#Jamie discovering they were nonbinary and us all agreein on the mini transitioning things is new to us

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(CW - medical stuff, maybe dysphoria inducing?) A question to distract you from the current distresses: do any of you experience social/body dysphoria and, if so, would you undergo hrt and/or surgery if given the chance?

It’s okay! But it is funny that your suggestion for a distraction is related to dysphoria skbssjb don’t worry, I want to answer this question!

So being a system is Weird sometimes because the body, if you don’t have a “”main host”” is honestly like a mascot for your system— and of course you all have to agree together so you can be happy with the body and how we present it- so we can be comfortable.

Jamie used to make all the decisions- and we kind of made her make most of the decisions because she was the “main host”.. so we kind of like, “grew up” around asking her for permission for everything. But time’s changed and she’d rather send us motivational posters like a supportive mom on the side of the bleachers kshsf (no longer a main host and she’s kind of retired now, but deserves it)

ANYWAY, that’s context. To answer your question, we kind of all agree the body is like... non-binary/trans in general.

For who experience social/body dysphoria- almost everyone does honestly! Especially as fictives we 100% know we do Not look like this (though I guess that’s body dysmorphia?). Dysphoria not in the gender sense- we feel a lot, but in the gender sense- we do too. The “older” you are as a system member, the more you try to get used to it though. Chara can have dysphoria sometimes, but they’ve learned to set it aside and not care- most of their dysphoria is honestly personal and depends on their gender for the day (always they/them, but they are genderfluid)

I don’t actually get dysphoria as hard, because.... I don’t.. care?? Sjsbdjb we’ve describe it as this way before. Sal (me): i don’t care about my gender. Kris: Do I need to have a gender? Chara: I refuse to have a gender.

Based on your gender as a headmate in our system, you’re just bound to get dysphoria of some kind. The only people who barely feel it I would say is: Chara (they shove it deep down), Myself (too busy planning outfits for the body), Crowley, Jaiden.

Anyway, focusing on body dysphoria, we actually do plan on having surgery some day! Top surgery specifically and we’d be happy to end it there. It’s either that or reduction because it’s Very uncomfortable to Have These and Everybody absolutely hates it. It’s VERY unanimous, so it’s our collective goal.

We were thinking about HRT at some point, but we decided against it. We’re a voice actor/impressionist and a singer, so it would be bad for our hobby. We actually like this voice! As a “mascot” voice besides as Jamie’s. While we know some of us miss our own voice- like Peter’s and my own, we don’t think this is much of an answer. And then, while we know there’s more to it than just affecting our voice (if it does at all), we don’t really plan on fully transitioning any time soon. We kind of.. want to maintain a really androgynous look if possible. We’ve kind of accepted this body’s facial features and so on... but to change completely is something we think we don’t need (for now), and that’s okay

Sorry it’s so long! We never get body related LGBT questions (because they’re really interesting to answer. Usually you’d answer an LGBT question individually but transitioning is something we all have to decide on collectively) so I guess I wasn’t prepared and didn’t know how to shorten it haha, thanks anon!

#if i was insensitive to some things please tell me #Jamie discovering they were nonbinary and us all agreein on the mini transitioning things is new to us #jamie found out they were NB like... 2 years ago? a year ago actually #then we started pushing for us wanting to get surgery this year #from sal #ask to tag #transitioning #Ask #anon #i know that nb = trans but trans =/= nb #also ill say we for simplicity sake #when we figured out we were NB it was a good step in the right direction #but when we starte using the word Trans it was a really empowering word even though were not in the binary #the white stripe is for us... and saying ‘im trans’ or ‘the body is trans’ makes us feel more better about wanting to semi transiiton #im sorry i call it semi transition?? i wont say that anymore it sounds... like im trivializing it #ill just say we’re really excited to get surgery soon #we need more trans friends we arent intimidated by #like we KNOW trans systems but theyre so cool and we cry thinking about aaking question HSBBS #i mean more of IRL #Sorry this ask is such a mess i guess its obvious talking aboit being trans/nb for the body is Wild and makes us nervous??? god #its like coming out but Again. then again its not like we stated it anywhere on the blog before #im gonna stop talking now #edit: also it’s only VERY recently we’ve been making the body’s pronouns they/them #jamie’s pronouns change a lot but the body’s they/them and it feels SO GOOD