am good at portraits because I frequently draw or paint portraits. And I frequently draw or paint portraits bc I want to be able to capture blorbo bc I feel like it and I can.

Someone said my 'skills at colors and expression' was what was wasted on them and I want to emphasize that I’m able to capture their microexpressions bc that is what I want to be able to capture, so I make an effort, and I keep practicing until I’m able to do that. When I’m drawing portrait of random ppl online as portrait practice I’m just drawing what I see instead of trying to capture an essence of a person or character I'm familiar with. And that’s a different skill!

And I’m good at colors (partially bc I’m an artist who paints a lot but in this specific example it’s:) because doodling a blorbo is low stakes. I try new things and learn new techniques bc it’s just something I’m doing for me, for fun, and I’m not getting graded on it and I don’t need to hang it in a museum.

It’s art for the sake of being made, which is exactly what you need to make to continue getting better at making.

The stupid hyperfixation of drawing all the frames of a gif is ridiculous when it’s all for a house md effort, objectively yeah lmao, but it’s the equivalent of studying any other image for hours and distinguishing how micro movements affect which muscles, and how the movement of different muscles changes the shape of shadows and light, and it helps anchor understanding of anatomy.

And drawing all this stupid stuff is especially fun for me bc I can see my actual real art skills improving with every drawing I make or thing I write which benefits my real world art. Like I know this might sound some type of way, like I’m trying to make it sound like drawing gay old man medical malpractice yaoi is subverting the zeitgeist and some sort of momentous critical imperative but I don’t think it’s that serious. Which is my whole point! It’s not that serious, it doesn’t matter, AND I’m genuinely improving my craft while doing it so what’s the issue is basically my point ig. And I wouldn’t be drawing at all currently if I wasn’t drawing them bc there’s nothing I feel drawing to capture in this medium irl!

(and if you've left this comment in tags or otherwise, this is not an attack! it is a backhanded compliment to receive/give, but I also acknowledge that it's not usually said with malice, and not something you were likely thinking about to this level. that's ok! just listen & learn yk)

Using your skills for things you enjoy is never a waste! You're exercising your art muscles and bulking up! if you make art outside of fanart it WILL benefit from these endeavors. and if you don't make art outside of fanart, then you're still engaging in the wonderful beautiful practice of creating!

#house #text post #my post #fanart #fic

[berylgrace]

boring uni rambling below (me talking about sensitivity readers, identity, and other stuff)

one thing i love about my degree is the opportunites i have to academically critique and pick at pjo - the assignment i'm currently working on is about sensitivity readers (my topic choice), so i included reference to riordan's now deleted blog post from 2020 about piper, feathers and all of that controversy, which is super important to remember and i think an interesting case study into meaning well, but causing harm. he did say he would use sensitivity readers nowadays if he was writing it, but too little too late, yk?

anyway it's an interesting topic to read into in general. my assignment also has me talking about like - in that case, who is allowed to write what? so it's a lot of like, authors/actors being forced to out themselves bc of the heavy policing, and that just makes me INSANE

like. i don't talk about my sexuality. in fact i don't even think about it. i refuse to label myself bc i don't want or need to, nothing about me is concrete and i don't like wasting energy agonising. i barely even use umbrella terms like queer bc i don't want to invite questions or claim anything. and the thought that i could be publicly criticised for that is so??? like god forbid a character expresses realistic complex feelings about their identity and their life without the author themself being all of those things?

that's why a lot of my stuff is about the value of a sensitivity reader PLUS good faith writing. idk what it's like to be transgender but as i have so many people in my life that are that i'm close to, i could write a good faith interpretation based on what i know and yk, having empathy and an imagination. and then, for good measure, have a trans person look over it! and not to sanitise it, but to make sure nothing i'm doing is harmful, and that anything seemingly negative has a justification, a narrative reason, etc. it's not about perfection, which people who are against sensitivity readers don't seem to get

i think saying that X group can't write about Y group is just way too othering. do ur research, have your sensitivity readers, but erring too far on the side of caution just emphasises this stupid idea that we're fundamentally different. our experiences might be but our humanity isn't.

idk anyway that's enough lol

#txt

[kooktrash]

just wanted to give some tips to anon about enjoying bts content too!!

for sure everything you said!!

on my accts like twt and tumblr

i only follow official accounts, update accts or like "jk videos," and "namjoon pics" typa accounts because the majority of time they only post things relevant to their acct.

Big accounts are funny and stuff, i love them! but i dont follow them anymore because 1) sometimes they start drama 2) they get dragged into drama

i follow bts and the members tags so relevant tweets to them still show up on my feed staying in the loop with funny tweets and other things but so far no drama!!

Block annoying people and antis bro, just do it

Block (maybe even report) the armys who spread rumors and privacy invading videos/pictures

tiktok

oh boy this this the place filled with the most annoying and gullible armys omg

i love the editor armys on there tho <3 so talented <3 so creative <3

this ones a lil harder to avoid the toxicity and drama.

Honestly just use the block button lol I've blocked soooo many people on tiktok (and on all my other platforms) because like ya ruining my vibes yk?

just block the antis bro

just block the crazy weird armys bro

hell block the stupid crazy armys in the comments too lol it's harmless, you dont know them

mark the videos as "not interested" and move along. that's really it on tiktok honestly :/

IN SUMMARY!! (not really summary because this is long asf too)

Curate your following list/tags, it makes a huge difference. the block button was created for a reason

i know it's very very very hard to not get into drama. like i get it, you wanna clarify things and defend the boys!!! Because armys are right behind and front and on the side and top and bottoms and everywhere to protecc them!!!! But pick your battles. 98% of the time it's not worth wasting your energy.

ignore the antis. like literally who has all this time to make videos and posts about a group you supposedly don't like????? I know little to nothing about whats going on in groups and fandoms that I'm not apart of. like how you, an "anti" know about what's going on in the magic shop????? STOP PEEPING IN THE WINDOW AND GET OFF OUR PROPERTY!! 💢💢

many times i would see like vague tweets/posts about drama happening and im like??????? HUH WHATS GOING ON. i never see it fully on my feed or anything.

i repeat, block block block!

block the antis

block the armys who start shit bc sometimes they make things worse too :/

it's sad to see people get consumed by the toxic side of fandoms and completely leave because of that. you stan the group, not the fandom :( so just protecc ur peace with bts, report, unfollow and block!!

all I say is, whatever you see pop up on TikTok 💀don’t believe it

#‧͙⁺˚*･༓☾ inbox ☽༓･*˚⁺‧͙𖤐

[intersex-questions]

shallow vagina anon: thank you so much for your advice, i hadn't thought of averaging out measurements. im autistic so i rlly appreciate clear actionable advice lol. i just wanted to like. explain? vent? about my situation? sorry for tmi about my genitals?

i went to my doctor today (who is actively pro-trans which is nice) and talked to him about it. he suggested i try dilators which i might but he also recommended that i go to a gyno to have them check it out, which ill have an appt for in two weeks. i've been trying to figure this out for a few days because i just recently was like "this probably is very abnormal" and i didn't want to like, jump to any random conclusions. & everywhere says feeling "too tight" is a common problem so i'm like cool! except none of the common answers seem to fit whats going on with me!

its not an issue of natural dryness, and i also have used lube anyways. its not an issue of relaxation, which i dont have trouble with. its not an issue of preparation/foreplay. its not an issue of fear. i don't even completely avoid penetration; tampons were uncomfortable but i only used one twice because the threat of toxic shock made me stressed. any kind of penetration gets uncomfortable (w/ enough lube a finger is fine, two if im turned on, but even after a certain point it starts hurting & generally leaves a slight pain/ache afterwards) and an average penis leaves noticeable pain for a while afterwards. there aren't any muscle spasms. Everything seems as wet and squishy and elastic as you'd expect. i've been on T for a year but i've been like this since i started messing around w/ my cunt and always felt confused why people enjoyed penetration so much; its only recently i was stubborn enough to ignore the pain just to go for it cause i figured it was probably more or less normal for it to hurt. the only way i can describe it is really that i just feel like its too tight, not so much that nothing can get it but enough that it feels like they shouldn't be getting in yk? but again i just figured, penetration is what this organ is made for, so this is probably normal. even though i've heard so many times that sex shouldn't hurt, once i found out how to get any pleasure from it i was like "oh so the pain probably doesn't matter if it can also feel good."

so i just. don't know what to think i guess. i really don't want to waste time and energy if its something common but it just doesn't seem like anything that is common describes what i've experienced? i got my period regularly pre-T & didn't have any signs of virilization, but all the more uncommon explanations for this say that it generally comes alongside not ever menstruating, so i just. feel very lost right now and confused about what the fuck is up with me. i feel really torn between "its probably something normal and you're probably reading way too deep into this" and "this really seems like its something abnormal and i am right to be getting this checked out." thank you for advice + reading this, i hope you have a good day

Oh if you're on testosterone it's almost definitely vagina atrophy. Warning that this refers to it as something that happens to women/females. It sounds scary but it's not. I experience it as well, before T (due to hyperandrogenism) and worse after starting T for HRT.

Higher levels of testosterone can cause vagina atrophy, in people born with hyperandrogenism and people who go on testosterone HRT. It's super common but not well-known about.

Locally applied estrogen cream or the Nuvaring/generic alternatives (or other birth control with estrogen put inside the vagina) can help reduce vaginal atrophy help with it. Talk to your doctor about it.

Vaginal atrophy is normal for those on T HRT and not uncommon but less normal for those not on it.

#asks #questions #vaginal atrophy #testosterone hrt

[fox-buried-in-maple-leaves]

all the fruits and vegetables for amery :D

🍎 [RED APPLE] Who does your OC value above all else?

His time. Amery is a busy man with a big workload and a lot of expectation. He doesn't have time for people who waste his time. It's his most valuable thing.

🍒 [CHERRY] Who is your OC's perfect companion?

Lina! His lesbian beard.. who he is totally dating mhm...

🍓 [STRAWBERRY] How do they feel about 'cute' things?

No strong opinion either way? He'll go "aw" at a cute animal or when his boyfriend is snuggling one of his plushies but yk.

🍅 [TOMATO] How misunderstood is your OC? In-universe or IRL.

Amery is expected to act a certain way in universe so who he is and who he's pretending to be are often misunderstood. Also idk nobody really asks about amery so is he misunderstood irl?? I feel like if ad vitam were super popular with a fandom, he'd get painted as bigger bad than he is.

🌶️ [HOT PEPPER] Who would your OC declare their sworn enemy if they could meet them?

Well.. looks at the Destan-Feuerschild feud.. looks back. When both he and Alee are their respective clan heads they butt heads A Lot.

🍉 [WATERMELON] What will your OC take to the grave?

Oh so many secrets lmao.

🥕 [CARROT] How tough is your OC against certain situations? How weak are they against others?

Amery has some INSANE magic at his disposal. His ability to stop and contain people both magical and not is wild. However, he can be overpowered by sheer physical force or enough magical energy. His magic can also exhaust him quickly if he isn't careful with how he uses it.

🍊 [ORANGE] Does your OC have a prophecy surrounding them? If they don't, what would it be?

Thankfully, no. Though he strikes me as one of those change the structure of how something works prophetic heroes.

🥭 [MANGO] What colours best represent them and why? Does this differ from their favourites?

He is represented by burnt orange and aquamarine blue. The latter is one of his favourites at least.

🍑 [PEACH] How do they show their kindness? How kind are they truly?

Gifts. He'll splurge on loved ones. He's not extremely kind or even very generous. He just doesn't.. think about it?

🍌 [BANANA] Have parts of your OC been lost to time (in-universe)? What do they wish they could lose from themselves?

He'd love to lose his interalised homophobia tbh, man's is struggling.

🧅 [ONION] What is surefire to make your OC cry? Who knows of this information?

Deadass j talk about his sexuality and he might tear up. Luckily only two people know! For now.

🍍 [PINEAPPLE] Pineapple on pizza or not?

"....No."

🍋 [LEMON] What is their kryptonite/ultimate weakness?

His cousin or his boyfriend.

🌽 [CORN] How good are they at hiding and finding their way?

Amery is more likely to brute force rather than hide. But he's fine. Finding his way however, he has any number of contacts at his disposal, he's good

🍈 [MELON] If they had to be put into a box, what box would it be and why?

Hypocritical Bastard Box

🍏 [GREEN APPLE] How do they differ from the norm and how are they punished for it?

I mean the whole gay thing would not go over well with the fam. But anyways in general, Amery has immense privilege so..

🍐 [PEAR] What is their current social standing? If they could change it, would they, and to what?

Upper class. He's not 1% by any means but he is upper class. He would not change it unless other circumstances pushed his hand.

🥒 [CUCUMBER] How innocent are they (unaware to the bad happenings around them)?

Amery genuinely wishes he was less aware.

🥬 [LEAFY GREEN] How mundane are they? Do they like it that way?

He's pretty normal?? Besides working in and then running a magical jail. Like his life is pretty standard lol. He doesn't mind it!

🥦 [BROCCOLI] What do they hate about humanity/their species?

He hates how things are expected of certain clans and people, how they're all in some way stuck with what their clans have carved out for them. It annoys him. I mean then he falls into it anyways?

🥑 [AVOCADO] What will they never back down about, even if it makes them seem bad?

Amery is just really passionate about swiss politics.

🥝 [KIWI FRUIT] How does their outside appearance differ from who they are?

He's much shorter than the vibes would have you think.

🥔 [POTATO] What do they have that others see as a flaw, but they don't care about?

"I don't have any flaws." He broke his nose four times between ages 14 and 16 and it's a lil bent but he doesn't care about it even if his mother keeps pointing it out

🍆 [EGGPLANT] How are they used by others? How easily are they tricked into this?

The Feuerschilds are the ones twisting other clans' arms so.. jot that down I guess.

🍇 [GRAPES] What's their circle of people/their species like? What dynamic would they be called?

You mean his hot hot merman bf and nobody else because he's too afraid to make friends who might reveal things to his family? And Lina, best girl.

#⋆｡°✩ Amery #From The Fate ; Rowan #☾*✲⋆. Essence of Myrrh

[khaleesiofalicante]

hello dani

I wanted to ask... I remember you said you were grown up as a catholic, and you were religious, and and you never got a less than A grade. I think you are still the same about always getting the best marks (I know you probably don't take exams anymore asfh but I meant in general, like you always like to do perfect when you do sth, idk why but you give that vibe)

But I know that you're not religious anymore. And yk how here every parents dream is to have a good religious intelligent child? It's literally the definition of THE perfect child or sth.

I guess what I'm trying to ask is that... What was their reaction to your changes? Because parents sometimes doesn't act like you belong to yourself, it's like you belong to them so they have the right to be angry when they think their child is changing and isn't the way they want them to be.

Because well, I used to be one too. I used to do EVERYTHING my parents asked me to do, and I always had the best marks and everything and it was enough for me I guess, because I liked when they approved of me, but when the COVID pandemic started, I went into sth like depression? Idk what it was but I didn't have the energy to do anything, I hated living, studying, and all of that and I fucked up my exams and my parents were sooo disappointed. And everyone kept saying what happened?? You have great potential why are you wasting it? And my friends were doing fine, some of them used to always ask me for studying advice and their marks weren't as good as mine but now they're doing sm better, and my parents always keep comparing them to me and say things like " you remember that xyz always asked you for advice? Now look which university she got into!!!" They don't say "and look where you are" but I can hear it anyways. And like, I always liked studying, I still do, but when they keep asking me to retake the same exam so I could get a better mark to study a certain course I just hate it. I can't enjoy it, it's like torture. And the sad part is, I really like that course, and studying science in general, but now because of the pressure and everything I just hate it. And it makes me want to cry. I don't know what to do, when I say anything they say "but this is what you want too" and I can't say no and when they ask "why did you become so lazy? What happened to you?" They won't understand even if I explained! Also they raised me religious too and now always shame me when I do sth that isn't approved by their religion, I can't even dress the way I want because my father says "you make me feel ashamed with the way you dress" and when I ask what's wrong with my clothes he just says " I don't like you to dress this way. We don't dress this way" and honestly, I just want to run from here... But I can't do that without feeling like a loser. Because everyone says "you wouldn't have done this if you got into that university they wanted that year. You wouldn't do this if you were still their perfect girl" and I don't even know anymore...

Hello, love.

Thank you for sharing this with me.

About how my parents reacted:

I think a few factors play into their reaction:

My parents, as much as it hurts to admit, are quite negligent.

I have youngest child privilege. I was always allowed to choose differently. For eg: My older sisters were 'pushed/encouraged' to study conventional topics like economics and accounting and maths. I said I wanted to study 'history' and I was allowed to do that. I've always gotten my way in my family.

I wasn't allowed to/didn't even think to identify as an athiest/stop going to church until I was over 18. The more I grew up, the less control I felt they had on me.

You see, my family dynamic is a little complicated. When I was 18, our family went through some shit. So our roles shifted. Our parents become financially (and otherwise) dependent on my sisters and I. So they had less say in what we could do. Of course, they are parents and they still tried to control us, but not as much as before.

I wanted to stop going to church after I was 16. But my father (before he left) kinda forced me or would yell at me when I didn't join the nightly family prayers or go to church. My mom is more relaxed/negligent in the "do what you want" way.

So after my father left, I stopped going to church. My sisters didn't ask me anything. My mom didn't either. It just happened.

So it wasn't really me taking a stand and making a big deal about it. I just decided one day to stop going to church and nobody said anything about it.

But now my extended family knows i'm an atheist but they don't really care (my mom's side - they are pretty chill).

I also feel like I got away with a lot of stuff (Even in school) because i was a "star pupil". Like I would not go to school and bunk classes and get into trouble every week but I never got punished because I got good grades. Fucked up logic tbh.

I hope you get to exercise more independence and autonomy as you grow up. Right now (i think) you are a dependent and therefore your parents feel the need to remind you that - as most parents do.

A lot of what they do and say seems very shitty to me. Even if there is nothing you can do about it, i hope you do understand it's shitty. because when you don't, we normalize this kind of behavior.

it's shitty. you don't deserve it. i hope you know that.

you know i'm at an age where people keep asking me to get married and my response ALWAYS is "if you want a wedding so bed, then you get married".

so yeah. if your parents want a degree do bad, ask them to go get one. this is your life. yours.

i know these things are easier said than done.

i know a lot of us don't have control over what we say or get to do - not until we become financially independent and move out.

but for now, i hope you know this is wrong and shitty. i hope you remember so that one day when you CAN talk back, you remind them of this.

sending you a lot of love and strength.

you'll make it out. i hope one day someone will ask you about how you made it out and you get to tell them your story <3

#sorry about the lousy capitalization and punctuation my brain is buzzing rn #support