#I’m having a moment I apologize

[caecia]

i almost lost you

#sorry for um. spoilies but heheeehee… They’re Soft #trigun #vash the stampede #nicholas wolfwood #vashwood #wolfwood pretending like he isn’t one million percent whipped for this stupid twunk that ruined his life from the moment he saw him #vash never stops apologizing for being the reason he (ALMOST) gets k*lled #i watched wolfwood d*ath scene and i’m having feelings. Oh my god im having feelings

[dragonfruitghosts]

So I might’ve gotten a bit too silly with giving Kinito the markings and also decided it would be funny to give them heterochromia

But in my defense: It’s funny and I prioritize my entertainment over everything else (also my brother validated this silly ass design and that’s all that matters) /j

Anyways piebald Kinito real

It’s my favorite beast ever, the silliest guy

#ranger's art #kinitopet #kinito the axolotl #i apologize for the many markings and heterochromia #but also I think it’s funny to think that Kinito just looked up axolotl morphs #and went “Wow! I wanna look like that!” #and then just willed it into existence with his silly little digital abilities #I think they could do that just for shits and giggles #also the kinitosal au will eventually all be upon us (apologies in advance) #but also i’m tempted to just redraw/redesign some old ocs i have to put into some of my new oc worlds (or just give them their own section) #so idk we’ll see where the day takes my very sick brain lmao #also Kinito bowtie moment cuz byte deserves a silly little bowtie always

[thatgirlonstage]

Thinking through the logical conclusions of lore that the source material has clearly not thought that deeply about can be annoying or depressing in the sense of seeing exactly how deep the plot holes go but so long as it doesn’t inherently break the suspension of disbelief or ruin your enjoyment of the overall story it can be really fun to figure out what you can use to plug the holes. Like that’s just free real estate now baby. If the lore implies X but the story wound up at Z, then you can make the journey through Y be whatever you want it to be

#writing #this is about a lot of shows but unfortunately in this specific moment it’s about #elena of avalor #now that [static noise] has a completed draft I need to finish the bed you made #it’s just like half a chapter that I ended up having to rewrite bc the first version of it ceased to work once I finished the fic #but i want to get it finished and up so I’m looking back over my draft #and just. I have. so many Thoughts #I’m v pleased with how I handled the jaquins #low key I want. to write another spin off. #(I have already written two spin offs of this fic that I haven’t even finished posting) #specifically addressing: hey where the fuck is Esteban’s spirit guide. What Is The Deal #this show DEFINITELY didn’t think through ‘everyone has a spirit guide’ lmao #i think it would kind of fuck if Shuriki uhhhhh killed his spirit guide #ANYWAY #so many apologies in advance to my subscribers when that nonsense starts appearing in your inboxes again #i have a problem #the problem is that Esteban Flores is a traumatized little stress ball and I want to shake him around like he’s in a snow globe #SORRY WE’RE AT TAKING THE DISNEY JUNIOR SHOW WAY TOO SERIOUSLY ON MAIN HOURS AGAIN #THIS JUST. THIS IS JUST GONNA HAPPEN AT LEAST UNTIL I GET THIS FIC AND ALL ITS SIDE STORIES OUT OF MY SYSTEM

[magic-as-hell]

Absolutely tickled by the realization that the Magnus Institute’s initials could be spelled out as TMI (if you’re feeling generous and include “the”)

#tma #I’m very new to this fandom and I have no idea if this is the sort of Sensible Chuckle type thing that everyone already recognized years ago #apologies if I’m peddling a stale goof here #but I did enjoy the small ‘ohoho!’ moment

[itspileofgoodthings]

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#having a moment tonight where I’m wondering if I will ever truly be in the next stage of life #whatever that is #or if I lack courage or if something is just …. Broken #it’s not true and it’s just a feeling on a January Sunday night! but still #I feel like a lot has happened to me! and I feel like I’ve done a lot! and sometimes I just feel that none of it matters #or has brought me any closer to anything #I am being self-pitying I apologize #there is a lot of good!!!!!!! but yeah #thanks for listening. I will delete

[tariah23]

Well, I’m still glad that Gojo was always a character who was growing and learning at least. He’s literally one of my favorite characters of all time now. Like, he’s never been as perfect as how the fans would make him out to be despite canonically being viewed as an absolute nuisance to everyone around him (I don’t think his peers necessarily hate him but a lot of them probably hate to see him coming and the ones who’ve dealt with him long enough to consider him a friend, tolerate him and groan whenever he opens his mouth, too 😭… out of love. He’s extremely childish so there is only sm the other adults around him can take and to an extent, his students. I think the only characters in canon who adore him and their eye’s sparkle whenever he’s around, and being a silly teacher was Yuuji and Miwa (she asked him for his autograph (he’s the most famous sorcerer in the jjk world) and when she was alone, she did a little dance in the empty hallway 🥺…) from what we’ve seen even though the others still care about him, too. They just find him rather annoying, which he most definitely is. And he does it on purpose. He plays too much.)

#I’m also not usually one to get annoyed whenever ppl shit on the things I like #like I’m an adult sorry idc 😵‍💫 #but it’s always annoying seeing ppl who know nothing about the story complaining about it #even just as recently with the Gojo being racist shit 😭.. #like he’s a really great character despite all of that and even though Gege’s #execution of that could’ve been better or didn’t need to happen at all #because idk what gege was doing even though I do strongly believe that he used a moment like this to showcase Gojo’s ignorance and #that how he’s also human and makes mistakes since if you’re familiar with the series Gojo isn’t really treated like person at all #more like a deity and he doesn’t like that #but he’s never been one to voice his personal feelings and talk about his trauma ever #he gets treated like a god and because of this he’s never felt like he could truly connect with other people #so that’s why he puts on that whole act of being overly friendly/ playing with others and even rude to shut others out because of his #aversion to opening his traumatized self To other ppl like he’s so cool #and when he’s friendly he gives the others just enough of his affection so that he wouldn’t be worried about and not have others pry #but he’s incredibly flawed as well #I feel like gege could’ve showed Gojo being ‘humbled’ some other kind of way over the racism tho 😭. But it’s fine lmfao #I’m still so grateful that he had Gojo actually apologize instead of waving Miguel off like he didn’t matter because like I’ve said before #he literally never apologizes (this is probably the first time that I’ve ever seen gojo apologize to anyone in canon I’m so serious 🗿) #that’s literally not part of him #like he feels regret but he never apologies or shows that he actually cares about what others are expressing to him when they’re upset with #him. like this is crazy. but it shows that he did care about the mistake that he made which I appreciate…. like idk how I would’ve felt #about his character if he showed that he could care less when hurting someone like this🗿….. #I adore him so much sorry sorry for taking about anime I’m just 😭…. ❤️❤️❤️ #rambling #I’m glad that everyone is fucking with Miguel now because he is a really interesting character even though we haven’t seen much of him #he’s one of the few ppl who Gojo trusted enough to look after someone who he cared about despite the horrors #because he knew that Miguel would protect yuuta and do right by him #it’s very 😭❤️…

[tired-bisexual-brainrot]

will his whole life:

“about 3 things i was absolutely positive:

first: mike was a nerd

second: there was a part of him, and i didn’t know how dominant that part might be, that was incredibly oblivious

and third: i was unconditionally, and irrevocably in love with him”

#i’m sorry #this is so dumb #i will never stop #making twilight references tho #even if it’s stupid shit like this lmao #twilight reference #stranger things #byler #mike wheeler #will byers #stranger things season 4 #does this even make any sense lol #i apologize for comparing will to bella #wait no #i take that back #slay will #have your own personal #main character moment #girlboss #and all that #go get your man and stuff

[ebonytails]

While I know that I didn’t promise to make Disability Zebra right away, I still feel bad about not having been able to design it yet. But I do think about it everyday, and even if I’m not able to make it in time before Disability Pride Month ends, I’ll still make it and show my progress. It’s important to me to try and figure out this design than other pride flags at the moment, I’ve been feeling. So thank you for the ideas back when I asked them, and thank you for your patience :)

#I know I’m not necessarily obligated but I’ve been so preoccupied that I haven’t been able to focus on that and art fight- #so I feel bad is all. Enough to want to apologize to those who might be waiting haha.. #Mod Stuff #From Kurapika #I never promised- yes- but it feels like I made one in my heart- and I really hate breaking promises. #Anyhow- now that I’ve said my piece: #While I haven’t had the moment to draw it down- I’ve been trying to figure out how to make the zebra also.. accessible #So I have a few important keys I’ll try to keep in mind while designing it: #It has to be not too difficult for anyone to redraw and I want to keep the diagonal line design somehow. #So I’ve been thinking- ok.. so less stripes somehow? The flag removed the zigzag pattern for a reason- so how do I keep this a zebra #and not just a colorful horse? Much to think about.. Ahh I think that’s what made it hard for me to start hahaha

[platinummice]

Having a Boba Fett moment in my life so I got a plastic model kit of him

#boba fett #took me two days but only because I had other things to do #I am in love with him tho like I’m having a Star Wars moment I apologize

[starlooove]

Did u know that this is when he became my fave

#I know it’s fine later but like I relate so much #guys I don’t think ppl even irl believe me when I say I genuinely have memory problems #I’m not diagnosed with shit but for this I do not think I have to be #like every few months my mind gets reset lmaooo #it’s not funny tho is it #and it sucks #like it bothers me bc that’s kinda why I feel like I have to deal with everything in the moment #I can’t put my emotions off about smth bc then I’ll forget #and if I’m justified I want it dealt with and if I’m wrong I want it dealt with #bc It bothers me when someone says ive hurt them and i cant even apologize bc i genuinely dont remember what happened #anyways #guys the dick favoritism is getting reignited

[dilfsisko]

Baby girl I have spatial awareness problems you couldn’t even dream of

#els.txt #also I apologize for several posts in a row I’m having a moment rn

[itspileofgoodthings]

me to Nina yesterday: explaining how due to a headache and exhaustion I wasted away the end of my afternoon just watching Ryan Gosling interviews

Nina, instantly sympathetic: and I completely understand that, a valid thing to do

#the thing about Nina is that most of the time she not only hates my coping mechanisms she also plain doesn’t understand them #one of the many tensions of our relationship #but she was just 100% like yeah. I fully get it #and it made me feel so much better #my relationship with Nina the work of a lifetime because the moments of mutual understanding are so rare #but so powerful when they happen. and it takes years to discover that sudden gold #(my mom is often so troubled by our relationship. she’s just like (whisper voice): do you guys even like each other) #because we’re just SO sparks fly (antagonistic version) in many of our interactions #and it’s just like. YEAH. We’re just going to have an intense altercation and clashing of opinions viewpoints values and perspectives #at least every other day. LOL #but we will navigate it! #no one on the planet I smooth things over with as fast as Nina. it is lightning-speed reconciliation #because we both move on so quickly in the same way. in that the mood will just lift #we got in a fight the other day. Nina left and stormed out. 10 minutes later I get a text going #‘I’m sorry Maria. I should not have said that about your mother’ #which made me laugh because we weren’t fighting about our mom. She just likes to quote Jacqueline from ever after sometimes out of context #and my mom was on the couch watching me like ‘you’re reconciled???? It’s over?????????’ #because my mom a) is so different from both of us in the speed she processes in and b) has no sisters #0 sisters. 4 daughters. and she still isn’t used to it lol. because my mom’s strength and weakness is that she never gets used to anything! #ALSO Nina told me the other day that I’m the one that taught her to apologize because I would just make her do it when we were kids #not to me but to other people! I would just sit there and explain how verbal acknowledgement of wrongdoing would make things better #and she was always like ‘ughhh I hate it so much. FINE’ because she always does want to make things better #anyway this SHOOK ME TO MY CORE. Because I never thought Nina actually internalized any of the things I’ve said to her ever lol #and she was like ‘yeah you gave me that good habit’ #(I love apologizing. Love to put it into words and I have an intense need to do it immediately and thoroughly) #(tbh it’s only with time that I’ve come to see that other people do not work that way. and need more time. and are not just — #instantly comfortable putting everything into words especially the hard things) #(because it’s not like I’m always driven by more charity and compunction. I just ducking HATE unresolved things not put into words) #(so it helps me feel better. and sometimes you just gotta learn to not say it right away if it’s only going to make things worse #(or learn to say it in different way without words. that actually communicates the sorrow. And that can sometimes look like giving space!)

[jamietarttsdaddyissues]

Ted and the Drinking Bird

So I’m probably far from the first person to notice this or point it out but I want to talk for a minute about Ted’s initial 3 attempts at therapy in S2E7 “Headspace”. Specifically how the “Drinking Bird” toy on the desk is an indicator of Ted’s level of vulnerability/authenticity in each given moment.

I did a very minimal amount of research on this you beforehand so please feel free to correct me if anything I say is wrong. But essentially these toy birds, which have been around for a long time, use some sort of physics principles to keep the bird in motion once you hit it. Sometimes one touch can lead to the bird “nodding” or “drinking” for a very long time if you don’t intervene to make it stop. How long the bird continues for can depend on how hard it was initially pushed.

First Session

The first time we see Ted in Sharon’s office for an appointment is directly following his panic attack during the Tottenham game in S2E6 “The Signal”. He goes into that office with his full guard up. Ted’s biggest defense mechanism is his constant optimism. He smiles, makes jokes, talks endlessly until someone has to stop him. Sharon said upon first meeting him that it was “very disarming” but it noticeably did not disarm her. Ted isn’t used to people seeing underneath the mask. So after his routine on the couch when he finally sits down across from Sharon, he tries desperately to keep the mask on. This is when he first touches the bird and makes it start to nod.

When the bird is nodding, Ted’s mask of optimism is on. Ted even says “he’s an agreeable fellow” regarding the bird. Feeling familiar, Ted?

After a bit more joking around Ted seems to realize that Sharon will not be deterred. He has a moment of quiet where the smile slips away. He looks at the bird as it nods yes over and over, but Ted starts to shake his head no. No, he can’t seem to keep the mask up. But no, he also isn’t willing to purposely take it off. As his head stops shaking, so does the bird. When Sharon asks him directly about his panic attack, he says “I don’t wanna do this” and leaves abruptly. This was his flight response kicking in to escape from a scary situation. The moment he felt the mask slip (and the bird stopped with it) he had to flee.

Second Session

In the second session Ted comes in with a slightly different demeanor. Explains his reappearance by saying “well I don’t quit things”. He sits down without much small talk or stalling like he did the first time. Touches the bird and gets it to begin nodding right away. He starts off polite still, asking how she’s doing, saying he’s doing “swell, as well as fine and dandy”. But there’s an edge to it. The mask is there but it’s slipping. As the session continues it heats up quickly - Sharon notices Ted’s obvious aversion to therapy and asks him about it. The bird must not have been tapped as hard this time (the mask wasn’t on as firmly as it was for the first session) because it’s already beginning to slow down.

Each time the camera cuts to Ted we see the head of the bird still in frame, slowing down more and more. The moment the bird stops moving completely is when Ted says “I think it’s bullshit”. That is the moment the mask slips off. Ted hides his emotions - anger included - because they make him vulnerable. He needs his mask of optimism to keep himself safe. As the mask finally falls, the bird stops moving. Ted may be angry, but this anger is authentic. It’s cathartic. It offends Sharon, naturally, but it needed to happen. Ted storms out again, this time using both his fight and his flight response in the same session. The frame ends with Sharon looking at the bird toy as it sits completely still on her desk.

Third Session

This session begins a bit differently - when Ted comes back again, Sharon knows it is him without looking up. And the bird is already nodding. Maybe she started the nodding herself because she knew he’d be back. Even though she hadn’t spoken to her own therapist about it yet (this happens the following episode) maybe she is realizing that she needs to show some vulnerability to Ted too. Needs to give him the chance to take the mask off himself.

Before she even has a chance to begin, Ted sits down and stops the bird on his own. Physically touches the base of the toy with his hand and makes it still. Ted is choosing to take the mask off this time. Choosing to put aside his constant optimism and allow himself to be vulnerable. Sharon takes the lead and Ted quickly apologizes for his behavior before admitting he might be scared of the truth. During this session we still see Ted smile, still hear the occasional joke (Ted throwing the tissues, for example), but you can see how genuine he’s being on his face. Not to say that his usual smile/friendliness isn’t genuine, but it provides him with a layer of protection that he’s choosing to put down. He’s putting his trust in Sharon to keep the space safe while the mask is off.

The third therapy session ends with both Ted and Sharon in frame, unlike the last two that ended with Sharon looking at Ted’s empty chair. They are working together now. United. Trusting each other. Believing in each other. And the bird remains still.

#long post #ted lasso #ted lasso meta #Sharon fieldstone #apologies for such a long post #and for the bad quality photo #I really wanted to include the moment where it blurs Sharon out of frame and focuses on the bird #after the second session #but apple products won’t let me screenshot #so this is what I have #but anyway #this is something I noticed so long ago and have been wanting to make a post about #but have such a hard time articulating what I’m noticing #so while it’s not the most coherent #I hope people see what I’m getting at #the attention not detail by everyone who works on this show is just so amazing #I have rewatched it an inconceivable amount of times at this point #and I still am always noticing new things #always finding new angles to consider #new questions I want answered in S3 #don’t even get me started on how Ted has an army man toy pointing a gun at him when Sharon goes to his apartment in the funeral epsiode #phew #I could talk about this show for weeks #and I do!

[tariah23]

They’re calling my baby Gojo, Joseph Joestar now

#rambling #the diff is that Gojo did apologize after being called out and face to face with his racism whilst Joseph literally befriended nazi’s 😵‍💫 #and there was never any explanation from araki as to why he’d even wrote German soldiers in the shit in the first place like that was #absolutely jarring as hell to read for the very first time back when I’d gotten into jjba #well I watched it first but you know #like Joseph really thought fondly of Stroheim as this stand up guy even though he’s first of all #a Nazi #and second #the first scene that we were introduced to was of him sexually harassing a Woman #it’s……. 🗿 #still to this day I wonder if araki had ever addressed this because lord #Joseph was just happy to get the help I guess but that felt so ooc for him from what he’d seen 🗣️ #happily receiving the help of a Nazi and calling them a nice guy ahhh Joseph- #Gojo would never sjjsaj #my boo boo is a little prejudice but he’s working on it 🗣️ #I still think that gege was trying to have a ‘racism is bad’ moment but again #the execution was pretty awkward and it felt out of place considering what had been currently going down in the manga #like the Racism was pretty random but it was swiftly put to a stop which I can appreciate even if it shouldn’t have been a point of #conversation to begin with since why couldn’t Miguel just exist as a character instead of him being the now token negro #who everyone sees as instantly more frighteningly powerful than everyone else like this didn’t even need to be brought up wllssldk #idk gege was trying to be ‘woke’ 😭. sorry nbs and wp ruined the term for me but like basically lol #gojo’s pretty intelligent and extremely gifted but he’s never been perfect lol #it’s just that idk why gege chose to talk about antiblackness in Japan out of nowhere about the only black character on screen hehhhhhh #like gege tried but lmfao #this is so funny to me #at least it didn’t drag on putting Miguel in an even more awkward situation than he already was and it was nipped in the bud quickly #Gojo isn’t one to dwell on things but when he’s face with new information and is taught something he does try to reflect and do better and #I’m sure he probably started to become even more aware of what he’s saying especially when talking to Miguel in an honest way since that’s #always been the kind of character who he was despite the horrors #the only ppl who’ve been kinda annoying about this are nbs and white people as always 🗿

[lowcallyfruity]

Sebek Zigvolt after i marry his mom and his dad making me his 3rd parent

#Sebek zigvolt when I FU- #I’m sorry #my deepest apologies #I am having a moment #💛!me talking💀

[xwiredearbuds2014x]

Help me my hatred for my job is making me evil

#on my feet for 8 hours doing dishes im covered in a layer of sweat and chemicals and slime #after I had finished all the dishes and was cleaning the sink a guy brought MORE THAT HE FORGOT #white hot rage #I want to quit every day but I can’t until one of the jobs I’ve applied to gets back to me #there have been times when I’ve kept working even though I’m injured/crying/covered in blood and NOBODY gave a shit #there was a good 6 months or so when we were always understaffed so I had to do the work of 2-4 people constantly #even with lines of customers out the door #one time a while back I told my manager I was feeling overwhelmed and asked if I could go on break #he yelled at me and berated me and basically threatened to fire me. I wasn’t the same for the rest of my shift #I apologized profusely but mentioned how long I’ve been there and everything I’ve given to this place #he said that was just the expectation #even though I know for a fact almost no one works as hard on me. other people slack off #and I have to pick up the slack because they know I can #and they know I won’t stand up for myself when I am mistreated #I guess even though he can be cold and distant and vindictive #I always assumed that he HAD to appreciate me. but I know that is not the case #I lost all respect for him at that moment. there have been other times when he’s yelled at me and belittled me #and I’ve just had to act like everything’s fine because I can’t get fired