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jdopes-recorder · 1 year

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Not little rant pls ignoreee

Literally giving you so much time to scroll past

Stop scrolling

Well you asked for it:

Im feeling kinda lonely here :/

There's moots and blogs I like that are so talented and cool so obv they get a lot of asks and interactions

They all must be getting them cuz they do something, right

What do I even do here?

I reblog sfuff.

I know that reblogs mean a lot to the writers but still.

I've literally posted one headcanon but that was from some surge of confidence and I don't like anything I've sort of written other than that. Ones with serious topics and scenarios. I'm not good at conveying that stuff. My writing is like an examination essay, pretty bad with bringing emotions and more descriptive.I have ideas but I'm not good at writing.

Idk what to make edits and gifs.

I dont do those 'relatable thoughts' that I see everywhere.

Am I even worth much to the people I interact with? Probably not tbh there's nothing great abt me

The one I was closest to here for the most was aster but then she deactivated suddenly and I didn't even know why so I had to ask rin.... It sounds stupidly selfish but I just wish aster had let me know before she left bcz it was such a shock. I was gonna ask her smthg and I went to our messages and it said it was deactivated.

It was just a lot to process and I miss her a lot.

I'm not rly doing anything worthwhile here tho am I?

What do I bring to this platform?

Nothing really

I do moodboards sometimes but I haven't for like two months cuz it takes quite a bit of time and patience and I don't have that kind of stuff rn

It feels pretty pathetic actually, to see your moots posting awesome stuff that literally move my soul while I do nothing.

I suppose sometimes I may make them happy a bit

Maybe

I always try my best to leave feedback on all writing works I read and I know how much that means to them

I've only posted one thing and the few reblogs I got and their tags mean so much so I wanna do that for others.

But it feels.... Weird and sad to be this unproductive here.

Kinda feels like I don't belong in a place like this where there are so many talented creative wonderful people.

I'm not rly thinking about it but, if I deactivated my blog, what great thing will be gone with me? Moots may be a bit :( but they'll definitely find many another blogs that are equally cool to interact with right? Right.

Ok well that was the most I've ever showed my feelings here... Weirdddd

#feels like im the one reaching out to interact most of the time.... does that mean ppl dont wanna interact with me #cld just be me and my self depreciating and bombarding ways #keep thinking ppl dont like me much and just answer cuz they feel like they have to #like... i see moots getting a lotta asks and interactions and stuff #probably cuz i dont post fics right #cuz then you get a lot more traction and boost which leads to more interactions?#i dont wanna be that annoying person that keeps bugging people #~bell rants #prolly delete later

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june-again · 3 years

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ahh turns out im back for a bit lol, i honestly have no clue when ill be active, it could be tomorrow or in a couple weeks lol.

im so glad that my parents office opened for families to come in and enjoy the ac. and its perfect because they just renovated and now im sitting in a cool hanging chair with a view of the buildings below us through the floor to ceiling windows. seriously this place is so cool.

WHOS YOUR FAVORITE CHARACTER IN PROMISED NEVERLAND?? ray is my absolute favorite and i love him so much omg.

i havent done any team sports but i did karate for 5 years. but then covid happened so classes stopped, and im thinking of quitting anyway since all my friends are off to college and my friends that are my age all quit. and i am not for teaching a bunch of bratty middle schoolers because i lose my patience easily lol, they remind me of younger me though, and i cringe thinking about how annoying younger me was haha.

though im looking for boxing lessons though. karate was great and i was good at it because im really strong, and the instructor made me focus on my punches all the time since i was the best in the class so thats where i got the idea of boxing from. i might as well focus on my strengths. also i wanna start because of the aesthetic too lol, and prime character development haha, living my life like im the main character.

literally my only goal in life is to become the main character. like straight out of a novel, aesthetic asf and badass is what im going for. like vibey and cool but also someone you can have deep convos with?? and strangely wise? and resourceful in a bunch of random things is what im going for lmao. idk if ill actually make it though because the image of myself in my head is different than what i actually am.

BESTIE I THINK YOU WOULD BE THE MAIN CHARACTER TOO, LIKE YOU JUST GIVE OFF THOSE VIBESSS

gl in the heat, i hope the heat wave ends soon, i am in pain.

ooh okay !! yeah, idk what my schedule looks like either, some days i'm gone except for like three posts and then there are day like today where i'm just answering asks plsss

oh my gosh that's good. it's just so crazily hot this week in a lot of places and it's not sAFE. OH THAT SOUNDS LIKE A VIBE WAIT YES

pls norman is totally my favourite. major sugawara koushi vibes ngl 👍 he's like suga but child and also stuck in a dystopia or something but wahuwahahw

ooh karate?? that's sickk a friend of mine did taekwondo and although i never actually saw her in action i admired her for it (pls idk if she's gonna read this so i'll just tag her @minadreams love u niner). EW MIDDLE SCHOOL KIDS i literally CANNOT be around 75% of them it's just badddd they all remind me of myself or other people i knew when we were that age and just. no. no.

NO THAT'S ACTUALLY SO AWESOME I HAVE SO MUCH RESPECT FOR YOU BECAUSE OF THAT. BECAUSE YOU SHOULD DO THAT, I AGREE. YOU ARE SO SKILLED AND HAVE SO MANY STRENGTHS AND YOU'RE ALREADY BADASS GIRL AND YES YOU TOTALLY GIVE OFF THE VIBES OF SOMEONE I WOULD LOOK UP TO AND ALSO WANNA HAVE DEEP CONVOS UP LATE AT NIGHT WITH OR SOMETHING

stop wait i can't express how much fun this topic is to me but i promise that if we were talking at two am i would start ranting about what a fun concept it is and it would quickly be five am. i TOTALLY get having a different mental image of yourself, and i try so hard to keep mine accurate but it's so hard to understand the outward vs the inward persona pls

bestie you have no idea what that did to me. let's make out rn im serious

MHM MHM we got this, we strong badass main characters 💪💪

#☆— you & myself.#🐉— mocha

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