#I work hard for the money I earned

[l3ominor]

I think I've cried every day this week.

Something about being home I guess

#im just so frustrated #im completely broke and my parents wont do anything to help me oht #i cant work to earn money #and i just feel like a general failure and disappointment overall. #my parents solution? #mind over matter #you can do anything if uou try hard enough! #thanks #no thanks #l3o vents

[felizusnavidad]

i'm going home tomorrow & i'm so excited to see my family, i really missed them

#also my mom told me some time ago that i'm really brave & i shouldn't give up #but i don't feel brave i feel tired #so basically i had three different jobs this year #first one i quit because i hated it & it was too chaotic #i got fired from the second one after over a month because apparently i was too nice #now the third one i know is just temporary because it's similar to the one i quit last year #and it's only because i need money so i can't stay jobless #my situation is kinda fucked up because i live here alone so i have to pay rent #and i really don't want to go back to my parents #i know i can but i wanna stay here #i've been working so hard to move to my favourite city and i want to start studies here this year i just can't give up #so i just took the job i didn't want #and i keep looking for something i might actually like #but god i'm tired #i feel like the biggest fucking failure #i just need a normal fucking job jesus why is it so hard #i don't want to work with customers anymore i hate people #and i also want to earn a little more money because trust me it's not that easy to live fucking alone #i mostly spend my money on food cause unfortunately i have to eat #but i'm not interested in just surviving i really want to start feeling alive again #ugh #talking shit for the hell of it*

[thisloev]

spending my whole life trying and trying and trying and trying to be good enough for people who don't give a fuck about me

#im so tired living seems pointless why am i doing this what is the reason #the firm i work at is going thru a merger so it's releasing all the interns except 2 #i went into her office and said that id like to stay here bc my dad said so bc i got in cause he was friends with the head #and she said ill think about it based on performance ive not decided yet #and this other guy he went in to tell her that cool he'll leave and she told him that she was hoping that he'd stay #he literally does nothing but play games on his phone he doesn't work at all #i have no idea what he has that i don't #but just. im stuck like this forever right never ever good enough for people i like or care about #not for parents they have a diff fav child not for ex gf not for bestie who has a boyfriend much better at loving her than me #not for that one guy who rejected me in interview bc i don't read the newspaper and didn't know the date of the finance act #im so fucking sick of this i never even wanted to this fuckinh course and obviously even my best isn't enough and ofc im not good enough #for anyone in this field and ill just struggle and struggle and struggle all my life just to earn some fucking money so i can live away #from my sociopathic parents #and the worst part is that i can't stop feeling like maybe it IS me yk maybe i am the problem maybe im not trying hard enough #but how else am i supposed to handle this i prioritize my studies and lose all my friends i prioritise my friends and fail in d #exams #and the trauma keeps on coming every fucking day bc sociopathic parents but i jsut push it down and say not rn i will cry at night anx then #never cry #i wish someone would just tell me that idk you're wrong you're not made for this you really do have some mental illness and you're really #trying your best and do something that's easy and that you love doing #oh god this is now a ventpost #mes

[xinyuehui]

I am Sun Sanniang first and Fu Zifang's mother second...I do not need your permission. Did you forget? Your father divorced me long ago. Nobody in this world have the right to control my marriage, even if you're my son, you do not have the power...I finally understand now, a mother could be kind, but the son may not be filial...If I want the phoenix coronet and official robe, I will earn it myself I will not rely on you.

梦华录｜A Dream of Splendor

#梦华录 #meng hua lu #a dream of splendor #chinesemedia #chineseartistsinc #cdramanet #cdramagifs #chinese drama #cdramaedit #cdrama #chinese wedding #caps #liu yan #sun sanniang #du changfeng #zhang xiaoqian #ep40 #san niang is my fav out of the main cast not only ly is a good actress her character also feels the most real compared to the other two #i guess the plot had to steer her to marriage to fulfil her dream but even if she didnt get remarried i feel like she would be fine with it #she will continue to work hard and earn money and look after her son after he came looking for her in the capital #the last 10ep of the drama was simply painful to watch i finished it bc i made it so far may as well see what bs they end on

[incorrect-jojolands-quotes]

Prior to Usagi's backstory where he mentioned his father's death and his mother and him living on the life insurance payout, I had a different headcanon for his backstory that explained why Meryl Mei insists he's a good kid despite constantly buying drugs from the gang and being an oddball.

Usagi is the oldest of many siblings ranging from those just a few years younger than him to toddlers. The Alohaoes have lived below the poverty line for generations and the family were no strangers to losing their members to gang life, drug addiction, crippling debt, or a combination of the three. Some of those members, like Usagi's parents, try to make an honest living as working class folks, but both end up working long hours to barely get by and government assistance can only go so far.

As the oldest sibling, Usagi ended up being de-facto man of the house, making sure his siblings get to school on time, attend their games and doctor's appointments, tucking them in at the end of the day, staying up when one or five get sick. Usagi's parents do love him, but there's that underlying obligation and guilt Usagi feels if he doesn't step up to help the family in any way, and his parents can only do so much after being out of the house for so long and splitting time between their kids for quality time.

Usagi knows his parents are working multiple dead-end jobs, unable to be promoted or change to better careers due to lack of education and opportunities, and they end up coming home late at night to be taken care of by him before doing it all over again the next day. While balancing his own studies and trying to go through the day of caring for his family and house, Usagi ends up being addicted to hard drugs out of necessity rather than pleasure. Coffee and nicotine patches can only keep you up and alert for so long, and sometimes there are days where sleep is not an option; the longest he's stayed up is 31.5 hours straight followed by crashing for 5 hours and waking up to resume his schedule as if nothing happened. Sometimes, the drugs suppress his appetite, which allows him to go long without eating in case he doesn't get a chance to sit down.

The worst part and another reason for him being addicted to drugs is the fact that he's a natural genius.

Upon realizing how intelligent and inquisitive their son is, his parents are also banking on him to be the first of the Alohaoes to graduate high school and go to college without a criminal record or other issues. If Usagi gets a well-paying degree and job, the Alohaoes can breathe easier in terms of finance and Usagi can become an example for future generations to eventually get the Alohaoes out of the poverty cycle. So, not only is Usagi taking care of his siblings but he ends up overseeing the household such as taxes and bills, talking to authorities to prevent them from escalating situations near his home, filling out forms for welfare and arguing with health insurance companies at a very young age. His family unconciously expect him to be able to do anything because of his intelligence and they're hoping his grades would allow him to receive free scholarships among other things.

Like many who experienced living below the poverty line, the idea of mental health and attempts to ease this load while the system is intentionally working against you is met with "just deal with it" instead. Finding someone to vent to or provide help is difficult and could cause more harm than good if someome takes things out of context. Someone called CPS on them once because Usagi made an offhand remark on how tired he was; Usagi had to stop the case from escalating in fear that his siblings would be separated "because he made a stupid mistake" and feels guilty for what he did despite being honest at the time.

The drugs Usagi takes doesn't only keep him up but also hide who he really is. While he appears jovial, irresponsible, and amicable on drugs, he's the complete opposite when sober. I imagine him to be like Fugo: cynical, bitter, easy to anger but unable to express it. The bodysuit he wears is intentionally fitted not only to minimize issues caused by skin irritation and bug bites (seeing how he has that in his backpack) but it also doubles as a calming compression suit to ease his bottled emotions. It could be hiding other things but who knows. He's good at hiding things... too good.

Usagi doesn't want to lash out on his loved ones nor show what he's going through. He keeps himself high to maintain his fake persona and remain likeable, but it would only be so long before he breaks and shows who he really is.

Anyways, what do y'all think?

#the jojolands #jjba #jojo part 9 #jojos bizarre adventure #jjba part 9 #jojolands #jjba jojolands #jojolands headcanons #jojo headcanons #usagi alohaoe #i love making my favorite characters suffer #first we got paco's backstory and now here's my take on usagi's #poor baby needs a hug #this is kind of inspired by my mom bc she is the oldest sibling of many and ended up being defacto parent bc of the living situation #long story short granddad was in prison and grandma had to work to earn money and ofc its hard when youre a woman with many kids back then #but anyways this is my take on usagi's backstory #i'm just imagining how usagi finally reveals his true self and how the gang would react #older sibling syndrome yall

[oifaaa]

There’s also the occasional take people have where Jason should be thankful Bruce adopted him because he was wealthy and it’s like children should not be thankful and in debt for being adopted first of all and you can tell it’s always based around classism because the people who say that never say that Tim should be thankful. It really stems from a he got them out of poverty narrative rather than he gave them a family narrative like being poor is a negative strike against them and not highlighting a broken system that let it get to that point.

I think people don't even realise they're being classist a lot of the time tho I wonder how much of that is bc of the American perspective I know that there's less focus on class mostly bc race is a bigger topic and if your gonna get discriminated against its gonna be on race (not saying there's not racism where I am but people have a bigger focus on classism)

#Ask #Anon #People over here like hiding their racism in classism #For a bunch of different reasons #Like it's more acceptable to be classiest then racists #Bc as everyone knows wealth is a choice #Let's not look at how your ethnicity might affect what job you have and what money you earn #If you work hard enough you can always make money #I got really off topic there #We were talking about Jason #How am I on class and race

[rosalesbeausderholle]

Don't know how to do the whole living under capitalism thing anymore sorry...

#liveblogging my life #i feel such an idiot for having such a hard time coping #bc like if i get fired I'll be fine #my parents have two apartments under their names #i will never ever be on the risk of homelessness #and likely not starving either #so like I don't have to have two jobs to make ends meet or whatever #I don't have children to take care of #abd yet this is killing me #post university life is killing me #before even with work i had like a purpose goals #now I'm not even doing anything i care about #I'm just wasting my life so that a company earns more money #under a boss who hates me bc he thinks I slack off (i don't!!!) #but I don't have time for myself #nor motivation to pursue any personal projects #and i end up too tired from work to do anything else #at all #not to mention how hard living with my girlfriend is #like i love her to death but god the constant socialization #it's exhausting #i want to have my room back! #I want to have any sense of control or direction as to how my life is going #and I don't have it anymore #my life is over #it's just work until retirement #no living in different places anymore #no more excitement #just... routine

[immamapletreekid]

instead of grinding for finals i lost hours to a one piece wiki spiral

#IT ALL STARTED...WITH CP9S INDEPENDENT REPORT #in the most predictable fashion. ive yet again fallen for the “dangerous murder bot villains are actually a found family and genuinely care #for one another“ #PLSSS THE WAY THEY ALL WORKED SO HARD TO EARN THE MONEY TO TREAT LUCCI #thinking so hard about how they are one collecfive unit. they move together they work travel live thrive together #giggled so hard at kaku giraffe slide #SOEAKING OF WHICH I JUST LEARNED KAKU IS THE YOUNGEST OUT OF CP9 #HE WAS 18 WHEN THEY PLANTED HIM AND THE OTHERS IN WATER 7 #im not ok im ripping my pillow to shreds punchjng the wall screaming shaking good GOD DJFJ #KALIFAS DAD WAS IN THE PREV GEN OF CP9????? SO SHES RRALLY BEEN THERE THROUGH IT ALL #thinking about lucci and jabra and blueno trio... #yes i originally was devastated to discover my favourite shipwrifjts were actually undercover government assassins but like #the found family.....maybe not found family but FORGED FAMILY THEY MADE IT WORK #i still think it's so silly that. kaku is the youngest but hes second ij terms od power and he speaks like an old man #in my ideal world cp9 brutally murders spandam and they live their best lives after doijg whatever #attention span for stats and cs??? nonexistent #but yea sure i can spend 2 hours memorizing the key detaisl from the wiki entries of all cp9 agents and making a chart and timeline #maybe this is a sign...that i need to fix this before it causes bigger issues #rambling about stuff #wait omg no last thought is how when all the cp9 members reunite after 5 years and firsg thing they do is immediately check their doriki #and jabras upset by how both lucci ajd kakus are higher than his now but then u think about how hes the oldest in their group #heck five years ago when they were sent off to water 7 those two were 23 and FUCKIJG 18 YEARS OLD #OF COURSE HES UPSET THESE TWO FUCKING KIDS ARE STRONGEE THAN HIM #who holds seniority over them. im actually devastated and extremely entertained #the last time u see the youngest of your group hes some 18 year old kid you could best in a spar. maybe even leave some words of wisdom for #then he goes and leanrs how to build ships for 5 years and comes back stronger than u #they are a family to me... HE COULD HAVE ABANDONED TJEM?!?! THEM ALL HAD THE CHOICE OF LEAVING THE OTHERS BEHIND TO SAVE THEMSELVES #BUT THEY DIDNT. HE STILL GAVE KALIFA HIS SHIRT AND CARRIED KAKU ON HIS BACK ALL THE WAY TO ST POPLAR #biting my hands hitting the wall scratchijg the floors screaming shakijg not normal about these guys #THE WAY JABRA HAS A PET CHICKEN TO COUJTER HATTORI

[mwagneto]

got my first shift at my first Real Job tmrw night ending at 1am wml😔😔😔

#i love how flexible the shifts are and they're all really short it's like ideal for me but also. omfg. scary 😭 #gritting my teeth. i need money to leave this shithole country and i need a job to get money it's fine. this is fine #it's literally so discouraging to know ppl in the west have minimum wages of like 15 euros meanwhile it's literally 3 eur here #like even if you work hard you're only earning a fraction of what you could be if you were doing the same shit out there😭 #just like. the inherent agony of knowing im earning money that's gonna be way less valuable out there #but im not on minimum wage and it's flexible but shoulddd be around 5 - 15 euros an hour #it's the only reason i even applied at least this way i can tell myself im actually making a positive dent in my savings #idek how much i have saved rn coz i never spend on anything and I've been saving since i knew what money was #but forint is literally not worth the paper it's printed on anymore like man i remember when #a euro was worth 200 forint.... i literally have the same coins i did when i was 10 but they're worth less than half as much now. crazy #man I should've gone into economics or global politics for real i love this shit. whatever that's a whole different spiral #barking

[thediktatortot]

Prompt based off a friend's parents actions towards my friend, for Steve:

Post Vecna, Steve's father is upset that Steve has gone no where and refuses to work with him at the company. Steve's mother feels that Steve has wasted the opportunities and easy life they have given Steve.

Both Steve's parents decide to hand him a legally written document that states Steve either leaves the house permanently with no help from them what so ever from here on, or he has to pay back 20k to his parents for the trouble he's caused them.

#This really happened to a friend of mine #She was from a middleclass family that was one of those 'we are better than you' types #She wasn't a bad person she just wasn't really parented by her parents at all #and was handed money as a way to get her to go away #she studied hard and is really smart but her parents gave her an ultimatum at like 19-20 while she was going to school #using the money from grants and scholarships she had earned #and they said they 'wouldn't be supporting her anymore if she wasn't going to work harder for them' #she left lol #Steve harrington #I felt like this would be a good little thought bubble for steve to noodle on

[baishouqijia]

i am desperately trying to be more active but i'm experiencing mental burnout. just want to say thank you for the interactions even when i'm only checking in here now and again - i'll respond when i'm feeling better! <3

#nothing really happened - work and the house just got on top of me. #for context i was promoted to a management position in october and i hit my stride so i have a lot of responsibilities and i'm hhh. #having to play catch up in terms of skillset. i'm good at my job but i'm not the best - therefore ? i must keep pushing :y #as for home... Man (horse.jpg) #we bought a house a year ago. i envy people who renovate days after moving in. we're a year in and i'm only just redoing the kitchen floor #after a leak that happened in JUNE 2022. it's expensive as fuck and takes so much time. #i'm so fortunate to be able to afford a house but like. i won't lie. it's really hard having to be responsible for everything that goes #wrong with it. my kitchen has been subfloor for months. we destroyed our kitchen island trying to make room for the floor to be done #so we're down storage and stuff is just piling up. eh i know this is like. first world problem and really not a big deal. #but when your house is in disrepair because you don't have the money to fix it quickly or time to do it yourself. shit's hard. #anyway this is a rant. don't want a wrench or a tissue- just wanna get it out. #[puts on pantalone hat] i have money anxiety too #like i earn the most i've ever earned. i won't really get much higher than this atm. i'm due a bonus and i can cash out my shares #but fixing up the house is so expensive. i'm worried i'm gonna lose it all somehow. idfk why. when things are going well i worry i'm gonna #lose it all somehow. growing up poor does a number on your resource guarding. if i spend a penny I Will Lose It All. #' dima why do you like pantalone so much ' HE JUST LIKE ME FRRRR #sry this is a ramble . i treat tumblr tags like my diary but i hope you enjoyed the read xoxox #anyways! point is! i'm alive! i'm itching to come back but i dont have the mental space for fun rn. #can't have fun until i feel safe enough to have fun if that makes sense. #aight byeee

[lovelaceisntdead]

Something I need to stop doing is getting excited when a job comes up that is perfect for me but realistically I know I can't do. Just because it's a job I would enjoy doesn't mean I can now magically do a 7 hour shift? Because then I just end up sad and frustrated AGAIN because I get caught up in the what could be and then I remember that my body hates me.

#will be bringing this up in therapy on tuesday dw #trying not to cry about it now because i know i will in therapy so i don't want to #it doesn't help that I'm really not feeling well but this kind of stuff gets to me a lot #and a job opening came up for something that i would have jumped at a couple of years ago but i definitely can't do now #and it sucks! it really sucks. because I'd love to be able to get out of the house and interact with people on a regular basis #and earn some money #and I'm so grateful that i don't HAVE to #but also. it sucks that i have to be grateful for not having to firce myself to work when i physically can't #i don't know if this makes much sense because i am so done for today #but part of me really just wants to apply for the job and just do it. #i know it's a really bad idea #but even if i did i almosy certainly wouldn't get it #and it's only three days a week so I'm like i could do that. but i can't do that and that is OKAY. it just makes me sad. #i should save this for therapy. I'm just having a hard time this evening.

[i-may-be-an-emu]

do you ever hear about how much money your boss makes and you want to start throwing things

#Can’t remember the exact number because. dyscalculia and memory is bad. #but it was a lot. a lot of zeros. #and someone I work with said he would have to work like a lot of hours a week to earn what our bosses make a week. #(Again I can’t remember the number but it was a lot) #I hate capitalism yay #Literally giving everything I can give and getting like minimum wage but my bosses waste “company time” more than anyone and make thousands #They work hard too but like #Yeah #thats a lot #AND THERE ARE BOSSES ABOVE THEM WHO MAKE EVEN MORE #I need to quit #but then I would not have any money so #yeah

[aezyrraeshh]

every time i spend money i take psychic damage

#why do i feel so bad like.. i worked hard to earn this money #i deserve to spend it on smth i want #but no i feel guilt instead #nico.txt

[arcaneyouth]

"well at least I'll get good sleep tonight" they said, not getting good sleep tonight

#vent post #negative #doing really fucking bad mentally actually #cant turn my brain off about how mad i am about money #about wasting my fucking time meeting people and their dogs they want me to care for #not getting paid for the fucking meetings that have been half the reason i struggle making progress on my personal projects #undercharging myself to hell and back just for the chance to get A Job #only for them to fucking cancel because they dont respect my time #cancel a meet up 3 hours before. cancel the booking less than 24 hours after making it. make me drive an hour for fucking nothing #begging me to lower my prices which are already lower than everyone in the area #i dont want to work anymore i want it to stop #going to do a week of dog sitting for less than 200 fucking dollars because its the only god damn fucking job i can fuckkng get #and it wont even happen for another month! who knows! they could cancel too! #if they cancel I'm deleting my fucking rover account! #i cant earn money. im trying so hard for nothing. #i cant apply to normal jobs because my job anxiety is So Bad i NEED someone to be with me as i apply showing me how it works #i dont know what job i want because i dont want a job i want to go to bed #im so so tired of going 'this could work! i could make this work!' and it just never gets far enough to matter #after 3 years of no progress you know what! maybe i cant fucking make it work! #i dont want to keep trying with this stupid shit anymore #im not even gonna be able to afford christmas presents this year. #anyways. whats a girl gotta do to get some fuckinf sleep around here