#I’ll be here screaming into the void

[roadkilledthegirl]

ok. I’m going to say it.

I love ALL eras of boreo/decklikovsky EQUALLY, and I will FIGHT for EVERY SINGLE ONE OF THEM.

Las Vegas era? Brilliant - the inexplicable teenage love and lust for each other (terrifying and amazing) - caring for someone because they’re the only person in the universe who cares for you, getting drunk and high and altogether plastered together because you’re so traumatized and lonely that you don’t know how to bond with people in any different way and hey, you both like it (a little too much in fact) so why not?? It’s DELICIOUS. this part of the book was just written too well to be put down as “unfortunate” or “less than”. It’s so so so sad and raw and angry and vulgar and and and

And you couldn’t even have post-Vegas New York, Antwerp & Amsterdam without it!! Where would the tension, the longing, the shock of seeing your - best friend? ex best friend? The guy you hate so much because you love him even more ??? Where would all of that come from without such a complex, tangled backstory???? There’s no one without the other!!!!!!

#screaming into an actual void here guys I’m sorry 😭😭 #but I’ve seen so many ‘I hate LV era’ and I think we need to remember just how important that part of the book was #it just speaks to me as an angry sad gay teenager #it’s so so important and I’ll never shut up about it #I LOVE post Amsterdam and I mostly read fics of them from that era cos it’s where the healing happens (god knows they need to heal lol) #but they need to heal from how kind and how terrible they were to each other those two years #um. anyway #enjoy this I guess #the goldfinch #boris pavlikovsky #theo decker #theodore decker #boreo #decklikovsky #tgf #donna tartt #boris and theo #theo x boris #tgf boris #las vegas era #amsterdam era

[gretchenwienerdogs]

Wrapping gifts and having a lil mental breakdown, as one does this time of year ✌️

#i’ll be fine dw #there’s so little mutuals still active here that it feels a bit like screaming into the void #which hilariously is why I got a tumblr in the first place

[harapeveco]

For a while I’ve wanted to like make this blog more personal in the sense of wanting to scream about everything I like not only Eve but I can’t really do that bc this is the Eve Blog tm and people don’t follow it for me they follow it bc of the Eve info I can provide which fair so I decided to make a personal blog where I’ll just ramble, be even more insane, be hornier and just worst that I already am uwu

So yeh uuuhhhh it’s @juiciest-candy or something idk

#dw posting here will continue as normal 🫡 #I just need to scream my thoughts somewhere bc I know my discord besties are tired of me talking #that’s why they just don’t answer anymore LMAO #so yeh this way I can just scream into the void without feeling bad #also I don’t think I’ll talk about utaite there I’ll probably talk about music but not utaite music #utaite and eve stay here

[flysdaleflyby]

now why did none of y’all tell me cale had a girlfriend??? and i had to find out from twitter that he’s ENGAGED????

#i’m gonna be sick #this is absolutely devastating to me #i was on here talking about how i hoped he would fall in love with me and none of y’all thought to tell me??? #i’ll just be sad forever #cale makar #okay i’m done being delulu now i just needed to scream into the void

[sarainabox]

I sometimes wonder if other Irish (and Scottish because I see it happen to you lot as well but I can’t speak for your experience) people feel the same sort of gross feeling inside when people turn the Irish language and culture into this kind of weird fantasy land for their own daydreams?

I can’t even fully explain the feeling it’s just… icky?

#Ireland #Irish #this is fully brought on by the gaelic vs gaeilge thing that’s going around now #it’s like we’re fun for you to turn into this fantasy play land but when we ask for respect suddenly it’s a debate? #I know I’m probably thinking too much into this #but I like to scream into the void on here #I’m not going to tag Scotland because again I can’t speak for you guys #I think I spelled gaeilge wrong in the first one I’ll check and fix it later

[posixiety]

Between tumblr live and the market place, I’m starting not to enjoy the tumblr experience.

#just screaming into the void #I’ll still be here daily

[banana-vatore]

Dear Sims 3 team.

Why would you have Ichabod Specter die by electrocution?? He was Olive’s only best friend, the only husband who’s last name she eventually chose to keep, and the only husband and only person in general on her lot that died of natural causes. Him dying of old age is SUCH an important part of his character.

It sorta seemed like they tried to keep his original cause of death because his tombstone does say old age but really couldn’t you actually have his ghost type match? it’s genuienly not that difficult-

The Sims’ strongest elements of storytelling are the little details, the family trees, the memories, the ancestors ghost types, and ignoring little details like this genuinely feels like disregard to their own work.

#don’t take this too seriously i’m just very hyperfixated on olive specter’s story i’m really not all that mad at them #i just think it’s a little lazy of them #especially with the fact that his tombstone is mismatched #it doesn’t seem like a conscious decision #ichabod specter my beloved #I know close to no one cares about this and especially not my followers but i’m here to scream this into the void anyway #there’s approximately 3 people that care about ichabod as much as i do and y’all are the goats #i won’t go into how much his ghost in the sims 3 annoys me #okay i will #i get that all the ghosts in that world are white colored themed but that’s no excuse to whitewash the guy idc what anyone says #ramble over i’ll go more in detail on that in a different post #the sims 3 #the sims 2 #olive specter #ichabod specter #midnight hollow #strangetown #sims 2 premades

[pepprs]

beaver gnawing on wood noises

#purrs #delete later #this is gonna be a bad / hard post and i’ll have to delete it. like it feels like in making it im invoking cosmic forces to show me karma or #idk like being an ingrate or whatever. but sometimes i find myself on social media rabbitholes looking at instagram pages of.. women who #like really genuinely appear to be good moms to their kids. and love them for who they are and don’t try to make them anything different. #and who celebrate their quirks and stuff. and even share interests with them at the bare minimum. and it just makes me want to sob. like the #knot in my throat. i shouldn’t do it bc i just hurt myself but it’s like. im so lucky i have a mom and that she provides for me. and i know #there are valid reasons for that being all she can do. but also why can’t she… idk.why can’t she ummm love me. or celebrate me. or find #magic in me. or at the very least accept my humanness and be open to me like giving her feedback on stuff. even tonight at this panel this o #one woman was like yeah my two daughters call me on stuff and im like you’re right. if i called my mom on stuff (and i do) she would give me #the silent treatment (and she has) or eviscerate me (and she has). and people in my work life and on here call me endearing and say all #these things. but it’s like none of it can fill up the absolute aching pulsing void that is… my mom. my mom!!!!! is just a person i live #with anr resent most of the time. who has hurt me so badly. and i could have had a mom who like. let me sing and didn’t mock me for it. #and who came in and said goodnight to me and my sister instead of leaving us to o ur own devices because we’re twins and we had each other. #and 14 years ago today was the day that fully cemented in that she could not be that kind of mom and would never be. and i know she tried so #hard and i know she has been hurt and is still hurting. but i just want to scream. like everyone deserves a mom who loves them for who they #are and shit. and how fucking unfair is it that.. like it sounds so selfish and entitled. b it how fucking unfair is it that i got a mom who #im afraid of and then there are people like fucking… m*lissa err*co and sh*ron wh*atley (those are just the famous ones) who by all #appearances seem to be like.. not only loving but open. seeing their children as human and magic all at once. instead of a war prize and a #symbol of their own hardships or whatever. like it’s just so fucking unfair. i hate that this is the way things are for me and that it will #never change and that if it ever does i have to be the one to change it or i have to heal from it and let go of it. like FUCK that! i want #love from my mom! FUCK the fact that she can’t give it to me!!! she has to!!!!!! but she won’t. idk. delete post <3 #like so genuinely i should not be even typing these words bc god is gonna smite me now lol. but my heart is howling #and the shitty thing is i don’t think i’ll be able to be that kind of mom if i ever become one bc of how badly all of this has hurt me. and #bc of all that i don’t even think i want to become a mom anymore bc i don’t want to be the reason a child feels this way or grows up to.

[touyasdoll]

literally we’re all here to talk about pixels we find attractive & some of y’all always wanna start shit or find problems where there are none. this is like. supposed to be fun. I’ve taken a step back for the past week or so and it seems like every time I open this damn app there’s just more weird bullshit going on. stop it. I do not get it. who is getting their rocks off to nonsense. give positivity a chance, please.

#gonna keep taking a step back bc I can’t with the negativity around here as of late #I have enough in real life tyvm lol #I’ll be around but like #idk man #I’m just begging y’all to all try spreading a little positivity #it goes a long fucking way #and that’s all I’m gonna try to do here #I’m just a little fed up with the bs #sorry for the vent #tw discourse #tw vent #ash screams into the void

[airehoney]

So fucking pissed right now.

I dropped the birds off at the vet this morning for a two day stay while a new oven was installed downstairs because the fumes from the factory coating burning off are very toxic to birds especially.

Mind now, there was nothing wrong with the old oven/stove except a burned out timer and some cosmetic old oven grunge. Getting it replaced is a giant waste of money imho.

Well the fucking thing doesn’t fit and now all this extra shit has to be done before it can be installed. Oh and the guys who brought the new one (that doesn’t fit ) broke the oven door taking it back to the truck so now they have to order a new one. 🙃

I was told “next week” for an ETA. That’s it. No day just Next Week.

My birds are already at the vet over an hour away. And now I don’t know when I can bring them home.

I already felt guilty as fuck for boarding them for TWO DAYS because they’ve never been without both of us for more than a few hours at a time.

I’m so angry and I miss my birds and I feel like a fucking monster for sending them away for who-the-fuck-knows how long.

#sorry I had to scream into the void #I want to scritch my babies but they aren’t here #so I’ll just go cry instead #not xiv #aire’s life is bullshit

[notsolonelyygirl]

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#don’t mind me just keep scrolling #don’t mind me just screaming into the void #me and my shenanigans #I’m laying in bed half asleep and very needy #and yet no one is here to take advantage of me #it isn’t fair #I guess I’ll just have to help myself #it’s gonna be a self care day

[crypticmachiavellianwriter]

sometimes my brain gets the beginning lines of a fic and it sprawls into something with spice and sex and feelings.

I just wish it didn’t take so damn long to get a new ao3 account 🫠

(she says with the fic not even being done yet 💀)

anyway, I’ll keep yelling into the void and hoping I one day manage to get any of these swirling fic ideas out of my head

#sewis #i’ll just leave this here #f1 rpf fic #I should’ve stayed in my tennis rpf lane #yelling into the void #I wish I could write faster #come scream with me over the vroom vroom

[dramaticviolincrescendo]

That feeling when you finish Night Angel Nemesis and see the tag is still dead…

#night angel trilogy #night angel nemesis #I’ll just be here mentally screaming into the void I guess #but really it was so freaking good

[menemosa]

Have a new favorite manhwa. Secret Lady is so doekekekdmndjebcndnndd im fucking dying the art and the characters and the plot and the politics and the development and direct and everything about it is sublime. I want to climb both Rosentine and Charteris like a metaphorical tree

#every single character is so fucking djanndsns #the politics and the realistic character development and the romance between the two main characters #its so beautiful and i want to eat every bit of it #the premise of the worldbuilding and its people and politics and origin story is actually so fascinating too #i want an entire novel full of the ramifications of the **** and the tragic stories surround it #AND ESWAR #man probably would never put anyone above the empire BUT #if youre looking for a footstool i’ll be waiting here 🥲 #same with ranon tbh #actually just any character in this manhwa #theyre so pretty im fucking dying #AND THE ART #OMFG THE ART IS JUST BEAUTIFUL AND I WANT TO CONSUME IT AND MELT INTO IT ALL AT ONCE #im sooooo normal about this guys so normal #just screaming into the void #secret lady #manhwa hell

[urmomsfavelesbian]

are the people on twitter who like daya okay……..the answer is no but oh my god the drama is fucking insane 😰 and all with their faces attached somewhere daya can see it 😰 these are people fully in their 20s 😰

#the difference in tumblr and twitter dayalikers will never cease to amaze me #and i have a predisposition for insane debilitating jealousy (it’s the bpd) and so i’ll admit i do kinda hate these people #because they’re rich and capable of insane things and everyone knows them so they get preferential treatment at every event i see them at #and also because they’re genuinely very rude and mean spirited people (clearly) that use daya and other queens for clout a lot of the time #However #i would never start actual drama oh my god please i would rather eat glass than act the ways these people do #this is why i don’t talk on twitter and when i do it’s Only to daya and no one else #idk why i’m posting this im screaming into the void #maybe bc it makes me rlly appreciate the comparatively drama free air of tumblr #we’re just here to be gross rlly #and i think that’s beautiful

[petrovna-zamo]

What’s a girl gotta do to listen to Katya talk around here

#listen… #no one will let her speak! #ffs she’s so interesting and thoughtful and has so much insight on so many different topics #but she’s stuck with people who only talk about themselves #to make matters worse she’s so polite and asks so many questions we’re never going to have a fighting chance here #I should make a list of the best and worst interviews and podcasts when it comes to this topic #it’s my pet peeve I’ll never let it go I’m sorry #I know she probably doesn’t care but I care! #she’s like a mysterious witch who only occasionally leaves her cave #so it feels like a damn shame when the few opportunities we have are wasted #like I could come up with a million questions at the drop of a hat #ask her about feminity and womanhood and writing and sewing and fame and beauty and gymnastics and tarot and death and sex and love #it’s so easy! #I’ll forever be screaming into the void begging people to let! her! talk! #if you made it this far #I’m sorry rant over lol