#I’m too stressed I can’t live like this

[kibaes]

I can’t get over how perfect “Happy Nation” was in X-men 97’.

From a musical perspective they just managed to make it fit every situation. At first in the party it just fits the vibe of Rogue and Magneto’s dance, and it’s sort of slurty which adds to the drama of the love triangle. Then when Madelyne gets a nosebleed suddenly you notice the music more and realize it’s pretty eerie actually, and then when Cable shows up and says to stop the music you just know something is up and that the song was misleading. Then Madelyn and Cable’s whole exchange manages to be touching, exciting and stressful all at the same time, partly thanks to the song keeping us on our toes. Amazing.

And then there’s the lyrics that just fit so well, to me it’s as if Rogue is singing. “Living in a happy nation” is obviously about Genosha, finally there’s a legit recognized country for mutants. At the same time the lyrics represent her inner conflict between Magneto and Gambit - “and dream of perfect man”. She’s trying to convince herself she’s making the right choice with Magneto “no man’s fit to rule the world alone” - Magneto needs his queen, so “come through I’ll dance with you”, when she descends to dance with him, and she’s doing all this for Genosha, it’s the right thing to do - “for people, for good, for mankind, for brotherhood”. And then there are freaking hints to what’s about to happen! “Traveling in time” is Cable duh like how perfect what?! “Tell them we’ve gone too far” is the message Cable is trying to relay! “A man will die but not his ideas” HELLO???!!

I’m still in awe like holy shit how did they find a song so fucking perfect?!

#x men 97 #x men #rogue #gambit #magneto

[persephoneflowerpetals]

Sorry for not being very active on here

Just wanted to give an update because a lot has been going on with me and I haven’t even had the time or energy to think about writing or being on this blog because of everything lol.

So, I recently got into a car wreck on the 14th on my way to work. Some guy was trying to make a left turn into the neighborhood I live in on the highway and his engine stalled and (even though he saw me coming and knew that his 20+ year old car had engine problems) he pulled out in front of me to cross but because his engine stalled he didn’t make it and I crashed into him. I’m okay btw!!! Luckily and thankfully I only made it out with a bruised leg, but my car is in bad shape and is most likely totaled because the engine went out after the crash and I couldn’t move my car out of the road nor could I even get out of my car from the driver’s side, I had to escape from the passenger side.

So…yeah, there’s that and I’ve been dealing with a lot of mental health issues because my work has been overworking me and pushing me to my limit and I’m honestly getting really tired of giving my all and breaking my back for this store and getting nothing out of it, like not even a raise (when I asked for one they said it was “being processed by corporate” and apparently this raise has been in the works for me since December so…I don’t think I’ll be getting a raise any time soon tbh and even if I did get a raise it probably wouldn’t be enough to keep me there). Like, just last Wednesday I had a stressed induced illness because I was so burnt out from work and worried about stuff that it made me physically ill so (for the first time ever in 1 year of working at that store) I called out sick (and then that same week I got into the wreck so that was great).

I’m currently working on finding a new job because what I’m dealing with now is getting ridiculous and I honestly really want to be on here and talk to you guys and make posts like I used to, but I feel like I can’t anymore because of life and that sucks. Legit, my boss is making me work 35 hours this week (AFTER MY CAR WRECK 😑) even though she knows what I’m dealing with right now and knows how overworked I am. She had the nerve to say “I don’t want to overwork you” as she adjusted my schedule for the 3rd time because someone who is CONSTANTLY calling out in the store (and they refuse to fire her for some reason AND there’s another employee that’s going to be out all month) can’t come to work for the rest of this week so I have to cover for her. Oh yeah…and you know what else??? I have to train a new employee on top of all of that. I’m not a manager. I’m not even full time. I don’t get vacation time or sick days or paid holidays (even though we literally only get 2 holidays off and that’s Christmas Day and Thanksgiving Day, so not that it even matters anyways) or any kind of benefits. And I don’t get paid extra for training new hires. It’s ridiculous. My boss even asked if I felt comfortable training a new employee after what I’ve gone through with the wreck and how stressed I am (which I respect) and I told her no because I really am dealing with a lot and don’t need the stress of training someone on top of that, yet here I am so…I’m just tired of being a doormat for this company and letting them treat me like a workhorse. It was fine at first because I needed the money (and I still do), but the lack of sympathy after the wreck and being so overworked and stressed that I became physically ill is concerning and I think it’s a sign that I need to move on and find something else.

So yeah, sorry for the rant there but I just wanted to share what I’m dealing with and what I’m going through. Like, I still have stuff at home I have to deal with too and financial issues (and getting in a car wreck certainly doesn’t help that at all), so yeah. I have an interview tomorrow for a job that would really be beneficial to me and would be a perfect fit for me and I’m really hoping and praying I get the job because it’s would just help me so much and it’s such a good job!

Anyways, I know I share updates a lot, but I realized I haven’t really been active on here and I just wanted to share why and kinda release some tension because I’m really going through it lol.

#update #kind of a rant #sorry I’m not one to rant about personal stuff on here but…I got a lot going on lol #it’s not super personal but it’s stressful to me

[puppyeared]

its so hard to watch time pass when things like careers and assignments exist. what do you mean im supposed to take that seriously

#I have an assignment that was due a week ago and I really really dont want to do it. I have to but i dont want to #im probably making it worse because my brain has built a wall around it so now i can’t do literally anything else until thats done. but #because I don’t want to do it I’m just kinda stuck. turns out this is what they meant when they said emotional regulation is part of #exec dysfunction.. I’ll have a thought like if I get a little bit of it done now i can get it over with. I can just submit something #and then not even 5 minutes later itll be like ugh but I have to draw all the assets out. I have to write things and make spreads ugh #and its just flopping between those two things. i hate it when ppl are like well how much time do you need to work on one thing #because BOY id love to know too. I’d love to know exactly when my brain wants to cooperate with me and work around that but I cant #even my period can’t decide when it wants to punch me in the stomach. which is kinda funny in the grand scheme of things but still #its so weird im just lying on my bed thinking abt all this like damn.. the time will pass anyways no matter what I decide to do.. damn…. #if I submit that assignment now and take the L I literally won’t die. it’ll just be a deduction on an assignment nobody will ask me about #I know this but I’m still stressing myself about it so my thoughts aren’t really connecting to my body. weird #maybe its because Im having a hard time looking forward to things. theres definitely a lot I should be living for but I don’t really feel #a strong attachment to it I guess? it’s been like this for a while with holidays and meeting with friends so I just don’t #I kinda figured its because im pretty passionless and its more like passing interest. but it’s not very fun when it feels like I’m going to #be living distraction to distraction for the next 70 years or so lol #idk it kind of feels like slowly bleeding out. which is funny because I actually did experience blood loss this week #had a 30 minute nosebleed and literally could not stand. also it felt like someone was pinching the back of my brain which was interesting #yapping #does this count as vent #vent #Ive just been making an oc carrd and contemplate changing my blog header for the past 3 days honestly

[fortes-fortuna-iogurtum]

hey friends is it normal to just feel. numb. because I think that maybe it is not. but what would I know anyway.

#really tho it’s like I can barely feel anything anymore. idk if it’s stress?? depression?? #the enormous weight of adult life suddenly and unexpectedly crashing down on me with the weight of the entire planet?? #I used to feel so *much* all the time and now I feel like I can barely feel anything at all… #and everyone around me is living life so much and I’m just here feeling like I can barely keep up with conversations as they’re happening #I’m tired… I feel like God is a far away idea that I’m struggling to hold onto… I feel like my mind is a bent and jumbled mess #like I grabbed hold of it and tried to crush it into the shape I thought it should be and now all I’ve got is a broken frame #I /know/ who I am and what I believe. I /know/ what my life is. but I don’t feel anything. #the only time I feel anything is sometimes when we’re singing at church I just cry at the sense of glory of something I can’t touch #and sometimes I shake with fear at the thought that I’ve ruined everything that could’ve ever been good about me #I’m oversharing on the internet again but I just don’t know what to do. I’m so tired. I want to see something beautiful and feel #the weight and glory of it again. but I feel like I can’t. all I feel is numbness. #I feel like I could sleep for months but every time I wake up I never feel refreshed. and I’ve been having bad dreams too. #adulthood kinda does suck can I please go back to being 5 #gurt says stuff #personal

[iliveinprocrasti-nationn]

skipping class for the first time in my life bc my professor has covid and he sent out an email saying we’re having class and he’s asymptomatic and will wear a mask per cdc guidelines even tho he’s past the 5 day required isolation period. like. great whatevs but have you actually tested negative

update: the answer was no he had not

#stressed as FUCK #it’s fine we have a textbook and he doesn’t take roll #hoping he doesn’t do an extra credit activity but if i miss it for the sake of my health so be it #i have to go home afterwards anyway bc i have an appointment the next day with my thyroid dr #stressed abt that too bc my mum has dropped all precautions as if she isn’t in her 60s and didn’t lose her husband to covid #and idk what my sibling is doing but i know they’ve stopped masking at their practices and i wouldn’t be surprised if they stopped masking #all together. they also only wear cloth masks but at least it was something #idk i just feel like im the only one not ignoring it. like. when my dad got sick i asked him early on if he could smell and he was like #‘I’m just congested’ and my mum was like ‘no he’s just sick it’s not covid’ and then we waited until it was too late #like. i tell my mum that there’s nothing we could have done bc i don’t want her to feel guilty but like #idk. part of me thinks that if people had just listened to me and gotten him tested earlier and not lived in denial that maybe he’d still be #here. and my mum is pretty healthy but again she’s in her 60s. i don’t want to lose another parent to covid. or if she gets it and has it #bad or ends up with long covid then im gonna have to come home to take care of her or. idek. like i don’t live at home anymore so i can’t #pick up the slack if something happens to her. and my sibling definitely can’t #it’s so stressful. did we not watch the same process of my dad rapidly deteriorating. by the time we took him to the hospital he looked like #a corpse. he was completely grey and his eyes were glazed and he couldn’t even sit up or wave goodbye. has she just forgotten that happened #am i the only one who remembers watching my dad deteriorate in front of us #vent tw #covid tw

[salsflore]

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#i still struggle to accept what happened‚ and that life has changed. sometimes i wonder if i’m being punished by some great force #for whatever reason. seeing my classmates live their lives so carefree because they can afford to. meanwhile i cannot! #it’s hard. terribly lonely‚ too. i miss my cat and my friends a lot. #there’s a lot of pain in me that i can’t express with anything other than tears. i wish things were back to how they were before. #i really want to move on from everything that happened but it is so hard when its literally the one cause #of all the problems & issues that are causing me anxiety right now. #i am in so much pain‚ and feeling very much alone. please please please may everything work out for the better. #i do not like feeling so stressed and worried all the time. i had a plan but now i don’t know what’ll happen in the future. #it’s freaking me out a lot. #i am just so worried things will turn out poorly. that i will not be okay. please #this is actually exhausting. i thought i was getting better but then that stuff happened and now i am crying more often lol

[robotic-maid]

How things are going again… update I guess? Still can’t figure out how to read more on mobile. I’m just typing this out so it can leave my head.

#nights are really hard for me #mornings are also really hard for me #I think my jobs burning me out #and I haven’t been able to sleep very well much at all #I’ve only been getting 3-5 hours if I’m lucky because my nightmares are really bad so I usually just stay awake #I mean I have to get up at 4am anyway so what’s the point #do you know how it feels to be in pain but you can’t cry because your body’s grown so used to it? #so it feels like crying because it’s Wednesday again #which I can’t justify because tommorrow is Thursday and that is your new normal #your new normal is working so hard you don’t have the time to see your dog and your cars ac is out and you spend all your money on the room #you sleep in 15 minutes away from the office you are stuck at more than 11hoirs a day #you ask your job to adjust your schedule and they say they can’t without cutting your hours and you need the money to survive #it’s too much #but feeling this way or not feeling this way won’t make a difference because the only other options will make your living situation harder #I’m so tired but I don’t have any better options right now so I have to keep waking up and working #I feel horrible spending time with me friends because I get tired after an hour and I worry that I’ve become #too flaky or something #I can’t stay up late and I’m already stressed out so I just can’t keep up with everyone and I don’t want to be a drain #I wish my heart would just stop some times #my meds stop me from hurting myself or crying or sleeping too long but these feelings always come to me when I wake up #I’m disappointed I woke up again #I don’t want to keep doing this I don’t know how long I can keep going #my body is breaking down like my car is breaking down #I don’t want to keep doing this I need more than a day off work a week I want to see my dog I don’t want to be poor but I don’t want to #wake up just to spend all day in an office getting yelled at while my coworkers come in and leave before me #I know I can do this I know I need to keep doing this I know there’s nothing better for me than this #I shouldn’t say these horrible things out loud because they’ll just wear me down faster #there’s nothing that will help me I need to help myself #this is en endurance test and I need to keep it up because if I fail I will lose so much more than I have #I wish I could cry I wish I could break down and scream but what would be the point? it won’t help it won’t fix anything m

[seventh-district]

i’m not like other girls, my “Rest” stats are a heart rate of 110bpm and a HRV of 14 fucking milliseconds. :)

#Seven’s Public Diary #vent #vent post #cw vent #cw vent post #cw health #cw heart #i’m so stressed :) i am soooo fucking stressed and my body is Suffering because of it #i want to just lay here and stare at the ceiling but. maybe a little venting will help #sighhhh wish [N]MbD Sun were here to obsessively fret over me #he can be mean about it idc. at least i’d have someone acknowledging how bad things are for me #sometimes i wonder when the last time was that my body Wasn’t in fight or flight to some degree #have i Ever actually relaxed #hhhhhhh c-ptsd is a bitch #anyways there’s so much to vent about but i’m. doing my best to be vague. i need to be more vague about things #a lot of stuff i can’t vent about anyways. it’s too personal #so instead i’m gonna complain abt how i haven’t been able to play Genshin or Star Rail for nearly a month now #and about how slowly my back is recovering. it’s like every time i re-injure/have a flare up. it heals.. worse. slower and lesser #i dunno how it’s ever gonna get better. truly better. maybe i’ll live with this forever #if being fat is the problem which is definitely partly is. then yeah i’m fucked #all of my problems just make each other worse and i don’t know where the way out of it all is #every time i think i’ve found it i’m wrong and i just make it all worse #anyways as soon as i figure out how to strengthen my core without breaking my back. it’s over for u bitches #‘u bitches’ being uh. all of the shit that needs doing that i cannot physically fucking do right now #i miss being able to sit down. and i’m Regretting de-converting my standing desk back to sitting bc now. i cannot use my PC #which means i can’t fucking do a some of my work or play my silly little gacha games and i’m mad abt it #i’m mad abt a lot more serious things too but again. can’t talk abt it so i’m gonna focus on trivial shit instead #anyways. sorry as always to everyone i haven’t spoken with lately. and in general. i’m so drained from the Everything that i just. can’t. #it shouldn’t be this hard for me to stay in touch w ppl but. it is. guess i’ll add that onto my list of things to be stressed about #i’m so tired of everything man. and i hate being so negative and mean when im stressed & in pain. makes me feel like im becoming my father

[danielnelsen]

there’s so much i wanna do this week/month/etc but i’m just too sick, i have no energy, i can’t sleep, i’m constantly nauseous and headachey and on the verge of a migraine, i’m stressed and irritable and impatient and panicky…….how tf did i survive nearly 5 years of high school untreated if i can’t even manage this when i don’t have any major obligations rn

#at least i finally got my meds so hopefully i feel a little better soon #although i’m now on 20 pills per day which is Just Great #whenever i’m in remission it’s nice to just. forget sometimes that this can happen at any time #kinda wish i had the typical kinda chronic illness that people talk about with ‘flares’ #or at least triggers that i can plan around #the other times have all had an easily identifiable stressor tho tbf. idk what caused this one #the first time was whooping cough and the next few were all very major life stressors like my cat dying right after i started uni #and i think also towards the end of my honours thesis? #but this…….there’s no major stress right now. nothing wildly beyond normal #i’m a little concerned about my joints tho. they’ve been so much worse than normal the last few months #so i’m kinda worried i’m developing rheumatoid arthritis (also an autoimmune disease and it runs in the family specifically) #so if that’s happening then it could set my thyroid off? probably should get to the doctor at some point #obv i’m seeing my endo for thyroid stuff. but i should see my gp and get her to run all the autoimmune blood tests again #i’ve done that before but it’s been a few years and my ankles and knees are so painful i can’t even walk properly a lot of the time #BUT I JUST WANNA DO THINGS I ENJOY AND I CANT AND I WILL CONTINUE TO COMPLAIN ABOUT IT #‘oh you’re so lucky you don’t have as many obligations because you’re chronically ill’ ha ha ha please swap lives with me immediately #personal #but seriously. i wasn’t diagnosed until i was nearly 17 and we can trace it back to whooping cough when i was 12 #so it was the last half of year 6 and then all of years 7-10 and the start of year 11 of just being. uh. ‘very lazy and complaining a lot’ #and TEACHERS joking about me and my sister (who was dealing with an arguably more severe undiagnosed disease) missing so many classes #wow so funny pdhpe teacher who’s supposed to be teaching is about health #and the thing with being a mentally ill teenager is that hyperthyroidism can just look like a very severe anxiety disorder #so i didn’t go to the dr until i was too sick to go to school at all. and luckily had a good dr who did a blood test #i’m just rambling now because i can’t sleep and i don’t wanna lie here doing nothing #might go play pvz or something. that’s been keeping me entertained

[jemmo]

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#can i just rant for a second pls #about life #I hate to be the kind of person to do this I don’t want ppl to worry or just be nice to me I’m not doing this to get anything in return on #I’m just doing this bc I need to get it out somehow and feel like its at least been said #bc I have no one I can say it to #I just really don’t know how to hold myself together at the moment #I don’t know how to have the strength to push to do all these things I need to do and want to do while still holding together every other #single fucking person in my life and being the person that gets all their stress loaded onto while not knowing how to fix any of it #I wanna be that person I wanna be someone you can go to but when it’s everyone all at once and it’s all these people around me that can’t #seem to communicate and make bad situations worse and I get they don’t have the strength to keep themselves together and face things with at #least a bit of a better mindset but god I can’t do that for everyone #it feels like everyone is falling apart and I’m the person in everyone’s life that’s trying to hold them together #and I really care about these people but I can’t seem to find the space for it all #not when on top of everyone having things that are shifting their life for me then to have my own life shifting too #all I wanted was peace just some rest before it all started happening I just wanted the summer to be easy and it’s not #I wanted this summer to be normal to be that last summer of family and it feels like I can’t have that anymore and I hate it #I hate that I feel alone #and I hate feeling like I can’t fall apart or put myself first bc I’m always gonna need to and want to be there for everyone else #I hate that I can’t cope #I hate that I can’t seem to live #that I can never muster up the energy or strength to do the things I want bc it feels like every force in my life is just pushing me back #down and I hate saying this bc it’s so selfish and mean but I hate being here sometimes #I’m so afraid and nervous to leave but at the same time I think about being out of here and only having to hold myself up for once #and to not be surrounded by this atmosphere that feels impossible to be in #I just need things to stop but they won’t and I literally feel like I’m out in the middle of the ocean with absolutely no idea of what to do #to save myself and I feel like I need to actually do something about it instead of just moving on and forgetting about it bc what if I just #drown what the fuck then #and yet I feel the overwhelming need to say at the end don’t worry it ain’t that deep tho I’m sure I’ll be fine just gonna keep going #lol just gotta get back on being that person with their shit together right fake it till you make it and all that #anyway bye sorry for just dropping this idk when I’ll be back on tumblr thank you to everyone that sent nice messages before they meant alot

[thesokovianaccords]

You guys all know I’m a hater first and foremost and nothing gets me going more than my own people lolol what the FUCK is this comment

#livia speaks #american tag #tell me you’ve never spoken to a non-American person w/o telling me #(and yes I’m aware of my own privilege here as someone who’s traveled and lived abroad…but digital spaces exist too!!) #I’m just cackling at this like…babe the Brits roast us relentlessly but so does everyone?? #and you have to be able to laugh at it bc we’re ridiculous! #Americans that can’t laugh at themselves are the worst kind of Americans #like I don’t know them or claim them #imagine moving to a whole ass other country and THIS is the thing you’re stressed about that people will make fun of you for being American #what kind of 18yo ass question 🤦🏼‍♀️

[lynx-tales]

I’m never going to be able to move out of my parents’ house lmfao

#lynx tales #I literally applied for ‘low income housing’ #and they told me that I don’t make enough money to afford an apartment #a 1 bedroom tiny ass motterfucker #is $1300 a month #I’m doomed #nothing is gonna change #and nothing will get better #I will be living here until I die or my parents do #the first is more likely honestly #I just want my own space! #I want to control things in my space! #I’ve been living in the same 8 rooms my whole goddamn life! #I hate my bedroom and I’ve tried so many ways to fix it #and nothing works #I’m so stressed out by everything all the time #I can’t invite people over #I can’t eat or shower whenever I want #I can’t exist in this house and not feel like I’m taking up too much space #how do I live #how do I survive #how can this possibly be okay

[wewontbesleeping]

I’m sooo nervous about finding a bridesmaids dress for my sisters wedding in October

#it’s an OUTDOOR WEDDING #IN MINNESOTA #it’s going to be absolutely freezing #it might be warmish during the day but by the time the sun sets it will probably be under 45 degrees #unless it’s a spectacularly unseasonably hot day. which is a big possibility too!! #and everything is like #hey here’s a strapless dress in brown! for Fall! #like I can’t wear shit like that inside in the SUMMER #so idk how I’m going to wear that OUTSIDE during the winter #at a certain point I’m probably just going to have to be like. #ok I’m wearing this velvet dress for pictures and then immediately putting on a parka #honestly her whole wedding is stressful lmfao #everything is like. life or death #I’m mostly staying out of it though #but like girl how are you going to respond with ‘if people don’t like it we don’t want them there anyways’ to everything 😭 #like I told her that she needs to tell people that they are only invited to the reception bc she’s having a private ceremony #and she needs to communicate to people where everything is happening #and it’s just like WELL! they can figure it out! And if they don’t! I don’t care I don’t want them there! #like people aren’t taking time and money out of their lives to go to your wedding ….. #and she hasn’t sent invites out yet? #which I had to tell her she needs to do LMAO #she was going to send out save the dates and NO INVITES #and was expecting people to just google and find her wedding website for all info #I had to be like. you NEED to send people invites if you send them a save the date. or they will not come. because you didn’t invite them. #and at first she was just like if they can’t figure it out we don’t want them there anyways !! #lollll okay venting over! #weddings are just so stressful #and expensive

[willowfey]

for the last few nights i’ve had dreams about sinking into a marsh, a shooter, someone dying gruesomely in front of me, my mouth being glued shut, and being trapped in a burning building. i am literally afraid to go to sleep tonight 🫶🏻

#there’s too much in my head too much stress too many things changing #my pup can feel it too he’s been anxious all day just whining and wanting to be held like a baby #i know he feeds off me so i try to relax myself for his sake too but i’m just 😵‍💫 #i need to meditate fr before bed tonight like more than just 2 minutes worth #and also i meant to make a new dreamcatcher since i got the feathers i asked for so i need to get on that too bc i can’t live like thissss #i know this isn’t my kpop blog so ppl probably won’t understand but. i was less anxious when i had channie’s room 😔 #need to start rewatching old ones before bed bc he is the only guaranteed way to relax me #and i feel like i’m being genuinely traumatised by the dreams i’m having they feel so real

[broflovski-brah]

i love how i’m barely a month and a half into school and i’m already burnt out

(self harm tw in the tags)

#seriously i have so much shit going on #i have an essay and a debate coming up about opposing view points #i have to finish a geometry test that i know i did bad on because i’m shit at math #i have to prepare for a deal of biliteracy test and i have a state checkpoint exam coming up for spanish #ap world history is absolute dog water #the only thing in history i was good at was belief systems and religions #i have a test in this class tomorrow too #and i already have a bad grade by my standards in that class #and i know im falling behind but i just can’t seem to catch back up #and chemistry this year is so visually taxing that i literally feel sick whenever im in that class #and i know my parents are gonna kill me if i get bad grades because i ‘don’t study enough’ #and the thought of being yelled at again over grades makes me literally feel like im gonna have a panic attack like #this happens every year. i fumble and then i get in trouble because apparently i didn’t study enough #and i hate school because i always end up relapsing like once a month #and im currently 3 or 4 months clean and im nervous it’s gonna happen again because i don’t know how to handle stress #tw self harm #and then there’s my brother who’s in the top five of his class and i can barely scrape by in geometry because i’m a fucking moron #and i literally can’t live up to his level #it’s been like this forever though #i legitimately feel sick #i could hardly get out of bed this morning #and if i don’t get into national honors society my parents are never going to let me live it down #school literally makes me miserable #the only thing i look forward to is art class and even that is losing my interest #im not good enough #im never going to be good enough for anyone #skipper speaks #vent #not south park

[sadgirlautumn]

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#I hate that Im stressed about a tour that I literally can’t afford to go to #like ugh I just know the set list is going to be so good AND I COULD SEE PHOEBE LIVE TOO?! like I’m losing it I must find a way to go!!!