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borathae · 2 years

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↳ Index [Snippet #27 - Mad at You]

“When you make it up to Jungkook after getting him angry.”

Genre: Smut, established relationship!AU

Warnings: sulky!Kook, dom!Jungkook, sub!Reader, he is cocky in a sexy way, and he can be because he knows how to fuck, make up sex, thigh humping, dirty talk, he calls her princess & good girl, she calls herself his cockslut like once, praising, edging (f.receiving), anal play (f.receiving), rimming, anal fingering, oral (f. & m.receiving), deep throating, doggy style, cum play, spitting kink, he spits on her asshole, double penetration with finger+cock, this is the most loving angry sex ever, slight scent kink, major strength & size kink, unprotected sex but they are clean & on birth control, sweet aftercare cuddles

Wordcount: 6.3k

a/n: I don’t know why I have this recent obsession with this specific Jungkook being in a dom mood, but I am loving the journey. I also want to state that I am nothing but a whore, enjoy besties and let’s be whores together 🤪🧡

Jungkook was sulking tonight. Some may even say that he was thoroughly mad at you. And he had every right to be because you messed up. You cleaned the house today while Jungkook was at Jimin's and Yoongi’s place to help with setting up their internet. And while you cleaned, you decided to clean up his art studio as well. This was something normal to do, but today it was the place of utter chaos. In your cleaning trance, you managed to knock over your bucket, which resulted in water spilling all over a tattoo draft he had been working on for days. It was ruined and beyond saving.

You confessed to Jungkook instantly once he got home. He tried to react calmly, but it was still very obvious that he was terribly mad at you.

"I worked so hard on it babe", he whined.

"Why do you have to put a freaking water bucket on my table? Of course you'd knock it over", he accused you.

"It's ruined. I did all of this for nothing", he groaned and then turned his back to you, "I'm going on a run, don’t wait with dinner."

And then you didn’t see him for two hours while you tried your hardest to fix what was irreparable.

It’s been two hours and twenty minutes since you confessed your greatest sin to Jungkook. The front door locked just this moment, which means he was back. You straighten up on the couch, waiting for him to come into the living room while your heart is racing.

He acknowledges you with a second of eye contact and a nod of his head.

"Hey baby", you say, standing up, "how was the run?"

"Good", he mumbles, swerving to the kitchen for a glass of water.

You follow him.

"I made something for you, Kookie", you tell him, "look."

Jungkook inspects the food on the stove with a stone cold expression.

"It's your favourite. I, I can warm it up for you. If you want to."

Jungkook sneaks a glance at you. He is still mad, but tries to show his gratitude.

"Thank you", he scratches the side of his neck, "I told you not to wait."

"Well, I", you shimmy from one foot to the other, "I just didn’t want you to be hungry."

He gives you a small smile.

"Thank you, that’s sweet of you."

"Yeah", you nod your head, "get comfy, I'll warm it up for you."

Jungkook is waiting in the living room, watching television when you bring him the food.

You hand it to him with burning cheeks, sitting down next to him almost nervously.

"I hope you like it."

Jungkook takes a big bite.

"It's really good. Thank you", he tells you and turns back to the television without paying you any more mind.

You know that he is still mad. On normal days he would hum and moan excitedly about how yummy your cooking is. Oh this is making you sad. You huff out air and peel yourself up from the couch.

"I'm gonna clean the kitchen now", you tell him, dragging yourself out of the living room in defeated steps.

"Mh-hm", he acknowledges you.

You are already under the covers when Jungkook decides to join you. Not that you think he really wanted to join you, but that rather he does so because you and him share a bed.

"Hey baby", you greet him, "look I warmed up the blanket for you."

Jungkook watches you shimmy to your side after having used his blanket for warmth.

"Get in there before it gets cold."

Jungkook gives in with a huff of air. He gets under his blanket.

"And?"

"It's really warm", he mumbles with a slight blush, "thank you."

"I'm glad you like it", you shimmy closer and drape your arm over his torso.

Jungkook sneaks a glance at you. You are grinning at him, basically glowing once your eyes meet.

"What?"

"Nothing, I love you."

Jungkook scoffs, "I love you too", he mumbles then reaches over to turn the lights off.

It surprises you, giving Jungkook enough time to flip to his side and therefore turn his back to you.

"Night", he grumbles, pulling the blanket over his head.

You pout, staring into the darkness where you imagine Jungkook to lie. You reach out, meeting his back. You begin scratching it, doing so gently.

"Googie, I’m sorry", you whisper.

"Mh-hm."

"Are you really still mad at me?"

Jungkook stays silent.

"Googie baby" you whine, back hugging him, "please don’t be mad anymore, I’m really sorry", you beg, burying your face in the crook of his neck.

"Should have thought about that before you destroyed my stuff", he grumbles.

"Baby", you say and sigh, "I'm really sorry. It was an accident, it really was."

"I mean", he begins, "who puts a bucket on a desk? Why would you put a bucket on a desk? It's common sense not to do that."

"I know, but I just didn’t wanna bend down all the time. I'd been cleaning for hours by then and I just wanted to make it easier for my back."

Jungkook huffs out air in defeat.

"Yeah, whatever", he murmurs.

"Kookie", you whine, squishing your cheek against his shoulder, "pwease don’t be anggy."

"Are you using your baby voice right now?"

"Ye, pwease Googie", you whine.

Jungkook scoffs and shakes you off. He flips to his back and tugs you on top of his chest.

"I'm doing this just so you’ll stop using that voice."

You grin, snuggling into him. You even drape your leg around him, lodging it between his legs, just so he can’t escape again.

"Googie, can we share a blanket?"

"No."

“Pwease Googie, I’m so cwold."

He sighs in defeat, "fine."

He opens the blanket for you, gasping a second later when he feels your feet against his calves.

"No, what the fuck? Don’t put your icicle toes on me."

You giggle, squeezing yourself closer.

"But I'm cold and you're warm."

"Babe, seriously don’t do this", he whines, fleeing your feet but to no avail.

He gives up with a huff of air.

"Are you comfortable?" he hisses.

"Yeah, you’re so cuddly."

"Well, at least one of us is", he says with iciness in his voice.

You lift your head, looking at him even though his face is hidden in darkness.

“Hey, you’re so mean”, you say with sadness in your voice, “why are you so mean? You know that it was an accident and I’m genuinely sorry."

Jungkook stays silent.

"Jungkook?"

"I don't know", he says and sighs, "it just pisses me off because I worked so hard on it and now it’s gone."

"So it’s really gone? Did you not have a doodle of it somewhere?"

"I do, but the good one is gone and it pisses me off cause it took me three days to draw."

"Maybe you can fix it again?"

"I can't ___, that’s what I was trying to do for the last freaking hour. Fixing it just made it worse."

"Oh I see", you lower your eyes, "I'm sorry", you whisper, having to sniffle.

"I know, baby", he says and hugs you closer, "I know."

"What do you need to feel better?" you mumble into his chest, "I can’t stand falling asleep when you’re still mad at me."

"I don't know, just…" he huffs out air, "just keep being cute, I guess."

"Okay so more bwaby voice?"

"No", he laughs, "seriously that voice is so weird."

"Hey, mean", you nudge his chest, "don’t lie, that voice works"

"Yeah, but ‘cause I want it to stop."

"Wow", you pout, "so mean."

He cackles, tilting your head up to kiss your forehead.

"No, it’s cute too", he says, "I just prefer your normal voice."

He snuggles closer.

"And the voice you make when I fuck you", he whispers, sending a shiver down your spine.

"Jungkook", you gasp, lifting your head.

Jungkook does his very distinct I'm trying to make you horny chuckle.

“Seriously, what are you doing here?"

"You asked me what I need to forgive you. I decided that I need you cumming for me."

You feel hot all over. Jungkook gets you so good.

"Koo, oh my god", you whisper.

“Is that something you want?” he asks.

“Yeah…” you whisper.

Jungkook is smirking. You can’t see it, but you just know that he is.

"Take your pants off, princess."

That nickname. It short circuits your brain and turns your limbs into literal jelly. It works way too good on you. He just has to say it and you are a complete goner for him.

You take your pants off quickly, gasping when Jungkook places his big hand on your ass. He forces your hips to tilt forward, pressing your pussy right against his thigh. He moves your hips for you, eliciting a weak moan from you.

"You're gonna get wet on my thigh for me", he rasps, "so I can fuck your pretty, little pussy."

"Koo", you whimper, trying to meet his movements.

"Can you do that for me? Mhm? Can you get wet for me?"

"Yes..ah", you sigh, pressing yourself closer to get more of him.

"That's good. You’re such a good girl, princess", he praises.

His thigh feels so good. Muscular and oh so toned. His skin is so soft and his hair just adds the perfect layer of sexiness to it. You love getting them all wet and dirty and being so surprised with a thigh fuck is driving you insane.

"That feels good doesn’t it princess?"

"Yes", you breathe out, twisting his shirt.

"Yes? Of course it does", he says, giving your ass a greedy squeeze, "you're so perfect for me."

"I love your thigh", you moan cutely, "Koo, I love your thigh."

"Fuck baby", he draws closer, "that’s so hot. Keep talking like this and I’ll fuck you so much better."

You whimper, having to press your eyes shut. He smells of his shower gel. It is a gentle scent and tonight it is charged with the distinct smell he gets when he's horny. Maybe you are only imagining said smell, but you thoroughly think that Jungkook smells even better when you and him are turning each other on. He smells so manly, so good, so sexy. And warm. He is so warm. It makes you press yourself closer and twist his shirt a second time.

"Koo, feels so good", you whisper squeakily.

"I know princess, I know", he sounds cocky which turns you on even more. He tenses his thigh, basking in the gasped moan you let out. He can feel you getting wet. It’s the cutest yet sexiest thing to him. Truly, it turns him on so much to feel how much his thigh affects you. To have your pussy go from soft and perfect to totally soaked and wet just does something to him. And tonight this is all he needed. He needed to feel that healthy exchange of power because he was genuinely mad and knowing that he could get you wet within minutes is giving him the kind of power surge he needed to feel better. He doesn’t like punishing you – obviously that is a given – but he is still sulky sometimes and when that happens he loves making you squirm for him. This just does something to him. You are so cute when you squirm that Jungkook just can’t stay mad at you.

"I can feel it, princess. You’re getting wet for me."

You mewl.

"You're so easy to turn on”, he laughs tauntingly, “is my thigh really that good for you, mhm?" he challenges, feeling you convulse on his thigh.

You whine, seeking his closeness by hiding your face in his side. He sounds so full of himself, so confident in what he does to you. Normally you can’t stand people like that, but when Jungkook does it, you turn into nothing but weak limbs and a wet pussy.

Jungkook chuckles, "don’t be shy, admit it. Admit that it gets you off."

"It does", you press out, feeling how your pussy gets wetter. The grind becomes a slip and Jungkook's skin feels even softer against your clit. Oh you're getting so wet for him, soiling his hair and skin with it.

"Of course it does, princess", he says, twisting his fingers in your hair. With a gentle tug he tilts your head up.

"You know what to say princess", he speaks in that deep voice he does when he is controlling the scene.

"Yeah…"

"Then say it", he orders, pressing your hips closer with a strong hand on your ass. He keeps it pressed against you, making sure that one of his fingers is disappearing between your buttocks for the sole reason of riling you up. It rests there heavy and oh so demanding, grinding against your rim each time you have to roll your hips over his thigh.

And you can barely get the words out, having to gasp before managing to form the letters.

"Thank….you…Koo", you choke out, resorting to gasping afterwards.

"That's not good enough", he growls, pressing you closer and in the process giving your rim the gentlest of pressure.

"Ah", you squeak, scratching his chest from how tightly you hold his shirt.

"Say it properly, princess. Come on", he demands, moving his thigh in a punishing manner all while his finger is threatening to slip in.

"Thank you for your thigh, Koo", you keen, letting out a soft sob afterwards.

"There we go, princess. So good", he praises and slows down again.

You mewl, twisting his shirt a fourth time. He had gotten you so close and now it’s gone again. He just edged you. Your pussy weeps in desperation, soaking his thigh so much that you can feel it run down and then soak your own skin.

"What's wrong?" he asks innocently. He is not innocent. He knows exactly what he just did.

It’s what you deserve, he thinks and smirks as he feels you get wet from denial.

“Was so close", you whisper weakly, trembling in his arms.

"Oh that, yeah I know", he taunts, "but you're gonna be a good girl for me and take it."

"Koo."

"Right, princess? You’re not gonna be bad and cum without my permission, are you?"

"No, Koo", you croak, feeling dizzy.

"Good girl, such a good girl", he praises and as a reward speeds up your hips again.

"Ah", you gasp, "ah, thank you, ah, thank you, thank you. Ah, ah."

“That’s it, make those pretty sounds for me”, he encourages you, “I love it when you do.”

“Jungkook”, you croak.

“What’s wrong now? Mhm?”

“You, you’re so h-hot.”

He laughs lazily and you just know that he lowered his eyes in that flirty, way too fatal, way. Fuck, you hate the darkness. You want to see how cocky he looks, how his face is glowing in confidence, how he mocks you with his eye contact and turns you on in the process.

“I know I am and you are dripping”, he rasps, squeezing you closer.

“Oh”, you gasp.

“Feel it”, he rasps, repeating the movement. Your hips meet his thigh harshly, his grip is so strong, “feel how you’re making a mess of my thigh.”

“Fuck, please”, you mewl, clenching around nothing.

“Please what princess?”

You sob and hide in his side. His scent engulfs you, his warmth touches your face. You chase him, chase the electricity of his thigh, losing yourself in the process.

Jungkook lets you, moving his hand further down so it is between your ass and his fingers could touch your soaked entrance. You shudder and speed your hips up desperately.

Jungkook can hear it. He can hear how wet you are. It sounds slick and sticky and oh so sinful. He obviously can feel it too. It smears all over his thigh, cooling down on the parts you don’t touch before your warm pussy grinds over it again and soaks it some more. And it makes him impatient because getting his thigh humped by you turns him on just way too much.

“Please fuck me”, you beg and Jungkook moans.

“Fuck baby, you’re gonna be the death of me”, he babbles then tilts your head up, “say it again. Beg me.”

“Please fuck me.”

“Not good enough.”

“Please Koo please, I’m so h-horny.”

“Yeah? I’m horny too and I can control myself. Why should I give it to you?”

You soak his thigh in new arousal, clenching around nothing so harshly he can feel how you throb. Fuck, your clit is so swollen and hot. He knows he could get you over the edge. He would just have to put his fingers between your ass again and lift his thigh and he could make you cum. But he doesn’t. He lets you chase him with that small pressure, he lets you shake and squirm in your attempt to get more of his thick thigh under your needy pussy. He edges you because he wants to.

“Please Koo”, you mewl and sob cutely, “I, I just wanna be your cockslut.”

“Fuck”, he presses out. He feels your words everywhere. His stomach is tingling, the tips of his fingers are itching to bury themselves between your legs again, his cock is throbbing in his briefs.

“Please, I’ll be so good and, and take you so w-well”, you try and Jungkook just knows that you are giving him the biggest puppy eyes right now.

This is his breaking point. He can’t take it anymore. All he wants to take is you. Hard and good.

“Then get my cock out will you?” he growls.

Your hips falter now that you have to work. Your nimble fingers hook themselves in his briefs, tugging them over his round butt with the help of him lifting his hips. He feels the bed dent as you sit up so you can pull the piece of clothing down his legs.

Thump.

The fabric landed somewhere on the floor. Then hands on his inner thighs. Warm and desperate for the feeling of his skin. The distinct warmth of your body, it comes closer to his crotch.

Warmth. Wet and soft. Right around his cock. Sinking down slowly.

“Fucking hell baby”, he groans, throwing his head back, “fuck yeah. Ah fuck.”

You mewl and bop your head up and down his length. He tastes so good. He feels so heavy on your tongue, fills out your throat so much, stuffs your mouth so well.

You know that sucking your husband’s cock is not exactly the definition of aching for his cock in your pussy, but something overcame you. Something primal and something which ached so incredibly much that you could only still it with his arousal running down your throat and with his pubes tickling the tip of your nose.

Jungkook groans deeply, twisting his fingers in your hair.

You go further down.

Jungkook rips his mouth open and moans loudly. Now here he is, with your fingers massaging his tight balls and his entire cock down your throat. It’s not often you go so far, but it seems that tonight you are so horny and desperate for him that getting your throat plugged up by his cock is all you needed.

And Jungkook is in heaven, throbbing in your mouth before letting out a drugged-up laugh.

“Fuck princess”, he croaks and laughs, “holy fuck. Yes! Oh god yes!” his laughter turns into loud moans.

You just mewled around his cock, now fucking your own face while letting out the sweetest of gags. Your drool is all over him, spilling out of your perfect mouth and running down his shaft before slathering all over your fingers and his balls. You use it to massage them, slurping not because you want it gone but because you know that it feels incredible for Jungkook.

“Fuck baby, fucking fuck. Holy fuck”, he curses, arching his back, "keep going, don’t stop."

You won’t stop. Jungkook tastes so, so good. You never ever want to stop. You pay special attention to his tip, sucking it between your lips with such vigour your cheeks fall in. Then you begin moving, keeping up sucking him as his cock glides between your lips.

Jungkook groans, “you gon’ make me cum”, he presses out, having fallen back to his native dialect.

You moan, sinking down on him until you feel your throat bulge most perfectly. You want him to shoot his load down your throat. This is the least you can do for him after ruining so much of his hard work. He deserves to cum down your throat like he wants to. Hard and fucking good.

“Fuck!” he barks and shakes.

You squeak as he tugs you off of him, feeling disorientated for a second. The lights turn on, adding to the overall confusion you are feeling. Then you get shaken around and pinned down on the mattress.

Jungkook is above you, holding you captive by your wrists while the weight of his body does the rest. His black hair is messy, hanging into his face. Fuck, it’s gotten so long again. He looks so hot like this.

“You’re such a-“, he stops talking, studying your face with blown-out pupils and madness in his gaze, “-fuck baby”, he growls, squeezing your wrists.

“Please fuck me”, you beg, squirming under his weight. It’s driving you insane just how close his cock is to your pussy and yet it is not close enough that you could make him slip inside.

“You’re such a needy woman”, he spits, furrowing his brows, “you think you can just deepthroat my cock like that and get me to cum?”

“Please fuck me”, you try again, whining slightly.

"Did you even hear what I just told you?"

"Fuck me."

Jungkook stays silent, letting his fiery eyes race over your face and chest.

“Take off your shirt. Now.”

He lets go of your wrists and lets you sit up, using the second you need to undress to undress himself. He keeps himself upright on his knees, towering over you with his cock hard against his toned stomach and his tattooed arms on full display. His pierced nipples are hard, his toned chest heaves up and down quickly.

And you feel tiny. You feel so tiny and fragile, knowing that someone as strong and manly as Jungkook will fuck you stupid. You make yourself smaller on purpose, giving him the neediest puppy eyes ever. This is how you want to feel tonight. You want to feel fragile and as if your strong husband could break you.

“Turn around”, he orders confidently and you follow happily.

He grips your hips and pulls you on all fours. Then he fixes your position, doing so with the right amount of strength so that it would turn you on.

“That’s better.” Jungkook presses you down into the mattress. "Stay like this."

You shiver, shaking when a second later you feel his mouth on you. He slurps and groans, swirling his tongue over your pussy while his hands are holding your hips still.

"Oh my god", you moan, "holy fuck, Koo."

“So fucking wet for me”, he growls into your pussy, “you’re making a mess of my face”, he says and laughs cockily, “such a messy girl for me.”

You bury your face in the sheets and let out a desperate sob. He licks you so messily, so sloppily, slurps you up as if you were his favourite flavor. You can’t handle it. First he fucks you with nothing but his thigh, then he gets you literally soaked by stuffing your mouth with his cock and now he is eating your pussy as if it was his last meal.

You wheeze, twisting the sheets between your fingers. You want to flee, but Jungkook presses you back on his tongue. You want to squirm, but Jungkook keeps an iron grip on your hips. You want to cum, but Jungkook pulls back at the right moment.

You mewl his name, dripping your desperation on his chin.

And Jungkook moans, trailing his licks away from your pussy until he has your sensitive rim under his wet tongue.

You tense up and squeak. A second later you release all of that tension in a shudder of your limbs, bucking your hips into his face.

Jungkook moves back and breaks away, basking in your whines for more. And he gives it to you gladly, parting your ass with his tattooed hands and using his entire head to grind his tongue over your hole.

You can count his fingers on your ass. All ten of them, each sitting on your body with the demand for attention. Oh just imagining how they must look as they dig into your flesh, how the tattoos on them must look now that his veins and tendons are bulging in exhaustion and how the tips of his fingers must definitely gain a slightly lighter colour to them.

This and with the added sensation of Jungkook's tongue fucking your greedy hole and you swear this moment you cry the hottest tears you have ever cried.

He is going to make you cum. He may not be touching your clit, but she feels the same spark she does when he touches you. It is your brain doing it for you. All those thoughts about how Jungkook looks as he gives you the rimjob of your lifetime are enough to make you clench in your approaching high.

You make one mistake however, you buck your hips back and clench under his tongue while your thighs are shaking. And Jungkook knows. Oh he knows and he uses the opportunity to pull away and leave you aching for more.

“Nooo”, you whine into the mattress, chasing him desperately.

"You're so delicious, baby", he says cockily, licking his lips.

"More please. Please more. Please.”

"Oh, I’m sorry. Did I edge you again?"

"Yeees", you whine, hitting the mattress with your feet.

"Cute", Jungkook taunts, connecting his thumb with your rim to rub it skillfully. He loves how you shiver in reaction.

"Thank you…oooh…"

"That's it, stick your ass out just like that."

"Ah Koo, oh god Koo. Ah…"

While his thumb is pleasuring you oh so perfectly, his left hand aligns his cock with your pussy. You barely even notice that he does, being far too gone in the feeling of his fingers. You really want them inside. You want them to fill you up and remind you that only he can get your ass to feel that stuffed. He pushes and slips in, surprising you so much that you actually squeak loudly, kicking the mattress weakly. Now you notice. Now you do. Oh god, now you do. Jungkook is feeding you his cock. Inch by inch he is shaping your pussy until you fit perfectly around him.

"Slipped right in", he bottoms out, "you're so wet, princess. I didn’t even have to take it slow."

You wheeze for air, tensing around his cock. He's inside. You've finally got his cock. He's back where he should always be. You have to moan, fucking yourself back on him in a needy roll of your hips.

"Yeah I know", he agrees and begins moving, "that’s fucking incredible."

Sparks course through your entire body. Getting Jungkook's cock after being edged ruthlessly feels like paradise. He is right. He did slip right in, giving you that good stretch. And that thought makes you even wetter. To know that you are dripping so much for your husband that he can fill you right up with his veiny cock. Oh it is a different type of turn on.

"How's that, princess?" he rasps, caressing your hip while his thumb begins circling your rim again.

"Thank you", you keen, arching your back.

"For what? Tell me."

"For your cock."

"Yeah? You love that cock?"

"Love it!" you squeak now that Jungkook is angling his cock in a way that would get him deeper, "love it so much", you groaned the last word, tensing around his veiny shaft.

"Fuck", he moans, "love that pussy too. It’s so wet, creaming my cock so good."

He places his left hand on your upper back and pushes. It forces you into the mattress and for your back to arch. Now he does it. Now he fucks you oh so deep. Jungkook loves how you feel around him when he is deep inside of you.

"So deep", you mewl, pulling the cutest face of pleasure.

Jungkook loves it. Your cheek is all squished, your lips are all pouty, your nose is scrunched up. He loves getting you there. To have you pull those pretty faces for him as he pounds you, gets him off so fucking good.

"Yeah I am. Just how you deserve it. Deep and hard", he growls the last word, slamming his hips into you while his thumb is putting pressure on your rim.

"Ah!" you yelp, shaking at the intensity.

"Deep and hard. Feel it", he growls, "in and out. In and out. Just how you deserve."

"Please don’t stop, please", you beg him, clenching around him in desperation.

Jungkook smirks. He feels electric and like the most amazing fucking man on this world. Yes, he is going there. He is going to be cocky for a moment because he wants to.

“Do you love it, princess?” he rasps.

“Yeees”, you mewl, nodding your head vigorously.

“Then say it.”

“Love it! Love how you fuck me”, you wheeze for air, “oh god, Jungkook please seriously don’t stop.”

Jungkook laughs lazily, tilting his head back in a way that would reveal his neck most deliciously. His dark hair is tangling over his eyes, tickling his neck in the position.

“Fuck”, he moans and laughs again, moving his hips like the sexgod he feels like right now. And you reward him with desperate rolls of your hips and a soaked pussy clenching right around his cock.

“Fuck baby, fuck”, he groans, letting his eyes roll back before falling closed, “never wanna stop fucking you.”

“Please stuff me!” you beg, chasing his thumb on your ass, which seems to slip away more and more now that he was busy feeding your pussy.

He falters in that task, letting his head bounce to the front just to stare at you in shocked arousal.

“You want me to do what?” he pants, slowing down his hips. Not because he wants to make it easier for you. No, he is just way too fucking close to blowing his load. You are seriously so hot.

“My ass, please spit on it and use it to fuck me stupid.”

“Okay seriously”, he lets out a breathy laugh, “you are fucking crazy.”

“Jungkook pleaseeee”, you mewl loudly, squirming impatiently, “please for fuck’s sake.”

He stops. He stops just so he can lean forward and press his lips against your ear. It forces you to crane your neck as best as possible for a look at his face.

“I married the most amazing woman”, he rasps, “you drive me fucking insane, sweetheart.”

He listens to you moan and straightens up, gathering his spit so he can give you what you so desperately crave. With his strong, tattooed hands he parts your buttocks, revealing your oh so greedy hole to his equally as greedy eyes.

You aren’t even breathing by now, waiting for the feeling of his wet, hot saliva on your rim. You need it so fucking bad.

Jungkook puckers his lips, letting his spit drip on your hole slowly. The view drives him crazy. To have your pretty hole clench needily while just underneath he can watch his thick cock stretch your pussy. Jungkook loves few views more than this one.

"Yes oh god yes", you groan, feeling a shudder run through your limbs. It is just as hot and wet and good as you imagined it to be. You can feel it. Feel it land on your rim before very slowly running down your ass on its way to your pussy.

Jungkook stops it before that can happen, gathering it with his thumb. His hips begin moving again. Slow and steady. Then he reaches your rim, speeding up your heartbeat tenfold.

"Ready?" he asks, massaging your hole.

"So ready, I’m so ready", you pant, waiting with a dizzy head.

He pushes, watching in delight as you open up for him happily. He groans, you moan.

"Fuck baby, slipped right in. Again. You’re such a needy woman tonight", he taunts cockily, pumping his thumb in and out slowly. The squeeze you have around him almost steals his sanity.

You have already lost your sanity. Jungkook is filling you up. He is giving your holes exactly what they need. Him. A part of him. This is what you need. Him.

"Faster please", you beg, reaching between your legs to rub your clit.

"Yes baby, yes do that. It’s so hot when you touch your clit", he moans, speeding his hips up just as you crave it.

"Ah Koo! Oh god, Koo", you mewl, chasing him greedily, "yes Koo, yes Koo. Oh my Koo, yes. Yes!"

"You're so fucking hot. You’re seriously so fucking hot", he growls, fighting his urges to close his eyes. He wants to because the feelings you give him right now are best enjoyed with closed eyes. But he also doesn't want to because you are giving him the sexiest views ever. Wet, stretched out pussy moving around his cock and covering it in your white cream. Pretty, oh so terribly tight hole hugging his thumb and looking so greedy for more each time he pulls his finger out. Your back is arched so perfectly too and your face is glowing in bliss. Jungkook would be a madman to miss out on such views.

You shudder then, giving his cock a good squeeze. Your right foot kicks the mattress.

"Oh god Koo", your eyes open but go out of focus, "that’s, that’s, ah that’s the s-spot."

"Yeah? Right there?" Jungkook repeats what he did before, fucking his cock right against your g-spot. And again. Again. And again. Until he has you clenching around him.

"There. Yes-", your voice breaks in a desperate moan, "Koo I'm close."

"Yeah? You’re close? Wanna cum?"

"Yes please."

"Then do it. Go on, cum so fucking good", he orders, putting his entire energy into getting you there.

Your voice pitches. Your veins tingle. Oh you feel electric. You can barely breathe and your head is close to bursting. You tense, twisting the sheets with your unoccupied hand.

"N-now."

"Let go princess."

"Ah Koo!" you feel it everywhere. It swallows you whole within seconds, consuming you with such grandiosity you lose your sight for just a moment. It returns in bright sparks and colourful patterns behind your squeezed shut eyelids.

"Yes baby, fuck you’re so hot. I'm so close, I’m so fucking close baby", Jungkook growls, drilling your holes with vigorous desperation to give you to best high in human history.

He does. Like he always manages to do. This once again feels like the best high in human history. You convulse one last time, dropping your hand from your clit afterwards.

"Holy fuck", you press out and gasp, "w-wait tight."

Jungkook slows down, "hurts?"

"A little."

"Sorry", he stops, "can I cum on your asshole?"

You laugh tiredly, "sure, baby."

"Fuck baby", he pulls out quickly and begins jerking himself off vigorously. His eyes are hyper focused on your ass. It looks so empty now that his thumb is gone, "I'm so close princess, I’m so fucking close."

"Please cover me in your cum", you beg, clenching and relaxing your hole just to rile him up.

It works. Jungkook cums with a guttural growl, almost falling if his hand hadn’t grabbed your hip for support. He fucks the air as he cum, covering your entire ass with his hot, creamy cum.

"Fu-uck", he stutters, convulsing one last time. He stops, feeling dizzy but chasing your body by pressing his overstimulated cock against your ass to drag it through his cum.

"Koo", you moan, chasing him greedily.

"I made such a mess of you", he lulls his words, sounding just perfectly out of breath, "you look so sexy like this."

"Do you like it?" you say sweetly, wiggling your hips in a sexy manner.

"Mh-hm yeah, I love it", he rasps, grabbing your buttocks just to massage them. He lets out a deep breath, dropping his head.

"Fuck ___, thank you for that. I really needed that", he says.

"Me too. This was so amazing", you say, making him smile.

He leans down to kiss your spine just once, "I'll clean you up now. So stay."

He drops into the sheets next to you afterwards, opening his arms for you to find comfort in once you returned from your post sex pee. You do so happily, pulling his blanket over your bodies as well. Your legs are tangled in a way that you would have his thigh between your own and parts of his hip against your inner thigh. You are halfway on his chest, finding your head’s resting spot where his arm meets his shoulder.

"Was I too rough?" he asks, caressing your face.

"No, you were perfect", you tell him, gazing up at him with a smile.

Jungkook retorts it, tracing the slope of your nose.

"I love you like crazy, you know?" he says.

"I love you too. Crazily much", you answer him.

He kisses your forehead, keeping close afterwards.

“This was seriously the best make-up sex ever”, he whispers.

“Agreed. Maybe I’ll have to ruin more of your drawings”, you joke.

“I’ll divorce you if you do that”, he jokes, making you giggle. He chuckles, smooching your forehead a second time, "let's fall asleep like this", he suggests.

"Okay", you sigh, snuggling closer, "Koo can I wake you with a blowjob tomorrow?"

He chuckles lazily, "you're insatiable", he says and kisses your forehead a third time, "sure. Only if I can eat your pussy afterwards."

"Yes", you say and giggle. You’re so lucky to have him.

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I am not even sure if I will be posting this (though, if you're reading this, I did), but, nevertheless, I have a few points about Jean that I have to make. He is no saint. He is an asshole and I’m not gonna pretend that he is not. But there is so much more to it.

Let me start with the most obvious. He is said to have clinically diagnosed depression, with, apparently, no distinctive source, and, from what he says, we may assume he is under some sort of psychiatric supervision.

He was diagnosed seven years ago. Diagnosed with depression, which probably means he’s been dealing with it for a good while longer, only at a certain moment he decided to seek help/had an attempt/any other circumstance that lead this man to get a diagnosis. He is now 34, seven years earlier he’d be 27.

The reasons for such unspecified depression may be many, from some kind of a rare neurological defect causing one’s brain to be incapable of properly producing/transmitting/I’m-not-a-biologist-neither-is-English-my-first-language-so-I’m-not-gonna-dig-into-neurological-dysfunctions-further-but-you-get-the-point, serotonin, through a burnout, all the way to having other, undiagnosed disorders/illnesses as *checks Luiga’s tweets* Schizoid PD (I am not convinced that what Jean presents is a 100% textbook SPD example, rather SPD traits/behavior patterns? But I’m no specialist and even if I were, it’s hard to diagnose someone based on those few dialogue lines) and codependency tendencies. The doctors didn’t diagnose any other disorder, or at least he never mentions it, but looking at the world of Elysium, those disorders may not yet have been widely recognized, especially if not presenting themselves in the most typical ways/high-functioning. And Jean tends to be high functioning despite his issues. Yet, I assume that in Elysium, and Jamrock especially, the access and quality of psychological and psychiatric services are poor and probably limited. Not to mention education on the matter, which is probably low if not near none. (Just looking at how is alcoholism treated by *everyone* there, or the short mention of McCoy’s brother gives me a good 90��s/early 00s Eastern Europe vibe of mental issues/disabilities public awareness.) Now, keep that in mind.

Alright. Next up: a codependent, close relationship with an alcoholic.

Jean’s relationship with Harry is an interesting one. I found this interesting research on codependency among spouses of alcoholics, that states codependency is related to, among others, SPD traits. (That’s an, uh, disclaimer? I was just curious how that two may coexist, but apparently, they do.)

Back to the main thought.

As someone who has been in a close, codependent relationship with a person who had problems with drinking, I can tell you something. It’s more than hard to get out of one. You see a person you care about do stupid, drunken, dangerous shit, you may be angry at them, you may be furious, yet you will still feel responsible for them in a way, and you will take that responsibility and try to get them out of the shit they got themselves into. I’ll say more, if that’s an actual relationship, you will feel social pressure that you are responsible for your partner’s behavior and you’re the one to take care of them. If it’s your work partner, then it’s highly probable you actually will be held responsible for their behavior, so you’re even more likely to clean up their mess. And when you help them out, because you care, because you feel like you should, because you don’t want to be “dicked” for it, maybe all of the above, they will be grateful and they will praise you and love you and even if you feel like this is not the right thing to do, you will do it again.

It takes a lot of work and self-awareness to get out of something like that healthily. And if you have some psychological knowledge, it also helps a lot, to understand how to deal with it. And the only way to do it, regardless healthy or not, is by setting boundaries. If you can healthily set them, and make the other person respect them, that’s very good. But if you have some other mental issues in addition to that, if you lack knowledge on how people’s behavior patterns work, on how exactly addictions work and that, you are maybe having some problems with generally understanding relationships between people, how and why they work, it’s very likely that you won’t be capable of setting those boundaries and enforce them to be respected. It’s very likely that one day, when something will happen and you will realize how toxic and unhealthy this relationship is for you, you will panic and you will start to do anything to get out of it, like a cat drowning in a well. That you will start acting cold, maybe even merciless from a certain perspective, maybe you won’t let yourself believe in their pleading and assurances of change, because you will know that letting yourself *feel* sympathy for the person you had this relationship with may lead to spiraling back into the wheel of codependency. Maybe you have already tried this, and letting yourself trust them only led you back to the point where you started and maybe this time, you don’t want it to end up this way.

And you know what? There is nothing wrong with trying to ensure your mental well-being. “Before approaching the casualty, always make sure the area is safe.” YES because if you’ll get hurt trying to help somebody, there will be one more person to help. The same applies to helping people get their life together. If you won’t have a good mindset to help them, if they will only drag you down, maybe the area isn’t safe?

Moving on.

Now, remember when I said that the level of social and psychological awareness seems very low in Elysium/Revachol/Jamrock? About that.

You know what else I see, looking at the Harry-Jean-Dora-Kim situation? A bunch of people with self-awareness in terms of emotion, and emotional development of teenagers, but problems of grown-up people. And they are not to blame, the system is to blame. Harry seems to be very self-conscious and connected to his emotions, yet for six years he couldn’t find a healthy way to get over a heartbreak. He has tendencies to act violently, to randomly drunk-phone his ex to harass her (I mean come on, he was asking her if she is naked), not to mention a tone of other things.

What happens here to Jean, is his situationship/best friend, whom yeah, he decided to ‘have a break’ with, immediately gets over it, and starts to go out with someone else. Taking, that this man has probably understanding of his emotions on a level of a high-schooler, he WILL be salty. He will be mad at Harry and he will be salty towards Kim when he sees them in Whirling. (Not to mention that it’s probably how they just roll in the precinct, and I’m quite sure that Harry’s and Jean’s relationship has been japing on and teasing each other, and as long as they both knew how it works, it was all good, compare: this post. So yes, Jean will be angry with Harry and he will act like an offended drama queen partially because that is just how their relationship dynamics probably looked like for the last two (at least!) years, and partially because he is an offended 16-year-old drama queen, whose bestie told her to fuck off and found a new (boy)friend.

Is it good, that grown-up men have the emotional capabilities of high schoolers? No. Should we blame them, or the fact that their system seemingly doesn’t provide any prevention, doesn’t promote awareness, or offer any proper healthcare for that matter? I’ll leave that to you.

To add to all this, yes, the RCM’s fucked up system, hierarchy, and mentality don’t help. Yes, it would be better for both Harry and Jean and probably Kim too, taking for his PTSD, to get the fuck out of there and live peaceful lives. But you know, changing your whole lifestyle isn’t easy. Understanding that maybe it’s better to leave now and that it doesn’t mean you’ve “wasted” your years is a process, a long and hard one. I had to learn this. My close ones had to learn this. Some of them still didn’t, especially, that where I come from, there is this CEE culture of not letting yourself fail with peace of mind. You got to do everything the best you can, you gotta do it 120%, and if not, you’re a rotten piece of shit. Looking at how Harry treats himself, Revachol seems to have this in common with Central-Eastern Europe as well.

Another thing, we don’t even know what Kim or Jean did before they joined the RCM, and Harry was a gym teacher. Thinking that it is easy to just switch your job in, again, a place with a CEE mentality, is a huge mistake. At the age of 40-odd years especially. In the 90s, especially. We don’t even know if Jean or Kim have any other education on their account, besides being cops, so changing professions would mean additional education, and for Harry, how many places, realistically, would take in a 45-year-old gym teacher?

I generally see that many people seem to forget/not understand how CE European mentality works, and it shows. I am glad that we live in a world where awareness of things such as homophobia, ableism, misogyny and else is common knowledge. But it wasn’t here, not even those 15 years ago. I remember people using names of dysfunctions and disabilities as slurs. Grown up people. I remember my classmates and my friend calling each other faggots or laughing at each other for not being gender-affirmative enough. Half of us turned out to be queer, and nobody had a problem with that, because in those times this kind of language wasn’t necessarily indicating someone’s worldview, it was just a bad habit, a very common one. I am more than happy, really, that we got rid of this kind of narrative and are more aware of the weight of a spoken word now. But when talking about past or settings that resemble this past, let’s please not forget that it DID look different and take that into consideration. Please.

Remembering what we derived from and what a great progress as a society we did is important, as it shows the way we managed to walk, but also reminds us of what people had to deal with. And is a warning, because now we’re probably still all doing things that in 30 years will be so, so wrong.

So concluding this ridiculously long consciousness stream, I love you, DE fandom. Now, I have an interview to watch (probably not anymore) and a comic page to draw (as always). I’ll leave you with this here.

#deep dive into #jeanalysis #jeanposting #jean vicquemare #deep analysis #jean heron vicquemare #disco elysium #disco talking #disco elysium meta #if i only had this much passion to write my master thesis

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Georgie- George Weasley x Reader (REPOST)

Posted DECEMBER 27, 2020

Reposted APRIL 16, 2023

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Warnings- FLUFF

Prompt is in bold: “You’re too good for the world”

A/N- This is for @/dracodear‘s lucky number sleepover & writing challenge! Sorry it took so long!

Enjoy!!!! And I hope you like it Olivia!

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1st Year

“Georgie, let’s just go,” you heard Fred Weasley say from behind you. “What are you wearing, Weasleys? Hand me downs?” you heard a Slytherin boy cackle, making his friends cackle.

You were sitting down at the Hufflepuff table, talking with some of your new friends when you heard the bullying. As a true Hufflepuff (as your friends liked to call you), you embodied what Hufflepuff was all about. The sorting hat did sing “You might belong in Hufflepuff, Where they are just and loyal, Those patient Hufflepuff’s are true And unafraid of toil;” and that’s exactly what you were.

Now, you had exchanged words with the Weasley twins, but the words that were coming out of the vile Slytherins mouths were making you feel like they were your best friends.

The words were making you very angry inside, so angry that you needed to go and do something about it.

“I’ll be back,” you told your friends with a smile before putting on a determined face and walking over to the scene.

“Hey!” you called out, making all of the students stare at you. You gulped, “Don’t make fun of them! That’s not nice!”.

“That’s not nice!” one of the Slytherins mocked and took his knee off of the bench that it was leaning on and walked over to you, towering over you, “Whatcha gonna do about it, Huff?”.

You gulped once more and your eyes flickered over to the boys, locking eyes with George for a few seconds before looking back up at the Slytherin, “What you were saying to him was not okay, and I came to put an end to it.”.

You shivered at the look that the boy gave you before laughing and pushing you ever so slightly but making you tumble backward. “Oof,” you grunted when your butt hit the ground.

He and his group all threw insults at you about how you were “a weak Hufflepuff” before turning around and leaving you there with everyone looking at you. You started to try and get up by yourself but you heard someone quickly scurry over to you and before you knew it, you were being pulled up by your bicep off of the ground.

“Are you okay?” the person asked. You looked up to see George Weasley, one of the two boys you were trying to defend. “U-Um yeah, I’m sorry,” you said sadly and looked down. “Hey, it’s alright, thank you for defending us. My family isn’t too well-liked by purebloods, which is what all those boys are,” George said while patting your shoulder. You looked up into his eyes but quickly looked back down.

Your face went red and you turned your body slightly toward him, still looking down, “I just don’t understand why everyone can’t be nice to each other, it’s not that hard.”.

“Yeah,” he chuckled. You smiled at his laugh and looked back up at him, “I’m Y/n.”.

“Yeah, I know, we have herbology together,” he informed and thought back to all of the times you were praised for being a child prodigy in herbology.

“Oh, well, I’ll see you later George,” you said with a smile that made his heart thump before giving him a quick hug, not even giving him enough time to hug you back, before letting go and running back over to your friends.

2nd Year

“Georgie!” you screamed as you watched your red-headed friend fall off of his broom after getting hit in the chest by a bludger.

It was only his second game of the year, or, ever, and it was against Slytherin, who was never fair during quidditch matches, so someone was bound to get hurt. You just hoped that it wasn’t going to be George, but from the gasping of everyone in the crowd to the boy literally on the ground, you knew that he was the unlucky duck.

“Excuse me!” you shouted while walking through the crowd in the Hufflepuff stands. You got to the stairs and quickly climbed down before running onto the field. To your horror, George was knocked out on the ground.

“Ms. Y/l/n, move! We need to get Mr. Weasley to Madame Pomfrey!” Madame Hooch declared and motioned for you to help her. You put your limp friend on your shoulder, his other arm slinging around Madame Hooch, and you both headed off for the hospital wing.

You were panicking the whole time, you immediately thought the worst, contrasting the positive mindset that you had about everything.

“Madam Pomfrey! We had a bit of a mishap during the quidditch match,” Madam Hooch announced while you both laid him down on one of the beds. “Oh boy, a bludger, I’m assuming?” she pitied while looking at his face that had scratches all over it from the impact he made with the grass.

“Exactly that, the poor boy was doing great, but he got a little distracted and missed the bludger heading straight for him,” Hooch cooed while patting his face, “Well, I have a match to get back to refereeing. I’m sure Weasley will be fine, I’ve seen worse.”. She took one more look at him before patting you on the shoulder and walking away.

“Will he be okay Madame Pomfrey?” you asked, voice shaking from your nerves. “Yes, he will be just fine, Ms. Yl/n. As Madame hooch said, there has been much worse,” she said while finishing up cleaning his cuts.

After the final dab of alcohol she stood up and studied him for a few moments, “He should wake in a few hours.”.

You breathed a sigh of relief and watched as she walked away before grabbing a chair and sitting beside him. “Thank Godric you’re alright,” you chuckled and studied his sleeping face, “Well… kinda, I guess, I don’t know.”.

Your nerves were getting to you again, but not because of the fact that George was hurt, it was because you were just near George. You’ve recently been slipping up while talking to him, always being mesmerized by his very handsome face. You would get all blushy when you two were close, not something that used to happen before.

You stayed there for hours, watching as people walked in and out and occasionally talking to George. “Ms. Yl/n, it would be a good idea to go back to your dormitory. You’ve been here all day, you should go and get some rest,” Madam Pomfrey coaxed, but you didn’t budge.

“I don’t want to leave him here, he’s my best friend,” you informed her with tears brimming your eyes. “Go get some sleep, Y/n,” you heard a tired voice say from beside you.

Your head shot sideways and you smiled brightly when you saw Georges smirking, and slightly concerned face. “Georgie!” you exclaimed and jumped to hug him.

He grunted and hugged you back, pouting small when you pulled away. “How long has she been here Madam Pomfrey?” George asked.

“Since ten in the morning, I’m afraid. She hasn’t left your side all day,” Madam Pomfrey recounted. George looked over at you with a look on his face that said “Really?”, but it was like you were stupid, stupid to be there all day with him.

“What? I was terrified! You think I was just going to leave you here?” you asked perplexed. He shouldn’t be surprised that you stayed all day with him, it’s just in your nature to take care of people.

“Go and get some rest, Y/n, I’m fine,” he beseeched and made a motion with his hand, telling you to go. “Are you sure you’re alright?” you questioned, not believing him. You wanted to make sure he was at 100% before you left him alone.

“Yes, Y/n, I’m fine!” he assured you, “Go and sleep, please, for me?”. He made puppy dog eyes that he knew you couldn’t resist.

“Fine,” you breathed out after his cuteness became too much. “Thaaank you,” he mused. You gave him a small nod before slowly, and reluctantly standing up from the chair you were sitting in.

You turned around quickly so that you wouldn’t look at him anymore, you felt bad for even leaving his side. You walked hastily out of the hospital wing and got pretty far down the hall before your guilty conscience started going a million miles a minute, making you feel horrible for leaving him there.

You stopped in the middle of the hall, fiddling with your fingers, debating whether you should keep walking or if you should go and sit with George. You started bouncing up and down, the guiltiness eating you alive.

You let out a whine before running back to the hospital wing. George looked at you disappointed when he saw you walking toward him.

“I’m sorry, I couldn’t leave you,” you apologized and sat down next to him before laying your head down on his stomach.

“It’s alright,” he chuckled, “just get some rest.”. You nodded your head before letting out a cute yawn and drifting off to sleep.

3rd Year

“Georgie, that’s too funny!” you laughed as you, Fred, George, and Angelina were walking through the corridor. “I am pretty brilliant,” George boasted, laughing too.

“Ah shit!” you heard someone groan from across the corridor. Your head looked toward the direction of the words to see a Slytherin boy looking down at a bunch of books scattered all over the ground.

You left your position beside your friends to go and see if he needed help. “What do you think about that, Y/n?” George asked before looking sideways to see that you weren’t there, “Y/n?!”.

He looked over to see you walking toward the Slytherin boy and quickly followed behind to make sure that he wouldn’t touch you. Fred and Angelina followed closely behind too, to make sure that George wouldn’t do anything stupid.

“Are you alright? Do you need help?” you asked the boy. He glared up at you, making you gulp. It was the boy who bullied the twins in your 1st year. “I don’t need help from a dumb Hufflepuff,” he seethed and bent down to pick up his books.

“Now you listen here!” George growled and walked toward him, but you placed your arm in front of him, holding him back. “It’s alright George,” you told him.

“But he just insulted you!” George chided and pointed toward the boy who was struggling to pick his books up from the floor.

“Here, let me help you,” you told the boy, ignoring George. You picked up some of his books and stood up at the same time as him, handing his books to him. He took them reluctantly from you and looked over at his friends to see them laughing at the scene.

“Stupid huff,” he mumbled and stomped back over to his friends. “That’s it,” George seethed and pushed past you.

“George, please don’t! He’s probably just having a bad day!” you called out after him. George turned toward you and walked back to you, “How could you be so optimistic? He just called you stupid!”.

“Yeah, Y/n, I couldn’t see a good reason why he called you stupid even if I wanted to,” Fred chimed in, Angelina nodding in agreement.

“Everyone has their bad days. And besides, it’s not worth hurting someone for it. Kindness always wins,” you informed them and grabbed George softly by the forearm, pulling him closer to you.

“I can’t believe you,” George scoffed, amused by just how optimistic you could be. You gave George yet another smile that made his heart thump, as did every other smile you gave him.

He just rolled his eyes, trying to hide the red that flushed his face, and walked ahead of the three of you to lunch.

4th Year

“Georgie!” you called out after George, flower crown in hand. He turned around to see yellow robes running toward him, making him immediately smile. “Yeah?” he asked, watching as you finally got up to him.

“I made you this,” you told him sheepishly and held out the flower crown. “Thanks!” he beamed, “What’s the occasion?”.

“Well, I thought I might make something for my new boyfriend,” you told him, giggling when you saw blush spread across his cheeks. “Well, I love it,” he told you and set it on top of his head.

“How does it look?” he asked and struck a funny pose. “Lovely,” you giggled and walked up to him. “Hold on,” you said and stood on your tippy-toes to adjust it on his head, your tongue slightly sticking out because of how hard you were focusing.

You looked down slightly to see that you and George were face to face, and also that George had been staring at you admiringly the whole time. You became shy under his gaze and quickly looked back up, “There,” you breathed out and looked back into his eyes.

He smiled slightly at you before grabbing you by your waist, catching you by surprise. “Now or never,” he mumbled and brought his hands up to cup your cheeks before pressing a kiss onto your lips.

Although you two had been dating for a few weeks, you two hadn’t kissed yet. You didn’t know when it would be the right time because this was both your guys’ first relationship, you didn’t know how any of it worked!

Once George pulled away, you frowned a bit, already missing the feeling of his lips, not knowing when you would be able to feel that again.

“Wow,” he breathed out and looked at you. “Yeah, wow,” you giggled, causing him to giggle too.

“When can we do that again?” George mused. You just laughed and shook your head before pressing another quick kiss on his lips, catching George by surprise.

“Later Georgie,” you giggled and ran past him. George looked around, blushing like mad, making sure that no one saw the state he was in; A complete and utter mess for you.

5th Year

“Georgie! Don’t put that in-!” was all you got out before George poured a random ingredient into the potion you were supposed to make, making it explode. You and George both froze while Fred’s laughter erupted from behind you both.

“Good job George!” Fred cackled, “Now Snape’s gonna have your head!”. And Fred wasn’t wrong, within a matter of seconds, Snape was in front of you both scolding you two.

“I assume it was your doing, Mr. Weasley. Putting… whatever you put into the potion!” Snape scolded him.

The wave of guilt went through you, although it wasn’t your fault at all, you didn’t want George getting in trouble. You should’ve just stopped him and not have let him pour that ingredient into the potion.

“No, Professor Snape, I did it,” you told him shakily, making Snape’s eyebrows furrow in confusion. You were one of the best-behaved students in his class. “Well, Ms. Y/l/n, I guess I will be seeing you in detention after class, and taking 5 points off of Hufflepuff,” Snape ordered and gave you and George a glare before walking dramatically back to his desk. “Dangit,” you whispered and slumped back in your chair.

“Why would you do that, Y/n?!” George scolded you, “We both know that I did it! Why would you take the blame?!”. “I didn’t want you getting in trouble,” you shrugged and looked into his eyes.

He just sighed and pulled you into a hug. “You didn’t have to,” he whispered and put his head in your shoulder, looking down at where he was stroking your bicep.

“I know, but isn’t that what girlfriends are for?” you chuckled, making George look up at you sadly. “Thank you,” he mumbled and kissed you on the cheek.

“I’d do anything for you, George,” you proclaimed and kissed him on the cheek.

6th Year

“Georgie, help me please,” you laughed as you walked up behind him where he was standing by a tree talking to a few quidditch teammates. George turned around and started laughing as well, “Looks like you’ve got your hand full there,” he chuckled.

You had 5 first years all hugging you at the same time. Over the past year, the first years have come to like you a lot. Ever since you helped one girl with her homework, all of them asked for your help and now every day you’re hanging out with first years, which you don’t mind.

“Do you think we could sit here? It’s the biggest tree for shade and it’s pretty sunny out,” you asked him. “Yeah, of course,” George said and motioned toward the ground.

You gave him a thankful smile and looked down to the first years piled on you, “Alright guys, sit down and get out your books.”. They all quickly let go of you and sat down on the floor before rummaging through their bags.

You sat down too and looked up to see George still standing there, his quidditch mates now gone, just looking at you. “You wanna stop staring at me and sit down? Maybe help me a bit?” you laughed and motioned toward the 5 eager first years.

“Sure,” George chuckled and sat down behind you, spreading his legs out so that they were on either side of you. He then scooted up and pulled you into his chest so that you had room in between his legs to write down things for the first years.

You giggled a bit and leaned back, holding a book up so that you could read it. The first years’ assignment was to read one of the sections in their textbooks and answer questions for History of Magic.

“Alright? Who wants to read first?” you asked the students. One of the girls, Alexia, immediately raised her hand. When you nodded your head and motioned for her to go, she smiled and took a breath before beginning to read.

After everyone got a turn to read, including you and George (who didn’t want to read at all but did it because you asked him to), you all started answering the questions. But unfortunately, that is when George started getting ancy.

“Y/n, are we almost done?” he whined, bouncing his right leg. You put a hand on the bouncing leg, making it immediately stop, “No, George, we have 20 questions to answer, and then they have a potions essay to write.”.

George groaned and threw his head back, his right leg starting to bounce again. “You don’t have to stay if you don’t want to,” you told him softly and brought your hand behind your head to pat him on the cheek, “I’ll be fine by myself.”.

A few minutes later, you heard snoring coming from George. You felt bad that he was sitting on the ground sleeping, but then again, these first years needed your help. You sighed and kept helping them, but trying to stay as still as possible for George.

“No, I want to stay with you,” he whined and put his head in the crook of your neck. You just giggled and went back to helping the first years.

Around 3 hours later, as the sun was beginning to set, you decided that it was enough homework for today.

“Alright, guys! Good job today, I’ll pick you up from the great hall at the same time tomorrow and we can keep working on your potions essay!” you told them as cheerily as possible, you were tired out of your mind.

“Thank you, Y/n!” they all said in unison before each of them giving you a tiny hug, considering that George was behind you, fast asleep. “Bye guys,” you whispered and gave them a tiny wave as they all ran off.

You chuckled when you heard the snoring from behind you get louder. “Georgie, wake up,” you whispered and maneuvered your body around to face him. His face almost hit the ground when he woke up, “What, what?! I’m up!”.

You giggled at his quick reflexes and blushed when he looked at you, he looked adorable. “Oh, hi, love. How long was I out for?” he asked before yawning and outstretching his lanky arms.

“For about 3 hours, I’d say,” you told him while looking down at your watch. “Oh okay, wait? Where are the first years?” he asked, noticing their absence.

“They just left, I’m gonna help them again tomorrow, if you want to come and snooze on me again,” you joked and ruffled his hair. “Sorry about that,” he apologized.

“There’s nothing to be sorry about. You’re like a giant cuddly teddy bear,” you giggled. “Oh yeah?” he chuckled and tackled you to the ground, making the both of you roll around on the ground while laughing.

“George!” you laughed as you had rolled around for probably the 5th time. He stopped and hovered above your face, “Hello,” he giggled and placed a quick peck on your lips before hopping up to his feet and outstretching his arm to you.

You took his hand and he pulled you up quickly, making you fall into his arms. “Now let me get you back to the Hufflepuff common room and then I’m going to sneak into the kitchen to get some cookies,” he said and put his elbow out for you to link with.

“How gentlemanly of you,” you giggled and linked your elbow with his before walking into the castle.

7th Year

“Georgie, do you have everything set?” you asked him as he was packing his bags to leave Hogwarts. The plan would be set into motion in about 3 minutes. “Yep, I think so,” he sighed, his voice laced with sadness.

He turned toward you and grabbed your hands, “Why can’t you come with me? There’s enough room in the flat above the shop! You could get out of here, Umbridge will never hurt you again and you can be with me!”.

You looked up at him, eyes starting to brim with tears, “You know I can’t. I can’t leave the first years behind. They need me.”.

He nodded sadly and pulled you in for a passionate kiss. “I’ll see you in a couple of months. Make sure to owl me every day. Or at least every week,” he told you and grabbed your hands once more, moving them as he was talking.

“I promise,” you smiled up at him, “Now go! Go and make your dream a reality!”.

He smiled brightly at you before giving you another kiss and grabbing his broom.

“Ready Fred?” he asked, “Ready George,” Fred confirmed. George threw the firework so that it would fly into Umbridge’s class and within seconds, the boys flew off and made their final ruckus at Hogwarts before flying off, the gigantic ‘W’ in the air really making their final mark.

You cheered along with the others and immediately went to go write a letter to George so that it would be there when he arrived at their new premises.

The Night After the End of 7th Year

“Georgie!” you squealed as you saw him standing outside of the shop. The moment you got off of the train, you apparated to Diagon Alley.

“Sorry!” you apologized as you ran into someone, but you just kept running toward George. You opened your arms as you rammed into George, nearly knocking him over. “Y/n!” he exclaimed and squeezed you as tight as he could.

You let a few tears slip out of your eyes, you missed him so much while he was gone. You couldn’t stand not being with him almost every second of every day. You couldn’t stand him not sneaking into the Hufflepuff common room almost every night so that you two could cuddle.

You both pulled away and looked at each other, the amount of love between the two of you was almost too much to handle. You both grabbed each other’s faces and slammed your lips together, almost completely forgetting you were in public.

When you two pulled away, people were giving you weird looks, but you two couldn’t care less. “I missed you so much,” he breathed out and pulled you in for another hug. He looked so grown up, he had a suit and tie on and everything. All while you had a dress on that made you look like a little girl. “I missed you too, Georgie,” you proclaimed and nuzzled your face into his chest.

“Y/n, I have something I want to do,” he told you shakily. You looked up at him, worried. Was he breaking up with you? No! He couldn’t! He just said he missed you. All of your worries drifted away when George got down on one knee and pulled out a tiny black box.

“I’ve wanted to do this since I first laid eyes on you in first year,” he began, making you tear up. “I love you with everything I’ve got, and I know it’s not much, but my Heart aches sometimes because of how much I truly love you. You, Y/n Y/l/n, have had me wrapped around your finger since we first exchanged conversation. You’re too good for the world and that’s why I love you so much. You’re too good for me, honestly,” he chuckled, you couldn’t believe it.

“You’ve stood up for me when Slytherins denounced Fred and I, you were there for me when I got hit by a bludger and cared too much about me to leave my side, you helped a foul Slytherin who hurt you just because he needed help. You didn’t care that he called you mean names afterward, your heart was too big to accept that there was any evil in this world. You made me a flower crown for me when we first started dating, you saved me from getting detention by taking the blame for a potion mishap that I caused, you would always help first years and even refused to leave school with me because you knew that the first years needed you more than I did.”.

His words were making your heart swell. “You’re too good for me and there’s nothing I could ever do to fully deserve you, but I’m glad that you’ve given me a chance to try,” you were now sobbing at this point, “I guess what this is all leading up to is… Y/n, the love of my life, the girl who owns my heart, will you marry me?”.

You wiped a few tears from your eyes, “Yes, Georgie, of course, I will!” you squealed through tears and let him put the ring on your finger before letting him pick you up and spin you in the air. Once he sat you down, you grabbed him by the collar and kissed him like it was the last kiss you two were ever going to share.

“Yes! You finally did it!” you heard Fred cheer from beside you two. “Hi Fred!” you greeted him and showed him the ring.

“Holy crap, did you steal that thing, George?! It’s gorgeous! There’s no way you could afford that!” he gasped. “Only the best for the best,” George told him while still looking at you.

“Mhm,” he eyed George suspiciously and walked over to you, giving you a hug, “Well congrats, Y/n, make sure to hide that ring when you go out, you don’t want to be caught with stolen jewels,” Fred told you and walked back into the shop.

“I didn’t steal it,” George told you, “I know,” you mouthed while giggling, making him chuckle too.

“I love you so much, more than you will ever know,” he expressed, the tears that were brimming his eyes now starting to pour down. “I love you more, my Georgie,” you said in barely a whisper, trying not to sob again, and kissed him once more.

He was your Georgie forever and he could barely believe it. The purest, most positive, and good soul in the world was his fiancé, soon to be wife.

Georgie was a very lucky man indeed.

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xoxo

#george weasley #george weasley x reader #george weasley x you #george weasley imagine #harry potter characters x reader #harry potter fanfiction

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pretty-chaotic-world · 6 months

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if my BPD can scream

1. I wish i could have a normal love... but no, my brain wants to worship every little detail of you until it drives me insane

2. sorry i pushed you away i felt abandoned and suicidal

3. I’m sick of going to bed and knowing things won’t be better tomorrow

4. I'll ask you thousands times if you really love, please don't get annoyed

5. I'll create "drama" and mishaps only to feel like I'm in home

6. i’m afraid that one day my anger will overshadow the little love i still have left for the world

7. I feel numb. No tears, no anger, nothing. Just going through the same day again and again. I would rather just sleep without waking up.

8. I'm so tired of everytime one small argument or inconvenience breaks out I want to end it and self destruct, it's so draining.

9. I want to stop feeling anything and when i actually don't it breaks my heart but I can't cry it out.

10. "its all in your head" well duh where tf else is it gonna be??? in my fucking kidneys????

11. I am constantly between wanting people to care about me and wanting them not to so I can hurt myself without feeling guilty

12. Psychiatrist told me there is no cure for bpd and I've to change myself. Well why cant they just let me die then?

13. Until you live with bpd you'll never know what it's like to be too much and not enough at the same time.

14. i know im constantly too much for everyone but sometimes i just want to be enough for someone

15. if he will leave me, my next diagnosis will be of "sociopath"

16. im so jealous of all the people who see him and touch him and talk to him every single day it should be me me me me

17. oh I got my hair coloured. why? because I can't hurt myself anymore

18. "you're so distant" because you can't handle my abandonment issues.

19. My younger self disappoint me a lot. like why were you begging people to stay in your life? ohh no worries I know the answer

20. I wanna throw a plate against the wall, stab a knife through my hand, destroy my laptop with a hammer, smash my door in with an axe and spray graffiti all over the walls of my room

21. Why shouldn’t I be mad? Why can’t I just be angry and be allowed to feel it? Why can’t I burn everything down?

22. I have to watch my mouth every fucking second to make sure I don't destroy every relation I have coz apparently social life matters!!

23. Isnt it fucked up how he got away with every horrible thing he made me experience and I’m the one who has to live with myself feeling absolutely fucking worthless

24. I don't deserve food and love. im a horrible person.

25. this is how my eating cycle goes

feeling weak coz i haven't ate anything -> eat -> purge -> feeling guilty after purging -> eat more -> feeling guilty after eating so much -> cry coz you don't know what's happening

26. the diagnosis makes me believe I'm not insane just lil emo ig!! NOOOO YOU'RE INSANE

27. “don’t let it bother u” baby i’m gonna be bothered by this for the next 10 years

28. if I tell you I love you its equivalent to I can kill someone for you

29. Actually upon further inspection that shit really hurt my feelings

30. I don't dive into insecurity anymore, i drown in self-loathe

31. i shut up in between group convo coz I know I'll talk invaluable shit and nobody really cares what I say until it's psychology class

32. "if you are fully aware of yourself, why do you keep acting like that?" slapping self awareness on top of bpd only grants the ability to watch yourself self-destruct straight from the vip section thats all it does literally

33. “Where do you see yourself in the future” building a cult for mentally ill people

34. ofc I've a praise kind i was ignored as a child

35. I'm much better than I was before. you know why coz I don't to air now and don't see monsters walking by side all the time

36. No I don't want to self harm anymore I need to kill that fucking monster

37. Don't mind me, I'm just casually sabotaging all my positive relationships with negative delusions because my life doesn't feel real unless something dramatic and destructive is constantly occurring

38. i don’t care i don’t care i don’t care (im going to sob my fucking eyes out)

39. “Stop making your disorder your personality” I have a fucking personality disorder for god sake

40. turning my mental illnesses into kinks and calling it the BDSM-5

41. "destroy something precious while you're in rage" ohh yeaa and then I'll do that again and again

42. what I hate most about my BPD is the fact that I have started doubting every emotion that I’ve ever felt in my life, whether it’s love, my grief through multiple traumas, or my anger, & it’s so saddening. It has actually led me to start questioning my reality.

43. if I need medication to stay alive, am I really meant to be here?

44. it's either be alone without 75% of my symptoms, or be with someone and display the most horrendous unstable awful version of myself. why do i have to choose between love & happiness or peace & stability?

45. That fucking bpd rage where everyone's voices makes you want to scream and every noise around you makes you want to sh and you're so mad you can almost feel the cuts everywhere

46. getting worked up to the point of becoming physically ill (throwing up/stomach issues etc) because you felt rejected/abandoned by your favourite person

47. i wish my trauma made me kind as everyone says but i’m becoming what i fear the most- a monster.

48. imagine getting diagnosed with a personality disorder and the only visible representation of that disorder is an animated horse man, a sociopathic sitcom character from philadelphia, and darth vader

#bpd #bpd awareness #personality disorder #borderline personality disorder #mental illness #mental health #mental instability

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actuallysaiyan · 6 months

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Kinktober Day 27: Orgasm Denial(And I ain't gonna feel bad at all...)

warnings/kinks: edging, smut, oral sex(male receiving), orgasm denial, begging, canon divergent/AU, agedup!characters, slight cock torture word count: 0.6k pairings: Agedup!Ranma Saotome x Fem!Reader teaser: “Poor little baby,” you pinch his cheeks, making him growl. Ranma groans, “Don’t push it, princess.” taglist: @beneathstarryskies @loki-love @witchofcustom @dreadsuitsamus @pyrofanatic

Your boyfriend is much too cocky for his own good a lot of the time. He wants to make everyone see just how strong he is and how he’s good at so many things. But you just find it irritating the way he can be so confident most times without seeing the risks that could present themselves. Still, you enjoy knowing that he believes himself in almost all facets.

Even in the bedroom, Ranma is quite sure of himself. He often enjoys edging you and making you beg for it, making his ego inflated even more than usual. Something about that really turns you both on, but you wonder what it might be like if he were in the position to beg and plead with you. Something about that idea makes you so aroused.

One night, you and Ranma head into the bedroom after a little bit of sake and fooling around. He’s so happy tonight, knowing he’s going to get you into that perfect position and edge you until you cry. What he doesn’t know is that you’ve got a trick up your sleeve.

You’re on your knees in front of him, sucking him and making him moan just for you. While he’s in the throes of pleasure, you make your move. You begin handcuffing his hands to the bed.

“Hey! What’s the big idea?” Ranma asks, a frown on his face.

You giggle softly, “Just thought we’d spice things up.”

He’s squirming in your grasp, but you’re too quick for him to break out of his bonds. He knows he’s just going to have to sit there and put up with it. Doesn’t mean he won’t pout about it. You look into his eyes and you laugh when you see how upset he is.

“Poor little baby,” you pinch his cheeks, making him growl.

Ranma groans, “Don’t push it, princess.”

You get back on your knees, looking up at the man you fell in love with all those years ago. You’re about to teach him a lesson in humility, though you know you’re going to make it so good for him.

“Just focus on the pleasure…”

Ranma grumbles under his breath until you begin stroking his twitching cock once more. He lets his head fall back and begins bucking his hips and moaning. You hear the clinking of metal as he struggles against the handcuffs, but he’s doing good not to break them.

“S-shit…I’m so close.”

You watch him, careful to bring him right to the edge. Then you pull away, making him groan loudly. You flick his cock a few times, making him even more frustrated. He huffs loudly, his cheeks all pink from the almost ruined orgasm. You haven’t seen Ranma this frustrated in so long.

“Why in the hell did you do that?! You knew I was so close!” He whines.

You giggle, “Because I’m having fun.”

He grunts when you begin giving the head of his cock little kitten licks and you start jerking him off again. There’s just so much frustration pent up inside of him that it doesn’t take him long to get close again. Even with him not announcing it, you still pull off right at the perfect moment. You laugh as his cock throbs and twitches, the slightest bit of his cum leaking out the red tip.

“Fuck off, just let me cum please!”

You laugh in his face, and you’re busy flicking his cock again. He’s basically just dribbling all over you and your hand. Finally, you quiet your giggles and begin sucking him off. He struggles against his bonds again, an angry look on his face. Just as he’s about to cum, you pull off and he grunts loudly.

“PLEASE!” Ranma cries out, tears in his eyes from frustration.

You smirk, “Please what?”

He whimpers at the loss of contact. This is truly too much. But you’re enjoying yourself and you have no intention of quitting.

At least…not until he’s truly begging for it.

#bacon.writes #ranma x you #ranma x reader #ranma x y/n #ranma saotome x reader #ranma saotome x you #ranma saotome smut #ranma smut #ranma 1/2 #kinktober 2023

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barzzal · 1 month

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Be warned this is gonna be long i apologize in advance, but this is all just me giving a massive kudos to you and your work. I’m so happy to see this updated thank you for your hard work and talented writing.

*inhales*

*exhales*

After reading interlude ii for CMC and as usual I loved it to bits but also I AM SUDDENLY CONFLICTED? With BOTH SIDES????? The whole time I was like “Yeah Sidney take the fucking L” but now that we have the full detailed story of how it led up to that moment, suddenly the situation is so much more complicated. HE ACTUALLY WAS READY AT THE LAST MOMENT OH GOD HE WAS GOING TO DO ANYTHING AND EVERYTHING TO MAKE IT UP TO HER AND THE BABY HE WAS READY TO BE A PARTNER AND DAD-

And now my head is in my hands as I think: ‘Oh my god. Reader didn’t give him a chance to be a dad to Lucas for NEARLY SEVEN YEARS (even though she was justifiably pissed at him) AND HE THOUGHT HIS BABY WAS GONE’

And, please hear me out. The pregnancy and the actual birth of the baby are two different parts of the process. It’s different for everyone, but sometimes it takes a few weeks or months for the parents to feel a connection with their baby once they’re born; It’s actually quite common among parents. Same goes for the pregnancy term. It’s fucking scary, raising a child; You’re not just living your life for yourself, you’re living your life for the best interest of your child. And while there’s absolutely no excuse for Sid and his emotional distance/neglect (believe me when I say I still want to sock him in the face for his initial reaction), it does bring perspective at to why he reacted that way. Correct me if I’m wrong, but he was scared that his commitment to his career would end up hurting his kid, not being able to be there for them. Of course, dumbass man sucked at communicating that to Reader properly huh

But he did come back. He did return. He was ready to begin repenting. Lucas wasn’t even born yet and he was ready to do right by him and Reader both.

Suddenly I am now in full panic mode because once Lucas gets older enough to question why did his mom keep him away from his dad if both parents loved and wanted him from the start. And I know reader said in previous chapters that everything she did was for her son and his happiness and safety which is an absolute HELL YES THAT’S WHAT BEING A PARENT IS ABOUT, but did she ever consider the possibility that keeping them both hidden away from Sid would potentially hurt all of them more than it would help? Lucas never got to meet the other side of the family; Troy and Trina never got to be grandparents, Taylor never got to be an aunt. They weren’t able to see Lucas grow up, and I just know they would’ve loved him the moment they were told of his existence.

Am I allowed to feel angry at both Sid and Reader? I am so sorry I… just love this story so much, I’ve never felt so many emotions reading before. Please correct me if I’m wrong in any way.

first of all, ily oh gosh. i never expect a comment this long from anyone but omg thank you!! i appreciate you taking the time to lmk which part/s u like/impacted u most 🥺 not lying when i say i was smiling as i read it entirely it’s truly fulfilling to come across a reader as passionate as u so endless thanks my dear 🫶🏻

second, ALL FEELINGS ARE VALID! i honestly can’t wait for them to be happy why can’t they just sit together and talk things out it’s not that hard 😭 had enough of little lukey having to bear poor adult choices!!

to clarify tho, since i’ve been mia on here and on the updates, the series was supposed to be done in 2022 😫 so our timeline for cmc would be that it’s still 2021 going 2022 (refer to teaser #3).

for everyone to be on the same page, allow me to recapitulate:

april 2015

refer to teaser #1

sidney is 27 yrs. turning 28 yrs. in aug

reader is 26 yrs.

first month of summer, 2015

june: reader finds out she’s pregnant

july: miscarriage scare; sid and reader break up before kris’ wedding

post breakup, 2015-2016

sidney wins the cup, oct 2015 to june 2016

post breakup, 2016

january: luke is born on 6th of january (kind of like his dad’s bday 8.7.87 = 1.6.16)

post breakup, 2016-2017

sidney wins another cup, oct 2016 to april 2017

post breakup, 2019

reader moves back to pittsburgh; hides sid’s son

post break up, 2021 [we’ll go back to this timeline on ch. 6]

sidney is 33 yrs. going 34 yrs. (refer to teaser #2)

reader is 31 going 32

luke is 5 yrs. a few months older than geno’s son, nikita

minimum age requirement for sid’s little penguins hockey is 5 yrs.

luke enters hockey program, meets sidney; sidney meets luke and reader

timeline for ch. 6 until stated otherwise

ANYWAY, i’m so excited we’re now on the second half of the series!!! ✨and the plot thickens✨

#lmk if u guys have suggestions and whatnot!#keep the cmc talk coming 🤍🤍🤍#cmc

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noodyl-blasstal · 1 year

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Sweet

TAZ Bingo for @taznovembercelebration

Taako [16:43]

Cha'boy's cha'boyfriend now. Don’t be weird about it.

Lucretia [14:56]

Hello Barry, if anyone says anything you think is unusual just be cool, Lucretia

Krav [13:11]

Hi Barry,

Just so you are aware, I have made a semi-public announcement that we’re dating. I’ll explain later.

Have a good day,

Kravitz.

Maggie [11:27]

Barry!!! I’m your boyfriend! But in a friend way. Just don’t tell anyone that. Don’t worry about it.

Barry stared at his phone for a full minute. He’d left them unattended for 8 hours, and he was now dating three of his friends? He wasn’t sure the university would give him a plus 3 to events. Barry flicked through the messages again, did he actually want to engage with this? Maybe if he ignored it, it would go away…

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LuLu [17:19]

YOU’RE DATING BARRY??????????????????

[17:19]

BARRY I’VE BEEN IN LOVE WITH FOR FIVE YEARS, BARRY???

[17:20]

I know you said it would be easy to ask him out, but this is a sick way to prove your point.

[17:20]

What the actual fuck, Ko?

[17:20]

You’ve been dating 3 months??? And I had to hear it from Ren?

[17:21]

I thought we told each other everything.

Taako’s phone had been buzzing persistently, but he had been expecting a series of weird emojis from Krav, not this.

Obviously Taako was perfect. Obviously Taako never made any mistakes or missteps or did anything wrong. But this one time, just this one singular time, he might have very slightly fucked up.

Taako [17:23]

Pick up your phone, Lupita, Taako can explain.

“This had better be good.” Lup’s voice was verging on hysterical, and to be honest, fair.

“His ex is in town.”

“The bad ex?” Lup asked.

“The bad ex.” Taako nodded solemnly.

“And she was talking about how he was still single and no one else could ever want him…”

“Uh huh.” Lup said.

“…And she said she thought he’d be single forever because he was pathetic and unlovable.” Taako added.

Lup growled.

“Exactly! What else was I supposed to do?” Taako was fairly sure this was getting off the hook material. Everyone hated Lydia, they couldn’t be held responsible for their actions when she was involved.

“No, yeah, that’s totally fair.” Lup nodded, then grinned.

“Congratulations, I guess.” Said Lup, who sounded a lot less angry at Taako and a lot more angry at Lydia. Perfect.

“She’s unbelievable. He broke up with her!”

“Right?” Taako settled in, bitching about Lydia was one of his favourite sports.

“… and she wasn’t with anyone other than her dickhead brother either. It’s not like she’s come back with a fiance.”

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“Thanks for meeting me Barry.” Kravitz passed Barry the cup of coffee he’d bought for him, paused awkwardly, then wrapped his arm round his waist and walked him to the outdoor table - may as well be seen together. Kravitz pulled Barry’s chair out for him and smiled fondly as he sat down.

Barry took a large swig of his coffee, and raised his eyebrows.

“This is lovely and all, Krav, but what’s going on?”

“Lydia’s in town.” Kravitz replied.

Barry winced.

“Oh.”

“She was being mean.”

“Well, that is on brand.” Barry replied, huffing a laugh.

“She was being mean about you.” Kravitz stressed, surely Barry would understand why he had to do this.

“That’s not new, bud. At least she wasn’t being mean to me, if anything, it’s an improvement.” Barry’s mouth quirked up at the edges, amused by his own joke. He wasn’t taking this seriously for some reason?

“She said she thought you were still single.” Surely he’d get it now.

“That no one would date you.”

“I am, and no one is dating me.” Barry replied, then muttered.

“No matter how much I wish they would.”

“Well, fun news.” Kravitz said, then added some jazz hands for showmanship.

Barry raised his eyebrows.

“Yeah, gonna need slightly more explanation than that, bud.”

“Look, she was being horrible, and I hate her, Barry. I hate her so much. She was mean to you, and she was mean to us, and then three years ago she fucked off and it was wonderful. I didn’t want her to think that you were pining for her or anything, so I said we were dating. We’ve been together for the last few months, by the way. You asked me out at the library. I cried because I was so happy.” Kravitz should probably stop speaking now. Barry’s face was doing a lot of things and not quite settling on an expression.

The spay of coffee was unexpected. To be fair, Kravitz should probably have waited until Barry had finished drinking to start the last ramble.

“Fuck, sorry bud!” Barry choked through his laughter.

“That’s just, huh. That’s, it’s really sweet of you.” He cough-laughed some more, and shoved some napkins at Kravitz.

“Unnecessary. But sweet.”

Kravitz mopped ineffectually at his suit. Thankfully the black hid stains well… not that anyone had to know that. Kravitz definitely wore black for goth purposes and not practicality.

“I had some weird texts from Magnus, Lucretia, and Taako too…” Barry trailed off.

“Oh gods.” He put his head in his hands and guaffed.

“She’s going to think we’re a polycule. This is brilliant.” He wheezed.

Kravitz offered his cup in cheers, Barry tapped his cardboard against it and took a much more successful sip. There we go. Kravitz had definitely made a good choice here.

#TAZ Nc #TAZ November Celebration #Sometimes you have a really stupid idea and you have to run with it #Platonic fake dating #There's no enemy like a friend's evil ex #No one gets to be mean to Barry and then come back and be more mean about Barry #Noodyl Writes #Taz Fic #Taz Balance #Barry Bluejeans

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𝙄’𝙈 𝘽𝙇𝙊𝘾𝙆𝙄𝙉𝙂 𝙔𝙊𝙐 - tbp texting fic !

𝐰𝐡𝐞𝐞𝐳𝐞𝐫𝐬

Saturday 3:18 PM

mintisthebest : crying screaming shaking hyperventilating.

iheartspace : now..what in the hell is wrong with you ? 😟

mintisthebest : I asked Vance to hang out and he said yes

readallaboutit : AYEEEE

acrobat : that’s great 😁 !

iheartspace : ….

acrobat : what?

iheartspace : what’s wrong with griffin 💀?

acrobat : wdym there’s nothing wrong.

➜ that’s great 😁!

iheartspace : I’m taking abt this 😟

acrobat : okay..what about it?

iheartspace : you’re usually grumpy

acrobat : .

readallaboutit : think about what you say griffy wiffy 🥺

acrobat : I should have blocked you when I had the chance.

Iheartspace : ??

readallaboutit : I made a deal with griffin he can’t make any remarks or be mean at all today or else he has to be dressed like a clown 🤷

iheartspace : LMAO 💀 he won’t last a day

acrobat : angry angry mean words !!!!

mintisthebest : what.

iheartspace :

mintisthebest : STFU.

iheartspace : .

acrobat : finney ☺️…. get him before I get to him first.

readallaboutit :🤏🏻 this close to losing griffy 🥺

acrobat : .

acrobat : FINE IDC ILL LOSE SHUT YOUR MUSTY ASS UP BILLY AND FINNEY GET BRUCE BEFORE I SHOW UP AT HIS HOUSE

readallaboutit : 😟 well he snapped ig…

mintisthebest : anyways I’m meeting Vance at the park rn wish me luck 🫶🏼

acrobat : wishing you the worse Brucey 🥺/j

mintisthebest : praying downfall on u griffy 🤭

readallaboutit : NAH HOW COME BRUCE GETS TO CALL YOU GRIFFY BUT I CANT ☹️

acrobat :

iheartspace : 💀

mintisthebest : I had to refresh my memory of how pretty Vance is 🤭

iheartspace : I mean yeah he is but like one swing and your over 🤷..

iheartspace : Vance slander 😍

mintisthebest : one more comment and I’m swinging on you finney 🫶🏼🤗

iheartspace : BUT ITS TRUE 😟 YALL PLS BACK ME UP

readallaboutit : nah sorry u on ur own 💀..

Bruce tied his converse and let out a breath he walked out his room passing by his mother waving and telling her bye as he walked out the yamada residence home he stuffs his phone in his back left pocket making his way to the park he looked at his watch for the time 4:27 PM it read he sat down on the faded orangish red bench that was completely worn out from the previous years.

Glancing at his watch and his eyes scanning around the park waiting for the blond to show up Bruce hoped that Vance didn’t stand him up I mean it’s not a date but it’s still wrong as he was about to get up to leave after about 20 minutes Bruce was impatient sometimes

and he lets that get the best of him he sees the curly haired blond approaching him he let out a relived sigh slightly cracking a smile shocked to see something different about Vance he cut his hair ?! mouth wide open Bruce sat there looking at Vance in shock I didn’t look bad but he actually thought that Vance looked even better with his hair cut “What?” Bruce stood up looking at his hair “you cut your hair” Vance stared at Bruce for a minute making Bruce shift uncomfortably “Yeah I uh I got tired of it in my face so I cut it—“ “It looks good.” Vance looked at Bruce in his eyes “really? I thought I wouldn’t look right” “Yeah Really Looks good on you” Bruce Swore he could see a deep shade of blush appear on The blondes face but didn’t say anything “So Where do you wanna go?” “I have a few places in mind” Bruce said as he motioned his hand for Vance to follow him.

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pinheadvance did two things today chop my hair and hang out with @mintisthebest

Iheartspace : why does Bruce look done with everything 💀

pinheadvance : he was tired so now he’s sleep 🤷

redrobin : Ngl your hair cut is kinda good😟

readallaboutit : i just know when Bruce wakes up he’s gonna spam the gc 😭

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5:01 PM

iheartspace : @mintisthebest @mintisthebest @mintisthebest @mintisthebest @mintisthebest

iheartspace : WAKE UP BRUCEY WUCEY 😍

mintisthebest is online !

mintisthebest : he just fell back asleep

acrobat : ..that ain’t Bruce

readallaboutit : VANCE????

mintisthebest : what

iheartspace : DONT SCROLL UP

acrobat : you dumbass now that you said it he might scroll up 😟

mintisthebest : I’m not that’s invading his privacy.

iheartspace : …🤨

iheartspace : nah why isn’t he aggressive what the fuck.

readallaboutit : this is actually scary 🙁

mintisthebest : because I don’t always have to be aggressive plus I want to make a good impression on Bruce (tell him I said that and I’m fighting you)

iheartspace : aw how cute 🥰

acrobat : 🤢 ew never use that emoji ever again.

iheartspace : didn’t you use that emoji earlier???

acrobat : it’s different when I use it

mintisthebest : Bruce is honestly very sweet and funny I don’t wanna scare him away or anything.

acrobat : so what your saying is that you have a soft spot for him ?

mintisthebest : technically..

iheartspace : that’s cute but if you do anything to hurt Bruce I’m going to you house and cut your hair in your sleep.

acrobat : ..

mintisthebest : I’m not

readallaboutit : why can’t we be like that griffy ☹️

acrobat : because 🥱

Iheartspace : he didn’t even say no and he let you call him griffy 💀

acrobat :

iheartspace : 😟 WHAT.

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Fires of Heaven: Chapters 27-40 43

I was going to start writing this summary and then I took my lunch and read another 3 chapters, whoops.

Okay what the fuck has been happening.

Siuan in Salidar – she and Leane worked out a strategy for getting the Aes Sedai there to agree to their plan, to wit: WE’RE LEANING INTO THE SCHISM, FOLKS. They’re going to set up a “real” White Tower out in the wilderness and announce Elaida is an invalid Amyrlin. Is Siuan trying to set it up so they’ll choose Moiraine as the new Amyrlin? She’s obviously got someone in mind but I can’t tell who.

Then Gareth catches up, sees all the Aes Sedai, and goes “Hmm, I really. Should’ve stayed home.” The Aes Sedai, meanwhile, see an excellent commander wandering around without a task and they’re like “that’s for us, now” and he swears to help put an army together for them in their battle against the Elaida Tower.

Rand and the Aiel are still following in Couladin’s wake. They find out he’s besieging the city Cairhien and Rand wants to get there in time to help prevent the city from falling. The whole Aviendha situation happens.

Okay okay okay listen. Aviendha, this whole time, has been weirdly mad at Rand for ~unknown (but probably gay) reasons~ which culminates in him accidentally walking in on her bathing (because she’s in his tent. Bathing. girl.) and her being so upset that she rediscovers how to Travel using the One Power to get away from him. Unfortunately. She Travels to a blizzard. Rand immediately jumps after her, saves her life, builds them an igloo shelter, and warms her with his body. Insert saxophone solo. Aviendha’s like “FINE. I GUESS WE’LL BONE” and Rand’s like “we don’t have to?” Aviendha: “NO, WE’RE GONNA”. The next day they encounter some Seanchan and hop back through the portal. Nine Moons mention!!

Nynaeve & Elayne, meanwhile, are still with the circus. Elayne is really enjoying this.

Nynaeve gets caught by Moghedien in the Dreaming – Birgitte was helping Nynaeve spy on Moghedien and some other Forsaken. Mogs catches them, nearly twists Nynaeve to her will, gets shot by Birgitte, then makes Birgitte vanish in a cloud of smoke before vanishing herself.

Nynaeve wakes up to find out that Birgitte has been Birg-yeeted into the real world!! I don’t know what any of this means and Myth won’t tell me!! Everyone be cool, I want to find out what happens on my own. We’re finally getting Nynaeve backing down from her previous “I am always right” position and learning to work around her anger, rather than letting it lead her. Sort of. It’s happening. Egwene stood up to her, ignoring her anger, and now she feels at fault for Birgitte’s yoinkening, which Birgitte is rightfully pissed about. I know it takes her longer to figure out how to channel without being angry, but realizing that her anger isn’t always the answer and isn’t always something she can rely on is a step in that direction.

AND ELAYNE BONDS BIRGITTE AS A WARDER. SO THAT’S COOL. Also it was the only way they could figure out to keep her alive after being booted from the Dreaming in a very non-Wheel Approved way. I mean. I think the Wheel will Figure Something Out, y’know? But we’ll see!! I am inducting Birgitte into the wonder girls.

She’s like, Well! I’m here now! Time to make ridiculous bets and beat everyone at archery.

Ough this is why I usually do 5-7 chapters, not 16!!

NYNAEVE spots UNO (RIP show-Uno) and he takes her to MASEMA, who is KINDA NOT ALL THERE, and has been creating a Dragon-based religion which is giving ME big EVANGELICAL UPBRINGING flashbacks. She gets him to agree to try to find them a boat, gets cornered on her way out by Galad, and also gets him to agree to try to find them a boat. Then the Shienarans are like “hey, we’ll come with you because we’ve got fuck-all else to do and we’re down to clown with the Dragon Reborn.”

AND THEN WE’RE BACK WITH RANDRAGON. We’re about to start the counterattack on the Aiel besieging Cairhien. Mat’s like “I’m. Leaving. For real.” Rand’s like “Cool, have fun.” because he knows that, no matter how far Mat tries to run, the Wheel will bring him back to Rand eventually. Sucks to know you’re the reason none of your friends can live a normal life!

Rand is shepherded (ha, sheep joke) by the Maidens of the Spear to help Egwene and Aviendha channel lightning/fire down on Couladin. HE TRIED to keep the Maidens out of the fight by ordering them to guard Egwene while she channeled. They can SEE THROUGH your PUNY WETLANDER PLOTTING, Rand.

Mat leaves, only to immediately run into a group of soldiers about to be ambushed and he’s like “oh these fucking morons are fucked” and turns around to help them. But reluctantly!

#cara reads wot #cara reads foh #wheel of time #fires of heaven

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bullet-prooflove · 1 year

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Taylor Swift - Mixed Tape Prompt List

A collection of prompts from the Taylor Swift songs I love.

Pick one of the chars from my ASK list and pop an ASK in the ASK box!

1) I can see you standing, honey with his arms around your body

2) Make sure nobody sees you leave

3) Wanna see what's under that attitude

4) We were in the backseat

5) Cross your heart, won't tell no other

6) No one has to know what we do

7) That's the kind of heartbreak time could never mend

8) 'Cause I loved you, I swear I loved you

9) Wishing I stayed

10) His hands are in my hair, his clothes are in my room

11) you won't have to cry

12) I've been breakin' hearts a long time

13) If you ever walk away

14) Fuck you

15) hide in the closet

16) Nothing lasts forever

17) Champagne

18) staring out at the midnight sea

19) Go there every night

20) The darkest little paradise

21) Jacket 'round my shoulders is yours

22) Slept next to her, but I dreamt of you

23) Now I'm feeling hopeless

24) You need to just stop

25) when we've had our very last kiss

26) You are somebody that I don't know

27) Tangled up with you all night

28) I still got love for you

29) scream ferociously

30) Tell yourself you can always stop

31) I think it's 'cause of me

32) this is gonna take me down

33) I still got love for you

34) Love you to the moon and to Saturn

35) You need to calm down

36) I can see the end as it begins

37) I think you should come live with Me

38) Drunk on something stronger than the drinks in the bar

39) You know I adore you

40) Sunshine on the street

41) She's gone too far this time

42) For you, I would cross the line

43) must've taken all night

44) I'd beg you on my knees to stay

45) Clandestine meetings and longing stares

46) Laughin', but the joke's not funny at all

47) Sat on the roof, you and I

48) Say you'll remember me

49) When you can't sleep at night

50) Walk me back to that apartment

51) I didn't have it in myself to go with grace

52) Ran for my life

53) You hold my hand on the street

54) And I hope I never lose you, hope it never ends

55) No one likes a mad woman

56) in your wildest dreams

57) And it's okay if you're mad

58) It's like I couldn't breathe

59) Red lips and rosy cheeks

60) And it took you five whole minutes to pack us up and leave me with it

61) You made her like that

62) You heard the rumors

63) Cursing my name

64) You had to kill me, but it killed you just the same

65) I think I've seen this film before and I didn't like the ending

66) It's been a long time coming

67) Doing your dirtiest work for you

68) Leave the perfume on the shelf that you picked out just for him

69) You can't believe a word she says

70) What am I defending?

71) It's you and me

72) Rolling fake dice

73) You turned into your worst fears

74) Leave no trace behind

75) You used to tell me I was brave

76) And that's the thing about illicit affairs

77) She’s a bad, bad girl.

78) Look at this godforsaken mess that you made me

79) The worst thing that I ever dis was what I did to you

80) Doing your dirtiest work for you

81) I know I miss you

82) I'm so sick of running as fast as I can

83) For you, I would ruin myself

84) Like you don't even exist

85) I think you should come home

86) The only thing I wanna do is make it up to you

87) Knuckles bloody for me

88) When you say I seem angry

89) You know I can't see with anyone else

90) Kissin' in my car

91) Drunk on this pain

92) There's nothing like this

93) They'd say I played the ﬁeld before I found someone to commit to

94) I know where it all went wrong

95) He's just your understudy

96) Your favorite song was playing

97) You took everything from me

98) I don't want you to (go)

99) nowhere to be found

100) Battered and bruising

101) Second, third, and hundredth chances

102) She should be mad

103) Darling, I'm scared

104) I don't really wanna

105) You are the only one who seems to care

106) I saw you dance with him

107) Add insult to injury

108) Tossing out blame

109) A figment of my worst intentions

110) Good wives always know

111) I'm not your problem anymore

112) We always walked a very thin line

113) You didn't even hear me out

114) You never gave a warning sign

#will halstead x reader #connor rhodes x reader #brian otis zvonecek x reader #brian zvonecek #horacio carrillo x reader #antonio dawson x reader #mike dodds x reader #grace muncy x reader #Peter Stone x reader #greg gerwitz x reader #javier pena x you #lesley shay x reader #rodrigo sanchez #donovan rocker #joe velasco x reader

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What if...? Duskwood Chapter 28

Chapter 27 ------------------------------------------------------------------------------------------

*Macie POV*

I wake up alone in the room. I don't see Jake either on his computer or in the bathroom. I just hope he'll be careful if he's anywhere in Duskwood. It's still too early.

I read the chat I had with Lilly last night when Jake was in the shower. The visiting request was for a man named Ted Madruga. Since it was late, I decided not to bother Jake with this new clue. I hadn't done it out of selfishness to want him for me, obviously, just that with everything he's been through these months, I think he needed to take a little break, just that. An ordinary person can't always carry the weight of the whole world on his shoulders and I want him to know that he can't beat himself up so much. "You just make me worry too much…" I whispered, letting out a sigh.

I get a notification from the group. Richy had sent a list of things that he was going to need to take home. I still haven't decided what to do. ------------------------------------------------------------------------------------------

Macie Hey Richy Richy Hello there 😁 Macie You’re aware that this isn’t gonna be a fun family vacation, right? Richy Of course I’m aware But it feels like a step in the right direction The police investigation appears to be in full throttle We’re taking ourselves out of the line of fire The only way is up for us 🙂 And what are you going to do? Will you come? Because… Well it would be fun if you came 😳 And that we would all be together Macie I don’t know yet I'm thinking about it Richy You should come So you will be safe 😉 ------------------------------------------------------------------------------------------

I bite my nail, nervous. I don't want to go but...

My brain starts to think is it safe to go? And with him? ------------------------------------------------------------------------------------------

Macie OK Why not? It will be fun 🙂 Richy Cool! 😆 I hope that I can finally sleep in peace again in that house 😩 😄 Cause I haven’t really been sleeping that well lately 😅 Macie Hopefully we can rest 😊 Has Jessy messaged you at all? I don't want you two to argue Richy Oh, it’ll be fine 😅 ------------------------------------------------------------------------------------------

I feel angry with myself talking to him this way, because at the same time I appreciate him. He's not a bad guy but... My stomach turns to think that danger is really close to us. ------------------------------------------------------------------------------------------

Macie Richy you can talk to me Richy She quit Macie What? Richy Yes but is all good I bet she didn't mean it Once we all have our normal lives back, I’m sure everything is gonna clear right up 🙂 You know I’ve got the feeling we’ll have overcome everything soon ------------------------------------------------------------------------------------------

"How can you write me this?" I squeeze the phone, hoping not to break it. ------------------------------------------------------------------------------------------

Macie What makes you think that? Richy 🤔 Mechanic’s intuition 😆

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If I end up making a mistake, I won't be able to forgive myself. I won't be able to see his face again. Dad... why did you teach me your job?

We talked a bit more about Dan's car. It seemed that he was a bit upset, but he accepted it. I don't see any reason to tamper with Dan's car, it would be too extreme, because it could have killed him. "But Amy... She's dead..." ------------------------------------------------------------------------------------------

Richy You know I was wondering how everything would have gone if you weren’t with us Macie I’ve asked myself that too You would have never found the man without a face Richy Yeah, probably not ------------------------------------------------------------------------------------------

I notice annoyance in his message. Like in the beginning when he didn't want me to put those fantasies into Jessy's head. The monsters I look for are always going to be real, not fantasy. ------------------------------------------------------------------------------------------

Macie What if someone is trying to frame Phil? Someone who knew he’d be on Hannah’s telephone list ------------------------------------------------------------------------------------------

I don’t understand these actions. The kidnapper might not have done anything to put all the blame on Phil, which only makes the suspicion even greater.

Richy takes time to answer…

After a while, I get a message. ------------------------------------------------------------------------------------------

Richy I just heard a scream From the forest ------------------------------------------------------------------------------------------

I close my eyes and breathe in. I must continue. ------------------------------------------------------------------------------------------

Macie Was it the voice of a man or a woman? Richy Female Hang on, I have to get closer Again! Macie Richy, I’ve got a bad feeling about this 😕 ------------------------------------------------------------------------------------------

After that message, I get a call from him. I accept and instantly hear his voice. "Hey, ah, well, that wasn't just any random scream, that was someone shout it my name, that for sure." From the tone of his voice, he seems to be walking fast. "You're sure?” I ask, a little doubtful. “Yeah, straight from the forest” he says quickly. ”. Wait, I'm going to turn on the camera.” I put my phone in front of me.

Richy focuses first on the ground and then on the forest. I tried to take a good look at every detail that was important, but it was just forest and more forest. He sighs, calmer. "Out quiet now." he tells me, still focusing on the forest. "Richy, I think it would be better for you to come back." I tell him, starting to feel worried and nervous because I don't understand his attitude. "What if it was Hannah?" he asks me, looking at me with concern. "What if she needs my help?" "But taking risks like this is also risky, remember?" I ask, frowning. "We weren't supposed to go into the forest." "And we don't lose anything by proving it's true or not, either, even if it's just a quick glance," he replies before stopping his walk, looking off into the distance. "I think I see someone." He starts to run, but he doesn't focus on what he saw. "Richy?" I'll call him "Richy, tell me what you've seen." He continues running some more until he stops, refocusing on the forest. I can't see anything. "Hello?" Richy yells, waiting for an answer "Hello?!" "Richy, enough nonsense, get out of there!" I yell at him now. "No! Maybe it's Hannah I've seen!" He answers nervously "Hannah!" It is then. Something he didn't count on. I hear Richy grumble as he drops the phone, falling to the ground. "Richy?!" I yelled nervously. I didn't want to go through the same thing as Jessy again. Right now I can't think. They are my feelings before my reason. I wait for the attacker to make an appearance again, but Richy picks up the phone, focusing. "RICHY?!" Are you ok?!" I ask when I see his face, it was as if something hurt him. Richy continues to make sounds of pain. And everything I believed in, it fades away. "Richy! Tell me something please!" I sit up in bed, sitting up on my knees nervously. When he opens his mouth to speak, I see blood spurt out of it.

Blood…

My weak point…

I start to get dizzy, but still try to hold myself there for him. "Rich, please! Hold on!" I scream and cry. I get up and walk around the room as if I wanted to look for him in this place. What do I do?! What can I do?! "Everything will be fine! I promise you!" Little by little Richy begins to stop moving and I can't do anything else but shout his name and cry for him. He is alone and he has me for support. A support that had been doubting him. From being Hannah's kidnapper… Richy's attacker. When I see that he is no longer moving, I feel my heart race and my legs give out. I fall to the ground. "Richy! No! No, no, no! Richy!" I yell into my phone, watching how the sky ends up coming into focus. In the background I can hear the crows, waiting for something. I don't know what, because in my brain it only occupies the image of Richy dying. I cry and cry, watching the Duskwood sky. Grey. Sad.

The group! I have to warn them! ------------------------------------------------------------------------------------------

Macie SOMETHING TERRIBLE HAPPENED TO RICHY! ------------------------------------------------------------------------------------------

I receive a call. Cleo. I was waiting for news about the bracelet. I don't answer because of my status and she texts me that Phil left the bracelet at the pawn shop. I'd be glad if it wasn't for the situation I was going through. ------------------------------------------------------------------------------------------

Thomas Macie, what happened? Macie RICHY WENT INTO THE FOREST! THERE WAS A LOT OF BLOOD! Cleo Oh no Macie I THINK I'M IN SHOCK RIGHT NOW! Cleo Macie, you need to calm down Macie HOW AM I GOING TO CALM DOWN! I HAVE SEEN IT! ------------------------------------------------------------------------------------------

Did Cleo really want me to calm down? After I seen my friend die? After my suspicions towards him made me feel guilty for his death?!

I try to explain the situation to them, breathing hard. Where the hell is Jake?! Why is he not with me right now?!

I try to get up, but my legs fail me. It's as if hands had grown out of the ground and were holding me to it, wanting to swallow me for having thought that Richy was behind everything. A punishment for being the worst person in the world.

Lilly sends me a private message, she was going to call the police. This went beyond research. ------------------------------------------------------------------------------------------

Lilly Macie, did Richy go into the forest from the junkyard? Macie Exactly, thhhhat's where he heard the screams He calllled me when he arrived in the forest ------------------------------------------------------------------------------------------

I’m shaking as I write. I cannot think. No... I don't have the head to write. I only have the image of Richy in my head. Dying.

Although I don't like the idea, I agree that she tells the police to tell them that he was talking to me on the phone. After all, I’m an eyewitness. ------------------------------------------------------------------------------------------

Jessy It can’t be true. Richy can’t be dead He was probably just attacked Like I was! Dan Oh shit Jessy I need to go him Macie PLEASE DON’T DO THAT! Jessy I just have to Macie PLEASE! BE REASONABLE ------------------------------------------------------------------------------------------

I couldn't risk anyone going into the forets. The kidnapper could still be there! As I read, I start biting my nails. I don't even manage to notice that I ended up biting one of my fingers until I noticed the blood. I don't care. I can't stop thinking about what happened!

I get none of them to go into the forest and sit on the ground, waiting for Jake.

Jessy texts me. I haven't stopped crying. I'm even scared. What if the kidnapper has Jake?! It's impossible. But why isn't he here?! Why has he left me alone again!? His stuff is still here, which means he'll be back… right? I try to cheer myself up with the story of Jessy and Richy and the office fish, but this makes it worse. It must hurt her more what happened, since they were much closer. At least she didn't have to see him...

I can't calm down... The... Blood... Everything... It's all in my head... I have the image of Richy suffering... I get a group notification, but it only makes it worse. ------------------------------------------------------------------------------------------

Jessy They found Richy's cap in the forest I saw them carrying it away in a plastic bag I was covered in blood ------------------------------------------------------------------------------------------

I put my phone down and start to hyperventilate. I put up with Jessy because in the end they didn't kill her. But this? I put my hands to my face, embarrassed. I had accused Richy and now… It's my fault! This is my fault! "He-Macie?!" I hadn't heard the door open when Jake entered. He removes my hands from my face and I see him looking at me concerned. "What happened?!" "It's my fault!" I yell as I try to break free from the grip of my wrists "It's all my fault! He is dead! Richy is dead!" "Macie I-" "Where were you?!" I reproached him, hitting him in the chest "Where were you when everything happened?!" "I was worried about Jessica" he answers, holding my hands to make me stop ". I thought you'd be calmer if I watched that she was going to be safe around her house, if the kidnapper was there." I breathe hard and end up burying my face in his body. Non-stop shaking. Jake hugs me and tries to calm me down. I can’t calm down. All I want to do is scream in rage. "I am sorry about what happened" his voice sounds calm, though broken. I know it hurts him to see me like this, but what do him want me to do? "Do you want to talk?" "I've tried to be strong!" I begin to say, avoiding looking at him "To not let anything get me down!" I hold him sweatshirt tightly, looking for a little more comfort, all I do is keep blaming myself in my head that I caused this "But I just can't do it anymore, Jake! I can’t anymore! Seeing how much Richy was suffering! But I was the only one he had in that moment!" I clench my hands tighter, I feel like I'm slipping even though I'm sitting down." It was like it was with Jessy, only a hundred times worse!" I end up looking at him, no matter how I was. My mind was blocking him. I couldn't see anything beyond Jake, I only saw Richy "I abandoned him! All I could do was scream! To tell him everything would be okay! " Jake looks at me and caresses me lovingly, but I feel nothing but pain. “I am here, Macie” he tells me. "You weren't here!" I pushed him angrily and hit the ground with my fist "You weren't here hugging me! Not even to look me in the eyes and tell me that everything was going to be fine!" I look at him angrily. With rage. I see that he sits against the wall, in front of me. He doesn't know how to comfort me because he can't. No... He doesn't know what that is after years alone, without contact from people. "I wish I had been here." he tells me, hurt. "I'm sorry." What is he sorry? He never cared for Richy. He didn't like him. "It's our fault, you know?" I say, opening my eyes desperate "Yours and mine" I can notice my voice rising with rage, I almost feel like I'm out of control. "We ignore so many threats, even when Jessy was attacked, we just continued.” He looks away, starting to feel guilty. “We've lost Richy, but aren’t any closer to finding Hannah!" I crawl over to him and grab him by the collar of his sweatshirt. I've never felt like this before "But you’ll just go on saying that we're on the right track" I continue and he dares to look at me ", that we just need to go a little longer" I see Richy's ghost next to him and I end up screaming "But how many friends do you want me to send to their deaths, Jake?! Tell me at least so I'll be ready and stop hurting! Say it to my face!" He doesn't make any movement, nor does he get upset or angry with me. I need some reaction to what I'm doing, Stop me! I'm out of control and yet he… Why doesn't he react?! Why am I the one who has to be suffering like this?! “You are angry” he says finally, in that calm voice of his. Now he makes me sick. ”I understand.” "You’re trying to understand you mean." I clenched my jaw. "Have you ever watched a friend fight for their life?" I see a small reaction in him to my words. He too tenses. No with me. Something bothers him. He sighs and places his hands in mine. I purse my lips seeing how little he cares. "There’s nothing I can do but tell you that I am sincerely sorry for your loss" I start to breathe heavily. I don't know why I feel a wave of hatred towards him now, something I didn't think would ever happen ", but we have no other choice but to carry on." I snap at him, picking myself up off the ground and he does the same. ”Giving up is a luxury that we cannot afford right now, considering what is at stake for us.” I start looking at the ceiling, listening to his words. No… I can't look at him, but I know I have to tell him to his face. "You mean what's at stake for YOU!" I point at him angrily. Jake looks at me hurt. Approaching me slowly.

He grabs my hand and I push it away, but he tries again, to which I let him. He is not going to achieve anything by wanting to have these gestures. I'm fed up. I'm tired. My chest hurts, my soul... I have lost a friend and I have not been able to help him, but to doubt him. "Macie-" "Shut up!" I look away, trying to separate myself from him. "Macie, please listen to me" hIs voice, previously without any emotion, seems to break as he utters those words. I just look at him and see again that broken and tired boy I knew. The one who hid everything to protect everything. "I want to be honest with you.” I bite the inside of my cheek, trying to control my breath. Jake brings his hands to my face, caressing me carefully, as if he's going to break me. "I've thought of stopping everything too, because I worry so much about you that it’s crushing me" now I cry listening to his words, which finally manage to reach my heart. I didn't know how he felt about everything that was happening to me so far. Or I simply ignored him because I thought that everything was fine knowing that he was there. Jake rests his forehead against mine, while I now try to calm down from his confession. "I thought about taking your hand and turning my back on all of this.” I can feel his hands tremble as he says it, but not his voice. He really means it. ". But it would be pointless, our responsibilities would cacth up with us. No matter where we go. " We are both from two different worlds. I know perfectly. Jake pulls back a bit and I catch a glimpse of his eyes. It almost looks like he's going to cry. I don't want him to cry and not be able to comfort him knowing that I can't right now. “When you agreed to work with me that day, you took Hannah's destiny into your hands, too. That day, her destiny become your burden, just like it became mine.” I hang my head, hating it all. So if it wasn't for Hannah, we might never have met. It wasn't fair to meet like this. He cups a hand to my chin, tilting my face up so that I look at him. I lick my lips, savoring my tears. "All we can do is not to lose sight of our path, even if path seems ends and insurmountable at times." I let out a charged air, beginning to calm down. I wasn't the only one who was suffering, it's true. Jake also has his problems, I can't blame him, I can't ask him to cry for someone he hasn't gotten to know like I have. I have to at least accept his support and that he is by my side during this difficult moment.

I nod, struggling a bit. I don't know if it's because of the blind love I have for him or because he's right. I decided to accept to help because it is part of me. I'm always repeating it to myself. Jake never threatened or forced me. He could have perhaps pulled a gun on me or forced me to stay with him while I exhaustively searched Hannah's cloud for clues. My God… I was reproaching him and it's his sister who was kidnapped… How could I have been so stupid? He is also suffering. "I will." I replied. Jake smiles at me. Although it's not a happy smile, he seems rather sad. I'm making him suffer enough with my way of acting. "I have told you once before" he starts to speak and hugs me "and I am even more convinced of it now than I was before" I hold on tightly to his sweatshirt, while he rests his head on mine, he even leaves a kiss on me "we will find Hannah, Macie and Richy too" I nod and little by little I'm calming down. I try to take a deep breath, letting the heat of his body wrap me up and calm me down completely.

We stay like that for a while, until Jake lifts my chin and even though he doesn't want to, I know it's important to say. "Can we continue with our investigation?" I nod, wiping my face from my tears. "Yes, there's… There's a lot to discuss" I move away a bit, but he grabs my hand so I don't fall. ". But first I want to ask you a favor." "Which favor?" “I want to see Richy's video." "No. " "Jake-" "You're not going to see it, not after how you've been." He walks away from me, sitting down in the chair. I see that it turns it on the computer and goes directly to delete it. "No! " I take his hand off the mouse and look at him. "I need to see it." I keep my gaze steady. He looks away as he rubs his chin, hesitating. A spark has awakened in me. The spark of curiosity. Jake gets up from his chair and motions for him to sit me down. “Okay” he says finally. "But listen to me carefully" he leans towards me, raising his finger: "The moment you don't feel well, you close it, okay?" "Okay." I accept his proposal, sitting down in the chair. Jake stays next to me and I play the video. *Jake POV*

She's played the video at least four times, even opening the one of Jessica's attack. I see her keep her gaze fixed on the computer, almost without blinking. I look at her hand, she has some blood on her fingers, how come I hadn't noticed before that she was hurting herself? “Macie, stop.” I take her hand from her, pulling it away from her mouth. “You're hurting yourself…” "Sorry." she says, stopping to bite her nails. I look at her face again and something seems strange about her. I don't see her nervous or sad on the contrary. She would even say that she has cracked a very small smile. Maybe she is affecting her too much that she doesn't know how to feel. "You finish it?" She removes the videos and stands up from the chair, staring at the floor. "Yeah" she starts to think, and then she looks at me. ". Okay, I'll tell you what happened.” I nod at her and she sits on the bed, placing her hands on her legs. She almost seems like she's a kid telling a mischief “Richy told me he heard screams coming from the forest.” I sit in the chair, listening to her speak. ". I couldn't hear anyone screaming, but he only called me after he had heard it already.” She looks at me, frowning, thinking “How likely do you think it is that was Hannah?" "Well" I lean back in my chair, scratching my chin, thinking, “thanks to you we know it was a female voice." That wouldn't even have occurred to me, because it could even be the sound of some animal. "because you thought of asking Richy that question, That was very attentive of oyou." "Yeah, I guess it's just my curiosity," she says with a shrug. "So the attacker may have used Hannah to lure Richy into the forest." I look at her curiously. "Why would he do that all of a sudden?" “I don't know yet. She stays thinking. I feel like she's left alone in this.

I know I didn't behave properly when she told me about Richy, but I did hate that she suffered because of me. It shouldn't have taken so long to get back. Or at least have left a note or sent a message so as not to worry her. The bad habit of never having had anyone to tell that I was leaving. I don't have to do this anymore, I can't make Macie suffer anymore. "Let's analyze it together." I move the chair closer to her and taking her hands, I begin to speak. "Since Richy got the sing of the raven, you’ve been expecting an attack on him, isn’t that true?" "Yes, that's what the legend says." She looks at me and carefully responds to my touch. "If I remember the legend correctly, the marked people are only brought into to the forest in the night of the new moon." "Correct," she nods slowly. "According to Jessy it’s only in the first night of the new moon of the year. "But Richy's attack did not occur in the first night of the new moon of the year" I didn’t understood exactly our perpetrator. He is supposed to be imitating a legend, why not follow it at least do it at night? "And it wasn't night either" as if Macie read my mind, she says it concentrated. "Which is why Jessy is so sure that Richy can still be found.” At Richy's name, she sighs. I can't tell her that she keeps what she feels, she would end up being like me "Richy wanted to tell me something" She looks at the computer screen, surely remembering the video. She surely must not have paid attention earlier because she would be crying. "It sounded like… An apology.” I stare at her. She seems to have her mind elsewhere. "But I don’t know what for."

Her cell phone rings and I go to the computer, waiting to know who is calling.

"Hello. My name is Alan Bloomgate, I’m with the Duskwood Police" What? Why is he calling her? Does it have to do with when she called him? "I hope not bothering you, I have few questions for you concerning Hannah Donfort and Amy Bell Lewis." I hang for her. This would cause problems. Macie looks at me confused. "I terminated the call" I say fearfully. I don't want to risk her that much. "Sorry Macie, but talking to the police wouldn't be a wise move right now." She hugs herself, uncomfortable. "I agree." "In any case, we have to assume that you're already a suspect..." I put a hand to my head, overwhelmed by the situation. Little by little, things were getting worse for her. "I knew that already" she says without much encouragement. "I'm probably more suspicious than the entire group put together.” She looks at me and frowns. It’s not exactly helpful that you ended the call right in the middle of the conversation... " "I know," I admits. This may make her more suspicious of her avoiding the police "Still, I thught it was the best option in that moment." I see how she starts to look at her cell phone, squeezing it tightly. "In case he calls you again, please do not accept the call" she nods without looking at me. I hope I didn't make it worse. "So… Is there anything else we should discuss concerning the attack on Richy. " I let her take her time answering. I don't want to put pressure on her and when she feels better, she should tell me. "Yeah, one more thing…" she looks at me as she brushes her hair out of her face. Opening and closing his mouth wanting to speak "The... The attacker didn't show himself to me this time, why do you think that was?" She is asking me to say one of my theories? "Hm..." I tried to think a little about that legend and what happened. Maybe it's the same as with Jessica, right? She herself say that the kidnapper only wanted to scare us "That could have multiple reasons" I answered "Didn't he think it was necessary? Were you maybe only supposed to concentrate on Richy?" Macie looks at me, but she looks past me. "No, that’s not really his style." she replies in a flat voice. I stare at her, waiting for something else. <<A coin for your thoughts. >> "Yes, you might be right there," I accept her answer, not wanting to continue with the subject because of her emotional state. "Right, I think we've discussed everything that concerns Richy's attack.” I relaxed a little. It has been quite tense the moment before. I still haven't recovered from seeing her in such bad shape. "I had thought Phil would be the most important of our clues." "Are you saying it because it is convenient for you to be?" She asks me, arching an eyebrow. “Let's drop that topic.” I say, wanting to forget about the jealousy. "But considering the current events, I am forced to re-think that idea." "The police should see that Phil is innocent too, right?" I see that she's hopeful. Something positive that at least makes her smile a little… Even if it's about Phil... “If the attack on Richy gives enough evidence for Phil's innocence…” I say unsteadily, “After all, we don't know the charges or any of the circumstances." “Phil gave the bracelet to the pawnshop…” Macie looks at her phone again, running her thumb over the screen. "Cleo called out to me, but I couldn't pick it up right now because…" "It's okay, thanks for telling me." I thank her smiling and she smiles back. "Him giving the bracelet to the pawn shop is more proof that he does appear to play a part in all of this." "You think that's why Hannah wanted to meet up with him?" Hannah bought the bracelet and Phil had sold it, but why would Phil have the bracelet? "That's a very good question, Macie," I tried to cheer her up a bit by flattering her. "Maybe she also found out that Phil had given away the bracelet." "I'm sure the pawnbroker isn’t too big on data protection." I smile at her knowing that she makes a reference. In addition to the fact that it is not governed by the trust of the seller and the client. I wonder if Phil ever did something to make him say it's him, buy and sell some jewelry for him to pick up? "Richy was the first one to suspect Phil." Macie's voice doesn't match her expression. She almost looks like another person. As if it bothered her. "Yes, he had made direct connection between him and the raven on his garage door." I still remember the commotion that there was, because of that brand, Lilly was afraid of me. I would love to find out who did it for doing that to my sister. Not in a direct way, but it also annoyed me that it happened.

Macie falls back on the bed. Tired. I get up and sit next to her. I think everything is already discussed. "So, what now?” She asks me, looking at me. The light in the room spoiled all her charm. I caress her cheek carefully. "There's lots to do" I replied, then remembering the messages from Lilly and Macie that I read when she fell asleep and I was finally able to work. ”We have a prison inmate which Hannah wanted to visit. " I begin to count. "We know the identity of the body from Duskwood forest-" "Amy Bell Lewis." Macie says her name sadly. "Sorry, go on..." I don't know why but I like that she remember her despite not knowing her. Her anger at knowing that no one remembered her touched me. "And we even know Jennifer's name�� Hm… Let me think." Macie stops my hand from caressing her, entwining her fingers with mine. I squeeze carefully not to hurt her. “I think first of all I will check wich of our clues will yield results the most quickly” I say, and she nods. "And then go after that clue." "That sounds good." She looks at me like she's waiting for an order. I guess I got her used to my errands "Are you keeping me out of everything right purposely?" "Yes" I smile at her, nodding. ", I want you to rest." "That's nice of you…" She exhales as if she's feeling heavy. “What you had to witness…” I say slowly, choosing my words carefully now “You shouldn’t just shrug it off. Right now, we don’t know what else will have to put up with" she nods, settling down a bit and I continue. "But it is important that you face the unknown both rested, and with a clear mind." Macie smiles at me. A smile that she missed and that Richy's attacker had taken from me. She had returned. "Thank you for caring about me." she looks at me innocently and I am paralyzed when I see her. If she looks at me like that, it's normal that the first thing I feel is wanting to protect her. I'm going to get up but Macie stops me, standing up.

She stares at me and I feel like my heart is going to drop out with that look. "Thank you…for calming me down." she whispers and I feel her skin warm from her hand. "You're welcome" I replied, still worried "I promise we'll get this over with soon..." "Yeah…" She gives me a little kiss, like the one I gave her when we saw each other again. Damn, if it wasn't for the fact that I promised that I'll be looking for clues… "Then I'm going to get some rest" she says, crawling on the bed until she lies down ". My head hurts from crying so much..." "Do you want something for the pain?" I asked, remembering the medicines Ashley gave me. "Yes please." I get up for my backpack and take one painkiller out, along with a bottle of water. I hand it over to her and she settles back on the pillow, closing her eyes.

I'm not going to forgive anyone who made her feel all this suffering that she's been dragging.

Chapter 29

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AS A WARNING, there is the implication of violence and abuse in this part. Originally posted 9/5/23.

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Alyss found New Hampshire nearly impeccably run, barring a few stray peccadilloes he suspected came from Gracie’s staff, not the vampire overseer herself, but he ran into an immediate problem when he started looking into the Vermont books. He went looking for Gevaun and found the man in a large, sunny gym, overseeing the combat training of most of the house staff. Kliman’s Second still made the time to move over to a corner to attend to the accountant at once.

Alyss closed his eyes, drew a deep breath, and scrunched his wings close to his back as rigidly as possible. Jean was on the far corner of the gym, working on a machine that allowed him to look out of the ceiling-to-floor windows; he was wearing a long-sleeved shirt that fit him like a second skin and his arms were doing things that made the angel’s neurons squeal like teenagers. It took a tremendous amount of effort to focus on Gevaun. “The Vermont books I have are copies. And I suspect they’re fakes.”

Gevaun’s eyes went wide. “All of them?”

“They look good, all of them. And I probably wouldn’t be able to confirm until I got the hard copies. But you hired me to dig, so I went digging. I think I found the originals. They’re in an entirely different part of your cloud directories, locked up tight.”

The Second scowled. “Show me. Jean, take over, would you?”

“Alright,” the other vampire looked briefly startled to be called on, but he obeyed readily enough as Alyss led Gevaun out of the gym and to his office.

Gevaun talked to Kliman, who talked to someone called Evie, who acquired the services of someone else. Within an hour Alyss had access to the original books and someone called Alistaire was in deep trouble, which kept getting deeper the more Alyss dug. He begged leave to skip dinner as he worked, printing out copies of the information he’d already saved in a separate drive. When the knock came to the door he didn’t even look up. “Come in.”

“Holy crap.” Jean’s voice was low and surprised. “Isn’t accounting supposed to be organized?”

Alyss looked up, startled. He was sitting on the floor once again, surrounded by a sea of printouts, a red pen in his mouth, a blue one tucked behind one ear, and a yellow one stuck to the collar of his shirt. He spat out the pen to speak. “Oh, this, I mean, it is. I am! Organized. It’s just a very particular sort of organized.” He stared at the office. “It makes sense to me,” he finished weakly.

“That’s what matters,” the vampire replied evenly, and the angel felt a little better. “But I brought dinner and I don’t think you got anywhere to put it down in here. It’s quick food,” he assured Alyss when the accountant looked at all his work. “And Chere’ll be mad if I have to take it back. The last person you want angry at you is the one cooking your food.”

“I know, I know.” Alyss stretched. His spine and his wings both felt kinked and cramped. “I guess I can break for a bit.” He followed the vampire into his room, and Jean set the tray he was carrying on top of a small, decorative desk. Before Alyss could protest, Jean sat on the bed, which left the accountant to take a seat before the tray.

“Can I ask what you’re doing, or is it hush-hush?”

“Some of it is, but yes, you can ask. I’m running five-year audits on everyone who works for Kliman. This just got a little more, erm, complicated because I keep finding things wrong.”

“Alistaire stealing from Kliman?”

“I don’t know what he’s doing, exactly, but it’s not nice,” Alyss declared primly, making Jean smile faintly. The angel found two sandwiches and a tremendous wedge of egg custard pie on the tray and started making short work of them. “And there’s so much of it that he couldn’t just hide it, he had to make a whole other set of books to try and pretend it doesn’t exist.”

Jean tried to focus on what Alyss was telling him but it was hard. Was it ever hard. The angel, so guarded and shy, burst into life like a sunflower when he started speaking of his work, his gestures and his voice full of animation. The delicate features, usually so pale and still, glowed with life, and the dark brown eyes filled with light. He did this thing, the vampire realized, where one of his wings twitched when he made a particularly energetic point, where someone else might have gestured sharply with one hand.

“I’m sorry, I’m probably boring you.”

“You’re not. Just not sure I’m following all of it. You make it sound like you can’t hide anything when it comes to business.”

“Oh, you can hide so many things, so many. You just have to work at it, and it’s twice as hard, but -” Alyss drew himself up sharply, and went so profoundly red that Jean could see the color creeping over his face by gradients. “Which I would never ever do, of course, not ever.” He stuffed a giant bite of pie in his mouth.

Jean couldn’t help a low, rusty little chuckle, and Alyss stared. Gaunt and exhausted as the vampire looked, when he smiled, which was so rare, and when he laughed, which he’d only heard twice, his eyes came to life like spring coming to the world, green and vibrant. “Don’t need to worry about me, Alyss. Not gonna sell out your trade secrets. I’m just… It’s weird. Never heard of an angel wanting to be an accountant.”

“I’m the only one I know of,” Alyss agreed. “My parents are very disappointed.” When Jean’s brows shot up he shrugged a little. “I guess they wanted me to follow in their footsteps.”

“What do they do?”

“As far as I’ve ever been able to tell? Nothing. Be adored. They go from lover to lover, have them pay for everything and then flit away to the next person when they get bored. I’m sure it’s a very fun life for them, it’s just not the life I wanted.”

“They had you, though. There must be something there.”

“I was an accident. They weren’t nearly as interested in the baby as they are in the, er, baby-making,” Alyss declared primly, sipping at his tea and flushing faintly. “They’re complicated people.”

‘Complicated’, Jean had long ago learned, was what one called the people you desperately wanted to care for you, even if they never would. “I think their disappointment is their loss,” he said simply.

Alyss nearly choked on his drink. “Ahm. Well, what about you? Where are you from? Wait, is that alright to ask? You don’t have to answer.”

��It’s fine."Jean figured the questions would come, eventually, and he’d rather they come from someone like Alyss, someone who seemed truly, honestly nice. "Mississippi, a long time ago. If you mean the angel, you wouldn’t have heard of him. It was in Africa, very small little place.” He rolled to his feet before Alyss could think of any more questions to ask. “I’ll take the tray if you’re done -”

“Oh, you don’t have to, I can -!” Alyss scrambled to his feet and grabbed hastily for the tray. He moved so abruptly, so unexpectedly, that the end result was to have the vampire nearly crash into his back, between his wings, so close that the warmth of him rolled like a summer breeze over the feathery down peeking out of the angel’s shirt.

Both men froze. The wings twitched once and then went rigidly still. Jean was close enough to see a deep blush against the pale skin of the angel’s neck; he could also see the quick beat of his pulse there. He could smell the old book and ancient library scent of him. There was not even an inch between his fingers and those amber-colored feathers, and for a moment he wanted nothing more than to sink his hands into them and find out if they were as fine, as silky, as soft as they looked. The vampire suddenly realized, in a blaze of enlightenment, that Alyss would likely not stop him.

Alyss closed his eyes. He hadn’t had anyone this intimately close to him in well over a decade, and even then it had been more awkward than enticing. But the spicy scent of Jean, mingled with the faint smell of the woods and a passing hint of soap and aftershave, felt cataclysmically erotic in ways he couldn’t even begin to understand. His hands were shaking and he took them from the tray before the clatter could give him away, but he didn’t dare move in any direction. He could barely breathe as it was.

“Alyss.” His name spoken by that low, calm voice felt newly minted to the world and loaded with decadent, unspoken suggestions.

“Um,” was all the angel could croak out and he could have kicked himself for it, eyes closing and head lolling down minutely in embarrassment. He heard that low, rusty chuckle, brief and ephemeral, as if Jean were only just learning how to make the sound, and his head whipped around, only to find himself dangerously close to the face of the much taller vampire. His breath caught.

Jean blew out a slow breath, saw it touch the angel’s lips, saw Alyss lick them automatically, and knew he’d been right.

Alyss saw the vampire step back. And then he felt a touch, as delicate as a kiss, along the leading edge of one of his wings.

“I’ll take the tray. You’ve got work.”

“Okay,” the angel managed to strangle out, knees gone wobbly at such a tiny, tiny gesture. He stepped aside somehow, watched the vampire pick up the tray and head out without another word, and crashed down to sit on the bed not knowing what to even think of the new shape of the world.

How was he supposed to get back to work after that?!

After a week, Alyss realized Alistaire’s crimes were infinitely worse than falsifying his accounts. Things had escalated so that he was giving Kliman a nightly report, usually with Gevaun and Lilah in attendance, if the latter wasn’t traveling.

“Call in Rook,” Kliman told Lilah after one particularly convoluted and vicious bit of business. “This only gets worse the more I hear of it.” As the liaison nodded and left the room, the older angel turned to her accountant. “Alyss, you have new directions.”

“Yes, ma'am?” The young angel drew himself up straight.

“Do what you can so Alistaire’s successor can get past all of this,” she waved her hands over the documentation the accountant had brought her, “and anything else you discover, and get things back on the proper course.”

“Yes, ma'am.”

She waved him away and Alyss picked up his papers and fled the room. He was just past the door when he heard Gevaun’s voice rumble.

“He’s going to run.”

“He will try,” Kliman said icily. “Rook will make sure he does not get far.”

Alyss rushed down the hallway and up half a flight of stairs, and that was as far as he got. He leaned against the wall, shaking, holding onto his paperwork as if it were a life raft. He didn’t know anything, not the warmth of the house around him, not the rainy view outside the round window off to one side of him, only the hammering of his heart.

“Alyss?”

The angel nearly jumped out of his skin at that familiar voice. When he spoke, his words were shaky with relief. “Oh, Jean.”

The vampire moved closer, frowning. “What’s wrong?”

“Oh, well, um. I think I just killed someone.” Alyss tried to shrug, it came out a shiver. Tried to smile and it came out terribly wobbly.

Jean’s brows shot up, and he moved closer still. He’d have expected any number of reactions from an angel who admitted to such a thing; Alyss’ was not on that list. Instead of saying anything he touched, very lightly, the back of one of those white-knuckled hands. “Alyss -”

“I’ve been working on the Vermont data, I mean, you know I have, everyone knows I have, of course you’d know, and I keep finding things wrong, and more and more wrong, and of course I report everything to Gevaun and Lilah and Kliman, so they have to do something about it, but I got so used to everyone being happy here, everyone’s happy here, and I didn’t think -”

“Alyss,” Jean said a third time, and put a calloused thumb over the angel’s lips.

Alyss cut himself off with a squeak.

Jean had to very sternly talk himself into pulling his hand away. “Did you put a gun to Alistaire’s head? Did you force him to do whatever it is he did?” When the angel shook his head meekly, Jean shrugged. “He’s a grown man, Alyss. He’s nearly two hundred years old, and he’s worked for Kliman all of his free life. He knows the rules. He’s the one who chose to break them. And when he could’ve come clean he chose to go in even deeper.” Very carefully, very pointedly he added, “his crimes aren’t for you to carry.”

When the angel drew in a stuttering, uncertain breath, his brown gaze skittering away, Jean had to accept a realization he’d been shying away from. “You’re not used to places like this, are you. Kliman’s house. Where everyone’s… happy.” God, more and more the vampire was being forced to accept that the accountant might actually be a decent creature.

Alyss shook his head. “I’ve seen such things, Jean,” he whispered. “They aren’t fair and they aren’t right and no one does anything about them because they’re vampires.” He huffed. “’Oh, they’re just vampires’,” he mocked a snooty tone, then scowled. “We made them that. We made you that. And then everyone just, just -”

“Hey.” Jean caught the accountant by the shoulders and shook him lightly. “Can you change Alistaire?”

“No. I mean… No, I don’t even know him.”

“How far back do your records go?”

“Oh, I’m anywhere between five and twenty years in for some of them and I’m still -”

“I know it’s different for angels, Alyss, but for normal people twenty years is an eternity. People can change so much in twenty years, if they want to. He just got worse. Was he going to stop if you didn’t catch him?”

Jean watched that sweet brown gaze dart this way and that, running from reality, trying to find an answer other than the truth. In the end the angel sagged down, beaten. “No.”

“God.” The vampire looked at nothing in particular for a long moment before giving Alyss his attention again. “You’re nicer than anyone deserves, you do know that?”

“I’d like to think I’m the normal level of nice,” the angel replied in a mutinous murmur.

Jean had to grin at that. “I’ll help you to your room.” When he saw the amber wings twitch, the vampire reconsidered. “Have you been to the sunroom yet?”

“I don’t think so.”

“Come on. We’ll drop off your stuff and I’ll give you the tour I guess no one gave you when you got here.”

The weather shifted to crisp, chilly and sunny autumn days; the change, as much as the shift in the direction of his work, helped Alyss shake off his glum.

Much of it, he had to admit, had to do with his conversation with Jean. The vampire hadn’t been cruel but he’d been blunt, and honest, and calm. Alyss might not like it but he knew Jean was right, and to a certain degree so were Gevaun and Kliman. He couldn’t, wouldn’t ever approve of the casual, gleeful cruelty he’d witnessed against other vampires, but Alistaire was not the sort of vampire that would respond to kindness. To him it was simply a weakness to be exploited.

It made Alyss mad, though. Alistaire’s attitude was precisely why no one cared when other vampires suffered at the hands of their angels. One horrible rotten apple, ruining life for everyone else in the barrel.

The Connecticut angel arrived early next morning. He was very much what everyone expected of an angel, tall and powerfully built, young, with sharply defined features and piercing eyes, short brown hair and red and brown wings serrated with white. He suffered a hug from Kliman which he stiffly tried to return, shared a strong, friendly handshake with Gevaun and ignored the fact that the entirety of the house staff was peeking out of every window. When they were introduced he examined Alyss for all of three seconds and immediately dismissed him. The accountant gratefully scurried back to his office, where he stayed until dinner time rolled around and he was told Kliman’s enforcer would not be joining them, having already gone on his way. He still spent dinner listening to the staff swoon and gush over the Connecticut angel, fleeing as quickly as the excellent chicken pot pie allowed it. Listening to other people list the many ways in which he himself was not a noteworthy angel wasn’t his idea of a good time.

If it weren’t utterly unthinkable, he would have put something terrible in the Connecticut books just to be horrible and petty and mean. But it would have been… well, horrible and petty and mean. And dishonest, which was something Alyss tried never to be unless he were specifically hired for it. And even then he was always very dubious about taking on that kind of job, because it unfailingly got complicated and sticky and unpleasant.

Besides, as he paced restlessly through his office and room, staring at his tablet, he was already wondering if he hadn’t ended up embroiled in precisely that kind of situation.

Maine wasn’t adding up.

Maine was run directly from Kliman’s home, directly by the angel. Chere ruled over the kitchen, yes, but part of the reason Kliman had a liaison was so she could oversee her house and her state personally. Every decision that might have caused the books to be wrong would have to go through her. Could it be a test? To see if Alyss really was as good as he claimed? Could it be a trap? The discrepancies weren’t terribly big but they were there, needling him.

Alyss snatched a cloak and threw himself out of the balcony, circling once and gliding down to the short, lighted path that followed the perimeter of the pond. He had to get away, had to clear his head. He needed the silence of the woods; he regretted his choice almost immediately, when the cold of the season, compounded by the proximity of the water, slammed into him and left him shivering. He wrapped his wings around himself as best he could and clung to the cloak, muttering very unkind things about his inability to ignore the cold.

In the dark and the silence, the distant sound of an unfamiliar engine came to him on the breeze and for a moment he fancied he heard Jean’s voice. It shot a pang through him and he realized he missed the vampire; he hadn’t caught a single glimpse of him through the entire day. Shivering, he hurried in the direction of the sounds. He found himself going through the dark woods, on a road he didn’t recognize and could barely be called one, and pulled his wings even closer to himself, wary. The road brought him to another side of the marshlands that dominated a good third of Kliman’s estate and to an entirely unexpected sight.

Across perhaps fifty or sixty feet of still water he could see the wooden walkway that ran along the other side of the marsh. There was a boat there, the shallow-keeled type, engine humming very quietly in the still, cold air. Three people were already on it, two of them huddled down as close to one another as they could, the third minding the engine and holding a violet-tinted, very small light. There were six more people on the walkway, and even as he looked Alyss recognized one as Gevaun. Kliman’s Second was wearing dark, comfortable clothing, and even as Alyss looked he saw the vampire pick up one of the other figures and set them down gently on the boat, holding on until the new passenger had found their footing. By his side, someone else in a dark, heavy lined jacket handed over a small bag.

Alyss knew that jacket. That was Jean. What was going on? The whole thing had the feel of something clandestine and dangerous, but Gevaun and Jean were… well, maybe not friends but they were good people. Gevaun was the sort of person that came to mind when the angel thought of the word 'stalwart’. And Jean, well, Jean was Jean.

Skirting the edges of the marsh and hoping that he wouldn’t run himself into any more horrible spiky briers, Alyss inched closer to the strange little gathering. He paused at the very edge of the woods without setting foot on the walkway, knowing that if he did he’d be far too visible, even if the vampires didn’t scent or hear him. He was honestly surprised they hadn’t heard him already; to the accountant his passage through the woods had sounded only a little quieter than an avalanche.

He was close enough to hear Jean speak in that low, calm, steady tone he knew so well to one of the other people, a smaller figure than most of them there, though the angel was still too far away to make out the words. The vampire then picked them up, careful and slow.

There was still a muffled cry of pain ringing clear over the marsh.

Alyss gasped out loud and surged a step forward before he knew what he’d done, driven by an instinct older than the world. He froze almost immediately, but the heads of both the vampires had whipped around as if they were starving predators who’d scented blood. The angel groped blindly behind him for support that most obviously wasn’t there, backing away from the scene. He turned to run.

A painfully strong grip caught his shoulder, spun him around and slammed him wings-first into the nearest tree. He cried out in surprise more than pain, reaching out to try and grab onto his attacker… and froze.

A knife, a long hunter’s blade keenly sharp on a weathered wooden handle, was pressed against the skin of his throat, just under his chin. Alyss froze, disbelieving and terrified, a tiny chirping sound of panic escaping him.

Gevaun’s eyes went very wide when he realized who he’d caught. His expression, which had sharpened to nearly wolf-like lines, crashed into chagrin, and he very succinctly summed up both the situation and everyone’s feelings about it. “Well, crap.”

“Walk, Alyss,” Gevaun commanded, turning the accountant around to face the walkway, his tone brooking no argument.

“I’d rather just go -”

“Matt has a rifle, Jean has a shotgun, I have a lot of knives and you’re just getting to your third century. Walk.”

Huddled miserably in his cloak, his wings dragging behind him and his whole body shaking in incomprehending fear, Alyss dutifully walked up to the little scene he’d spied on the walkway, his feet occasionally catching on the uneven planks.

“Alyss.” Jean’s tone and expression were both stricken. Behind him, three figures huddled closer at the sight of the angel. Alyss could all but smell the fear in the air, thicker even than the unmistakable scent of the vampires. He could also smell blood, and it made his feathers shift restlessly. “What,” Jean demanded, “are you doing here?” He was having trouble accepting that he might have misjudged the angel so badly, or believing that Alyss could indeed be a spy. He didn’t make that kind of mistake, he never had.

“My head was full,” Alyss muttered, and there, before the vampire, the person that he’d come to trust above all others in Kliman’s house, it was as if a dam had broken. “It was all numbers and chaos rattling around and I couldn’t get it to stop because it’s all a mess that I can’t, I can’t fix because it’s these books, for here, for Maine and those shouldn’t be wrong but they are and -”

“Alyss.” Jean lifted a hand to quiet the angel, to soothe him as he had before, and Alyss jerked away, fear in the rich brown of his eyes. The vampire froze. It was a gesture he was far too familiar with, that flinch. His life had been full of it for the past few centuries. But he’d never been the one to provoke it on someone he knew, someone he cared for. He stepped back, his features graven in stone. “Gevaun -”

“I have no bloody clue what to do,” the other vampire admitted in Berber.

“He’s not a spy,” Jean matched the language.

“Jean, I know you like the sunflower but he was there. Hiding in the woods, looking at us. That’s normally called spying.”

“He’s not a spy!”

“Even if he’s not, now what? We cut him loose and hope he doesn’t tell anyone? His mouth runs, you’ll have noticed!”

Jean had no response to that, the very concept seeming so utterly outlandish to him, so he switched tacks. “What do you want to do, kill him? Somehow? He’s not old, but he’s old enough to make it hard. And how do we explain that when the Refuge comes asking after him?”

“There’s no one who’d come asking for him,” Gevaun replied ruthlessly.

Jean saw the flinch a second before Alyss joined the conversation in the same language. “I speak Berber, you know.” He sounded tired and defeated.

Everyone went quiet once again. Behind Jean, one of the huddled figures started shivering so hard their teeth were clacking. Alyss automatically threw his wings back and undid the clasps on his cloak.

“What are you doing?” Gevaun demanded.

“They’re cold,” Alyss murmured, slipping the cloak off and stepping forward.

“What,” Gevaun tried to step forward between the angel and the three figures, but found his way momentarily barred by one of those amber wings, “are you doing, get -”

“They’re cold!” Alyss nearly shouted at the vampire before moving forward.

The shivering figure was a young man, absolutely beautiful, with very pale skin and refined features, eyes gone wide with terror at the sight of the angel. He was so cold in the bleak New England night his lips were turning purple, but he didn’t move. His fear went to confusion, and then embarrassed gratitude, when Alyss threw the cloak over his shoulders, to cover the flimsy embroidered tunic and blousy black pants that were all he wore. “Gracias.”

“De nada,” Alyss replied automatically, stepping back and whirling to face the two vampires. “You’re both wearing jackets. You’re both old! He’s a baby, and you didn’t think to give him one? To bring a blanket or something for him? For the rest of them?”

The silence lingered before Jean admitted, “We don’t speak Spanish, neither of us. We didn’t know who was coming, only that -”

“Jean!”

“- only that they were coming,” the vampire finished stubbornly, and he and Gevaun glared wordlessly at one another.

“Oh, for the love of prime numbers!” Alyss cried out, turning once again, his voice gentle and his question pointed. One of the other three, a woman, spoke to him in a different language, and he switched seamlessly to match her.

“Oi,” the vampire at the boat’s rudder suddenly called out. “I’m sure this is a problem for you lot, but I need to get them out of here quick.” He threw in an extra incentive. “Van’s heated.”

Jean turned around. “Alyss,” he called out, and gestured to the third woman, who was wrapped up in a fine woolen blanket stitched with ribbons and exquisite embroidered edges. “Tell her I will help her into the boat, but it’s gonna hurt.”

“Why is it -” The question withered in Alyss’ mouth as the truth, finally, bloomed to life in his mind.

Runaways. They were all runaways.

He turned to the woman, who was staring sightlessly at the marsh, and began gently asking questions, rolling through every language he knew. She twitched at one point, and finally turned to not quite face him when he translated for Jean.

“It’s only pain,” she murmured emotionlessly, her Finnish without accent. “I will try not to cry out this time.”

“She understands,” Alyss told Jean, his mouth dry with the new, growing horror of it. He turned to the other woman waiting on the dock. “You’re all… This is… You could die, you know, you could die if they catch you,” he told her in Polish.

She scoffed. There were bruises like shadows all over her face, and scars all along her neck; as a vampire she was young enough that she wasn’t healing quickly, and her healing was not clean. Either that, or someone had made an effort to make sure she got no benefit of either. “Better to die than to go back to that life,” she replied, and her conviction was ironclad.

“Is that… why you’re here? All of you?”

“No.” Her gaze darted to where Jean was carrying the Finnish vampire onto the boat. “No. Some of us are here because they would have never let us die.”

That thought, Alyss found out, was even more horrifying than the possibility of a cruel death.

He shook his head when the young man offered him the cloak back and stood there, watching while they all boarded, and then as Jean and Gevaun shoved the boat away with long poles until it was clear of the cattails bordering the walkway. Someone lifted an arm and waved before the boatman turned off his light and the darkness swallowed them all.

Alyss automatically waved back and heard Gevaun sigh, saw the Second rub at his face. Well, as far as the angel was concerned there was really only one thing he could say, and so he said it. “Your accountant is absolutely terrible and hasn’t bothered to hide all of the money you’re stealing for this at all.”

Gevaun turned very slowly to stare at the angel, his expression full of disbelief. “You audited us?”

“Of course I did!” Jean saw Alyss’ wings twitch with the angel’s exasperation. “You hired me to audit you!”

“To audit them!”

“To audit New England! Which you’re part of! What, were you expecting I’d do a terrible job?! Or, or, or not do my job at all?!” When Gevaun, caught off-guard by the very obvious counter, sputtered, Alyss barreled on. “And it’s lucky it was me and not someone from New York because your books are the worst mess, no one’s made so much as an effort to hide the fact money’s going missing everywhere, I can’t imagine what something like this costs, except obviously not enough to buy blankets or, I don’t know, have something warm to drink when they -” Alyss trailed off, another piece of the puzzle clicking into place.

Hot cocoa and warm croissants, always ready in the kitchen.

Gevaun looked sheepish. “Chere was asleep when we got the call.”

Alyss covered his face and made a wordless, high-pitched sound of impatience.

“We weren’t expecting this many of them!”

“Then you make plans for when it happens, because it’s going to happen! Things always go wrong. Always! That’s one of the first things you learn running a business, that’s why you make plans, and contingencies for the plans, and contingencies for the contingencies, and you don’t very well leave them lying around on your documents for when the Guild comes calling, which honestly I’m astonished they haven’t -”

“Kliman happens,” Jean pitched in, voice quiet, arms crossed.

“What?” Alyss lost track of the conversation, turning to face the other vampire.

“If the Guild comes by, Kliman happens to them,” Jean repeated. “She shuts down their skills. Part of her power.”

“How’s that going to help if someone in Manhattan decides to go over your books electronically? Or if they send in angels or, or, or the Consort? Couldn’t you at least, I don’t know, pretend like you aren’t getting runaway vampires to safety? Did you go to the cheap bin for your accounting? Do you even have one?!”

“We do, b-”

“Well, then I want to talk to them,” the angel demanded, drawing himself up, an effort to look commanding that was entirely ruined by the fact he was shivering in the cold. “I want to talk to your accountant,” he declared primly, and it almost sounded like a threat. Almost. Except for the part where he tripped on the walkway once again when he tried to stalk off into the dark.

“Let him go,” Jean’s voice was very low when he spoke to stop Gevaun, who’d whipped around to follow after the angel.

“But -”

“But his mouth runs?” The vampire’s brows went up. “He’s an accountant, Gevaun. He’s been an accountant to hundreds of angels and vampires, most of them the kind no one else wants to touch. And nobody’s heard a peep of the crap he probably found and fixed on their books, have they?” He clicked his tongue, walking sedately away. “His mouth runs,” he mocked. “We better go wake up the, uh, the cheap bin accountant.”

Alyss went to his room and paced, and flailed, and argued with himself a great deal.

On the one hand, he couldn’t disagree with what Gevaun and Jean had done. Yes, vampires were dangerous, predatory, horrible. Yes, many of them were no better than Alistaire. At the middle ground, they were no better than Andrew, content to coast through life doing the bare minimum. Or Gracie, clueless and happy to remain so. And the threat of losing control to their hunger for blood was always there, always.

But at some point the burden of Alistaires meant that everyone had stopped looking closely at the matter. The angels, the Guild, they had given up the entire vampiric population as a loss, blood-thirsty fiends without will or thought, bent merely on greed and destruction. The Guild had even made a concerted effort to render the VPA toothless, unable to protect those like the Finnish woman. They’d been so busy wanting free reign to hunt the monsters that they’d set up the victims to be trampled in their wake. Bloodlust was treated as a noose around their neck, a sword forever dangling over them. Alyss had long ago given up trying to understand the sheer stupidity of that way of thinking, because it didn’t affect him. It didn’t touch him.

That night, it most certainly had touched him.

On the other hand, every mortal who wished to become a vampire chose to do so. They chose to accept a hundred years of servitude. They were given the contract to read, to consider, to sign or reject as they saw fit.

But a contract did not excuse the abuse he’d seen on the Polish woman. Or the horror he hadn’t seen on the Finnish woman.

He was, Alyss realized, losing the argument to a part of himself that was heavily implying that rules and laws were more like guidelines, really, arr. And he didn’t know what to make of it. He was an accountant. He lived his life to bring numbers to order by following a very specific set of rules. Certainly he could twist them, bend them, but he had always done his best to abide by the rules and to do what was right. Never before in his life had the two principles been so diametrically opposed.

There was a delicate knock on the door he’d locked, and he dug the heels of his hands against his eyes. “Please, Chere, I really don’t feel like eating!”

“It’s not Chere,” a cheerful woman’s voice replied. “I’m the accountant.”

Oh, this was a fight Alyss was more than ready for. He stalked to the door, unlocked it and flung it open. “Do you realize -”

His voice strangled to a delicate whine. There was a sword tip brushing his throat, just above his Adam’s apple. It was a fine burnished length of steel, both edges sharpened, without guard; it was done in the old Etruscan style. The pommel was wrapped in leather, utilitarian rather than decorative.

Kliman, wearing a pair of very comfortable hiking pants and a soft pink knit sweater, smiled thinly at the younger angel. “Hello, Alyss. You wanted to talk to me?”

Alyss had automatically thrown his hands up. He looked at the older angel in stunned disbelief and swallowed against the lump of terror in his throat. It refused to budge.

“Back.” The smile vanished, Kliman all business. “My house doesn’t need to deal with this potential ruckus.” She herded him back into the room, the sword never wavering, and closed and locked the door behind her. “Now, there’s always the balcony,” she admitted. “But if you run I’m going to chase you. And I’m the one who taught Rook everything he knows.”

“I won’t,” Alyss breathed.

“Eh?”

“I won’t run, ma'am, I promise.”

“Mm. Unlike Gevaun, I’m willing to believe you.” She dropped the sword and sheathed it on a half-sheath resting across her back. “Now, you had a speech all ready to go, didn’t you.”

Alyss opened his mouth. Closed it. “I forgot it,” he admitted hoarsely.

She had to chuckle at that. “Well, how about I give you some facts and you can give me the salient points of it. Yes, I know what Gevaun is doing. I am, in fact, the one that started him doing it. I’m not ashamed of it. No, Jean was not supposed to be involved and I’m very cross at them for it. Yes, there was supposed to be a departure tonight. No, half those vampires weren’t supposed to be there but one of the safehouses along the pipeline has been compromised. Yes, all of my staff knows; most of them come from the pipeline. No, I’m not actually an accountant but I had no one I trusted to do the book-keeping, considering…” She waved he hand at the balcony.

Alyss pressed his hands close, trying to decide which of his inner halves ought to speak to this new, terrifying version of his hostess. All things considered, he wasn’t terribly surprised when Guidelines, Arr-Alyss won out. “You can’t do that, ma'am. Respectfully. Everyone forgets to write down things, and in a big household like this money’s bound to get lost, but you’re financing an entire, uh… pipeline. And it shows. Does it ever, ever show.”

One of Kliman’s golden brows went up, though she wasn’t about to admit to Alyss why it had done so. Instead, very mildly, she replied, “It’s that bad, huh?”

“It’s… It’s… It’s somewhat blatant,” Alyss explained as diplomatically as possible, unaware that his struggles had left Kliman trying not to laugh. “I’m just saying, it’s not hard to hide what you’re doing. It’s not easy but it’s not… If you’re trained it’s not outside the realm of possibility.”

“Hm. Well, that’s delightful to know. When can you get started?”

Alyss choked. “Excuse me?”

“You were terribly angry at me before that door opened. You are still angry, you’re just more scared than angry. But you know what I haven’t heard from you, not once?” Kliman’s voice softened. “Disapproval. It’s not even a consideration for you.” Some of her amusement shone through. “You’re upset that I bungled the books, which is fair. But you don’t disapprove of what we’re doing here, do you.”

Alyss felt the argument within him grow to a crescendo, and finally crown a winner. “No. It needs doing, and no one else seems to care.”

“We care.” Kliman moved closer to set a warm, gentle hand on Alyss’ shoulder. “I care. Please, help me, help us, keep on doing this.”

Alyss sighed shakily. “Well, I didn’t really have anything lined up after this job. I guess I can stay a little longer.”

“Wonderful.” Kliman beamed at him, whirled around and headed out of the room. “Now come with me.”

“Come where?”

“To make sure Jean hasn’t killed someone.”

“He�� what? Excuse -” Alyss hastily trotted after the older angel. “Excuse, excuse me, he, why would he -”

“Child, you can’t be so blind not to see he does more than endure your company. Have you seen him suffer any other angels?” Kliman wasn’t slowing down. She led the way to her office and threw the doors open to the vast space, full of rosewood furnishings and ancient Etruscan and Hittite art that would have made a museum curator weep. The room was warm, airy and during the daytime it would likely be brightly lit, even without lamps. At the moment, only one half of it was lit. There, Gevaun and Lilah were struggling to keep a snarling Jean pinned down against a desk surrounded by debris. “There! Here he is, safe and sound, now you can stop being so dramatic,” Kliman said tartly. “Let him go.”

Gevaun and Lilah stepped back and Jean sprang up and away from them, fangs momentarily bared in an entirely feral reaction. Alyss had stopped at the double doors, a hand stretched out, his face frozen in a stricken expression as, again, too many bits and bobs of information came together in his mind.

The fact it took both Gevaun and Lilah to hold Jean down meant the one vampire he’d thought to be the youngest of the three was actually the oldest. And very, very old.

Jean’s not staff. He’s a guest and he’s currently recovering.

A runaway. Memories flickered through Alyss’ mind, the way the young Spanish-speaking vampire had frozen in terror at his proximity, the way the Finnish vampire had not even been able to look at him.

Have you seen him suffer any other angels?

No. He wouldn’t even join Kliman’s dinner table.

“Jean, are you -” Alyss tripped over the wrong words for the right question. “Are you hurt? Are you going to be alright?”

The entire room came to a stop. Jean’s mouth had opened but whatever he’d meant to say, the younger angel’s question had trumped it. He swallowed hard. “I’m fine,” he gritted out and slowly, very slowly, he reached out for that outstretched hand. Alyss clung to the warm, calloused touch of it. “Are you hurt?” The vampire laced his fingers through Alyss’, moving closer with a slow calm he was not feeling but refusing to do anything that might make the angel flinch again.

“Well, my pride, my dignity and my belief I’m halfway-clever are all quite dead,” Alyss replied meekly, “but no, I’m fine. Really, I’m fine.”

“Alyss has agreed to replace our cheap bin accountant,” Kliman informed the room dryly, and the other angel went red to his ears. “Thank goodness, because I hate the job. Now, exciting as this all has been, I think everyone should get some rest tonight and tomorrow. Time enough on Friday to face the world once again.” She stalked out of the room, and when no one followed her she snapped, “Gevaun, you’re already on my shit list, you might want to do something about that.” The vampire hurried after his mistress.

Lilah paused at the door. “Alyss?”

“Hm?”

“Thank you.” She was gone without waiting for a reply.

Whatever well of righteous indignation had carried the accountant that far chose that moment to run dry. He threatened to go down with with a startled, puzzled little sound, and he’d have crashed face down on the rich knotted rug if the vampire’s powerful arms had not caught him and steadied him against his body. “You’re fine, you’re fine, I got you.”

“I can’t feel my knees,” Alyss declared dazedly, too dizzy to worry that he was clinging to Jean.

“That’s fine.” Jean shifted, and Alyss was suddenly up, cradled and carried in the vampire’s arms. “Not a fighter, are you?”

“Numbers don’t threaten people with knives and swords and things,” Alyss protested. “And I think I’ve done quite well, all things considered.”

“You did,” the vampire assured him, carrying him away from the office and heading for the accountant’s rooms. “The adrenaline wore off, that’s all.”

“Could I have some from the kitchen, please? This is very undignified. And you shouldn’t have to carry anyone if you don’t want to.”

Once again, Jean couldn’t help but feel a smile tugging at him. “Chere’s fresh out, I think.” The door to Alyss’ room had been left open; Jean expertly shoved it closed with a foot once they were inside. “I don’t mind carrying you,” he admitted at last.

“Why? You’re like them. You’re -” Alyss looked up, and there was so much worry in the sweet brown of his eyes that the vampire felt it like a physical blow. “It had to be worse for you, so much worse, you’re old. You’re very old.” He went limp against Jean’s shoulder. “It’s not fair. You’re so nice. Only nice things should happen to you.”

“And that would be the triple-f crash talking,” Jean said, his voice gone rough with emotion at that sentiment, so vast and so simply, so easily offered to him.

“I don’t swear,” Alyss protested primly.

Jean blew out an amused breath as he set the angel on his bed. “Not that kind of 'f’, Alyss. Fight, flight, freeze.”

“Oh.” Alyss suddenly clung to Jean’s shirt. “Stay? Please? I just - Tell me they’re gonna be alright. Tell me they’ll be safe. I keep seeing them and, and -”

Jean touched a thumb to that runaway mouth, frowned, and fought with the entirely too gleeful part of himself that pointed out that those words totally counted as an invitation to the angel’s bed, and from there it was a short hop, skip and jump to doing things the vampire had become unacquainted with over the past few decades. The touch of that wing, like silk and sunshine, lingered in his memory, made his fingers tingle.

He slipped onto the bed, kicking off his boots, but he kept a safe distance between them that threatened to kill him out of sheer inadequacy. “We’re just a waystation, a safehouse. Boston sends them to us when they come from overseas, and we find them a life elsewhere. Kliman makes sure they have a way to start over. Evie and her people make up new doc -” Alyss pressed close against the vampire’s side. “- uments.”

“Everyone has a job. You must have done this so many times.”

“No. Twice a year on a good year. Once is the norm. Getting a vampire away from this sort of situation isn’t easy, sunflower.” The nickname slipped out before he knew what he’d done and Jean could only be glad that the angel was too close to sleep to notice it. “Not if you want them to get away clean. Not if you want to make sure they really need to get away; that they’re not rogues looking for an easy way out of their contract. I guarantee at least two angels are going to come sniffing by after tonight. Or they’ll send the Guild after us again.”

He felt Alyss shiver, mostly asleep. “No. I’ll erase everything, they’ll never find anything they can use, not a thing, not a number, not a single decimal.”

“You do that.” Jean was silent, waiting. He was rewarded after a few minutes with the steady breathing that announced Alyss had fallen asleep, exhausted by having to do things very much not in an accountant’s repertoire.

And yet he’d been fierce and determined, staunch to a fault even in his terror, and it had been very much been terror - the vampire had smelled it on him like fire licking the walls of Alexandria. Jean knew then that he’d been right: Alyss was a truly good person.

He sighed, wanting very much to stay where he was, knowing he should leave. He shifted to try and slip away -

An arm slid over his chest, followed a moment later by one of those amber-colored wings. Jean froze. “Alyss.”

“Mm.”

“Alyss, I can’t stay here.”

“Why?”

A plaintive voice inside Jean was indignantly asking the same question. “They’ll think I’ve slept with you.”

“But you are sleeping with me,” came the drowsy reply.

Jean realized there was absolutely no way he could explain the semantic differences between what each of them was saying to a bird that wasn’t really awake anymore. He tipped his head back and chuckled soundlessly. “I suppose I am,” he drawled, admitting defeat, and settling down under the angel’s embrace.

#alyss and jean #angel #vampire #nalini singh #guild hunter #fanfiction #my writing #male on male #urban fantasy #modern fantasy #fantasy #implied abuse #fantasy violence

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Beyond Evil Live Blogging

Starting this instead of uhh doing some homework between my uni classes. I actually probably shouldn’t start this and should just watch something short like She Makes My Heart Flutter instead bc I won’t have the opportunity to watch any eps tmrw and it seems like this show might be difficult to wait to watch but oh well whelp the plans got cancelled due to weather so i suppose i do have time tomorrow

Ep 1: It Appears - 나타나다 (Feb 2)

a rotting corpse (?) in the first minute ah fuck i’m guessing they’re gonna show how we got here

oh 2000? i thought it was present day or is it showing old time after showing future

Dongshik is an older twin of Yoo Yeon by a minute. Is Dongshik a main character ir someone who’s boutta die? it seems like a familiar name in this show’s context

a flip phone

wait is that Lee Do Hyun or just looks like him? okay I checked MDL and it indeed is Do Hyun! ayyy he only seems to appear in like 4 eps but still cool because after being introduced to him in 18 Again, I haven’t wanted to watch anything else he’s been in

damn Dongshik really just called the older girl by name, somehow I’m also irritated on behalf of her lol If my sister calls me by my name during an argument I acc would be flabbergasted

oh Dongshik kinda scary

oh is Yoo Yeon gonna die instead of Dongshik? also they really keep focusing on her red stone ring

girl these viki ads are killing me on my ipad like wtf is 40 second diaper ad and then a 15 sec bedwetting ad

oh the Bang Joo Seon noona that Dongshik was angry at irl also dead and her hands are clutched in the same way as the corpse that we saw at the beginning umm also are her hands missing fingers? i did see a spoiler about there being severed fingers in this show

yep severed fingers akhdjajabs - I realize that was Yeo Yoon’s mother

20 years later October 2020 ah

missing college female student from Munju hmm so not all the bodies were found, is this what they find later on from the beginning scene?

oh omg Yeo Yoon’s family got the fingers but she’s missing whereas we saw Bang Joo Seon’s body with missing fingers and I’m assuming her body was found? and so Yeo Yoon’s brother has been searching for her - if that old man shaving is Dongshik

please not these old ladies fighting and Dongshik in the crossfire

plsss okay I wasn’t expecting it to suddenly become funny but “Dongshik’s gauge has boiled over” so he’s tryna make a case against the women while all the other cops are like let it goooooo and tryna get him to back down and calm the women lmfao

oh lol one of the women did mention that another is married to a sergeant

Lieutenant Han Joo Won - 27 years oldgainst

Dongshik have something against Joo Won’s dad

Jae Yi so pretty

who is Officier Oh actor he’s cute I like his dimples also he looks slightly familiar

ah it’s hard to remember everyone’s names. the crime squad woman’s name is Ji Hwa or something and the other guy in the room i forgot his name

wait so Dongshik did the case thing so that the women don’t get in trouble with the money or something bc the owner was doing something with him outsiders as well or something idk i only kinda really get it

man this Oh Jihoon character so endearing

did Joo Won do something bad and get sent here as punishment?

lol their first proper encounter and Joo Won very standoffish

(Bromance) lmfao I already get why people are into Dongshik/Joo Won because 1) Dongshik was previously like Joo Won’s not my type 2) Joo Won’s rude to Dongshik and 3) to get over their hatred for each other, they’re forcibly made to team up

fuck I forgot - Dongshik is a sergeant or lietenant?

so it’s like Dongshik’s “thing” that he has a really good memory, about the law and situations and people

nooooo Joo Seon’s dad is 79 and old and has dementia and is still waiting for her in the reed fields T.T

It’s interesting to see all the young cops kinda do favours for and want Joo Won’s attention while the two oldest (the Chief and Dongshik) are unimpressed by his status and arrogancy

Ji Hwa’s just got such a cool vibe to her

Dongshik playing a “joke” on Joo Won saying he killed that family’s daughter the maknae but he probably really does feel that?

ohh Joo Won’s got some history of discoveering the dead bodies similar to Joo Seon’s body and also some knowledge of Dongshik

So Joo Won knows: Dongshik was a Lieutenant in Regional Investigation, then got demoted to sergeant after his partner died and he couldn’t explain it, and also was a suspect of the 2 murders 2 decades ago. So I guess Joo Won took Dongshik’s joke of killing Joo Seon more seriously than he would’ve otherwise - is Joo Won suspicious of Dongshik?

ah Dongshik still has the posters of missing Yoo Yeon put up, though she’d look 2 decades older than her photos now lol

became morning to night in a few minutes drive heh

oh damn we’re getting the very first scene at the end of the first ep; i was wondering if it’d be like Strangers From Hell where we get the first scene in the last ep

Dongshik looking at the hands (with Yoo Yeon’s ring?) and Joo Won looking at Dongshik - gauging his reaction?

oh it’s a different ring that Joo Won knows the owner of

damn Dongshik’s creepy smile - I don’t think Yoo Yeon actually killed her based on his reaction to the corpse and wondering if it’s his sister and also just cuz he’s the main character

Also I avoided nearly all spoilers so far before starting the show except that people love the bromance and it’s about tracking down some serial killer and it’s pretty dark but two mins before I started watching I found out that apparently a father kills his own daughter - that’s scary. also hopefully not too much of a spoiler that gives something away?

Ep 2: To Disappear - 사라지다 (Feb 2)

The bodies have their feet wrapped

There was proof that it was Dongshik who killed Joo Seon at the crime scene? a guitar pick?

(Bromance) “Do you like me that much? You even did a background check on me.”

oh interesting, the Chief’s like Dongshik’s doing all this and giving his testimony now so that later on, when/if they ask him about anything again, he’ll just say he already did it and ask if they have a warrant

insane scene at the beef broth restaurant - so I guess the general public continue to think Yoo Yeon was killed by her brother?

when I was reading the ep 1 thoughts on reddit’s on-air thread of ep 1 and 2, someone mentioned they think the supermarket owner did it and had a ton of upvotes - which makes me think it’s true and people upvoted it after it was revealed. but if so, then they made the character who stutters a murderer?

Min Jeong the supermarket owner’s daughter isn’t coming home. based on the spoiler that a father kills his daughter + the theory that the supermarket owner is the murderer...

Is she the mayor or something? also she reminds me of the mom from Midnight (After looking up on MDL, yes she is. 2 actors I didn’t know were in here but I managed to recognize; her and Lee Do Hyun)

Park Jeong Je - is the this guy from Jae Yi’s restaurant that I couldn’t remember the name or face of? Oh I see, yes it’s him. the chief said he was part of the Munju police and the son of the Munju City councilwoman - so I guess she’s his mom

(Bromance) lmfao wtf this scene where they help the guy in the rain and Joo Won starts being nicer after seeing Dongshik be kind and then this slow-mo of Joo Won staring at smiling Dongshik

I should start tagging things like (Bromance) to find these things again

So Joo Won’s dad was the chief at Manyang 20 years ago and closed this case. lol Joo Won tryna do what idk throw off his dad or something but instead gave him an idea about how to close this case too with the mentions of a copycat. Although, he did know the dead girl, I wonder if some of what he said was true like with the bait and stuff

“The day her identity is revealed, you and I both die” wtf did Joo Won and his dad do/hide?

(Confusion) Wait, what were the timelines? Bang Joo Seon was killed a year before Yoo Yeon’s disappearance? They seemed from the same night?

The Nam Sang Bae chief currently was the detective of Yoo Yeon’s disappearance case back then

ah yeah, Dongshik’s really feels for people who go ‘missing’ like Joo Seon’s father with dementia and the lost in the rain guy. +Min Jeong who runs away/goes missing occasionally

damn, Dongshik’s father froze to death while waiting for Yoo Yeon to come home

Dongshik’s right upper leg hurts sometimes, is it from when his partner at the Regional Investigation Unit died?

Joo Won was investigating ‘an illegal immigrant who only killed women.’

Wild that Joo Won just knows the identity of the recently found dead body but won’t say so

okay whew Kang Min Jeong isn’t dead (yet?)

omg I recognize 3 people. Min Jeong is True Beauty Im Jugyeong’s short haired friend whose name I can’t remember - not Kang Soo jin. Oh it’s Choi Soo Ah/Sua

ah so the supermarket’s owner was an orphan raised by Dongshik’s parents and also helped him open the supermarket - so that’s why he spoke like that at the hospital calling her Eomma and stuff. Min Jeong is like Dongshik’s niece kinda

wait a minute... okay if the supermarket owner is the killer and his daughter’s mother/woman he loved left 20 years ago... well did he make her disappear?

Dongshik knows Joo Won suspects him of the murder(s) and loves working him up about it and acting as if he did it

ah fuck okay Min Jeong seemed happy when she saw who it was, so possibly it’s her supermarket owner father? how long ago was she captured and when did everybody gather around for the meat? would there have been enough time/would the show even care about that

insane shot from Min Jeong to the meat cutting

did Dongshik see something? or like what happened? Why is he acting so shaken? Does he just have some instinct that Min Jeong got fucked up?

So did Dongshik take the files of Yoo Yeon/Soo Jeon?

Joo Won isn’t here while they’re having dinner. Min Jeong’s father is though

(Bromance) Joo Won wants to move to the street and neighbourhood as Dongshik because he suspects him lol they keep asking “What is it about me that you like so much?”

wait what, Dongshik placed Min Jeong’s fingers on the stone? Is this his imagination? Also, was he wearing leather shoes when showing this ending scene the way Jeong Je mentioned when he’d gone to his house?

Someone on the on-air thread linked to their twitter thread that Dongshik found the fingers elsewhere and brought them there because he’d be the suspect otherwise - this seems plausible. Another person said he wasn’t the killer 20 years ago but maybe is the copycat killer now to get the attention back on this cast - not impossible but hmm. Someone mentioned the Joo Won might actually be trying to uncover something his father did here rather than only being here for Dongshik, which would make sense because that seems like their dynamic and they allude to them both or the father having done something bad.

Ep 3: Smile (lit: to laugh) - 웃다 (Feb 3)

Ah everybody in the town sad for Min Jeong

Dongshik doing something to the documents hmmm what and why shouldn’t Jeong Je be there when he does it? Also, Jeong Je also questioning Dongshik - despite the family vibes full of trust, there’s still suspicion from some people

Joo Won’s right that it’s interesting that people cope for Dongshik so hard when he used to be a suspect and is a running thread among many of the murder/disappearances - acting as if they’re a “family” instead of witnesses/suspects/whatever. There’s something fishy about the current chief (past detective on the case) as well

Joo Won a dumbass if he didn’t see Dongshik turning around and providing the same doubts about Joo Won; such as where are his alibis during the time Min Jeong disappeared? He also came around the time the body was found. He’s also a cop and knows things outsiders wouldn’t know. Just like Dongshik, he was there when both the body skeleton (who he knows the identity of) and the fingers were discovered

“Han Joo Won, you act rational and practical yet so emotional and thoughtless. Can’t you tell that psycho is a hundred times more rational than you?” - his dad

Joo Won wants CCTV from in front of the archives basement

Dongshik putting up a camera in his basement and cleaning it + there being some blood uh

scene at 20mins where

i’m gonna fucking die why the fucking fuck did my comments of the next 10 mins disappear

(Fave) scene at 20mins where Dongshik’s talking about mistaking someone for Yoo Yeon, her being dead for sure, the fucker not letting anybody find Min Jeong’s body, etc

Jeong Je is a bit suspicious of Dongshik now and Ji Hwa’s wondering if he was suspicious of Dongshik back then. she’s saying she’s never been suspicious of Dongshik

Woman with the ring who was killed was doing something for Joo Won (’go for a massage’) and texted him 1s the the day she died, meaning she met Dongshik

ah Dongshik did return the two girls’ case files

Jeong Je being accused of being an accomplice of Dongshik - brining back memories of back then when he was Dongshik’s alibi. oh did Jeong Je come forward as the alibi way later after people were convinced Dongshik was the prime suspect? That’s why the detective reacted like that + Ji Hwa asked why it took Jeong Je so long to come

oh damn the detective didn’t have enough evidence back then but literally beat Dongshik to get a confession? Did dongshik confess or was it an attempt?

ah they found the burner phone that the woman with the ring used to text Joo Won 1s but why did it have Min Jeong’s scent

the assistant Kwon guy who hangs off of Joo Won’s father and gave Joo Won some files in ep 1 seems so smarmy

4th person I recognize: Squid Game gangster mans

the DNA of the woman came out in that phone, as expected

I don’t even get what the solo sting that Joo Won was doing is and why the suspect for that was also Dongshik.

Joo Won’s team was investigating illegal immigrants of massage parlours - ah so it was literally ‘send 1 if dongshik is a customer of a massage’

Also what exactly is the issue with Joo Won’s investigation that he wanted to find something from this solo sting operation and triumph vs why him now apparently knowing her would be such a problem. like is it because he knew she was an illegal immigrant massage giver but didn’t make anybody else aware or whatever?

Joo Won’s seemingly becoming more unstable and losing control of his emotions

so the phone wasn't in the reed fields where her body was found?

on the day that the woman with the ring died and sent 1s after seeing Dongshik, he was seen on the dashcam where near where said phone was found

damn, Joo Won fr just searching Dongshik’s basement and Dongshik can see it because he has a camera there

bruv, what even happened - Ji Hwa’s here to arrest Dongshik for kidnapping and murdering Min Jeong

also lol funny that Joo Won was just breaking into Dongshik’s house but can just get out all casually and leave without raising suspicion among all the cops there (or was he the one who called them in? like how’d they find out?)

I see on reddit that there’s the theory that someone had actually left the fingers on Dongshik’s basement table with the blood and so he set up the cameras etc and other stuff to get people to actually investigate the murder, even if he’s the one who’s seemingly at fault at first?

I don’t know what exactly is going on but it seems like Dongshik knows something that other people don’t and also that he’s planning something like he literally put up the camera, cleaned but left that specific drop of blood untouched, didn’t stop joo won from investigating his basement, etc

Ep 4: To Cry - 울다 (Feb 3)

Dongshik throwing off his blanket was expected, I’d half expected him to just make a run for it when just one guy was transferring him from the car lol

so it wasn’t blood on Dongshik’s table? or was it that there’s only that speck of blood and absolutely nothing else?

my goodness this ramen talk is killing me

oh so Dongshik went to the mountain just the other day, not around the day of when the woman with the ring was killed - I didn’t catch the date of the video but I certainly should have

Jae Yi’s flashbacks to this butchershop and something about her mother running away? while the cops search and investigate that place currently

bro I hope no Joo Won/Jae Yi romance plot appears - I’m just nervous whenever a woman and man of similar age interact in these shows even though this interaction was full of anger and it didn’t lean towards any romantic angle

Joo Won funny as hell for acting all “oh you must be living an easy life” with Jae Yi, so it was satisfying to see Joo Won get that thrown back to him with both her and the chief

actually i’m not super against Jae Yi and Oh Jihoon though, they’re cute

damn Jihoon’s “you provoked them” with the harsh expression no smile

Han Jeong Im hmm 52, missing would that be Jae Yi’s mom I don’t know their surnames though

Kwon’s really gonna come to fuck up Joo Won at some crucial time isn’t e lol not that Joo Won really needs help fucking up thus far. He’s got gusto and he’s got connections, so he can get his dad to push for an arrest without his dad, and get Kwon to grant the confiscation warrant; he’s decided the culprit without enough proof and instead of gathering proof himself slowly, he’s escalating everything

(Bromance) lmfao at 28 mins when Joo won goes to Dongshik’s cell and he’s like “왜 이렇게 늦었어? 파트넌데.” straight up reminded me of “Hong Dae Young, 왜 이제 왔어? 기다렸잖아” from 18 Again

ah okay they heavily hinted at this before but I was like hmm what’s he planning but I guess when they said bait, they really did mean Joo Won really did sent the woman with the ring as a bait/trap to see if he’d be killed; specifically whether Dongshik would kill her

Okay if we’re assuming based on spoilers that it really is the supermarket owner Jin Mook who is Min Jeong’s father and adopted brother of Dongshik: does Dongshik suspect him? Know that it’s him? latter probably not but maybe former? He seems suspicious of Jin Mook when he’s around their mother though but he seems touched by the beef now? with Jin Mook visiting him?

Did Park Jeong Je really confess to doing the same thing now as he did 20 years ago? Back then, he’d said he had drunk with Dongshik till dawn and now he’s also saying Dongshik was with him the night Min Jeong went missing

but this could count for like 20 mins when he was at Dongshik’s home right? so he’s lying this time that he slept at Dongshik’s home... but the next morning Joo Won was there to see Dongshik leave his house, won’t he be like hmm I didn’t see Jeong Je there

So does that mean Jeong Je also lied when he said that he and Dongshik were drinking together that night? And he in fact hadn’t been with Dongshik? these small towns where everybody’s so involved with each other is just wild

why’s all this happening just a few hours before 48, just hold Dongshik for 48 hours and continue on tf - cover the bases in case he’s the culprit but also don’t twist things to keep him after 48 hours

construction company CEO: development might be halted like 20 years ago with these murder cases and he’ll face huge loss; council woman: wants to become mayor and these crimes and possible cancellation of redevelopment hurts her chances; Joo Won’s father: Joo Won’s wrapped up in this murder case with the phone

Joo Won seeing Dongshik and Jeong Je walk off, who he suspected were accomplices; did he hear Dongshik say that Jeong Je lied or was he too far away?

was that Seventeen on Knowing Bros on the TV?

ah the construction ceo really is smearing min jeong on the TV. sucks that people’s sympathy and well wishes for a missing and likely murdered girl goes down if they find out she parties and was possibly a sex worker and that this defamation is a tactic that they can use

Joo Won really isn’t thinking or what? why’d you go in and accuse Dongshik again and also pull out your gun

damn mans is having a panic attack

oh why did Oh Jihoon release the info about the arrest without warrant; is he with or against Dongshik; what did he see the night Min Jeong disappeared because he saw her walking but toward what we can’t see

bro Joo Won is king of escalating things fr - he’s talking to reporters but I guess that’s good? now people will be forced to connect these and less likely to be swayed by “oh the missing girl was a slut and a whore so who cares if she’s dead” and the cops will be forced to investigate rather than just shut them down like they did 20 years ago?

Dongshik is probably glad that the connections of the murders and the case is all known to the public now, right? If his plan had been to draw attention to the whole thing so that it’s forced to be investigated?

“Who killed them? Who are you protecting?” so Joo Won’s suspicion has gone down from Dongshik being the killer to thinking Dongshik knows who did it?

Ep 5: To Be Deceived - 속다 (Feb 4)

Lee Geum Hwa - name of the woman with the ring that Joo Won sent

I actually hate that Joo Min supermarket owner is most likely the killer because hearing Dongshik’s say “Park Jeong Je” as the person he’s protecting would’ve had my heart racing

Dongshik didn’t say the supermarket owner’s name out of the people he listed to possibly be protecting

lol Joo Won’s father throwing him under the bus during a conference for Joo Won’s hasty/inaccurate but important reveal of the serial killer

Jeong Je’s really obsessed with that deer

aw Jae Yi :<

scene of the supermarket owner watching the news about Joo Won’s interview then his father’s conference and lying down, ignoring the call from the councilwoman

omg 5th person I’ve recognized: the Im Gyu Seok from JSB reporter is the same person as Shinwoo from Light On Me - a BL actor appearance! He’s the one who looks the most different and I was the least certain about recognizing

“It’s because they’re Manyang people. When they’re together, they want to eat each other alive. When an enemy comes from the outside, they band together to work against him”

So Joo Won now thinks it wasn’t Dongshik but rather somebody else from that photo at the dinner that he showed Geum Hwa - the supermarket owner isn’t there though I don’t think

damn they really had the supermarket owner giving a conference in favour of the redevelopment

okay i don’t get why there can’t be redevelopment? like what does this case have to do with building buildings and installing CCTV

“do you want me to kill her?” dongshik my guy you’re giving me a headache

ohh Dongshik told Jeong Je’s mother that it’s not me who’s holding onto Jeong Je but Jeong Je childing to me

this public might kinda dumb lmfao so silly let’s be serious

damn Joo Won’s father is cold toward Joo Won but also so dumb to let Kwon have that much effect over his son “push joo won down so he won’t be able to return for a while” dumbassery

(Bromance) lmfao sorry it kills me that when Joo Won saw Min Jeong and Dongshik interact he was like is she his gf and now that Dongshik’s telling Ji Hwa to not meet her ex-husband construction CEO, Joo Won’s like “are you being jealous?” lmfao and then Ji Hwa being like “you guys are a comedian couple. You should move in together”

Joo Won understanding now that Dongshik doesn’t just lose control and do dumb wild things but rather makes it seem that way to achieve his goals. While Dongshik’s pushing to see if Joo Won would throw away his principles and laws to get to the bottom of this murder case

damn flashbacks to Dongshik’s previous partner who died

is Kwon’s advice right now for Joo Won to fess up about having contact with the woman a bad advice that’s supposed to “keep him down” or whatever

Jeong Je walked Min Jeong home (where her killer supermarket owner father is? oof) that night - as seen by Jihoon... and Jeong Je is also Joo Won’s next target. I wonder what we’ll uncover about him, even if it’s that he killed Min Jeong

plsss seeing Joo Won standing like that beside Dongshik’s house and watching Jihoon leave reminded me so much of Moonjo watching Jongwoo and the new kid while leaning against the wall

damn, someone on reddit was talking about the book where some guy (nearly?) ran over a kid who was wearing deer antlers and this reveal that Jeong Je was an alcoholic (thus why Dongshik was worried about his drinking recently) and was at a psychiatric hospital for 4 years and that he claimed a deer/a human who looked like a deer

(Bromance) Joo Won talking next to Dongshik’s ear - Dongshik says “Dang. I was going to let it go since you’re cute but I guess I can’t”

Joo Won’s running on hunches and keeps accusing Dongshik and Dongshik keeps reminding Joo Won of Geum Hwa and Joo Won’s role in her death

damn, okay so they’re showing us that the supermarket owner father saw Jeong Je meet Min Jeong that night

I saw like 1 second of the next ep preview but it seems like maybe they’ll actually reveal that it was the supermarket owner who killed Min Jeong :0 I hope it’s true, because then I’ll know a spoiler revealed in ep 6 rather than ep 15 or something

Ep 6: To Deceive - 속이다 (Feb 4)

I’m supposed to be studying and doing homework right now but this ep is my reward for going driving I guess

lol this intense music while the supermarket owner’s preparing kimchi

Jin Mook going around giving the cops kimchi ah I don’t think I saw the cannibalism tag otherwise I would’ve been like hm is he feeding them his daughter

oh okay so they really do have him just speaking without stuttering and calling people dumbasses and saying “Min Jeong, you’ll have to live with me forever” - so I guess we do know that he killed Min Jeong but we don’t know if he killed the other people or not

Oh we’re gonna see day of Min Jeong’s disappearence - Oct 23

damn Min Jeong really said that her dad gives her the creeps

they showed him faking his shyness and stuttering and his face when Min Jeong’s captured hm ah

Once again the question remains: does Dongshik know Jin Mook did it? Does he suspect but not know? Is the reason he’s not telling Joo Won because he wants him to be able to figure it out on his own? Because he thinks Joo Won won’t believe him? tbh it could be that Dongshik doesn’t know but just continues making Joo Won think that he does

Also I wanna know when the timeline of everything happens; when did Jin Mook capture Min Jeong? Before or after dinner? Was Dongshik so frazzled because he’d already found the fingers or cuz of his leg pain flaring up again?

Timeline from Jin Mook’s perspective at 25mins

Jae Yi is so fucking beautiful it’s unbelievable. I don’t really care for her and Joo Won’s future romance maybe that I’ve been kinda sensing since the egg incident but oh well

damn Joo Won’s dad’s threats and comments toward Kwon were insane, compared to how he’d been behaving toward Kwon so far especially

ah I think I need to just watch the show without playing Solitaire on the side because I’ve been doing that this episode and getting confused.

What dashcam footage was the councilwoman talking about

(Confusion) Girl I’m confused as to what happened with the Chief deleting the footage of Dongshik going to the archives - why’d he do it? did he do something else and use this deletion as an excuse as well? what’s happening like Dongshik was like I didn’t ask you to delete it and then said something about asking him to delete it like huh?

lmfaooo this is actually wild the councilwoman really was like okay lemme do this dashcam footage of Oh Jihoon being seen near Min Jeong’s house but literally his own son was seen with Min Jeong with that dashcam footage (now deleted I suppose) but also Jihoon has seen Jeong Je with her straight up

It’s interesting how entangled all these people are and Joo Won is correct to be worried that they’re protecting each other. like Ji Hwa full on knew that Jihoon saw Min Jeong and also saw her with Jeong Je but since one’s her brother and the other’s her trusted friend, she didn’t tell anybody else even though they’re investigating her murder/disappearence

ahh Ji Hwa being shaky, being upset that she hopes that Jeong Je’s the culprit so that it’s not her brother who is

bruvvvvvvv what the fuck is “appa, let me out” getting texted to Jin Mook’s phone. did he send that to himself? People on reddit pointed out it seems like Dongshik sent that and so after rewatching that part, it does seem like it. Dongshik checks that drawer in the alleyway - Min Jeong’s phone is on - Dongshik returns and Jin Mook checks his phone text - Min Jeong’s phone has been turned off

Ep 7: To Catch - 낚다 (Feb 5)

Can’t quite remember when I finished up ep 6 last night but I think it was 6-8pm and now it’s 4pm so it’s been like 20 hours :0 I lasted not watching this ep longer than expected but I think last ep’s cliffhangers wasn’t too bad for me

Dongshik and his old partner Sang Yeob were staking out on a guy suspected to have killed 3 women and Sang Yeob died after chasing that guy and getting shot

woahh Dongshik getting revenge for Sang Yeob by capturing the guy, almost shooting him, going for the handcuffs instead, fucker gets cocky and says “heh it was self defense” and that’s how he’ll get out of being responsible for Sang Yeob’s death, so Dongshik just bashes the guy’s skull against the concrete over and over till he dies I’m guessing

ah I did notice Dongshik looking at Min Jeong putting in her password

Day of Min Jeong’s disappearance again - this time I think we’ll get more of Dongshik’s involvement I guess? how he had the fingers and the phone

so at around 8pm - people are at the meat shop, Jin Mook’s subducing Min Jeong, Jihoon is boutta come to the supermarket but Dongshik is there before him to return Min Jeong’s keychain

hmmm Dongshik puts on his hoodie and runs away when seeing that the supermarket was closed hm - oh I see he actually went on a run I guess?

oh fucking fuck okay so Jin Mook had already cut off her fingers (why does he hate those nails so bad - even was like “Wench. and look at those nails”) /probably killed her and hid her body in the time it took for Jihoon to get to the supermarket

it makes sense that Dongshik was soooo out of it when he went to go get barbeque. he really found Min Jeong’s fingers and found out Jin Mook had done it and also mans was saying that Min Jeong was sleeping like a corpse

also that table... did Dongshik somehow drag it to his house or what

Dongshik found the burner phone Geum Hwa that used to text Joo Won - so Jin Mook def killed more than just Min Jeong - but did he also kill the girls from 20 years ago and was there anybody other than him

ah this compilation of all the missing girls and their family’s suffering because they’re just gone, no trace of them left and so by korea’s law there’s no prosecution because there’s no corpse

Jin Mook must know that somebody fully knows that he’s killed Min Jeong, what with the missing fingers and Dongshik fucking up that whole room while searching for Min Jeong’s body - I assume he has a strong guess that it’s Dongshik?

It’s November 4, so 12 days after Oct 23 Min Jeong’s death

oh Dongshik’s visiting his mother’s room?

no way Jin Mook just was like oh Jae Yi wasn’t there for an hour the night Min Jeong disappeared

...does Jae Yi know it’s Jin Mook

girl Jeong Je turned himself in?! oh just for seeing Min Jeong last, I see

please why does this show become funny sometimes like the “Fine, thank you다 이 새끼야. Didn’t go to America, what’s with the English?” "If you knew you could’ve told me. It was tiring to me to mix English into my vocabulary.” lol also I though Dongshik knew about the hospitalization from Jeong Je but I guess he knew in a different way or Joo Won really did expose Jeong Je’s hospitalization

damn Dongshik’s just telling Jeong Je that he sent the text

did Jin Mook find the phone and send a new text to himself? Why does he want the cops to search the reed fields now?

oh, Jae Yi’s the one who got the phone

damn, so Jae Yi had a strong suspicion that it was Jin Mook doing that to everybody... so Jin Mook did make Dongshik’s sister disappear and he knew it this whole time?

nooo I’ll become a villain if anything at all happens to Jae Yi by the way

oof rip Jihoon if he’s saying “Family can’t suspect each other” like you’re correct Jae Yi didn’t kill Min Jeong... but if you’re saying family can’t, then whelp gl when you find out

oof Joo Won just found out that it took a while before Dongshik came to the restaurant the night Min Jeong died

please the construction CEO right when he’s like smh this is why you shouldn’t have kids cuz his partner councilwoman’s son Jeong Je walked into the cell and his partner deputy chief’s son Joo Won is causing a ruckus in general

are these fuckers gonna frame someone as the murderer?

ohhhh confusion clear up. so the CCTV caught Dongshik putting the fingers there but he got the Chief to delete that footage - and when the Chief was talking about ‘covering up’ something by deleting the archive footage, this deletion footage is what he was referring to. but ummm so does the Chief know that Dongshik put the fingers there?

(Confusion) Actually, I still don’t know when exactly Dongshik put the fingers on the supermarket porch. after jeong je left? bc apparently he came to his home wearing leather shoes but he was wearing sneakers when he put the fingers there?

...T.T wtf is that meat and what did Jin Mook put in there/find

oh? is the object Jin Moon found the clip that Jae Yi’s mother is wearing in that photo?

oh my fucking god I was dying that he was gonna try to do something to Jae Yi but Jin Mook fucker left her mom’s clip and also the location of her grave?! Why’s he doing that? Is it because he suspects that she suspects him/knows it’s him? He used the same wording for “please let mom out” as Dongshik used to text him as Min Jeong - does Jin Mook think that Jae Yi did that as well and that’s also why he told Joo Won that Jae Yi wasn’t there for an hour?

anyway pls pls pls I hope Jae Yi takes Dongshik or someone there when she goes to find the body

Dongshik’s breaking expression as Joo Won’s talking about the CCTV and him being the finger returner

brooo Dongshik just tell Joo Won that Jae Yi’s in danger and that he can come too instead of yelling you’re wasting precious seconds!!

pls let those car lights toward Jae Yi be Dongshik

okayyyyy whewww okay so Dongshik took Joo Won to arrest Jin Mook and they caught him redhanded so it’s not like he’s being framed (also I didn’t realize that the room where he’s storing the kimchi and also the bodies was open roof - can see from outside

and Dongshik sent Jeong Je and the cops to find Jae Yi

(Fave) How the last few minutes played out: from the moment Jiin Mook finds something in the meat and Jae Yi’s going through the photo album to Jin Mook came to Jae Yi’s shop to the interweaving of her story of her mom with Joo Won and Dongshik till the end. also the background music here ahh epic

Suchh a good episode but we’re like 44% into the show... 9 eps left... what’s gonna happen omg You know in romance shows, when the couple is together and happy in like ep 9 out of 12, it’s like oh fucking fuck agh something’s gonna go wrong and that’s how it feels for this show. Catching the killer red handed in ep 7 why the fuck? What’s gonna happen for the other 56% of the show?

I hope it reaches new heights and murders my brain and doesn’t become repetitive because unlike Strangers From Hell where the repetitiveness was part of the horror, it’ll just become bland here

Ep 8: To Be Caught - 낚이다 (Feb 5)

pls Not Me ep 12 flashbacks of Sean and Black when Joo Won handcuffs Dongshik and himself together and Dongshik punches him lol

“Nobody’s going to die... from today” well considering we’re on episode 8, I wonder how true that’ll be

ah there are still mysteries such as why did Guem Hwa send those 1s that day. did she really see Dongshik or did she just send that in a panic

lol Kwon and the audience both grumbling that Joo Won’s father only wants Han Joo Won’s name to be out and public and get special treatment about the arrest (1 joo won name revealed 2 details of case and suspect not revealed 3 lee dongshik’s name not revealed)

bro i’m gonna throw up, Min Jeong was alive when the fucker cut her fingers and put her in the pot

oh my godddd she was alive while Dongshik searched for her above that’s so fucked up that’s so fucked up he dug up the cabbage but not her

oh i’ve never seen a Korean funeral other than like the cremating in Squid Game I guess. I didn’t know this is how their cremation took place; I’m used to seeing Hindu cremations on TV as a child

ah fuck 25 mins getting to see that fucker kill the 4 of them T.T

ah he cut off their fingers because they pointed at him? the first girl, Yoo Yeon. did Min Jeong point her finger?

(Bromance) lol Dongshik disappeared and Joo Won’s on a vacation cut to Dongshik having followed Joo Won as he searches the passage parlours for someone who knows Geum Hwa I’m guessing. And Dongshik figuring out and teasing that Joo Won now has emotions for the people, including Dongshik (that’s why he’s letting Dongshik walk around free with a promise of turning himself in for crimes such as not telling about Jin Mook earlier - even though why would you trust a criminal to turn themselves in etc)

ohhh Joo Won’s looking for Yoon Hye Mi/Mi Hye - Min Jeong’s mother, who Jin Mook was possibly searching for in Busan parlours

ohhhh?! this motherfucker really went through all the women who got caught in the massage parlour bust and killed them all? because he didn’t want them to tell her than he was looking for her because he wanted to kill her my god

oh Hye Mi was going by Cherry and died last year by traffic but I’m assuming that’s not gonna be true?

oh yeah they didn’t talk about finding Jae Yi’s mom so I guess Jin Mook told her to go there and knew that cops would probably go there and not find him digging up Min Jeong’s body or something?

it’s sooo fucked up that Jin Mook buried the bodies in other people’s backyards and stuff when they got him to do stuff around their house. Jae Yi looking everywhere for her mother but she’s buried right there in the butcher shop backyard

wtf Jin Mook escaped and said “Dongshik-ah, not Yoo Yeon” ? oh just kidding my bad he hung himself I think okay fucker really killed himself tf

Someone on reddit said Yoo Yeon was the only one who we didn’t see get actually killed - so somebody else killed Yoo Yeon? and did the finger thing? but Jin Mook specifically had the finger thing hm maybe he cut her fingers and kept her alive the same way he did to Min Jeong but she escaped and then was killed like hit by Jeong Je or something or other

omgggggg I nearly spoiled myself very big again because I searched up Beyond Evil on pannchoa and one of the comments had a spoilered comment like “the reveal of where yoo yeon’s body was hidden blah blah” and I nearly read it but thankfully I didn’t. TODO there are two posts’ comments I wanna read on pannchoa after I’ve finished watching

Ep 9: To Float - 떠오르다 (Feb 6)

oh Joo Won confessed his sting with Geum Hwa

damn Dongshik watching videos of his mom and Jin Mook 20 years ago where she mentioned Jin Mook renovating his house and trying to break apart his floor to see if he hid Yoo Yeon there ah

ah ep 9, starting the second half of the story in a callback to the first ep where Dongshik catches the aunties and grandmas gambling

Joo Won looked quite cute and pretty as he appeared for duty again heh

ohh Around the time Kang Jin Mook was discovered to be dead in his cell by suicide, Jae Yi was trying to get to the cell to kill him but couldn’t - she voluntarily tells this to the Munju police because she received an email that a dashcam video will be sent to the cops otherwise

wait omg Joo Won just referred to Jae Yi as noona when talking to his father - I didn’t realize she was his noona but heh that’s nice if they do go in a romantic direction

Joo Won really just went to smile and piss off his father

someone from the cops is working as an informant for councilwoman? agh. is it the chief?

Jae Yi saying nobody knew that she was at the station that night Jin Mook died but the chief seems suspicious... as if he knew... and he’d previously deleted CCTV footage, so did he do the same now about the CCTV near Jin Mook’s cell

heh Ji Hwa, Dongshik, Jeong Je are a fun trio

ah and so the cops and the councilwoman, construction CEO etc become more entangled.

also does this mean Dongshik and Jeong Je really were together that night when Yoo Yeon died? I thought there was a strong suggestion that he’d lied

and that place is right beside the deer farm that Jeong Je’s family owns ah

Joo Won looks pretty with his pretty coat and pretty smile

ah Joo Won’s desperate “you promised me that you’d turn yourself in”

ah, I feel like they’d be the roots of a tree or a different corpse? damn Oh Jihoon keeps finding corpses, first Geum Hwa and now this

in the ep 7-8 reddit on-air thread, people mentioned Jeong Je’s family owning a deer farm so I thought maybe Yoo Yeon’d be hidden there but turns out literally wayyyy too many dead bodies are buried there but likely not Yoo Yeon

(Bromance) okay listen, Joo Won and Dongshik had really good interactions and dynamics before this ep but now that the killer had been found and has died, I’m noticing things like oh Joo Won very beautiful and oh the Joo Won/Dongshik dynamics even more delicious than the haha bromance before. like Dongshik coming to Jin Mook’s house and hearing a video of Jin Mook’s voice to Dongshik is eerie and it’s so good to reveal that Joo Won has been listening to those. Joo Won’s arrogance not as pointed toward finding Dongshik suspicious even if it is to annoy Dongshik. Them calling each other cute wtf

jk Joo Won still suspicious of Dongshik - now for killing Jin Mook and not actually trying to find Yoo Yeon

ah so Jin Mook got the autopsy report of Hye Mi’s death so he had no more reason to live

Jin Mook really fuckin meant it when he said I returned Yoo Yeon to you - she was in the fucking basement furnace walls that Jin Mook put up even though Dongshik’s mom said not to do construction there

right so the chief ha been hiding something because why did he help with Jin Mook’s suicide - what does that fucker know that the chief doesn’t want to get out? did he kill Yoo Yeon? and try to pin it on Dongshik 20 years ago? what is his arrest going to unconver, ah

I don’t get Joo Won (?) inside the office or what’s happening

This is the first episode where I started actually shipping Dongshik and Joo Won beyond just “oh I like these two characters’ dynamic” and more as a “fuck I wish they had a romantic storyline” I even read 2 fics on AO3 released before ep 10 so that I don’t get spoiled oof kilmer by SerpentineJ is mindboggling i liked the fuckedupness

Ep 10: To Sink - 가라앉다 (Feb 6)

December 2020 ooh we’re going 2 months back from present - it’s 1 month after Kang Jin Mook’s death

What does it mean that Kwon is using unnie to refer to Jae Yi

Kwon talking about booksmart Joo Won getting used by crazy Dongshik - this was mentioned in the fic kilmer where Joo Won knew he was being used by Dongshik

ohhh that was cool because I’ve been like oh so far it’s like ep 9′s Joo Won who is smiley hasn’t started existing yet because it’s 2 months before ep 9 and it’s true, seems like this is when he decided to be reborn after the convo with Kwon

oh lol there really was an almost reunion of Jae Yi, Chief, and Joo Won at Busan

ah Joo Won found the dashcam footage using a PI

oh did Joo Won not request the arrest without a warrant for Chief? so somebody else knows?

"how many times have people from manyang station been arrested?” no like fr lmfao

Dongshik’s breakdown as he talks about how he imagined finding Yoo Yeon alive to her body to her skeleton to her ashes and yet not imaging her in his fucking basement and crying

Chief’s office had the autopsy report and fishing line? damn, that’d just make me think that it’s not him and somebody’s setting him up wtf

naurr Dongshik to Chief “Do I have to see something bad happen to you?”

oh lmfao Joo Won learned from Dongshik to fabricate evidence and even smiled at the CCTV - unlike Dongshik who had the footage deleted with Chief’s help

oh please Joo Won is sooo annoying with his smile and teasing hehe “ah that reminds me! ‘is that it? did you come all the way here because of that?’” throwing Dongshik’s words back at him. oh he’s memorized every fucking thing Dongshik had said to him or what?

Jeong Je’s going through it oof he was the last person to see Yoo Yeon that night and he was also the last person to see Min Jeong that night rip him fr

so Jeong Je’s deers look like people right? Who did that last deer look like? Yoo Yeon?

Dongshik knows Jae Yi saw Chief the night Jin Mook killed himself. ah Chief also knows it’s Joo Won who put him in that cell and Joo Won’s tryna what? bug the Chief’s wallet to be able to overhead convo? track him?

lol the photo taking with the Chief in a cell with a peace sign

bro too much is happening so Dongshik was in front of the what? deer farm thing or what idk and Chief was going there too but saw him and left. Joo Wonwas tailing him there and then to the main office where 2 other people from the substation were there too for some reason and then intercepted by his father and we learn his mother died

Joo Won was at the city as a child and was sent to the Uk at either, I wonder when his mother died? Was it while they were in Manyang? killed by Jin Mook? and then his father sent him away? or is that a coincidence

damn councilwoman wants to tranquilize Jeong Je

ah so Yoo Yeon really wasn’t killed by Jin Mook but somebody ran her over Multiple times <- Jeong Je? idk

somebody with black gloves killed the chief (the chief also wanted to kill them bc he came here with a gun) - is this the person who helped Jin Mook die?

Joo Won followed the Chief and realized somebody hit him, Dongshik realized something happened by calling the Chief and him finally picking up but just breathing

oh noooo Joo Won saying the same stuff that Dongshik’s old partner said but he dieddd

my god Dongshik repeatedly telling Joo Won to be careful and Joo Won saying he’ll be waiting. him telling the cops to track joo won and saying he’s his partner

damn bruv okay so Jeong Je and Dongshik got to the scene too late and the chief for sure dead and oof rip

dongshik in joo won’s arms hm

I feel like alksdfj because for multiple eps, since the ep where we saw Jin Mook at the end scene (ep 5) onwards, we’ve been getting answers - whether it be who is the murder, why, how, where the bodies of other victims are, where’s Yoo Yeon, etc. but this ep, we found out a bit like Yoo Yeon wasn’t killed by Jin Mook but by being run over and had a billion questions raised like who killed Yoo Yeon, why? how did Jin Mook get hold of her body? What did Chief know? Who helped Jin Mook die? Who killed Chief? etc

Ep 11: To Tighten - 조이다 (Feb 7)

It’s the break between my Tuesday classes and I’m spending that time starting another episode. I’m not even watching Never Let Me Go episode from today (read a few spoilers about it though) and instead watching this ah, I’m a bad student

Also, I’ve started listening to the OSTs since last night and it’s so good TODO listen to the songs and add some like The Night (+ instrumental) to my spotify

This show really does show everything rather than tell. People have been saying so on the reddit on-air threads for a while but we’re at the 2003 flashback with Chief and yeah, this show is big on just showing what happened and less exposition

Lee Dohyun my loveeee

ah parallels of Chief and Dongshik attending his father’s funeral vs Dongshik and Joo Won attending Chief’s funeral ah

naurr this grief is fucking me up fr like Dongshik going through the chief’s house, the flashback to Chief bringing the jjigae and their chant

Joo Won even drinking from the shared utensils

Joo Won and Jae Yi convo with his apologizing and thanking her hm

okay so i guess Jo Gil Goo and Hwang Gwang Yeong are starting to play more of a role since last ep after having not been there much for the first half of the show. would it really be one of them who killed Chief? they did say Gil Goo knew Chief for 21 years hm that’s when the original deaths happened

It’s curious that Joo Won and Dongshik are telling literally everybody that he saw those two at the Seoul agency - that makes it seem like there’s less weight to the suspicions

please I wish Jae Yi and Jihoon were a thing, her driving with him in the back of the motorcycle <3 i love het couples who are gay4gay

lol I too was thinking Hwang Gwang Yeong would be here to try for some job opportunity, makes sense

Gil Goo called Han Joo Won’s father deputy whatever that night hm

oh Jeong Je throwing away his medication <- the one councilwoman was using tranquilizer in or whatever? so that his visions/flashbacks continue

Gil Goo did something during the Yoo Yeong missing case 21 years ago that he thoughts was the order of the chief back then (ie. current Deputy whatever Joo Won’s father) ahh

and then the Chief came in to see the deputy chief? asking about Jo Gil Goo? omg and analysis report? wtf is happening girl

anyway i don’t believe for a second that Deputy Chief doesn’t have any idea about what’s going on. he’s the one who closed the case after 4 months back in 2000 after all and he’s shady throughout this whole show. doesn’t know about the analysis report and doesn’t know about what he ordered Gil Goo hmmmmmmmmmmmmmmmmmmmm

Gil Goo visited the chief in the holding cell

ohhh wtf wtf okay so there was a guitar pick beside the body in 2000, Gil Goo gave it to the forensics team and got the analysis report, that report had nothing that there were no prints on the analysis report oof - so it wasn’t actually Dongshik’s guitar pick the way I originally thought it was. I’d thought maybe he left it there when he was visiting her restaurant or whatever

oh the pick was Dongshik’s but there were no fingerprints on it - so I’m guessing there were Dongshik’s and somebody else’s?

man i should think of guesses right now ig because the reveals might be coming soon but idek like somebody pretended to give orders based on being Chief Han, who could do that? Am I supposed to be suspicious of Ji Hwa’s partner? would it be councilwoman because Jeong Je’s fingerprints would also be on the pick?

ah it’s true i guess that one person really did kill 3 people: yoo yeon, jin mook, chief name sang bae. a serial killer based on hiding yoo yeon’s killer

okay who is this guy again? chief of some other substation? of the violent crimes thing? he’s been at some of the interrogations

oh his name Cheol Moon - didn’t Gil Goo call him too? before calling the deputy chief? i guess it’s because cheol moon had been acting as if chief Han had ordered for the faking and disappearance of the analysis report

ah so Cheol Moon and Chief had gone to Jin Mook’s cell

bruv Jin Mook had ripped off his fingers to write on the wall w blood

ah it’s the construction CEO - somebody had mentioned that in the reddit on-air threads. someone sent him the CCTV from jin mook’s cells hmm also he owns the deer farm where the bodies are found <- will we get to hear more about this? were they killed like Jin Mook’s victims choking? like car accidents?

is CEO construction also faking his physical disability that’s so annoying of this fucking show

is councilwoman’s number the burner phone number than gil goo called?

my goodness

last 15 min rewatched: still so </3

I feel feral; it’s been a few hours since I watched this (I had to watch the last few minutes on such a time crunch cuz I had to get to my next class and time was running out but I was too close to the end to just stop and watch the rest later lol) and I’m just klajdsf about the ending. so Jeong Je ran over Yoo Yeon (poor girl, she was so happy to see the car lights), then councilwoman and the constructor CEO were also there and probably helped cover it up. does Jeong Je actually know he ran her over or is he so drugged up by his mom that he doesn’t know or that his visions/hallucinations make him think that was not real and he instead hit a deer? poor dongshik who somehow learned jeong je ran over yoo yeon. Also, did Yoo Yeon have her fingers or no? How did she escape Jin Mook? also how is Cheol Moon involved hmm and was it joo won who sent CEO the CCTV clip or someone else? ah fuck i’m mad that I have like 4 more hours of stuff to do before I can watch the next ep

Ep 12: To Loosen - 풀다 (Feb 8)

I'm so fucking stupid and only watched 1 ep yesterday because last night i was supposed to do some homework then watch ep 12 of beyond evil but i kept procrastinating for hours upon hours, so i only just finished the work at 12:30 and couldn’t watch another ep. ahh it’s even more annoying that i didn’t even procrastinate by watching an episode because i kept thinking i can’t start an 1h ep, i’ll be starting my work in like 5 minutes! 3 hours later i hadn’t started work nor watched an ep

Also I kept having to leave the G/T rated fics I tried reading because I was afraid that I’d get spoiled so I was like well if I read an explicit fic how much can porn really spoil? Well turns out Dongshik goes to prison for a year in the end maybe, it can spoil that

Who is Secretary Jang that Construction CEO Jin Lee is calling

ohhhh so Dongshik didn’t know that Jeong Je hit his sister but that Jeong Je must have recognized councilwoman’s burner phone from Gil Goo’s call log but didn’t mention it

and Jeong Je can’t remember that he actually hit Yoo Yeon that night or what happened that night; though he does know that the number what the burner phone his mom used 20 years ago

As I was about to start the ep, I was like oh it’d be fun if this ep’s title is 풀다 cuz I know that word already and it was :)

(Bromance) “Are you worried about me right now, Lieutenant Han Joo Won?” “Do you think I’m crazy?” lmfaoo

i wish i knew everybody’s names cuz who tf is HKH is this Deputy Chief Han

how much does Deputy Chief CEO Han know ah like he’s been in cahoots with councilwoman and Jin LEe CEO but he claims to not know wtf is going on and also he wasn’t seen in the flashback to the night of Yoo Yeong’s death

pls why are Joo Won and Dongshik so cute >.< Dongshik once again being like “ooh was i there?” and joo won instead of taking it as a confession, he’s like don’t joke about it >:((

okay they quickly learned that Jin Lee was at the restaurant last night

so who sent Jin Lee the CCTV vid hmm it doesn’t seem like Joo Won Dongshik etc I wonder if it could be Gil Goo trying to right his wrongs from before or Park Jeong Je in a similar vein

fuck did I forget something? What was in Chief Nam Sang Bae’s safe? the guitar pick analysis report? did Joo Won take that? or somebody else? also interesting that Gil Goo just straight up knows that councilwoman had a hand in killing Chief and just isn’t saying anything

what did councilwoman use that burner hone for 21 years ago?

also okay so Yoo Yeon’s body, catatonic Park Jeong Je, his mother councilwoman, and Jin Lee Construction CEO were all gathered there that night and Jin Lee was supposed to take care of Yoo Yeon’s body (he got Jin Mook to cover it up I suppose (in exchange for what? getting to bury people in the deer farm that Jin Lee bought from councilwoman?) and councilwoman tried to cover up everything Jeong Je was involved in (the guitar pick that was found and used for Dongshik’s capture whad Jeong Je’s fingerprints - I feel like that was guessable based on the fact that Jeong and Dongshik were friends and since finding out about councilwoman’s involvement, it’d make sense that she’d get rid of the paper because Jeong Je was her son and she’s protecting him ofc ofc but we still don’t know why the guitar pick was there that day. ig we’ll learn once Jeong Je’s memory comes back)

ooh Joo Won character growth of not just arresting Jeong Je without a warrant for having killed Yoo Yeon because he learned after doing that stuff to Dongshik

who is So Nyeo again? this pregnant lady ah her name is familiar but who are you? the forsenics department person? oh she’s telling them how Yoo Yeon probably was hit by the car

damn girl, Jo Gil Goo’s wife also involved with the councilwoman, Cheol Moon, and construction CEO?

so now Dongshik knows that Do Hae Won has been paying Gil Goo for 20 years because he switched out the guitar pick analysis report and the original fingerprints were Jeong Je’s

no like why are we also being like yesh Jeong Je’s meds hm like just 1 person takes meds and it’s seen as bad thing to cover up bad thing they did like pls this showwwwwww let’s spread a little less ableist ideas

ohh I’d assumed Dongshik had texted Yoo Yeon that night but it was Jeong Je - which makes sense now if we think that that’s her boyfriend

ah fuck was i supposed to fucking remember the burner phone numbers? did jeong je use the same phone to text yoo yeon that his mother later has used as her burner phone number

wait hold on wtf so Yoo Yeon was already fallen on the ground by the time Jeong Je ran over her? but also whoooo are these people like the outfit isn’t the same? or is it? or what’s happening? it wasn’t the outfit of the other girl whose body was near the guitar pick either

oh just kidding Yoo Yeon was indeed wearing that outfit but her yellow jacket was not to be found when Jeong Je ran her over

oh insane I was like Dongshik for sure not killing Jeong Je with that hammer lol but I also didn’t expect him to tell Joo Won of the confession but to aslo let Jeong Je just go home and kinda use him as bait to find out more about his mother councilwoman and also about who’s behind Chief’s murder etc and also I wonder if he realizes that something’s weird about Jeong Je saying Yoo Yeon was already on the ground when he ran over her, because a car hit her on the knees first

oh is this a hint that Han Joo Won’s deputy chief/commisioner father did indeed do something bad all thought years ago - this show keeps making him suspicious and then be like hm no he doesn’t know anything but then suspicious again

ah of course Han Joo Won’s father hit Yoo Yeon first and then just left her there I guess and then drunk out of his mind ran over Jeong Je her fallen body. did dongshik somehow already know of the father’s involvement bc why did he speak to joo won like that about his loyalty to family and whether dongshik can trust him if his father does something bad

Poor Yoo Yeon for real; she escaped the car while Jin Mook was dragging the other girl’s body and still got run over so many times and left for dead

we got a glimpse last episode of Yoo Yeong’s death so I thought we know most of the things but they seem to have endless tricks up their sleeves

When did Jeong’s mother and Jin Lee appear? did he call her? Jeong Je’s guitar pick fell when he went to Yoo Yeon, how come it was near the other girl?

Ep 13: To Ask - 묻다 (Feb 8)

Oof, no wonder all 3 of the councilwoman, Jin Lee, and Han Chief all ended up seeing Yoo Yeon’s body, they were all together and drinkingright before that. Makes more sense than them all stumbling upon her on their own

so Dongshik did catch the fact that Yoo Yeon can’t have been lying down

ya going back to how Han Gi Hwan closed the case just 4 months after Yoo Yeon’s disappearence

Oh I just realized person and deer are similar in Korean 사슴 사람

Did Jeong Je tell Dongshik abut Jin Lee also being there at the crime site or no because he seems to remember that. oh he did, okay

dang his mother breaking down like you’re not remembering it right because you’re the one who killed Yoo Yeon! when Jeong Je was asking who killed Yoo Yeon

no it’s like crazy that Han Gi Hwan ran over Yoo Yeon and left and then so many people worked to cover up Yoo Yeon’s death cuz of Jeong Je that Han Gi Hwan didn’t even have to do anything except close the case 4 months later and not worry about it for 20 years

lol but also this coverup meant the case been unsolved for 2 decades when, if Jeong Je had been arrested, everybody would’ve thought he killed her by himself and Han Gi Hwan wouldn’t have had to worry at all despite having run her over first

ohh Han Gi Hwan gave Jin Lee the orders to kill Kang Jin Mook and pulled the CCTV strings (which reminds me - who send Jin Lee the CCTV footage? that’s why he’s been hounding Han Gi Hwan no?) - that was the secret they were hiding (presumably because the two more aboutthe Yoo Yeon incident than councilwoman who only knows about Jeong Je and Jin Lee’s cleanup)

damn Han Gi Hwan and Cheol Moon really just decided to frame Nam Sang Bae “if something goes wrong” but also why did Jin Lee then kill Nam Sang Bae? Han Gi Hwan knew that Nam Sang Bae would visit

“Catch all the rotten bastards” girl Han Gi Hwan talking bout himself or what

ah somebody on reddit on-air said that Jae Yi’s talk about how Jeong Je must receive punishment is also about how he shouldn’t kill himself to escape like Kang Jin Mook

Han Gi Hwan foiling Han Joo Won’s plan about him knowing about bribe-taker Cheol Moon because Joo Won already told his father he’d do something about it if he didn’t deal with Cheol Moon but Cheol Moon has blackmail material on Han Gi Hwan such as him being involved with Kang Jin Mook’s death

girl what the fuck is happeningggggg okay is this Joo Won and Dongshik’s plan and that’s why Joo Won decided to come here to this commissioner thing (Kwon saying oh Joo Won you came here for this little thing? talking about the bribery scandal but he’s here to cause an even bigger scandal?) or is Dongshik going fucking balls to the wall wild again ahhhhhhhh scream

ohh Joo Won didn’t knowwww fuckkkkk what’s going on fucking hell

Girl I have immense amount of work to do because I’ve been procrastinating too much but... should I just procastinate for another 1.5 hours and watch the next ep wtf

This show has ended up so different from the first half where we had a loose serial killer but now it’s like laws and corrupt officials and bribery but it still keeps my attention and curiosity

Ep 14: To Answer - 답하다 (Feb 8)

nooooooo my poor Joo Won T.T his mom tried to kill herself and his dad sent his mom to a psych ward

they’re showing the arrest again and now that i’m not sooo focused on the ‘wtf is happening’ i’m like yknow what they both look hot

ohhh okay good it was in fact Joo Won’s idea whewwwwww

plsss Dongshik’s faceeee as Joo Won is confessing during the questioning even though Dongshik made him promise that he’ll use his right to remain silent

oh yeah i totally forgot that Han Joo Won had previously confessed and then they’d done nothing about it and he hadn’t been punished despite being wanting it

ohhh Joo Won being like fuck you for breaking your promise to turn yourself in for not calling as soon as you found out Jin Mook was guilty and we might’ve saved Min Jeong. I’ll thus break my proise to not take the punishment and instead admit my crimes

oh the punishment is just a suspension? or it says ‘until disciplinary meeting’ so maybe something more will come

damn not Kwan getting slapped by Han Gi Hwan and spoken to lowly. i kept thinking he’s gonna betray Joo Won in order to do something for his father but hmmmm I mean he could betray them both lol there’s 3 more hours left

pls not Joo Won appearing to a) lie to his father about not knowing about getting arrested (thus the show about what are you doing rn? during the arrest ig) and b) annoying his father

naur Joo Won’s father telling him to get out and him actually taking it to heart fr this time. it’s okay my guy your father will hopefully be in prison for hit and run soon

oh Kang Jin Mook just found Yoo Yeon, he and Jin Lee weren’t working together. that’s good i don’t think it would’ve made sense if Jin Lee just knew of a serial killer running around lowering their chance of redevelopment and didn’t do anything to stop it

Councilwoman’s secret girl there are so many things it could be about so idek

why is Jin Lee so funny just “if everybody knows it, would it be a secret?” and his heart eyes for Jihwa

aw Jihwa telling Jeong Je “good work” T.T

i love Jae Yi <3 also idk I like when Jae Yi treats Joo Won with the lightest layer of disdain but still is cordial towards him and I’d like it if they were friends but not romantically involved

ohoho all this talks about not being on the same team, alright guys

yaas Jae Yi chasing Han Gi Hwan

oh i’m a dumbass obviously Cheol Moon sent Jin Lee the CCTV footage

girl i keep getting confused and being like ohh dongshik joo won kiss <3 like wtf do you mean by ‘i promise i’ll contact you’ ‘i’ll be waiting, Han Joo Won’

ah so Han Gi Hwan did get caught by Jin Lee and that’s why it’s so interesting that he was called about the same girl again by the councilwoman

oof Joo Won bugged his dad’s car and gets to hear about how his father ordered Jin Lee to kill Jin Mook

I hope Joo Won is recording this he’s getting confessions of Jin Mook and Nam Sang BAe’s murders almost and kinda planning of Cheol Moon’s

not Joo Won’s brain and heart fucking breaking as he gets confirmation that his dad caused the accident that killed Yoo Yeon

naurrr not Dongshik checking his phone like a lover waiting for a text wtf

ah poor Joo Won at the end, just like the beginning. what’s he gonna do with that golf club in the rain

Ep 15: To Let Go - 놓다 (Feb 9)

noo poor Joo Won learning that not only did his father kill Yoo Yeon but he’s badmouthing Joo Won and didn’t even clearly say he won’t kill his own son

oh yeah it’s interesting how Joo Won came to the town convinved Dongshik killed Geum Hwa and Yoo Yeon but indeed it comes back to Joo Woon and his family

ooh Kang Jin Mook and chairwoman Do Hae Won know the secret mentioned in the last ep but Jin Lee doesn’t know. does Han Gi Hwan?

damn Joo Won being like i’ll set a trap, be the bait, become a monster, and drag Han Gi Hwan into hell with me and that’s how i’ll apologize to you Dongshik

(Fave) D: not the kneeling in front of Dongshik. My bad for reading that post-canon explicit fic that slightly mentioned Dongshik thinking of this moment because now I’m looking at it with that in mind

(Fave) but kneeling in front of someone and saying “I will go to hell” as you beg them to let you drag your father down for killing their sister is actually such aklsfjalksdfj (Edit: I’m reblogging every single gifset with this scene or with Joo Won/Dongshik hands gifsets where they talk about Joo Won atoning by going to hell ah)

damn the interaction between Jeong Je and his mom where she’s like... outwardly evil is wild

not them going on a meal date right now

pls Joo Won being like “sniveling? i never cried” like okay my guy

damn Han Gi Hwan knuckle bloody from punching the phone

ahhh Joo Won being like stop getting stabbed in the back by bastards you need to get rid of and hold my hand, thus using han gi hwan’s own words to point the accomplices as enemies and showing him that joo won can hold out his hand first

lmfao councilwoman’s approval rating for becoming mayor is last place? girl at least han gi hwan is literally nominated to become commissioner but she’s doing all these insane things for what? esp if she doesn’t even gaf about her son for real

damn Dongshik coming in at the perfect moment to stop Jin Lee from murdering Jeong Cheol Moon in broad daylight

I love it when I don’t know anything like for the past several episodes, we’ve known more than Dongshik or Joo Won have known but now, I don’t know what they’re planning exactly beyond just taking down Han Gi Hwan, so this is fun

you know Dongshik and Joo Won give me perfect ‘pretend enemies while lovers’ like Pat/Pran

pls Jin Lee being like okay I enjoyed the show, you’re trying to show me that your relationship is pretty bad right now. Am I close? like plssss maybe he’s my favourite character, who knows

ah Jin Lee said that night Han Gi Hwan came just to ask him to reject his wife’s construction company’s bid (a lie bc they were supposed to work together)

oof Jin Lee pointedly brining up the part when commissioner Han Gi Hwan was like a murderer shouldn’t get a mic into his mic

ah Jin Lee working to make it seem like Do Hae Won ran over Yoo Yeon + talking about how the bodies found in the Deer Farm killed by Kang Jin Mook was on his property but it was still Do Hae Won who had access to it and is suggesting she worked with Kan Jin Mook

tbh we still don’t know why Jeong Je’s guitar pick thing appeared beside the other girl

Park Jeong Je in a mental hospital

Joo Won was expecting his father to do something about Cheol Moon but instead he promoted him right hm

girl what’s happening agh fuck 50m in i can’t rn i have class soon, guess i’ll just have to watch this later T.T

okay time to finish watching the last 15 mins or so

does Prosecutor Kwan now know Lee Dongshik’s number even though he technically doesn’t know whose number it is he can probably guess

Joo Won seeing Jeong Cheol Moon text Dongshik about meeting alone and so taking his phone...

Did Joo Won’s behaviors seem weird to Dongshik - ah he’s realized Joo Won took his phone

girl what the fuckkkkk Joo Won what?!

Is this what Joo Won meant by “I will become a monster” like what’s happening what did Joo Won do? Why did Cheol Moon wanna meet Dongshik? girl there’s 1 ep left wtf???

Ah okay I will have a guess that: Jeong Cheol Moon turning off his lights immediately after going home was strange. Maybe he was waiting for Dongshik in the darkness or maybe somebody else was there and turned it off? acc idek what guess I have beyond I doubt Joo Won actually killed him, thus the ‘it seems like... i killed him’ so either somebody else killed Cheol Moon and was trying to frame Dongshik perhaps. or maybe Joo Won is gonna have Cheol Moon in hiding not dead - that’ll get him out of Han Gi Hwan’s hair for the time being. idkidk Also Joo Won and Dongshik stared at each other for sooo long in that last scene, what were you communicating?! tell meeee

Ep 16: To Catch/Hold - 잡다 (Feb 9)

Badmouthing somebody and then calling them and having the phone ringing from your shower is so horrific lmfao

Whose phones is Jin Lee trying to frame

Okay, I was confused about the timeline of the text but it makes more sense now. Jin Lee texted Dongshik with an unknown number (JCM is used by Jin Lee or the father and that was in the text) before Cheol Moon arrived home and that’s he was killed and Jin Lee put the phone that texted Dongshik on the sink to show that Dongshik was brought there and then killed him. Wonder what the other phone is for though

Dongshik talking about Joo Won like that’s his lover

naurrrr Joo Won’s Lady Macbeth type washing the blood from his hands

“I don’t like other people in my home” “You don’t like other people in your home but you entered mine so boldly?”

So Jin Lee left his cellphone that he used to text Nam Sang Bae, which he also used to text Dongshik to come to JCM’s house, along with Nam Sang Bae’s phone.

ah they’re framing it as Cheol Moon killing Nam Sang Bae and committing suicide and also previously tried to frame it like Dongshik killed Cheol Moon, they’re really tryna get as many birds with one stone huh

6179 was the number of Han Gi Hwan’s cellphone after speaking with Jin Lee, are we supposed to remember it?

girl Jin Lee had a whole wife and kid when he married Ji Hwa?!

Dongshik telling Do Hae Won about Jeong Je not really being the culprit

no what was councilwoman tryna say about Kang Jin Mook D:

bruh Dongshik and Joo Won really bet on the fact that Jeong Je would be moved and swooped in to take him away. my cool Jae Yi

okay finally we’re gonna learn bout the location of the guitar pick around Bang Joo Seon

ah Jin Mook put the guitar pick there on purpose to make them think Jeong Je killed both Yoo Yeon and Joo Seon

damn this whole time Ho Dae Won knew that the serial killer was Jin Mook and gave him the deer farm to store his victims ah

damn the Jin Mook and Ho Dae Won convo is wild

oof they left Do HaE Won out and tried to make it seem like she killed Yoo Yeon Jin Mook etc but she came out and said it was the other two oof

damn okay Prosecuter Kwon has been giving sleezy vibes this whole time (budget Kang Jin Mook who just evades some laws instead of a serial murderer) but I guess he listened to what Joo Won said

“Do you only entertain Lee Dongshik’s calls? Are you two dating?” Bro I should drop the (Bromance) and just do (Romance) like wtf

ah so I guess Dongshik got the confession that it was Han Gi Hwan from Jin Lee’s mouth

oh no Joo Won’s mother committed suicide at the hospital and his rascal father said that’s the worst escape a weak person can choose

damn Joo Won learned from Dongshik to do this ‘face the gun’ and taunt type thing but Dongshik knew you wouldn’t fucking kill him Joo Won. your father however...

the way Joo Won went to block Dongshik with his body and keep his eyes lowered is killing me so bad, my beautiful boy I wanna read about you getting [redacted]

I love Dongshik’s face every time Joo Won surprises him, like the gun shooting at the roof

About being arrested by Joo Won for messing with Min Jeong’s murder scene, Dongshik’s like “If you don’t do it, I won’t turn myself in.” like broooo why are they so special to each other ah

Joo Won’s arrest of Dongshik being so different now than previously

Linguistics: The handholding and “Joo Won-ah” and Joo Won’s tears I’m gonna crawl into a hole

(Fave) Joo Won’s crying on Dongshik’s hands that are in handcuffs while Dongshik smiles on what if I cried and died what would this show do then

yknow I’m used to looking into things like ah yes these girl besties are definitely in love and these guys are litteraly soulmates etc but now... are they tryna tell me these two are in love like idek

girl Feb 5 2021 for a second my heart skipped a beat like oh this is Feb 3 2021 I’m watching it close to the date but like uhhh it’s 2023 get your head on straight miss boy

Joo Won coming to his mother’s grave ah

if this was a BL, the choahamnida by Joo Won after the jjigae would’ve been a moment of “oh? what does he choa? could it be Lee Dongshik?”

the “Joo Won ah” instead of “Liutenant Joo Won” or “Han Joo W on-ssi” from Dongshik kills me so bad. but then Joo Won being like don’t use banmal with me lee dongshik-ssi

Joo Won going around finding people who are lost in mountains and stuff, the way Dongshik did to that girl’s father ah. that’s good but why are you guys walking awayyyyy what do you mean Joo Won didn’t visit him in prison

I wonder how I would’ve felt if I didn’t know from 2 different Explicit fics that Dongshik was in prison for a year at the end lol

I wish the ending was juuust a bit more drawn out or not given us an ‘1 year later’ because I need either a bit more of all of them together and Dongshik/Joo Won or I need none of it so that I am solely responsible for my imagination. Like to go from such such such deep emotions during Joo Won arresting Dongshik to this casual, almost detached feeling even though they clearly still care for one another is too much for me.

Overall:

Ah, 17-ish hours passed with this story and characters.

Interesting how I started the show for one reason (serial killer, who-dun-it) but after Kang Jin Mook’s capture and death, the show seemed to be like a new season but with the same overarching Yoo Yeon plot and became more about politicians and legalities. Yet, it kept me engaged.

The writing of this show was really good, I thought the unravelling was quite good and even when we were a few steps ahead of the main characters as the audience, it didn’t lose the edge and also the characters caught up quickly enough. There may be plot holes but nothing sticks out to me and that’s what’s important. The characters were also really well written and given depth. The acting is great, the directing was soooo good in some places like congrats on this cinematography and directing choices, and the music was good too.

Also, it’s director and scriptwriter are both women, which is great, especially for this type of series that focuses so much on female victims

I’ve not been feeling romance for the past few weeks but Dongshik/Joo Won did manage to give me intense brain worms. Especially because in the first half, I was more worried about the girls and catching the killer etc and they had an interesting enough dynamic then with the antagonizing but after there wasn’t An Imminent Threat in the 2nd half is when we started getting more of their dynamics and such. They seemed so fucking gay in the text, not subtext, in the last few eps, esp the last episode. I will often look at same gendered friends and be like ah they are madly in love but did this show specifically want me to think of them that way because it sure seemed like it at the end, though I will choose to believe that they will continue to be very close after the show ends and not see each other’s face once a year or something.

Very good, I think I’ll rewatch this sometime and also gonna go read fics. Rewatching will for sure be interesting as I get to see more things, like even at the very first scene, young Kang Jin Mook is seen being asked to move things

Rating: 8/10

Tiktoks

Joo Won holding Dongshik at Chielf Nam Sang Bae’s body (bg: Chandelier - Sia)

Dongshik Edit (bg: hey mickey you’re so fine)

Min Jeong T.T (bg: Yellow - Coldplay)

Jae Yi <333

Joo Won “i don’t like touching people’s hands” vs clutching at Dongshik

Juwoon Dongshik parallels (twt: bfufilm)

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