#I'm done being mad I think

[poorly-drawn-mdzs]

Creative Hubris takes another unsuspecting victim.

#non mdzs #It's not even that many pages and I'm getting my ass kicked! #As much as I have been clawing at the walls - I have learned so much! This project pushed me more than I thought it would #I am so excited to share what I've made. I think its actually some of the best work I've ever done. #but I really do feel like I've stumbled back into the room covered in blood and holding a smoothie. #The issue being: at some point the sunken cost fallacy kicks in and you go: #'well I might as well put in extra polish since I've spent so much time on this already' #That's your EVIL BRAIN talking to you who wants you to live in EVIL COMICS LIMBO. #Sorry to my followers who miss the mdzs comics. I went mad at sea for a month and all I brought back was a short comic. #Posting my silly side doodles to bide me time as I continue to drink the sea water. #Set me free into the plains where the horses roam and I will be able to heal <3

[sidetongue]

in love with my little crew

#henry got very very mad at sprig the other day #after a lot of trigger stacking #i had been bed bound for 4 days post tonsillectomy #so none of the dogs had had any interaction or exercise #so they were all stressed and restless #i was in bed and heard hollering and screaming #i ran downstairs and by the time i got there the fight was over and no one was injured #i looked back on the camera and hen had been lying down chewing something #moby was being irritating and trying to get it out of his mouth #hen ignored him #then budge came over and tried to retrieve it as well #hen continued munching and didn't even bother correcting them #but then sprig walked over to see what was going on #and stuck his head in hens mouth #hen gave a slight correction #and then sprig in awkward panic made a move to like mount hen?? #and anyway hen just turned around and NAILED him #which was scary because hes never done anything like that before #I'm thinking it's because sprig is entire and also quite a bit larger #and apparently at like 10-12mo their hormones go insane even if they're not acting like jerks?? and it makes neutered males upset? #anyway i'm sure sprig has learnt not to hump hen #but my immediate instinct is to DESEX SPRIG NOW #because all of my dogs have been desexed under a year old #i dont know how to own entire dogs! #but i really really wanna keep spriggy entire until at least 2yrs #anyway Sprig literally just screamed and peed himself which was most of the noise #if needed i'll start separating the old man and the baby regularly so they can have time out from each other #still very good boys #henry #sprig

[trentcrimminallybeautiful]

i think the diamond dogs should play improv games just bc it would amuse me, an ex theater kid, specifically

#ted and beard ofc are reading each others minds #trent is shockingly good at it but only when he forgets to be self conscious #also see: he does both best and worst with ted (best when he's not being self conscious #worst when somehow the prompt gets too touchy or 'romantic' bc Crush Crush Crush Brain Panic) #(please the image of ted in character hugging him or something and trent just. red. brain crashed. no longer improving just frozen. barely #manages to recover and even then it was not subtle. unclear if ted is a) genuinely oblivious b) teasing him and thinks trent knows that #c) something else(??) ) #roy is too stiff most of the time but if he gets really into it he gets REALLY into it. #best way to get this result is to involve phoebe or another child #higgins did community theater at some point and is the one teaching them all the games. beard also seems to have done intense research #but higgins is the one with EXPERIENCE #not that i think beard and ted couldn't have done an improv duo in college or something but in this scenario they did not #nate surprisingly is pretty good at it once he gets into it like it takes him a second but #then he's like. really getting into it and he's very quick on his feet #new way to go mad with power (affectionate): the rush you get when you make the perfect snap back comedic line/acting choice #also while trent is so good paired with so many of them i think he and nate would be a hilarious duo. they're SO funny. #they complement each other well and are both quick & clever #esp if it's about a mutual interest (although one of them taking the lead on something else like nate and music while the other plays off t #em is also good) but like #please i just had the iamge of them basically doing a bit where they're like. those mean old gay muppets in the theater? #like trent and nate improv duoing as some bitchy reviewers just going back and forth and it's so FAST and SO funny #beard records it and posts it somewhere and it goes viral. #god don't even get me started on the idea of some sort of official richmond social media/the gang posting random clips on social media #bc the ideas i have are so funny. #also largely trent centric but what do you want from me okay i'm just a little slut.

[nattousan]

when

whe you, when You were just trying to put i n some extra effort to try adn improve yoursel f and it got misinterpreted as malicious n u get yell ed at

#i'm slow as SHIT at carving the wax when making the dentures #equally bc of time blindness and being meticulous #i am VERY aware of how slow i am and have been working my ass off to try and improve #so when i got told AGAIN that i needed to pick things up #i asked my sis who is also a lab tech how she carves her wax #so she vid called me on lunch to show me how she does it #SO TO TRY AND SHOW MY TRAINER THAT I WAS TRYING TO IMPROVE #i go #oh! my sister suggests i do this and that to improve! #and she gets SUPER MAD AT ME #she GROWLS #LISTEN #you can't keep calling your sister for every little thing #(i'd only done this one other time) #I'M your trainer NOT her #you need to STOP being so damn meticulous and just Pay Attention #and i've tried being patient with you but you need to pick it up #and i was just like #*see above image* #she did apologize later but i think she thought i was like.... #trying to undermine her somehow?? #by seeking outside help?? #bc i'm neurodivergent and asking someone who knows how my brain works?? #i know she was just having a bad day probably but having adhd means #Rejection Sensitivity Dysphoria #and so i went home like #aheem aheem whimper #nat chats #moi loif #neurodivergent

[karineverse]

#it hurts to much to think people can be even triggered by them... #oh ye forgot to say for who doesn't know: it's about Errorink #I'm so tired of shippers that sexualize Ink or make him extremely feminine JUST FOR ERROR'S PLEASURE #“gay ship” #Error could be into to girls. yep. but making Ink a sexy girl it's just a weird kink if you think that's the only way Error would love him. #and making Ink suffer like it's healthy that Error makes him suffer and that it's love... I'm concerned about y'all #it makes everyone hates the ship and it hurts me so bad #I'm not like them i just want to see them being a normal gay couple that really loves each other #it literally makes me want to cry. #what the fuck is wrong with them... #now I'm not even comfortable to talk about them as much as I wish #karine vents #vent art #kv art #errorink #the worse its that some of my mutuals also hate/don't like/are done with the ship (I'm not mad I'm just sad) #... it fucking hurts

[mummer]

"sara snow" as if that could have ever been a real name. get real. That is a drag name

#I'm kidding #if we're getting serious i think the reason Lol cregan is twinky is funny to me is mostly just because #in like. reddit threads and shit he's always fawned over as like this awesome gruff masculine man who Gets Shit Done and is Powerful and #Correct and Just and Fixes everything. Well what will reddit guys do when he is just a 21 year old bisexual beet counter Oh god we've just #done jon again sorry never mind #but yea lets subvert the masculine ideal ladiesssss ^_^ #thats what im here for ^______^ i hope preston jacobs gets really mad about it *___* #cause like it's interesting that aegon and rhaenyra both fail their genders in certain ways #(failing your gender is good dont get me mixed up) #but aegon cant get it up and he's emasculated and disabled and Literally gets cucked ? #and we dont even have time to get into rhaenyra right now #so the idea of some kind of Northern Real Man TM storming in and being the 'corrective' to that is a bit weird #UNLESS he is gay and mean abotu it. #also not to imply that the realm is 'fixed' at the end of the dance systemic rot is systemic etc #^ idk what any of that meant it's late and if it doesnt make sense dont yell at me about it

[zimmbzon]

I really want Day to get big mad at everyone.

I want Day to blow up at his Mum and Night and Mhok. I want Day to realise his power and his strength and his right to make his own decisions, to choose his own path, make mistakes, take risks and have secrets.

I want Day to get completely fed up with people using his disability as a way to keep him close, to keep him in check, to keep him reliant on them, to keep him scared.

I want Day to tell them all to get fucked. He might still need assistance with his disability but that doesn't mean he needs THEM. I want Day to up and go stay with Aon.

I want to see the different stages of realisation in Night, Mhok and their mum. Night knows Day is right and he's already acted on this understanding. Their Mum has to know that Day doesn't need her as a carer - she's never home. But Mhok will be oblivious, completely blindsided by Day's words and behaviour.

Mhok who hides from any internal study by focusing on what's outside. He focuses on Day, puts everything into Day. He attaches himself to Day's vulnerability, but he carefully keeps his own vulnerability behind sky high walls.

He kissed Day in a moment of Day's vulnerability, he took strength from it and did the scary thing (but perhaps Mhok's fear was tempered by the imbalance of power that always exists between them). Now Mhok needs to tear down the walls. He needs to make himself more vulnerable than he has ever seen Day. And he has to do it with the knowledge that Day doesn't need him, and Day might not want or choose him. Mhok has relied on his position of power in their relationship, he has keep secrets and made decisions that benefited him whilst telling himself that it was all for Day.

Mhok needs to be scared and alone, he needs to feel the threat of abandonment. He needs to feel like Day did when Mhok pranked him at the beach.

He needs to do the big scary thing, and he needs to do it from a place of powerlessness and respect.

#last twilight #last twilight the series #mhokday #I'm big mad #Day you are allowed to be big mad too #Mhok I love you with my whole heart but you gotta step up #Night in the background just being Night and we all swoon #Mama you've done an amazing job. you're boys are great people. you made a home and a future and security for them #now you gotta take a breath and realise that the work of the provider is done. the boys need their mama #Mhok needs his mama and sister too but that's too sad to think about while I'm still mad

[willllllllllllllll]

i'm going to need 5 - 10 working days to process the doctor saying Issac Newton is hot

#doctor who spoilers #doctor who #spoilers #i love how obvious they're being about the doctors sexuality #well they always were #but still #i don't think the doctor has ever called anyone hot before #i'm in love w 14 #if these three eps r all we see of them ima be soo mad #also that thing they pulled at the end when the ship was blowing up was not cool #i genuinely thought she was done for #i should have known better tbh

[manasurge]

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#sometimes I wish drawing wasn't such a lonely activity #am in a bit of a social mood but can't find anything to socialize about #i also wish I didn't need to spend ALL DAY trying to prep my brain to try to draw; despite it being something I wanna do and enjoy #why must i have executive dysfunction over my hobbies #this is why it takes me one million years to something I can actually get done in a few days at most #i'm so incredibly frustrated and it's super depressing and bumming me out #it's just so frustrating and i'm so irritated at myself #i know it's shark week so maybe it's why i'm a bit of a mess; but usually it doesn't affect me during the time so idk #also i love how every night I get to deal with the crippling dread and lowkey anxiety attacks bc everything i'm avoiding/afraid of and it- #- keeps festering in my mind and makes me avoid sleep for as long as possible and i'm stuck in an eternal negative feedback loop #i can't even do the thing i enjoy bc my brain is making it hard for me #not to mention that I constantly get those thoughts about how i'm never getting anywhere in life and i am in fact; ALONE #no irl friends or family and it still scares me to think about how worse things will get in the future for me. #not to mention not having a career or being capable of doing any kind of secondary schooling makes the dread even worse #but again frustrated and i can't even apply positive activities like how I'd usually do; not to mention i'm just always mad at myself about #-everything lmao #stupid brain just let me enjoy me hobby bc i wanna do it and you're not letting me and it's making me feel worse #delete later probably idk lmao

[juniemoe]

"i have a purpose. i have hawke" gets me every time

#also “she likes rogues. rivaini rogues especially” 🤭 #i'm awful but i always flirt with tallis to get hawke's LI's reaction #fenris's little cutting remarks are priceless #and anders gets so mad lmao #i haven't done it with merrill yet and i probably never will. being mean to merrill just makes me feel like an utter ass #anyway this dlc is my favourite one from all the games i think #🎮 vilna plays games

[silusvesuius]

me when ele/nwen mistress moment

#text #(thinks about elituli so hard my windows blow out) #yk .. i think she would hate being gifted anything at all. it will not make her warm up to someone but it will make her seethe #he'd be the type to think gifting stuff like jewelry and flowers is flattering for her but she would get irrationally mad totally #(gives him everything he gives back) Do u think i'm your mistress or something(on the verge of punching 10 holes in the wall) #ok i'm done ^__^ #(dead on the ground)

[ladamedemartel]

one thing that I think is interesting about Aurora: given what Elijah did, the horrors that she knows compulsion can be, you would think she would shy away from using compulsion, and yet she uses it very frequently

#;;out of lavender #idk why i'm posting this #but yeah #it's something aurora and i talk about a lot #bc she uses compulsion just because she wants a necklace #or w/e #when she knows how awful being compelled is #but she doesn't care #it adds to the layer that i don't think she's mad at elijah for what he did necessarily #but more so because it was done to her #and she's not used to being used #she's a big hypocrite and i love her

[roostertuftart]

anyway though i'm gonna write an essay on why kyle isn't a nice guy/incel bc I feel like someone's gotta do it and I'm shocked I haven't seen it done already

#haha like i make jokes he is bc it's funny but i've been seeing ppl who genuinely think it and... odfsfsf #LISTEN you can think what you want. go off have fun. BUT LIKE. the show canonically doesn't really present that idea #and i wanna talk about that bc I think even going beyond my love for Kyle as a character #tratt actually have done some impressive writing around character tropes like that that sorta flip the idea on it's head #and write kyle in a way that's way more unique and intriguing as well as tied to other behavior of his that makes way more sense than #'oh he mad he didn't get the girl' or whatever #me talking #in general sp rarely writes its characters that generically. they're usually more complex than that and I appreciate it a lot #bc those tropes are boring and old imo as well as rarely being critical of the behavior itself which is often pretty sexist #and south park manages to criticize it while also completely going against it and someone HAS to discuss it bc if I don't. WHO WILL #probably someone else eventually but listen i'm gonna do it soon >:)))

[llycaons]

im finally feeling awake now so @pharahsgf this is the post I was talking about

foolish. reductive. immature. disrespectful. willfully ignorant. WRONG

#I have had this person blocked ever since they said they were into xi//cheng #but I wish I could block them again just for this. it's so stupid and indicitive of all the most annoying misconceptions #first of all pretending that jc and wwx are still at the same emotional and social and moral level postres #when jc not changing/remaining static is one of THE most important part of his charact #and wwx changing and developing and growing up is so significant esp postres when he's wiser and quieter and more mature #even in the flashback arcs he doesn't dwell on his torture of the wens he doesn't 'love it' he doesn't brag about it #he doesn't ever WANT to do it again he clearly just wants to put it behind him #he's done bad things in the past and he wants ppl like xy to pay but that doesn't mean he endorses torture #AND it brings in the fiction that wwx is or needs to be protective of jc when postres he's the one who needs protection FROM jc #like yeah im sure after the verbal assaults and the triggering of his phobia and the physical attacks #he's just rushing to throw himself in front of jc to protect him from dcs #it just plays into jc stans' misconceptions that wwx is happy to sacrifice everything for jc and always will and therefore SHOULD #because ohh everything is about jc and everyone loves him. literally not true to any version of canon #I don't even think the torture dungeon has enough evidence to really consider in the novel and its not even mentioned in the show #but his unilateral violence towards people he suspects of being DCs is visible in literally the second episode #and idk why wwx would just start to 'love' that violence and aggression when it was once pointed at him #especially when he has the option to instead spend time with people who have never tortured anyone suspected of doing some vague bad thing #okay I'm done! I'm done. this got me soo mad though what a stupid fucking post #cql txp

[tamayokny]

i keep getting dragged into the snow white discourse and it's starting to irritate me. like idc if rachel zegler was scared/didn't like the 1937 adaptation as a child, but she needs to do her homework because the prince was not a stalker--and that's the tip of iceberg. but on the other hand, i don't particularly care that the prince isn't going to be in the remake either, and i get that snow white can "choose both" (i.e., being a leader and being in love), but i feel like everyone forgets other details of disney's snow white.

like, of course, snow white has a wicked stepmother who wants her dead because of the queen's jealousy and vanity against her stepdaughter. and while the huntsman advised her to run away, snow white ultimately made the choice to run into the forest. but then snow white realizes she needs to support herself, and she eventually finds friends and creates her own little community of support (i.e., the forest animals and the seven dwarfs)! and sure, i get where some people have issues with snow white cleaning and cooking for the dwarfs and see it as a gendered role, but cooking and cleaning are important skills for fostering independence. so, after saying all of this, i think a lot of people miss the themes of community, support, and independence. all of these themes, along with themes of vanity and jealousy, are still applicable today.

also lol i'm sorry but the prince discourse, again, is so funny to me. like he's only in the 1937 movie for about five minutes but he does have an established relationship and reciprocated feelings with snow white. and when he appears at the end of the movie, the prince wasn't expecting to wake snow white up with "love's first kiss"--he was there to say goodbye to her. he didn't know that "love's first kiss" was going to awaken snow white--only the audience did, which is dramatic irony, a common literary device. anyway the prince is fine but if andrew burnap's character takes over that role and provides something fresh, i'm willing to watch that.

TLDR: snow white discourse is wild. i think people forget or feign ignorance about the details in disney's original snow white film. and while it's totally fine to want to offer a new twist on the tale, don't completely disrespect the original work or completely dismiss ideas on why the original work is so popular in the first place.

#mads makes a text post #like i've been seeing the discourse for a week i'm tired #i do think RZ needs to learn how to do press interviews better #and to actually do her homework because you kind of need to know things to create a good result #she's sabotaging herself #but also WOW everyone is crazy over the prince details too #when our main character is snow white #having a degree in english is a curse #*in this last paragraph orginal work refers to the 1937 adaptation #also if you're going to ask about the other snow white works that came out in the recent years don't #that's another ballpark and i'm solely referring to disney's adaptation of the fairy tale #and btw critiques are totally fine NOTHING is perfect but you have to be...for the lack of a better term...eloquent #like learn how to defend your critiques without being totally dismissive #k i'm done lol

[keelanrosa]

terfs when a study shows literally anything positive about trans people/transitioning: 'hm i think this requires some fact-checking. Were those researchers REALLY unbiased? Because if they were biased this doesn't count and if they weren't knowingly biased they probably were unconsciously biased, woke media affects so much these days. Have there been any other studies on this? Because if there haven't been this could be an outlier and if there have been and they all agree that's a bit odd, why aren't there any outliers, and if there have been and any disagree we really won't know the truth until we very thoroughly analyze them all, will we? Were there enough subjects for a good sample size? Did every single subject involved stay involved through the whole study because if they didn't we should be sure nothing shady was going on resulting in people dropping out. Are we 110% sure all the subjects were fully honest and at no point were embarrassed or afraid to admit they didn't love transitioning to the people in charge of their transition? Are we 110% sure none of the subjects were manipulated into thinking they were happy with their transition? In fact we should double-check what they think with their parents, because if the subjects and their parents disagree it's probably because they've been manipulated but their cis parents have not and are very unbiased. How many autistic subjects were there because if there weren't enough then this doesn't really study the overlap between autistic and trans and if there were too many then we just don't know enough about what causes that overlap to be sure this study really explains being trans and isn't just about being autistic. How many AFAB subjects were there because if there weren't enough this is just another example of prioritizing AMAB people and ignoring the different struggles of girls and women and if there were too many how do we know sexism didn't affect the results. Was the study double-blinded? We all know double-blinded is the most reliable so if this one wasn't that's a point against it even if the thesis literally physically could not be double-blinded. Look i'm not being transphobic, i want what's best for trans people! Really! But as a person who is not trans and therefore objective in a way they cannot possibly be, i just think we should only take into account Good Science here. You want to be following science and not being manipulated or experimented upon by something unscientific, right?'

terfs when they see a study of 45 subjects so old it predates modern criteria for gender dysphoria and basically uses 'idk her parents think she's too butch', run by a guy who practiced conversion therapy, 'confirmed' by a guy who treated the significant portion of subjects who didn't follow up as all desisting, definitely in the category of 'physically cannot double-blind this', completely contradicted by multiple other studies done on actual transgender subjects, but can be kinda cited as evidence against transitioning if you ignore everything else about it: 'oOOH SEE THIS IS WHAT WE'RE TALKIN BOUT. SCIENCE. Just good ol' unbiased thorough analysis. I see absolutely no reason to dig any deeper on this and if you think it's wrong you're the one being unscientific. It's really a shame you've been so thoroughly brainwashed by the trans agenda and can't even accept science when you see it. Maybe now that someone has finally uncovered this long-lost study from 1985, we can make some actual progress on the whole trans problem.'

#science #transphobia #cass review #less 'cass review' generally more 'zucker specifically' because this same problem exists outside cass #have lost count of the number of times i've seen 'well THAT study may have said most trans kids persist but it MUST be wrong' #'there's another study says the exact opposite. that one's right. obviously.' #but cass is why i'm annoyed by it now #normally i don't have a problem with critical observations and questions. yeah check your science! that's good! #there have been some bullshit studies and some bullshit interpretations of good studies! scientific literacy is important! #and normally also am willing to pretend the people pulling reaction 1 on some studies and reaction 2 on others are. not the same group. #but now there's a ton of cass supporters tryna say 'oh the cass review didn't reject or downplay anything for being pro-trans!' #'some studies just weren't given much weight for being poor evidence! not our fault those were all studies with results trans people like!' #…….………….aight explain why zucker's findings are used for the 'percentage of trans kids who don't stay trans' stat instead of anyone else's. #would've been more scientifically accurate to say 'yeah we just don't know.' #'studies have been done but none of them fit our crack criteria sooooo *shrug*' #like COME ON at least PRETEND you're genuinely checking scientific correctness and not looking for excuses to weed out undesirable results #am also mad about zucker in particular because his is possibly the most famous bullshit study #quite bluntly if you're doing trans research and think 'yeah this one seems reasonable' you. are maybe not well-informed enough for the job #there's just no way you genuinely look at the research with an eye toward accurate science regardless of personal bias #and walk away thinking 'hm that zucker fellow seems reasonable. competent scientists will respect that citation.' #that's one or two steps above doing a review of vaccine science and seriously citing wakefield's mmr-causes-autism study #it doesn't matter what the rest of your review says people are gonna have OPINIONS on that bit #and outside anti-vaxxers most of those opinions will be 'are you actually the most qualified for this because ummmm.' #people who agree with everything else will still think someone more competent could've done a much better job #people who disagree with everything else will point to that as proof you don't know shit and why should we listen to you #anyway i'd love a hugeass trans science review with actual fucking standards hmu if you know of one cause this ain't it #……does tumblr still put a limit on how many tags you can include guess me and my tag essay are about to find out.