#I’m now gonna keep on making tags

[krismatic]

[redo]

y’all I was so hyped for a pearl and lizzie team-up qwq

#I uploaded this yesterday but I was unhappy with it so I went over and now I like it a lot better! #kris’s art #pearlescentmoon #ldshadowlady #secret life #secret life smp #life smp #trafficblr #I’m still gonna keep the old ver up! but I just wanted to make a second version :) #totally messed up that first tag #I went over and redid the whole composition of it and added more effects! and I like it more! #OH I FORGOT SPOILER TAGS WHEN I FIRST POSTED THIS. UH #secret life spoilers

[fulgurbugs]

someone arrived in the mail a week early! it’s core refresh draculaura (who’s the one i drew for my pfp, so i may be biased in loving her already) but anyways, doll review time!

here she is unboxed, i took the hat tabs off. the hat will stay on if she’s stationary, but definitely will fall off if you play with her. it’s the same rubbery material as her scaradise sun hat. very happy to see her finally get the hat though!

i haven’t made it back to my dorm to brush out her gelly bangs and give her hair a quick wash, but i noticed mine doesn’t have a perfect split dye. i kinda like it though, especially in the back. it’s cute! (and as someone who has two color bangs right now, yeah i can’t keep those shits separate so. relatable)

here’s the new cat count fabulous! (cat fabulous?) this mold is actually adorable, i hope they keep cat fabulous he’s very cute. her backpack is very large and can fit pretty much all of the accessories she comes with in it!

as for those accessories, she comes with sunscreen, drink cup (with bat cup holder, super cute), lip gloss (same mold as fearidescent), a witchcraft book, sunglasses, and count fabulous bag! and, some of those accessories actually open as well!

the book opens up, and drac’s signed it. the count fabulous bag actually opens up (which i discovered on accident pulling it out of the box and thinking i broke it.) and it’s a lunchbox! super cute!

and that’s core refresh drac! so cute, i’m obsessed with her already

#i like doing these little reviews i think i’m gonna keep doing them #but i’ll make a new tag for it #> #dux doll review #there (for if you wanna blacklist them for being long posts) #dux doll tag #this is a realllly good drac. #looking forward to core refresh cleo now! (she’s gonna be my first cleo) #and venus and welcome comitee frankie and future dracs and. #etc. lol

[melrosing]

anyway in an absolutely wild turn of events I think I’m free of my hideous job and like. substantially richer for it??? lmao 2023 you really owed me

#ok so this a lot of personal shit but I’m just gonna incredulously vent into the tags #like I don’t even know how to describe what 2023 in this job has been like lol #since April they’ve been insulting and scrutinising and scapegoating me over absolutely everything #they were really angling for just firing me outright for never measuring up to their constantly shifting and increasingly bizarre goalposts #and it got so personal man they kept insisting that it wasn’t but my god #then my dad gets sick and it suddenly becomes awkward for them to keep insulting and overworking me #so they switch to just ignoring me entirely so they don’t have to reckon w what me and my family are going through #like they never ask how he is or how things are going just every Friday they say hey do you reckon you can take more work on again? #and THEN I get a gut infection and suddenly im being guilt tripped for taking sick leave and pestered for evidence #it was giving like ‘we had to give you time off for your dad but now you’re taking the piss’ #to the point I DID reach out to a third party at the company and was like ‘I’m sorry but why the fuck are they treating me like this’ #and she was like ‘confidentially this is disgusting and I advise you to report it’ #WHEN SUDDENLY I get back from sick leave and it’s like ‘the business is falling short so we have to make some redundancies….’ #and now they’ve had to pay me a SUBSTANTIAL sum to fuck off!!! I think I win??? #like I was so close to quitting but thank god I didn’t because now I’m getting a sweet deal to fuck off with no notice lmao #i leave end of the month #at first I was shocked like y’all really doing this now??? but suddenly I’m like. this is the best possible thing that could’ve happened #I spoke to that third party again and she was like ‘I am so happy for you’ like omfg it was a curveball but we’ll take it!!! #I’m fucking outta here and in due course I WILL be writing on glassdoor how fucked they are

[wwpbviiid]

I’m trying to find a couple quotes from each wolf359 character that say a lot about them (and which don’t need context to do that), any suggestions?

#yes this IS for a uquiz how did you know #the protocol one was so fun I’m gonna keep making them forever I think #I shall be a uquiz guy now #except I shall make the quizzes actually good I promise. no song lyric questions #wolf 359 #w359 #doug eiffel #hera wolf 359 #hera w359 #renee minkowski #alexander hilbert #isabel lovelace #warren kepler #daniel jacobi #alana maxwell #marcus cutter #miranda pryce #what’s the Bob tag #is there a Bob tag #(yes I’m including Pryce and Cutter and Bob. I shall make them very difficult to get but I am including them)

[villainsidestep]

oh survivor!fawn we are really in it now

#gideon shut the hell up challenge #people keep saying they’re sorry for your loss. Your Loss. that is how they refer to your brothers. how they refer to you. #you have always been one of three. part of the pack. and that has always been fine but now you are alone and you are not You but your loss. #julia says sorry for your loss. ricardo says sorry for your loss. you yell that it should be their loss too. it is everyone’s loss. #they have lost your brothers and now they have lost you too. (fate works in funny ways you think) #at the funeral people offer apologies. offer you flowers. offer you baked goods and stories of how [your loss] saved them or their mom or #their dad’s uncle’s wife’s coworker’s daughter’s friend from childhood or someone else equally unimportant. someone alive. #[I’m sorry for your loss] they all say and you do not say thank you. there is no being thankful for [your loss]. #[I’m sorry] says ricardo. you stop listening. [I’m sorry] says julia. you wonder if she said it to the man she punched. #you do not apologize back. you do not let it be [their loss]. it is yours. they have always been yours. #[I’m sorry] says chen . for river and cyrus. the first to use their names with you. to acknowledge them as your brothers. to make them more #than just the pieces of you that have been broken. and you thank him. #we like writing in tags sorry !!!! also at some point the original idea was that any parts of ‘I’m sorry for your loss’ #would start distorting and then get blacked out to show like. when u hear smth so much and esp w grief that u just block it out #anyway. survivor!fawn but still factoring in that chen is not afraid to just. Say Things. #esp in v3 I think the ortegas would be even more cautious w fawn out of wanting to not upset them and meanwhile chen is like yeah I’m gonna #just straight up acknowledge ur brothers for u bc I can tell that’s what u need #we are also thinking abt v3!au and fawn being heartbreak but. that’s not for this post obvs #verse: you are the survivor; you carry the guilt

[oddtripps]

Ducc demanding to be TheDad is probably the funniest thing from the show

to me anyway

#🦆🐾 #dhmis #‘I am ur dad’ ‘but I already got a d-‘ ‘I AM DAD I AM DAD I AM DAD’ #**crushes his hand 2 death** #he’s such a teenage girl I hate him so much (( affectionate )) #this is literally one of the last few images I have of Them and it was done what………….years ago now?? idk man passage of time is wack man #don’t really wanna put this in the dhmis tag but tumblr works like poop so to categorise junk I gotta tag #I’m still petrified that ppl will regonize me and my junk but I can’t keep hidden under my bush if I wanna get better #ps I have a backlog of old stuff I gotta put somewhere #im using an iPod touch atm to access this place so I can’t really make my blog pretty without a puter #I sold it cause I wanted a scooter #I am responsible with my belongings!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!! #if it’s obvious by now I like talking in tags #that’s why I hated twitter cause numbers were gonna get me also I can blabber all I want here lol #musk won’t let me blabber cause he hates my autistic swag

[e77y]

Long but relatively unserious vent/rant below the cut (sorry I added this in bc I realized how long this post is oops)

Being at the center of some kind of internet witchhunt (which ik is kind of buzzwordy but) is literally my biggest fear ohhh my god. Even a small scale one… I think I would Die. Maybe it’s because I had a similar thing happen with my friend group in high school where one of them convinced the others I was like evil and spread all these rumors about me… 😭 He was splitting on me but still. That’s an explanation, not an excuse. And it basically confirmed all of my intrusive thoughts about myself, and my personality completely self-destructed and changed, and I haven’t interacted with any of those people the same way since. I isolated from them for MONTHS and just loathed myself. Bleh

The reason it’s on my mind is bc I’ve seen this happen to friends and mutuals and even just people I’ve followed in small fandoms, where the whole fandom hates them bc of this little drama and like. I KNOW that fandom drama is not the end of the world, but truly I think that would destroy me for months. And I would never be able to set foot in those spaces again :’) Getting a handful of rude comments about a fucking transfem hc I had at like 14 made me stop writing fanfic for YEARS 😭😭😭 sigh. Just bc they said it was ‘out of character for him to want to be a girl’ 🙄 (<- character who canonically felt confident when dressed as a woman btw. initially for a disguise but then she grew to love it. BUT I DIGRESS KNSHFJW)

All this to say I think that’s why I tiptoe around everything I say online… I am SO scared of ruffling feathers, but I know that fandoms are places for like! Having fun! And it’s not a big deal! And it doesn’t affect my real life! But like idk.. I just hate the idea of being hated by anyone. I’m sure that I ANNOY some people, and that’s whatever; I talk a lot and make overly personal posts sometimes (like this lol) but I don’t wanna be HATED yk? And idek if it’s better to be hated and ostracized publicly or resented in secret by people who still interact with you… :( Agh. If you ever have an issue with me, please DM me instead of letting it build up into something worse!

ANYWAY LIKE.. with fandom stuff. Idk. I want to have fun! I want to write and post things on Tumblr and AO3 etc but I am just very scared of peoples’ opinions, especially now that I have a decently popular/well-liked longfic in DnDads. For some reason I have convinced myself that writing bad or self-indulgent NSFW will make everyone hate me lmao. Like girl the POINT of fanfic is to be self-indulgent……….. sigh I need to get out more

^ light-hearted… but also kinda true haha. I stay at home a lot just bc I don’t have many reasons to go out atm and only a handful of close friends to go out with. Hopefully that will change when I move next semester lol. And whenever I get interests, they’re VERY strong and long-lasting, and fanfic writing is one of my main hobbies, so I get REALLY into online communities. And rn that is kind of my little niche fandom Tumblr bubble… which is embarrassing and probably unhealthy but whatever. I just inevitably get a lot of anxiety about things that are important/fun to me (bc OCD), especially bc I’ve never really had mutuals/‘friends’ in a fandom before this, excluding my irls

Anyway this got longer and more vent-y than I intended so I will tag accordingly, and sorry to whoever is reading this lol; I just wanted to get my thoughts written down in a public forum bc idk… Makes me feel less insane when ik other people can see it, too. Helps me not take it too seriously and spiral lol.

#vent #cw vent #rant #delete later #<- like tomorrow morning I’m shre #usually I delete stuff like this immediately but I’ll try to keep it up #was talking to my mom earlier about OCD and intrusive thoughts and whatnot…. #she definitely has it too. like undoubtedly #her intrusive thoughts and compulsions sounded exactly like mine #which sucks for me bc my dad ALSO definitely has OCD (in a more outwardly recognizable way) so! wahoo! double whammy #just feeling kinda defeated about mental health stuff #I feel like it’s never gonna get better #I need to go to therapy or a psychiatrist or SOMETHING #it’s been like 4 years now since I was originally supposed to go lol #and I keep putting it off out of fear (I think) #my friends (irls) have all been getting diagnoses and prescriptions lately #which is exciting for them but :( idk. I feel like there’s no way to medicate whatever I’ve got going on except SSRIs???? #and I don’t really want that #mostly though I’m just scared of going back to therapy or to a psychiatrist bc I think they’ll think I’m lying or crazy or whatever #which sounds stupid when I write it out but idk #I should probably keep a journal but when I’m only writing for my own eyes I just kinda wallow in it and write concerning poetry lol #I like journaling in a way other people can see (even if y’all DON’T like seeing it lmaoooo) bc it makes it feel more real? #and out of my head.. concrete etc. #wackyposting #<- seriously need to change that tag still lol

[be-gay-do-crime-ahaha]

Holy fucking shit the dysphoria is dysphoria-ing right now. I feel physically nauseous oh my fucking god. I’m gonna fucking kill someone maybe myself rn I’m gonna lose my shit holy hell.

Doesn’t help that I’ve been incredibly overstimulated the past few days every sound is like a fucking cheese grater in my ears oh my god.

#dysphoria #gender dysphoria #sensory processing disorder #tw emetophobia #for the nausea mention #idk if that’s needed or not #but yeah I’m about to tear off my fucking skin and jump off a building I am losing my fucking mind #it’s so over #lmao my brain is fucked i genuinely wanna off myself over this shit #and my mother keeps refusing to even entertain the idea of getting my name changed on the school role #even though all my teachers and friends call me Alex and that’s what I’ve been going by for a few years now #and it would make things significantly easier for everyone because it would fix my email name as well #so that’s not helping #and she was talking about my period and being all “it’s okay all WOMEN get these ❤️ you’re just becoming a beautiful woman #and now she keep being rude to my sister because she uses men’s deodorant (because it works better) and doesn’t really wear dresses #(because she finds them annoying and inconvenient) #and is being all “hurr durr you’re copying your SISTER stop being so masculine” #like fucking hell #shit talking me and harassing my sister all at once #man I want to fucking kill myself im so done with this shit #and I’m so overdue on school work and I feel so overwhelmed and stressed this fucking sucks #and I know the school work and stuff is fully my fault for forgetting and slacking off but I can’t bring myself to do them because the #stress of fucking up and just how much of it I have to do is pushing me to my damn limit #I can’t even bring myself to start on my film and media assignment that’s a week overdue because I’m so fucking stressed just thinking about #it and I’m so overwhelmed I can’t fucking do this. I just can’t. and I know I’m at fault for procrastinating and being too lazy and stressed #to bring myself to start working on it #and things are just gonna get more and more difficult #so yeah. rant over I guess. sorry guys #did not mean to rant in the tags this much dysphoria is just killing me and so is general stress #tw suicidal thoughts

[violaeadde]

should i quit my job

#classic post to make at 2:30 am #i’m just. miserable #i worked so much overtime right before christmas (like starting at 9 ending at 1am kinda shit) #and it was like okay well that was a really terrible few weeks but at least it’s over! #and then today i had to work till 9pm. #we’re just so understaffed. since i started here last sept we’ve had 5 people rotate through my team and i’m currently the only member lol #when i joined this team i was the third person!! i was 3 of 3 and now im by myself!!! #and it wasn’t so bad in the summer tbh but that was like 2 months out of the entire year lol #literally since last november it’s been like things are busy but we’re working on getting some help so it will be better soon! #i just feel like i can’t keep up and im tired and im cranky and im angry and irrititable all the time #and it was taking like a genuine physical toll before xmas like went to bed feeling so shaky and awful #anyways i’ve tired myself out here in the tags so im gonna try to sleep again but know that in my heart i had more to say #personal

[starlooove]

Reading isn’t enough I need to start beating white ppls asses

#they’re literally everywhere and so annoying all the time I’m so sick #and it’s the quiet racism that’s killing me #ignoring dogwhistles pretending u don’t understand things that blk ppl are finding issue with gaslighting gaslighting gaslighting #and I get why ppl turn to the concept of religion and the idea that these people are gonna get what they deserve but what about now #what about the people they’re hurting and indoctrinating now #what about all the white folk who sit back and let it happen and feel comfortable in the fact that at least they’re not saying slurs #and laws keep getting passed that are literally getting us killed and y’all are making up that blk women are mad about kanekalon fuck y’all #And the LEAST you could do is sit and listen and learn but you need to share ur damn opinion on everything u hear and see #even when u know u don’t know shit #and don’t get me started on fandom it’s supposed to be fun here but y’all are so hyper focused on white characters that u genuinely don’t #see ur own racism #and some of you will see posts about it and scroll on and be guilty or think ur excluded #none of u are excluded this about all of u who make one post or reblog a few about fandom racism and go back to taking character traits from #nonwhite characters to make ur white faves look cooler #this is about everyone who thinks they’re some sort of feminist bc they think propping a female character on such a high pedestal nobody can #touch her isn’t falling into racist tropes at all #like sometimes I genuinely hate y’all so much it makes me sick #so tempted to tag every fandom tag I can find here #but y’all will either ignore it or gaslight blk ppl AGAIN like ALWAYS bc that’s what y’all do #dc #dc comics #tim Drake #bc anyone scrolling through this tag needs to see it I promise #Duke Thomas #Cass Caín #bc y’all pretend ur not racist towards her when y’all treat her like a walking dragon lady kys 💀 #Damian Wayne #so sorry to Damian stans faced with ppl who can’t read 💔 #and thats It.only main nonwhite ppl in batfam.and u still manage to be this racist.except Dick but u only sexualize him Abt it 💀 #see how I turned to fandom to cope with the real shit and it still fucking sucks 💀 I hope some of y’all die genuinely

[deityofhearts]

y’all know how you follow really cool ppl and it’s like “wow you’re so cool I hope you never follow me/we don’t become mutuals because you’d find out i am entirely uncool and unhinged”

#deity dialogue #beaming ‘please don’t scroll through my blog I am very mentally ill on main’ at the cool butch person I follow who has been in my notes #because I’m p sure that one of my beloved mutuals who is already aware I’m a pathetic puddle of a person is mutuals with them #but yeah it’s like. if people I find cool follow me or check out my blog I live in utter fear of them going ‘oh they’re like actually sad a #goodbye forever’ ahdjfjtkt #idk how sad and weird it is to admit that every day I sit here and wonder if a beloved mutual is finally gonna go ‘okay I’ve had enough of #fae’ and unfollow me #this is also why I take a while to follow ppl back because I need to see if I’ve scared ppl off yet #I keep saying I plan to be less unwell on main #rn I’m getting back into tagging my sad posts (divine despair if you don’t know is the tag to block) #tbh I’m also just trying to make this year better but god I am so sad all the time the despair is like Bad #but today was good! so no super sad posts!! #hhhhh what am I even talking abouttttt #anyways shout out to my beloved friends and mutual ilyyy hiii if you read this far wow #actually does anyone read my tags because I talk so much like I’m incapable of shutting up (it’s terminal I fear) #<- the words of someone who is aware they talk so much and hates it and has had people try to silence them (my family also hates that I tal #a lot and use to bribe me into shutting up) #I must shut up now goodbye #see this is why cool people can’t follow me like

[finvisual]

tons of back and forth about headcannons with one of my buds lead to this <333 (aka dear chris with a biiiit too much time on her hands sewing her own galadriel cosplay. for uhhhhhh, no reason at all.~)

#chrissy cunningham #stranger things #st4 #fanart #my art #my stuff #<333 #my dear girl cosplaying for fun I HAD TO! #also let’s just #ignore the fact that I’m a little inconsistent about her hair color in my art sometimes and her in general shhhhhhhhhh #also since I talk in the tags waaaaay too much: #just gonna say that it was my intention to make her tiara look like antlers with lights like xerneas #*wasn’t my intention DARN U SPELLCHECK ALWAYS GOTTA SCREW ME HUH #but now I love the idea of a Pokémon au (I have thought of dozens trust me lol) where she has one and Eddie has a similar get up with like #his yveltal #honestly when I drew this in the first place my intention was to like. #make sure to keep in mind that Chrissy wouldn’t obviously know what Galadriel would look like as peeps know her from the 2000s adaptations #so I wanted her to like ! have her own flair on it?? #(and yes maybe keep a slight horn looking motif for the tiara in place of the ringlet for Eddie related reasons SO SUE ME #wait actually on second glance: I ALSO didn’t notice that the pin I gave her at the front of her dress kinda #looks like solgaleos sun motif shape thing #so uh #another sun and moon opposites motif with lunala being a ghostly moon bat GOD #CANT MAKE THIS STUFF UP PEOPLE #also gonna tag this as uh #hellcheer #because it’s totally implied lol

[jerichogender]

no promises, but would anyone be interested if i decided to start a wilson family discord server?

#i don’t even know what we would do on there #also i’ve never run a server before #but i’m just so full of thoughts about them #i want a place to talk with people & share comics recs & maybe even do a fan content gift exchange or something #honestly i’ve been feeling a tad burned out on comics blogging lately #but i think partially that’s from it feeling a bit lonely? #anyway i’m not sure yet if i will make a server #for now this is firmly just an idea #also i’m not gonna character tag for this #for now i largely want to keep this among mutuals + followers i might get to know in the future #my intention isn’t to be super exclusive about it #but who knows the kind of people i might attract in the character tags if you know what i mean #oh also this server would be open to fans of rebirth (keeping in mind that the main focus would be new earth continuity) #i have mixed feelings about that book myself so i am not in a place to judge #let me know your feelings on this y’all!

[ifyourereadingthisblinktwice]

i hate world building cause i’ll have short periods of time where it’s the only thing i wanna work on and i get a bunch of ideas super quickly and the rest of the time is spent like. wow this is the worst thing i’ve ever made i should just scrap it entirely and never look at it again cause i suck at it. and then there’s right now which is a weird blend of the two

#like i wanna work on it rn but. also have no ideas and i don’t know where to proceed #like i have to change some stuff for it to work. and i don’t wanna think about it cause it feels like i’m going so far from original idea. #like i was gonna make it a dnd campaign for my friends but i keep thinking that’s not the best format for this cause im shit at writing #and dont think i can make the story at cool and interesting as i want it to be #or that it’s even as cool and interesting as i think it is #like i keep thinking this would work better as a book or another format #but i can’t write! especially beginnings and endings so i feel like i’m stuck in a weird middle and it sucks #i’ve been working on this for years now and i feel like i’ve gotten nowhere for the amount of time i’ve spent on it #it’s so unmotivating and the more i think about it the less i wanna work on it cause i have such high expectations for it #that i know for a fact it’ll never reach #i’m just. #i’m just really sad about it. like about to cry about it sad #vent #i guess #i love writing in the tags cause no one reads them #also feeling like i wasted money cause i got a world anvil yearly thing and i love it but. i rarely use it for the above reasons #ugh i hate this #me rambling #the urge to delete everything i’ve done for it thus far is so real rn

[baishouqijia]

mErElY hAlF a DaY?

#i had a dream pants got released and i asked the VA to say the line and he… said the line. #honestly i’d rather have my regular scheduled ptsd dream at this point LFNAKXMNSNCNDS #pan.talone has consumed my brain. it’s over for me. I’m gonna be so annoying when he shows up in game. #like 3 years from now. ✌️ #anyway I got a lot done yesterday but I’m gonna keep working at it today. maybe make a new theme bc I’ve neglected it. #✧ : filed. admin. #mobile tag.

[crossbackpoke-check]

Okay so this is gonna sound very unhinged

But the screenshot you posted of the doc for Omega Yamo had text

And I may have zoomed in and been able to decipher the words

And I’m obsessed with there being more than one Alpha in that scenario

And I think you’re a genius and I love your writing even though I probably wasn’t supposed to be able to read it

Again I’m sorry for being so insane but I couldn’t help it 🙃

SCREAMINGGGG anon i am in love with you. i appreciate the level of unhinged sooo much, the only thing you have to be sorry for is inflating my ego to an enormous size

howmstever!!! i may have tricked you!!! there are actually two omega yamo fics in the works 🤐🤫 they just happen to exist in the same document right now because ??? why not

#until one of them gets enough words to kick the other out they will coexist peacefully &i will hop between them sooo chaotic &unproductively #i keep typing things and then redacting them about the other omega yamo fic for literally no reason like. i’m telling you about it?? #it’s not gonna be a surprise??? but for clarity’s sake they are not related to each other/in the same universe #and yes one of them does have multiple alphas 🤭 #both fics are incredibly self-indulgent (and by extension incredibly For Y’all in my inbox) like it is just y’all 🤝 me 🤝 omega yamo #also to the other yamo/nuge anon please do not fret i see your message!! it is in my inbox!!! i just have been keeping it there #so that i can look at it because it makes me happy and also is very good motivation 🥺🥰😭 #do i have a tag for omega yamo??? do i need a tag for omega yamo???? at this point probably yes #liv in the replies #i am being soooooo normal in this message and i feel like i should tell you that irl when i read this each paragraph was my jaw dropping #and then i sat there and 💕🥰🦋💗 <- shrieking for like. five minutes while trying to type. what an honor #the!!! highest!!! compliment!!!! #once again reiterating though i am so slow at writing 😭 however!! i am planning to wrap up with apps & coursework next week #& if i don’t pick up an insane amount of shifts in the four days between moves i want to write sooo much. in so many different documents 🫡 #bro ALSO??? i just went to the screenshot to see what you could’ve read out from the ask and do you got eagle eyes or a magnifying glass or #how tf did you read that. what witchcraft did you work to make my blurry ass picture readable zoomed in &can i have it bc i’m using this now