#I will explain this situation soon

[verdantglow]

Imagine the Hermits learning ballroom dance.

Imagine Etho being assigned to lead because he’s tall & everyone assumes he would.

Imagine him constantly fucking up, stepping on his partner’s feet, missing beats, just a mess.

Imagine Bdubs getting upset from the sidelines.

Imagine him getting blustery about this disaster & stepping in, saying no, no, no, this is all wrong, shooing Etho’s partner away.

Imagine anxiety bubbling up in Etho’s stomach, at having to lead for Bdubs, as he walks over.

Imagine Etho trying to place his hands on Bdubs, mentally preparing for another disaster.

Imagine Bdubs tutting & moving Etho’s hands away, much to Etho’s confusion.

Imagine Bdubs then firmly placing his hand on Etho’s back & grabbing his other hand.

Imagine Bdubs confidently taking over the whole situation.

Imagine Etho’s amazement as Bdubs leads him, and suddenly Etho’s dancing is on beat, smooth, no stepped on feet.

Imagine them elegantly whirling across the floor, everyone else watching them in surprise.

Imagine Bdubs dipping Etho.

Imagine Etho looking at Bdubs face while this happens & feeling his stomach flip at the burn of assurance in Bdubs eyes.

Imagine the song then ending, & them just staying there for a moment, breathing a bit heavy from the exertion.

Imagine Bdubs pulling Etho back up & releasing him & pointed saying that that was how you did it.

Imagine Etho staring at Bdubs, feeling lost & unsure now that Bdubs isn’t there, hand on his back deftly leading him.

Just like. Imagine.

#Ethubs #hermitshipping #Ethoslab #bdoubleo100 #etho #Bdubs #I’m sorry to all my girlies who are here for smalletho #but I’ve had this idea in my head FOR MONTHS. #& like. Just because I am smalletho 99% of the time #doesn’t mean I don’t have brain rot for other pairings as well. #I was planning on making a comic or mini fic outta this but #I just don’t see that happening anytime soon #& I cannot keep this to myself. #sends it out into the universe with the hope that someone else sees my vision here #I just. Love the idea of their dynamic getting flipped in certain situations #& also Bdubs would TOTALLY be amazing at ballroom dancing. #Can’t explain why but I really think he would be.

[1495-gauge]

You're a medicinal apprentice of the Pearl clan, and today, your clan found a ghost-touched elder out in the snow.

It's your job to help him, even if this too tall man, covered in strange clothing, is babbling in tongues. His hair is a dull grey, his eyes shine vacant, and his extremities are in desperate need for treatment of frostbite.

He's got a head wound. The other healers, you hear them discuss how that must be making it all worse. He looks deceptively young — but he can't be, eyes glowing like a man with a claim on his soul.

None of you know where he could have come from. You're surprised the patrol didn't think he was a zoroark. They probably did. But as you pump his fingers, encouraging sluggish blood back into them, you can feel he is very, very real.

It's a duty, to serve those older than you, even when they're marked like this. The ghost-touched end up like children, tantrums and illogical and lost. Until the ghost that caused it finds the light of the fire it left behind their eyes again, until it can steal them away forever.

You are spending a lot of medicinal resources on a man who will certainly not last the winter.

You believe it's compassion. The clan takes him in, and when he finally remembers a few real words, they welcome in Ingo, to make his stay, however short, kind.

But it's not as short as you expect — as anyone expects.

Each passing day, his twisted words resolve slowly into real language once more. Strange utterances still pepper his speech, but he's becoming knowable. He communicates, his memories have been robbed from him. And everyone believes him, because what else could leave a man so old unable to fend for himself?

You're worried for him. He doesn't remember to be cautious. You patch up his cuts and scrapes he develops from exploring the outskirts of camp, it's spring and he's still here. It would be something to rejoice if his eyes didn't still glow. If his fate wasn't still so very clear.

It's cruel, to draw it out. None of you want him to leave, this kind old man who has forgotten everything, volume control especially, but who plays with the children and does his best to relearn tasks and is that sort of gentle that can only be a product of experience, however lost. None of you want him gone, but it's cruel that the ghost coming for him is taking its time. Letting him regrow a life for himself. Letting others become attached.

You can see how everyone is thinking it, when they look at him more with pity, when they keep a bit of distance. You have no choice, his designated healer now, and he certainly comes to your tent regularly. Not just for healing, but with berries as gifts, little wood carvings that look like they were made by a child as apology for all the work he makes you do. You cannot reject any of it, and the ties anchoring you to this lost soul grow stronger.

You'd feel resentful, but you can't.

Time passes, and come summer, his penchant for being unafraid of the wildlife becomes a problem. He ends up bringing home a gligar, getting poisoned so often he becomes the sole user and contributor to your pecha stores. They may as well be housed with him, but he seems to enjoy checking in on you while halfway to his deathbed due to his companion's stinger. Over time, he comes in less, less due to his companion gaining better control, more due to his own developing immunity.

The day Lady Sneasler chooses him as her warden, many wonder if there was a claim on his soul at all.

But you can't forget how he came here, eyes flashing in the light, bereft of language and life and skills. Even now, he is often nonsensical, well meaning but lost. Meant for the next world.

He takes to it well, and survives to the next winter, and the next, growing his impossible team of companions. You've never seen anyone guide pokemon in the way he does, and you wonder how much of it is that insane lack of fear that could only be caused by having his soul unmoored and his former life stripped away.

When the sky breaks open, the nobles frenzy. You have little time to worry about your favorite patient, because instead you're treating wounds from pokemon that should have never hurt anyone.

He starts to guide people, showing up in the morning, taking them where they need to go — especially through the highlands. From what you've heard, the rift has made the pokemon there untameable. You worry for him, but all you get are reports of how he must be remembering his past as a fierce warrior, because how else could he so confidently command pokemon and people alike? How else could he face off and win against alpha pokemon that attack his caravans, make them his companions as well?

He uses the capture devices that the foreigners in the fieldlands do, and one night, he shows you how the pokemon can escape them on their own — they're more for ease, he says. It's much easier to carry his team like this. You imagine the towering pokemon he's showed you being led through camp, and you agree the balls are a good idea.

The sky turns red, and you don't hear from him.

The sky turns blue, and you don't hear from him.

But he returns, and says he's remembering, now. He'll be staying down with Jubilife, for a while. Battling, helping the foreigner who fell from the sky and calmed Almighty Sinnoh. He says, he may be able to go home.

You don't let him see how those words could bring you to tears. His clock has always been near running out, you knew this. But he had never seemed to.

Eventually, he does his rounds. Says his goodbyes. He's standing up straighter, seeming younger, a last burst of energy, you think. He thanks you, for everything you've done.

He goes to the mountain, and he doesn't come back.

You erect a little memorial in your home, for the man with eyes that glowed far longer than anyone's ever had before. For the man who loved the world, pokemon, battling. You hope, wherever he is beyond this world, he is happy, and safe. That the man he was and the man he became can reconcile. You thank his spirit, for the time it spent in your life, and the next time one of the clan's elders loses their mind to the ghosts of the land, it's him you think of as you care for them.

#submas #i think about the fact that like. idk early onset dementia would seem like suuuuuch a good explanation for ingo #it was interesting to write an outsider pov #who fundamentally misunderstands the situation. but like. still cares deeply #i also tried to consider how a medical condition like that would be viewed before more specific development of diagnoses and how it would #interact with like... pokemon #anyway hard to explain to your healer that youre just an amnesiac from the future when you look like a classic case of 'dislodged soul soon #to be consumed by ghost pokemon' #my writing #i dont normally do 2nd person... it was interesting

[doubledyke]

it doesn't really make sense in the logic (lol) of the show but part of me loves the idea that edd is being raised by his grandparents.... kids who are raised by grandparents tend to be overly mature and a little uhhhhh off-beat. i feel like it could explain a lot.

#before you ask yes this is me projecting #i know some folks hc his parents as being a bit long in the tooth which i like too #but idk i just think it would explain so many things about edd to learn that he was in fact raised by senior citizens #and shit i still call my grandma 'mom' so to me its not weird at all that he'd call his grandparents 'mother and father' #everything else about them stays the same though #theyre still aloof and neglectful #and i still think the worst of them #anyway i love projecting my trauma onto edd specifically for some reason #he's such an easy target for angst i can't help it #oh and speaking of angst #for anyone who saw that post a while back and is interested in an update on my whole bastard landlord/roommate kicking me out situation: #i found a room and will be moving in 2 weeks 🥴 kill all landlords etc etc but hey at least i'll have my own bathroom #and won't be living with the final boss of millennials/reddit incarnate #unfortunately for you guys though that means i should be able to indulge in my tomfoolery again soon (shit posting and shit drawing) #even though it seems like our tiny fandom has gotten even smaller recently #alright i'll shut up now biiiiii

[not-an-enstarrie]

#ensemble stars #enstars #ayase mayoi #mod negi #i prommy im a nice nui owner i definitely dont put him in situations . #evil version coming soon . #this post has the energy of a tumblr post frm 2014 i cant explain it

[transingthoseformers]

How do you feel about Elita-One?

Omg I especially love earthspark elita one, I cannot wait to see more of her in s2

I feel like elita one is one of those characters who is very underrated and overlooked in this fandom, and I admit even I need to give her more attention more often

I feel like she can end up getting pushed to the side on occasion (especially when it comes to some people recognizing her as solely "Optimus's girlfriend in g1") which I don't want to do, and I really hope in earthspark we see more of her on her own. After all in several pieces of media Elita's got some pretty cool storylines, especially tfa and idwg1 (from what little I've seen of idw elita so far) imo

#hope this makes sense #basically i want to do her justice and i love her character in Earthspark and i hope to see more of her in the future #and her situation with her team on Cybertron was interesting even if i don't remember much of g1 #I don't know much of idw elita but the person throne which intrigues me greatly and i cannot wait to read further about that #sorry if i over explained it but the soonness i got this ask in relation to the tfp megastar one tells me something #that this might be someone trying to clock my place in the fandom #elita one #g1 elita one #idw elita one #opinion

[monstermoviedean]

hahaha my boss' incompetence screwed me out of 2k and she's acting like it was my fault ha Ha HA

#took a second job that was going to pay a stipend #cleared it with her. cleared it with her boss. #sent her the payment agreement as soon as i had it #and now she's saying oh no you definitely can't do that #i can do it as part of my job but i don't get paid anything extra for it #and she's claiming she knew this was a problem all along but didn't tell me because i didn't explain it to her correctly #she didn't say that but that was the implication #she did say if i'd known this was the situation i would have told you #well! you did! and you didn't tell me! #she really wants me to tell her it's fine and i forgive her #but what she still isn't understanding is that that money would make a huge difference to me #she kept saying she's in the same boat but! she's not! she's making a manager salary in a dual income household! #i'm not!!!!!!!!! #anyway i knew this was going to happen but it doesn't make it suck any less #and i'm really fucking mad. and now i have to listen to her talk for two hours.

[designernishiki]

as much as a i understand and respect ace kiryu truthers, i really feel like kiryu is the type to really take the idea to heart that sex is something vulnerable and meaningful and thus reserved for someone completely trusted and special to him– someone who feels right. after years and years he’s still never legitimately voluntarily slept with someone, always tries to turn women away or is at least apathetic when they try to get physical with him, never feels that deep and specific bond with a woman– nothing compared to some of his bonds with other men throughout his life. and maybe, hopefully, one day it’ll hit him that there’s a pretty big, glaring reason why no women have ever felt “right” to him.

#I’ve become a pretty devout gay kiryu trigger at this point #it just. makes the most narrative sense / is the most narratively interesting / explains So Much #kiryu #yakuza #kazuma kiryu #honest to god though it’s. the most realistic way of explaining why he jumps to the assumption that he must date or kiss a woman or whatever #as soon as possible with little to no room to actually fall for one #with yumi he’s literally in the classic comp het situation of ‘well someone told me I’m in love with her so I guess I’m in love with her’ #no deeper thought no proof of falling for her etc #sayama’s more convincing and they start out actually building a dynamic that could end up being romantic maybe- but then they fucking jump #the gun and have kiryu randomly kiss her like something he saw in a movie instead of. you know. talking about things first. or anything. #partly because they’re in a life or death situation and are essentially pushed together via traumabonding #and that’s Extreme when it comes to the end of kiwami 2. honestly that makeout scene was just. really weird and uncomfortable. for multiple #reasons. I mean for one he says something like ‘I’m sure she (haruka)’ll understand’ in between the making out in reference to him not #even trying to get further from the bomb or anything #and just lowkey choosing to kill himself (disturbingly similarly to nishiki mind you) like uh kiryu did you forget that haruka. literally #lost her mother in an extremely similar situation. in front of her. and nearly lost you at the same time. kiryu’s personality is Not one to #just shrug off something like that- either he was purposefully choosing to kill himself because he felt like a failure and that haruka would #genuinely be better off without him Or the writing there was INSANELY out of character as to make him seem more focused on the supposed #Romeo and Juliet tragic romance situation than saving his daughter the grief of losing EVERYONE CLOSE TO HER and reliving the worst night of #her fucking Life #god if anything the ending of yk2 just screams ‘this relationship would not work out under normal circumstances and both of them are just #clinging onto whatever’s closest out of desperation and need for any kind of emotional catharsis available’ #if you can compare a pairing to romeo and juliet . it’s probably not #a pairing that’s meant to be #sorry im going off on a huge tangent about how weird the ending of yk2 was to me uhhh anyway I could write a video essay on why kiryu being #gay is the most realistic and interesting interpretation of him possible . send tweet

[sealrock]

me: hector is part of a small percentage of garleans that have psionic powers to compensate for their inability to manipulate aether, but it weakens greatly with age and causes immense mental strain

also me: *falls into a deep rabbit hole of paranormal pseudoscience and marvel/dc comic power scaling wackiness in an attempt to explain why and how that is in the ffxiv universe, but suspension of disbelief is thrown out the window*

#cid.txt #rambling thoughts incoming #since se is pretty much done with garlemald: my city now #i can't do things halfway. i have to explain my work or else my brain will grow mold #is it biological? esoteric? environmental? who knows #leave it to me to make things more complicated than it needs to be :p #but there has to be more to their third eye beyond having better spatial awareness for weaponry #there has to be an advantage that others who can use aether do not have #i'm most likely not the first person to think of this concept but i enjoy tinkering with it #and as a sidenote i kinda wanna make yves a pisonic too because the more i remold him the more i move away from his mhach/supernatural root #his new outfit greatly inspired my current situation #he's already tall like a garlean and his full name is latin so he'll fit right in #and since he and hector are similar people i wanna revisit their early concepts of where they were friends—kirke included #i can't not see these 3 as the terror trio no matter how hard i tried to separate them through each rewrite #i'll have to make a meta writeup soon #signalis mgs and outlast have been templates for this concept #so let's see what I can cook up

[rodeodeparis]

having jewish family from n iraq general area is very strange. n iraq area is a bit of an outlier from its neighbors people group-wise because it’s often kurd = muslim; arab = muslim also; assyrian = christian (or at least an overwhelming amount of christians are assyrian); yazidi = yazidi; but jews are called ‘kurdish jews’? they probably just got that label because they were in the area (some have ‘tribal’ last names if they were from the literal towns the tribes got their names from), but for example syrian jews who lived in aleppo/damascus and spoke arabic are called syrian jews, some people use “arab jew” but afaik most don’t 

in that context “kurdish jew” seems a little...misleading? “assyrian jew” is too, they were both religious minorities and spoke aramaic but jews have a separate history (and due to current politics it feels insensitive but idk.) and both of those can be used by israeli govt stuff for propaganda purposes, so looking into sources for this is nigh impossible. tbh i prefer ‘mesopotamian jew’

#strange situation overall that i don't think can be solved anytimne soon #*srael pretty much fucked up jewish history research that isnt european #ultimately small potatoes compared to what palestinians are going through #weird pan-’mizrahi’ ethno-anthropology ultimately relates back to it. colonialism & all that #both 'kurdish jew' and 'assyrian jew' sources i managed to find were zionist propaganda. sobs #not to mention it was a very small community and there aren't a ton of descendants in the world in comparison to like. moroccan jews #ironically the most reputable + objective historical account w/ interviews from people who lived it #was compiled by someone currently head of netanyahu's 'ministry of arab affairs' #such is the state of mizrahi jewish history research #there’s also historical records referring to them both as ‘kurdish jews’ and ‘assyrian jews’ #but 'kurdish jews' could've been location-based and probably wasn't in the modern context of 'a people' #('kurdish christians' was often used to refer to assyrians for example) #and 'assyrian jews' was also used to refer to s. iraq general area jews and syrian jews #i’d complain about how it’s annoying that jews are ‘their own thing’ unless they’re bene israel/’kurdish’/yemenite etc but #ill uh. explain this in a reblog

[techn0tony]

Today is sucking a lot, and my anxiety has sky-rocketed, so I am going to be making an unreasonable amount of art to cope ... haha ...

#it's fine everything is great yep #aghhhh #not fine #but i will cope and seethe #vent post #it's way too much to explain #long story short my home/family/work/financial situations are just so ... not great ... #a lot of bad stuff has been kicking my ass almost constantly the past few weeks #i assure you though not all the art i'm making will be angst #i have some funny and wholesome stuff i will draw soon as well #art #artists on tumblr

[that-starlight-prince]

Bleh

#long story short i got my hair cut bc i'm going to see my family soon and i didn't want to deal with them making comments about it #bc they always can't resist whenever i let my hair grow even a little #and apparently even at almost 27 years old i'm so sensitive that i'll do this just to avoid the whole situation #honestly i feel more anxious than usual about seeing them this time #and my brother is going down this very weird political path of seemingly immersing himself in right wing social media discourse #while simultaneously becoming a massive fanboy for the soviet union #if he's not talking about how stalin did nothing wrong he'll be explaining why they/them aren't actually valid pronouns #and it's kinda heartbreaking bc for basically my entire childhood he was my best and only friend #and now i dread even seeing him #while simultaneously dreaming about just announcing that i'm nonbinary in the middle of family dinner next time he starts talking about it #just to spice up the conversation a little ya know #oops kinda started rambling there huh #anyway hair hurry up and grow back i miss you already

[opal-apples]

got my copy of Emily Wilson's Iliad today and I can already tell it's going to completely take over my brain

#she was able to explain Hector's Situation in a way i havent seen before but like perfectly put into word why im such a Hector Defender #like i love men with a sense of Profound Lonliness #ooouuuggghhh expect my Hector Essay soon #also. achilles and patroclus essay #(the crowd boos) #i know I KNOW #but :( #i have so many feelings about Patroclus :( #jo talks #jo reads #the iliad #classics

[oswaldddavis]

(They think the other is a idiot)

#asktotag #sonic exe #xhouse #((No idea how to explain we have like way too many interpretations and spoofs of the guy)) #((Like I could ramble about the ''Master File & Distributions'' or ''Spoof'' variants but honestly talk so much I end up saying nonsense?)) #((Main reason why my art seems to have no context is because I literally voice chat and ramble for 4-6 hours)) #((Essentially about the newest hyperfixated multiverse we've created-)) #((-for our far to energetic ideas for us to narrow down & ''choose'' one because there's no singular correct interpretation of art)) #((There's far too many variables to consider one universe as the most canon so obviously we have to branch from every possible angle-)) #((-and end up with at least 30 of the same character but in different flavours)) #((NOT ACCOUNTING FOR THE FACT THAT IT'S ADDICTING TO MAKE SPOOFS FROM JUST ONE INTERACTION TO SEE WHERE THEY GO)) #((Like. There's so much potential in the morality and development of a character based off of one or more events-)) #((-that derail from their original situations! ENVIRONMENTS & SITUATIONS SHAPE SO MUCH FOR A PERSON & I HAVE TO SEE EVERY POSSIBLE ANGLE.)) #((Sorry for the rant/ramble here-)) #((-I never usually have the confidence to express how much I love making things.)) #((I tend to bury my thoughts and say so little cause I usually think no one would be interested or would think I'm annoying for it)) #((Sometimes you hear voices say the most stupid take & feel so enraged by its obsurdity that you temporarily lose your social anxiety)) #((It'll probably return eventually because the moment I post this I can guarantee it will cause it's happened before. I am not immune.)) #((Unrelated but I like having a variety of papers to draw on again. I can't share much yet due to conceptuals but Soon!!))

[crow-in-springtime]

Sticky’s introduction in my fantasy roadtrip au is him committing what is basically (for all intents and purposes) grand theft auto

And I think that’s great for him

#let me elaborate: sticky steals his parents carriage cause he’s running away & figures it would be safer to have a way to get around & a pla #to sleep and stuff so he’s not completely exposed while traveling through the exceedingly large forest that’s right at the border of #where he lives. but he also kinda just wants to steal his parents fancy not-a-car to get back at them. #reynie tries (& fails) to dive roll into the carriage when the door is open. sticky is obviously like wtf & reynie tries to explain his #situation & asks for a ride. when sticky hears the situation he’s like oh because his mom survived during the first outbreak but it left he #paralyzed. so ultimately sticky’s like “yeah sure ok”. & reynie’s like “wait seriously?” cause he was 100% prepared to just go back. but #sticky’s like “yeah c’mon we should leave soon. like now. please.” #goddammit I just wrote basically an entire fic chapter in the tags. oh well #anyway I think our boy should be allowed to commit some crimes <3 #mbs #mysterious benedict society #tmbs #the mysterious benedict society #sticky washington #reynie muldoon #“yeah this sounds good post it” someone who should not be allowed internet access after 10 pm or before 7:30 am (me) #ky’s gallery

[momochiiee-reblogs]

Being screamed at for things that aren't my fault seems to be a norm in this house

There's cookware scattered an dirty? Guess who gets blamed for it? The exact one that almost never has spoons for cooking in the first place

I live cleaning the trail after me so they won't have any reason to scream at me, but my brother leaves absolute messes behind him and the screams are for me

Fuck off

#momochiiee mussings #then people ask why it's almost impossible to hear me walking around #I've grown used to avoiding at all costs being noticed and leaving anything that can tell I was through there #when I get up from the table I'm always told to put their dishes in the dishwasher as I am putting mine #then the days I'm not around no one fucking cleans the table after themselves and I am still the one that gets called dirty and messy #my room is a mess YES. but the rest of the house isn't my room and therefore Isn't my living space and I must make sure I do not litter #I clean my own room when I have the spoons for it and refuse for anyone else to do it for me. it's my mess and I must deal with it myself #why do they insist I am to blame for their own mess of the kitchen when I barely have the energy to cook once a month??? #and it's not like they don't entrust other chores to me #but I digress I'm just mad because I've been blamed for the mess my dad and brother did and blamed on me just because I went there #every time I happen to have the energy to cook they complain about my cooking or blame messes on me even if I handwash & put away everything #it would be nice if they spared a fucking word of appreciation every now and then #I'm not asking them to call me endearingly but at least to not spit on any tiny effort I manage to make... or blame me for their mistakes #I'm starting to see how as soon as I am rendered jobless mid December I'll start to get screamed at again more often #and get the I'm a nuisance treatment because I can't afford basic stuff anymore #it's going to be a long year for sure... but I must put my all on the intensive classes so I can score a good job #If I manage... I will finally be able to get out of here and have my own space without any more screams #and without them brushing off my sensory triggers every time I try to explain how certain things and situations get me anxious af

[deeisace]

Alright. Train home.

I've run out of tags so I best shut up before I cry (again)

#very very tired and zoned out #i just keep thinking about my eldest auntie #saying like #oh you only live just there you've got no excuse to hide then #and everybody saying like ill see you soon an all this #which obviously they aren't saying to mum #tho we did sit at the front #mum cried at at um her cousin's wife? saying something like you know you're always welcome or or something #um #which. which she's not really or well she is but it's it's all it's not it's #it's hard to explain disfellowshipping #i don't know how to explain it properly #like if she came back to the truth. they call it. then everything would be fine #but she hasn't and she won't #so we can go to the funeral but not the wake #well when mum cried as that set me off again #and i sort of said through tears like um to my cousin michael he was saying like it's overwhelming isn't it #cs there is billions of family like granny had 4 kids and then their kids and grandkids and then various cousins an all #so even if there weren't the situation it'd be. a lot. #im not used to it at all like im an only child as grew up in the woods y'know #my sister's in the same crem as granny it turns out ive got a map to where she is i never had before #she hasn't a name on the stone but there's gonna be a thing made in february mum says #um so i sort of said to michael oh well it is overwhelming and i wasn't expecting to sit right at the front #and he said well it's only right you are family you should sit with family #which which um #just everyone saying oh it's lovely to see you and oh that's where you live and where you work ill have to come and pop in #and you have to keep in touch #and and and but i can't i can't not now #not when there's everything #not with all the london doctor's things an stuff that obviously they don't know. and i have to leave for good before they do. so so um