#I've got a lot of thoughts on hands

[ultipoter]

Pokemon Legends Arceus fan comic, where Jirou has disappeared and Volo has complicated feelings about it. (And maybe figures out that there's a bit of a God in that little phone of Jirou's)

#pokemon #volo #adaman #irida #sabi #pokemon legends arceus #original character #ocs #Jirou #fanart #mine #tagging all the characters because I caaaaaan #hhrhhghhg #I've been sitting on this idea for a while ever since I noticed in one playthrough that NPCs acknowledge quest markers on the Arc phone #And I thought about how Volo might want his hands on that #I had a week off from work and what I did with that time was Draw A Lot #I didn't expect this to turn into an 18 page monstrosity #I expected like 8 or 10 at most #but I got to draw Volo a lot. And Jirou. It was fun #this has been brewing for a while and I finally did something with it #Kinda proud about that #Finished a big project! #Now I'm mortified about showing it to people! oh well! #I only watched House MD while drawing and I got to the end of Season 3 #that's a lot of hours spent drawing

[moonsidesong]

if you have more than one, just pick the one you use most <3 feel free to answer in tags what color variant you have too i think that's fun

#polls #personally i've got 3!! but i really only use one of them now LOL #i have an og model i got as a kid #as well as a N3DSXL i got when i wassss 14? i think? #i got myself a 2DS XL for homebrew which. ended up making me feel kind of silly cause there was a lot less risk than i thought there'd be #but i don't really regret it bc the 2ds xl is like the best one imo #just feels the nicest in my little hands #also the 2ds is nicer for homebrew cuz you don't have to use a screwdriver every time you need to put something on the sd LOOL

[delkios]

Still can't get over the fact that after a year (two?) with the Empire, Scorch makes commander while Boss led one of the top commando squads for three years with the Republic and never got promoted passed sergeant.

#republic commando #honestly i've got an entire headcanon regarding commandos' lack of upward mobility in the ranks #originally they were organized to serve directly under the jedi and commanders would exist in a parallel hierarchy to infantry #which they still did mostly #but after losing half their number on geonosis and realizing the jedi didn't know what to do with them they had a massive restructuring #only a couple divisions- like kenobi's -got commando squads but to ensure they were deployed properly they needed their own officers #so clones like gregor were taken from the command track and crosstrained as commandos #i imagine first gen commandos have very mixed feelings about this because suddenly outsiders are in charge of them? #and scorch and fixer and sev resent it because on one hand boss was absolutely wasted as a sergeant #on the other hand they looked at a fucking alpha-arc-desk-jockey captain maze and knew boss would be even more wasted off the field #trying to imagine scorch's reaction to his meteoric rise in rank suddenly leading hundreds of commandos and TKs and no foreseeable fieldwor #'no! how could they do this to me the great and loveable scorch!' #sev would find it hilarious that they gave scorch that much responsibility but also #he went mia as a private and now the others are all officers what the fuck #probably would've been more hilarious if scorch hadn't already been on the verge of snapping from ptsd and having abandoned a brother #and knowing fixer and boss are held hostage to keep him in line just as he knows he's a hostage to keep them in line (headcanon) #these tags are now novels #i just have a lot of thoughts about commandos okay?

[woosh-floosh]

Ah, I always seem to hurt my wrist around the same time every year. Maybe I'm gripping everything a little bit tighter because it's the end of the school year? I think I can trace what happened to aggravate it this time:

Playing too many games on my phone (nyt connections) -> Pain alleviated by stopping -> Aggravated again by playing too much Splatoon -> Playing too much stitch. -> Playing too much stitch. -> Scrubbed the shower -> Playing too much stitch. -> Cutting stickers for too long

CONCLUSION: I need a gamer break

#I thought stitch. wouldn't aggravate it too much because picross doesn't cause much stress to play #but it has a different button system were you don't press and hold only click #it's like clicking the mouse too many times; there's no variation in clicking that repetitively stresses the muscles (and nerves I guess) #My left hand was staring to tingle today and ho kay!! I really need to show some self restraint!! #<- SHE IS PHYSICALLY HURTING HERSELF IN ORDER TO PLAY MORE OF A SO CALLED 'COZY' GAME #Got to go to a funeral this weekend out a state which sucks and is but at least I can finally give my wrist a rest!! #I've worked on the ergonomics of my digital drawing set up a lot so at least I can still draw on my tablet! ^_^ #But not while I'm out of state.... and not in my sketchbook...

[meownotgood]

Can I ask what your ✨Aki journey✨ was like? I’m a Aki girlie but you clearly love Aki more than any blog I’ve ever seen (purrr) When did you start becoming interested in him? Was it an aHA moment or did it develop over time? I’m really curious!!! What inspired you to start this blog? I live, laugh, love backstories 🫶🏾❤️‍🔥

YES I would be so happy to answer this!!!!!!!

so before I read chainsaw man, I knew next to nothing about it, I wasn't really a manga reader in general to be honest but I started getting into it because I wanted to get caught up with jujutsu kaisen after finishing the anime. when I did, I really enjoyed jjk, I wanted to read more manga and a friend suggested I read chainsaw man because it's similar. I was like okay... a lot of people are into it... it looks cool... why not.

and when I started reading and I got to that third chapter and I saw aki... I literally said to myself: yeah, he is going to be my favorite. because he's exactly my type — the suit, the hair tied up so it's long and pretty when he takes it down, the SMOKING??? THE PIERCINGS????? I thought his hair was silly but adorable, his personality was stern but quirky and likable, his kon power was so cool. he was just so cute and hot and definitely my type of character.

but really, even though aki was always my favorite character from the start, my obsession truly began when I finished the manga. aki's arc is just so good... I fell in love with him the whole way through but especially after the manga was over... I loved watching him grow as a character, he just feels so real and relatable personality wise and story wise. he's immensely flawed but kindhearted to his core. he's so human. I love how he's emotional and soft and the conclusion to his arc is genuinely my favorite thing in any piece of media ever, it's so bittersweet and compelling. (and I'm a mess for that bittersweet shit okay)

anyway after I read chainsaw man for the first time I was feeling a mix of emotions between "wow that was the greatest thing ever" and "what the fuck did I just read" but more than anything I yearned for more aki, and so I read it a second time almost immediately after, and then the aki brain infection just grew worse and worse.... was screenshotting every panel of him... I read it a third time... a fourth time in the colored version to collect more panels......... I started my blog over a year ago to post fanfic and rant about aki and the rest is history

#I love this question #I also think it's important to say #albeit it's a bit silly #when I read chainsaw man I was going through a pretty hard time in my life #I'd gone through a bad breakup and I felt very lost #I was reading a lot of manga because I needed something to do to get my mind off things #I think that's part of the reason why I got attached to aki so quickly... #but he means a lot to me because of that #aki helped me to become myself again #also I'm sure I've said this before #but I started writing fanfic because I'd read all the fanfic of aki and #I still needed more #I thought it would be fun bc I always enjoyed writing but it'd been years since I did #suddenly on a random night at 3 in the morning I was like #you know what... I can't sleep... I know how to write... I can make my own aki content... let's do it #and I wrote that first fic like there was no tomorrow #(don't read it btw it sucked BAHAHA) #I posted it on ao3 for fun expecting no one to care but when just a handful of people read it and said they liked it I was overjoyed #I'm grateful I started writing again... I'm glad I get to do what I love and write about what makes me happy #and people actually enjoy it?? THAT'S CRAZY #sorry for ranting too much #can't wait to see where this journey will continue to take me #ask mags

[arsonist-chicken]

What if I just developed social skills to be able to actually make new friends in person and then used those skills to get a new phone number and pack my bags and run away to a place where no one knows me and all my past mistakes and fuckups and started over there without going into social isolation

#i needed to hand my expose in in february and got an email about it this weekend and agreed to hand it in on tuesday #it is now sunday evening and i just got another email about it but thinking about opening it makes me want to throw up #she's so nice and i don't want to see her scolding me for AGAIN not sticking to a deadline #what if she tells me that was the final deadline and i won't receive a grade for that class and so i won't be allowed to write my thesis #until next january? I wanted to graduate this autumn. it's april and i haven't even started on my thesis and i have like three bullet point #for the expose; and idek if I'll be able skillwise and mental health wise/adhd wise to actually write the stupid thesis #like what if i can't do it and then i've spent the last one and a half years on a degree i won't get in the end and then i won't be able to #apply to a lot of the jobs i thought actually looked good #@god give me some social butterfly skills and I'll give or throw most of my stuff i don't absolutely need away so i can just.. #go somewhere new. start over. and not become even more socially isolated than i already am. #does anyone know what a panic attack feels like because i'm having suspicions that i might have finally gotten them this year #but didn't recognise them as such because it could be worse #so anyway. god grant me some social friend making skills #if you can't do that at least throw in some adhd and depression treatment. i am sick of this. #and by this i mean the way i've been living my life at least since i left high school; probably even while still in high school #vent posts #mine #i love my online friends so much but i can't meet them outside to sit in the sun or chat about anything at all or go have coffee together #or or or you get me

[somerubberband]

just watched the angels take manhattan and i'll reinstate what i've been saying: you guys watched this during your formative years???????????

#what the fuck what the fuck what the fuck what the fuck #i genuinely did not expect this at all. i mean it's episode FIVE you don't put this on episode fucking five #i know i'd said that i wasn't that big on eleven and amy on series five but obviously. that changed. & i always enjoy river and rory #river kissing amy's hand.................... #i've got lots of thoughts. anyway #the angels take manhattan #doctor who

[sysig]

Finally made it through (Patreon)

#Doodles #Here it is! Finally transitioning into 2024 doodles! Heck!! #A small handful to bid the year goodbye #Starting with trying to doodled something and it not going to plan so nevermind lol #Sucks too 'cause it was one of those shower thoughts that I got Really excited about and then every step ended up getting frustrated #Wanted to make a cover of a song and then the song had no instrumental-only version :/ #Okay well the concept was meant to be a fem cover of non-human characters - I'll draw up what I think they'd look like! No #Designs were underwhelming and looked weird :// So I gave up lol #Maybe another day! But not this day not when I keep being stopped lol #Only Christmas! Yes I wore the ribbons it's an important tradition and also I like cute in them #Ma got me some fine-tip markers so I had to test them haha - they scan a bit dark so I don't think I'd use them for scanned doodles #That purple is pretty tho I do like it #Was really excited about the gold but nahh oh well I still appreciate them haha #Oh and the tests were on my latest Blank Slate scratch page haha #I've set it down again for the moment but Ch. 4 is probably about 70% done! :) #Had a lot of fun moving pieces around hehe ♪ To no one's surprise Scriabin has painted himself into a corner #Might have a mini project/side project planned around Blank Slate at some point hmmm #Other than the fic itself haha #And finally seeing out the year - it's been over for a while now! #Always feels funny to approach it's end and ring in the new

[quirkle2]

i wish i wouldn't do this to myself. why do i buy games on steam and then not play them for a while and then hate them and request a refund way outside of the refund time window

#qktalks #this is about sonic frontiers . imso fucking sorry #the game LOOKED awesome it looked fun. the beginning is terrible i feel pained to even say it #feels clunky. won't stop FUCKING bothering you with tutorials #killed the first boss and the game literally said ''hey it dropped something. that's important btw. pick it up. don't forget to pick it up' #i am playing a video game. what else am i going to do. #it definitely feels like breath of the wild if it constantly bothered u like every ten feet with reminders #imso sorry sonic frontiers. u had sm potential. u Have so much. i am simply a whiny bitch #also the game looks . surprisingly bad ? #i thought it would look a lot better. it doesn't look shitty by any means but it also doesn't .....look good #the voice acting at the beginning too leaves ...smth to be desired #i have a mutual (hi parker) who loves sonic parker if ur reading this im on my hands and knees begging for forgiveness /silly #this is my first sonic game so maybe it was just not the best first choice ? idk #still love u sonic ur a silly little guy #actually the refund window is 14 days and i've had the game for 16 days ......... so maybe i can still make it #maybe . idk #steam please . i got it on sale i got it half off please just give me my $30 back.im hungry steam #<- lives with her parents and does not buy the food

[theunderthecover]

A slow-burn Sun-Wukong X Reader fic idea has been stewing around in my head for a while. Without going into too much detail (to prevent this from being 10k+ words), here is the barebones idea:

Sun Wukong has to have a source of income somehow. He has a TV, Personal Lawyer, Video games, Purchases Snacks, etc. So, he (in disguised) gets a job. In being a Monkey King "expert" for hire for any company wanting to create accurate Great Sage Equal to Heaven products or media. In my opinion, it is very in-character.

Reader, who just got a job as Head Director and Writer at a Studio that specializes in Monkey King media (in-universe creators of Monkey Cop and the Monkey King Animated Series). They want to utilize this opportunity to skyrocket their career, which means making this show stand out amongst others.

Then they meet, because Totally-Not Sun Wukong heavily critics Reader's initial scripts and immediately gets on their bad side. They pretty much hate him, but can't do anything because he is the company hired expert. So they decide to be extremely petty, much to Wukong's amusement.

This is full blown One-Sided (on Reader's part) Enemies to Friends to Lovers. How the transition of Enemies to Friends is blurry, but what excites me most is the ideas I have for their Friendship and their Later Romance. It's very sappy and fluffy, Wukong gets all the forehead kisses and soft love that fills the heart till bursting. Its pre-cannon at first, but at some point I want it to dip into canon and eventually become canon-divergent (because I'm a sucker for alternate timelines, it lets you explore characters).

I really expect no one to see or comment on this, it's was not formatted to be in anyway coherent. Just wanted to get at least part of what has been living rent-free in my mind out into the Tumblr sphere.

#lmk fic #sun wukong x reader #left out a lot of specifics #like details of how Reader got the job #or why monkey king needs a lawyer #or even a lot of plans I have to flesh out Monkey King and this version of a Reader-insert as much as possible #they will have several conversations about their immortality/mortality in a way I find would be interesting #its probably gonna happen right in-between the friendship-romance transition #other than that thought tho #bro I just wanna give Sun Wukong forehead kisses and squish his cheeks this fandom has given me a goddamn crush on a Chinese Figure what tH #this fic idea has been me coping with every time I see a cute fan work of this goddamn monkey that makes me go A #I can count the number of actual fictional crushes I've had on one hand and I blame the entire LMK fandom for increasing my short list #this fandom is tiny but holy fuck is it mighty what the heck-

[carlyraejepsans]

either people with OCD need to stop being relatable or i need to see a doctor

#the intrusive thought part is insanely relatable to me but also so much of everything else in tests is just not something i struggle with? #like the cleanliness thing or the disease thing. I don't have rituals per se #or at least I wouldn't call them that? i have really bad intrusive thoughts and I've gotten in the habit of hitting myself #or saying random words/noises out loud when it happens to snap out of it. and it's getting worse with time ngl #only people i ever saw relate to it said it had smth to do with ocd. but it's not exactly a compulsion is it? I don't even realize i do it #it's instantaneous. like instinct. and then I'm left to deal with my head aching or my hand almost bitten to blood lol #it's painful! and it sucks and i hate it and I'm so tired of dealing with it. but it's literally just That #i guess if have anything like a compulsion it's that i check behind my bathroom curtains a lot before i shower #to make sure i closed the windows even though i just did it and checked a dozen times before. but it doesn't stop me from showering #or impact me anywhere else either. like most times i just leave the curtains open so i can see they're closed with a glance and move on #that's it! #man. this i exhausting #anyone got advice?

[themagical1sa]

"i like you and i blame you for making me feel this way" he said

i still think about it

#isa and the y/n experience #isa go to sleep challenge #except i Can't because i am going through a story arc for real right now #his squish for me evolved into a crush i think #like. romantic interest and alladat jazz. the whole shebang #i feel like this has been a long time coming and whatever happened last sunday was just his tipping point #i didn't want to assume anything (God. me and this specific sentence. I think we've found the theme for the story /j) so i just #let things happen first because i needed to be Certain (this mfing word too. guys I've figured out the plot theme /j) #im ngl i had an anxious voice in my brain going 'don't fall in love with me' for the past several months #but now that i'm dissecting it... there's a lot going on with why i had that string of thought #i'm very hyperaware of the dynamics shifting over time (especoally rn when i'm not enrolled for this semester) #not to mention my thing for crushie which has added conflict on top of the dynamics shift #we haven't interacted very much but i still have affection for him... yet on the other hand squishie's squishing me so hard i'm a crush now #the dynamics have changed #and then there's squishie's backstory that i will never detail so long story short: he's been on the receiving end of toxic relationships #and i've managed to become a major turning point that made him realize that he can be happy again #i've got a lot on my mind can u tell HAHA #i'm thinkin' abt alladis on top of wanting to be more objectively productive with my time off college AAAAAAAA #this wattpad fanfic shoujo manga webtoon morning romcom disney aitcom is getting too real @_@ #shoutout to my besties especially seraph who contributed to that label #my life has never been the same since the moment classmate bestie clocked me as a living wattpad fanfic back in january 24 #augh #anyway. i'm gonna... try to brainrot abt something else HAHA #shoutout to hug anon #if u're still here: bestie a lot of things have happened since u were last here #they were one of the og crushie/isa supporters from tumblr HAHA

[bagelthatwrites]

Somewhere Sunrise (Begins Another Day)

Chapter 1: Unfortunate Mishaps

Summary: Reagan Ridley tries to be prepared for situations, but the job always manages to surprise her.

Especially when she's thrust into another universe, and stuck figuring out how to get back.

Fandoms: Undertale (2015), Inside Job (2021 Cartoon)

Notes: (thank you to my good friends @pastelkonpeito and @maddestmewmew for beta reading this chapter!! also another thank you to hen again for helping me improve the pacing !) Also this takes place briefly after part 2 of the show, and after the true pacifist ending of Undertale.

WARNINGS: blood mention, possibly death, also swearing

~~~

If you knew anything about Cognito’s head robotics scientist, it’s that she’s been on this job for over a decade.

The job came with many problems and risks, be it near death experiences, dealing with cover-ups and disappearing accidental witnesses, or nearly losing an appendage or two.

But out of everything Reagan Ridley’s done and been through, she didn’t think she would spend her last moments like this.

The machine had taken months to finish, endless all-nighters spent programming, and connecting wires, and checking and rechecking the blueprints to make it perfect. 

The companion watch took just a few weeks to properly sync to the shiny, new transporter… 

And it malfunctioned. And it took her with it.

~~~

It was a decently quiet night in the building, and the cool wind from outside somehow seeped its way through from the windows to the quite sizable space of Ridley Labs, though it never affected Reagan, as she was used to the drafty windows. Never got the damn things fixed.

Her best friend and co-team leader Brett Hand shivered, though, used to the rest of the building being room temperature. 

As Reagan installed the last few panels onto the transporter core, Brett took a minute to look around the lab again.

It was in its usual state, messy but somehow organized enough. Fitting for her, isn’t it?

“Alright, we’re almost ready.” She lifted the welding mask and switched off the propane torch, turning to him. “Brett, do you have the watch?” “Oh- yeah.” He handed her the device. “So… what does this do again?” “Were you even listening the first time?” She muttered, and waved her hand dismissively. “Well, the old teleporter was broken and out of date, so I took the liberty of building a new one. This one syncs to a watch- the one I’m holding here- to take the wearer to and from their destination. The machine serves to make sure that the watch works as intended, and to actually choose your destination.” She patted the machine, and put the wristwatch on, adjusting it.

“You’re here in case something happens to me.” She pointed to Brett, and walked back over, putting her hands on his shoulders. “...If I’m gonna be honest, you’re the only person in this place that I’d trust if anything happened to me.”

“Awww… Reags!” He smiled bright, pulling her into a tight hug. “Me too.”

“Put me down, you goober, or we won’t be able to start the experiment!” She laughed out and smacked at his arm.

He placed her back down and she turned to activate the machine and the watch. “Alright. I’ll start with a decent location… somewhere just outside of DC.” She pressed a few buttons on the machine.

“But… what if you can’t get back? You might have to walk for a while…” Brett commented. He widened his eyes. “OR! I could come and pick you up!” She snapped her fingers. “Exactly.” She presses a button on the watch.

“Alright.”

The transporter vrrrr’d to life, and its sounds echoed across the lab in a pleasant symphony of machinery.

“It’s working!!” Reagan couldn’t hide her excitement, her eyes lighting up as a smirk appeared on her face. “Brett, it’s working!”

Brett squealed in corresponding exhilaration as the watch lit up in unison.

The excitement of the pair was short-lived, as the wristwatch elicited short shocks.

“Shit.” Reagan struggled to get the watch off, as she felt the teleportation tech do its magic. “I can’t- shit, fuck, it’s stuck! I can’t get it-”

And she disappeared in a flash.

Brett’s phone buzzed, and the call was from…

…Reagan. He sighed in relief and clicked to accept the call, only to see a screen of white.

“Reagan????”

Reagan comes on screen, hair whipping in the wind (wind????????).

"Brett! Are y-ou getting this tr-ansmi-ssion!?" The audio and video were cutting out, but Brett nodded. 

"List-en to me! I d-on't know wh-er-e I am, but no m-atter WHAT, you have -to keep the m-achine running! I seem to- to h-ave gone to a- different area than intended-”

She pushed her hair out of her face and looked around, squinting in the foggy winter wonderland- if she remembered correctly… it was supposed to be… September.

Oh god.

“I-I.. I-’m th-ink in a di-ffere-nt uni-v-erse! And it's hailing b-" A piece of hail flew down and nailed the scientist right in the temple, causing her to fall over into the snow. 

"Reagan? REAGAN!?" Brett brought the screen closer. 

"Aw- SH-IT, I... there's sn-ow getting into the wa-tch a-nd I-" Reagan's eyes drooped slightly, and they both noticed blood dripping down her face from the deep cut, now very prominent on the side of her head. 

“Shit- Th-this is go-ing a lot w-or-se th-an I th-oug-ht it wo-uld! If I c-an get th-e wat-ch to-”

…She couldn’t…

Reagan felt herself getting weaker. There was blood dripping down into the snow now.

The situation was getting worse. The situation was unsolvable.

"...Brett... if I don't su-rvive this... I j- just want you to know that I'm sorry... for ev-eryth-ing. You w-ere a... a good fr-iend." Reagan felt herself getting more lightheaded, and the watch glitched and crackled as the weather worsened the condition. 

"Reagan, why are you apologizing..? Hey- no- listen, you'll come back, you'll be okay, I promise- REAGAN?" Brett teared up and clasped his hands worriedly. The transmission was almost lost. 

"...G-oodbye, Br-ett." The screen cut out as white overtook the transmission video, and the small screen finally displayed "SIGNAL LOST". 

"Reagan? REAGAN!" Brett called out, but no one answered. 

He felt his stomach twist.

…She…

…

He failed to keep himself stable on the edge of the desk, starting to slide down and sit on the floor.

His heart caught in his throat as he choked up, tears falling, the lab now dreadfully silent.

~~~

“Oh goodness…. Frisk! Get the first aid kit!”

#the bagel writes #somewhere sunrise begins another day (the dream fic) #my writing #writing #fanfic #inside job #inside job netflix #reagan ridley #brett hand #only tagging reagan and brett rn since they make up much of the chapter #OKAY. *CLAPS HANDS* I'VE GOT A LOT TO SAY AB THIS #so this idea came to me in a dream (two?)- literally #the original context was that undertale had a netflix show??? and i thought that was funny #i had the 2 dreams around... late november/early december #and i've been thinking about them SINCE #this is gonna be multi chapter but i still have to plan out the rest of it since i dont have much planned out rn #but reagan's eventually gonna interact with the ut characters just because #i didn't tag this ut but the next chapters will since they'll actually have the ut characters in it #also this isn't necessarily shippy but idc if you tag this as brett x reagan #i'm intending on leaving it ambiguous though #OKAY THAT'S ALL. BE UPON YEE!!!!!!!!!!

[starsandthorn]

read through alien space for star rail context and every frame himeko's in you can faintly hear me in the bg trying hard not to think about how much she looks like diluc

#personal stuff #delete later #remembering the reason i got into honkai in the first place was to see what similarities genshin might have inherited #and going oh yeah!! this is fun actually #anyway yeah. woe same hair color bangs and art style be upon ye. the little hair loopy is driving me crazy #don't get me started on the red eye that pepper mint has contrasted to the delusion. good night #the manga itself was really interesting though! i haven't read a whole lot of the honkai manga bc i don't know where to start really #like i've read azure waters bc i love my girl. and second key for gay people lore #but i haven't read any of the others i don't think #also REALLY funny to me who didn't finish apho 2. originally i thought welt's star rail experience was an isekai. #i honest to god thought void archives hit him with a train and he woke up on a different train #while funny. the actual reality has me head in hands. the image of star rail himeko that welt sees and recognizes her.....auuuugh. #and the very person who rescues him is the person he feels like he did wrong by lying to her. agh. #but yeah! i only knew a little bit abt himeko's dad based on what we're told early in game #so i originally speculated that genshin murata's father was the og pyro archon who died and she took his place #but now i'm not entirely sure. #chances are. since we've seen archons inherit the same Ideal along with their element. murata probably fought her predecessor #and took their place #ACTUALLY FUCK ME. WAIT. #LIBEN'S LINE ABOUT NATLAN . WAS HIM TALKING ABOUT OTHER WORLDS. #at first i thought it was just a cheap way for the developers to talk about their other new game and maybe it was BUT ALSO. #AND AT LEAST ONE MURATA WAS OBSESSED WITH GOING TO SPACE. #HMMMM #listen i am not all that excited for natlan purely on the basis that i know mhy is going to fuck up every character design #but plotwise maybe i am allowed a little bit of hope. lol #anyway void archives pretty. i get it now.

[torao-chan]

me: ... i don't do a lot of conscious offerings for hypnos. but i've got a v conscientiousness bedtime routine. maybe i can add something more intentful in there? what do others do? me: -googles it- google: literally everything you have in your bedtime routine is something people do for hypnos as an offering :3 me: ... well that's not helpful.

#on the one hand; yay i already do a lot for hypnos :D #on the other hand: what can i do now?!?!?! alskjlkgjfdsg #maybe i'll clean my alters tonight. maybe that'll help #asdlkjlkgjfdg sorry to talk about religion on here i know absolutely no one wants to hear about it from me sadlkjlkgfdjg #or from most ppl in general #but i need to get these thoughts out of my head so i can work .__.;; #i think i've got it sorted now tho #i shall scedaddle #personal

[beelzzzebub]

i had. The most horrifying dream last night, and i literally cannot focus on like doing school and shit bc the imagery is jumping into my head at a rate much higher than my normal intrusive thoughts and i really don't know what to do about this right now

#bc i've normally got like. stuff to do to dim certain types of intrusive thoughts #bc they're more of less sort of focused ig? idk #idk if you would call them compulsions #i guess yeah although that's not what a lot of my ocd work has been focused on #but the point is this has inspired much more vivid and completely differently placed thoughts #since i have the very distinct memory of the dream with all its gore #and normally if i was having intrusive thoughts about like harm happening to me idk #for some reason it generally happens about my hands? so i kind of just like put the related fingers in my mouth #which i guess yeah. compulsion. since i do it for intrsive thoughts and bad textures #anyway #but i can't do that bc this is about my face #soooo idk how to deal with it #gah #this is not pleasant #if anybody who gets intrusive thoughts has any like tips for how to deal with them #bc like this is not what i'm used to #aah #boink #ocd