#I'm so sorry lol

[xiaojuun]

HENDERY THE BAT / NCT U

#flashing tw #i'm so sorry lol #wayv #nct #nctinc #wayvnet #hendery #useroro #marekwan #ninqztual #eritual #tuseral #dearestmillie #rhitag #aleksbestie #userbexrex #higabi #erigifs #eri.nct #eri.wayv #hendery.

[buckttommy]

Okay, this is a novel. Go with me.

I'm not saying anyone's interpretation of canon is wrong, but I've seen some people interpreting the graveyard scene as Buck still trying to be something he's not in order to earn/maintain the love of the people he cares about and I just... don't agree with that at all. Where Buck is now is an in-between state. He's not the same person he was before the lightning strike, but he's also not the person he's meant to be after the lightning strike either. Not yet. So he's tucked in this Magical and Confusing World of Almost, where he's almost figured out all the pieces to the puzzle, and he almost knows who he is outside of people's expectations, and he's almost connected the plethora of dots drawn between himself and Eddie, but he's not there yet.

So when Buck says, "I feel like I have to be the same old Buck, mostly for everyone else," that's not him saying he thinks he won't be loved if he's not the same old Buck. That's him saying he's stuck as the same old Buck because he has no idea who to be and, where he is now, no one else can tell him who to be, just like when he asked Hen if she was "at ease" in 6x02. He is constantly looking for answers that nobody but himself can find or give. But he doesn't want anyone to worry in the interim, especially not when everyone else he knows already regards his death with far more depth and trauma than he himself regards it with. So he remains "the same old Buck." This idea also ties into his conversation with Natalia over lunch.

Buck told Eddie that he, in some way, felt like Natalia saw more in him than he saw in himself, but I'm so intrigued by that piece of dialogue, mainly because we didn't actually see the entirety of their conversation. We saw Natalia's fascination and Buck's intrigue (and, dare I say, discomfort!) by her fascination, but we didn't actually see anything beyond Buck beginning to tell her about his coma dream. So what is it that she sees? I think she sees exactly what he said to Eddie—that he got away with something he shouldn't have.

Natalia treats him like an anomaly because he is. No one else in Buck's life treats him like that.

They know him. They love him. They grieved for him. And when he came back to life and came out of the coma, they celebrated him and his return. But. They don't treat Buck dying and coming back as the anomaly, the rarity that it is. And I think this is a perfect example of a situation in which Buck is struggling to find the happy middle. His family treats his death with all the pain and gravitas inherent to literally seeing someone you love die and hang limply, helplessly, in the air, whereas Natalia treats his death with too much glee, too much fascination. And as much as he loves his family, and as much as he's intrigued by Natalia, Buck doesn't need either of those things.

What Buck needs is for someone to acknowledge both aspects of his death: that it was scary and sad and traumatizing, yes, but also that it was something out of a film. Something that shouldn't exist but did. And I think once Buck finds that? Once he looks within himself and allows both of those realities to coexist and inform his processing and who he is, then he will be on his way to finding the peace he's so desperately craving. But until then, he'll struggle with his voice, with Natalia's voice, with the voices of everyone he loves all saying different things on completely different ends of the same spectrum. Which is hard in ordinary circumstances, but especially in this one, in which matters of life or death are explicitly in play.

Buck is loved by his family. He knows he's loved by his family and, overbearing as they are/can be, he recognizes their love and loves them for it in turn. But in 6x11, Buck finally came to a place where Being Buck was enough for him. Now he has to redefine what that means to him. Which doesn't mean that the current version of himself that he's playing pretend at is wrong or lesser, only that this current version is ill-fitting now and he's struggling to find an identity that's the "right size," especially with several different voices (his own included) telling him how he should feel and respond to life-altering trauma.

I'm not the costume meta person here, that title belongs to the lovely Kym, but I'm assuming Buck's internal struggle also calls back to the wardrobe choices made in 5x14 too. The choice to have Eddie and Buck in the same/similar clothes they wore during their outing to the equestrian center only illuminates to me what we already knew: that Buck's 6B arc is a speed-run through Eddie's 5B arc, in that they both dealt with the nuanced complexities of similar traumas. Eddie dealt with horrendous survivor's guilt following the loss of his team, and Buck, too, is dealing with a similar brand of "left behind" confusion. Eddie was the only one "left behind" in that he's the only one who survived everything his squad went through, but Buck is dealing with it in the sense that death came and robbed him of something, but he's still "left behind" to pick up the pieces.

Both men have struggled immensely with the idea of cheating death, of living on borrowed time (though both concepts are outlined more explicitly in Buck's arc than it was in Eddie's), but the similarities of their trajectories are important to note because they will both, ultimately, lead to the same place—to the realization that cheating death and living on borrowed time means you have to, subsequently, do something with that time. Buck says it himself a the end of the scene: every day, from the point of death onward, is a gift, one that must be embraced before time runs out.

Time is running out for Buck and Eddie, but not in an entirely ominous way. Time is running out in the sense that both are rapidly becoming aware of that fact that days wasted aren't just days wasted; they are gifts that are going discarded without being embraced to the fullest. And when they finally sort themselves out, I believe that realization is going to hit them the hardest. Because it won't be so much the idea that "we could have had this, we could have had each other, sooner if we weren't so afraid," but the realization that "we were happy and we were okay, but we weren't as happy or okay as we could have been," and that's a hard pill to swallow for two men who have lived chunks of their lives playing against the nebulous, overwhelming nature of time.

I'm sure they'll figure it out—both together and individually—they always do. But in the meantime, the slow crush of both of their feelings against each other, and against the audience, is nothing short of agonizing.

Get it together, boys. I'm on my knees begging. Work it out for the sake of your hearts and mine. I can't take this much longer lol

#This was a novel #I'm so sorry lol #jack.txt #tv: 911 #911: 06 x 15 #911 spoilers #meta

[ididaboyboy]

top!Alex headcannons.... come get y'all's juice.

he's definitely a handsy mfer.

impatient, even

he doesn't think he's noisy, but he grunts a lot...

loves using his own spit...

but not as much as he loves forcing others to use their spit

has an unadmitted kink for getting head from under his desk

prefers doggy to misisonary

but cowboy remains the favorite

refuses to admit he likes having his hair tugged at

hates getting hickeys but needs to give them

as much as he wants to, he tries not to finish first

does not know his own strength. or length.

needs head to survive

#hc #mp #text #i'm so sorry lol #but i do have more in store for you little freaks in my phone #feel free to kill me personally

[targaryenrealnessdarling]

my actual face when I see someone liking all my work and then they get to Consequences

#ksksksksksks #i can't help it #seeing y'all liking each chapter like 'aw baby girl' #i'm so sorry lol #liz talks #consequences

[calciferous-kelpie]

Art Fight 2023 - Trixie!

My revenge on @sushicatz for including my character Plaz in a really awesome group attack! I decided to draw Trixie because their design is so heckin' cool! Plus, I have a soft spot for fan characters hehe 💜💚

#this was the fourth drawing I finished but I'm a clown and completely forgot to upload it anywhere else but Art Fight 🤡 #I'm so sorry lol #art fight #art fight 2023 #team werewolves #ok ko #ok ko let's be heroes #fan characters #voxman #cal's art #cal screeches #cal shares a thing #sushicatz

[saebaragi]

gilmore girls season 2 fanfiction where everything is the same except that jess falls in love with dean instead of rory

#random stuff on my account like usual #gilmore girls #gilmore girls fanfiction #jess #gilmore girls jess #gilmore girls season 2 #jess mariano #dean #dean forester #gilmore girls dean #jess x dean #i'm so sorry lol #i saw an edit on tiktok like this once and never saw it again #is a fun concept methinks

[dibeyazhz1]

☆~How Bad Can I Possibly Be?~☆

#my art #fanart #helluva boss #helluva boss fanart #helluva boss art #helluva boss chaz #I'm so sorry lol #i blame a comment on tiktok

[cinamun]

#ts4 #ts4globetrotter #ts4 globetrotter challenge #ts4 gameplay #round 5 #if you're too young for welcome to the jungle #i'm so sorry lol #you deserve to have had this song as a part of your formative years!

[insanityisdivine]

Ace came to mind lol

#writing #Fanfiction #Ace frehley #I'm so sorry lol #i ain't writing this though but if someone were it have to be him lol

[shadamyheadcanons]

Hi there! I was wondering about the IDW comics-is there a way to read them online? I've been trying to find a way to read them but it seems like you have to buy them one by one. Thanks!

Tbh, I’ve been reading them online here, but I’ll be buying them soon. I’m just not sure which format I want yet. IDW has digital copies on their website - issue #1 is $1.99, and volume 1 (the first 12 issues) is $19.99. Places like Amazon, ebay, and Barnes & Noble have them, too. The art is incredible, and I would much prefer to buy physical copies so I could see it on an actual page, but the prices are pretty steep, especially for those fancy hardcover volumes, and they’re frequently out of stock, so I’ve been hemming and hawing about it.

They did release a FREE issue about Tangle and Whisper, so if you’ve ever been curious about those two, check it out here! I really like them.

I’d highly recommend IDW not just to Sonic fans, but to literally anyone with eyes. It’s great for a million reasons, but I’ll focus on the art here. The covers are beautiful and action-packed, right from cover A for issue 1...

(Artists: Tracy Yardley & Tyson Hesse)

...to the latest, beautiful renaissance-inspired cover B for issue 59:

(Artist: Natalie Haines)

She made an actual painting for this, and she’s damn proud of it. As she should be. Just look at it!

More pretty IDW art and accompanying ranting under the cut.

I adore the introductions they give to the characters. Here’s Amy being a cute badass in issue 2. She’s earned it!!!

(Artist: Adam Bryce Thomas)

Side note: I like how they introduce characters in the order they were created, so Tails was issue 1, and issue 2 featured Amy. Knuckles didn’t show up until issue 3! This series gives Amy her proper place right from the get-go. It’s a nice touch.

Blaze is always cool in IDW--well, figuratively speaking. Look at her awesome introduction in issue 4!

(Artist - Evan Stanley, colorist - Matt Herms)

IDW’s artists do a great job portraying dynamic motion and physical impacts. There’s another really cool use of her powers later on, but I don’t want to spoil it! 👀

It’s not just the characters. The backgrounds and scenery are great, too. This is Angel Island from issue 9. Love the foreshortening in the back:

(Artist - Tracy Yardley, colorist - Matt Herms)

And the art being as good as it is fuels how strong the characters are. When was the last time the games properly showcased Amy and Cream’s friendship? IDW does it right, and issue 22’s art reinforces that:

(Artist: Priscilla Tramontano)

The context makes it significantly more heartwarming, too, but it’s another spoiler.

Apart from Amy, the one character who I think benefits most from this is Silver. This is his cutest, dorkiest, most endearing iteration yet, and I am here for it! Top two images are from issue 8, and the gardening segments below them are from IDW’s 2019 annual. It has some cute Silver/Blaze moments, and it doesn’t have any real spoilers for the main series. You can read it independently. It’s $3.99 on IDW’s website.

(Issue 8 artist - Evan Stanley, colorist - Matt Herms) (Annual 2019 artists - Jonathan Gray, Jack Lawrence, Jennifer Hernandez, and Diana Skelly)

I can’t help but smile whenever I see him. He’s cute in other iterations, too, but I always picture IDW when I write Silver.

Oh, and one last thing: after Amy and Silver’s cute meeting in Sonic 06, I headcanoned that she has a tendency to mother him. It fits well into the Shadamy-Descendent-Silver theory (y’know, that concept that was “sarcastically” suggested by Ian Flynn, Mr. IDW himself?), and I incorporated it into Shellshock. It was only after I’d gotten into the habit of writing them that way that I read further in IDW and ran into instances like these (spoilers removed):

(Issue 14 artist - Tracy Yardley, colorist - Leonardo Ito) (Issue 25 artist - Adam Bryce Thomas, colorist - Matt Herms)

And she is always the one to do this. No one else mothers him like this. Headcanon confirmed! Three points for the descendant theory!

#not a headcanon #ask #fandom1515 #you asked one simple question and i did all of #this #i'm so sorry lol #my hand slipped

[grey-lightsaber]

Got really sad and teen-angsty about technoblades death lol.

Why do we live? 

Why do we go on when others fall?

Why do we carry on when others fall?

Is it some vain effort of self preservation?

Or in simple defiance of a cruel creator whom we worship as he hates us?

Why is it that we suffer whilst the easy sleep lounges, ever patient, ever waiting?

Do we suffer to rise, to build, for glory that is like sand in the fingers of the cosmos?

Until it is all dust, and then the dust turns to dust and that to ashes and cinders in the blinding inferno that will be nothing, and everything.

Why do they die and we live at the unknowable whims of the cosmic dice?

Does death take charge of fate or lose it altogether?

Some call humanity a cancer for is cancer not so inherently human?

Random and ruthless as are all our deaths in the end.

So, why do we live?

Is it for love?

Love that fades and drains leaving a million wandering specters of tumultuous heart break?

The spirits of the surface.

Do we live to help others as they fall?

Or to pick them up again once they have fallen?

To provide endless bliss that ebbs and flows leaving in complacency and boredom?

Or to prolong sorrows that will build you up, make you a man and set you down my right course of life?

Or do we live, for life?

#technoblade #I'm so sorry lol #angst #death

[minim236]

Matthew: Okay. I get it. You've had a really hard time lately, you're stressed out, seven people died-

Marcus: Twelve, actually.

Matthew: Not the point. Look, they're dead now and really whose fault is that?

Marcus: Yours!

Matthew: That's right: no one's

#matthew and marcus' relationship after new orleans #adowmeme #i'm so sorry lol #marcus whitmore #matthew clairmont #all souls trilogy #a discovery of witches #adows3 #adow incorrect quotes

[makoodles]

Would the recom fic be with a na'vi reader👀? cause Quarritch would be so conflicted and I eat that shit up

omg i can def see the appeal of that dynamic! unfortunately there is something seriously wrong with me and i can only write human reader as of right now?? i cant explain it

i'll write a na'vi/avatar reader one day, but for now i'm deeply entrenched in monsterfuckery

#i'm so sorry lol #there's not enough human/na'vi so here i am #asks

[will80sbyers]

rip Jonathan Byers you would have loved seeing your brother grow up

#byler #will byers #jonathan byers #I'm so sorry lol #stranger things 4 #st4

[amara-among-the-stars]

What's your favorite Bath and Body Works scent? Mine is Hello Beautiful ☺️

Ive only been to bath and body works three times in my life 🫣😭

Im not sure what perfumes they have there 🫠🫠🫠

#amara answers #mac-and-thefox #I'm so sorry lol

[attorneys-against-court-violence]

Gumshoe and Winston getting married.

Call that Dick Payne.

#emotional noise #i'm so sorry lol