#Jus a wholesome lil story I wanted to share

[theearnestonion]

Throwback to the time when my friend on the bus told me something pretty personal, and I was so deeply honored that she trusted me to tell me but I had no idea what to say in response (beacause trust me when I say that I have never once ever in my entire life known what to say at any given moment, ever) so my mind is racing, right? Because if I sound too flippant she’s gonna think I don’t care but if I sound too serious it sounds like pity, and come on come on think what do I say—

and what comes out is: “Do you do hugs?”

guys.

“Do you do hugs?”

me @ myself: I’m sorry??? come again???

“do hugs” ??? Is that a phrase?

Sounds like I’m about to pedal this girl some sketchy back-alley drhugs.

At this point I am beyond certain I’ve messed this up horribly. But then.

She bursts out laughing. Her face just kinda lights up and she looks at me and tells me she thinks it‘s one of the cutest things she’s ever heard.

(it was a very good hug.)

I’ve messed up a whole lot of social interactions. But I think I did something right that time.

#I’m REALLY supposed to be studying rn but I thought of this and couldn’t get it out of my head so I thought I’d share :) #Someone please make me study #I need to but my brain is just like “no <3” and I’m like “WHY >:[“ and my brains like “just because <3” and it’s just #Skndksndfkae #I’m losing it #but remembering this story made me feel a bit better #It was just a very nice hug #Low key wondering how this person’s doing now #wholesome #That’s a tag right? #Jus a wholesome lil story I wanted to share #Erniesaysstuff

[profoundlykim]

>Trust in the VIBE

So, I don’t often post my thoughts here - on tumblr, but hey… the person I would say all this to isn’t interested in what I have to say! And… I’m that girl that needs to get things off my mental, just to keep my ENERGY BALANCED and mantain a GOOD VIBES. Plus, my bestfriend seems to think I should write about these things- I think mostly because of how I deliver my ‘he better not get this fucked up’ stories… Anyway, fuck him and that!

As I said before, I honestly, wholeheartedly believe in ENERGY and VIBES. I believe there are bad energies and bad vibes, as much as there are good! And, people can choose what they stay around - which energy and vibe exactly they want to be surrounded by. The good and or the bad! Yes, I do. So, I smoke my ganja and burn my incense and light my candles and drink my wine and occasionally practice yoga, and listen to music and meditate because… I am attracted to/stimulated by FUCKING GOOD VIBESSSSS! And those things I listed, I believe, contribute significantly to bringing about and maintaining good vibrations!!! So, I'll forever emerge myself in those elements. And… only vibe and energy, just as good, AND if it’s better - well damn, all the more excitement and genuineness and pleasure! ...Only that nice, happy, honest, captivating, entiscing vibes can make me feel like leaving mine to mix with yours and share mine! I also understand that not everyone will understand or like my kind of vibe or vice versa, which is fine! But at least ensure you know what it is you are involved in.

I say all that to say, don’t let these lil boys TELL you shit! (And listen, I’m not referring to age. Cos 'older’ doesn't mean they're more mature or grown- mentally, it only means more experienced!! So yes, yu issa a lil bwoy - if yu acting up and not acting right!!) Don't just listen to the 'talkers'. You should be able to identify what FEEL GOOD feels like. If when you talk to that person and the vibes is right, you'll feel it. And when you go around that person and you make each other feel so nice, you'll feel that too. If their vibe not measuring up and the energy is off - listen to that! TRUST THAT SHIT!! If that person not making you feel how you need to be feeling... don’t move from where you are until you are comfortable and satisfied with the vibes you’re getting from that person. Don’t rush into things. Dont be forced either. Take YOUR TIME! ORGANIC is always better and more real and lasting. If that lil bwoy is in a rush and have somewhere else to be, FINE… Boy bye! "Mouth cut side ways fi talk" but, vibes - that shit isn't easy to fake, yu si actors must get tired and eventually come off their stage to rest. And the 'vibe' is what will point you in the direction to go. The vibe you're getting will let you know if you want to spend any or more time with that person and the level of sharing. And that's based on how good or bad of a vibe it is. That’s what I believe it means to taking the time to get to know someone new and working with the good vibes and rejecting or understanding the bad. I'll stay in my corner, in my solitude until I'm getting that nice; can't get enough; just want to be around you vibes. When I'm getting that I'm all yours and I'll unleash my niceness too, but only then. I AM WOMAN and I believe without a doubt in PUSSY POWER - knowing my worth... knowing what I need to feel like the woman I am - to feel adored and appreciated!!

If you're feeling unappreciated, trust that shit. If you're feeling disired, trust that shit. If you're feeling craved, trust that shit. DON'T BE SILENCED, OR IGNORED! Stay true to your ways, to your process - even if that's unattractive to some lil bwoy. If I’m 'typical’ because I'm not only listening to your 'noise’ but I’m watching your actions and I’m asking serious questions and scrutinizing...and I turn a statement/answer upside down until I understand it - then FINE. I’m Typical and Proud! And if you are not putting that much effort and care into getting to know me, BWOY BYE! I'm interested in a 'typical MAN' then.

You want to spend time with me? Why?...You don’t even know me!. …Oh, you want to get to know me? Okay, so what are you intentions? What exactly do you want to know? Oh, you have no ulterior motives! Great! I don’t see a problem there. Welcome in, get to know me! But remember I am 'typical' because I ask alot of questions so that I can ensure I understand completely and do not assume what the fuck you tryna say or do... and if you don't need all that scrutiny then, BWOY BYE.

Don’t be rushed into getting to know someone. That can’t be rushed. Frankly, it shouldn’t be either! When I say “get to know someone”, I dont just mean their history or their hobbies. I mean their MIND, their THOUGHTS and FEELINGS!! How they think. Why they believe in what they believe in. Where their interest lies. What their intentions are. That’s knowing someone! And whatever happens after, just happens… and it can be beautiful or it can be uniteresting! But, you can choose what you intake/partake in… By trusting the vibes you're getting and by extension, trusting that person! And maybe even loving that person for who they really are! Or Not! (And there are different types of love but this rant isn’t to outline my descriptions of different types of love. But, I don’t mean the love of wanting to make him your King, or wanting to procreate with him or even butterflies stomach) Listen... if the vibes and the energy is soooooo fucking good… and the frequency is moving fast, then lovely - all the better! But at least make sure you are comfortable with the pace. Dont be scared if it's fast! That’s just the fucking frequency you both are on because there’s nothing but constant good vibrations when both energies meet. And that's amazing!! And if it’s not the kind of pure, clean and healthy vibes that you like or want… as I said before, don’t fucking budge!! Stay there until you are comfortable or convinced - by your standards!! There is no reason for you to want to leave your peace to go sit in ugly, selfish, forced, judgemental vibes. Fuck that shit! Absolutely no reason! These boys are still out here tryna catch NUMBERS! Why the fuck u wanna get to know me? Do you really wanna get to know me? Are you listening to what I'm saying? Are you honestly interested in what I have to say? What is your agenda? What are your true intentions? How do you sincerely feel? Do you care about how I feel? No…? Well, bye!! There isn’t a gun to your head or me blowing up your phone. Bye!! It’s that simple! ...We jus' not vibing no more!

Shouldn't getting to know someone mean you are interested in and, more importantly, comfortable in knowing the answers to those questions above? I believe so!

And... always, always be fucking honest with how you feel! Don’t try to play! You shouldn't even want to! That’s for children. Games are for children and clowns. I ain’t got no time to waste! I can't be bothered with faking it! I just won't. I protect my good vibes, cos it as pure as it gets! Meaningful conversations and genuine interest must be present. You ask me how I feel about you? I’m going to be honest, I don’t know you enough to feel any way about you. I don’t mind getting to know you though! I can better answer that with time… But, I dig your vibe so far, you make me laugh. And that’s the truth! IF I'm feeling you and I'm attracted to your vibes trust me, you will fucking know!! I will tell you... you won't even have to ask! My entire being will be giving off that fucking vibe! I’m not easily attracted to people. So I wont lie and say I'm attracted to someone when I'm not. I don't see what good I can get from that shit!! And, I’m not a sexual person - I don’t just want to fuck, just because! I’m aroused by personal stimulation and is more interested in wholesome pleasure. Not just a fucking bruk/orgasm. I can do that my fucking self. And I’d rather do it by my fucking self too, if the vibe doesn’t suit me and if the vibe isn’t good! You can’t/don’t deserve to share in my fucking orgasm! No sir! I ain’t trying to run up and down with someone I don’t know... why should I want to either? How else do you get to know someone/something? Isn’t it with care and time? Or more importantly, WHY get to know someone new if you don't really want to?? Whats the real motive? Why waste all that time?? …You get me? Why else should we be around each other if not to share in the wholesome, unadulterated goodness?

I don’t get him!! He’s concerned about me “falling for him”. He says he doesn’t want me to fall for him! Boy how?? Why?? Do people just fall for people, just soh! In 2000 fucking 17?? Where? …Definitely not here!! Don’t you worry about that, if I fall for you its because I’m satisfied and, if we don’t last - I won’t mind. Because at least I KNOW WHAT THE FUCK IT IS AND MOST IMPORTANTLY I KNEW WHAT IS 'WAS’ because I trusted the VIBES.

So, if you want really want to get to know me, I'm here to get to know. But listen, don't come around here thinking this 'island' needs any aid!! I'm fine, if it's fake and dirty and rushed I DO NOT WANT IT!