#I'm just kinda in a bad brain space rn

[larsthefishoil]

As I'm actively reflecting on the new hbomberguy video, but more specifically James Somerton, certain things are clicking into place with resounding clarity.

I've watched Somerton's videos for years. At first I thought he was kinda overly dramatic, and had outdated stances on how little lgbtq+ was seen in modern day. He always seemed to talk like we are still living in the danger of the 80s with staight/cis people's apathy and hatred. In truth the phobias have just shifted in how they present and things have genuinely improved in a sense.

But the thing that is actually getting to me rn is the misogyny thing. I think he actually injected really shitty thoughts into my brain that I absorbed like a fucking kitchen sponge. He's protectiveness over queer people but specifically gay men from "prevented white women" actually got to me. For over a year, I was walking around occasionally thinking about how "women are sneaking BL manga into their bedrooms and grotesquely drooling."- im not citing someone theres quoteation marks cause its a dumb thought. But i thought this because that's how bad Somerton made it seem.

But the thing that got me out of that head space was this video by talistheintrovert.

https://youtube.com/@talistheintrovert?si=vmpEa_TPP2UE9eQk - here's the link to her homepage on YouTube.

https://youtu.be/08pCrSBw5EY?si=bECaT_xC16IfN5TI - vid about Good Omens

https://youtu.be/zzSlRZhS_qY?si=unQzSbCQUaTqhSbv - Heartstopper vs. Only Friends

sorry for the ugly link I'm on mobile.

I forget their pronouns so I'm using they/them but I might be wrong. I watched a lot of their videos all at once, so a lot of their ideas interlinked between videos to connect points. But they frequently talked about how straight and queer people interact with queer media and the complexities that unfold. Their underlying message was always that an individual's sexuality doesn't matter when interacting with media when it comes to gatekeeping who gets to appreciate queer content. Still most people consuming are queer people, but straight cis people also benefit and that's okay, it's great even.

Talistheintrovert shooed away icky feelings of straight women fetishizing queer men, which was a fear I got from James Somerton!

Idk this is a long post, but hbomberguy's ending soliloquy about trying to find happiness kinda reminds me of the many countless queer YouTube channels- big and small. Most of us aren't clawing for the position of top dog and like Somerton and seem a lot happier dispit of everything going on nowadays.

Anyways, stay safe, be accepting, and cite your sources or else hbomberguy will have to crawl out of whatever hole he hides in for the better part of each year and make a five hour long video about you :/

#hbomberguy #james somerton #youtube drama #misogny #shout out to dashcon somehow getting mentioned in the plagiarism video???

[lefluoritesys]

It's so weird to feel excluded in DID spaces because... we don't suffer 24/7. And I mean we don't suffer so much, we actually have a good experience with DID most of the time, and it genuienly helps us survive. Like we're not perfect, of course, but the good overrides the bad, and most of our problems don't come from alters.

I could pop in to front and ask an alter at front to not talk to somebody, or do something for me, and they would. If they have questions, they'd ask. Like, "Hey, I don't like this person... can you be careful around them?" or "Don't share that info about me", and they'd be like "Okay, cool" and move on.

We found ways to differenciate between each other, and sometimes dissociation actually makes us feel better. Because with too many alters in front, we can temporarily dissociate into one blob that would let us function. Best part? It lets us use all the roles of alters inf ront at once as this one blob. Temporary merging that isn't really temporary merging, to be honest... I have no idea how else to describe it. it is but it isn't. And even if there is dissociation, it's not cause of alters, it's cause of our brain being a bitch.

I sometimes lean back in my chair in the front room when I'm in control of the body, turn to our physical persecutor (who also happens to be my best friend), and go, "Hey, you good if I do homework on your subject today?" And they go, "Sure. You sure you can do it tho? Like, do you have memories of how?" And I'd go, "I think so, I just don't wanna switch rn, I'll call you if I need help, though." And they'd go "Cool."

Like, don't get me wrong, we have had problems. But they were never because somebody was bad, they were because of people's actions that were honestly mostly fueled by being abused, trauma, and figuring out how to properly function. No one was ever the problem. We have alters who are just awful, but that's a separate problem. People in front for us are lovely. Sometimes we have fights, sometimes we have relapses, sometimes we just have horrible things happen to each other or IRL or something else. But no one is ever the problem. We never had that mentality that DID, and our alters, were the problem. Their actions are sometimes, but not them as separate personalities. Actually, we had problems with each other and with DID because people outside told us we should. DID improved our lives, and the areas that it didn't, we never saw it as it "ruined" them, it just... made them harder, and told us there are different ways we need to go about daily stuff and life. To each other, we're literally just people with mental health issues who are trying to make the body functional, but also? We're even kinda happy to be here. And if not happy, at the very least neutral enough not to want to become one.

It's so weird hanging around here, having a blog dedicated to spread positivity about DID, kinda being like:

"Hello, we are actually... functional. And would have always been if people didn't try to convince us otherwise out of their own misery and want for everyone else to be miserable."

We have issues, but they're not because of DID, DID actually helps us with them. It doesn't make us feel invalid, I don't think, but it does make us question whether we belong in DID community. And we have a lot of alters with low empathy, somehow, that makes us more compassionate? It's such a weird problem to have. It shouldn't even be a problem but here we are.

-host

#rant post #did system #did #osdd system #osdd #dissociative identity disorder #system #did osdd #other specified dissociative disorder #system stuff #system things #osdd 1a #osdd 1b #highly complex dissociative identity disorder #highly complex did #complex dissociative identity disorder #cdid system #cdid #hc did system #hc did #actually median #median system #actually did #rants n rambles #mini rant #personal rant #rants #rant

[fatuismooches]

SMOOCHES!!! Hii darling !! ໒꒰ྀི´ ˘ ` ꒱ྀིა

ohmigosh i swear whenever you respond to my asks, my brain exploded with ideas its crazy and i love u sm for it <33 but anyways this kinda tied down to my recent brainrot b4 this, so since fragile!reader was in a coma for hundreds of years, the first time they probably tried getting out of bed and walking on their own two feet was probably an absolute failure 😭 fragile!raedrr probably looked like a baby deer learning how to walk for the first time. to say it was cute but also embarrassing is an understatement. also THATS SO TRUE! reader would literally beg Zandik and every single clone to go outside to see Snezhnaya, but since their health is so fragile it’s such a huge risk that they can’t take :(( so they’re usually just looking out the window to see if they can even catch a glimpse of Snezhnaya’s city. also adding onto Zandik being more mature and different from the Akademiya, reader probs has so so many questions on what happened while they slept, like what do you mean he has power that can match even the gods?! fragile!raeder would probably be so amazed but also scared that their own lover, THE Zandik, the outcast from Sumeru, turned to become the 2nd Harbinger, and have so much strength. ALSOOOO lifting up his mask and seeing the new scars littered on his face </3 reader would probably be so worried and ask “does it still hurt?” AHHHH it’s past 12 AM but this man has had such a grip on me the whole day. Currently sick rn, hopefully I’ll get better. But ANYWAYS I love you so so much smooches make sure you take breaks and stay healthy in college I know it must be really stressful. Just know I’ll be giving you a bunch of chu chus. <33

-from your dear boo boo bear 🎐 anon ౨ৎ

HI 🎐 ANON!! <33 I'm so glad I inspired you wabdbedbdw that's so cute ily more ❤️❤️ And RELATABLE 🎐 ANON i can't go a day without thinking of this crazy doctor man smh,, and omg i hope you feel better 😭 i'm responding a bit late but hopefully you feel better by now!! Make sure to rest a lot and don't push yourself okay? Staying up until 12 AM isn't good for you!! 😤🥺 Thank you luckily I've been coping well in college, it's just that is SO!! hot and walking to class has me sweating hard unfortunately 😅 Anyway- MOVING ON TO DOTTORE!!

I didn't even think about that- poor fragile reader would have to relearn SO many basic things. At first you'd be stubborn about accepting help - because well... obviously you feel embarrassed and upset that you need help doing something that should be easy to you, from a man as powerful as Dottore nonetheless - but... eventually you have to. At least baby Zandy holds your hand the whole time to steady you ❤️

YEAAA the clones and Dot probably can guess what you are about to say with EASE when you come up to them with a pleading "🥺" expression. They really do feel bad about rejecting you, especially when your shoulders droop and you let out that little dejected sigh that they've gotten used to hearing... You just want to know about the world outside, to explore just like how you once used to in the Akademiya... to venture into the unknown with your beloved. At least there are some really pretty picture books of Snezhnaya, and they always bring you souvenirs from their expeditions <33

Reader would be literally bouncing off the walls in excitement when they hear all of the stories Zandik has to tell 🥺 They want EVERY piece of the story down to the most minuscule detail. I mean, how could you not want the whole story when he went from this random guy in the Akademiya to a HARBINGER? In the Fatui? Those same people who used to watch y'all in the desert and forest?? 😨 And now you're saying this whole lab and space belongs to you too? Zandik, we have hundreds of years of catching up to do and you're not letting him go until he recounts everything <33

OH MY GOD THE SCARS😭😭 TEARSSS I didn't think about how he'd get the scars after you fell asleep- you would be wondering why he wears that mask nonstop until he finally relents and lets you take it off... :( your heart would just break as you softly kiss the scarred skin and trace it with your fingers. It probably doesn't hurt anymore but it aches when you touch it so tenderly...

#smooches talks #🎐 anon #fragile reader <3 #dottore love notes <3 #the scarssss i cant😭 #reader kisses them every time they cuddle fr

[tblsomedoodles]

I must know everything about this new AU. Please and thank you.

Yes! of course! I actually just finished Mikey's info dump/doodle page so i'm going to be posting that soon as well.

But the newly named Ninja Club AU is just a 03 separated au i've been tossing around my head for a few weeks now. It's so stupid and has taken over a lot of my brain processing, especially the last few days lol.

Basically, at about age 2-3, the boys got separated from both eachother and Splinter, and ended up getting raised in VERY different places.

Donny grows up as an average (if mutant turtle) new york child with school and everything.

Mikey grows up in the foot, being Karai's annoying little sibling.

Leo gets raised by the Daimyo.

and Raph, most strangely, ends up in fking space with the triceritons.

And the whole thing gives off YA fantasy novel/weird high school vibes so bad b/c of Donny just being some high schooler.

but yeah! I love it, ive only really got the 2 posts for it rn (mikey will be posted shortly. After i type the info dump lol) but they should both be tagged with "Ninja Club au".

(btw, i called it Ninja Club as a stupid reference to things like Orion Host Club and the Breakfast Club, specifically for the stupid high school chaotic vibes lol. Also so Donny has an excuse to say stuff like "I can't hang out tonight. I have Ninja Club." instead of telling people he's going to go beat up some evil ninjas with his brothers that night lol.)

More indepth stuff will come soon. Each of the turtles will get their own info dump/doodle sheet and I kinda want to do a comic of Leo and Mikey meeting for the 'first' time at the very least.

Thank you!

#asks #tmnt #tmnt 03 #ninja club au

[wqsslp]

Spicy (and not really) Kaiser headcanons♡

Nobody makes no shit with this menace to the society who's got eyeliner better than your and mine future so Mama's making some hc's😘

NSFW CONTENT BELOW

Minors dni

Also I don't remember his age but ay, we don't fuck minors yeah? So ofc Aged-up! Kaiser♡

Warnings:

Cussing (mostly me), degrading kink, hair pulling kink (other things aren't that bad ig)

You're in a relationship with him huh? Well be ready for him buying you the most lewd and exposing lingerie because he's in love with how it looks like on your sexy body

I KNOW that this bitch has a degrading kink. He will call you "whore" "cumdump" "fucktoy" and any other disrespectful names that come to his mind whenever you two are fucking

But if you call him any nicknames...Get ready for pussy destruction♡ Y'all seen how he kicks the ball, yea? Mhm. He's gonna unleash the whole power held in his thighs on your puffayy (RIP that pussy AYYY)

Loves it when you pull his hair. Do it and hear him groan.

Prefers you giving head than doing shit himself but if you were good enough, he'll make you visit heaven with his tongue

Probably got lots of bitches. Man's rich. He can afford. 99% chance that you're one of the bitches. But with some privilege🤗

Man doesn't respect personal space. So be ready for him grabbing ya butt cheeks whenever he feels like doing so.

Loves squeezing your cheeks before locking both your lips with kiss

Loves grabbing your face in general.

He'd let you trace his tattoo when he gets out of the shower or is just sitting there with no shirt on

He's a butt person. Big boobs are also preffered over smaller ones but if they at least fit in his hands then it's okay (small boobie girls no offence. I ain't got big ones too)

Doesn't care about seeing you naked or practically naked. You can even tell him that new lingerie is too small for you. But ofc it's "different" way of seeing your body. Something like this would happen:

- bby~

- Mhm? *Literally gives no shit and is scrolling instagram feed*

- The new lingerie you bought...

- cute, right?

- Yeah, but kinda...small. it's uncomfortable and panties are rubbing my inner thighs.

- C'mere. Lemme see. *pulls his free hand out of the pocket making the open-close thing, guiding you to come closer, still looking at the phone*

- You gon touch me there?

- Yeah, what's the problem? I've touched you many times. It's common now.

- But...It's different.

- Shut up girl. Stop being such shy bitch and come over. I'm just gonna check.

He slides his hand to your inner thighs pulling on the panties and making them slap your skin, causing pain. But does he give shit about you being hurt? Not really. He just looks up at your red with frustration face with a sly smile.

Likes cuddling with you. He's a big spoon ofc so you're held in his strong hands with your whole body being squeezed but you don't mind since it's not too powerful.

He also loves laying his head between or on your thighs. Especially at winter. Menace gets cold no matter how warm it is inside your (his) mansion so he needs those always warm "headphones" of yours.

Will publicly grab you by chin and leave a light kiss on your lips because he again felt so

He doesn't really have favorite position but likes anything he can see your face with or might fuck you from the back for those lewd sounds of skin-to-skin. (Don't mind me but fucking from back makes more sound compared to other positions. Not from my experience tho, so fix me if I'm wrong) Doggy style also works for him if you're facing mirror.

Would tease you a lot. A LOT "Aww. My little whore wants me to fuck her needy cunt? Gotta ask real nice and maybe I'll give you what you want~"

Man got nice stamina so he could go for round two, maybe even three.

So well this is the end of it but I might make a part 2 if I come up with more ideas.

I acc had more of them but it's almost 3am (2:55) so My brain doesn't work rn.

Bye bye~

Art not mine. Credits to the artist for this beautiful thing♡

#kaiser #blue lock #michael kaiser #smut #blue lock smut

[gunpowdercarousel]

So I'm curious about what you think of the Githyanki in general, they are well not nice. They will gladly conquer and eliminate any other race if it suits them.

Orpheus may be better than Vlaakith but in the end Lae'zel supporting him is a questionable thing. She turns against Vlaakith's lies but still supports her people and culture, being superior to the other races.

While I like the tension between Lae'zel and Shadowheart, this plus the fact they want different things in the end sounds like some nice angst

I mean... I wouldn't - like - wanna hang out with the average Githyanki, that's for sure xD they're all kinda racist and high-strung and unfriendly, but that's just the environment they're raised in. It's how their culture is. Not to mention, they're basically perpetually at war and are constantly pushed into being warriors.

Can't comment on Orpheus rn because I haven't been properly introduced xD I kinda sorta ate his brain my first playthrough.

I'd like to think Lae'zel's time on Faerun might have opened her mind a bit to other races and cultures, and that she'll take some of that open-mindedness back to her people. Not to mention, she's seen just how bad HER OWN people can get. The Gith essentially need to be built back up from square one in terms of ideologies, so there's room for growth and change.

The Githyanki really remind me of Saiyans, honestly. They're militaristic and warlike, but there's a kind of underlying tragedy to their race that makes them sympathetic. And it's clear that they can be redeemed, given the right support and guidance.

They ALSO remind me of the elves from Elric of Melnibone for some reason. There's something about the sparkling armor and gemstone-encrusted weapons and the sort of strange beauty of them that just seems so high fantasy and pulpy. Plus the stuff about them riding dragons in outer space.

Like

Like you gotta respect the drip xD

#ask #lae'zel #baldur's gate 3 #baldur's gate iii

[davepetea]

((just ranting abt writing fanfics you can ignore me lmao. I'm just in a weird place atm but I'm feeling kinda passionate abt writing rn so I'm gonna vent

originally I wrote a lil of this in the tags but then decided to just chuck it under a readmore so people aren't subjected to it against their will. then it got really long.

I'm not actually expecting anyone to read this im just sorta venting to myself. it helps me get my thoughts sorted if I write them down. I can also look back through my #.vat file tag in a few years from now and hopefully be like "wow I'm doing so much better than THAT now", so if that's the case, hi future Vatta! I hope you're having a good day. and if you're not future me, then I still hope you're having a good day, I love you, and this is your chance to turn back bc my rants are boring and LONG

(not turning back yet? ok. your funeral)

so, I haven't been online much bc I've just been in a weird limbo lately and I'm really busy when I'm at home either sorting stuff out or, with my PDA, doing anything I can to avoid my responsibilities lmao

I've been rereading my Tokyo ghoul light novels (I only have Void and Days ? I think they're called), rewatching Zankyou no Terror, and Bungou Stray Dogs (plus the live action Beast film which was? hilarious but I don't think it was supposed to be), and just suffering lmao

(you're still here? wow. you need a hobby. jk. ily)

I've been locked out of the systems at work for a bit, but I still need to be there and wait for the IT ticket to be sorted, so I've gotta be at my desk, cant have my phone or anything, so instead of sitting there doing nothing, I've either been reading, doing codeword puzzles, or I've been writing up 'drafts' for potential fanfics.

in this year of our sufferer 2024. I've been writing up some self indulgent homestuck college AU lmao. I've written over 60 sides of a5, (not inc the inbetween sections where I wrote some stuff on the chromebook at home) some notes, some accidental first draft, bc I wanted something to take up the time. but my handwriting is terrible, I don't write fast enough for my brain, I have a lil dyslexia so the letters and words get jumbled sometimes, and I have this weird thing where I don't do spaces right. but I've been trying to upload it to Google docs with Bixby's photo text extraction. it's pretty good considering how bad my writing is, then I just need to go through and touch it up, the main issues are things like names, there's some letters I do weird like my v turns into an r, or every p it thinks is a capital, but overall. amazing how technology do that.

(see my long ass rambling isn't just confined to venting. I also pretend to write actual things. you can still leave you know. I'm not holding you hostage until you read all this. you have free will)

can't remember how I ended up back in fanfic hell but I read back through like all my old published fics (aside from the cringe ones I orphaned) and the writing isn't terrible. I don't think I actually finished any of them though, which really shows my true nature lmao,,, but I've picked up a few things on my writing style now. and I've got a few things I see other people do that I wanna avoid bc I personally don't like it, and it's mostly about balance, like using names too often/not enough, being too descriptive like All The Time and making the writing really nice, but not much happens in the story so you take like an hour to read each scene, vs not enough description so everything is happening but you don't really get a visual or a breather to appreciate what's happened so far. I've been working on finding my right balance, which is imo easier if you're writing fanfic bc first up you hardly ever have to describe the characters. if someone's reading it they already know who they are. and for scenes you can take some inspo from the source material. does the original work put alot of effort into setting a cool scene? if not, then you don't have to either! if it's 90% scenery then you've gotta do it too I don't make the rules

I'm losing steam now I'm so sleepy and I've gotta go to work in a bit ugh.

(bet you're sleepy reading this too huh. told you it'd be boring)

I've been thinking about trying out writing some BSD fics but on an anonym not linked to my main Ao3, bc the themes are doozys and I kinda just wanna have the freedom of anonymity. also I'm a baby and if someone publicly criticises my stuff without it being a requested critique then it makes me bleh (I've had a few comments in the past of just general negatives, not even constructive feedback, not that I asked for any anyway...), but the abilities are tricky to write for, so it's effort lol

anyway I'm gonna stop now ive gotta get ready for work

(if you actually read this then thanks for going on this emotion deep dive with me. tune in next week when we'll get back to my usual mental breakdown)

#ooc post. #.vat file #genuinely I haven't been online on any blogs lately bc I'm doing. v bad. mental wise. #/rant off

[rileys-battlecats]

hey! i recently found your youtube, then your tumblr, and have become embroiled in your cats world! i saw your recent post that your blog is only about a year old?? thats insane! do you have any tips on how to get people interested in your worldbuilding? and to get over being scared to share anything? i often dont share things because it never even occurs to me that others would be interested. do you have any thoughts on all this? what you're making seems like so much fun and I want to play in the space similarly, so to speak! anyway, really excited to see more from you--thank you for sharing!

bro i am still baffled that people wanna know more about my little kitty-cat characters. I don't really know how to get other people interested, cause im not sure what I did to get here lol!!

I started this blog after "The Garden" took off and people were asking about character references. And since I was open to people asking questions, and tried answering them in an engaging way, things kinda picked up from there! I already had a lot of worldbuilding ideas mushed in my brain so this blog kinda became an outlet for all that. I put my tumblr in my youtube bio and in my video's descriptions and then people started showing up haha! I was also lucky to have a few people who regularly asked questions about the world and the characters, which I think encouraged other people to ask their own questions. If you look at my earliest posts, they're all just character references with little descriptions of their characters, and it slowly turns into more and more answered questions that devolve into an info dump of worldbuilding or character details lol. I've tried to keep a semblance of mystery to the story while also giving the people here an inside look at the characters and world! People get to be a part of the storytelling, because they can send in their ideas or interpretations of events and we can expand on them together as a community!

As for getting over the fear of sharing, it honestly helps me that this is all online and I don't have to look at anyone's face to explain things lol. Trying to explain the story to my family when they ask about it is SO hard for me; I feel ridiculous when I try talking about it out loud to them, I always feel the need to downplay the topics I'm covering when I do. Which I recognize is a symptom of people making fun of my interests as a kid so now I'm incapable of talking about them as an adult BUT we don't need those bad vibes rn. The way I see it, the blog exists and if someone is interested, they'll look at what I'm posting! If they aren't interested, they won't look! So even if I post something and it gets no engagement, it's still there if anyone is interested enough to read.

On the whole, I think the secret to having success here is to be smiled upon by the youtube algorithm gods tbh!! I definitely would not have the community I have without that engagement from youtube lol. I was definitely lucky!! Part of it is because I've created an interesting story with interesting characters (at least, I hope they're interesting HAHA) but I think it would be disingenuous to not make a note of how much luck plays into online 'success'. So my only real advice would be to start creating! Try to make things that would interest you, things that you have fun working on, and hopefully people will find it! If you want to try to find a community to springboard off of, I know the folks in my discord are super nice and supportive with other people sharing their ocs :)

Thanks so much for the interesting question!! I hope it's helpful, I'm sorry I don't have much in the way of concrete advice ^^;; it's really been such an awesome experience to be able to share my ideas with everybody here, I wish you the best of luck in your own future projects!!

#ask #rye.txt #advice #sorry this took so long to answer! I was in a bit of a funk after posting my last video #and once I got out of that the new zelda game came out #and I got lost in the sauce

[koheletgirl]

i was tagged by @danielkahndyke ty <33

last song: "i love me after you" by mitski. tbh the land is inhospitable and so are we is the only thing i've been listening to these days

currently watching: good omens! for so long i didn't want to (mostly bc i was annoyed by "the new superwholock" posts), but now that i spend every day with my sister. well she's gotten to me. and crowley crowley has also gotten to me.

currently reading: i was so good with following les mis letters but i had to stop recently bc i can't read about that rn. so im kinda just reading bad fanfic until i feel like a person again

current obsession: still very deep in my les mis phase i'm afraid. my brain has been vibrating for 6 months straight

tagging @space-feminist, @aromanticmara, @ofpd, @jondrettegirls, @divorcedzukka and anyone else who wants to <3

#tag game #chava tag

[shinjiist]

I love when I see soul eater AUs so much ahhhh the fact it’s not more common as an AU type is so baffling to me like soul resonance??? The bond between weapon and Miester? AHHH the dynamics! The way expectations can be subverted so perfectly- I love it

Do you have more Trigun soul eater AU ideas for like weapon and Miester pairs?

omg no bc literally like theres so much potential in sm areas w an au like this i couldn't help myself

right now I'm still straightening ideas out in my brain and I don't want things to get Too convoluted but I have a few ideas I can share rn

to answer ur question before i go on a tangent, obv vashwood are paired together though not at first (possibly considering at first vash is paired with livio ?). i think i want vash to be a meister because this presents a few opportunities for parallels between canon and the au w/ there being at least one incident beyond his control but because he's the meister he feels he holds some level of responsibility

maybe while he and livio are acquiring their witch soul something happens (maybe w/ livio's eye i truly have no idea) but they do manage to get it and vash is paired w/ wolfwood afterwards (kinda want him to be in the NOT class when he 1st enrolls if not for grades for the idea of making space so livio could get in idk how the system works ngl)(or mayb he and livio don't get it and livio decides not to be in the EAT class idk i'm not killing him off though idc idc)

other pairings i'm really not as sure about (i'm not well versed in trigunism it's just my current hyfix and i'm literally going to start trimax after this bc i oeuwgwh anyway) like i think meryl and milly would be really good w/ my limited understanding of milly's personality. i also don't want to overload this w dead-ended info and sound like that one twitter post (why's hoseok the bus driver....) but um alberto is a teacher at the DWMA during like the 2nd of 3rd yr of Vash + Nai's enrollment (i have a timeline for the lore bc they're like grown by the time canon rolls around . sorry to infodump over a single question genuinely but i can't talk abt this on twitter bc it's SCARY over there .. i'm catfishing as someone cool -guy who's failing)

also because i think vash wielding the punisher is cool as fuck cough (feat. wip i will never finish bc idfk how to draw him)

anyway though, vash as a meister also appeals to me because with nai as a weapon it quickly raises the question— why wouldn't they have just been paired together to begin with? i think that nai doesn't even test into the EAT class when they're first enrolled. maybe it's a fluke where he just needs a single point, maybe he completely bombs it, maybe it's just nerves, either way he doesn't get in and this is where he and vash find out they are not compatible as weapon and meister as much as they care about eachother

i also think that this would seed some doubt in nai's mind about how he perceives others vs how he is perceived, esp w/ a certain INCIDENT before they're enrolled in the DWMA and ohhhh i have so much i could say abt this (i accidentally centered what i wrote abt this au so far Largely abt his POV because he's always running around my skull like a hamster to a wheel he's like almond butter to me . anyway)

a little bit late but i had to sit down and dedicate myself to this post bc it needed my utmost attention but more ppl should ask me questions abt this pretty please i love talking So Bad

#soul eater au #trigun stampede #vash the stampede #millions knives #my art #i guess idk wip is wip #I'M FUCKING INSANE ABT THIS SORRY #shinjiist #.txt

[jefferythejelly]

🍃tag nine people to get to know better🌽

thank you for the tag(s) @wolfboypunzo @negativepeanuthoarder @pronounrespector :D

🌊three ships: koolish, dnn, and q!foolhalo are the three taking up the most brain space rn i think

⚓️first ever ship: this one is hard bc a) my memory is shit and b) the Very First ships i can think of are less like. i was actively shipping it and more i saw one moment in a cartoon between 2 characters as a kid and thought "oh that could be cute" so idk if they really count yknow. also i feel cringe saying any of them. so i'm gonna go the safe route and say my first rpf ship which was phan lmao

👀currently watching: i assume this one is supposed to be about tv series but i don't really watch many anymore (streamer hyperfixation and various youtube ccs is enough to sustain me) so uh. idk i've been watching rtgame's dave the diver playthrough recently thats been fun

🎬last movie: barbie movie :]

📖currently reading: once again not much of a reader either there is only so much space in the brain. unless fanfiction counts. actually yknow what sure i started reading a dnap multichapter fic a couple days ago where sapnap has a secret kid it's pretty cute so far (have only read chapter 1 tho)

🥦currently consuming: nothing. unless water counts i guess idk thats more just. there is a bottle of water on my desk. here i'll take a sip. ok actually its an empty gatorade bottle i refilled so its more like. water with the vaguest hint of gatorade flavor. its kinda mid tho

🥞currently craving: not much idk its 1 am im not really hungry rn

tags (no pressure to do it tho!): also i got to this way late sorry if i tag anyone who's already been tagged im trying to check who's already done it but also we all know tumblrs search feature is bad lmao @tinakibed @sapybara @knffuckraw @vadergf @canpandaspvp @lemon-mint813 @liondream @dreamerlynx @sliverstrands (and if anyone else wants to do it go ahead, i'm staying within the 9 person limit from the top but i also don't want anyone to feel left out :] )

#all of my answers are long af bc i was kind of just stream of consciousness writing it ajksfaskjdf #tag game #also i get so nervy about annoying ppl by tagging them somehow so seriously if u dont wanna then u dont have to lol

[amesliu]

it it blasphemous to say I'm kinda glad all the puzzle pieces were wiped off? percy and annabeth need space from one another, to sort through their feelings and just breathe a bit outside of this cyclical pattern they've caught themselves in.

and now we have a clean slate. the old puzzle pieces had become tainted with bad vibes that couldn't be redeemed to bestie status, but once percy and annabeth do some soul searching and [insert falling action plot points], they will be able to return with puzzle pieces that are better than before, that don't have spurs hidden in their sides.

idk I think we (and by we I mean percabeth) will be better for this puzzle piece vacuum that this chapter created

not at all. i think you're right. they're emotions and brain are like scrambled eggs rn

#not art #asked and answered #the reviews are in #jules ur so deep meanwhile im memeing

[smugglerofsass]

i saw your tags and i am dying to know the four GO related costumes, if it isn’t too much trouble to ask? ♥️

Ok ok ok here's the thing, this might be more than you bargained for because it's not four costumes, it's four years worth of costumes and inspired looks I have too many of those lets not talk about that.

Break so I can insert some pictures where I have them.

You see, I started cosplaying Crowley in 2019, like half of the rest of this fandom. I saw the show, I made my best friend watch it, she asked if Aziraphale and Crowley could be our Halloween costume for the year, I agreed exclusively on the grounds I could be Crowley, and the rest is essentially history.....except it's not because if my life isn't one cosmic joke what's the point right. My hair was purple at the time and I insisted I wasn't going to dye it for this, despite everyone I knew asking about it. So we did Halloween, at speed, mind you, so it was more about does it look like them rather than does it look like them, but doing these costumes gave me brain rot bad.

This is genuinely one of the best photos I'm going to be able to share with you rn, because someone took these photos of me intentionally. My best friend/Aziraphale had prior plans and this kinda got dropped on me like what costume can you wear to go to the cemetery approximately now.

In December, I started dying my hair red, we're all laughing because it's funny.

Obviously this was right before the plague times and I was still in undergrad at the time. We had a socially distanced halloween party the next year between the costume and scene shops, and I wore basically the same thing, just with doc martens and sfx contacts that time because I was working on a much larger costume for my undergrad capstone (tho not my history capstone, that was tragically different.) I started working on a late Victorian women's ensemble in black and green that was intended to be versatile enough to be both historically accurate in settings that needed it, while also being able to be an all out cosplay, just an inspired one. I didn't actually get good picture of it until late last year when I had shifted into what I call "stupidly" red hair dye and cut my hair (I was in grad school when s2 filming pictures started to come out, it does something to your brain, you make interesting choices during Thanksgiving break.)

(Enjoy a rare film photo of @christinedieae and I, we were working on these outfits together, and mostly in the same work space in 2021, so it was a mission to photograph these two together because they were so different on the dress forms.)

In 2021, I attended Ren Fair for the first time and made pirate inspired looks for my best friend and I. Tragically I don't have any photos from this year other than us at like 8am in my driveway and I'm not willing to share them rn but I made this full length sleeveless coat with fabric i found at joanns that year that has snakes and roses. I also wore it last year but it was very cold and windy that day so the only photo of me is my "Anakin storming the temple" look, peak my red wig and the best garment I've ever made, my cloak.

Then, some of my favorite ren fair looks from last year. The halo is one of the single best purchases I've made while costuming, and at this point its been a while.

The only down side to ren fair is that I'm often without an Aziraphale, as my best friend has become a bird (this is a genuine logistical challenge and at times takes between three and four of us to manage at the fair grounds so my full length snake skirt might not be returning to the fair this year.) Said bird also steals my glasses.

Here's another look with selections pulled from my historical wardrobe for a wizarding event at the museum I work at last year. This was the first time anyone I worked with saw my contacts and I have found it's good to warn people who know me because they find it a serious jumpscare. Some adults also have opinions, but kids really seem to like them.

And then some silly things from an event we attended in May last year. It was Friday the 13th and easily 100 degrees. I made Aziraphale's waistcoat in a week because I wasn't insane enough already (when you get motivation to do something you take it idk). On an even bigger my life is a cosmic joke note, when the first s2 pictures came out with the leather waistcoat I got in my closet and finally begrudgingly admitted my mom was right, because I had a leather waistcoat she had given me from the 80s.

I feel like I might have posted some of these photos here before, I remember asking for an "angel ( )" caption for my friend dressed as Castiel, and the groupchat soundly rejecting "angel (homosexual)" as too non-specific. It was very hot, we descended into insanity by the end of the night, a group of girls recognized us while we were trapped in the middle of this tiny candy store, chaos at its finest. This is also the night where someone referred to our group as the "most attractive group of queer people" they'd ever seen, and thus named our group chat.

I know there have been sooooo many more, some combination of all of this is how I dress on the daily so I'm kinda always testing new or inspired looks. And our ren fair opens this weekend, and I've been working on making and acquiring some fun new things for some new looks this year, so I'll have more looks very soon.

The last thing I can leave you with, I suppose, is this. I'm going to a wedding in October with costumes encouraged, but all black is off the table. SO I'm recreating an Edwardian gown in a red silk I found that is cross woven with black threads so it has this shift to it while still looking red, the silk is called Omen.

My darling Aziraphale is @jesterjamboree as always. @frameratess also appears here, and is often the only one of us remembering to take pictures. And already mentioned is @christinedieae, we egg each other on with our crazy ideas.

#haha have i ever mentioned that im crazy #im a firm believer in looking exactly how you want to all the time #even when other people think youre crazy #the smuggler sews #the smuggler cosplays

[agustdakasuga]

I can see the relationship types forming already!

Yoongi is definitely a silent simp

Wonwoo tho... I hope he isn't simping for mc?

Boo... I only accept ot7 x reader☹️

I could see him going a little crazy over her getting close to them and eventually she gets into a relationship with bts and then he rlly goes crazy and joins a rival mafia who is just using him to get to mc and wonwoo kidnaps mc to keep for himself when the rival boss actually just wanted her because he wants information from her that she doesn't know and when mc gets taken wonwoo is taken as well and they torture and maybe kill him cus she has no information to give and mc gets traumatized and tortured too and bts comes to the rescue albeit a bit late

MAYBE they're late because mc had an argument with them and they wanted to give her space but when they aren't hearing from her for a while they get concerned so they goto their worker that is supposed keep tabs on mc only to find he was lagging(is that a word) and doing nothing so they punish him and they turn the whole country upside down just to find her even tho they're a little late

Ok

I'm a bit ahead of myself

I love this story and your others, I'm actually rereading you never walk alone and between the blood shed rn and *chef's kiss* I would put them in my bloodstream if I could(I swear they're like drugs)

-🍪

yoongi is definitely a silent simp!! cause it isn't him to express verbal sayings of love you know???

as for wonwoo, we're not sure what we want to do with him yet because i don't want him to pull focus away from the main point/ relationship of the story, which is ot7 x reader. maybe he is just a protective friend, since the boys kinda give off bad vibes?

and are you in my brain 🍪 anon? cause i definitely thought of a possible plot, similar to what you just described... i usually have different scenarios and just decide last minute how i want the story to turn out lmao

thank you so much for rereading the stories and all the love you have for them!! i just re-read APCH and cringed so bad HAHAHAHA its just me tho

#inbox #replies #🍪 anon #i love these messages #so much #what should we do with wonwoo?

[cosmic--static]

about me!

Tagged by @honeyteacakes

Nickname: cosmo <3

Sign: virgo im pretty sure!

Height: somewhere between 5'3" and 5'6" i think? its been a while since I've measured my exact height lmao

Last thing I googled: columbo screenshots. i do not remember the context for my needing columbo screenshots

Song stuck in my head: Love Me Blind by Thick As Thieves (it was the last thing I listened to so it's still floating around in my brain)

Amount of sleep: its been 6-8 hours the past few weeks, which is better than my usual (either too much or too little sleep lmao)

Dream Job: it has flopped around a lot but one thing I still dream about doing is astronomy (large field ik, but its all sooo interesting and I would love to just be able to study space my whole life)

Currently wearing: a black turtleneck, a fun pair of lavender colored pants, and socks with cats in boxes on them!

Movies/books that describe me: I'm not sure about movies or books that really describe me so some of my fav movies are Nope(2022), The Sixth Sense(1999), and MirrorMask(2005). Some fav books are The Left Hand of Darkness by Ursula K. Le Guin, The Alchemist by Paulo Coelho, The Girls I've Been by Tess Sharpe, and The Hobbit by J. R. R. Tolkien.

Favorite song: I have like 300 some songs liked on spotify so I don't think I can pick just one song to crown my favorite so here's another list haha: Melatonin by Birds of Bellwoods, Crystalised by The xx, Destruction by Joywave, Angst by Betterov, Dark Entries by Bauhaus, Where Is Your Rider by The Oh Hellos, and Blossoms by The Amazing Devil.

Aesthetic: it's a little bit all over the place! sometimes it feels kinda dark academia because I love corduroy, earthy colors, and straight-legged pants. Other times I wear bright colors and patterns. the things I (and my outfits) have been compared to: "middle-aged dad", "history professor", and "tired older sibling in an 80s movie"

Favorite authors: Douglas Adams, Lemony Snicket, and Neil Gaiman probably!

Random fun fact: I am really bad at giving fun facts about myself but! I like bugs :] and I have 10 tabs open rn

#i actually had to look at spotify for like 10 minutes to think of my favorite songs #they change often so #i dont think im going to tag anyone becuase i have! anxiety #thumbs up #so if you see this and you want to do it! do it! and just say that i tagged you lmao #this is me tagging YOU #if you want #about me :]