#I'm scared I'll fuck it up

[automatonknight]

id: a photo of a patch drawn in black ink on a white cloth. it shows a simple, humanoid robot playing an electric guitar next to two speakers. the robot is grinning, one of its legs is bent and the other is propped up on one of the speakers. its wearing sunglasses, headphones and black boots end id

#ok i lied. you can have one more patch for my vest..... #art #i think it turned out rlly good for a freehand (i think that's what it's called???) and i got it first try :3 #i was gonna write robo-rock next to it but i got scared i'd fuck it up so i'm leaving it like that :] #this one's a little bit bigger than my gabriel one #hmm its a little empty maybe i'll risk it and add some stars or something...

[transformers-earthspark]

Apologies for my recent radio silence. I've had a lot on my mind lately.

This post isn't Earthspark-related at all, but please read it.

I need to take a second on this blog to acknowledge some things going on in the world. I should not have stayed silent on this blog before, but I'm trying to fix that now.

Genocide in Palestine + how you can help Palestinians

You can buy e-sims for people in Gaza here. Anything helps.

Click here daily to help generate funds for Palestine. It's free and takes less than a minute.

Here's a list of where you can donate to help Palestine.

(If there's anything I should add to this section, please let me know.)

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The KOSA bill, what it's going to do if passed, and how you can help prevent it from taking effect

KOSA will essentially erase anonymity from the internet by requiring people to upload their government ID or other form of identification to any social media site, as well as restricting resources and information on LGBT rights, history, racism, and more. This bill will censor the entire internet and destroy privacy while violating First Amendment rights and potentially putting minors in danger.

This also could very well mean the end of Tumblr, and I'm not exaggerating here.

Tomorrow KOSA could be passed in Senate, and from there it will need to pass in the House of Representatives before being signed into law by the president. It's not doomsday yet, but it is a dangerous situation-- and here's what you can do.

StopKOSA.org provides you with a template email to send to your representatives. You can leave it how it is or edit it to say what you want, and then send it from their website.

The website also allows you to call your representatives and gives you a template of what to say.

BadInternetBills.org, run by the same people, takes action against KOSA as well as other bills like EARN IT. At the time of posting this, over 356,000 people have signed this petition.

Additionally there are several petitions on change.org to help stop KOSA. Here are a few of them.

STOP KOSA

STOP THE KOSA

Stop Kosa

Save Humanity, Oppose KOSA

STOP THE KOSA ACT

(Again, please let me know if there's anything I should add.)

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One last thing-- The evolution of AI images and video.

I don't really have anything good to say. AI is evolving fast and changing the world as we know it. We are adapting, but nobody knows how this really is going to end up.

A few quick points:

AI images are not art. That's all. AI "artists" who genuinely claim to have made something of their own just by typing a prompt into a generator will be blocked. (Which has been in my rules for a while, but I still think it needs to be said.)

I recommend Glaze for artists who don't want their art being scraped and used for data training. Especially with the recent rumors of an upcoming deal between Tumblr and Midjourney. There's also a similar program called Nightshade (haha, earthspark reference? anyone?🦉) that I haven't tested myself but have heard good things about.

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That's all, I suppose. Reblogs are good, if you don't mind.

Spread the word about KOSA. Contact your representatives. Sign the petitions.

Support Palestine if possible. Donate if you can. If you are unable to donate, make sure to do your daily clicks.

Stay safe and take care of yourselves. ❤️

#>> mod: firefly #this will be one of the only non-earthspark things i'll ever post #look i'm going to be completely honest here; i'm stressed out of my fucking mind. this is not okay #the state of the world is terrifying and i hate it #but we can still do things to help #it's important to not give up hope because there is hope and we can fight for it #but not if we give up before we can try #alright yeah that's my attempt at a pep talk. from the earthspark blog mod. #thank you for reading this anyways. <3 #oh and anon asks will be off for a short while because i'm scared of. idk. everything right now. sorry about that #tags: #palestine #from the river to the sea #free palestine #stop kosa #anti ai #ai art theft #from the river to the sea palestine will be free #kosa #kosa bill #bad internet bills #internet censorship #hgffgdfgdfh

[riacte]

how it started:

one ren peeing twaddle conversation later:

#ria.txt #💀💀💀 #this isn't even including the 'blimey ren i'm worried for you' #me at the start of the stream: funny how ren calls him unlucky with the ladies when 70% of his fans are down bad for him #me in tears in the middle of the stream: with all respect i understand now. #false's chats are environmental storytelling #also the way she came back and was like 'what happened' and then the pee convo and she left 💀 #and ren said he scared her away 💀 #its so funny how it started out as like :) yeah i'll help you with vh. lets discuss british biscuits. whats a rusk. #and then: its vulnerable when i eat with someone. and then the pee convo #normal ren stream trajectory but its stillllllllll so fucking funny #false at the start 'don't leave me alone 🥺' #false at the end 'bye im never seeing you again' #false and doc next time they meet up with ren irl: 🧍🧍 #nooooooo bc why did he have to talk abt All Of That with two ppl he met irl and has prob ate with #ren's mods are the real heroes of the story #AT LEAST THE RUSK DESCRIPTION WAS NORMAL. #fuck it. im tagging ren #rendog #the rd difference #pogsupremacy

[skeletoninthemelonland]

cw // possible eyestrain

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Sound Sensitivity

#here is some unrelated artwork i'll be posting occasionally for now on #this might seem confusing to you (and I'm not talking specifically about the drawing) #i don't usually bring up anything about my personal problems but this one really is a thing #all i have to tell you. person reading the tags. is that sound sensitivity really fucking sucks. #and if someone reading this has sound sensitivity well i do hope the people around you are understanding of your condition #and that you find efficient ways to diminish the impact it has on you #whether if it's by using noise cancelling headphones. by leaving the loud environment or by learning to focus on something else #/// #this christmas i'm receiving a noise cancelling headphone from my bsf #im very happy and so thankfull for them #this gift is appreciated by my younger self #who. during birthday parties. couldnt stand anywhere close to ballons #who cried at the sounds of fireworks #who cried in class numerous times because it was too much #who was accused of faking it and blamed for ruining everyone's fun time #i remember being very confused and scared #my art #eye strain #artists on tumblr

[mopeytwat]

I can't stay silent about this any longer HE IS SOOOOOOO FINE IDC

#ofmd #our flag means death #ofmd season 2 #our flag means death season 2 #ricky banes #prince ricky #erroll shand #please for the love of God hear me out #he's so weird and awful i want him #i need him religiously #“I'm happy to buy you a drink” marry me right fucking now #he's so disgusting #he's so beautiful #he's my fav character now #I'm most likely gonna end up hating him #God I'm so scared to post this #No I'm not it has to be said #I have the worst taste in men ever #He's so pretty I can't describe it #I'll stop now I'm so soz

[angel-of-sweet-revenge]

When your friend needs you to be there to comfort them, but you have no energy for serious conversations and so you're stuck wondering if youre being a selfish asshole or if youre justified in not wanting to be the one to sort their problems out

#vent #its not like they didnt offer to hear my problems. but i just dont want to talk about. or anything #i dont want serious conversations. i dont want to have to worry about other people. i just cant. #im just so fucking exhausted and i dont know if its talking to them and feeling drained by the fact that theyre going through something- #-and that i need to be the therapist or if im just sick. again. #plus yesterday i slept late. my mum made me cry (i think she was just tired out by that point in the day so i doubt it was personal) #and just #im fucking tired ok #and I'm sorry im a bad friend #i just dont have energy. i want to have good energy around me to try give me some. #but when theyre upset it gets into me and drains me and I've been there as much as i can but i just cant right now. im too tired #i know im a shitty person but literally everyone got to be a shitty person at my expense so isnt it my fucking turn? #and then assuming i was acting like that to hurt them. I DO NOT WANT TO HURT ANYONE. IF WE HAVE A FIGHT I WANT TO MOVE ON. #I'm not gonna be caught up in it if we resolved it #but yeah. long story short they're going through shit and i feel like shit #and i think them going through shit is what makes me feel like shit. because i worry about them #and they can lash out on me #i just dont know anymore. i dont know if im an awful person or not #last year i broke up with a friend and my mum said I'll do the same with the next friend #it wasnt my fault #that friend ghosted me #im trying not to be her rn too and im scared that ive been in the wrong im scared im a shitty person too #but at the same time im too done to even really care #i just wanna stop fucking feeling all this and just get on with my day

[invinciblerodent]

if bloodsoaked killer, avatar of wretched villainy, fetid and rotten, a vile creature to the very core.... why kicked puppy??? why cute round eyes??? why sweet scared girl who just wants to be nice and help everyone????

(in other words it's durge time; monk styles)

(my plan is a Karlach romance, but man, if you deliberately RP as someone who is both very confused and deeply scared, there is something extra reassuring about Gale's confidence. Like I'm trying to lean into Karlach's warmth -both literal and metaphorical- being a source of comfort, and the reason for this character to be drawn to her, but the dynamic of a strong woman who knows nothing and the physically frail man with chronic pain who knows everything IS intriguing...)

(then again, that could just be me being not even just thirsty, but parched for the wizard.)

#squirrel plays bg3 #oc: mara #watching my partner play his dark urge made me want to get mine out of tutorial limbo (first tactician run; wish me luck) #she has Astarion-syndrome; looks either like a fucked up gremlin or the most vulnerable creature in existence #.... ironically enough she is very much NOT drawn to Astarion #he's... kind of scaring her I think #played all of like an hour and she seems to have the best rapport with Gale so far #very “i don't understand the thing 🥺” “very well; allow me to explain you the thing in excruciating detail! 😀” #... it does feel good though that even though i can't deny that Astarion is my favorite; it's no issue for me to not romance him #both because i'm so attached to his dynamic with Iona; and because he just Doesn't Work with my other characters #Petyr was very... “i'll fuck anything with a pulse but that's kind of a hard limit for me pal; no offense” #and Mara is “our first two conversations both involved you implying that you'd kill me with a knife. i'm sorry but i'm a lil scared of u” #“please don't take this in a mean way but you are mildly terrifying”

[daz4i]

my dumb ass being like "what how is it 3 already, it was 1:54 just a few minutes ago??!", completely forgot it's daylight savings tonight 🥲

#very stupid of me tho i'm fucking up my sleep schedule #but i don't think i can fall asleep yet (and don't wanna take any pill) and i'm scared i'll start spiraling if i try 💔 #local man can't be left alone with its thoughts for more than 2 minutes. more at 11

[lastdivantruther]

impostor syndrome

#it's a wip guys #I'll find a better phrase i promise #tanizaki naomi #tanizaki junichirou #bsd fanart #bsd #my art #bsd naomi #armed detective agency #bsd tanizaki #my headcanon is that junichirou is the fake sibling and naomi is the ability user #naomi is aware of it #but she's been lying for so long that she started to believe him herself #junichirou is not aware of it #everyone in the agency knows except atsushi #dazai never touches her #naomi doesn't know they know #sometimes junichirou acts so human that it scares her #tanizaki siblings my beloved #i was obsessed with them when i was in high school <3 #especially naomi #that girl has the potential to be the most fucked up human being ever #she's just #doesn't choose to #she's highly intelligent but content where she is #i'm pretty sure she observes and learns a lot from other ada members #she just doesn't need/want to use her knowledge as herself #DO YOU SEE MY VISION #i wish she had more screen time even if she doesn't have an ability #as dazai or kunikida's apprentice

[theflyingfeeling]

fanfic rambling in the tags, nothing interesting really, just me talking to myself lol, okay to ignore or read as you please ✨

#so i've found the perfect prompt list for an olli/allu fic advent calendar sorta thing #but i'm too intimidated by my own expectations and ridiculously high standards to even start writing any of them 😭 #honestly these prompts are so insanely cute and fit olli/allu PERFECTLY #like. i'm actually having trouble deciding which ones to use because i want to write them all 🥺💞 #but i'm so so scared that i'll just end up writing the same (boring) story over again for 24 times 😔 #i wish i could just write without thinking and trying so hard to write a literary masterpiece #when i KNOW it's alright if it's just a silly little story about my blorbos #that's perfectly enough and i know this but my brain's just not having it 😩 #also if i were to write 24 independent fics i'd have to keep them short and simple but. that's not how i do fics. unfortunately (for me) #to overcome this i guess one option would be to write just one longer piece with 24 chapters #and somehow try to include the prompt of the day in each chapter 🤔 #but i don't want to make this even more complicated to myself lol especially because i'm planning to write AUs for a couple of the prompts #i REALLY want to do prompts (of any kind!!) but i'm just so scared of stressing myself out to another months-long writer's block 😭 #fair enough the last time that happened (last winter/spring) i was in a shitty place mentally anyway #and so far i've been happy to be writing on random bursts of inspiration. that's how it's the easiest for me. the words just...flow out #i'm so insanely jealous of anyone who can just create stuff when given any prompt 😭 #y'all are super humans to me how do you do it pls spill your secrets #and anyone tempted to comfort me by saying i shouldn't stress myself over this and that i don't have to write anything i don't wanna write: #i knoooooowwww and i appreactiate the sentiment but the thing is i actually DO want to write these prompts 😭 #in theory at least. because they really are cute as fuck wth 🥺 #the problem is that i can't /force/ myself to write something at the snap of my fingers without a clear idea besides the prompt #and also because i know it can take me days to finish even one story let alone 24 💀 #so to even START on this project is a little intimidating 🫣 #i just fear i won't have the patience :( #and when i realise i won't be able to finish the project i'll become frustrated with myself #if only i knew how to write shorter one-scenes in order to not tire myself out #but often i find those kind of fics somehow...unsatisfying :( #i'm just a sucker for crafting the context/background for stories. a little flesh around the bones if you will 🤧 #okay that's all now i'm gonna go stare at a wall while doing nothing useful for the rest of the weekend byeeee #if you read this far i hope you're having a nice saturday

[iero]

The closer my wisdom teeth surgery date gets (It's in a week from today), the more nervous I fucking get. A surgery that is usually for late teens/early 20 year olds has become one of the most nerve wracking things anticipated in a long time.

#personal #Not even nervous for the actual surgery though on account of me getting put to sleep. #I'm literally so fucking scared of the recovery and I'm worried I'll be in so much pain every single day until it heals fully. #Also between the anesthesia and the painkillers I'm probably gonna get prescribed? I'm afraid I'm gonna have another IBS flare-up. #Also worried about work/finances from missed work... I was only given four days away from work. Worried it's not gonna be enough. #And I can't ask for like light duty at my job on account of the understaffing...

[bread-of-death]

Keep having to remind myself that not only can I not eat I can't drink for the next twelve hours :((

#I want waterrrrr #but I also don't want to die in surgeryyyyy #that would suckkk #I actually had to move all my water bottles into a corner behind my sax case so I would remember I can't drink anything #I still think I'm gonna fuck up and drink something without thinking about it #anyways yeah I haven't mentioned it but I'm getting my wisdom teeth removed tomorrow #I'm scared that I'm gonna like #come out to my mom or say fuck in front of her or something while I'm high off anesthesia #:// #we'll see how it goes #whatever happens happens and I'll deal with it after I'm not needing to sleep the world away

[crimeronan]

i'm working on the next wwaitsoatl chapter, which as i've previously mentioned is by FAR my most involved story as far as, like, technical process goes. i finished the second draft of the chapter and went "god, wow, this is all shit, this all sucks so bad, i'm never gonna be able to make anything usable out of this" and then stepped away for a few hours and now i'm midway through the first editing pass and i just keep going "oh my god. oh my god. holy Shit this is gonna bang so fucking hard once i fix it all. oh this is gonna go so hard there's so much potential. fuck YES oh my GOD my HORRIBLE LITTLE BITCHES ARE BACK-"

#the 'this is shit. this is awesome. i am shit. i am awesome. this is shit. i am awesome' process. it will repeat several more times #eda is saying some of the worst things she can possibly think of to darius. it's messy. it's delightful. #think like. princess AU hunter and amity terrorism except more justified more neurotic and more middle-aged #i don't know when i'll finish this chapter bc like i said. editing takes hours and hours and HOURS. but. #i like being excited about this story again. for months it's been making me horrifically anxious but now i'm like YES GOD. YES #(the anxiety wasnt bc of the story itself it was just bc. uh. i'm diseased and scared i can't measure up anymore) #(in terms of writing quality. i don't want this story to have a game of thrones nosedive in quality just bc my immune system is fucked.) #(nothing worse than over 1300 subscribers being able to peg your cognition declining. but i'm feeling a lot better these days so.) #(fingers crossed.) #toh #i don't know how many people are even gonna come back to read it since the show's been over for 9 months and it's been #that long since the last update too. ppl who conceived children when i last updated are having their babies right now. #but. if some of u guys are still sticking around. that will be enough <3

[cukrkandl]

sooo is anyone gonna write a marylily bly manor au or should i

#marauders fanfiction #marylily #the haunting of bly manor #i really wanna write this bc i love bly manor so much but i'm scared i'll fuck it up lol #i've never written marylily either #sigh #but i need this #fic ideas

[automatonknight]

*stumbles out of the video game covered in blood* have you guys heard of sigcorp

#THOSE GAMES ARE FUCKING CRAZY GOOD #i just finished fp and WWWOOOOWWWWW #ok. spoilers below so watch outtt!!!! although all very vague #i feel like i'm going to blow upppppp. what an experience!!! #this was so fucking good. i love you faye let's go girl #ttm was AMAZING TOO. i like them both equally. maybe ttm a teeny tiny bit more but that's just because it's about going!! to space kind of #i'm EXCITED and also SCARED for impostor fac//ory aaahh #those games have EVEYRHTING...they're funny they're sad. they can pull of anything!!! #the tonal changes are like slaps to the face and i mean it in the best way possible! so so fucking good good lird #neillll what are you up to you horrible little man....... #if faye actually appears in the next game i'm going to blow up i'll be so happy #anyways haha how are you guys doingggg. i'm so normal #seriously if you have a way please please please check out those games do it for me. do it for the funny robot knight in your computer ok?