#I'm feeling better

[vaspider]

Love is when your wife, who is fasting for Yom Kippur, makes coffee and very fragrant and delicious soup for you when you're running a 101.3° fever and have a headache and feel like garbage (and are thus not only forbidden to fast but performing a positive mitzvah by not fasting).

This is an @apocalycious appreciation post. Please appreciate her, bc she's a very good wife.

#I'm feeling better #I'm pretty sure i had food poisoning #I've repeatedly tested negative for COVID

[bluedovee]

Nothing to do with undertale but I'm working on feeling better and so here are some sketches outside my school

Lots of squirrels 🥰

#sketches #squirrel #doodlings #at one point there was a squirrel in front of me #the curly tails ✨ #i'm feeling better

[dreamlandcreations]

Burnout recovery (?)

It took me a while to figure out why I was so down all the time. But I didn't take the "good news" that well tbh. Because:

"It takes an average time of three months to a year to recover from burnout. "

And I was like. NOPE. FUCK. THAT!

Well, the first few days after that were even worse because I kept pressuring myself to do something, anything other than lying in bed and staring at the ceiling. But even something as so no energy "task" as listening to music was making me... idk how else to say it other than itchy...

Anyway, eventually I just gave up, let it consume me and slept away like 2 days... AND GUESS WHAT? I felt a tiny bit better.

So I'd say the first step is just LET IT ALL FUCKING GO! Turn the nagging in your head off and stop caring about anything else than getting a good rest!

My work drove me insane for the last 3 years or so and tbh it took over my life far, far sooner than that. It wasn't healthy. Letting that go took like 2-3 weeks ( I had "help" from other tortured colleagues 🫶 talking helps!) and a lots of Youtube shorts about "this is business not personal". Yay to scrolling paralysis.

Yeah, and about that. I realised that with the burnout I really burned all the bridges that kept my autistic/adhd traits in check. I mean, I used to have a good balance, now I'm off the scale with both in the worst way.

I think the second step is just trying to stay in that kind of relaxed, "don't care" space while figuring out the reasons why I felt so terrible. Again, Youtube shorts about autism/adhd and work mentality really helped. It was like talking to someone without actually getting myself together enough to open up about this to a "real person" (it never would have happened, you know).

And this is the part from where this might not help anyone who doesn't have adhd (and autism?) but realising that I've become a shell of adhd behaviour was actually a big step. Especially with the adhd/autism traits comparison vids bc I just understood how I was functioning when I was doing all that stuff at once.

The next step(s) I took was trying to take care of myself. Eat, sleep, wash, clean up to feel better in my skin and in my environment. I made it a challenge (chasing dopamine seems to be the only way adhd brain can do stuff). Like I'll put on this song ( I wasn't really listening to it still) and do .... until it's done. It did not help at first. Just getting into a task without thought doesn't work for me. I needed to take a minute and visualise that I'm going to do this and this and this and I'll be done in 3 minutes. I prepared for the task mentally, I hyped myself up then I did it. And it worked. Then I got too much into it and overworked myself 😅

However cliché it sounds, the key is finding balance.

Now I can listen to music, I've read 14 books this year so far and reading 5 others now, and I'm planning my year and thinking about what I want to do in life.

I still have bad moments/days and that's okay. I am still not okay but I'm getting there.

I figured, I need to occupy (not overwhelm!!!) my senses to stop my mind from wandering (and torturing me) so now when I have to do something like dishes, I just put on an audiobook and try to let everything else go.

I still can't watch movies/shows. Which sucks bc I feel like I need visual stimulation too sometimes so idk what's up with that but it's a no for now.

Writing is still a NO! (that's a screaming no in my head). But I started to write down ideas again (something I didn't really do for months)

What I know would improve my health and most likely my mental state is regular exercise, but I'm not there yet. I still regularly skip/forget to eat more than once a day so that's a priority.

It's also difficult to leave the house tbh. The outside world is overwhelming and I don't go out if I don't have to (which is like once a week now).

What I do know is that if you want to do something DO NOT SIT DOWN! You'll never get it done. There's no "in a minute" or tomorrow. If you want it done, do it now.

I'm working on building a structure/routine in my daily schedule that gives me a guide so I wouldn't waste my days but doesn't limit or outright strangle me with too many limitations by being to crowded.

#ramblings #burnout #depressed #I'm feeling better #yay #? #adhd #autistic things #personal #you need at least a week off that's for sure #like totally off

[terunosukenyamoto]

post meal clarity

#hopeposting #i'm feeling better

[a-silver-dragoness]

"I will fly again"

#dragonkin #dragonsona #kinsona #me! #I'm feeling better #my art #dragon art

[clownstolemyjokesarchived]

You ever think Fizzarolli screams to get attention or like just because he can, kinda like a Huskie does? Just silence then all of a sudden, “AAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAA-”

#﹙ OOC ﹚ Oᴘᴏ sᴘᴇᴀᴋs #I'm feeling better #And this is my first random thought of the night

[tsunderedoctor]

When you and your girlfriend just wanna talk about your blorbos together ❤️❤️

#tsunderedoctor #not ask #I'm feeling better #Jadis was a good helper

[teabiscuits]

I wish I liked Stardew Valley more, everything about it is great, but I just don’t relate to the NPCs very well. I know there’s an expanded mod too, but the marriage options still aren’t up my alley. I kinda wish there was a masculine version of Leah, or someone more like my @dreameaterdiesel

#teabee talks #i'm feeling better #ate some fruit and got some snuggles #played with the cat too #text post only #vidya games

[captainjonnitkessler]

You know I used to think "tumblr's absolute refusal to actually engage with the Trolley Problem in favor of insisting that there must be a third, morally pure option that doesn't require them to make a hard decision and anyone who asks them to make a binary choice is just a short-sighted idiot is really fucking annoying, but I guess it's not actually doing any harm".

Anyway that was before we asked tumblr at large to decide between "guy aiding a genocide but making progress elsewhere" and "guy who would actively and enthusiastically participate in a genocide and would also make everything else much, much worse for everyone elsewhere" and the response was that there must be a third, morally pure option that doesn't require them to make a hard decision and that anyone who asks them to make a binary choice is a short-sighted idiot.

#there is not a third option. it is either trump OR biden #and one of those will be much MUCH worse for palestine #i'm really really sorry that these are the options. i wish they weren't. #but WHAT third option are you trying to take here? what on earth is your proposed outcome #that will actually make things better for palestine? #because letting trump win the election is NOT going to help them #i'm sorry but you need to set aside your feelings and take the option that will lead to less harm to palestine in the long run #you talk such a big game about how people need to be willing to make sacrifices to help palestine #but you yourself aren't even willing to hold your nose and vote to stop things from getting worse? #or did you think 'sacrifice' only meant not getting mcdonalds for a few months? #us politics

[lgbtlunaverse]

Nothing will dispell the "the curtains were just blue" myth faster than writing something yourself, because the amount of pretentious symbolism i am putting in my silly little fanfics is ridiculous. I mean SO much with these words, literally every single one of them. This fic has twenty five typos and zero correct uses of punctuation but if there's curtains you bet your ass I put thought into what colour they were.

#writing #fic writing #like this is stuff i'm doing for fun with my perfectionism meter turned down as far as i can get it #and i am still thinking about it A LOT #talk to me about how in red string fic jgy perceives the memory block both as syrup and as mud but nmj thinks it feels like blood #it's just a thing in their heads that mentally feels kind of thick and sticky but they both made something different of it #it's about issues with cleanliness / lies as a way to craft an illusion of a better lopking world vs the constant violence nmj lives in

[akumanoken]

did your girl do all her new moon stuff as soon as it was official new moon because she'll be streaming Sunday night?? You betcha!!

#I'm feeling better #I can't believe everything that's happened this past month #what's happened the past few DAYS #but anyway I'm done that now so do we write?? Hmmmmmmm

[loveroftime]

Jamming to a whole bunch of different songs and such with my friend while she's on Tik Tok live and her followers keep requesting songs and commenting on mine (all nice!!)

It's cool to be doing it, even though I'm actively off camera 💀🖤

#yatharil #music time #I'm feeling better

[nev-058]

I think night cityscapes are really soothing

all those little lights are

little people with worries and days just like mine

but yet everyone is still hanging on somehow

I feel a sort of brotherhood to the world

#:) #i'm feeling better #me actually posting stuff #cityscape

[mamuzzy]

Laptop decided to crash before being able to look at my last-FP's tumblr page that I do when I want to hurt myself, so this is a sign that I should not look at my last-FP's tumblr page but shit on their head instead and go back to draw.

#i'm feeling better

[jasminebythebay]

thank you for your help 💎

#sonic the hedgehog #sonic #sth #ngl i'm not really feeling this piece :( #i had a super grand vision for what this piece would look like but it kinda just ended up meh #rip oh well i guess i'll just do better on the next piece #edit: APPARENTLY I'M THE ONLY ONE WHO THINKS IT'S MID??? LMAOOOO

[nemxricultrix]

(Season 10 of Sea of Thieves is up and I made a Guild - The Gilded Bananas. The actual tag I wish I could have put on there is 'For Cronch!', and the whole theme is bananas. The main rule? Respect the Banana, sail with banana,collect banana. And as guild leader.. yes I'm the Big Banana.

So if you okay the game, hmu or something I'll invite you to the guild. Not much distinguishment but it just started and I'm still getting my pirate brain back)

#ooc #I'm feeling better