#I’m so so tired and I’m stuck

[little-pondhead]

The Curse Of Hope

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Danny is in another universe. He had a reason, but he doesn’t remember anymore. He can only stare, horrified and disgusted, at the sickest city spirit he’s ever seen. Shivering and swaying with every step, core exposed, and ectoplasm leaking from wounds that are decades old. A ratty blanket was thrown over their shoulders, barely hiding the spirit’s pale grey skin and protruding black bones.

The spirit didn’t even sense him until he reached out to touch its wispy shoulders. The spirit flinched, clutching at the dozens of trinkets hanging from their neck and tucking in on themselves like they were expecting a blow.

“Oh, shit,” He swore, floating back a few feet, hands in the air, to show he meant no harm. “I’m sorry. I promise, I’m not here to steal from you.” The spirit shivered again and rolled a pearl necklace in between their fingers. A nervous habit. “Uh, I like that pocket watch? It’s very nice.”

That got their attention. They peeked at Danny, and he saw that more tattered cloth was covering their eyes, blending in with the stringy hair that reached the ground. Their blanket fluttered weakly, revealing hundreds of thousands of tiny marks etched into their skin. Scars, really. Scars that wrote out curse after curse onto the spirit’s very being. They burned with evil intent, and even reached inside the spirit’s body and wrapped around their core.

Occasionally, blinding specks of color raced across their body, temporarily erasing the writing, but it always returned quickly. He watched, a little detached, as one particular line rewrote itself across their rough forearm, drawing fresh ectoplasm like someone was writing it with a thin knife.

“Are you…alright?” Danny stuttered. A stupid question.

The spirit cocked its head. He couldn’t see their eyes, but he felt their burning gaze as they pondered the question.

“The pain of others becomes mine own.” They rasped. “The lights of the city dim as rotten wealth clogs mine veins. Magicks long forgotten have eaten mine skins, pulled mine cloak, and darkened mine skies. Helios has refused to grace mine doorstep, and the seasons of the Earth have revoked their kindness.”

Danny held his breath. It felt like he was the one with the exposed core, not the spirit.

The spirit shivered once more. “Tell mine soul, little lamb. How could this Forsaken City know peace, when it was long since ripped from mine hands?”

Shit, he needed Frostbite. And maybe Clockwork. Now.

-Or-

Danny meets the spirit of Gotham City. The villains and rogues that have plagued the city for decades are literal curses that are taking quite the toll on Gotham, and honestly, Danny isn’t sure how much longer they can hold out. The heroes seem to be doing some help, and are probably the reason Gotham made it this far, but the poor city needs help from the Realms if they want to get better.

Luckily, Danny can provide that help.

But only if he could get Gotham to leave their city behind. Because recovery is going to take a very long time.

#dpxdc #pondhead blurbs #Gotham is very lanky and tall and had dozens of necklaces around their neck #the necklaces are just cords filled with lost things the citizens have lost over the years #like bits of glass or wedding rings or hag stones made from a destroyed gargoyle #actually I have a weird picture of Gotham in my head I might draw it #it’s giving Bloodborne to me but idgaf #basically Danny meets Gotham and is trying to convince them to go with him for medical help because what the fuck #those curses are the equivalent of leaving hundreds of leeches stuck to your body for ten years #Danny is BEGGING Gotham to come with him #there’s potential for angst but if you want crack then Danny probably replaces Gotham #I think there’s already a similar fic where he becomes the new spirit of Gotham but I haven’t read all of that #anyways the Batfam are like #invasive animals that are actually helping the ecosystem recover from an even WORSE invasive species #but they aren’t supernatural heroes and they don’t understand that the issue is deeper #I’m calling this the Curse of Hope because Danny is offering hope to Gotham #but Gotham is just so tired and sick and hurt that they don’t want to risk it #they think Danny is another curse come to plague them #should he just straight up adopt the city at this point? #idk it probably depends on how it’s written #sad course is to let Gotham die. happy ending is where they are treated and returned #crack ending probably has Danny adopting the city and introducing them to his own city spirit Amity Park #oh shit is that a new ship #guys please I can’t keep doing this #Gotham City x Amity Park #how the fuck do you come up with a name for that #Burger Joints? #Wet Pavement? #bro idk I’m putting this down before I make something I might regret #low key wanna write this but like. I have so much to do

[nite-puff]

whagthehell???

(spur of the moment late night doodle)

#i’m so tired. okay time to go mimi #danganronpa #danganronpa trigger happy havoc #kiyotaka ishimaru #kiyondo ishida #doodlepuff #listen. i’ve been stuck in a terrible art block. the fact that i was able to get ANYTHING drawn is an accomplishment #i do gotta admit he’s a little funky lookin tho

[the-mossy-rock]

GUYS I JUST GOT BACK HOME FROM NEWSIES REHEARSAL AND IM STUCK IN THE VOICE WHAT DO I DO 😭

#actually though like it’s stuck like this #oh also the guy playing crutchie got sick??? #so I just started saying the lines #it was fun to watch the confusion before everyone realized #theyre like “oh dis kid is doin da lines #anyways I’m so tired #newsies #i literally love newsies with my whole being #newsies live #racetrack higgins #elmer newsies #newsies london #livesies #crutchie morris

[themoodydoodles]

I can’t believe this shit took me 3 fucking days

anyway I have a ton of headcanons that I shall discuss in the tags

also I took loose inspiration off of @sneakyboythingz ‘s human design of Jax, it is a good design

#The quality on these are shitty #Aw well #If Michael Kovach doesn’t sing as Jax it will be absolutely tragic #Same goes for the crazy fucking laugh #I really wanted to draw human versions of the cast so I tried some concepts #I will at some point draw better versions #For the time being I think it would be funny if Ragatha and Jax’s heights changed from her being slightly taller but now I’m not so sure #Anyway Ragatha likes to sew/knit #ragatha #tadc ragatha #the amazing digital circus #the amazing digital circus jax #tadc jax #Also I am sick #i wish I was in school #i know that’s a weird thing to say considering I lack a social life with most people my age #but it beats being stuck at home #okay I’m tired as fuck now #g’night

[emily-mooon]

*appears from the corner with a magic wand (aka my Apple Pencil)*

Moomins your Nordegrim

#Neil’s a snork and Stacey like Scott is a Mymble #they are the reason why I turned sexbob-omb into moomins and mymbles btw #it started off with me thinking about drawing nordegrim and then it turned into the rest of the characters #the joke of moomining the Scott pilgrim characters as the description will get old for sure but i never know what to make the description #so apologies in advance when y’all get tired of it #also if y’all know moomin feel free to suggest what Moomin creature I should make the characters I haven’t done yet #cause I only know a few and I’m stuck on some characters #scott pilgrim #scott pilgrim comic #scott pilgrim takes off #young neil #neil nordegraf #stacey pilgrim #nordegrim #my pookies <3 #moomin au

[chrollohearttags]

everything that could go wrong today has and I’m just ready to call it quits for this year while I’m ahead. Not even going to try anymore.

#rant in tags ignore if you don’t want to see my bitching #literally two things broke in the bathroom while I was using it and ik I’m gonna have to hear my dad’s fucking mouth abt it #I literally never cause trouble break or ask for anything #always walking on eggshells bc I never wanna make trouble for him or anybody else #but the first to volunteer my help but getting yelled at over a stupid discrepancy for an Amazon order #I explained that my bank sucks so much so I’ve only stuck to using CashApp bc it steals money #but he basically accuses me of stealing his money to help my brother #my selfish ass brother who I do everything for can’t even have the decency not to touch my stuff I brought specifically for me #but you’ll gladly stick ur neck out for a neighborhood drug addict and help them #ur kids can never have room for error #I’m responsible for all of my affairs I don’t ask him for a damn thing I even buy groceries every month and the internet #god forbid one thing goes wrong and he flies off the handle #two seconds from slitting vertically #not even doing this I’m done #I’m tired of living like this tbh #I can’t even drive myself or barely even walk lmao #what is the fucking point #cherry chats 🍒 #I’m sorry I’m just frustrated bc how dare you act like I cause so much trouble

[tuttle-did-it]

Why is there a BSL sign for a random, absurd word like this when there’s not an official way to say ‘non-binary’ or ‘they/them’ or even the word ‘pronoun’?

BSL, get with it. I can’t even identify myself in this language. There isn’t even a gender-neutral way to say ‘sibling’ or ‘parent.’

Frankly, I’m not enjoying learning BSL and I’m a little bitter that I have to because I’m deaf and need to talk to other humans. This language is absurd.

#bsl #British sign language #pronouns #sign language #BSL is stuck in the 19th century and I’m tired of it #frankly I’m annoyed at bsl most of the time #because it’s just so hard to use #deaf people problems #deaf #hoh #hard of hearing

[ugh-yoongi]

in my hater era again but just saw a tiktok talking about kpop and idols with the caption “why would you want to stan mediocrity?”

girlie idk, maybe it’s bc the world is fucking bleak and awful and different things make different people happy? i truly do not care if a group or an idol i like is the best rapper or singer or performer — it’s good enough for me that it brings me joy.

these fanwars or callouts or “we need to hold idols accountable for being mediocre” are so fucking lame and i don’t care. i do not care. enjoy what you enjoy! not everything has to be a fucking thinkpiece!

#i KNOW who that video was aimed at and i’m just TIRED #this is not even touching on the fact that idols are real people who have bad days and aren’t always at their best #or were stuck in a group where what they excel at is not able to shine #but the point is: idc if something is mediocre or bad by someone else’s bullshit standards you are still allowed to enjoy it #don’t worry about me and my money either we’re doing just fine over here #fuck most kpop stans are so insufferable

[spineless-lobster]

I hate you writers block I hate you motivation but no inspiration I hate you inspiration but no motivation I hate you staring at a half finished doc every night I hate you trying to summon the right scene I hate you knowing what I want to write but unable to write it I hate you writers block I hate you I hate you I hate you

#PLEASE I HAVE TWO GREAT IDEAS BUT I AM STUCK IN A WRITING DITCH #I DONT KNOW WHAT TO WRITE IN MY SCENES NOTHING IS HAPPENING IN MY BRAIN #I’m sure there’s some writing exercises that I can and might do but honestly I feel like waiting it out #idk I’m so tired #ngl lads today was like a solid 4/10 day would not recommend #anyways

[unknown-grl14]

#girlblogger #manic pixie dream girl #creepy coquette #lana del rey #tumblr girls #coquette #morute #coquette dollete #effy stonem #spotify #im done #im so tired #let me leave #i’m stuck

[sepulchritude]

WHY does family stuff have to be so emotionally activating

#i’m getting lunch with my mom tomorrow and i have to tell her i started T and it’s gonna be a whole thing 😫 #and i’ll have to reach out to various other family members so i can tell them before she does #i’m just TIRED #there’s so many ways it could go and the absolute best outcome is ‘it’s just depressing’ #i don’t really want to see my mom cry again but i guess here we go #i have shit to do today but my thoughts keep circling or getting stuck in avoidance mode #sepulchritudinous

[zeb-z]

( @restlesslythought the comments have character limits so I’m giving more thoughts in response in a post, I hope you don’t mind!)

Roier isn’t thinking about ‘punishing’ Bad at all. It’s not a matter of spite, Roier isn’t plotting some sort of revenge, not that we’ve seen, he’s not trying to make sure Bad doesn’t take care of an egg - he just doesn’t trust Bad, to a further degree than ever before. And it’s not because of his depression or misery, or general lack of trust with most people, it is directly because of Purgatory. (Here’s more of my thoughts in response to other comments about the breakdown of trust with Bad due to Purgatory, and how serious it is to Roier)

Bad spent the entire time in Purgatory burning bridges. Roier watched as Bad spawnkilled Red team before he joined them, especially upset when Jaiden was the main target. He was there when Bad went back on the deal between blue and green to keep their score 50/50, when they were all under the assumption that the losing team could die permanently. Then he was with Red when Bad tried to torment them, tried to get around the spawn killing rule, tried to take offense at getting killed (when he was the one attacking them, the one in their base stealing).

I could spend much longer listing out specific things that Bad in particular did, not just Blue team in general, which is why the mistrust is so specific to Bad.

And Roier hasn’t been in a good spot since even before Purgatory, only made worse by its events, by the fact Cellbit isn’t back yet and he has a new child to take care of. But he hasn’t been wallowing, he’s been busy - rebuilding Bobby’s city with Pepito, taking care of Pepito and Leo, keeping an extra eye on Pepito because he doesn’t trust the fact that the new eggs came right after Purgatory because now it seems like everyone’s forgetting Purgatory with how it’s being brushed over. He’s been angry, furious, at the fact that everyone is just brushing over Purgatory. At the Federation hardly addressing it and the lack of searches for the missing members and the suspicions around the new eggs and the way Bad just comes up and talks to him as if nothing had happened.

(and he’s been planning something, something he only told Leo about, that’s vague and unknown, and assumedly is meant to try and find the missing members - his missing family - who didn’t make it to the boat, but that’s not entirely relevant - it’s just been his focus outside of Pepito and repairing Bobby’s City)

He has reasons to be angry. Reasons to distrust Bad. Even if there’s never been any cause to think Bad would have anything but the eggs best interests in mind. Even if Bad has taken care of Leo and had watched out for all of the eggs. It’s not about if Bad cares about the eggs - it’s about Roier not trusting bad, and being protective as an extension of that.

It’s all kinda moot at this point - Foolish logged on today after all, and reunited with Leo. Whatever conflict that could have arisen from Bad caring for Leo without Roier being there is always just going to be speculation. But I still think there could have been, because of the extent Roier has been avoiding Bad and having Leo and Pepito avoid him, due to his mistrust.

#it’s like. he’s not doing it to be spiteful. it’s both a trauma response and the fallout of the burned bridge yknow #and as much as bad has his reasonings and did what he did thinking about his kids and the others. he made himself the antagonist. he #didn’t wait to jump to extremes. sure they all fought but bad was making new rules with how he fought lmao #and like Roier being wary around Bad - especially around Leo and Pepito - makes sense. they’re under his care and important to him. even if #he doesnt really think bad would hurt an egg it’s a matter of they’re important and Roier doesn’t trust bad and is def still stuck in #purgatory yknow #I’m basically just repeating myself at this point hahfjsjd #it’s not about trying to hurt bad in return or anything like that. it’s a matter of lack of trust and a sense of betrayal #apologies if my sentences were a bit run on jfjsjf I am So Tired typing this but wanted to respond before falling asleep :3 #the fallout of purgatory is smth that’ll keep happening yknow. and it’s interesting to see and to speculate how deep the trust is broken #mcyt #qsmp #q!bbh #q!roier #z speaks

[goldkirk]

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#this is just for future me as a timeline reference to #add to journal #shh katie #gi appointment please come faster challenge 2k24 #I have no ENERGY #I can barely cling to this weight and energy level with the tips of my fingers #I’m so tired of being stuck running out of energy so fast #my sleep schedule is immaculate I’m so hydrated I take all my meds I do the good amounts of movement but I can’t get this to improve #it’s like 2018 all over again but with way less pain and bloating #anyway. I am just Struggling #but at the same time many things are still getting better! so I keep working to focus on that part #health

[frmulcahy]

They should invent a me that has lots of energy and motivation

#I have so many things I want to create but I am so tired all the time #I’m not trying to be purposely lazy I’m just stuck and tired #doesn’t help that we got a visit from the covid faerie

[tomatoluvr69]

What’s up tumblr hope you had a super fun leap day. sparkle on. big news my first seed start sprouted while I was at work ✨

#might have to change the url bc I’m in my collard era lol #my day was alright #I ate some shrimp curry that I’d accidentally left out all night and was fine bc I’m a scavenger of a person #then bc I started to feel PMDD fatigue I laid in bed with great elan til my shift started #then I spilled coffee all over my work clothes bc I stuck it in a very sketchy travel mug someone left in our house at the last party #and I listened to Screamin Jay Hawkins on the ride to work which was fun #work was a bit chaotic but uneventful and got to spend a huge chunk of it outside #it seems I have way better ball control than I did when I was a kid. whyyy now. i was such a loser I could have used some athleticism #but I’m so glad it’s the weekend so I can go palliative care mode which is what I call my lizard brumation pmdd phase #and stopped by a friend’s house after work which was nice #really rejuvenating #then made a sort of weird frittata w/ beets peppers and potatoes bc I was too tired to actually cook #watched sense and sensibility 1995 and really liked it although I found myself wishing for a bit more anguish. sorry #and I think I might set out one of the frozen almond croissants to proof overnight so I can bake it for bfast tomorrow #will go for a very short swim but probably only about 30 min bc of aforementioned fatigue. then pick up yogurt and a silly little treat #and will have ****** and **** for dinner either tomorrow or Saturday which will be nice #but really hoping Saturday because **** **** ** **** lol #and then Sunday I’m trepidatious about because **** was like what are you doing Sunday and I’m like well I guess having a fraught and #difficult conversation about our dynamic! lol #I’m very lucky to have proactive friends who are good communicators. truly I do not deserve his kindness. but like. god. let me retreat and #lick my wounds! #i shan’t get into it. but just know I know how S&G felt #and then another work week but I’m starting to really get a feel for the routine and what works and what doesn’t #and I’m excited for my next few meal preps we got millet and kale gratin #and a Lebanese chickpea dish the name of which unfortunately escapes me atm #but my mouth is watering thinking about it. saw a vid and was instantly influenced and went to the pantry to see if I had the stuff and I #dooooooooooo #and I do feel like I’m beginning to get past the worst of [event] and its sadness

[acesammy]

I’m just so fucking tired man

#Been getting suicidal messages from that girl who confessed her crush on me #I don’t even know what to do #it’s been going on for months now and I’m so. Tired #I’m literally just some jackass #I’m literally a Dick #why am I the person she’s decided to place her entire self-worth on #she’s a great person #but I am not the one #and of course it’s just a fucking never ending shitstorm #my family thinks my grandma won’t live beyond the next couple of weeks #and this is stupid #but I’m cat sitting and one of the cats got stuck behind the washing machine and was there for like 5 hours #and the other is barfing all over the place #I’m just. Fucking. Tired #Lea speaks #vent #sorry I’m so sad all of the time nowadays #don’t feel obligated to keep following me or anything #Ik it’s hard when someone on your dash is a constant downer