#I'm too much

[yourworstnightmare8]

You only "cared" about me when things were manageable - when I was manageable.

You saw me at my absolute worst and most vulnerable, and it scared you. You no longer saw me as someone you could help, but rather as something you needed to manage. You no longer wanted to deal with me once you realized how pathetic and fucked up I truly am.

You were the first and last person in my life I fully opened up to. I thought I finally wasn't alone. But you gave up on me and left me in the dirt once I got too much. You showed your true colors and how you were just as selfish and manipulative as the rest. You reminded me for the final time that absolutely no one can be trusted.

I don't blame you though, I’d leave me if I could. Besides, it was my fault for being so fucking stupid and deluded.

I give up on me too.

#2018 #i hate myself #i hate you #fuck you #i hate me too #i don't blame you #i wish i was dead #i'm too much #depressing shit #sad shit #kill me #i wanna die #i wanna kms #fucking exhausted #what is wrong with me #i'm a fucking idiot #never again #mentally fucked #mentally unhinged #mentally unstable #i give up

[kimchicuddles]

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#more #too much #i'm too much #loud #not too much #rajeev

[littleteapotghost]

I am sorry

Again

To be the wave

That drowns you

In a storm tide of foam-flecked good intentions

It's just

When I see that you are thirsty

And wanting rain

You should begin

(In the throes of drought)

To build something that floats

Because here in my pocket

Is a forty day flood

I can make nothing smaller.

Every cup is a sea

Every drop is a wave

And my desire

To quench the dusty voices

Of the faces I call home-

It is a tempest

Untethered

That has left my grasp in the moment of its creation

Just like every other time.

I'm sorry.

Again.

At least you'll never die of thirst?

#adhd #toomanyfeelings #too much #I'm too much #extra af #poetry

[labradoritelullabies]

Back to feeling like I require too much of everyone's time

#I'm too much #too much too much too much

[0last-ditch-effort0]

Ahh, that wonderful familiar feeling of "oh god, I'm ruining it all"

#I've seen that look before #I'm too much #And he's thinking about leaving #How long can one be a caregiver before they've given too much? #me saying shit

[vulpesvalentine]

All I wanted was to talk to you after this horrible day...

#vulpes vents #i think they're realizing and #it hurts #it sucks #I actually am awful #and I wish people would understand that before I get attached #I'm too much #And I can't stop it #I can't stop being like this

[artkaninchenbau]

A h-heartfelt reunion..?

Bonus

#Sir Crocodile #Monkey D Dragon #Emporio Ivankov #Dragodile #Crocodad #My art #One Piece #We're not gonna talk about the work I should be doing rn I have Severe Procrastinitis and I'm doing my best okay #Alternative version where it was both Crocodile and Garp beating Dragon's ass before Iva-chan joined in but that was too much effort lmao #I'm a believer in Dragon being a Wind Logia so don't worry guys he is 100% taking this beating intentionally #He knows what he did and he's dealing with the concequences of his actions. With grace. #You know I realize Iva-chan should be two whole meters taller than Crocodile but we're just gonna ignore that #Look Iva-chan taking Crocodile's side and being like ''Crocoboy is right you fucked up bad Dragon'' brings me joy #And for real I've been wanting to draw this for months. But never did because I had other shit to do. Which I still do #But. You know. Sometimes you need to draw a shitpost. It's ✨ self-care ✨ #And appearently One Piece shitpost comics have become the thing I draw for myself on occassion

[mynameisbillandimaheadcase]

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#I'm currently spiraling #but not in a completely detached and funny way #I'm unlovable #I'm too much #my self worth has plummeted #I'm trying to do anything else that going to bed #i don't think i will manage staying alone with those feelings

[lipsyncforyourlife]

#I'm Too Much #Alexis Michelle #Alexis Michelle Discography

[saltpepperbeard]

going fucking bonkers going bananas going INSANE [x]

#OFMD #Our Flag Means Death #OFMD Season 2 #OFMD S2 Spoilers #Taika Waititi #Rhys Darby #Gentlebeard #Blackbonnet #Edward Teach #Stede Bonnet #Edit #I AM TREMBLING #SHAKING SO SO HARD #HOW DARE THEY DO THIS #I FEEL LIKE I'M GOING TO PASS OUT LMAO #THIS IS TOO MUCH TO PROCESS AFTER YESTERDAY #GOD!!!!!!!!!! #THAT LAST GIF TOO LIKE #GOD HDFJKDHLJKDHGLJKDHGLDKG

[cha-melodius]

Gray Catbird by Kristy Brig, ML609429271

#bird #birds #birb #bird photography #birdblr #birbs #borb #birbs of tumblr #birblr #cute birbs #ebird #i'm sorry i just had to share this guy with tumblr #he is too much

[1alchemistart]

some dunmeshis bc i love them

#dungeon meshi #dunmeshi #delicious in dungeon #falin touden #laios touden #marcille donato #farlyn thorden #farlyn touden #laius thorden #laius touden #laois touden #that's right i'm including the misspelling cause i see it a bit too often JSDFKLSDKL #SOON I SHALL POST THE SPOILERY DRAWINGS I'VE BEEN WITHHOLDING. #THIS IS A REMINDER FOR PEOPLE TO TAG THEIR MANGA SPOILERS i read the manga fully but please think of the anime onlies JKSDFKLSD #my art #i love laios v much as you can tell

[wearenotjustnumbers2]

This baby remained under the rubble for six hours. Read it again. By some miracle, he survived and he was rescued. But his mother who was holding him didn't. He looks like he's in shock, you can see tears coming out of his eyes but no expression or any sound to indicate his pain.

We are not numbers. Make an effort to end this.

#six hours under the rubble is too much for a full grown human being #he's literally growing up with these images printed in his head #I'm sorry the world failed you #palestine #gaza #israel #we are not numbers #important #current events #ethnic cleansing #free gaza #free palestine #gaza under attack #gaza under genocide #gaza strip #israel apartheid #video

[thatdiabolicalfeminist]

just to be completely clear, the amount of military power and political influence Israel has has NOTHING to do with its settlers being Jewish. Israel is a force for American & European interests in the region and they're just doing what America does and allows/encourages its close allies to do.

war crimes aren't considered war crimes when someone America finds useful is doing them. european and american pushback against anyone criticizing Israeli apartheid & genocide is 100% because these crimes are useful to American & European hegemony.

Governments that are deeply antisemitic, like France, aren't suddenly caring about Jewish people. Jewish people, persecuted the world over, don't hold some kind of hegemonic power outside of Israel.

The state of Israel and its attendant brutal treatment of the locals are both incredibly useful to the US, and American hegemony means we're expected to celebrate both.

not bc they're Jewish. this isn't a break in the pattern of western antisemitism and it's not evidence that antisemitism doesn't exist.

it's just like how you could get fired for saying shit against the US war in Afghanistan when i was growing up. it is 100% about US military and political interests (ok slightly western europe too but lbr)

#this widespread support has NOTHING to do w Israelis being Jewish apart from evangelicals wanting to use them as pawns for armageddon #the primary reason this is all being treated like it's ok is cuz it's useful to the usa #i feel like this post is going to bring terrible ppl into my inbox but i'm gonna leave it rebloggable for now #if our (US+EU) governments push back at all it will be because it stops being useful to us #either because Israel isn't doing this as quickly & efficiently as promised and it looks like Palestine might actually do some damage #or if it otherwise becomes too politically costly by causing too much tension between the US & other nationstates #either allies like Saudi or if states we aren't quite ready to have war w seem to be ready to throw down over it

[sketchy-tour]

Redrew some of my old daycare attendant doodles as stress relief today

#The original doodles were not posted here I'm p sure and for good reason they are SO BAD #but I wanted to draw something but without need to think too hard so redrawing something old felt good enough #also featuring the whole nickname thing the DCA fandom was always so fond of. Do yall even still do that??? I havent been up to date #ah. The blorbos before wally #anyway #fnaf security breach #fnaf dca #dca fandom #dca fanart #daycare attendant #fnaf daycare attendant #self insert #self insert x canon #my art #sketches #much needed comfort art

[inkskinned]

the thing is there's like, a point of oversaturation for everything, and it's why so many things get dropped after a few minutes. and we act like millennials or gen z kids "have short attention spans" but... that's not quite it. it's more like - we did like it. you just ruined it.

capitalism sees product A having moderate success, and then everything has to come out with their "own version" of product A (which is often exactly the same). and they dump extreme amounts of money and environmental waste into each horrible simulacrum they trot out each season.

now it's not just tiktokkers making videos; it's that instagram and even fucking tumblr both think you want live feeds and video-first programming. and it helps them, because videos are easier to sneak native ads into. the books coming out all have to have 78 buzzwords in them for SEO, or otherwise they don't get published. they are making a live-action remake of moana. i haven't googled it, but there's probably another marvel or starwars something coming out, no matter when you're reading this post.

and we are like "hi, this clone of project A completely misses the point of the original. it is soulless and colorless and miserable." and the company nods and says "yes totally. here is a different clone, but special." and we look at clone 2 and we say "nope, this one is still flat and bad, y'all" and they're like "no, totally, we hear you," and then they make another clone but this time it's, like, a joyless prequel. and by the time they've successfully rolled out "clone 89", the market is incredibly oversaturated, and the consumer is blamed because the company isn't turning a profit.

and like - take even something digital like the tumblr "live streaming" function i just mentioned. that has to take up server space and some amount of carbon footprint; just so this brokenass blue hellsite can roll out a feature that literally none of its userbase actually wants. the thing that's the kicker here: even something that doesn't have a physical production plant still impacts the environment.

and it all just feels like it's rolling out of control because like, you watch companies pour hundreds of thousands of dollars into a remake of a remake of something nobody wants anymore and you're like, not able to afford eggs anymore. and you tell the company that really what you want is a good story about survival and they say "okay so you mean a YA white protagonist has some kind of 'spicy' love triangle" and you're like - hey man i think you're misunderstanding the point of storytelling but they've already printed 76 versions of "city of blood and magic" and "queen of diamond rule" and spent literally millions of dollars on the movie "Candy Crush Killer: Coming to Eat You".

it's like being stuck in a room with a clown that keeps telling the same joke over and over but it's worse every time. and that would be fine but he keeps fucking charging you 6.99. and you keep being like "no, i know it made me laugh the first time, but that's because it was different and new" and the clown is just aggressively sitting there saying "well! plenty of people like my jokes! the reason you're bored of this is because maybe there's something wrong with you!"

#this was much longer i had to cut it down for legibility #but i do want to say i am aware this post doesnt touch on human rights violations as a result of fast fashion #that is because it deserves its own post with a completely different tone #i am an environmental educator #so that's what i know the most about. it wouldn't be appropriate of me to mention off-hand the real and legitimate suffering #that people are going through #without doing my research and providing real ways to help #this is a vent post about a thing i'm watching happen; not a call to action. it would be INCREDIBLY demeaning #to all those affected by the fast fashion industry to pretend that a post like this could speak to their suffering #unfortunately one of the horrible things about latestage capitalism as an activist is that SO many things are linked to this #and i WANT to talk about all of them but it would be a book in its own right. in fact there ARE books about each level of this #and i encourage you to seek them out and read them!!! i am not an expert on that i am just a person on tumblr doing my favorite activity #(complaining) #and it's like - this is the individual versus the industry problem again right because im blaming myself #for being an expert on environmental disaster (which is fucking important) but not knowing EVERYTHING about fast fashion #i'm blaming myself for not covering the many layers of this incredibly complicated problem im pointing out #rather than being like. yeah so actually the fault here lies with the billion dollar industries actually. #my failure to be able to condense an incredibly immense problem that is BOOK-LENGTH into a single text post that i post for free #is not in ANY fucking way the same amount of harm as. you know. the ACTUAL COMPANIES doing this ACTUAL THING for ACTUAL MONEY. #anyway im gonna go donate money while i'm thinking about it. maybe you can too. we can both just agree - well i fuckin tried didn't i #which is more than their CEOs can say