#I’m having a time lol ignore me

[miahasahardname]

finds character i relate to immensely, immediately starts projecting

#discovered some mikey epilepsy headcanons one time. can’t find ‘em but they made me really happy so i’m throwing some in #2012 mikey centered because… well…. i’m me #but i have rise mikey ones too #2012 mikey mostly has absences and auras and other less serious kinds of seizures #though he will occasionally have tonic-clonics and other such seizures #he tics regularly because i do and i want a character that does too #(my tic is basically just i crack my neck and sometimes it goes too hard and it really hurts) #i could go on but i don’t have time for that rn lol #tmnt mikey #tmnt leo #tmnt donnie #2012 mikey #2012 leo #2012 donnie #tmnt #tmnt 2012 #feel free to ignore (not 100% proud of the second drawing)

[electric-friend]

WANT CON TO STOP TALKING ABOUT NOT EATING CAKE IT’S ACTUALLY MAKING ME SO SAD

#izzy hands #con o’neill #TO BE CLEAR #he’s allowed to say whatever he likes and if the idea of diet restriction triggers me that’s on me #i don’t know him and what he does and says is none of my business #he’s allowed to eat as much or as little cake as he pleases #but like #😭😭😭you get cake NOW- right con? right? #i’m just emotional lol #ignore me i’m being silly #i just hope he KNOWS it’s ok for him not to diet and do intensive workouts #and that we don’t expect a certain body type of him #which he might not know bc y’all keep drawing izzy with abs or stick thin (which is fine but con engages a LOT with fanart) #i’m digging myself into a hole arent i #i just have big feelings haha #i don’t want con to feel like he needs to diet all the time and i hope he knows he can stop if he wants to #but it’s not my place to communicate that to him and it makes me nervous not knowing if he knows that

[the-last-quest]

I’m sure everything is going to turn out fine :))

#ignore how messy these are i tried to clean them lol #I’m sure this action won’t have any devestating consequences #also first time posting the fox guy (I don’t have a name for him yet but I hate him(lovingly)) #anyways actual lore for my au kinda??? #someone please ask me about it I am desperate to info dump #I also kinda want to make a separate blog for it but idk lol #ps I did not forget the inhibitor rings ;) #sonic #sonic the hedgehog #miles tails prower #tails the fox #unbreakable bond #sonic and tails #sonic oc #shadow the hedgehog #sonic au #dhmis au #sonic dhmis au

[goldensunset]

surprise art attack!!! here’s @deityofhearts ‘s cashmere, everyone’s favorite whimsical tiefling

#pose taken directly from the kikuomiku4 album cover bc i’ve been listening to UFO on repeat for idk how many days now #finally gave me the inspiration i needed to do something like this it’s like both sad and super whimsical #actually tbh it gives me more wishful vibes now that i think about it but 1. idk what wishful looks like and 2. cashmere design my beloved #kikuo just in general has a lot of whimsysad and/or fundark which is why i love him #tbh ufo has quickly shot up to one of my fave songs it’s the iconic accordion and the tempo being unstable in places #uh anyway ignore me being a kikuo nerd again #wahhh this was fun to work on it has consumed me these past three days #jumping up and down hehehehehe #glad i finally cut to the ‘it’s done *collapses*’ stage of the arting process bc i’ve been having trouble finishing pieces lately #man i WISH i could come up with poses this good on my own. idc i’m still proud of this #my art #ok yeah i just got the time total. 12 hours #i knew it would be a long time but i didn’t think that long #tbh a lot of that was spent inefficiently bc i kept having to resize the image up when i realized the pixels were too crunchy #and when you make an image bigger the lines get blurry so then you have to redo them. yeah i had to do that TWICE. like a dummy. #12 hours used to be like par for the course for me but i’ve finally gotten faster. or maybe i’ve just stopped doing as many full figures #lol

[padfootastic]

a seldom unrealised joy of fics updating after a long time (by which i mean many months or perhaps even years) is being able to go back and reread the previous chapter or heck, the entire fic again to catch up. it’s almost as good as reading it for the first time🥰

#ofc. if ur like me and ur brain is akin to a colander #then mere weeks also feel like a heckin long time #and this works even better #can u tell i got a fic update today #idk how long it’s been but def long enough that i have to read the previous chapters lol #(i’m also trying to make my own self feel better wrt FOD 💀) #but also #i’m generally an advocate for readings wips #bc theyre amazing #and idc how long it takes for it to be finished #heck i’ve started abandoned works so many times #rly think people r missing out #they’re so focused on the end goal they’re not enjoying the process #<— pls ignore how…corporate? spiritual? idk that sounded #i’m just thinking out loud lol #or. writing out loud? #idk #okie byeee #gonna read my chapter now

[melrosing]

anyway in an absolutely wild turn of events I think I’m free of my hideous job and like. substantially richer for it??? lmao 2023 you really owed me

#ok so this a lot of personal shit but I’m just gonna incredulously vent into the tags #like I don’t even know how to describe what 2023 in this job has been like lol #since April they’ve been insulting and scrutinising and scapegoating me over absolutely everything #they were really angling for just firing me outright for never measuring up to their constantly shifting and increasingly bizarre goalposts #and it got so personal man they kept insisting that it wasn’t but my god #then my dad gets sick and it suddenly becomes awkward for them to keep insulting and overworking me #so they switch to just ignoring me entirely so they don’t have to reckon w what me and my family are going through #like they never ask how he is or how things are going just every Friday they say hey do you reckon you can take more work on again? #and THEN I get a gut infection and suddenly im being guilt tripped for taking sick leave and pestered for evidence #it was giving like ‘we had to give you time off for your dad but now you’re taking the piss’ #to the point I DID reach out to a third party at the company and was like ‘I’m sorry but why the fuck are they treating me like this’ #and she was like ‘confidentially this is disgusting and I advise you to report it’ #WHEN SUDDENLY I get back from sick leave and it’s like ‘the business is falling short so we have to make some redundancies….’ #and now they’ve had to pay me a SUBSTANTIAL sum to fuck off!!! I think I win??? #like I was so close to quitting but thank god I didn’t because now I’m getting a sweet deal to fuck off with no notice lmao #i leave end of the month #at first I was shocked like y’all really doing this now??? but suddenly I’m like. this is the best possible thing that could’ve happened #I spoke to that third party again and she was like ‘I am so happy for you’ like omfg it was a curveball but we’ll take it!!! #I’m fucking outta here and in due course I WILL be writing on glassdoor how fucked they are

[viciousewe]

*sighs* can’t make anything easy for myself can I?

I was sliding around the internet and saw this skirt from SHEIN.

And immediately thought I can make that better! In beautiful linen! With massive pockets! So I got to work. Step one. I’ve been wanting a wrap circle skirt for a while so cool let’s do that. So I cut out the half circle, easy peaky. Well. I did not have enough fabric for the flounce after that. (Literally the time between seeing this pic and measuring fabrics was like. 15min lol) so I went on the website I got the linen from and they no longer offered it in the weight I needed!! Ok well. I do have a heavier linen in my stash already and I didn’t really want to pay more for shipping then for the fabric anyways. So I will use that. A waistband with the thicker fabric would be better anyways and the ruffle would have some nice heft plus I was gonna leave the edge raw and the thicker fabric would ravel just a little nicer imo.

But then.

I saw some cotton lace at the back of my stash. That would be hella cute!!! Only it was only 2 in wide. But that got me thinking about lace and um. Crocheted lace. That’s insane tho right? I already have a perfectly good solution and I haven’t crocheted a full piece in like 6 years….

Anyways I spent the morning before work sampling/relearning lol. I’m gonna have to make like 3 yards since I want a 2x times gathered ruffle.

#me: I can’t start anymore yarn projects until I finish at least 2 current wips #also me: this is a sewing project I can do what I want #anyways I’ve barely started the sample but shout out to crochet it’s fast even when ur slow at it #I almost can’t believe myself I ignoring a perfectly good solution that is in line with The Vision but I turn my back on it #I say almost because I’ve lived with me for 30 years I do kno what I’m like at this point lol #but yeah it might actually be doable??? #I might be being a little optimistic because one row of single crochet on a 6in size 10 crochet cotton still took me like 10min #but I’m fast at chaining and I wanna do a net design for the bulk of it #might go down a yarn size tho so it gathers nicely #also have had NiN closer on loop this whole time so it’s like #me whispering to my sewing projects ‘u let me complicate u’ #crochet #yarn #sewing #hand sewing

[fushigurro]

not only was i awoken this morning by maintenance men coming into my apartment and thus cutting my sleep short but i also did not take my adderall. not a fun combo besties

#rambles. #i have been dragging ALL DAY #i only didn’t take my meds because i don’t have enough until my next dr. appt #and since this is a new thing for me she wants to keep seeing me before giving more #and i feel weird calling and asking for more amphetamines LOL plus they ignored my call about something else from last week #so i thought ‘oh well i’m off work today i’ll just not take it’ #not having an awesome time

[hightowres]

why do i feel like there’s some sort of veil between me and the rest of the world

#like i just feel like there’s this weird seperation #ppl all seem to have such full lives and be so connected with friends and stuff #but it feels like i can’t fully join in?? #like i have friends and ppl i love and hobbies and whatever like i have a life #but sometimes it feels like i blinked one day and everyone else found their ppl and their super close knit #and i’m just like?? how do i cross this invisible curtain between me and everyone else #like sometimes i meet someone and we get along super well and then we just don’t hang out more #maybe bc i suck at texting ppl back #but i feel like nothing ever deepens #anyway #ignore me #today was a good day #apart from one thing lol #even on here like i love love love my mutuals but i lowkey feel like everyone’s closer with other ppl than with me?? #i’m think i’m feeling a bit lonely bc i’ve been so busy lately i haven’t spent much time with anyone #and it feels like i just am missing out a lot #and i’m definitely someone who appreciates having alone time but i do actually like socialising and connecting with ppl #talking to ppl is one of my favourite things ever i think there are so many incredible ppl to find out more about and become friends with #nadiya.txt

[babyfairy]

i think i just need to lower my expectations and start treating everyone around me the exact way they treat me so i can stop having to re-draw boundaries and re-explain how i feel every 3 seconds

#it’s like no one gives enough of a fuck to listen the first time around. and it’s consistently too like why am i having to repeat myself #on a constant basis #i don’t expect people to like remember every fine detail about me #but like idk i just feel like my words fall on deaf ears a lot. why am i so easy to like brush off or ignore #makes me feel like i’m boring or i’ve done something wrong lol

[penicillium-pusher]

Kinda strange to me when people say Topa was assigned female at birth, like……. she was explicitly assigned male at birth. There was an entire episode about it, they had a whole court case decision to assign her male………… like I obviously get where you’re coming from but she was absolutely Assigned Male.

#the Orville #I know none of my followers watch or care about this show I’m sorry ignore me lol #but also it’s kinda relevant to the point that people don’t actually know what terminology means #like AFAB and AMAB mean something not just vagina and penis ya know???? #in any case this is the second time this season the show has made me cry #a tale of two topas #but also if any one of you DOES watch this show and wants to discuss it………… I have no one to talk to about it #please

[rainedroptalks]

They call me a quitter because um. Well

#personal #this is about me dropping physics lol I cannot do that anymore #my teachers awful and everything I’ve talked to him about his teaching he’s just ignored me #and I do not have the time to do physics without a good teacher #but I did take extra stuff specifically for this situation #so I can drop it and i’ll be fine #so now I’m taking the normal 6 classes instead of 7 #(ignoring the 2 classes this school forces us to take since it’s a religious school. IRE and Arabic. which I fail anyways) #but my recent exams went well I got 90s for 6 of my classes and then a 50 in physics and IRE. #and a 22 in arabic. I don’t need to talk about that one #anyway that’s your weekly recap with Raine lol

[emily-rambles]

being high + full bladder + touching your clit

#all at the same time #yes yes yes #my favorite #i’m having thoughts #yelling into the void #ignore me i’m being slutty but like… it’s true #i’ll be shy about posting this tomorrow lol

[stars-on-fyre]

I’m playing Disco Elysium right now for the first time and the chokehold it has on me I swear

#relatable #lol #a day in star’s wacky life #disco elysium #disco elysium the Final Cut #it’s my first time playing it and I love it so much #I’ve been playing it basically every single day and I’m having so much fun #I love the art and I love the story and the jokes and I can go on #right now Kim Kitsuragi is my favorite character and then it’d be The Smoker on the Balcony (idk if they ever say their name I’m not far) #right now there’s two demons in me though: wanting to reblog everything I see about this game and wanting to ignore every post in case- #there’s spoilers alznakznnakzanz #and I hate how I’m in such an art rut right now because I’ve been dying to make art for what I’ve played already #but nothing I’ve done so far looks good and AAAAAAAA I WANNA DRAW THIS GAME

[akkivee]

this height difference is absolutely taking me out LOL

#this is vee speaking #not even just between ayukawa-san and hirono-san!!!!!!! hirono-san’s that short next to aramaki-san too??????? #what a short king lmao!!!!!!!!!! #bop draws closer and i’ve been trying to ignore how in the span of a week we’ll no longer have anymore stage plays #the last time we will ever see the stage original teams will be with bop and it doesn’t feel good #since my bat brainrot in general is that bad i never talk about them lol but i love north bastard sm 😭😭😭 #i love kazu and i like the concept of kazu and ichiro being the same but one embraced his dark path and other had help resisting it #it’s a very good thing kokuri is not a real character because he and his actor are so brutally attractive to me lol #like idk if i could function if kokuri and kuukou existed in the same space LOL #and like all 3gumi saragi has the sickest rap flow lol!!!!!! i love it when his parts hit in north bastard songs!!!!!!! #the same with everyone else too i have lots of thoughts on all of them and i’m going to miss them dearly it’s!!!!!!!!! not fair!!!!!!!!!!!

[johndonneswife]

Ms. Venus pleasssse share your impeccable taste in the form of pinterest boards with the class, thank you. Also I miss your presence on Tumblr and I selfishly wish you had plans to come back to the fandom side of things but I’m wishing you the best from afar!!

i would totally share my beautiful boards with u if not for the fact that i had a full blown meltdown on pinterest abt yuri on ice and i have soooo many freaking yoi pins lmao and iiiit’s a lil mortifying actually. but i promise my wedding & fashion moodboards are 🤌🏻

#ngl i feel very detached from louis right now #like. nothing happened. i just don’t feel much of anything lately #towards him/the fandom #i’m also at a point in my career where i’m honestly just so very busy all the time and between that & other life stuff #i just…don’t have it in me to care right now #i will always love him and his music but my bar for caring about celebrities is low atm too #plus i want to be more present in my own very short very precious very beautiful life #and i’ve put things aside / ignored things for the sake of fandom too much (like…my whole life. not just related to louis) #i don’t want to do that anymore / am trying my best to grow as a person and get out of my comfort zone so growth can actually happen etc #anyway all this to say i’m here sometimes but i’ve taken a big step back and im okay with that #i don’t have the emotional capacity to focus on much more than my own life right now. which is good! i think lol #alsoooo. i think if you have a platform of any kind and are not using it to talk about the horrors happening in palestine… #again my bar for Celebrity™️ is low and i’m starting to think #we need to start hunting the rich and famous for sport maybe #starting with elon musk #anyway. thank you for your nice words. i am keeping a low profile but i check tumblr at least once a day lol 🫡 #🥰🥰🥰