#I’ll have like four huge zits at once and they HURT and are gross but I resist the urge to pick them and then they just

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#i’m so tired of not having confidence #and it’s counterproductive to say I don’t have any or that I don’t try to #because some days will be A LOT better than others #but even when I’m happy and having fun w people I care about #i feel super gross and ugly all the time #especially my skin and my hair #i fucking hate having acne and I’ve tried so many fuckint things to fix it but my skin is just disgusting no matter what #i know acne isn’t gross and no one should feel ashamed of it #but i do and I don’t know how to fix it or get rid of it #i drink so much damn water I get enough sleep maybe not at the right time but still #I’m consistent w the products i use which is a lot of good stuff #but my skin hates me I guess #I’ll have like four huge zits at once and they HURT and are gross but I resist the urge to pick them and then they just #stay there. for like three fucking weeks #so I end up picking my face and breaking out MORE #so annoyed so tired so disgusted #no one else in my family had this problem as long as I did or as severe #it’s just fucking unfair to see other people my age with perfect skin that isn’t scarred or textured or hairy #like my body hates me too because I’m so sensitive and have eczema and folliculitis and all that fun shit #I just don’t get why #i’m exaggerating #but like am I not grateful enough? do I take shit for granted so I deserve to feel like shit all the time because I look like shit? #probably.