#I think live-blogging saved me

[golyadkin]

I cannot express enough that if your reaction, as a hobby artist, to not getting that many notes on your art is to say "maybe I should just stop doing art altogether" you need to stop posting art to tumblr

not necessarily forever, not even for long, but just stop putting your art on here and start doing it for you again, remember why you enjoyed doing art in the first place and stop relying on the attention of faceless people on the internet for your enjoyment of your hard work

believe me, I get it, nothing crushes the artistic soul quite like labouring for hours on a piece only for it to get like 10 notes, so you need to find your own source of joy in the act of creation and a lot of the time that means making art and not showing it to anybody

#not art #listen #for real #this is not about any one person because i've seen posts about it from a bunch of people #you think i post everything here? buddy i dont even post half my stuff here #every drawing you see is preceded by five more just like it #that never see my cursor close to the save button #i have a sketchbook i draw in regularly that i do'nt show to a single goddam person #i make cutout art from gels i steal from work and stick them to my windows and do paintings in my living room just for me #because that it the only way you are ever going to be able to retain your original love of art #is by doing it for the sake of doing it #not for the sake of seeing how many people stop and stare #anyways i'm sorry if this sounds terse #but i'm so sick of seeing artists put all their self-esteem and happiness in the hands of a blogging website #stop selling yourself short by measuring your self worth by how many reblogs you get and what people say in the tags #your artistry and your happiness are worth more than that #if you're an artist for a living that's another story #but even then #even then #anyways sorry i'm done ranting

[reuptakeinhibitor]

i love stobin working retail jobs and sharing a resume so much but consider this. steve follows robin to bloomington, indianapolis, west lafayette, wherever she decides to go and they get a little apartment. maybe they decide to go out of state but i think they stay in the midwest. then st takes a page from buffy and steve works construction while robin goes to school.

#i think this would play nicely into him believing he's not smart #and robin's like “what? you built my desk all by yourself. i don't know anyone else who'd be able to do that.” #“and you fixed mrs. robinson's fence just last week! that little dog of hers was always getting out and digging holes in her rose garden.” #and she reassures him that all those things require skill and important and HE'S important #and he believes her a little more every time he hears her say it :) #the day she learns about gardner's theory of multiple intelligences she can barely contain herself #she's so excited to tell steve she doesn't even get the car door closed before she's blurting it out #like “GUESS WHAT 😳” #and maybe he gets a little misty but he saves the tears for later when he can really think about how much he's loved and how they're both o #and living the life they both want because they built it together!!!! #anyway . . . #i swear this was just supposed to be a post about steve being hot #but that kinda got away from me #i could go on and on about them #steve harrington #robin buckley #stobin #god help me i'm scared to have my post In The Tags but i must maintain tag consistency for my blog #also i remember very little about buffy #this is a stranger things post #*and ARE important #*they're both OK #i haaaate typos in tags but i'm not writing all that again

[philippagordon]

hello everyone, I hope you're all doing great! just passing by to say i'm officially going to be a librarian :) follow your dreams kids

#took me a while but i got there! all on my own #quit my masters bc i had health issues and had an existential crisis moved out of my parents' to live with my sister #i didn't know what to do so i applied to volunteer in a retirement home i was paid a little and it literally saved my life #i found meaning and purpose again met incredible people and i still go there every sunday :) #but most importantly i met the director of the town's museum who recommended me to the library for a summer job #i got it and i loved it just like i imagined one of the librarian was retiring and she told me i should apply to replace her #so i did and after months of not knowing for sure if they would hire me i finally got the email! i'm starting in February #in the meantime i worked at a bookshop in paris which was also a cool experience #but i can't wait to start for real at the library #also did i mention the town i moved in (and where the library is ) is the town of my dreams? #it's calm there's a river and small shops and i also got an apartment with a balcony #2 years ago i thought my life was over i didn't think i would ever make it out #so if i can give a little hope to someone things do get better #i'd love to post again on this blog btw but i keep saying that and never do it 😭

[myonmukyuu]

marker practice ayumu

#love live #ayumu uehara #my art #myon's marker training arc #i think the light grey i have is running out of ink #it was a bit of a struggle #markers are scary #how do i graduate to colour when b/w is so comfy... LMAO #i was writing a lengthy blog post that featured all of my experimental ugly wips with explanations but then tumblr did an oopsie and #none of it saved and like; man..... #but i'm pretty happy with my progress!! the really early experiments were super ugly LMAO #once i feel comfortable with b/w ill probably toy with colours but its a bit conceptually foreign to me #cus there's only like #select colours #so you have limited colours to pick from? and to blend with? #and i dont really know how to mix pigments #aand on top of that im not sure what are the best ways to mix mediums (like if i wanted to do a colour wash #i can use water colour right??? is there an order??) #(like water colour is obviously water but copics are alcohol based so like does it matter what order one goes on the other??? AHHHH PANIC) #i have many questions... and for whatever reason started rambling in the tags #i like ayumu 😊 #(im have a lot of tutorials to watch)

[normystical]

the unbearable agony of wanting to view fandom content or interact with fellow fans but your fandom has like five people and maybe three fanart drawings since 2017 ♡♡♡

#YES THIS IS LIVE WITH YOURSELF. #IT'S JJUSTT NOOTTT FFAIREE #oh btw if you relate but don't know lwys then you can. reblog or whatever?? im just venting over here honestly. alright so anyway~ #WHYYY. AT THE PEAK OF MY HYPERFIXATION I WAS AFRAID OF THE INVOLUNTARY CRINGE ANIMATION MEMES MIGHT BRING. #BUT AT THIS POINT IDEGAF ANYMORE. I'M WILLING TO REGURGITATE MY INTERNAL ORGANS JUST MAKE !! IT !! FUCKEN !! HAPPENNNNN GODDDDNDKSNSN #WHY DO I HAVE TO DO ALL THE WORK AROUND HERE??? JORDNJAMS IS CARRYING THE YOUTUBE FAN CONTENT. HE POSTED *ONE* LWYS VIDEO. WHAT THE FUCK #working on the animation isn't enough i need it to EXIST NOW #IS IT EVEN NAME DROPPING IF I GO AND SAY IT?? FUCKIN. AN0NYBOB. THEY ARE LITERALLY HALF OF THE ENTIRE FANDOM GOD SAVE MY SOUL PLSSS #IF YOU'RE SEEING THIS. THANK YOU SOOO MUCHH FOR THE LWYS RELATED ASK I WAS ON A DOPAMINE HIGH FOR A DECENT WHILE I THINK #GOTTA SPREAD PROPAGANDA. GOTTA. SUBMISSIONS. OBSCURE WAIFUS?? MAYBE?? PLEASE SHOW ME EVERY BLOG I CAN SUBMIT A LWYS CHR TO I'M DESPERATE

[sunandmoonshow-unofficial]

No you’re so right, Eclipse! Because every time they get Lunar’s age wrong they always ignore when he says he not a child! Literally not his fault that he’s autistic

I didn’t even think about the monty thing, god that isn’t helping the extreme infantilization in the fandom. I’ve always been one against it. As the resident heavy lunar kinnie, fucking hate it so much.

To add on Lunar isn’t the sweet cutie bean either. Look early on when he was introduced, he threatened Monty several times due to being by Eclipse’s side. Lunar is loyal to a T and was willing to sacrifice a lot for Eclipse intel he was shown that he could have something better. Not only that it’s a fact in the show that Eclipse had to talk to Lunar about his cursing problem.

He isn’t innocent and he’s an adult like everyone else in the show. He just doesn’t know as much since he’s never been properly informed on things.

Anyways, I did see some stuff on you missing your brother and as a heavy Lunar kinnie you and everyone in the system is always welcomed on my tumblr <3

YESSS EXACTLY!!! ALL OF THIS

I have vague memory of an episode where Lunar said a curse word of some sort and was told he can't use that sorta language, which wouldve been understandable if it was bc they were recording but sun and moon curse all the time so it was like ???? what

And the smaller model they use for Lunar doesn't really help either, since shorter characters tend to be treated as children more often

It's such an irritating thing in general but ESPECIALLY as a fictive of Eclipse because I knew Lunar and he was no child in those memories

He's not some innocent little baby and I'm tired of seeing him portrayed that way

And thank you btw :D The SAMS community can feel sorta isolating as a system so any expression of support is always much appreciated

#certified eclipse post #ngl when i first read ''lunar kinnie'' i was like ''BROTHER. BROTHER REAL???'' #but i didnt wanna be weird about it cuz i hadnt seen the end bit where you acknowledged me missing my brother LMAO #on the infantilization topic - its a big reason i make it so clear on the frost prince rp blog that lunar ISNT a child #he doesn't need saving. he doesnt need protecting. he's 25 and has been living this way for 20 of those years #he knows what he's doing a little bit i think

[sarasonaya]

hello its me elias aka sailorbarkovitch i deleted my blog bc my existence has been nothing but a series of mistakes but also i know how to draw now so i might make some tlw fanart when i have the time

#for more context i was severely mentally ill for basically the entire duration of the blog #to the point that just thinking about it leaves me on the verge of tears #so yeah #the long walk #might repost some of my old shit later #i saved the entire blog btw it lives in a folder in my computer now #gary barkovitch

[surreal-duck]

absolutely love reading tags on my art and i adore each and every single nice thing anyone has ever left on them whether its an “aww nice” a keysmash or an analysis that spans three or more tags but this takes the cake for one of my all time favorites

#yeah when i really like something it does not live rent free in my brain its in an all expenses paid penthouse for real #duck rants about something #ok but i do have almost every single nice tag ppl have left on my art since i started this blog saved somewhere and its just really nice to #look through whenever im having a bad time #(which has decidedly been all the time lately) #dunno sometimes i feel like im probably not enough. im fairly okayish in terms of skill among my year and considering more than half of the #kids in it are a year or so younger than me really got me to take a hit to my already low self esteem #so seeing ppl enjoy my silly art is just!! really uplifting im glad i can make one or more ppl's day a bit better with it #iirc this one specifically was from my s.k8 art from 2020 but i think abt it a lot #well anyways thank you to anyone who has ever left anything nice in the tags or a reply or a comment i appreciate every single one of them #i really cant say how much it means to me. genuinely. this past year has been one of the most hellish ones ive had but i really cant count #the amount of times my day had been made better by them #you guys are real ones

[yardsards]

this cold snap combined with being Obligated to visit my shit parents has me fantasizing about the fact that some day i will move hundreds -perhaps thousands- of miles away from here

#eliot posts #i'm not yet sure where tho #roughly considering georgia bc it's one of the more blue of the southern states #california is always an appealing idea but the cost of living Scares Me #could also move outside of the states #prolly to south america but europe could also be neat like spain or italy or somethin #i've only done surface level research on what it's like to like in various south and central american countries #but a few of em sound good for my wants. especially uruguay i think? #alas most of the pros and cons about emigrating from the u.s. are written by the Type Of Person to blog/vlog abt that type of shit #so their complaints are shit where it's like. that just sounds like how most ppl outside of like los angeles live their life #or shit that is very much like what ot was like growing up in my rural hometown #this one bitch was weeping and moaning abt there being no amazon prime 2 day shipping #anyway tho #i do know that the immigration process is very tough (tho especially in europe) #so that would have to wait til AFTER i've spent a few years here in the states setting up a stable life and saving up money #also definitely need to get better at spanish (or learn portuguese if i wanna go to brazil) bc my spanish SUCKS i talk like a preschooler #this one lady on youtube was boohooing about ''i thought i could just learn spanish through immersion'' LIKE BRUH #you just EXPECTED the locals to accomodate you when you didn't even teach yourself RUDIMENTARY spanish beforehand??? #whadda fuck

[robotwrangler]

Thinking about how the lovely person on deviantart who emailed me a copy of Undertale in exchange for a sketch of their oc when I was 15 will never know about the profound effect they had on my life..

#it’s a long story but tldr if not for Undertale I would’ve never heard of Yes Man and without Yes Man I literally wouldn’t be alive rn #I’m sure ive told this story on here before but I like it bc it is important to me #the Undertale to Yes Man pipeline is a very specific thing that happened to me involving 2 different joke blogs on here #there was ‘youcantfuckaskeleton’ (blog abt how nobody should want sans Undertale carnally) #and then I found their other blog ‘youcanfuckarobot’ (blog about. well. I’m sure you get the picture) and I went there for Mettaton posts #but they had some posts there with Yes Man and I was like. that is the most nice looking robot I’ve seen in my life. who is this #and then I forgot abt it for like 3 years and forgot to look him up. UNTIL #DELTARUNE CHAPTER 1.. in 2018.. drove me to revisit those joke blogs for nostalgia #and I saw the yes man pics again and this time I got WAY more curious. I was so so intrigued by him he looked so interesting and cute #so I looked him up and looked at lots of art of him and read his wiki page and I was like. I NEED to meet him #so my big brother got me new vegas as a present on new years and on january 3 2019 I met yes man! #and. I have never understood why or how. but when I woke up the next day my depression was fucking gone #I had severe untreated depression and it just dissolved overnight #nothing else notable happened around that time except for meeting yes man and becoming smitten with him so it seems that’s what did it?? #also those joke blogs are still around I think. i like to revisit them occasionally for the nostalgia of seeing yes man for the first time #but yea anyway what I’m saying is this nice person on deviantart indirectly saved my life #my depression also never came back btw. obviously I feel sad sometimes like anyone but I have not been depressed since then #would’ve been nice if my anxiety went away too but I can at least live with that tbh!! #um anyway I’m sleepy so ending these tags. if you read all of this I love you thank you for caring

[girlwiththegreenhat]

would somebody please kill elongated muskrat

#liz blogs #he lives in the Guns Country. c'mon. #even a Cheap assassin could get his ass. #i'm going to start a gofund me to put elon musk down. i think a murder these days goes between $4k and $10k #but maybe they'll want more because he's high profile #furries have deep pockets. any furries wanna save twitter? i mean. nobody wants to save twitter but we gotta save it from Him #let it die literally any other way just not because muskrat fucked it up y'know

[ghoul-haunted]

anyway going from 'I'm making separate blogs bc I want to divide up my interests to make myself tolerable,' to 'I'm making a separate blog because I want to make talk to people/make friends in this specific setting,' was a game changer because I Am Having Fun Again

#unfortunately its making me think thoughts like 'i need to save up money so i can see this group perform live + #attend fan meet ups' #i also get to sit down and examine whether or not i want to actually go and meet people so to speak #or sit in my metaphorical living room (main art blog) and chat with the people already there #like arthuriana no longer has a space on my history blog bc im disinterested in seeking out other people in that space #but im going ham with it on my main art blog bc im having more fun interacting with people already there #this might sound overly complicated but for me. for me this makes sense

[phlyaros]

im gonna be real anon I don't care about label shit ship discourse I care about if real people are getting hurt and ONE reblog from someone being jokingly aggressive on the subject isn't enough to convince me that people are getting hurt when there's more evidence to the contrary. you've put me in a shitty situation here and I don't want to engage with it. please just ask people what they actually think next time before you go throwing your assumptions at other people.

#i trust enough that most of my mutuals understand the nuance needed of media depiction of unsavory subjects. #if i'm wrong then I'm wrong. okay. thank you. #i hate the dichotomy i hate the lack of nuance in this discussion I want people to actually talk to each other #I want people to realize that you can respect people with different opinions than you if they aren't actually hurting anyone #I'm literally. someone who was alone with me a lot as a kid is in prison for CP/solicitation. I think if anyone can say that media- #depiction of fucked up shit that really happens is more nuanced than 'x is bad so it shouldnt exist' #you cant do that in real life. you cant make something not exist. just because something fictional contains it doesnt mean it condones it. #im so tired. im so tired. why wasnt this a dm. i dont really want to have this discussion publicly. #i can think things are gross but understand that there's nuance to depiction and just because I don't like it doesn't mean those people- #-don't deserve to have something that understands them. #not everyone is good at actually. being mature enough to handle that nuance. when they try. people can be wrong #and if people ARE weird I can just not engage with them. there's. I can decide for myself! #and now I'M stuck in my brain is insane and. as if! as if people always reblog things they 100% agree with! #im so tired. im so tired. im in pain and people are messaging me about a singular reblog from six months ago on someone else's blog. #i understand being cautious i really do but thats like insane behavior. why are you putting this on me. why didn't you just talk to me. #fucked up things happen and people deserve to be understood. okay. even if i don't like it. there is no right answer. there is no world- #where all pain can be avoided. saving private ryan made vet suicides skyrocket. did you know that #but it also understood those people. yknow. and there's more people living that it understood too. #there's just so much nuance that's thrown out when you cover everything you don't like with a blanket. okay #it's more complicated. it's more complicated. please. #in my mind it's far stranger to assume everyone is out there giggling and twiddling their fingers thinking about in/cest #than it is to just assume they don't until proven otherwise. #im so tired. just block me if you don't understand where I'm coming from. I don't care about ship disco/urse and i dont want to live- #constantly worried about what other people think about shit that has no right answer. #everyone is innocent until proven guilty and one reblog of a joking aggressive post isnt enough for me. sorry. #phlyaros' nonsense #euurgh. #welcome to the internet where we judge people based on one reblogged joke and nothing else even if it contradicts us #what a perfect encapsulation of what I don't like about dichotomy argument #tw suicide

[onehalfdead]

realized i never kept journaling being on t oops so uuuuh

3 years, 3 months, and 3 days on t

• finally starting to get a little facial hair coming in which is honestly a miracle cause genetics says i shouldn't get any until i'm in my 30s

• my voice has fully dropped at this point and boy did it get deep

• the acne chilled out a good while ago

• still not going bald get fucked literally all my paternal cousins except one

• oh yeah i got top surgery last september so that's p cool too

#ghost.txt #thnk god tumblr saves what tags you use on blogs because i definitely didn't remember what i used on here #i'm in a much better place overall btw #broke up with said ex and moved out shortly after that last post #he was cheating on me with my ex who was also my roommate and said ex's gf was ALSO living with us #the bf now ex from my last post purposely drove 4 more ppl out of that house after i left #and it's been confirmed i was mostly preventing the worst of his behavior by just mot putting up with it lmao #and he got way way worse after i left #but anyways goods things happened after i left obviously #i have two ferrets now and the whole top surgery thing #oh also a legal name change #i'm going to chicago this summer and i'm thinking about maybe moving there in the next few years #i'm on meds for my adhd #oh big bonus i also finally don't qualify for the criteria of major depressive disorder or w/e it's call now #im Officially Mentally Stable #do still have a generalized anxiety disorder but that's p much completely managed too

[cloudslinger]

read a fic last night where adam smoked weed from a pipe and all it did was cause me to excessively drool into my arm like a whole salivating process went on and all... it was delicious might do it again tonight.

so to my dearest trc / tdt fic writers if you find yourself thinking... "well... huh. maybe i shouldn't make them do drugs..." YOURE WRONG OKAY! DONT LISTEN TO YOUR SHOULDER ANGEL, LISTEN TO ME (your shoulder devil) INSTEAD! this has been a psa! 🤘🏼

#azul's musings 💤 #please... #yes k's the henrietta cokehead or whatever man but listen... #i find it insanely hot and sexy and scrumptious wumptious when the gangsey do drugs it's just so beautiful to me #like i think half the problems in trc / tdt could be fixed if they'd all just bust out a goddamn blunt honestly truly weed saves lives 🤘🏼 #and to the cool ass fandom fic writers that write adam / ronan / gansey or anyone else doing weed in fics you are so Goddamn hot babe 🥰 #anyways huge kisses on the mouth to you guys goddamn! #sex is hot sure sure but nothing gets me drooling more than descriptions of pynch on that thing como se dice lettuce #now you might be thinking Azul no one's thinking that well whatever man i made a whole post on my blog about it subscribe / like for more

[soryualeksi]

tw child death tw harm to pregnant people

#so after 5 years of searching i found someone who was working on the car crash i was witness and did first aid at when i was pregnant #a lady who was also pregnant and about as far along as me probably further was crushed by falling debris #she was a pedestrian and a driver fainted in his car accelerated and crashed through several pedestrian spaces and then metal beams fell #i knew she lived as far as ICU but i don't know what came after that #and i kept searching for someone who could tell me whether her child pulled through #well i found someone yesterday and it's not the happy ending i kept wishing for #the baby was emergency delivered right at the ER trauma room back then like 5 minutes from the ambulance arriving and loading her #but had to be declared dead right there #and i always kind of knew this was the outcome because i remember asking at the hospital even tho obviously they weren't allowed to tell me #but when they said the good things they were allowed to they all got a thousand yard stare #so since that day i knew that her baby died and mine lived #but having confirmation from someone who was there is still. sigh. #it's good to have no hypotheticals anymore tho i think it will help me get closure #i wish her child could have lived too #she'd done nothing wrong but be at the 'wrong' spot in a pedestrian space at that time. there's no reason and no meaning. #there's no meaning to human suffering. suffering is just suffering. it's always a bad thing period. #ah man sorry to throw trauma at y'all #it's unlikely anyone here remembers. i did blog about it back then. and it was what made me change career to EMT #i guess it's good to know in a way that even if i *had* been an EMT back then there was nothing in human hands to save her baby #nobody could do it #there is patients you cannot save no matter what and it's not a failure on your part #we are all humans with the good and the bad and the strengths and the limitations #so that's my musings #it's good to finally know for sure after all this time searching but it's also hard #ah what a downer story in the morning #the man who was next to her was fine #it's so unfair and meaningless #gotta work harder on easing this unfair and meaningless suffering #child death cw #harm to pregnant people cw