#I'm so numb

[blakbonnet]

so that's it then? we could be no 1 on all the charts and have amazing social numbers to every single one of their posts and everything that could've gone right did but it didn't matter to max? it didn't matter

#ofmd #I'm so numb

[hueningkoi]

I'm getting 2 wisdom teeth taken out in like 20 minutes wish me luck!!!

#I'm so numb

[wayfaringauthorofficial]

Talons gleam in the moonlight, ready to tear me to ribbons again. I just tied off the last stitch. Hard to believe it's come to this. It's too much too soon, but this world is cruel. I guess it's time to give in or die.

-Eagle's cry.

#just hold me #amwriting #amwriting poetry #just finished #just wrote this #writing about my life #personal #my own words #spilled ink #writing about it #i'm so numb #there is so much pain #learning about myself #i don't miss those days #but i feel like i need them back #not sure if that makes any sense #thinking too much #leave me alone #memories on a carousel #round and round #too much pain #can't really explain it #idk if this makes any sense

[ryanthel0ser]

Moodboard for post Spider Verse

#i'm gonna be insane for the next year over that #it was so good but i feel numb now how do i go on #i broke for a solid hour and all i did was scream and go “what” “heh” “i dont” “what” #spiderman #spider man across the spider verse #spider verse #across the spiderverse #miles morales #spiderverse

[drama-glob]

#sir pentious #hazbin sir pentious #sir pentious hazbin hotel #hazbin hotel sir pentious #hazbin spoilers #hazbin hotel spoilers #meme #hazbin hotel meme #hazbin meme #hazbin hotel #vivziepop #<3<3<3<3<3<3<3<3<3 #sir precious #HE DESERVES TO BE AN ANGEL!!! #^_^ #I'm so happy he made it #he's just the sweetest ^_^ #shocked #the show must go on #I seriously was numb at seeing him get vaporized so mercilessly and then just went NOOOOO!!! ;_; ;_; ;_; #angel sir pentious #I just knew he was going to sacrifice himself because he is best boi who loves his friends more than anything

[buckttommy]

i need to be fucking sedated

#i'm so full of emotion i've circled back to numb #today was a lot. just. a lot

[haunted-desert]

LINKIN PARK: Numb Live in Texas (2003)

#linkin park #chester bennington #mike shinoda #numb #linkin park numb #live in texas #linkin park edit #meteora #2000s #2000s metal #2000s bands #my gifs #yes giffing chester is my new obsession ok #linkin park and chester brainrots are back after years and i'm here for it #live in texas is THE BEST live performance EVER and whoever says otherwise is just lying #me and my siblings used to watch it NONSTOP 😭 #i watched it the other day after years and i was so surprised! #IT NEVER GETS OLD #just sheer raw energy #one good song after the other #chester's vocals at their best #I LOVE THEM SO MUCH #and i miss the 2000's #good times

[louudthoughts]

at first, i would've killed myself for you.

now, i may kill myself because of you.

#i'm so tired #feelings #emotions #spilled ink #numb #lonely thoughts #personal #i hate it here #art #sorry for being depressing #spilled thoughts #tw depressing thoughts #tw depressing stuff #depressing shit #poetry

[inkly-heart]

Do you have a group discord server? If others want to chill and interact with you. Just wondering

That aside just hoping you’re doing okay Blastic. Still, if you’re not your gotta a lot people care about you.

I look forward to seeing how the rest of the game goofs.

—goofball anon

I don't and sadly I don't think I will make one. It would be fun to interact with people who enjoys my work and wants to chat with me but I just feel it would be too much work for me to handle a discord server. So at least for now I'm not planning to make one.

#and how I've been doing?? #there been ups and downs #maybe bit better?? At least compared to what it was when this month started #I felt so numb for some reason #I just wanted to lie in bed and do nothing because nothing was making me happy. Not even drawing or playing games #I do still get these kind of days but it hasn't been that bad and I have got some amount motivation back to draw again at least #wanting to play games though still have been very low #but I'm taking small steps #I'm also sorry for not having much good news and that I've been so quiet nowadays #I just been struggling a lot what to say and anxiety isn't making things any easier #but I want to thank everyone who are still here hanging around and enjoying my work #even though I have these struggles I'm happy that you guys still want to support me<33 Thank you<33 #not sure did I word these right but I tried my best #and I will also do my best not to give up and keep on going 🌱 #ask #anon

[kaddyssammlung]

#I'm going to write a few things here...yes in here actually #I feel so weird...I'm very dissociated at the moment...I can't feel my hands..they are damn numb but also in general just so far gone today #that is all I guess...now back to our strange dancing ballerina XD #sleep token #sleep token worship

[theshitpostcalligrapher]

me, staring at the dental bill my uninsured ass has accumulated over the last few weeks

#dw dw this hasn't put me into debt or anything but dear god does it cost so much #to maintain your mouth stones #im still numbed up from the local anesthetic lol #anyways i'm 4/5 of appointments i got one more then i SHOULD be clear

[hekateinhell]

Anne Rice plotting out Louis's (permanent) death in the early notes for Merrick...

Since I was already referencing a response I gave to a question about Armand's possible reaction to Louis's suicide attempt earlier today, I remembered this that I stumbled on while going through the Anne Rice Collection at Tulane — which in a way answers that very same question:

This scene has to be major in the novel, and as I see it now, Claudia will be extremely horrible to Louis and drive him to suicide.

Louis will expose himself to the sun, and the others will find his burned body in its coffin on the flat portion of the slate roof of the townhouse.

Those who will come together, having felt the passing of Louis will include Armand and Merrique.

David will be for scattering all the ashes of Louis. But Armand and Lestat will refuse to do it. Then Lestat will be won over. Armand will want to pour blood on the ashes. Armand and Lestat will get in a battle, and finally Armand will give up, and Lestat will pick up the lumps of charcoal of the body, pulverize them and scatter them to the winds.

Okay, but Armand and Lestat battling over whether Louis can be brought back to life? Lestat scattering Louis's ashes while Armand presumably watches, defeated? My heart!

Next time you complain about Merrick, remember... it could've ended like this.

I love Louis and I love him with Armand and Lestat both (separately and all together), so of course I'm very grateful Anne didn't go this route! But the idea that she might've??? 🫢

I'm not up to write this level of Angst™️ and do it justice but it's definitely something that could be explored further in fic! And it is one (of many lmao) instances where you can see such a stark difference between where Anne started and where she ended with her novels.

#i haven't fully fleshed out the thought yet so i'm stashing it in tags lol but also i'm wondering if armand and lestat's reactions here- #mirror enough of the actual canon in BC when louis is kidnapped #like there's not enough on lestat's mindset given HERE for us to stay but i imagine he's numbed out and destroyed and therefore susceptible #to david's suggestion to scatter the ashes instead of trying to resurrect louis #the vampire chronicles #vc #the skateboard of shakespeare #<- my tulane tag #lestat/louis #armand/louis #louis de pointe du lac #armand #lestat de lioncourt #quotes #anne rice

[probablyhuntersmom]

"It's been a year, I feel so heavy... Mama, will this feeling ever stop?"

“Mijo. It hurts. But you have so many people who love you. We can help you carry that feeling and one day it might not feel as heavy.”

(Dialogue by @childlikegoblinqueen, with some smol additions by me)

#the owl house #toh hunter #hunter noceda #camila noceda #for Flapjack #toh edits #loz's edits #my notes: I may be having an unpopular opinion after Dana said Willow would cut his hair short again..but -- #I think he'd only make that step after he hits the 1-year mark. I've felt extremely similar numbness/depression that lasted almost a year #I'm not sure he'd have the focus to be proactive to change his hair so quickly. coz everything will be a reminder: he may not see the point #anyhow yea it's sweet to think of how respectful the others will be to him. asking him if he wants to take part during the first anniversar #the house wouldn't be decorated. he'd feel bad that they can't have as much fun as they apparently otherwise would #but obvs they insist they are very willingly dialing things down a lot and are also sad and grieving #but the key here is..aesthetically he's wearing a red sweater. that counts for something (thematically). for a reason

[vaguely-concerned]

Thinking about the symbolic weight of smoking in the TLT universe that comes to the fore in The Unwanted Guest -- the way it moves through from person to person: Pyrrha smoked, and Augustine wanted to impress her in all her stone cold fox MILF James Bond glory (and tbf who wouldn't) so he started too. and even though as far as he knows she's been gone for a myriad and is never coming back, he keeps the habit. Ianthe sees something in the hollowed-out Faberge eggshell of Augustine that resonates with her, all that gilded eloquent emptiness and disdain through the ages, so she picked it up from him to try to emulate it. She picked it up so hard that Palamedes -- the exact spiritual antithesis of the 'smoking! on a space station! what a powermove' ennui Ianthe so admired -- spontaneously unnerded enough to even known how to, simply from a sort of contact contamination of the soul.

G1deon and Augustine sharing a jittery smoke after their near-Harrow experience during soup night, and it's the closest thing to any real sense of brotherhood that remains between them. Pyrrha going ten thousand years dying both literally and for a smoke (and then Camilla sold her fucking cigarettes (for a third of what they were worth, probably Pyrrha's own good, and also more importantly grocery money). what an entirely haunted time to be alive etc.). Augustine and Mercy trading a cigarette back and forth in the middle of their collusion over the love and murder of god.

An act of small and measured self-destruction in the name of something a little bit like connection when you're stuck somewhere in yourself where love itself dares not or cannot tread (ritualized, transmissible)..........

#the unwanted guest #the unwanted guest spoilers #the locked tomb #ianthe tridentarius #augustine the first #pyrrha dve #palamedes sextus #this series is going to make me lose my mind completely one day (affectionate) #the locked tomb meta #the fact that ianthe seems to have had some genuine admiration for augustine makes my head spin. of course though. #of course she sees the person who looks the most like he's successfully made himself impervious to the world #utterly untouchable and impossible to hurt because he isn't even really there #and she believes it! even after seeing the john mercy augustine mess at the end! because it's such a seductive idea #when you've stuck yourself in an inevitable ocean of pain to think you could make yourself numb enough that it doesn't matter #it's the emotional equivalent of 'oh there's water all around? well I just won't breathe in then. easy lmao get on my level' #she holds on to that thing from him even when it's been proved to be both impossible and ultimately untrue even in him #because uh. oh I'm about to be kind of sad for ianthe what the fuck is going on. he might actually have been the closest thing #to parental and especially paternal affection she's ever known. certainly known enough to try to model herself after #IMAGINE how fucked up the nine houses must be when augustine the first registers for anyone as a model of psychological survival #ianthe do you really want to be yourself completely so much that you're willing to be nothing. I mean yeah probably but. oh my god #gaining nothing at the cost of everything

[tizniz]

Feel Like I Landed On The Moon (1.4K)

His phone has multiple messages from Buck that have gone unanswered, and Eddie knows Buck isn’t going to be mad if he decides to reply now, but it feels easier this way. Because Eddie’s thinking that he’s not coming back.

OR: Eddie is pining for Buck while in Texas.

READ ON A03

Surprise fic drop. But Ellie sent me the song Houston, We Got A Problem by Luke Combs and then it inspired me. Which has helped with my panicking over something that is currently ongoing. So thanks, love 🩵

Anyways, enjoy this cute little story!

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#eddie diaz #evan buckley #buddie #911 fic #911 fanfic #buddie fic #buddie fanfic #fic: feel like i landed on the moon #my works #tanis writes #i'm fine mostly #my face just decided to go numb again #which is not promising for my results tomorrow #so panicking about all that #and yeah it's all still numb.

[mac-lilly]

#jatp #julie and the phantoms #I'm not sure I want to watch it again tbh #last time I did I felt so ... numb ... indifferent ...