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foxes-that-run · 5 months

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Love of My Life

LOML closes out Harry's House, it's a sad song about realising someone is the love of his life after he had lost them. Harry has spoken about an albums start and end, Harry's House starts with Sushi, imploring his muse to let love in and asking himself if just a taste of love is enough. LOML is about loss of that person and realisation that they were the love of his life. To Zane Lowe Harry said:

"Love of my life, I’ve always wanted to write a song about like home and loving England and all that kind of stuff. And it’s always kinda hard to do without being like ‘went to the chippy and I did this thing’ and to me Love of My Life was the most terrifying song for a long time because it is so bare, it's so sparse." He went on to say: "And in the spirit of what Harry's House is about, I think it started as an idea that was very literal, on the nose, [...] As I started making the album it wasn't about the geographical location it was much more of an internal thing."

So, what he said was that it is about his home and England is a metaphor. Home is common theme in Harry's work, most notably in Sweet Creature but even in 1D it has meant more than a place to him. The notebook also has a quote 'your mother is my home'. Taylor has also used home or homeland to refer to Harry, WomanExile has a great post on their usage of home as a metaphor for each other.

The Lyric Video has roses, which Harry and Taylor Swift also use to refer to each other:

Since 1989, all rose and thorn lyrics are about Harry

Harry 's rose Tattoo is from 11 September 2013, when they started dating again after the VMAs.

Roses have been in videos, outfits, social media posts about each other, a list is here.

Timeline

In the NY ONO show Harry said he wrote it in Rob Stringers' (Sony CEO) house and that the phone ringing in it is his. As it Was was recorded in the same session, and in part, has a similar meaning. This places it in the first half of 2021. After the rest of the album, California. Also after Folk/evermore which are about communicating and endings respectively. Harry had seen Taylor in March at the 2021 Grammy's. At the time it was written Taylor was still dating Joe. Harry had been dating Olivia for a few months.

California in particular refers to 'summers death left to breathe' indicating that there may have been an ending of sorts in 2020 before he returned to England and drove to Italy over the time Folklore was released.

Though not lyrically addressed, to me LOML is a 'yes' to Question..?'s "Did you realize out of time, she was on your mind?" Question was written in the same time period, after the Grammy's interaction but was released 6 months later.

Tracklisting, release and length

Love of My Life is Harry's only track 13, Taylor's number. It was released on her birthday. It is 3:12 long, or March, 31 2012 - the date they met.

Live shows

Harry said to Zane Lowe he thought he would close the show with it. And he did up until March 25 2023 when it was replaced by Fine Line in the last leg. Later that same week Taylor Swift replaced Invisible String with The 1 and announced her split from Joe Alwyn. It only returned for the 3 Wembley shows.

It was missing for 30 shows and is one of the least played Harry’s House songs, only above Boyfriends and Grapejuice which was added for the last leg.

Lyrics

Baby, you were the love of my life, woah Maybe you don't know what's lost 'til you find it

The first verse is a turn on the phrase “you don’t know what you’ve got till it’s gone” he reconnected with his love and found she is the 1 but it is past tense, he still lost her. This is similar to the Clean secret message, which also appeared in the OOTW video “She lost him but she found herself and somehow that was everything.” And the cyclical nature of this relationship.

Take a walk on Sunday through the afternoon We can always find somethin' for us to do We don't really like what's on the news, but it's on all the time

The second verse to me is remembering good times with this person, when he felt at home, with shared experiences and comfort.

I take you with me every time I go away In a hotel, usin' someone else's name I remember back at Jonny's place, it's not the same anymore

To me, I take you with me everytime I go away refers to what Harry said about an internal feeling, no matter where he is in the world his love is ever-present even when they are not.

In the Dublin show on the 22nd June 2023 Harry confirmed this refers to his childhood friend is Jonathan Harvey. This speaks to Harry’s concept of home as the feeling that you are loved and belong. To me this reference is to when Harry took Taylor on a tour of his home in England, to the lakes, where he grew up and she may have met Jonny in 2012. She said that was her best birthday, sharing his home with her was important to him. To me, this line means their relationship is different now to it was then. As it was is also similar with with an external view of how others would see them and their place in life.

It's unfortunate, ooh Just coordinates, ooh

It’s unfortunate, just coordinates sounds to me like he’s reflecting on how they got from the Lakes trip to their current state. This applies to his feelings about love and home. The impact touring has had on his life, what is home and his relationships.

I don't know you half as well as all my friends I won't pretend that I've been doin' everything I can To get to know your creases and your ends Are they the same?

Knowing his love is a theme, in Sunflower Harry sang “Let me inside, I wanna get to know you” and in Fine Line “Spreading you open Is the only way of knowing you” to explore the idea of intimacy co-existing with distance with the same person.

He also sings about not knowing his love in Trouble “And I don’t even know you / But I feel like I do sometimes”. Interestingly in If I could fly he feels like she knows him “Now you know me / for you eyes only”.

The “are they the same” speaks to once knowing all the creases and ends but not now. “Super Pretty” has a similar theme of distant intimacy and vulnerability “do you still feel the same about me”.

Baby, you were the love of my life, woah Maybe you don't know what's lost 'til you find it It's not what I wanted, to leave you behind Don't know where you'll land when you fly But, baby, you were the love of my life

The final chorus adds “don’t know where you’ll land when you fly” which confirms he is singing to a person not a country. Specifically a person with a private jet who can fly without the destination known. For that person every mystery take off is relentlessly tracked by an instagram account. How alienating it must be to someone who loves and wants her to see that and not know.

#haylor #harry styles #harry’s house

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louisupdates · 1 year

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What I learned about Louis Tomlinson from making his documentary

Director Charlie Lightening on capturing the former One Direction star in 'All Of Those Voices'

By NME | 30th March 2023

Louis Tomlinson shot to fame with One Direction, the era-defining boy band who conquered the world after being formed on ‘The X Factor’ in 2010. Since the group parted ways in 2016, Tomlinson has forged a solo career that has seen him swap the band’s peppy pop-rock for Oasis-inspired indie bangers. He followed his 2020 solo debut, ‘Walls’, with last year’s chart-topping ‘Faith In The Future’.

For his new documentary, ‘Louis Tomlinson: All Of Those Voices’, the singer has teamed up with Charlie Lightening, the acclaimed filmmaker behind Liam Gallagher’s big-screen doc ‘As It Was’. Here, exclusively for NME, Lightening shares what he learned about Tomlinson from shadowing him during a pivotal and emotional period in his career.

Charlie Lightening, director: “I first met Louis at the premiere of the Liam [Gallagher] film. Well, I say met – I saw him across the way, but we didn’t actually talk. But then he got in touch to ask if I’d make some music videos with him, so we met up properly. I really liked him and found he had a real depth to him. He seemed a lot older than his years and had so much more to say.

When we got talking about his plans to release a solo album [Tomlinson’s 2020 debut ‘Walls’], the idea to make a film came together quite organically. But at that point, I didn’t realise that I would end up shooting him for the next four years. The idea was to follow him on his first solo tour, but he only got two shows in before COVID happened. I think having it all taken away like that made Louis think and really appreciate what he does.

To begin with, Louis’ plan was to do smaller live shows to get a feel for the audience and find out what it’s like to tour as a solo artist. But because of the pandemic, he announced a live-streamed show instead and sold 160,000 tickets without even doing any promo. I think that made him realise: ‘Oh my god, there really is demand for me out there’. So when it was time to get out on the road again, he was ready to bring it.

He started off doing smaller theatre shows in the US, then arena shows in Europe, and by the end he was doing numerous arena shows in South America. So as a filmmaker, I’ve captured a trajectory that would normally take an artist two or three separate tours to achieve. And because of COVID, the fans had two years to live with the [‘Walls’] album, so it much more meaning for them by the time Louis was finally able to play it live.

I think what I find most striking about Louis is how resilient he is. He has been knocked down quite a few times in his life and he keeps getting back up again. He lost his mum [Johanna] in 2016 and sister [Félicité] in 2019 but he never let this define him, so when he says ‘life always throws shit at you’ in the film, he knows what he’s talking about. But he’s still a very positive person and calls himself the product of his mum’s upbringing. Growing up in Doncaster really moulded him; I think that’s why he has such perseverance and self-belief.

At the start of the film, he talks about not really feeling like part of One Direction to begin with. He felt like he had to find his role in the band, as he was excluded from lead vocal lines on the first few singles. This made him more determined and so he started to be involved with writing songs for the band. By the time the band ended, he was the member with the most songwriting credits, which is something that really means a lot to him. He’s proud of that.

I do think that he definitely still misses the band. In a way, you could compare him to Liam Gallagher, who also never wanted Oasis to end and become a solo artist. But I think that’s why Louis’ touring band means so much to him. Louis has done everything already with One Direction – he’s played the world’s biggest venues – so to relive it through their eyes on this tour was a very special thing for him.

Louis is a very private person but I think people will be surprised by just how much he opens up in this film. You see him being a dad and being vulnerable with his family. But what I’ll take away most from the experience is just how much Louis has grown as an artist. At one point, it felt like it was Harry [Styles] and Niall [Horan] who were getting all the headlines and Louis was being slightly underrated, as he hadn’t released anything at this point. I do think that some people who watch this film will be surprised by the level he’s already got to as a solo artist, but this is just the beginning. He knows where he wants to go creatively and he’s in control of his headspace, so the next album will be another massive step forward.”

‘Louis Tomlinson: All Of Those Voices’ is in cinemas now

As told to Nick Levine

#nme #louis press #louis tomlinson #aotv review #charlie lightening #30 march 2023

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accio-victuuri · 1 year

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CPN : before i first met you.

this is my 3/14 anniversary post, it’s been 6 years and there are still bits that can be talked about and shared. consider this as yet another supplementary to the 2017 candies and a part of devil timeline + prelude to love at first sight. dates cover february & march upto the filming this ttxs episode.

same disclaimer applies, this is all cpn/interpretation/speculation through the eyes of a turtle. these are mostly galaxy brain and may not be for everyone. if anything, you can use this as a glimpse to what they were doing at that time and enjoy that part.

• 020917 - Yibo gets his motorcycle driving license. months after meeting yinzheng in November 2016, he really spent all his time on Motos. Then early the next year he finally gets his first one, A Ducati 1199 Panigale S. The fact that it is color red which is ZZ’s color is not lost on me. You would think he will get a green one but he didn’t. The more logical explanation would have to be that his idol Rossi rode this particular model so maybe that’s why he was drawn to it.

He was spending most of his time practicing with the moto and getting hurt. 🥲🥲🥲

• 021017 - He flies to Beijing and wore a Gucci Hoodie. Lol. The irony is not lost on me. Tho I have to say, this kind of GUCCI logo clothing was pretty popular at the time so this could be Bobo just going along with what was on trend. But like, this will never happen now. HAHAHAHAHA! He has completely changed his wardrobe staples. It’s just cute to see him wearing what is essentially ZZ’s brand. If you cpn, then he wore that specifically because it reminded him off ZZ.

• 021117 - ZZ posted for lantern festival and reminded people to eat. What’s interesting is the 4th picture is that of a pink pig. We know what WYB is jokingly and lovingly referred to as piggy by his fans.

on the same day, he recorded a weekly video diary and published it. people are saying that at this time, he already knew that they were gonna be guests @ TTXS. then he goes on to talk about the weather, the bit we are 👀 was when he said this:

"I heard from a friend that Beijing is extremely cold"

sure. he has lots of friends in Beijing. that is practically his home base already. but wait, who just arrived in Beijing yesterday? WYB. Also CPN here is since he knows that he will go to TTXS, they might have been communicating already (and it came up in conversation that it’s cold in BJ. Even today, with LRLG, them talking about the weather is a staple.

• 021417 - It’s valentines day and WYB posted on weibo with a caption alluding to he is by himself and this is what valentines is like. Actually the hashtag was related to valentines. So this is him throwing it out there that he is alone and playing video games. Also the use of a dog filter is not lost on me. He really is the puppy.

Then comes ZZ with his V-day special episode of his video diary and he said some really sus things on here. Never mind what he is wearing. A white hoodie that we didn’t really see in full but from the top half kinda looks like the GUCCI one WYB wore. Yes, there are lots of white hoodies in the world but this is the cpn brain working overtime. Also, I’ve said earlier that Bobo might have worn that to match ZZ. Couple hoodie 💛 or, ZZ was purposely trying to match Bobo, this is not GUCCI at all but he wants to match since it’s Valentines and Bobo is all alone.

Back to what he said on the video diary,

“Even if you don’t have a lover, your family members and best friends are still lovers, right? In fact, they are people you care about.”

This is classic ZZ. He is so kind to the single people, completely different to how he treated single dogs in 2020. lol. Maybe because he is not in a relationship yet at this time so he can relate and feels for the people who are alone on V-day. However the foreshadowing here is what he said that friends can be lovers. I wonder if he means that he is someone who wants to establish a solid connection and friendship with someone before crossing over to a romantic relationship.

In this timeline, they are casual friends who probably stalk each other on weibo sometimes + talk randomly. they are each other’s “special friend” but never have the time to actually take it a step further. This statement is like coaxing WYB, you might not have someone special this day but you have me, your friend. I care about you. and isn’t that so sweet? That’s what i love about them. They are friends first. No matter how much toxic people try to wash their friendship and twist it to fit their narrative — any sane person could see it. It was undeniable during CQL filming and promotion. It’s such a strong foundation of a romantic relationship and why we think they will last for a very very long time. 💛

021517 - ZZ posts in the secret garden and the time on the notes app is 11:08 ( 8 is Bo ) and you have a star too.

021917 - WYB was stuck recording in Changsha for TTXS and had to stay up till 7:00 AM the next day to finish his work.

Also on the same day, ZZ released a weekly video diary entry where he reminded people to take care of themselves and eat their meals. Since we’re on a cpn route and thinking that Web also watches ZZ’s content, he might have watched this. ZZ knows, so he added that bit in as a reminder. My favorite bit about this vlog tho is he was talking about his Happy Camp episode that just aired and he said hopefully the next time he comes on it will be more fun. Then years later, he does guest on HC with WYB and it was so much FUN. ☺️

Then he posted selfies with a drawing. I really think it’s him that he sketched but people are saying it looks like babie yibo too. Lol.

022017 - Early flight from Changsha to Beijing for Yibo and wore shoes with hand painter doberman on it. For all the lion-association we gave him, especially on the early days, it’s interesting to see how dogs/puppies appear.

022217 - Yibo posts on Weibo with a kadian of 43. This is really an excuse to explain what’s with the number 43. Again, it’s okay if you do not believe in Kadian — I struggle with it too and i’m very selective, but if you enjoy it and love trying to figure out potential hidden meanings then go ahead.

a simple explanation for the number is 43 means "I love you" in the Morse code (Morse code, regardless of the length of the signal point, L is pressed 4 times, u is pressed 3 times. So simple memory, 43 It is LU, which is the abbreviation of loveyou)

however the more romantic and yizhan biased is it’s involvement with the story “The Little Prince” especially the part about watching the sunset 43 times and how it relates to sadness / missing someone. So it’s like when the little prince is sad, he has to watch the sunset 43 times a day, because he misses you and is distressed because you are not around. So 43 means love you for a long time, I hope you will be with me in the future, you will never be alone~

022617 - ZZ posts on weibo saying that he will attend the event for Monster Hunt 2 soon. Then he says “ I want to meet you soon”. This is most probably for his fans but since we’re clowns, we know he is going to Beijing where Bobo is.

030117: Monster Hunt 2 press conference! You know how I can never get over the fact that ZZ’s designated number in x9 is 8. What kind of fate and coincidence is this tbh. He was wearing a ring with a star on it too. He has always loved stars and all the more when he finally met his lonely star.

Also a nice add on, Monster Hunt 2 stars Tony Leung and Bai Baihe. What are the chances that in 2023, Yibo’s movie with Tony will be in cinemas. ZZ on the other hand finished shooting a drama with Bai Baihe.

030217 - ZZ posts on weibo and was posted @ 12:38 , emphasis on the 38 which signifies zan bo. He also captions it with : “Let me give you a spoiler: Even today's hairstyle is in the shape of loving you guys.” because it’s a heart! he is too sweet!!!

030317 - WYB attends Private Shushan Academy press conference and he is wearing GUCCI. lol. This is so weird especially for me who knew Web after this and he was already wearing streetwear brands.

030417 - I wanna add this here cause WYB posted a selfie before starting work @ TTXS and their weibo account comments. This is a clue that the weibo account pays attention and may clown Yibo if they want. It’s a popular CPN that they alluded to Yibo being a fan of XZ after the 3.14 meeting so i’m archiving this moment. An example of the TTXS account loving Bobo.

030517 - On that day WYB flew to Beijing from Changsha, he looked very tired. At 18:06, he posted two selfies on the UNIQ official website , this selfie along with some captures from the airport looks like he was tired. The selfie seemed like it was taken specially for someone. He might have posted these 2 but who knows how many he took and sent others to ZZ.

In the meantime, ZZ also posts on Weibo about him being sick. LOL. how did you two become sick at the same time? 😂😂😂

The words ZZ also used and placed under quotation had the initials of WX = WANG XIAO or you can also assign WANGXIAN to it. Some next level coincidence right there if you ask me.

031217 - At the airport, Web wears a JW anderson striped neck thing ( idk what it’s called ) accessory that ZZ also wore for his X9 photoshoot.

AND FINALLY 03142017, we all know what happened. At the end of the day, ZZ was photographed leaving and WYB posted selfies for White Day. 🌹

There is really something so magical with this day. The moment WYB often answers as the “first time they met” and how it really stuck with him. How ZZ and that moment made an impression on him and vice versa. There is a reason why it’s such a favorite bxg holiday. 🌼 I have removed quite a few individual updates between them that have no cpn connection so this post can remain a candy-biased look into specific incidents.

-END.

P.S : Do not repost this CPN outside of tumblr without a credit to me and a link back to this post. Do not steal my words. Do not screenshot. In short, do not steal content that i made and claim as yours.

#yizhan #bjyx #this is me clowning pls ignore #cpn thoughts

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royalarms · 1 month

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GET TO KNOW THE WRITER .

what made you pick up the current muse(s) you have? i love noctis . final fantasy xv is my favorite game of all time and i've put ungodly hours into it , but fun fact ! i actually wrote prompto from 2016-2020/2021ish ( i dont remember haha ) but immediately the game became my favorite final fantasy game , and then eventually topped my passion for kingdom hearts and crisis core and just . became my number one . i still wanted a way to experience and express my love for it , but my personality had shifted sooo much over the past several years and prompto just didn't fit for me anymore , so i opted for noctis . gave him a go and ended up connecting with him on a level i would have never though LOL . i've always really really loved and enjoyed his character but writing a protagonist always gave me the willies so i never ventured into it . now im stuck here .

is there anything you don’t like to write? there are several things i WON'T write , but i don't know if there's anything i particularly dislike . i feel like if i have the right writing partner we can make most anything fun .

is there anything you really enjoy writing? i love writing things i've never written before ! new characters , new interactions , cool plots i've never written out , etc . i like to keep it exciting .

do you write in silence or do you play music? i either listen to lyricless music or write in silence . every once in awhile i can write with songs with lyrics on but it has to be really quiet . i'll turn on my character playlists in those moments , but i honestly think i do my best writing in silence .

do you plan your replies or wing them? both ! i don't have an explanation here , it just depends on the thread and the plot (if any) and when and how inspiration strikes .

do you enjoy shipping? yes . as long as the age gap isn't weird or intense toxicity is going on , i'm USUALLY down for most things :)

what’s your alias/name? aster >:) age? 25 birthday? march 29 favorite color? red ! favorite song? ohhh shoot . i love linkin park for my favorite band , but favorite SONG ? let me check my most replayed on spotify LOL . um. scatterbrain by kxllswxtch , voices in my head by falling in reverse , and numb by the used 💀 all of them are negative tw if anyone wants to listen last movie you watched? i literally do not know , i don't watch a lot of movies last show you watched? the wit/cher last song you listened to? listening to squishy caterpillars riding on bullets by istasha ( negative n drug tw ) ............. favorite food? curry and adobo :) favorite season? spring ! do you have a tumblr best friend? i dont love the phrase "tumblr best friend" idk what that entails but i have three ppl i love dearly and talk to a lot ! @otlaw , @starshcwer , @onegil ❤️❤️❤️

tagged by: i stole thisss

tagging : you should steal it too :)

#♚ * ooc ; making sense is optional .#the real test is actually posting this after i fill it out bc im shy

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biscuityskies · 2 months

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Today, I looked through my food collection on TikTok for dinner ideas and I came across a video from late March of 2020 of a guy in a pretty typical at-home kitchen, and I had to stop and smile because March of 2020 was when I started getting into food TikTok because that was the only thing keeping me sane. I would wake up, pull my computer into my lap, do my classes, and go to sleep, leaving my bed only to use the restroom and maybe to eat.

(This will be a titch long so I’m putting in a break)

March of 2020, my uni was about to put on a play that I had a significant role in, and it was the first time I had felt good about a role. I certainly felt more suited to the wild, chaotic tendencies of Caliban than I did the motherly instincts of Golde or the Fairy Godmother. It was also the first time we were ever going to actually enhance one of my features, rather than hide me away behind a large, snug dress that served only to suffocate me and make it night on impossible to sing; needless to say, I was beyond excited.

Fast forward two weeks. I was back in my childhood bedroom, my brain as cluttered as the floor, my thoughts as loud as the fan on my computer. We were still running weekly rehearsals for a play that I think we all knew we would never put on, but we were holding on so tightly to this dream. Yet, week to week, none of us improved. I don’t think we actually spent time with the script outside of those rehearsals, where we were supposed to be off book but it’s ever so easy to cheat when you’re on a computer.

I scrolled endlessly through TikTok. I ended up on anime TikTok, hairstyling TikTok, and chemistry TikTok, just to name a few, all while mountains of homework grew and I became more and more apathetic towards pretty much everything.

But the reigning champion was food TikTok. Because some of these were people like me - young adults who had gone back to their parents’ homes, too young to be able to do it on their own but too old not to understand what was going on. And still they created, they did what they loved. They had ingredients in their kitchen, and they made something out of it. That truly felt to me like making the most of a less than ideal situation, and I felt as though I could learn something from it. This honestly played a not insignificant role in pulling me through the summer and into the beginning of the next semester.

I just stumbled across this same video in anno domini 2024, March, almost four years to the date after it was created. He ends his videos with the phrase “this cooking shit is easy,” which I found that I had adopted into my vernacular (case in point: I said it literally just last week) and can now place a source - from four years ago, when I binged all of his videos in a desperate bid to feel something.

Out of curiosity, I clicked on his profile. He has an apartment with a skyline view, in a city that I can only imagine. And the both of us have come so far in four years, letting go of the things to which we could not feasibly hold while stepping into new experiences and new situations.

What, you may be thinking, is the meaning of all this? Was there a point? In short, not particularly. There are a couple of different conclusions to draw here: first, superficially, it could reasonably be concluded that social media is not the great evil that republicans and democrats alike seem to think it is; second, it is my belief that it’s possible to watch yourself grow without actually seeing yourself grow - in much the same way that you can’t see the forest for the trees; finally, how will you know if you never try?

#dani ramblings #long post #did this even make sense.#idk I’m four days into an unmedicatable migraine #how real can I be before I’m simply putting my entire heart on main

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apureniallsource · 11 months

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Niall Horan is not worried about turning 30. The singer-songwriter, who famously devoted a portion of his youth to One Direction, will be crossing that threshold later this year, and he wrestles with maturity in “Never Grow Up,” one of the best tracks on his upcoming album, The Show: “I hope we still dance like we’re falling in love/ Hope we still drink like we’re back in the pub/ Hope we grow old, but we never grow up.”

“I don’t care anymore,” he says of the impending milestone, chatting with Consequence over Zoom. “We speak about what happens from 16 to 20, and 20 to 24, but more actually happens between 25 and 30 than I thought. Your interests change, and things happen in your life — the kind of things you write about.”

According to Horan, it’s a “lovely day in London town” when we speak a few weeks prior to the release of The Show, out June 9th. He comes across as easygoing, humble, and grounded, but also seems very excited to talk about his music. The album’s two pre-release singles, “Heaven” and “Meltdown,” have provided listeners with their first window into The Show, an album that plays like a natural extension of his previous two full-length efforts.

It’s the hope of most artists that each project is their favorite to date, and the vocalist confirms that his personal anticipation for this release is high. “I feel like I’ve got my best work here,” he notes. “If you don’t back yourself, who’s going to back you?”

The Show‘s 10 tracks were developed with some of Horan’s trusted collaborators. He reveals that part of the project was written in Nashville, Tennessee — “What a town,” he says with a smile, shaking his head. He tries to make a visit to Music City at least once a year, he explains, and “Never Grow Up” was one of the songs that came from his time at Starstruck Studios, located on a block lined with songwriting houses, labels, and publishing companies.

“Never Grow Up” was co-written with Julian Bunetta, John Ryan, and Shane McAnally, the last of whom is one of Nashville’s true producing and songwriting gems. The sonic landscape of the song, and most others on The Show, is where Horan seems to be particularly comfortable, surrounded by acoustic guitar, truthful lyrics, and a reliable drum beat.

“If I’m sat still for even a minute, I’m always thinking of something to write. I write a lot of stories,” he says of his process. Narratives are always turning over in his head, both real and imagined. “I like to have an idea before I go anywhere near a studio or before I start to sit down and write something.”

While The Show slots neatly into Horan’s discography, this album feels different to him for a few reasons. For one, “There’s no heartbreak,” he confirms. That’s quite the contrast to his previous project, literally titled Heartbreak Weather, which dropped on March 13th, 2020 as the world screeched to a halt. Like many other artists, he felt inspired by the stillness that came with a global pause. “Stillness was something that actually was more thought provoking than I thought it would be,” he explains. “Reflection. My outlook, and feelings and emotions that I hadn’t really cracked into — they were a big, big part of what this album’s about.”

There hasn’t been an abundance of downtime for Horan recently, who also recently wrapped his role as a judge on Season 23 of NBC’s The Voice. Next, in support of The Show, Horan has mapped out an enormous 2024 world tour (find ticket details here), and the gears turning in his head while discussing the trek are practically visible. “My favorite thing about my career is being able to have an effect on people’s lives and create things for them to relate to,” he shares. “Hopefully we can just keep that going, and maybe gather some new people along the way.”

He describes himself as tied inherently to his artistry. When asked what goals he might have or what he might be looking forward to just as Niall the person rather than Niall the artist, he’s a bit stumped. “I just want to take it all in, because I feel like I’m so fired up. I haven’t toured and done shows in five years now, so I’m just more grateful than ever.”

For someone who has spent over a decade centered in the spotlight in a variety of ways, Horan seems to have his priorities quite clear when asked how he prefers to be seen by people. “I’ve been told if you’re a nice guy, that’s a good thing,” he jokes. “I love meeting new people and love chatting. To be told I’m a songwriter and a nice guy? I’d take both of them to the grave with me if I could.”

#niall horan #06june

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Sad story time: Subject, my kitty Lily. I adopted Lilly in 2020 from a local shelter. It was prime covid time, and I was only able to see her picture and see her on video calls with the foster parent before I was able to take her home. Siamese and a bit of house cat within. Her blues eyes are just so big and filled with curiosity. She warmed up pretty quickly to the house and me. I was so excited to have her here. My very own adopted cat. I made sure to get everything she needed, and asked all the right questions. I was the perfect house for her, in my mind. No children, nice and quiet, and I was so ready to just make her life happy, comfortable, and very ready to bring her on as a new member of the family. Shortly after her arrival, however - about three months, to be exact - she began to exhibit weird signs. Twitchy skin near her back. Licking the back area compulsively, wagging her tail in irritation, and seeing things that weren’t there. At first I attributed this to extreme separation anxiety. My vet agreed. We tried everything to make her more comfortable, but the standard things that worked for other cats were not working for her. She began to pee habitually in my basement living room, and in other areas I frequented - mostly where her litterbox was. I was dumbfounded. We checked for urinary tract infections. Bladder problems. Thyroid issues, overweight possibilities. These were many vet visits over two years of trying to understand what the hell was happening with my cat. Naturally, she wasn’t always running scared or trying to bite my legs off. On good days she would be the most comfortable cat I’ve seen, happily sitting in my lap and purring, playing with toys, and just being her beautiful self that I knew her to be. She was protective of me, and loved to monopolize my company. My perfect nap buddy (she still is). Finally, after two years, my best friend linked me an article to FHS: Feline hyperesthesia syndrome (FHS) has also been called rolling skin syndrome and twitchy cat disease. FHS generally involves muscle contractions that your cat cannot control, along with changes in behavior. It’s very broad, and poorly understood. I thought that I had an answer to my cat’s woes. Gabapentin has literally been the only way to alleviate her symptoms. And so many things could be the probably cause. I know she doesn’t have allergies. So its highly possible its psychological in nature. Which requires a very. very expensive pet visit that I no longer have a job to pay for. Due to her urination, it has caused a lot of damage to the newly finished basement that was competed in 2019 (and where I live). I’ve been given until the end of march to somehow fix this. And chances are, if I don’t find a permanent solution, I would have to put her to sleep due to the nature of her symptoms. I can’t trust another adoptive family with this cat. She is not a normal cat, and needs heightened help. Help that I’m so willing to give, but I do not own the house I live in. I love her so much. I don’t want to let her go anywhere. I want her to feel safe, and loved, and wanted. I just don’t think until the end of march is enough time to really figure out what she needs. I’m just... very sad. And upset at myself. Could I had prevented this from happening in some way? Could I have done more? Will she somehow pivot from a habit she’s formed and has done for two years in counting? I don’t know. If anyone has advice or ideas, I’d love to know. Or if you have an FHS cat that is comfortable... I need something. My area is just... not really an area with an abundance of cat behaviorists and vets that can come to the house. I just want her to have the chance to be the happiest cat there is. And I don’t have a lot of time left. And I hate it.

#real life things #reality #cat #FHS cat #help #cathelp

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hello, this it parte 1/3 of what im calling the lovers series, you can read the prologue of this serie right here and i hope you enjoy this as much as i enjoy writing

as i said, this doesn't have any compromise with real life and despite the team that are mentioned during this serie exist they main character its not related to any of them or the players

let's consider thay in this reality covid never existed, I'm following the 2020 calendar just for chronological purposes also the Olympics still happened in 2021 again for logistical purposes

tw: volleyball injury, self doubt, Turkish GP because that's a sensitive topic for me, mention of intrusive thoughts

Delicate | Lewis Hamilton imagine

January, 2020, Brazil

It was a pretty nice night, after all, it was match night. Minas was winning 2x0 on the house, they were playing on their own court with all his fans, it was 17x14 on the board, Priya came from a back row attack, she remembered everything about that point. The ball was set, she gave three steps and jump, her hand hit the ball in the most incredible way, before the block could be put together the ball was already on the floor, also Priya. She jumped, she spiked that ball and once she landed on floor she felt an excruciating pain.

Priya PoV

I could feel every part of my body, i was super aware of everything, i heard people talking to me but i couldn't fully understand what they were saying, i got pieces like "injury" and "knee" and i was taken away from the court. I also remember my teammates look, they were terrified, no one saw that coming. During those first moments when the medical team take a look at me i knew something was really wrong. An injury on my knee, apparently was that, but i couldn't say the gravity of that injury.

"Someone call my mom, please." I remember saying that to no one in specific, all that night was a blurr, I remember the point, but after that it's all a blank space.

During the week I made multiple tests, x-rays and everything related, they told me I had a shattered knee, time of recovery: 6 to 8 months. They also told me it was better if I did the surgery back home, where I could have family support. My dad was in Brazil within 24 hours after the match, we were flying to Monaco within 72 hours, and in between a week I was with a surgery scheduled and full months of recovery to go.

It was that way my career would end?

The formula one seasons didn't have started yet, we were in January and the season was booked to start in March, so it wasn't much of a surprise when Lewis showed up at my appartment - temporarily mine. He looked incredible, as always, and the presence of his persona was something that always takes my breath away.

"Hi Priya."

"Hello Lewis." I was tired of people asking me how i was feeling, because I was feeling like shit, and I felt really grateful when Lewis didn't asked me that

"I saw the match, and the point, it was a pretty good one, you came from the back of the court and hit that ball, really impressive." he take the seat by your side

"Well, thank you, it was a pretty good point. I was feeling so good, you know? I was feeling all my body when I jumped... it didn't end well."

"Can I ask you how are you feeling?"

"I rather not, but I'm feeling terrible. No one says anything. They don't give one reassurance I'll be able to play the next tournaments, or my rehab time, or even if I'll be able to go to the Olympics... I'm exhaust, I'm frustrated and I'm sad, but yeah..." I let all out

"That's why I'm here. Your dad called me, he is worried about you, but he isn't an athlete so it's pretty hard from him to fully understand what are you feeling. I also talked to Angela, and she agreed to help you through the recovery process, all of it, if you want to, obviously." you could feel in love with that man, he was so gentle to me and I really need someone to be gentle with me without thinking I'm broken or something.

"Yeah, that would be nice, thank you Lewis, honestly." I reached for his hand, and he slowly came closer to me, I could feel his breath and his scent, that bring back memories

"Priya, I need you to be fine, and recover and I need you to play the Olympics, not because you're my favourite athlete, but because I know how much that means to you and how much the recovery process is painful, but as long as you want me here I'll be here with you."

"I just keep wondering, am I still good enough to be a high level athlete? I've seen injuries which was way less worst than mine that retired athletes, I shattered my knee, Lewis, I'm so scared that all I think about is if this is the end of my career, because if it is I don't know what to do, I don't know who am I without volleyball, I'm juts... its so much..." I was holding the tears, but at that point I let it all go, the gasp that came out of my throat was so awful that breake me all over again, Lewis held me closser, he take all the care with my leg and he kept me in his arms for long moments

"That's ok you are scared, I don't know what it feels like, but thats ok, you're gonna pass trough this, I'm with you, you're Priya you know, you are so much more than volleyball..."

"But volleyball is my life, I don't want to live in a world without volleyball. The worst part of the injury is not the pain, is the uncertainty, is the recovery, is all the doubts and that can break an athlete's mind in levels that the injury itself can't."

"I know that, i know how much you have put in volleyball and what it represents to you and your life, but you are more than an athlete, it might not look like, but you are. Ever since day one I met your dad he said he had a athlete daughter and his daughter wanted to go to an Olympics, you went once but next one its gonna be your show time, I've seen the incredible season you've made and how much you evolved all these years, you became an extraordinary player, Pietra, and this injury is not gonna take that away from you."

Lewis and I had talked before, countless times, but this time was the first time we were having a conversation that deep. I was never afraid to tell people what I was feeling, but the kind of vulnerability I was allowing myself to feel with him was different. And if you asked me where everything started I would answered it was the first day after the doctors cleared me up to physiotherapy.

It was middle May, it had been 4 months since the injury and I was cleared to started the rehab process. My knee hurt like a bitch and since I was out of any medications I was feeling like a bitch. I couldn't do much more than exercising my legs and some light stuff.

Lewis was out racing, the season started and he needed to go, Angela too, so I was pretty much on my own. I had my physio team, the people who has been with me since I started to play volleyball, but it was different.

Angela was one of the most sweet people I meet in my life, she talked to me during all the firsts session, she asked me how I was feeling physically and mentally, and she was walking with me, not just guiding me.

During the first days, Priya became distant, she wasn't talking to anyone, not even with her siblings, and everyone understood that, she was putting all she had left to heal and the healing process was painful, more painful than the bruises.

All the process Lewis was there, he got used to practice with Priya around and they could actually talk about different things. She became a continues presence on his days. Even if he was on some different country he would still call her so they could talk and work out together. Alan had called him multiple times to check on his daughter, even though she was staying with her dad, he couldn't reach his daughter the way Lewis and Angela could.

It had been a long time since she went to the paddock to watch a race from inside Mercedes Garage, but for the Austrian GP she was there, wearing a beautiful dress to cover her knee, she wasn't able to look at it, and she didn't want anyone looking either, not there was anything to see, outside it was pretty much healed, but yet; and looking all happy to see the drivers again, and meet the ones she hadn't yet. And even though she was still in pain she was smiling again, she was feeling better, 5 months was nothing to heal, but it was the start of the process, and she was confident with that.

It was really nice for Lewis to watch how she bonded with a couple of drivers who always had been really nice with him, even being a couple of years older than them, Priya became really closer to Charles, they shared more things than they could imagined and Priya became sort of a mentor to him, looking forward, Lewis think Priya was one of the main responsible to the mental strength himself and Charles had.

Even the RedBull people went to talk to her, Christian Horner itself went to the garage to say hi and talk to her, he asked how she was feeling, what the doctors had said; Max came latter that day, he was also very nice with her. Being a high level athlete, Priya was an inspiration to many of athletes in world, not just inside volleyball.

Priya watched the full race with the engineers and her dad, at some point her knee started to annoy her and someone inside the garage got her a bench so she could rest her legs. They were so involved with the Caspari family that at that point they were all family, and they wanted another champion on the team, more than that, they need Priya to be ok, they saw her grew up and became the athlete she is today, they need her to be that good because she wasn't putting much faith on the process, so they were keeping the faith alive. Once or twice someone came to her to ask her simple things about volleyball, her favourite athletes, where she wanted to play, what she was expecting from team USA, small things just to reassure her that she was still an athlete.

They watched how she started to feel better, GP after GP, how she was actually healing. How after long weeks she started to give interviews again, how she was walking around easily, how one by one her teammates started to show up at some Grand Prix.

Once the Italian GP arrived, Priya and Lewis were spotted running in Monza, at that point, there were already something happening between them. Lewis started to snitch out in the middle of the night to her room. Priya started to wear Mercedes jerseys with his number on it. Lewis showed up once in the paddock with one personal jersey from one of her teams with his name and number on it. They started to have lunch together, and dinner.

They were already something. It wasn't Priya the volleyball player. Lewis world champion. It was Priya and Lewis, always together.

Pierre Gasly won the GP, Lewis finished 7th place, not the result he wanted, but after everything that happened with the French driver, deep down everyone was happy for him, said that, Priya and Lewis went out to celebrate with him.

Things changed that night. After really long years sleeping around with each other, that night was the first night which the euphoria didn't take time with them. They were sleeping together because they had feeling for each other, it was beyond celebration sex. If there was any doubt the next morning erased all of them. They left the hotel together and went to her apartment back in Modena, where she could finally starting to hit again. They went to the closest court, some of her closest friends were there, Dahlia was part of the whole process and she wouldn't be anywhere else. One of the youngest players of the next generation of the Italian Volleyball was there too, and she was setting to Priya.

"You know, she was scared to run and jump, you being here make things easier, i couldn't thank you enough" Dahlia said to him while the other girl was busy

"She's doing so much progress, everyone is optimistic. Im here as long as she wants me here" Lewis answered back

"Trust me when I tell you, she doesn't want anyone else beside you here. You're pushing her to recovery in the best way possible, she doesn't want to stand behind a world champion and that competition is healthy for every athlete"

"She's an Olympian, I think we are even"

Priya spent the whole afternoon inside that court and seeing her so happy doing what she loved fulfill Lewis with a mix of emotions, he was happy, really happy, he was also proud, he was so proud that he couldn't contain the smile seeing her run, jump and hit.

"What are you laughing at?" she asked once the girl were gone

"I'm happy to be here with you and see the grandiosity of Pietra Caspari" she went red

"Don't make me blush, it's rude" but she was laughing, she was laughing and holding his hands, and they were hugging.

They didn't know back then, but Lewis heart was full of joy and Priya's soul was leaking happiness.

When the Turkish GP arrived, no one was expecting anything that happened that race. November 15th marked the day Lewis became a 7 times world champion. The garage was in completely silence after that last lap, for a couple of seconds you couldn't hear one single sound, and then everyone was celebrating.

"... And now he finds himself alongside Michael Schumacher as top in the records books, the world championship record is equals. Lewis Hamilton wins the Turkish Grand Prix and it's a seven times champion of the world." the narrator voice was all around, everything felt right in that moment, everyone was already leaving the garage to meet Lewis outside on the number 1 standing. Priya watched as he got out of the car and ran to his team, but most important, ran to her. He just won his 7th world championship and he went to her, he held her tightly and for what feels like ages for them were merely a couple of seconds to everyone, they hold each other gaze and they kissed, in front of everyone, all the cameras, the crowd, the public, they were all witnessing two of the most victorious careers in two different sports.

The podium ceremony was beautiful. Lewis was so happy that got everyone happy. Priya's sisters were there, her parents were there, her friends were there, they came all the way for her but at the end they were celebrating Lewis's victory like it was Priya's one, that's how much she cared for him and how much her friends care for her.

"You could've tell me you and Lewis were a thing." your mom started

"Yeah, instead we figured out with all the world." Samuel, your brother whispered to you

"Dad's not happy with that." that was Lauren

"If Dahlia knew and we didn't I'm seriously not considering you my sister anymore." Catherine ended

"Jesus Christ, all of you could be Oscar winners with all this drama. It's new ok? No one knew because there was nothing to know about it. Chill down. Let's celebrate his victory ok?" Priya put a final dot on the family drama

Your dad kept staring you from distance, and considering you were his first child and daddy little girl, you went to him.

"Dad?" you poked him "Don't be mad at me." the puppy eyes always worked

"Are you happy?"

"I am." he looked at you, deep into your eyes

"Ok. If you're happy I'm happy. And I'm really proud of you, soon as you think you're going to be playing again." you smiled, during that week you went to the medical team from VakifBank, you didn't tell anyone, but your dad deserved to know

"Vakif just offered me a 2 seasons contract, 2021 and 2022 I'll be playing for them again. It's a secret and I didn't signed yet because I want to see my doctors first and see the perspective of my knee, but I'm feeling fine, the pain is barely here anymore and Angela said I'm doing great, just wanted to tell you."

Your dad's eyes teared up.

"Oh my God, thank God. I couldn't stand you not playing anymore, I was in physical pain just to think about it. I'm so happy, Pia." your dad was the only one who called you Pia, you hugged him for long minutes, it was the place in the world where you felt more safe

As the podium ceremony ended you went to find Lewis, he was already back on his natural clothes, smiling like a child to his trophy. You smiled with the view.

"Hey you." you approached him and his smile got bigger

"Hello." he looked at you "I'm sorry about the kiss earlier..." he started

"Don't be. Im happy with this little bubble we have and I'm happier that you feel comfortable to tell the world."

"I like being with you, you inspires me." he got closer and held you face with both of his hands, his nose on yours as both of you smiled to each other.

"Thank you. For your support, for having my back, for holding me when I was falling. This year was brutal, but seeing you conquer this whole title makes me want to pursuit more, to be more."

"I'm the one to thank you, for all the kind words, all the time you put on me... I'm really happy to be with you right now, there's no one in world I would want to be with."

"I don't want to steal your spotlight but I need you to know... Vakif offered me a contract, two seasons, titular player, I didn't signed yet, but I'll, and you are the person who made me choose the yes, who make me say yes and didn't let me give up."

"Oh my God. You're playing for the biggest team in the world again. Priya, I'm so proud." he was hugging you after that.

The following days were full with news about you, the statements, even though there was still a couple of races left. You posted something on your social media congratulating Mercedes and Lewis, and people were nuts with it.

Later that week Priya and Lewis went to see a match between Vakif and some other team, Priya showed to him all the players and their positions, she let him know which one of them would play with her the next year, and they enjoyed that time there was left, because once the season ended, she would present herself to the national team back in California and the formula one season would have a break, Lewis and her spoke briefly about him flying with her to California, they agreed, but thay would be a brutar year.

When Abu Dhabi came you and Lewis went together to the paddock and the gala after. You were spotted together doing random things and people loved it.

January came with a call from team USA coach asking you to join the team in April to the VNL, the world competition and to let you know that the spot to the Olympics were still yours, even though you spent a year out.

2021 started amazing to you and Lewis, but no one was expecting the turn of the facts that your season was going to be amazing while his title would be steeled away from him.

New year, new obstacles.

that's part 1, hope you enjoy this as much as I, i love this idea, i love how this turned out.

see ya anytime

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nirikeehan · 9 months

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enjoyable things :D

@zenstrike tagged me (a...while ago) to list 5 things i enjoy very much and pass it on!

Gonna agree with Zen and say Food. I fucking love good food, man. I grew up in a family with a history of disordered eating and I think life's just too short to eat food you hate. It's possible to eat food that is nutritious and also tastes good, and I've had to dedicate a good chunk of my adult life to sorting out what that is. I eat pretty good these days and have gotten pretty good at cooking. It's a joy, not a chore. Yummmm.

I will be the most obvious basic bitch here and say Dragon Age: Inquisition. I know a lot of people in fandom spaces love to take critical shots at the thing they're a fan of, but here's my hot take: I literally think this is the best game ever made. Hands down. It has the best writing, the best characters, the best scope in an rpg that is supposed to make you feel like a big damn hero, the most beautiful environments, incredible macro political mechanics with the war table, I could go on. I love this game; it changed my life. Maybe it saved it. It made me feel things I thought I was no longer capable of feeling. In the middle of the bleakest period of my life. I cannot overstate how much I love it.

Speaking of things that got me through a bleak period, my Star Wars TTRPG campaign. I started running it online for some friends in March 2020, thinking maybe we'd kill a few weeks in lockdown with it. Three years later we're about 2/3 of the way through an epic, twisty-turny campaign set after The Last Jedi in the sequel era, and I think we're gonna end up ending the trilogy better than The Rise of Skywalker did. If we do, I'll be sitting on the shoulders of giants: several players in that group were with me in another Star Wars campaign from the 00s that went down as our most epic campaign, when we retold all the major beats of the prequels, but, we thought, in a much more satisfying manner.

My cat. Her name is Sophia. She is simultaneously the smartest and dumbest cat I've ever met. She's ridiculous. She almost never shuts up. She looks like she wanted to be a tuxedo in the womb but really half-assed it. She's tiny but she can probably kill a man. She has never met a structure she hasn't tried to climb. She was found as a kitten on a feral colony and I always joke she's about 5 minutes from returning to her roots. She loves to play and will invent games with you. I love her a lot.

Hiking. Hiking? I used to hate exercise. I kind of still do. But a compelling hiking trail will make me forgive a LOT. I live in area with some really dramatic mountains and the trails have been fantastic. I can pretend I'm traveling in a DND game. Definitely recommend.

#meme game

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after my post about country music earlier, i’ve been geeking out all morning about the indigo girls so here are a couple of indigo girls stories:

at the very beginning of march 2020, my partner and i went to an indigo girls concert. our first date was on valentine’s day, so i was very much in an ‘oh my gosh is this real’ state. so please imagine me when they announce they’re going to sing a new, unreleased song, and it goes like this:

I work at the mall food court And when I get home I fix something to eat, settle into my seat And turn on the country radio I know every word to every song And they make these lonely nights a little less long 'Cause then I'm under the stars, regular at the bar Got a perfect girl, I got a worn in truck We go down to the river, and the moonlight is silver But most of all I get to be in love I wanna be that boy, I wanna be that girl I wanna know what it's like to fall in love Like most of the rest of the world But as far as these songs will take me is as far as I'll go I'm just a gay kid in a small town Who loves country radio

i was absolutely sobbing lol. that idea of using the exaggerated gender roles of country music as escapism defined my teenage years, and i had never heard someone else put words to it. not only that, but i was in love! i didn’t have to escape anymore, i could hold my partner’s hand! (at least in the theater full of lesbians)

our school shut down due to covid about 2 weeks later, and A had to move back home, about an 8 hour drive away. i spent a lot of that summer watching a shaky recording of Country Radio, since the album was still unreleased.

anyways this brings us to today, when i realized i never actually listened to that album all the way through. or at least if i did, i was so focused on Country Radio that i ignored the song immediately before it. that’s a shame cause it fucking slaps!

I was thinking about how I needed a ride From the swimming pool to the other side of town Yeah, I got a cousin, but it's too late to call And there's a perfect stranger who can find me In the last light of the parking lot Thank you, Kansas City girl With your long hair tangled, your tattooed skin And your Hip Hop Hits radio Turned down low, Kansas City girl I still hear what you're playing Where I'm coming from ain't the same ol' rodeo

like idk i’m equally obsessed with this song now. i can so clearly imagine the narrator being the same in both songs. maybe she needs to get to the other side of town to get to her food court job. she gets a ride from this woman from the big city! where they have hip hop! and obviously she falls in love a little bit cause who hasn’t? but then she goes to work and the regular world crashes back in, and all she’s got are the stories from country songs...

i could really go on about this album for days but it all boils down to that feeling of hearing a song made for you for the first time. i think that feeling healed a little bit of my soul.

#sorry for the long post #indigo girls #queer country

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𝐓𝐖𝐎 DNI / I don't engage with people who are problematic or present problematic behaviour such as proshipping/pedophilia/incest or you are a terf/ableist/racist/antisemitist or you show any kind of hate to anyone like that . If you see me interacting with someone problematic likely I haven't been informed yet and shall deal with it accordingly as soon as I am informed. I don't support anyone who does any of that nasty behavior and I never will and if you know you engage in such behaviors then please refrain from interacting with me. You're not welcome. Likewise don't bring drama onto my blog. If you see someone problematic here just message me privately. I won't be reblogging callouts.

𝐓𝐇𝐑𝐄𝐄 FOLLOWING. I'm selective. If I haven't followed back please don't take it personally. If we are mutuals and you decide to unfollow then soft block please otherwise I will see you on my Dash and still think we are mutuals and I don't really want to have to browse a list of followers to check every time I go to interact.

𝐅𝐎𝐔𝐑 VARIANTS. I don't mind variants or to word it better people who play the same character as me !

𝐅𝐈𝐕𝐄 TRIGGER Warnings for you: This blog can be very gorey I also require you to be 18+ for this reason. Please do not follow if you're a minor. gore , death , cannibalism in some verses , gang and gun violence .

𝐒𝐈𝐗 SHIPPING . I multiship which means ships don't exist in the same verse here I won't rp smut. No. You'll get blocked. Suggestive is fine ! I won't under any circumstances ship Vandermorgan or Vandermarston so don't ask me to . Otherwise I only ship chemistry ! If in doubt ask .

NOTE ON AFFILIATIONS: the concept to me means that if you’re affiliated with my muse and mine is affiliated with yours that means I consider your portrayal my main and will most likely consider our cannons intertwined. I do not do exclusives as I understand everyone’s portrayals are unique and I am happy to see my friends interact with people who play the same muse/s as me and vice versa!

Likewise if you want to be affiliated and these terms don't suit you , please don't hesitate to speak to me I'm open to discussion always !

#𓃭 𝐨𝐮𝐫 𝐭𝐢𝐦𝐞 𝐡𝐚𝐬 𝐩𝐚𝐬𝐬𝐞𝐝 / 𝐨𝐨𝐜 .★

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consolecadet · 1 year

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10 First Lines Game

Tagged by @specialagentartemis (thanks for thinking of me!)

“Rules: share the first lines of ten of your most recent fanfics and tag ten people. If you have written less than ten, don’t be shy and share anyway ❤️”

At Artemis' suggestion, I'm playing fast and loose with the rules and including original fiction too. I feel like I don't talk about my writing in much detail and many of these projects are not online, so I've included some context!

When Gareth Last gets to the top of the stairs to his office on Germantown Ave, someone is already standing there, waiting. “Latent Defects”, last worked on today. Latent Defects is a bi 1980s detective novel I started during NaNoWriMo 2018 and have been working on since. I don’t want to jinx it, but I think I’m getting close to a version I'd be comfortable asking for feedback on! HMU if we're mutuals and you want to read a 350-page manuscript soon (realistically a few months from now).

Kim closes his Mnemotechnique A6 and aligns his pen beside it on the desk. “Boot Black”, last worked on today. I started writing this fic about an undernegotiated BDSM scene between Kim Kitsuragi and Harry du Bois in February because of an intoxicated tag I left on this poor, unsuspecting artist’s drawing of Kim Kitsuragi. It's nearly finished.

He shows him the picture. “Rabbit Vector.” “This is Not a Virtual Simulation”, last worked on March 2023. This year I started outlining a new version of a very old cyberpunk heist novel project. I'm still in the R&D phase, but I did write a first line (or two).

PROBLEM: Lieutenant Kitsuragi seems repressed. “Thought Acquired: Manic Pixie Dream Detective”, finished February 2023. I wrote this Kim/Harry short in the style of Disco Elysium’s Thought Cabinet. An amusing exercise.

It doesn’t feel right to be back at the new school in Trenton so soon, after spending last night watching the shamash until it went out with his siblings. “That’s How Accidents Happen”, finished October 2022. A Latent Defects short about the love interest Luke Whittaker’s adolescent crush on his high school shop teacher.

The first 30% of Hermann’s flare came from his and Newton’s ill-advised drift with the Kaiju fetus. “It’s the Weather, You Imbecile”, finished September 2022. After joining AO3 and revising my old fics to upload them there, the spirit of 2013 possessed me to write this Pacific Rim porn.

At Goodwill in boy mode, I watch for other shoppers in the mirror above the racks. “#191970 Midnight Blue” for The HTML Colors Zine, finished April 2022. I had a blast writing ten 50-word stories inspired by HTML colors for this zine I found out about on Twitter. Artemis also has some work in here!

A man tried to sell me a daydream today. Adaptive Daydreaming”, last worked on December 2021. One of a few ideas I have in a universe loosely inspired by William Gibson’s “simstim” technology (my version is a device called the SenShare). This one is also inspired by bullshit-artist corporate coaches.

He’s glad he’s sitting on the exam table, because the patterned cotton johnny is too small. “The Transformation”, last worked on January 2021. This was going to be a short story about a doctor dismissing a fat character’s strange symptoms, which turn out to be the lead-up of the character turning into a terrible (yet awesome) monster.

Connor remembers enough to know it wasn’t her fault. “Neural Feedback Loop”, finished/last worked on September 2020. Another SenShare device story. In this one, a cyclist disabled by a car accident takes revenge by using the SenShare to force the pain of her injuries onto the driver.

What have we learned today?

Unlike Artemis, I rarely if ever start a story with a line of dialogue

Despite my best efforts, ~70% of my recent work features a man as the main character

Most of the fanfiction I write is porn, while most of the original fiction I write is not

I tend to start with a zoomed-out generalization, a habit I do not love about myself

Please consider yourself tagged if you want an excuse to share, but I'll also tag @cryptiq @sealcontent @absolutely-basted @animeisgod @tadpoleconspiracy @definitionsfading @saxifraga-x-urbium with the general directive of "I'd love to hear about any category of writing you're working on, but no pressure".

#I gotta be honest I still find writing dialogue the hardest!#boring text posts #writing #novel #de tag #navs #senshare #pacific rim #my writing

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you are the reason I like cowboys, I now listen to country music on the daily and it has taken over my life so I thank you for this. I grew up in a household that literally fucking hated country music(like it wasn't allowed in the house hate) so this is kind of like a awakening for me so ye :]

Welcome to the cowboy fields! Please receive your standard issue six-shooter, hunting knife and cowboy hat. Make sure all horses are picketed with access to their necessities.

You hit like, a major nerve about country music. Probably because it's 1am. And I just ran down the longest rabbit trail of nostalgia. So even though you didn't ask: here's a LOT of country music recs under the cut.

As someone who was raised on super patriotic post 9/11 pop-country music and then spent most of their adult life running away from it, I'm really envious you get access to it now that it's diversifying itself again! If you want some older (90s) recs, Shania Twain, LeeAnn Rimes and Keith Urban used to be favorites of mine. Rascal Flatts was the only "boy band" I ever obsessed over, and their cover of "Life is a Highway" is always a banger.

Keith Urban's "Somebody Like You" and "Who Wouldn't Wanna Be Me" still make me think of sunny days gunning it down the highway on the way to visit family in North Carolina. "Would You Go With Me" by Josh Turner is a love song I'm still hoping I find a love worthy of. It's also really hard to go wrong with Carrie Underwood. "Before He Cheats," is terrifying, amazing, powerful. "Blowing Smoke" by Kacey Musgrave is A Vibe. Miranda Lambert makes me think of my sister. She captures the same powerful-woman-murders-her-husband vibes as early Carrie Underwood, and "Mama's Broken Heart" was a favorite Im-having-a-mental-breakdown song for a lot of the girls in our high school. Reba McEntire's "The Night the Lights Went Out in Georgia" is epic and unforgettable. "Suds in the Bucket" by Sara Evans is also very very good.

I'd also like to honorable mention: "Rain is a Good Thing" by Luke Bryan because I'm from semi-rural Indiana where we grow... A lot of corn. You understand a song about corn and whiskey would make every Indiana resident unironically turnt as hell. "I Loved Her First" by Heartland was played at every country wedding for a solid 5 years after it was released. "Going Through Hell (Before the Devil Even Knows You're There)" by Rodney Atkins was very inspirational the first 50 times I heard it on the radio. "Alright" by Darius Rucker blew me out of the water, because when I heard it first we used to watch the country music videos channel every day before school, and it was the first time I'd ever seen a black man singing country music and I cannot tell you how cool I thought he was.

I don't listen to much modern country music [does "Call Me By Your Name" count??]. After the early 2000s super-patriot-party-womanizer flavor of country took over, a lot of what I listen to instead is what's currently called "Folk", "Folk Rock" and "New Age Rock". Kinda captures what that sound and atmosphere of music used to be like before it got pop-ified. The Crane Wives, The Wailin' Jennies, Lord Huron, Colter Wall, and Barns Courtney are the closest I get to "Country music" these days.

If social justice is a thing you admire I Highly Highly recommend The Chicks. They pioneered the idea of disassociating country music from its southern pride/racist roots [and demonstrated it by dropping their very popular brand name, The Dixie Chicks]. They also pushed back against the uber-patriotism movement in the country music genre after 9/11, for which they were dropped from many, many venues and brand deals. They basically disappeared from the media overnight, because they took a stand against what they deemed to be an unjust upcoming war, and continue to work for social justice currently [you might've heard their song March March making rounds during the 2020 BLM movement. If you haven't, go listen to it, it's a bop.]

I hope you have fun exploring the genre! There's so much nostalgia for me there, and while there's definitely some controversy in it, there's also so many good people working to turn the genre back to something admirable again [imo]. :3

#Answering asks #Knitingtoday #Country music #Music recs #Wow sorry I blacked out and suddenly this was here #My bad

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Top 8 Anime (That I've Seen) in 2022

Whew boy, I wasn't expecting last year to be such a whirlwind, but all that doesn't matter now when there's Weeb stuff afoot! For those who are unfamiliar, when I make an End-of-the-year list, I like to do so without handcuffing myself to JUST the releases of the previous year. If you are familiar, you guys know that I typically keep to the usual Top 10 (except that one year when it was 12), but as you can see, I only had time to fit in 8.

Rules:

- If an anime had already made it onto a previous list, a newer season can't make it on.

- I only keep to TV series, so no movies.

- No repeating franchises (i.e. if I saw two different Gundam shows in one year, I can only pick one).

- I'm skipping Honorable mentions this year.

8. Tales of Zestiria (2016)

Definitely not my favorite Tales story, but BOY was this show pretty to look at. Ufotable is what Ufotable does, I guess. Truth be told, I couldn't get into the game that this anime is based on, so I figured that watching the anime would be easier. And it was!

7. Uzaki-chan Wants to Hang Out (2020)

Ah, yes, one of those shows that upset Twitter. I thought this was an adequately told Rom-Com with our two leads having some decent chemistry together. Looking past the "controversy," it was a perfectly serviceable show.

6. Amagami SS (2010)

This was my surprise of the year. This Slice of Life Romance accomplishes a rare feat amongst its peers: Every girl gets a happy ending! You see, our male protag starts out depressed and lonely, develops a relationship with one of the girls over a 3 episode arc, and then starts all over again. Not only that, but during each arc, the camera shows how the other girls are living their lives and they do just fine without him. Maybe I'm not phrasing it the way I want to, but it's just refreshing showing potential love interests living fulfilling lives without Protag-kun. It does, however, lose points for having some questionable moments with its high school cast of characters. Based on a visual novel btw.

5. Komi Can't Communicate (2021)

I can't be the only one who rolls their eyes whenever a story about an average guy gains the affection of the most popular girl in school. I'm, of course, not rolling my eyes at the premise itself, but rather the quantity of stories like this. This story in particular saves itself by having our titular character stumble their way to success despite their crippling social anxiety. I find it both funny and endearing. I look forward to season 2!

4. Recovery of an MMO Junkie (2017)

Speaking of season 2, I wish this anime had one. I may have mentioned this before about a different anime, but I do find it to be a breath of fresh air whenever we have protagonists who are actually adults. A nerd in their thirties looking for love? Couldn't be me 🙂

3. March Comes in Like a Lion (2016)

I still don't know how Shogi is played, heck I don't even have a handle on Chess, but anyone who has ever seen March Comes in Like a Lion knows that's not why we're here. Again, not Shogi specifically, but knowing that people, regardless of age, have weight of some kind on their shoulders, it's such a shame that that weight is on a character so young. Expectations, anxiety, loneliness; all that can be overwhelming for anybody. I would definitely recommend anyone to seek this out. Bonus, it has music from Bump of Chicken!

2. Spy X Family (2022)

I'm sure most of you guys have seen this. You know.

I'm sure there's still plenty of people who haven't seen this yet. It's Everywhere. You guys STILL know.

This show was the right amount of wholesome I needed last year!

1. Mushoku Tensei (2022)

I would probably have to do some more thinking, but this might be my favorite isekai thus far. Has a well built world AND has utilized the whole reincarnation aspect better than most isekai anime. I would go into it more, but I think I'll make that its own post.

This was a bit late, but at least it's still January, right? Hopefully, I'll be in a better head space this year to make a full Top 10.

Make the best of this new year and stay safe out there.

#anime #spy x family #march comes in like a lion #tales of zestiria #uzaki chan wants to hang out!#amagami ss #komi can't communicate #recovery of an mmo junkie #jobless reincarnation #mushoku tensei

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WAIT STAR RAIL HAS DOUBLE BANNERS ALREADY

Like, I predicted that Seele would get a rerun 1.4, but I thought it would be at the expense of not getting a new five star character, maybe a new four star character instead

It feels so soon. 1.4? Not to compare it to Genshin, but that didn't get double banners until 2.3.

(Long ass essay. TLDR, I think HSR's story is going to finish really quickly because of this. Read if interested below the cut)

This makes me think a lot for the future of Star Rail. I think, compared to Genshin and Honkai Impact, it's run time it's going to be a lot shorter.

Like, let's take Honkai Impact 3rd for an example (for reference, I don't play the game. This is just from what I've heard). It released in 2016. The main story ended this year, 2023. Meaning, that it's run time is 7 years. It took them 7 years to finish the main story, to complete whatever the goal is in Honkai Impact 3rd (I'm not familar with the lore.)

Genshin Impact is still running, but we know from the Teyvat Travail Trailer that we are supposed to go to the 7 nations plus Khaenri'ah. We started in 2020, with two nations, and have added one each year, so assuming that there will not be any major story updates between the nations (like going to the light releam or Celestia or something) that warrents its own super patch (ie. the 1.0s, the 2.0s, the 3.0s, and now the 4.0s), then we will finish in 2027. 7 years again.

And let me talk with the pacing of content delivered throughout those 7 years, mainly with banners and account progression, since that's what usually sets the pace of the game. I'll be setting Honkai Impact 3rd aside for now since I have no authority to talk about it, but I feel like it's similar.

So let's start with account level. AR, Trailblaze level, essentially. In Genshin Impact, it took me about 1 year to get to the higher ARs (55+). I have been playing for almost two years now, and I have not hit AR 60. To be fair, I did stall doing acension domains to build, but I don't think that it's too much of a factor because I'm doing the same for Star Rail. In Genshin, 60 is the highest level you can reach. It's been almost two years and I haven't reached there yet. So, assuming that the run time for Genshin is 7 years, then it will take you a little less than half of the run time to reach max account level. Let's say it will take 2.5 years. So, 2.5 out of the 7 years will be used to reach max account level. Seems reasonable. My friend, who had been playing since launch just hit 60 in about March, so, that's about right

Now, let's look at Star Rail, specifically my EU account because that's the most developed one. I have been playing since April, so about 4 months now. The max level is 70. Guess where I am at.

My trailblaze level is 60. And I've been stuck here for about 2 months because I've been meaning to build characters better but school started and I've gotten busy. So, it took me 2 months to complete 6/7 levels. Let's say I get to Trailblaze level 70 by the end of December. You know, classes are over, it's winter break, I have time to play again. Meaning, it took me 8 months to reach the max level. And that's if I procrastinate enough. I have friends who have less classwork and assignments than me, so more time to play, they're already at 70. So, let's say the average time it takes to hit TBR 70 is about 6 months. Assuming that the proportions to time it takes for the average player to reach max level and the time it takes for the game to run is course is about proportional, what does it say about Star Rails run time?

I'm not done yet. Let's look at banenrs.

As you know, our first double banner is going to be occuring this patch, with a Seele rerun. I'm honestly hoping for a Jing Yuan banner next patch so I can pull his light cone, but that aside. For both Genshin and Star Rail, the patch run time is about 6 weeks, with some adjustments being made from time to time (Covid lockdowns during, and 1.4 being made 5 weeks because it's not story heavy??? I'm not sure of the reason behind this but apparently, that's what they did in HI3, so I guess that makes sense)

Anyways, not including phases and assuming each patch is 6 weeks, it took Honkai Star Rail until 1.4 to get their first double banner. So, there were 4 patches before that (1.0, 1.1, 1.2, and 1.3). 4 times 6 is 24 weeks, so about 6 months after being released to get their first double banner.

You wanna compare that to Genshin.

It took Genshin until 2.3 to get their first double banner, with the reruns of Albedo and Eula. Meaning, there has been 11 patches (1.0, 1.1, 1.2, 1.3, 1.4, 1.5, 1.6, 2.0, 2.1, 2.2). 6 times 11 is 66 weeks. That's 1 year and about 3 months. Just to get their first double banner.

So, looking at these comparisons, we can now see that Honkai Star Rail seems to be progressing at a much faster rate than other Hoyoverse games. Unfortunately, for global servers there isn't too much information on the earlier patches for Honkai Impact, so I am unable to confirm when the first double banner, but I would assume it's around the same time as Genshin. I would like to guess that these measures, account level and banner cycles, will tell us how long the game will run until we finish the main story. So, using this guess, I can now do a proportion to figure out how long Star Rail will run for using Genshin as a measuring stick.

Doing some math, I get that Honkai Star Rails run time until we finish the main story is about 1.4 - 2.76 years. That's considerably shorter than some of their bigger mainline games, Genshin and Honkai Impact 3rd. If true, this means that Honkai Star Rail will wrap up its main story before we get to Khaenri'ah. The Trailblazer will have fought Nanook before the Traveler found their sibling.

Does this mean that it's necessarily true? No. I personally got into the game hoping that for a few years after Genshin ends, I will have something to play while I look for the next game to play, and I still hope that it's true. But if it's true, why would Hoyoverse speed up the player experience this much? Having double banners this early makes me nervous for two or three years down the line, where we might get to triple banners, especially at the rate the game releases 5 star characters. And for Trailblaze level, I personally wished it took longer, so it we are prepared mentally and with our builds, because now I already feel like a late stage vetaran player, and I've only played for 6 months. 6 months into playing Genshin and I still felt like a baby. It's good, because it keeps players something to work towards to for longer. For those who want to burn through content and levels, they will do that regardless. There are people who are my current AR and they've started playing this year. But the way the game is progressing makes it seem like Honkai Star Rail's run time is going to be shorter than you think.

(Edits: Fixed Typo on Jing Yuans name, fixed incomplete sentence, corrected Honkai Impact 3rd to Honkai Star Rail, man was I half asleep writing this?)

#hoyoverse #honkai star rail #hsr #hsr 1.4 #star rail #genshin #genshin impact #honkai impact 3rd #hi3rd #mihoyo #rant

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