Karlach breaks my heart. She already had me crying in act 2 and hoo boy you should have seen me at the end. And it's not even about what ending she gets.
Because the thing is, she has cancer. She has this thing inside her that's killing her. She's dying and there's no cure, not one she wants anything to do with at least.
Every time she'd mention her engine and what it would eventually do to her, how she started saying stuff about how she could feel it happening, I could only think about people with terminal diagnoses.
And fuck, how she tried to act like she'd come to terms with it and didn't want to live if it meant living in Avernus, but then had that breakdown at the end?? I sobbed.
How many sick people have to make a choice like that? Die or live a life you don't want? You don't want to die but the alternative is hell. You can treat your condition but what's the cost? Will you be able to make peace with your life and your body afterward?
Fuck, Karlach just got started living life and then had her big bright future ripped away and tried to pretend like she was okay with it. She'd hold on long enough to help save the world and then die with a smile.
Except when it was all over and she didn't have that purpose to cling to anymore, just someone she loved, she realized how Not Okay she was with it. There's a lot to be said about bodily autonomy for people without many options left, but all Karlach wanted was to finally make her own choice about her body and what happens to it. And the choice she made, one she thought she was happy with - to die rather than live in Avernus - was an easy one. Until suddenly the end was right in front of her, and it wasn't easy anymore.
Breaks my heart.
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i wish youtbe had a blacklist function, like this site does, or even an extension, where i can add certain key words and automatically hide videos featuring certain topics, either because i'm not interested, or they're genuinely upsetting, or it's specifically a person the site keeps recommending me. Like, i just looked through firefx's extentions, and i couldn't find anything quite like what i'm looking for? you'd think that'd be an accessibility feature a lot more people would be willing to use.
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i've made this post before but it bares repeating. it's always so wild to see young trans kids be like "oh i'm 18 it's too late for me" and more importantly seeing that being like, pushed from other trans people bc when i came out at 15 back in 2009, literally What You Did was just. wait to turn 18 so you could move to a major city and start transitioning. i got on hormones at 23 (nhs waitlists) and top surgery right before my 25th birthday. i consider myself a pretty early transitioner. i'm 30 now and i still experience changes from my hormones bc that's what it is to exist as a human and have hormones in your body. you're fine.
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