#I’m just pissed at my moms shit

[allofuswantgwinam]

it terrifies me the way so many people keep living without even batting an eye about the genocide that’s happening right in front of our eyes. i will never shut the fuck up about this.

#from the river to the sea #free Palestine #im so fucking pissed rn #was just havin a conversation with my mom and it did not go well #and i want throw up and cry #she makes me so mad #she knows this is wrong #idgaf if she’s scared of trump. idgaf if this is stressful and scary to her it is to me fucking too #which is why I will not ever stfu about this #or ignore this or forget what is going on #and live in comfort #I think the fuck not #I wanna fucking lose my shit rn but I’m not bc that won’t help anything #she’s already said before ‘I don’t have to know anything to know that it’s wrong’ so fucking accept what I have to say then #i pay attention #I know wtf is going on. let me be your fucking tool to help with this instead of getting upset with me!!!!! #she is being a coward #she knows this isn’t right. she’s being selfish #i understand it’s hard but like that’s why we fight #that’s what drives you. the outrage and pain you feel watching innocent people get murdered #I can’t understand her rn. im so done with people her age

[bornafter1993]

just quit my job yall god bless it’s over

#twiggy speaks #i did it very disrespectfullly though #lol #i talked to boss again and he was basically saying i was lying and that he never said anything ab me and a different coworker when he #literally did #i called my mom to pick me up and she was like oh are you okay #and i was like ‘yeah i’m okay but apparently i’m a FUCKING LIARRR #i’m so pissed y’all don’t even know #he was so condescending about it too like #‘okay bc this is starting to piss me off’ yeah no shit how do you think i feel!! #‘i have a very good memory’ either you don’t or you’re just being a dickhead on purpose #he literally got up and walked away like ‘you know what [name] if you don’t wanna be here then fine-‘ and idk what else i cut him off

[lesbiansanemi]

WARNING FOR ANIMAL DEATH/MUTILATION IN THE TAGS

I think I’ve figured out why it’s the stuff with my cats that gets me the most viscerally upset when it comes to my roommate and I think I need to tell him why that is… we had a talk and he apologized for a lot of stuff but I just feel like I need to explain why I react so intensely to him hating my cats/wanting me to get rid of them

#like there’s the obvious things I’ve said before that ANY pet owner would feel the same about obvious #but like. okay I love cats. I’ve loved cats my WHOLE life #not just cats but animals in general #animals were baby’s first special interest #and I grew up on a farm and I had usually at least 8 pets at a time growing up #that I got money for by doing odd jobs and you know as a child you can spend all your money on your hobbies #and I love animals so I had pets #specifically I always had at least 3-4 cars #*cats #my mom’s first husband hated cats… fucking DESPISED them #and he talked about hating them/getting rid of them all the time #and. well. when I ever did anything to really piss him off #(which you know as a nine year old could be something as simple as breathing too loudly or some shit) #he would kill them #that man killed probably like 20 cats #cuz even after I was old enough to process ‘don’t get more cats bad things will happen to them’ #my mom would bring home cats cuz she ALSO loved and wanted cats #even when I would beg her not to because I knew they were going to die #she never cared because in that moment she wanted cats #and obviously this was awful and damaging #and now that I live on my own with my two cats who are my BABIES that I love and cherish #my roommate talking about hating them and wanting them gone…. #yeah it’s uh. um. hitting some really specific nerves #obviously I do not think he would EVER EVER do something like that #because you know. he’s not an insane control freak who hates me and animals #it’s still hitting those nerves #and yeah I think I need to tell him that for us to start coming to an understanding #like i get you don’t LOVE my cats you don’t have to #but you can’t talk that way about them… or I’m going to get VERY upset and defensive #kaz rambles

[k00ldino]

NOTHING pisses me off more than starting to shut down due to overstimulation and having to BEG my parent to leave the situation, because otherwise i’m just stuck there

#thanksgiving my mom pulled this shit and it pissed me off so BAD #i had to ask REPEATEDLY if we could leave even though she said yes the first time and then didn’t do anything about it #i’m getting mad just remembering it

[enigma-the-anomaly]

:/

#vented in a discord server (not the tumblr moots one dw moots <3) about my mom barging into my room this morning #which really pissed me off because I feel like I have no privacy #and someone responded by saying I should be grateful that my parents care enough about me to walk into my room and check on me #which is. not what I needed to hear #idk I’m just always terrified that I’m too sensitive and that I’m having problems that aren’t actually problems #I know I’m privileged trust me but. that same thinking is what makes me deny my trauma #because others have it worse or whatever #like I am sure the person did not mean to insult me or be rude #and I do think I overreacted a little (mainly cuz mental illness and shit makes me annoying) #but. idk it rly hurt me #the last thing I needed was for someone to tell me that actually I should be grateful that I have no privacy #this person even started talking about how their room doesn’t even have a door #look idk what I’m saying I was just trying to vent rq and now I feel like an asshole #and self pity makes me feel even more like an asshole #I’m sorry I’m selfish and ungrateful. im sorry I overreact to everything #vent #ramble #god how does anyone stand me

[melhekhelmurkun]

One of my early Christmas presents has just… completely fucking vanished. It was here yesterday, but now it’s gone. There’s literally no possible way it could have gotten lost somewhere in my room (it was on the floor right next to my bed, which has a solid frame so no way it got pushed under, and I tore apart my room looking for it). The only explanation I can think of is someone took it - the most obvious culprit being my brother, but he doesn’t usually go into my room without my permission, plus he has the exact same set of markers and the coloring book it was isn’t his interest (it was historical fashion, he’s more a fantasy coloring book kinda guy) so there’s no reason for him to have taken them.

The other possibility is someone in the group of family friends that came over took it, but I don’t want to believe that because I’ve known them all my life. My door was closed and they all know where that door leads, so there’s no reason they’d have gone in there, and they aren’t the type of people to enter other people’s bedrooms. I’d like to think they wouldn’t do that, but now I don’t know.

I know they weren’t taken by one of my dogs (they’ve never had any interest in stuff like that, and even if they did it would be more likely they’d just tear it up in my room rather than dragging it off somewhere) and again I KNOW I didn’t lose it.

Besides, if I’d lost them, it would’ve been only one part or the other. The markers and not the book, or visa versa. It doesn’t make any fucking sense that both the markers and the book have vanished in the span of a few hours.

#I literally tore up my room looking for them #and my room is very clean so it’s not like they got buried in clothes or some other shit #they’re just fucking gone #and it’s pissed me off so much #because like I said they were an early present from my mom #and now I have to buy replacements for them #I’m just so fucking tired #there’s no fucking reason this should have happened #they were right there last night

[makkie-is-screaming]

Pissed off for no reason

#These jeans r pissing me off even more #my hips have grown so theyre kinda tight now n whenever I wear them they upset me #I know I need to get rid of them #n then my fucking parents are be so irritating #I want to cvt to calm down but I’m supposed to go to the store with my mom but tbh that could be another hour bc we were supposed to go #3 hours ago #Istg my mom just can’t do shit like I wasted my whole day waiting on her lazy ass #screaming

[pogasm]

now that i don’t live w my mom anymore my trauma is actually kinda funny

#beating a kid bc their alarm woke u is crazy #like dawg chill that’s a child #mfs with no patience shouldn’t have kids #y u mad bro just go back to sleep💀 #i thibk back on shit like this and i’m like damn my mom rlly had issues #bc if i pissed u off just take a walk and breathe? y did u take it that far😭

[raeathnos]

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#oh I am straight up not having a good time rn #long story short I got in a big ducking fight with my mom yesterday over something dumb #it’s complicated and I don’t want to talk about it #but it was my fault and I did apologize #there’s some shit she did in the past that’s related that I know I’m never getting a fucking apology for but whatever #but I can tell she’s pissed and my apology wasn’t enough #and I know her well enough to know that she’s going to let it sit and stew #and in sometime in the near future when we’re both alone she’s gonna explode at me #very much not in a good mental place for that and not looking forward to it #in the mean time I feel like I gotta walk on eggshells and my anxiety is fucked cause I’m just waiting to be exploded at #I’m disappointed in myself because I feel like I acted like she does which is something I try very hard not to do #but also like I did apologize which is something she never does #which also has me upset #this was over something small and stupid and she’ll turn it into the biggest shit and how I’m a terrible daughter and all that #meanwhile I went through so much shit from her as a kid included getting disowned multiple times #for really stupid reasons (didn’t like that I was a tomboy - was personally insulted that I was depressed) #and Ive never gotten an apology for any of those and know I never will #and additionally know not to talk about them because she’ll just twist things and play the victim #so I guess the gist of it is I’m mad at her and I’m mad at myself for how I acted but also that this is #bringing back a lot of bad memories I’d rather not remember right now #also it was inventory today so I had to be up at 2am and I only got like an hour and a half of sleep #so I’m dying physically mentally and emotionally atm #I am straight up having a bad time #it’s the not knowing when I’m going to get screamed at that’s getting to me rn #my anxiety is so bad #I need to get out of here

[bethesdaglitch]

Since my mom gave away some of my shit without asking (some of which was VERY valuable and I’d been planning to sell) I decided not to store my stuff at their house anymore. On the one hand, this means my room is now full of boxes of stuff I don’t have room for. On the other hand, I got all my old video games from my childhood back and oml am I gonna go down memory lane this weekend

#I know I sound mad at my mom #and I guess I am #but don’t think I have a bad mom she’s honestly amazing #she has flaws as do we all #and this REALLY pissed me off #but she’s a wonderful mom and we’re very close #I didn’t do this out of spite I just figured it was time to stop storing stuff at my parents’ house anyway #we’ve talked it out and we’re good #(although if I left my stuff there I’m 100% sure she’d do it again lmao she’s just like that) #so I’m a little mad. but I’ll get over it 😊 #anyway I’m gonna play the shit out of Pokémon Channel

[vanessaaftonsgirl]

using a read more like a discord spoiler bar

my mom sees a woman in a pant suit with short hair and her brain cells stop rubbing together as she starts looping about how weird and confusing and wrong it is to anyone in the vicinity I have heard the same shit 3 days in a row cuz she saw someone on tv for 5 seconds and she keeps telling people about it on the phone

#my mom will say the most trans phobic shit and act offended if i even look at her for it #i may be cis but we’ve been on thin ice for a while girl #at least my dads normal #casually mentioned I’m bi ace over the weekend and that was too confusing and weird for her too #my dad guessed i was ace tho actually so he’s fine #again at least my dads normal #anyway sorry she’s just pissing me off like she does every week #kaylee speaks

[little-shiny-sharpies]

Hey if anybody wants to write me anything from Wrathion or Kalec I’d really appreciate it,

today is the last day of my trip and it’s been stacking up the bad things relentlessly and I’m feeling…

Bleh

#//vent #man oh man #my aunt and mom were getting along so well #and then we realized my mom lied to both of us about her plans for home #and it’s ARGG #I fell to her siren call of affection again like I always do #and she lied to my face #and she’s gonna chase her boyfriend who’s 2 years older than me across the globe bc he’s in the army and she’s just gonna drag my siblings #who want a stable home and are pissed at her #AND she’s using my aunt as a middle ground between her and my uncle bc they refuse to get along and they have shit they let the other borrow #and they want back so they’re trying to rope her into telling them to get along #and god #I’m in the whirlwind

[fuitygummy]

I think I’m failing therapy

#personal fuity shit #I can’t answer my therapist’s questions #I feel like I’m only repeating myself every session #I can’t do the things she asks me to. and I don’t even know why. I just can’t #I don’t exercise. I don’t leave my room. I barely drink water. I have an eating disorder #I honestly don’t know what she could do for me. and I noticed she doesn’t either #maybe I truly am a lost cause #I’m stuck in place. can’t get better and sometimes seems to be getting worse #when I told her I don’t even want to live anymore she kinda got. pissed at me? #she made it sound like ‘being alive only because I don’t want to make my mom sad’ is the most insane and wildest thing she’s ever heard #and that I was crazy to even think about it #as if that wasn’t my only thought for like idk 8 years or so #ALSO she keeps putting my bisexual identity in question every opportunity she gets. like wtf #just because I’ve never hooked up with a girl doesn’t make me any less bi #‘are you truly bi or just curious?’ idk and idc ma’am you’re the one bringing this up and making it look like a problem #I’ve got lots of complaints but. it’s not easy to quit #I’d have to tell my mom an excuse as to why I want another therapist #and looking for a new therapist is just nightmare #I’m just tired. really wish I could think about killing myself more in depth without feeling guilty #thinking about how my mom’s life would be shattered and all the pain I’d cause her gives me goosebumps. it breaks my heart

[pinkfey]

this covid test and i are staring each other in the eye rn

#it’s negative thankfully #my brother brought it into the house (shocker 🤩) and it’s a wonderful thing i hate his guts and go out of my way to avoid him 24/7 #my mom is definitely going to test positive bc of her weak immune system plus the fact that she dotes over him all the time. they’re besties #right now they’re just like. walking around the whole fucking house like nothing is happening #and have even opened my door to talk. literally what the fuck. #so i locked it because they aren’t respecting that boundary at all #my dad is out of town rn so that’s a blessing #my brother hasn’t been wearing a mask in his phlebotomy class and he’s also the most unhygienic person i’ve ever met and i’m really pissed #at him. but of course i can’t express this because then i’ll be the bitch 🙃 #but. yeah i’m not surprised it’s him out of all of us. he doesn’t even wash his hands in the bathroom. #i just hate that like. he really doesn’t give a single shit about our immunocompromised parents and never fucking has huh #unless he can spin it into his own personal sob story #i hate it here #anyways.txt

[seilon]

pretty sure I’ve been hypomanic the last week or so and I’m not sure what to do about it

#weird to be hypomanic and extremely self isolating and avoidant of addresssing important things at the same time but here we are #i have no idea what fucking amalgamation of mental illnesses and whatever else is going on with me lately but it sure is alot #there is something very wrong with me and at this point i cant pinpoint it to any one thing it’s just. i think. a handful of things #that uhhh don’t work well together that’s for sure #i feel like I should maybe look up some stuff on comorbid bipolar II and autism cause that’s probably the best way to describe the totality #of whats going on with me #whatever it is it’s wrong there is something very very wrong with me #i need a therapist badly but guess what??? whatever’s fucking wrong with me has made me avoid looking at my email for like a week for no #god damn reason and I haven’t been able to make myself do anything important and applicable to myself in the Real World #again for literally no fuckign reason and it’s just making things progressively worse cause they stack up and ssome of those things can/will #piss off my mom who I also want to avoid but I can’t because if I don’t pick up the phone the second time she calls she will call my #roommate and threaten to call the police basically #so #that’s where I’m at #this is the first time I’ve ever ghosted literally everyone before though. that’s new. really funny how that works. self isolation is #probably driving me literally insane but for whatever reason my brain says Aha what if you distanced yourself even more? even from people #you don’t see in real life? what if you put all your effort and thoughts into one topic and obsess over it for god knows how long to the #extent of not wanting to do anything else basically but shit related to that special interest or whatever it is #it’s so funny that I’ve literally not hung out with friends at all in real life nor made any new friends irl this entire year #like literally. literally I do not have friends. that’s so wild cause I’ve been saying this for literally months and it never changes #anyway I’m probably gonnna go back to frantically writing notes on this one topic and neglecting all communication and responsibilities #so. yeah #kibumblabs #I need serious help. i wish I had people around me who cared enough to make me get it #i wish I didn’t have to do literally everything myself #my ‘bf’ (if you can call him that. i doubt it at this point for several reasons) hasn’t spoken to me nor I to him in I don’t even know how l #long now and my radio silence on discord and texts doesn’t seem to matter to him. i could be dead for all he knows lol #he doesn’t care he has other people now. #no one else I know irl reaches out and if they did I’d probably not answer for no reason. i guess because I love sabotaging myself #it’s great. I’m great.