#I want this on a post so I can revisit it

[watchyourbuck]

it's just to me a bad sign on how things will go moving forward especially if the buck/tommy ship doesn't go away come season 8 like you are all clearly thinking it will or if it does but they revisit it later. eddie isn't confirmed to be queer in canon yet, he might never be so what's the plan? shitting on the canon romances buck gets and/or patronizingly praising them as long as they serve buddie endgame?

babe you went on a TRIP. ok so im not sure which answer you want me to give you here. fandoms work in specific ways, and this fandom has always been primarily buddie. granted, up until 7x04 they only dated women, but alas, they havent dated each other is my point.

its only natural that people who ship buddie endgame may like to partake on Buck's newest relationship but only as a relationship bound to break to make space for buddie - because thats what they (or we, i guess) ship.

i dont know whats gonna happen next season, or god, this one, but i know ive never taken a shit on any of their partners unless they have done something wrong. never liked taylor bc she was so selfish and played dirty, but lucy and ana and shannon i never had any trouble with, i just didnt see them as that character's forever (and marisol i dont like bc of the actress, but we can get into that later).

thing is, people are gonna ship whatever they ship. you cant change that. im not exactly sure why you went on the bisexual tangent, but as a queer person i can tell you its got nothing to do with sexuality. my advice to you as a person who curates her fandom experience is to blatantly stay away from blogs, fics and fanons you dont enjoy. fandoms are optional, this is supposed to be something that you do in your spare time and love, so why go meddle where you know you dont feel comfortable?

personally, im riding both trains right now, and i enjoy fanfics in most of their forms, so im gonna write/read fanfics where tommy isnt his final love, or some where he is, or threesomes where they end up together (all of them), or where they dont. its fiction! it can vary and spiral and - you get it.

about canon queer eddie, its not something i have the power to decipher. if you follow me, or if youve seen my posts, you should know i think hes queer, but im not gonna go down that road right now bc technically, that doesnt matter for the question. if he never becomes canonically queer, then, well, sometimes we lose. not for that im gonna "shit" or "praise patronizingly" any of their love interestes as long as they are good people who make them happy, whatever gender they are.

#can yall agree on the asks dfghjkjhgf #this is like a 180 from the one i just answered #also this was a four part ask but im just gonna answer this one #911 #buddie #911 tv show #evan buckley #911 abc #eddie diaz #evan buck buckley #911 on abc #bucktommy #tommy kinard

[chalkrub]

it's mendel!

#my art #oc #mendel #anthro #furry #dragon #bringing back his sleigh bells because they kinda slay (sleigh) #i will revisit this i think. there's more i wanted to do with it but i wanted something to post before I leave for the next week so here... #watched the fnaf movie the other day for friend birthday and it was INCREDIBLY stupid and silly and bad but still a fun time somehow #the tonal whiplash was bizarre and the characters were incomprehensible and the dialogue was ridiculous and unintentionally funny #it's so funny this took 8 years to do what were they DOIN!!!! it cannot have been polishing the script!!! #but the animatronics and set design were incredible. even if they stopped being scary very fast i loved the funny murderous animals #playing elastica connection and iggy pop wild child was a choice that was made #anyway truly wild. i played the first four games and that's it so i can hardly profess to be the target audience #illustration

[sonic-adventure-3]

unmmmmm outfit concept or something

#the main thing qbout this is that i’ve been really wanting to design wrist guards for shadow #stil have no idea how to go about it #i wanted to make them look somewhere btwn real wrist guards and his boom gauntlets #I HAVE FINALLY DRAWN HIM ON SKATES THOUGH thats a win #these would be city skates or even rec skates ig. this outfit isn’t practical for aggressive skating #this is a fashion outfit not an activity outfit whatever whatever #i so wanted to give him a longer skirt but long skirts are not practical for skating whatsoever #so i settled for a shorter skirt but i think shadow would rock long skirts remind me to draw him in a long skirt sometime later #art is hard today this is mediocre and i didn’t draw it how i wanted to but it’s at least out kf my brain #ignore how i sketched the same exact thing thrice. well i guess it’s hardto ignore #uuuuuuuuuuuuuu whatever i’m sleeby i’ll hopefully revisit this someday later #doodles #shadow #action sport posting #my art #i GUESS. ppl seem to like it so it can go in my proper art tag. i guess.

[good-beanswrites]

My english lyrics for Triage woo! (They're written out under the cut, I just wanted to share my lil chart lol)

Though I'm too indecisive to officially label this as my favorite song, it's had the strongest emotional impact on me by far. It holds a special place in my heart, I definitely wanted to write lyrics for it first! I'll leave all my rambling process commentary in the tags, but I was so happy with how it came out!!

All of those cards of promise thrown down carelessly,

This must be retribution for all I've taken endlessly.

If that were the case, it should have been fate for me to die.

That's the truth, given my crime, so why--?

No, I can't take it, to this cruel joke I'll submit. You

don't know, you can't know, but I'm ready to admit:

Killing for them, extracting for them, won't change the fact they're dead.

I need someone to tag me as RED.

It makes me sick (sick), it's too unpleasant. Sick (sick)

Is this punishment? What do you mean I'm INNOCENT?

I see, the world is cruel and leaves you on your own.

(I can't die) to atone. (I can't love) alone.

I can't be saved (saved), you've nothing to give. Saved (saved)

But what if I lived? Why else would you choose to forgive?

I see, there's lives to save so let's be sensible.

Right now, you need me, (I can be) indispensable.

Tilt to and fro, I know the scales should land on GUILTY for me.

Tilt fro and to, it's INNOCENT that they choose.

They cry (x4) out in pain, I can hear them. There's no one else, to guard their health,

My mission is offering help.

All of those cards of promise thrown down carelessly,

This must be retribution for all I've taken endlessly.

So if that's the case, then it must be fate to make amends,

Extract that fang before we meet the end.

It makes me sick (sick), it's too unpleasant. Sick (sick)

Is this punishment? What do you mean I'm INNOCENT?

I see, the world is cruel, but what I've realized is

(Now I want) to be INNOCENT. (Now I want) to live.

It makes me sick (sick), This wasn't my plan, hostages at my command.

Their future resting in my hands

I see, there's lives to save so let's be sensible.

Right now, please save me, (I will be) indispensable.

Maybe this was meant to be -- oh  -- or maybe neither of us can know

There's lives to save so let's be sensible.

Right now, please save me, (I will be) indispensable.

---

I mentioned earlier that I always get annoyed with myself when people post translyrics and I can't figure out the rhythm they were going for, so here's a recording of me singing, but I'm bad at it! It's just for fun! Like a rough draft for music! Because the only thing worse than people hearing my voice is people thinking I can't count syllables!

#milgram #shidou kirisaki #lyrics #im real happy with how they came out :)) #when i first got into milgram i started writing tear drop lyrics but got discouraged #(ill be revisiting them next but) it was so fun to work with this song! #i love the sound of it and had a great time creating my version #i wanted his repeated lines in the refrain to have a punch to them #and was SO satisfied giving the doctor 'sick' and 'saved' as his focus words #the mention of 'throw down' wasnt originally intended but it fit so well i just had to keep it asdfsd #i looked up an internet translation for 'Shinenai sentaku o ikenai ai o' because the official english line confused me #and it gave me 'i cant die. i cant go. i cant love.' and i loved that more than the official translation actually #really the only word that doesnt flow quite like id want is 'punishment' but the meaning/rhyme made me happy so i kept it haha #nothing can replace the sound satisfaction 'Yurayura tenbin yurusa naide hoshii noni/Yureteru yurushite hoshii to' gives me tho -_- #and i wanted a more open-mouth sound when he sings 'dattaka' the second time -- i absolutely love how he draws it out #but had to settle for what i could make work 🤷‍♀️ #we are spitting in the face of cringe culture and posting my voice!! #some writers are okay if their complete vision doesnt make it across to the audience but Not Me #i gotta show my whole vision and draft 😂 #oh and excuse his voicemail message LMAO #i love shidou with all my heart but i have to tease him about shoving his profession in our face every chance he gets #(did we ever get a translation for that btw?) #but yeah im always preaching to do arts and things youre bad at just because theyre fun so i figured id take my own advice #because it was a lot of fun to sing :3 #and i dont know how to word this in the fans-having-collaborative-fun way and not a pretentious way #but if any of the milgram pals who like singing want to cover it hmu :D

[puppyeared]

everything is made of shapes. theyre molecules to me

#i have an assignment due in3 hours #that post about brutalism architecture got me thinking about my fascination with cubes again #if i could do anything in life it would be to see how many things i can make cube shaped. bedframes laundry hampers #btw search up david umemoto sculpture and blockitecture. youll see what i mean #the blockitecture sets are the kind of thing i want lying around.. like i just want a whole pocket in my backpack with them and #fiddle with em in class or on the bus #and squiggly shapes!! round curves and smooth arcs.. i want to make things with those #maybe this is the kind of direction i want to take in my art.. have i been neglecting my love of shapes? #cuz i found my old protoworld art and i was like dang.. maybe i should revisit that #yapping #im so tired

[xannerz]

its always surreal to me to see people praise s2 of centaurworld. s2 was so spectacularly bombastic and aimless and it ended in this awkward forgettable fizzle.

i feel like a dick saying it b/c i really do love the show lmao. or, at least half of it lmao (/stares at tnwk). gf and i've been thinking about rewatching it just to write out our thoughts on why s2 was such a poor follow-up to s1 - from the tone to the setup to all the worldbuilding the narrative had to offer in between the (far more) memorable songs of s1. idk. it's sad because cw really had the bones of a cult classic, but idek if you can call it that.

ive seen a few posts commenting on its lack of popularity, and i feel like it certainly deserves more, b/c i do feel like it's a novel idea made w/ love, but the shift btwn s1 and s2 wasnt just in the plot. there was a full-on *fracture* in the quality and direction and i'm still scratching my head over it. more than i should be, probably. but, it's just a bummer.

#centaurworld #centaurworld critical #<- a tag i never thought i'd use lol #ok EDIT: fuck it im tagging this maybe there are others who'll also see their own viewing experiences in this post too #dont mind me rambling #but i got an ask on my thoughts abt cw a long time ago (hi!! i still have it 😭) and ive been wanting to write a detailed response since. #debating tagging this since the fandom's already p small and i dont wanna bump the tag with negativity #even if it is (what i feel is) p fair criticism. but idk people are sensitive and conflate it w hate idk idk #ive seen thinly-veiled hate posts in the t*ngled the series tags and it's always bothered me. #bc you can tell op just like hates xyz character or the show entirely and its like can you just come out and say it LMFAOO #but i genuinely like cw. i so so very much do. so i get bummed out! gf and some other friends and i were so excited for s2 and #when it rolled out ep by ep we were like 'it'll get better right? right?' #also tempted to just draw more cw fanart in general bc the t t s fandom is slow and if half the people dont have each other blocked #theres simply 0 overlap in fave chars or interpretations so lmao #im going back to work i just feel sour LMAO #also adding that i think a lot of people conflate a story eliciting an emotional reaction from you = its good #but ill revisit that and all these thoughts again eventually in another post. we'll see. #and i STILL want a nwk tattoo lmao. or at least an elkie. gf and i love elk bc of this guy! the impact that he has! #xangoeswah

[moe-broey]

Old doodles I can't remember if I posted before (if I did sorry LMFAO if I didn't. Them 👍)

#fire emblem #feh #like i feel like i remember debating posting these exact doodles but i felt they were too messy #or maybe i wanted to revisit them #second one mostly cause that ones messier/would be worth fleshing out cause it is so charming #i'm okay i just. had a rough run. and some things kinda suck but like. there is not much you can do. #i know who i am though. #post alfonse and sharena and go directly to bed 👍 #fe alfonse #sharena #my art

[todayisafridaynight]

>just put aoki in jail instead of killing him so true and make him share a jail cell with his dad that would've been perfect i think. they can have an awkward family reunion when ichiban decides to visit them

no genuinely one of my favorite concepts that i fail miserably to explore is what would it have been like if aoki and sawashiro had to sit in jail together liiike the potential ..........

#snap chats #thinking of it makes me want to eat fiberglass like ouugh ....... what wouldve happened ...... #would aoki finally appreciate sawashiro for what he's done over the years after ichiban screams that fact to him I Dont Know #its definitely something i keep revisiting but i never come up with anything satisfactory #on that note ive been thinking of aoki and sawashiro Excessively again- mostly in reference to their time in america #cause after looking into lung transplants and life afterwards it's hard to imagine sawashiro would just leave aoki alone #granted the timeline cant be SUPER realistic but. at the very least i think sawshiro wouldve stuck around for a while #if not all four years #but thats for another post POINT IS //screams and cries// i just think. you know ? #like i dont think aoki would start pouring his heart out to sawashiro but yk. #maybe at least acknowledge sawashiro as family- i dont think sawashiro would ever really tell aoki the truth with that in mind #//loud shrug// aoki and sawashiro in jail can be something so personal and make me wanna throw up

[waywardsalt]

im actually going to tear into totk’s dragon’s tears/ memories rn bc i remember feeling distinctly unsatisfied with them when i got all of them so im just going to write some general bullet points about them, about what i dislike or maybe what i do actually like about them, leaving out both master sword scenes and the mummydorf one because i’m here to talk about the stuff in the past not that

- off the bat (i play this game in english btw so all of this is based on the english text and translation i am aware some stuff is slightly different in other languages) im not really a fan of how the descriptions of all of the tears is just a literal description of what happens?? i think my issue with it is that some of the text is a little bit too in depth, as in it just tells you literally everything about the scene. this might be nitpick-y but i personally dont like it

- what’s up with zelda saying ‘but that must mean...!’ at the end of the scene. is it suggesting that she’s made the realization that rauru and sonia are the first king and queen of hyrule? because they literally tell her that like ten seconds before. i guess it’s suggesting she’s realizing she’s in the past but... idk the texts says ‘she’s left startled by a suspicion that she’s heard those names before’ yeah theyre the first king and queen of hyrule?? they tell her that. they tell her their names and that they are the first leaders of hyrule is she just now connecting the dots that she’s in the past? that’s what the next cutscene implies. but all of the surrounding dialogue and the description don’t suggest that that’s what she’s realizing i feel like this was kind of muddled in the translation

- why did sonia elbow rauru he was just standing weird he didnt say anything this isnt a nitpick im just confused. is it because he’s not being very empathetic towards what zelda’s going through? she elbows him and then she goes and talks to zelda why even elbow rauru. ordinarily you elbow someone like that if you mean for them to go do something why elbow someone if you’re going to do the thing you want anyways

- why doesnt zelda offer to help with the purah pad or anything like that. what happened to her sheikah tech fascination from botw. not even as someone actually familiar with the technology who could give mineru some points as to how it works

- what are sonia and zelda doing behind rauru when he shoots that insane fucking beam at the mulduga swarm they’re clearly doing something with their stones but like... are they amplifying rauru’s power somehow?? what do time powers have to do with the beam of light i dont- what were they doing please the text description only mentions him using his powers so are sonia and zelda just... supporting his powers? idk man

- dragon tear #5 is a whole can of worms with its worse-than-oot reenactment of that one scene from oot. why the focus on sonia and her tear btw. i mean yeah she dies to motivate rauru and zelda but like. why not aim for the new girl who probably doesn’t know how to use it as much and is probably more likely to be separate from the king who can shot insane lasers. im really not a fan of this scene for how strongly the game sides with rauru and zelda being passive and judgemental but ganondorf is literally the best part of it there’s a lot of character in just how he picks up his sword and stands up to leave

- putting memories 6 and 7 together just because of how there was just. no fucking care put into the idea of zelda learning to use her time powers. memory 6 zelda talks about wanting to use her time powers and sonia gives her tips on how she could use it and visualize the use of it and then in memory 7 she can just use it perfectly with great control and timing. why even bother talking about her nothing yet understanding how to use it when the very next scene she just uses it like it’s nothing. how much time has passed we get nothing to show us zelda trying to practice this power just. nope. she’s good she can use it perfectly. also more awkward dialogue sonia saying ‘what a picture zelda paints of him’ as she is. looking directly at zelda. change the line to like, ‘what a picture you paint of him’ she is literally looking right at zelda so why would she say it like that

- generally i feel like memory six should have been before 4 and 5 (4 being where she uses some power to... support??? rauru and it being before memory 5 so that there isnt this weird break in between the memories concerning ganondorf.) memory 6 does not have anything to do with memory 4 or 5 so just put it earlier so there isnt a weird shift in focus between the two big ganondorf scenes

- good god they introduce the idea of sonia and zelda being aware of ganondorf using a fake zelda but theres literally nothing about it having been a problem or them having experience or like. anything. they just TELL you that they know and suggest that it’s been like. a thing for a bit??? also obligatory ganondorf’s face model rigging is fucked comment he’s still the best part

- the pacing of these memories is just weird in general, memories 7 and 8 being separate but the same scene is strange when other memories are long as fuck but cover one event each, plus theres clearly barely any passage of time between memories 7 and 8 it almost feels like they were split up to fill space or just because otherwise it’d be... too long? man idk

- ‘queen sonia needs you!’ girl she is DEAD good fucking luck doing anything to help her

- ganondorf’s horse and its armor both look sick as fuck i really wish you got to see more of it outside the memory it appears in

- everything about the original sages honestly sucks. they aren’t characters they’re just walking macguffins. they have no names and are not relevant or mentioned or make any appearance until they are needed by the story. why does the zora sage talk about getting word about the attacked gerudo village in this scene when like. they’ve all met up and have clearly. been together for a bit. when she gives them the news it’s clearly the first they’ve heard of it... but... why would she wait until this moments to give this info unless for the benefit of the player watching the scene. why does the ZORA sage have this news and not... the gerudo sage?? what’s with the masks. they’re all made of zonaite or whatever sure theyre gifts from rauru but like. i hate that it kind of denotes them being subservient and lower than him and the zonai. honestly i really hate this scene in general mostly because of the uncomfortable showing of how rauru absolutely holds power over them and despite them being leaders as well they are expected to be wholly blindly loyal to him. rauru only gives them these stones when he needs their aid and they swear loyalty too him soon after but you also see that sonia and mineru have stones, too, so they’re clearly withholding these things despite it being kind of reasonable for him to give each race their own secret stone as further proof of their pact? there is so much shit to be said about the imperialistic themes or whatever in this fucking story and i really hate it

- i do kinda like how the next scene shows you that the one rock in the corner of that first hidden room in the forgotten temple is sonia’s grave

- zelda’s phrasing and description of how she and link found ganondorf is weird to me ‘he’s still alive’ ‘he lives on’ girl that was a mummy. he was not moving until you got there. he’s undead at best as far as you know. this is def a nitpick but eh. also the reliance on link is a... bit odd when zelda does not actually know that link is safe until she gets the master sword. its fine but still. also her shell-shocked expression after rauru talks about her being in the past for a reason is a bit... it doesn’t fit her emotion it’s kind of similar to the expression she had when sonia was killed

- the memory about the imprisoning war starts with practically the whole story up until now being repeated back to you by mineru with a decent amount of bias on mineru’s part and while it’s fine because of some of the extra stuff you learn but it does a lot more telling rather than showing when it comes to the actual imprisoning war and... idk the whole thing about their ‘fight’ kind of falls flat when you don’t actually see any fighting you just see that the sages have gotten their asses beat. i think it would have been a little interesting if in the god-awful repetitive sage-awakening scenes they had actually showed you the og sages fighting ganondorf instead of just. slow-mo freeze-frames for whatever. once again ganondorf if the best part of the scene

- the rest of the memories are fine idc

i get the feeling that the japanese-to-english translation was either all-around rough or somehow rushed, because some of the phrases in the game as well as some of the dialogue is really awkward and... could have been better. i don’t know how it works but it feels like a lot of it was very literal, direct translation and no one at noa thought that it ought to be tweaked just a little bit

these memories also do a fuck-ton of telling rather than showing and it really is like they don’t really trust you to connect the dots, and some of it does come off like they either didn’t want to make more memories or ran out of time or something. i felt like the memory of ganondorf just summoning his monsters and riding on his cool horse could have been a bit longer to actually show us the forces of hyrule fighting him and having a hard time with it

a lot of the character animations doesn’t have a whole lot of personality to them, ganondorf is the character who had the most distinct and interesting movements. rauru and sonia had their... singular movement (rauru putting a hand to his chin and sonia taking zelda’s hands) and zelda was kind of just... standing around and reacting to stuff, and neither mineru nor any of the other sages had any really interesting animations asides from mineru’s coughing fit in memory 16 (plus her reclining chair that was a nice touch). very few of their movements really express anything about the characters besides some really baseline values or traits.

the ordering of some memories is kind of odd, the excessive flashbacks in memory 17 are a bit much, the telling rather than showing, the sometimes awkward dialogue, a lot of the scenes are characters just... talking at each other, you don’t actually see very much of hyrule in the past or any characters beyond the main four, and it really did nothing to actually get me to care about these characters at all.

tldr i dont like totk’s dragon tears

#i didnt want to revisit this game but the memories in totk bother me. once im done with this tho i can go read my new volumes of berserk #salty talks #loz #legend of zelda #totk #literally the narrative of this game dragged the rest of the game through mud for me so im going to complain abt it more #any time i wanted to rewatch a part of a scene i have to sit through a few minutes of bullshit just to get to the point. #these things are so long and barely anything happens in them #half of these cutscenes are just characters standing around and talking theres so little actual character to most of the character movements #ganondorf has the most emotive and distinct movements in all of these scenes #they have the most personality and you get the most variety. with rauru and sonia its just. shes gentle n motherly hes uhhhh arrogant king #honest to god. i miss linebeck. i miss the way he was animated and the sheer amount of personality they gave him in every cutscene #fuck man i miss botw's memories. despite them being shorter (i'm pretty sure) i feel like there was more essence to them. more character #listen. i understand that gamedev is hard and so is writing and animating but like. this game is seventy fucking dollars. #despite him being so disappointingly one-note. ganondorf was the most interesting fucking character in these memories #finding the dragon's tears was fun but actually watching them was lame af #hey remember those posts i made about ph's cutscenes? maybe its the autism but i feel like i couldnt write those paragraphs abt totk #ig just. ph is my special interest and i have a negative bias against totk. if you think im dead wrong about this stuff go ahead. #i dont blame anyone for taking my words with a grain of salt. come to your own conclusions. if oyu like totk's memories cool! #anyways im done bye im gonna read berserk. which actually has a nuanced story and world and characters and a multi-faceted villain #totk spoilers #bitching abt totk

[deitiesofduat]

Hi Everyone, it's been a while :D!! So here's something I've been working on for the past month, just in time for OC_Tober 2022 -- an updated, full color lineup of the major DEITIES Cast!

Though this doesn't cover everyone featured in the project, this felt like a good opportunity to re-introduce some of the deities and their featured profiles on the website. I hope to work on more complete references and revisit details later, but this line-up should function well as a visual reference for everyone -- and to compare heights without their headdresses in the way, that too--

More information about what's planned for this month can be found in the latest update here: DEITIES Update -- October 2022

Meanwhile, all 20 of these deities will get their day to shine with individual refs and artwork, and I'll soon reopen the Askbox to answer questions and messages this month -- please watch this space, and thanks all!

DEITIES Project Website -- https://deitiesproject.com/

All Character Profiles (Website) -- https://deitiesproject.com/characters/

OC_TOBER Deity Profiles -- deitiesofduat.tumblr.com/tagged/DEITIES%20Profiles

Higher quality + Full-size Images -- https://sta.sh/21y4noqrsk91

#// .........I hope ya'll can understand why it took me so long to do this at all -- I just knew it'd be an undertaking lmaosdjksdf #// In a way July's Artfight helped re-ignite my art mojo; so when my friends nudged me to try OC_tober I used it to revisit project stuff #// I'm glad it's done and that I can work with these refs now since some of them have needed this for a long while #// Also uhhhhh heights are standard system; check their profiles if you want to know their exact heights in both standard and metric #// I'm not going to tag everyone here cuz it'll be pointless; 20 characters exceeds 20 tag limit and I'm using half of them for commentary-- #// I will tag the individual posts as we go with their relevant links -- as well as a bit of new information about each character too! #Deities of Duat #DEITIES Project #OC_tober #OC_tober 2022 #artwork #design references #characters #deities #character design #egyptian mythology #egyptian gods #Ancient Egypt #kemetic #mythology

[ifyougoillfollow]

as we sink into the open sea

M/F, Gen | QPR MicNight | 1720 words | Selkie AU CW: Depiction of Suicide Attempt (non-graphic)

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On the eve of his nineteenth birthday, Yamada Hizashi walks into the ocean and comes back with a wife.

Please understand, that wasn't his intention. Yamada Hizashi is not the kind of man to believe in tales of sirens and sea wives, and he is especially not the kind of man with dreams of snaring one for himself. He is, in point of fact, not a man of any dreams at all. Not anymore.

So he walks into the ocean, figuring that if he can't find the will to keep dreaming, then he can at least find some peace at last. He finds a wife, instead.

Or rather, she finds him.

She finds him as his body hits the sea floor, at the very moment the first wave of doubt rolls over him in one fell, unrelenting swoop, much too late for him to do anything about it. He's so overcome with it he doesn't think much of the figure that glides out of the ocean murk and sidles right up to him. Wide, shark-bright eyes peer at him, so close they fill up his entire swimming, pin-pricking vision, and all Hizashi can think about is how soon he's going to die, and how he’s not so sure he wants to die after all, and how little what he wants matters in this final moment, as in all the rest before it, and then the figure places one cold hand on his colder cheek and kisses him. She's all Hizashi can think of, then.

She's dark-haired and beautiful. And strong. And a good swimmer, too, but that's to be expected. She drags him back to shore, lips locked tight over his the whole way, and she doesn't let go until his lungs are clear of ocean brine.

Hizashi lies there, alive and silent on the cold, wet sand for a good while after. Long enough for the first hint of morning blue to blush over the horizon. The sea maiden lies with him, just as alive, just as silent, and infinitely more at ease. Cozied right up to his side, as if she belongs there, seemingly content to remain there for however long Hizashi has left on this Earth now that she's saved him. Try as he might, he can't figure out whether he's grateful or not. He does, however, remember his manners, on occasion, so when he finally finds his voice again, he uses it to thank her.

"You're welcome," the sea maiden replies. There's laughter in her voice. Hizashi doesn't know what there is to laugh about, though he finds himself wishing she'd actually done so, just so he could hear it. He used to love laughter. Impossibly, he still does.

Yamada Hizashi had a knack for making people laugh, once. It was all he knew how to do, really. He doesn't know much of anything now, least of all how to make the sea maiden in his arms laugh, so he says nothing.

The sea maiden in his arms says nothing either, at first, for just long enough Hizashi startles when she does speak: "Is that it?"

"Pardon?"

"Is that all you're going to say?"

"... Is there more I should be saying?"

"There must be." There it is again – the laugh in her voice. "You don't strike me as the quiet type in the least."

That's what it is – she's teasing him. It's much too familiar to do anything but rankle. "Listen, Miss –”

She snorts. "Nemuri."

"Listen –” his face burns as he realizes that's her given name, and he refuses to say it "– listen, I'm grateful to you for saving me and all, but you don't know anything about me."

She peels away from his side. "Liar."

"Pardon?"

"You're not grateful at all," she grunts through an impressive stretch, current-strong arms flung upward and out towards the heavens. She's wearing a sealskin cape and nothing else, and is so unembarrassed by it Hizashi can't muster up any on her behalf. She winks at him. "But you will be," she adds. Then: "Take off your clothes."

"Pardon?"

This time she does laugh – seagull-like – loud and sharp and to the point. "Well, I don't know much about land folk, but it's my understanding you don't handle being wet all that well."

Hizashi wraps his arms around himself, scowling. "I'll be fine."

"Suit yourself."

The sea maiden stands – or at least tries to. She heaves herself upward in a motion that would probably be fluid underwater, then loses her balance, toppling backwards onto the sand, rump first. The sight of her glaring down at her legs is almost enough to pull a laugh out of Hizashi.

"Stupid things," she grumbles, kicking up sand.

Hizashi does laugh, then, which is a mistake. The sea maiden stands, suddenly sure-footed in her indignation, and uses her newfound mastery over her lower appendages to kick sand in his direction.

Hizashi cannot stop laughing. He laughs until his new companion loses interest in burying him under sand. He laughs until the sun finally frees itself from under the weight of the horizon. He laughs until he almost forgets he just tried to kill himself.

When he's all laughed out, the sea maiden is still there. Sitting across from him, hands and feet planted firmly in the sand, peering at him with a smile so dry it's a wonder she doesn't hail from land herself.

Without a word, she stands again, solid and steady, all remaining traces of sea legs gone, and hauls Hizashi to his own significantly less steady feet. While he's still reeling from... all of it – the strength of her hands around his, the seafoam-salt smell of her filling his impossibly pumping lungs, the laughter still clanging through every hollow part of him – the sea maiden takes her sealskin cape and drapes it over Hizashi's shoulders.

It's soft and musky and so warm it feels more alive than he does, but, most of all, it's heavy.

Hizashi tries to shrug it off. "Thanks," he says stiffly, "but I said I'm fine."

"I heard you," says the sea maiden, rearranging the cape around him.

"I don't need it."

"I know."

She fastens the cape closed around his neck, patting his chest firmly. It's so long it covers Hizashi all the way down to his shins. On her, it must have just brushed over the sand at her feet. The uncanny warmth of it doesn't seep even as the seafront breeze hits it, makes it flap and flutter around him in a heavy, even bump-bump, bump-bump beat. Nothing could ever hope to reach him past that beat and that warmth.

"I don't want it, either," he lies, because he has to, because he's never known what to do in the face of so much want, because he's always wanted too many things, and he's wanted them too much.

"Neither do I," says the sea maiden, breezy as the morning. "Maybe we should leave it here, lying around. I'm sure no one else would find it, if we hid it well enough."

Hizashi blanches at the thought. He may not be the kind of man to believe in tales of sea wives, but he has heard enough of them to be wary of the kind of man who does. He fumbles for the clasp at the base of his throat. "Just take it back. Go home."

"Hm, I don't think so." She sidesteps his attempts to foist the cape back onto her, walking away backwards, hands clasped behind her head. "I think I'll stick around here for awhile. Explore the land realm. It seems exciting."

Hizashi chases after her, cape held out like a net. "It isn't."

She twirls away again. "Liar."

"It's too exciting, then. Dangerous."

"So is the ocean – didn't stop you from walking into it."

"That was –" Hizashi falters, loses his footing "– different," he finishes lamely, hands fisted in the sand-soiled cape caught under his knees.

The sea maiden stands over him. "You're right," she says, "that was different – I'm not going into this trying to die. I'd say that alone makes my odds of survival look pretty swell, don't you think?"

Hizashi stares up at her, looming tall against the dawn sky, so tall she dwarves the rising sun itself, and has no doubt she'd survive even the drying of all seven seas if it meant she got to live.

"You're naked," he says, because he's running out of arguments, and the will to keep making them.

"I wouldn't be if you gave me your clothes,” she shoots back, “I gave you mine, didn't I? It would only be fair."

The cape is velvet-smooth as Hizashi slides it out from under himself, warmer still from the heat of his body and the sun-washed sand, which slides off of it like ocean spray from mossy seaside cliffs. His sea maiden – Nemuri – takes it from him and helps him back to his feet. She folds it over her arm, as if merely holding on to it for the moment, and arches an expectant eyebrow at him.

Sighing, Hizashi shrugs off his coat. "Yes,” he relents, “I suppose it would only be fair."

On the dawn of his nineteenth birthday, Yamada Hizashi walks into town with nothing but a sealskin cape on his back and a wife.

Or so the townsfolk like to tell it, because the townsfolk love a good fairy tale romance almost as much as they love to pity him. In time, they will come to pity him even this moment and his sea-wild wife, as outrageous as she is beautiful, as the very ocean itself, and Yamada Hizashi will do what he has always done in the face of undue pity, which is to laugh in it and continue loving whoever and whatever he loves, in whichever way he sees fit.

But that will come later. For now, in the rosy light of a dawn he never planned to see, Hizashi walks into town beside Nemuri, the sea maiden who saved his life – the woman who will be called his wife and be so much more – and is content enough to have finally figured out he’s grateful, even if he has yet to figure out much else. The rest will follow, he’s sure, in good time and – even better – good company.

#yamada hizashi #present mic #kayama nemuri #midnight #micnight #qpr micnight #i wrote a thing #mermay #cw: suicide #it feels weird adding such a heavy content warning given that this is not a heavy story overall but better safe than sorry #anyway surprise mermay fic everyone! #it's me i'm everyone #this fic blindsided me ngl but i quickly grew obsessed with it and needless to say i got Lore #lore that i refused to even hint at in the fic because i Do Not need any more long form wips and i do love me a good one-shot #but who knows maybe one day i'll revisit this au i do so love it #also decided to post the whole fic here instead of just doing my usual ao3 link thingy because i recently locked my fics to registered user #-only because of the whole ai fuckery going around lately which y'know sucks #but this way anyone who wants to read it but doesn't have an ao3 account can do so through here so hopefully that helps #anyway #enjoy loves <3

[wantbytaemin]

the song im asking the DJ to play: going out in balkan with 3racha edition

chan: dodji tati which if you understand the language you’ll know immediately why i just know we’d both be into the same type of songs and he’d go fucking crazy for these lyrics (as do i. whenever a balkan man refers to himself as ‘tata’ im like bitch that’s ME and he’d be the same 100%) but also moje leto the australia reference would get him every time also this song literally sounds like something he’d produce in 30 mins just fucking around on channies room. the one downside is i feel like we’d be into the same girls and he’d be taking my spotlight w his dimpled short guy charm -__-

changbin: PROTEINI VITAMINI SAMO DA JE GUZA TOP this is a song abt working out btw LMAO it’s literally made for him also he’d be soooo much fuckin fun i can see us both fist pumping to this and šarafimo žarulje no idk the english term for that specific dance but one of those that men who can’t dance do even though he CAN dance but that’s beside the point.

han: some shit like bebo 3 that’s like still a club song but you’re remembering your ex you’re still in love with and fucking crying in the club (key voice you’re in the club?? I know key. me and jisung are both shocked he’s even there actually) alternatively suhi bc. well i’m giggling at the lyrics if you know you know but also he’d be the type to dislike new ‘sold out’ connect and only like their old ‘actual music’ stuff (and he’s kinda right about it too)

*takes bow*

#this is SOOOO fully and completely self indulgent i just really wanted to write it in my diary here bc i was listening to dodji tati and #having a dance party thinking i NEED to show this to chan #also i can envision us at a nucci show and ‘KURVE PARE I DROGA JA NE MOGU BEZ TOGA’ and jisung crying in my shoulder singing the next line #‘AL JE MOJE SRCE NEKAD BILO NJENOOOO’ im giggling this is so much fun to me #i need a tag for my posts i might want to save for later and revisit hmmmmm #i don’t want it to include my name bc WELL it means something that i do not wanna associate with so like.. #let’s have it plain & simple i say #textpost

[grineerios]

Chapters: 10/10 Fandom: Warframe Rating: Teen And Up Audiences Warnings: No Archive Warnings Apply Characters: Original Tenno Character(s) (Warframe), Gauss (Warframe), Alad V, Original Cephalon Character(s) (Warframe), Arbiters of Hexis (Warframe), Titania (Warframe), Silvana (Warframe), Ballas (Warframe), Margulis (Warframe), Lotus (Warframe) Additional Tags: Harm to Children, Flashbacks, POV Alternating, Independent Warframe, gauss gets slightly dismembered. as a treat., wukong slander, the zariman jump isn't the only thing that went wrong, Mother-Son Relationship, it's my warframe and i get to decide if the infestation can change your sex, someone contracts Infestation and it's Not Pretty (tm) Summary:

After a near-death event catapults a young Tenno from the grasp of the Second Dream, Rufus and his Gauss warframe are forced to remember their pasts and come to terms with their current selves.

#This is technically the post for chapters 9 and 10 #i finished both tonight #:> #and now the story's officially done! #thank you everyone so much for your support and love #i wasn't sure id get past the first few chapters much less actually finish the story #yall are awesome #i want to revisit Gauss at least sometime in the future #but #i have a ton of ideas before i can get to that #again thank you all so much #this has been a blast #also! if you want to check out the other half of the inspiration for this work #go listen to All That You Are from Lost Ember #great song- made me cry. #All That You Are #operator rufus #gauss #warframe #warframe fanfiction #grineerios writing

[mirrortouchedsea]

7 snippets, 7 people!

Tagged by @inkstaindusk though I do not know if I follow or know 7 writers but here's 7 snippets at least

confessions - Enstars, Madara/Tatsumi

“Confession typically requires one to be in a confessional, but it isn’t unheard of for people to do impromptu confessions.” 

“And you can’t tell anyone about what’s said to you, right?” 

“What’s said during confession is between the confessor and God. The priest only acts as an intercessor, at least on paper.” 

“But you have to keep it secret, right?” 

“Correct.” 

“Can I…confess something?” 

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Eccentric Party Night Gone Wrong - Enstars, Five Eccentrics

Shu tentatively nodded along with everyone else, flashing a nervous smile, though the butler seemed to believe Wataru’s story. They were ushered to follow him back down the hall and the rest of them all looked at each other, skeptical that their plan would continue to work once they reached whatever gathering was being held. Wataru glanced over his shoulder to wink at them and began asking questions to the butler about what they had supposedly missed. 

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I belong to the salt and the sea and the stones (Save them all for me) - Enstars, Kaoru/Kanata

“I don’t believe anyone truly enjoys that dull political talk, but I was thinking more along the lines of… this.” 

Rei had walked ahead of Kaoru and pulled a book from the shelf. The speed and ease of which he found it amazed Kaoru. He clearly came and read that book frequently, which Kaoru was just as guilty of with his mermaid books from his mother’s collection. 

The book had a plain cover with just the title written in a cursive gold font. 

Rei opened it and thumbed through the pages before settling on what looked like a drawing of some sort from Kaoru’s perspective. 

“Do you believe in vampires, little Kaoru?” he asked, turning the book to face him. 

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old coots giving advice. it's bad advice but it's free - Enstars, Crazy:B

“Mhm. Anyway, do you have any idols that you look up to, HiMERU-han?” 

HiMERU hesitated and took a long sip of his coffee. 

“He would rather not talk about that.” 

Kohaku raised an eyebrow. 

“Maybe another time, Oukawa.” 

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meru has a panic attack - Enstars, HiMERU, Crazy:B

[He] wasn’t supposed to be feeling this happy. [He] was just filling in a role until Kaname woke up. [He] was just a tool, a puppet, a pawn on the board that was meant to become a queen. [He] shouldn’t allow himself to get this close to the others. 

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in this sea we call home - Enstars, Kaoru/Kanata

“Kaoru,” Kanata started, still staring at the ocean. “Have I ever told you about my ‘mother’?” 

Kanata’s hand shook in Kaoru’s grasp. 

“No,” he responded, squeezing Kanata’s hand reassuringly. “Do you…want to?” 

“Yes.”

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tatsuhime violence - Enstars, Fucking Guess

“Go away, Tatsumi Kazehaya.” HiMERU said, just barely above a whisper. His voice was shaky but still full of conviction. 

Instead, Tatsumi leaned his cane against the wall and sat next to HiMERU. He seemed hesitant before speaking. “Kaname-san, if it’s okay for me to call you that now--” 

HiMERU doesn’t even think as he moves his hands to Tatsumi’s throat, straddling the other man. “Keep his name out of your mouth or ‘I’ will remove it for you.”

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Tagging uh. @clockworkspider and @girlbossminerva @dariraine (hi this is shay starswallowingsea's writing blog 👋) and anyone else who would like to do this

#shay writes #<- kinda. i guess #tag games #thank u for tagging. honestly some of these are just little drabbles i need to edit and post at some point #one of these is my zine piece :3 its getting close to the time to submit it but #im hoping its okay to post a little teaser of it. you might be able to figure out which one it is #also can you tell i have a character i like to write a lot. can you. can you. #umu that second to last one might get revisited at the end of the lookback scout. #i also have been wanting to start some original stuff but augh. no idea what i want to do yet. #so just. take my enstars stuff for now bc im not writing for anything else atm

[wiltking]

hello! you seem like the right person to ask this — i've found myself thinking 'i wish someone wrote [thing i really want to read]' a lot before realising i could just do it myself, which i think is a good first step, but the problem is i've never written fanfiction (or any kind of fiction, for that matter) before :( do you have any good writing tips / advice that has helped you since you started writing, and continue to do so? thank you so much! (p.s. i love your work 🫶)

as this is one of the main reasons why i write, and have found so much satisfaction in the process ever since i started, i hope i can share a few words to get you going!

bottom line - it really is just a means of starting, because i don't think you can ever get worse at writing. you might get tired, you might get uninspired or lazy or distracted but as long as your passion is there you can learn and improve. and you'll never know what you're capable of until you start!

if you're already jumping into writing with yourself in mind as your ideal reader, you're in the right place. writing for self indulgence is always correct but especially so when you're starting out, because even if it's objectively 'not good', making your favorite characters kiss like barbies or explore whatever emotional trauma you want to work through with them as a vessel, you'll be getting something out of the process no matter what. whether it be joy or release or simply to get your rocks off.

but there are many different ways to write. so i can't give you a comprehensive list of do's / don'ts - the following is just a few things i've learned work great for me through trial and error:

write something short and simple. if this is your very first piece of writing, keep it small. you can always expand on it later if it's something you like and feel ready for. one of my first works was a short trans pwp fic and i have no shame in that. you don't have to make a 100k masterpiece right out the gate (or ever!) so just keep it contained while you test the waters and get a feeling for the process. also, the sense of accomplishment when finishing a work is unparalleled. which can be a lot easier to do if it's something lowkey.

drafts. my brain is a scattered mosaic in a kitchen sink garbage disposal. i physically can't write things in linear form, and i can't write in chapters. it's all or nothing. so i've found it helps me the most to put all my ideas and concepts into an incomprehensible first draft, and make sense of it later. all my initial concepts get put down in here even if they're contradictory or bad or bare or in need of change. the intent is to get all your ideas out as they come and sort out / build on them / discard them later. it's about having a skeleton you can put meat on later! i refer to this as 'writing the bones' if i ever get caught up thinking it isn't good, because that's not what the first draft is for. the bones are the foundation of your writing, not the flavor!

find your flow. the key point in starting a writing projects is to write. writing and editing are 2 separate processes. so try not to edit while writing, just keep going. if you get stuck, move to the next scene or idea. skip to the ending if you have to. write notes within your work if you're unsure about something. use brackets to indicate [character walks home here] or [describe interior] or [research this later] when you can't think of the details at the time, and do it liberally. you will get better at this through practice.

have a 'deleted sections' document. when it's time to edit you might be hesitant to delete stuff even if you know it's not working, and even if it's just a sentence or two. my trick is to cut these scenes out and paste them into a 'garbo' document. i never actually go back and reuse these deleted chunks, but it helps get over the worry of what if. chances are if you're deleting a section, it's because you have a better idea in mind. so make room for it!

stay inspired. don't forget why you're writing. if you get stuck, try revisiting what made you start your project in the first place. whenever i feel completely out of ideas i like to revisit the source material or just have helpful bits of it on hand. for my recent patho fic i kept a bunch of voice line compilations open in my tabs to listen to the way certain characters talk, and sometimes i would load up the game / revisit canon conversations to get new ideas. for one of my spideypool fics i would relisten to the song that inspired it over and over again to remember the feeling i wanted to get across. make playlists! stare at pictures of your faves! remember why you love these characters!!

sorry if this is overwhelming or too much info. i've been doing this on and off for a few years now and i'm still learning ways to make the process more smooth and ideal for myself. but the more you write the more you learn not just about writing, but about yourself and the how, what, and why you want to write. this might just be a hobby for me but i'm passionate about it and i think it's something everyone should try if you have even the slightest interest in it.

also remember this is all stuff that's specifically true for me. you might love chaptered writing or nailing out a timeline before you even start or hate listening to music when your write and that's all perfectly okay! but there's only one way to find out! so go forth and learn what the little writing beast waiting inside of you has to say!!

#it might help you to know my first fic was an unfinished edgy kpop fic when i was 16. #but everything you make is something you can learn from #and i'm so excited for you to see what you can make :''') #long post #one last thing lol - once you get more serious about it it helps to revisit your favorite works or authors and really pick apart why #you like them. why certain scenes or storytelling structures or characters make your brain go brrrr #why did that scene give you chills or make you cry? how was it set up? is this something you can try to incorporate into your own stuff? #thats something i want to do more the next time i reread something

[chungledown-bimothy]

So it all started on a rainy day not so unlike this one, and I had a hankering for a salisbury steak, and I mean a Real hankering. And I'm an old soul, born and bred in the 50s (of which millennia, I'll never tell), and as a man of the past, stuck in it, I may be. Sue me, kill me, prod and poke me, but I perhaps assumed a thing too many about the current state of the world. To my great chagrin, not a restaurant in town held the object of my desires... A warm plate of that wet wet meat. And then, I was in a real fowl mood. Wet, hungry, and angry from the fellow I spoke to in the diner, I limped back to my hobbled together abode, my shoes squishing and squelching under the warm light of the street lamps. To my surprise, a human form slunk out of the nearest alley, the only other form around at this time of night. Curious, I moved closer. The being was woman adjacent, closely but not exactly representing a lady, almost human. Her form gyrated and flowed in a way most provocative, and soon, I was encapsulated by it. Now, not in the city on the rainy street, but fully and completely with her. Soon, I was following her, not knowing or caring where she lead, only that I must follow, lest I end up a fool. Downward we fled, concrete changed for stone and the air turned thick like poison. As we slowed, I realized the scent was coming from her is large sheets of dizzying smell. It took more than moments for me to remove the fog that she created in my brain and realize that we were no longer in the moist Cincinnati air, but in a stone dwelling, dark and damp. The walls were hard, wet stone but the air was dry, as if it was sucking the life right out of you. She stopped in front of a metal cage of a door as I finally take in her form whole. She was disgusting to say the least, her skin was hugged and dropped in places unsavory and her smile was Gastly. Her lips red and cracked and her breaths were ragged and shallow like a predator after a failed hunt. She disgusted me, yet I was trapped by her gaze. Her bony, sharp hands grabbed my sky soaked palms as she dragged me further into her dungeon. My brain was still dizzy from her presence but the growl from my gullet drew me from her for just a moment, and her as well. Shocked, nay, confused at how and why I made such a noise, we suddenly stopped. Then as quick as the steps ended, they began at a rapid pace, suddenly jogging then running then sprinting further into the depths. The fervour of her movements drew sticky sweat from her body adding to the slick hot air. Before my mind could create the image we were in a room that closely resembling a kitchen, and I understood. She heaved and huffed, eyes never leaving mine, and I was scared. I could feel her need to care for me, to provide her alpha. A growl escaped from a place I didn't know existed l and she leaped into action. But quickly she realized she didn't know me, and I not her. With a voice so hard and crispy she asked, "What's your poison? Food that is..." I smiled for the first time in many years, "Salisbury steak, it's my favorite, and I have quite the hankering" Her face glowed evilly in the light, "Can you make it?" I asked, already aware of the answer. "Hmm" she cackled a dry laugh, "well, I'd love to give it a go" and in the distance, soft wedding bells chimed.... To be continued

With all due respect and appreciation for the very vivid word picture you created...

What the fuck

#asks #anon #i almost don't want to post this #i want to hold onto it in my inbox so i can revisit it more easily #but i need you to know my response and i need someone- anyone- else to have read this #i can't be alone in having experienced this