#I'm sleeping in hell tonight

[yohankang]

i officially resigned today :')

#i still have to work there bc i've got a one-month notice period. but i did it!!! #the conversation with my boss went well! she was really nice and supportive #she said she was worried about me bc she could tell i was struggling. and that she understands my decision #and in case i won't find a new job this month they can extend my contract #i cried a lot 😭 #and now i'm terrified and sad bc i really love some of my coworkers and i don't want to leave them #but at the same time i'm SO relieved. i feel like i will be able to sleep well tonight. for the first time in weeks #k.txt #also sorry guys i've been mia. and sorry for not answerings your messages #but between working full time searching for a new job doing final assignments for uni and crying. i honestly don't have any energy left #i only logged in to tell you the big news :') and now i'm back to my assignment :( see ya in a week when my exam hell is over

[tearlessrain]

seriously can catastrophes stop happening for five minutes my brain is already fried from the ones we're already experiencing

#I fucking. missed d&d tonight by accident #I straight up forgot #and just didn't show up to the session #my sleep schedule is absolutely fucked #I should be sleeping now but brain won't shut up #my creative output is the lowest it's ever been and I've been in some level of depressive funk since like early january #I am just deeply unfathomably exhausted #like mentally and spiritually #all the time #my memory and sense of time are both shit #my spelling is worse than it used to be for some reason?? #I really don't know what to do to make my brain start functioning again it's frankly worrying me #I couldn't even handle college so it should come as no surprise that I'm reacting poorly to the world being a perpetual screaming trash fir #and yet #idk it's been hitting again lately that I have never succeeded at anything in my life and just keep tripping and falling up for some reason #fucking everyone is in hell right now and with my overall success rate I should be dead in a ditch but I'm actually doing spectacularly #due to a series of improbable accidents and weird circumstances that happened to turn out in my favor instead of completely fucking me #aside from the looming spectre of my various failed attempts to have some kind of life trajectory #it just doesn't feel like this can keep up forever #like surely at some point the luck has got to run out I can't just keep living like some kind of folkloric trickster archetype #but my motivation and sense of purpose kind of died after the last failed attempt so I'm still just here #doing whatever this is #maybe I should drive out to the coast #maybe staring at the ocean would fix me I've been away from it for too long #I mean it can't make me worse #I should wait until further into summer though so I don't have to drive back in the dark #everyone around here has trucks with those goddamn LED headlights and I've got a little sedan that's directly in their blast zone

[haledamage]

I have been fighting a migraine for almost three weeks now, one that has been resistant to all of my meds

but this morning I decided to put on my red sunglasses instead of the normal black ones, and my headache??? went away?? IMMEDIATELY

the better part of a month in pain and it was fixed because I wanted to wear my spooky aesthetic sunglasses. what the fuck

#rhi muses #someone remind me to put on the magic vampire glasses next time I have a migraine #because I don't know how or why that worked but I can eat without pain again and maybe get some real sleep tonight #so I'm not gonna question it #red sunglasses are magic and also look cool as hell A+ no notes

[somegrumpynerd]

Me: ah I have a day off tomorrow, I can use it to relax and do something easy for a bit

My brain: hey real quick before you go to bed [elaborate interesting idea that will involve several comics of multiple pages]

#Charlie Stuff #Absolute hell brain when can I know peace #To be fair nobody is making me do that #(That's not true it's me I'm making me do this I wanna draw this so bad) #It'll probably be a bit before I finish even one but #I spent half of last night and some of this morning thinking about this as a potential lil series #And I think it'll be interesting #A lil exploration of the boys' minds :3c #Anyway I need to sleep now for real #The clocks go forward where I live tonight so I get 1 hour less sleep rip

[dragons-and-yellow-roses]

Gonna try bleaching my hair for the first time, wish me luck!!

#currently waiting for my test strip to cook #i have medium brown hair whoch is so tragic because it makes it so i cant dye my hair a lot of fun colors #like bright pink!! #ive always wanted to dye my hair bright pink but it always turns out burgundy #this summer i bought bleach and bright pink dye #and tonight I'm feeling mentally ill #so i need to bleach and dye my hair #clearly #im also exhausted all to hell so uh. idk how well this will go #this is going to take at least two more hours and all i want to do is sleep #but all i need to do is bleach and dye my hair #i trimmed it too just cuz it was getting kinda long #seven more minutes until the test strip is done cooking!! #wish me luck

[makahitaki]

in a Mood™

#not saying which one #just in a mood #might be on my nefarious shit #my birthday is in 48 hours my dudes #i Do Not Want To Celebrate It #I'm not in the mood #but that COULD be my sad ass talking. cuz we going to my favorite restaurant #with the only people in my family that i like #I'm just so Pre-exhausted #and i ate REALLY yucky food tonight and threw it out. i never throw out food bro #it tasted like mold and vomit #and it got me so upset #i am going to bed mad as all hell for no reason at all. and it's concerning how sad I'm feeling despite nothing happening #i need sleep but I'm too upset to relax :( #i need to sleep #my post #niko yells online

[chrisbangs]

i'm sleeping in the basement these days and i was walking to put my water bottle on the desk by the futon and i just saw something crawling at mach speeds and it went right under the desk and bc i wasn't wearing my glasses oh i don't know what it was but it was definitely a bug and it was definitely BIG and i'm like . on my bed and like ............ just kinda staring into the void

#no sleep tonight 😭👎 #everyone else is asleep and so ik . I CANT WAKE ANYONE UP TO SAVE MEEEEE 😭😭 terrible TERRIBLE ... #it was fucking FAST OML 😭😭😭😭 what the hell... #and i had water in my mouth when i saw it fucking scurrying and i spit the water out all over the carpet i'm in hell #😭😭😭😭😭😭😭😭😭 i'm gonna just stay awake HENDKDNDKD I DONT THINK I CAN SLEEP AFTER THATTHSSJDJMSD HELP... #li.txt #bug tw

[pomellon]

I really need to sop working so late aaahhh

#pom talks #I had a client who suddenly realized the whole composition of their piece was wrong and I might have to redraw one of the characters afkbfa #they offered to pay for the extra time tho so that's fine #another client hasn't gotten back to me in a week and like yeah life happens but I also schedule my work week by week based on work load #so this and next week is gonna be hell because now I get work that should have been finished not finished and pilling up #let hope I get more than only three hours of sleep tonight woooo #but first I'm doodling some au dragons for myself uwu

[loregoddess]

*lies on ground* I have written the first drafts of my essay responses, so now I just need to reread them and make edits so I can quickly and easily submit them w/ the residency application

#I haven't written anything like this since uh... #since I think I was trying to appeal my thesis topic which got rejected the first time I tried to submit it #which was back in like...2019 or something #I mean sure I also wrote the thesis paper which was HELLA academic writing but at least that was like #very directed on a singular topic and also the only thing I had to think about for like 6 months straight #I'm still scared as hell but nothing gets me to act despite my anxiety about something quite like a deadline #god I have to think about how to word my ''please write me a letter of rec'' to my old professors who haven't heard from me in literal year #but that's for future me present me has to figure out how I'm gonna get to sleep tonight on IBS Pains Night no.2! #the good thing is this will all be over by Wednesday before I have to go to work but god I hate being all wound up like this #oracle of lore

[pieofdeath]

I cant fucking sleeeeeep there's too many miceeeee I hate this fucking houseeeeeee

#I'm so so tired #Got 3 + 2 hrs of sleep last night #Got 2 1/2 tonight before waking up #Not sure if I'll be able to get more #And completely unrelated but still frustrating and on my mind #My mom said she'd take me to starbucks after Black Friday shopping tomorrow #Which entails waking up at 5 am #And I was like :D yea sure! #And then remembered an hour later that starbucks is on the boycott list #And now I have to figure out how to navigate politics with my family #At 6 am #On very little sleep #When I never talk about politics with my family #And my sleepless frustration and that are mixing into some unholy hell of a living condition #I'm so fucking tired

[lastborne]

Sometimes I hate this website for not letting me to things I want ;n;

Starting to feel overwhelming and overwhelmed. In the spirit of halloween I'm going to take a small break and become a little hidden ghost for a day or two to try to get my mental health back together. I'll see y'all around in a bit.

#from realms beyond // ooc #I'm so tired? #I think tonight might be a curl up with the dog and watch movies night despite wanting to play more bg3? #I know it's from football season and not actually getting a whole weekend to recover plus the season changing #and being stuck in a stadium with over 95k people #but hells man i just want to sleep forever rn

[stmichaelthearchangel]

.

#it's funny how i never pray for myself anymore. my works are my own #but when there's someone else who im helpless to help i never turn to God faster #I'm screaming the name of a foreigners God #I'm so tired and i helped how i could but still I'm here praying #this all feels so pointless but this is the last thing i can do is just pray #.... #remember to check in on your friends #i don't think I'm sleeping tonight again #also I'm out of cigarettes this is hell

[omarfor-orchestra]

"Non farlo piangere" girl he literally cries in his mother's arms when he's trying to fall asleep because he gets frustrated when he can't and now I'm making him cry???????????????

#i don't understand how they see this child thing #he's a child. he cries. sometimes he cries for things you have to say no about #like you must say no. why is it so hard for you to understand it and most importantly why the HELL am I the one who's somehow behaving #like the mother when she's not around #I'm so pissed off about this situation Imma scream one day #again. i love my nephew more than my honestly unworthy life for what I'm doing with it #but I'm 23 and i never asked to be a mother and i just want to do my things and have like a little corner for myself #and to be left alone for 5 minutes #which can't happen apparently bc I can't even go to the bathroom without my mother going 'let's see what auntie is doing!' #gurl what do you think I'm doing??????? #I'm so fucking tired #and once again why the hell does he have to sleep here tonight when his father is perfectly able to take care of him #i swear if i were to see him once a week I'd be more than happy but every day gets exhausting #and in the middle of it all i also have to listen to my mother scold me for no reason. no one ever says 'oh thank you' #jesus christ #I'll never EVER have children btw #and i hope I don't fall in love with a cis man because if this is how they are I'm very tempted to commit a murder rn #I'm tired out of my mind bc me and my mother had to cook and clean the whole house for tomorrow. do you think #my father raised a single finger despite knowing we needed a hand? #fuck them when i get financially stable enough to leave they'll see me once a year #if they're lucky #again. I can't have my therapist tell me all this things which i start to think about daily and leave me on my own for a whole week #bc then i go insane #sorry I'll prob delate this later #rant #i realize now the post doesn't make sense without context but i was trying to make him sleep and he cried a little #like he. always does btw but somehow today it was my fault

[capitano-ale]

#simon kjaer #ac milan #serie a 2021/22 #my gifs #i'm glad they made it for him #(my eyes hurts as hell after 3 hours of sleeping tonight) #(so i'm not sure this set looks okay) #(sorry if something's wrong)

[debbiechanclub]

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#good lord tonight's been a night #getting a puppy was a fucking mistake #at least this breed #I should have spoke up about my concerns and I'm pissed at myself for not now #the little girl is being difficult as hell tonight #fighting sleep #and just as she started to fall asleep I fucking sneezed and woke her back up #plus I just haven't been in the best headspace the last few days #I feel like a worthless outcast tryhard who no one actually likes #doing fuck all with my life professionally speaking #and yeah #sorry I just had to rant #tbd later probably

[devitalise]

i want to pass out and wake up tomorrow at 1pm

#just AAAAAAAA #feeling very anxious very nervous i'm going to have a horrible sleep tonight #fucking hell