#I really feel for actual leftists

[panstarry]

my final from last semester that i made into a zine. cooked this one up in a couple hours before the critique (the ink was still wet!), so it's very raw and kind of sloppy but the sentiment is there. i love you trans people of color. we are the backbone of this community 🌟

#pan draws #pan designs #zine #risograph #i'm not gonna lie i don't love how this one turned out OTL and i think the wording is not done but well... a deadline is a deadline #i'll probably touch it up and rewrite it in the future but who's to say.. i need to stew on how to articulate my feelings coherently #anyway my transness is so closely tied to my experience as a person of color. the current political climate is so fucking ass to exist in #but more than anything i am pissed off at white punks & leftists & trans people that refuse to have meaningful solidarity with us. #so yeah anyway. i was stuck on this one forever and only really got anywhere with it after attending 2 punk noise shows in a row where they #actually used their fucking platform to do like. anything. our struggles are connected you need to careeeee YOU HAVE TO CARE........ ok bye #tdov #trans day of visibility #<- i was sitting on uploading this for a while so the stars kind of aligned for it to be today huh.... happy tdov i love you

[thirdmagic]

everytime i look at how people compare the way russian citizens are treated in light of the russian invasion of ukraine and the way israeli people and jews are treated after oct 7th and it just.... you know, as a person who belongs to all of these cultures, it always feels extremely disingenuous to me and very untruthful

#just bc slavic xenophobia isnt as extreme and doesnt exist on the scale that antisemitism exists in doesnt like... make it okay #or justified. or means you get to dismiss it. #or that you get to pretend it hasnt been extremely ugly and in fact has existed long before the war!!!! #especially wrt people forgetting that russia's evil government is running an actual country where real human beings live in and suffer #and yes. they do. life is russia for the average person is uh. not good and hasnt been good for decades. #and no i dont think most of these people are any more pro ukranian than the antisemitic leftists are Really pro palestinian #and i think again people like to prop up their egoes by making themselves feel progressive and good. that much is similair. #i think they have just found a new and justified way to hate what they always hated but coated in progressive language #yeah the reaction to the rus-ukr war wasnt nearly as vile as to oct 7th. mostly bc nothing is as vile as the reaction to oct 7th. #yeah its not remotely the same kind of conflict. but that doesnt make it right? or okay? doesnt mean it didnt happen?

[ratinthevoid]

why did i believe i can ever come out to her

#i need to move out i need to move out i need to move out #i hate this #i can't do this anymore #i hate them but i feel like i'm not a loved to bc they care about me #fuck christiany and your stupid god #i was trying so hard and i can excuse a lot but what's even the point if they never understand #christianity is so evil so fucking evil it rots your brain #she tak about leftist propaganda and cults like she didn't let one control her for years #she want me to tell her stuff promises she can support me but it's simply a lie #she can only accept me if i'm the daughter she want me to be if i bend in the ways that are comfortable #just a little more but every day is so fucking hard #i know i'm gonna suffer and that i may be alone my whole life #but i prefer to be alone and suffer in a different place than be stuck here #and maybe i don't have to be alone maybe other people can have friends that actually care about them #fuck i believed for so long she won't have problem with me being aro like it's not even a sin right??? #i keep doing that i'm trying to tell them everything so they tell me what they really think and i'm not the bad person #but it doesn't matter if i'm the evil here i can accept it i was trying for so long #i know i'm difficult but maybe it can be easier for everyone if you just give up on me

[redm3tal]

when the server’s local antisemite that im way too scared to confront because apparently everyone likes them is having a psychological crisis but i have zero sympathy because G-d works in interesting ways 🙏

#id feel bad for you and the hard time you’re going through buuut #you deserve it !!! #sorry your mind is a hellscape but you deserve it #all nazis deserve psychological torture :) #i literally don’t feel bad that they’re going through a really hard time #like cool #you’re an antisemite and you post antisemitic shit #you deserve it babe 🩷 #that’s what you get for being a racist nazi scum #smiles #anyways #vent #personal #antisemitism #leftist antisemitism #jewish #actually jewish #jewish vent #goyim tread carefully #jumblr #redm3tal.txt

[girlhorse]

been seeing. a lot of posts lately that r more than toeing the line between being anti-Israel gov & downright antisemitic 😷 but not sure what to do. like almost every one of these posts ive seen straight up has comments of support from very unsavory and disgusting white supremacists. like the amount of antisemitic memes ive seen shared on these posts and very alarming comments is making me feel a bit ill lol

#gab gabs #i understand a lot of the posts are well meaning and trying to rally support for palestine but like #you do not have to condemn every jewish person ever to do this.... #or worse straight up imply they deserve to be punished for what the military and gov of Israel is doing. #Idk what im really saying other than to be more mindful when ur . auh. Blogging. and be careful to not fall prey to weirdo white supremacis #or anti semitic conspiracies #its worthwhile to actually read and understand Jewish perspectives on this too bc a lot of jewish people now feel very ostracized from #leftist spaces for this reason and more. #on the other hand of course i being a goy usamerican dont want to steer the conversation away from the very real horrific crimes being #committed by the state of Israel. but making vaguely(?) antisemitic posts on tumblr is going to do anything for Palestinian liberation #just makes you look like a piece of shit #i do also understand some of the posts ive seen are just vent posts which is like fine but . mahbe stop reblogging them uncritically

[wild-at-mind]

'There are other ways to strike other than striking' is such a WEIRD message, I cannot get past this.

#i think the problem is palestinian activists keep calling for a strike (a withholding labour strike) but activists in the west are aware #this is a non-starter and cannot realistically happen widely enough- in a way i kind of respect that they are thinking past this #but honestly can striking EVER achieve goals without it being based in a specific workplace/group of workplaces in a group context? #sidenote i actually remember some leftists on here talking about how a US-wide strike would be able to stop trump going into office #but they were already dismissing it as impossible...a little defeatist but realistic #i feel like witholding labour for better pay or conditions from your workplace makes sense in the way that #witholding labour to call for a ceasefire in another country does not #but as realistically most people can't do it i genuinely think its really fucked up that people are being encouraged to just post instead #at least write to your MP or call your representative! For fucks sake #i know people on here have been saying participating in local or national government is pointless and bad for ages #but do it anyway because posting on tumblr is considerably more pointless

[worms-in-my-brain]

“Kill all men” (and variations) isn’t feminist.

The goal of feminism is not to reverse the gender hierarchy. The goal of feminism is not to eradicate half the population.

The goal of feminism is gender equality.

If you legitimately believe that men, as a group, are uniformly and unequivocally bad just on the basis of their identity, something they cannot control, and that, due to that, they cannot be trusted, ever? If you believe that only women are trustworthy or good and men and inherently bad, then you do not believe in some of the very basic foundations of gender equality.

And like. The belief that women are inherently trustworthy and good is also bad. Like, I kinda thought it was common sense that putting somebody up on a pedestal is bad because it has one of two possibilities: a) the possibility to set them up for failure (because no person is perfect, always good and pure, and everyone makes mistakes), and b) the possibility to provide abusers with shields; if you believe women don’t abuse people, even if it’s not an explicit belief, guess what you’re more vulnerable for?

And these thought patterns aren’t just anti-feminist. They’re pretty bad for multigender people, too. I’m genderfluid, but on average I am usually somewhat a man and somewhat a woman, just in varying degrees. So when you say that all men are evil, am I to assume you think people like me are, too? If yes, that seems pretty cold-hearted. I am not benefiting from the patriarchy; I am intersex and transfemasc. I am androgynous in a visibly trans way. In a misogynists’ mind, I’m not a man or a woman, I’m a thing. If no… why make an exception for me? It feels like you’re erasing my identity as a man— just because I am a woman does mean I am not a man.

If what you mean when you talk about these things is that men have to be aware of their societal position with respect to the patriarchy and vigilant for unconstructed misogyny? Then say that. Don’t say you wish men would die, don’t make fun of gay men and bi women’s attraction to men, don’t say vile shit about trans men just because you think it’s ‘punching down.’

#idk what to tag this tbh #it wrote it while thinking about how I feel when I’m being perceived as a woman #and somebody treats me like I’m this good pure angel #because it’s actually infuriating and yeah it’s sexist as hell #I want my capacity to be my own person acknowledged #what if I don’t want to be pure #and yeah I know it’s positive and I also don’t want to be a bad person #I just want to exist without assumptions being shoved down my throat constantly #and it’s bs that this shit is framed as feminist cause its NOT #also really not fun when I’m seen as a man for ppl to act like I’m evil #and btw in both contexts im specifically talking about like leftists who were #on the surface #accepting of diverse identities #so its not like this happens only with bigots or TERFs or whatever #this happens with ‘feminists’ and ‘trans-positive’ ppl all the time

[hear-its-whiskering-there-again]

i loooove having a weird secret gender

#my brain is literally so different from how i present #masc and fem mean nothing to me anymore bc when i wear skirts i feel like the weird little guy #republicans talk about when they get confused about how the leftists are taking over their kids with hair dye and tall socks #and when i wear blazers and button downs i am like a slutty little #celebrity on the red carpet that gives kids gay awakenings and makes grandparents gossip #bc seriously the biggest revelation i had during my gender crisis moment was that dressing androgynous meant dressing like a man #my gender is like a labyrinth underneath willow trees during sunset that has a bunch of really cool shadows and i am jarreth the goblin king #ticking down the clock until people actually respect my pronouns #but then im also just some dude who has bad posture and really likes music with string instruments #side note my gender goal is actually just to sound like the singer of måneskin and destroy boys specifically in make room #but that is it #i travel the labyrinth while others are still discovering the entrance #so ummm yeah!!! #potential start of a poem or a short story for english but then again my teacher keeps talking about the rules of grammar when it comes to #they them #tee hee!!

[imabiscuitinthousandworlds]

bitches be like "wish i was doing something of worth for society/my local community" while doing three time-intensive community jobs unpaid and walking around as a living leftist/queer symbol and occasionally leaving behind leftist stickers

it's me i'm bitches

#damnnnn i needed to hear that #i didnt even realise until my mum was like biscuit. biscuit youre doing enough. actually i think its too much #it seems so casual i forget that those things do very much have an impact #like im a youth trainer at the local climbing centre #and im organising stuff for the new kids at my school #and im part of a sooorta government project against teens slipping into crime #tho that didnt start yet cuz were the very first to do it around here so no one has prior experience #and yeah im walking around very leftist. like a rainbow and trans pride flag actually #and that does make a difference. somewhat. like maybe you see a fascist sticker somewhere #but theres also people like me and you bet your ass im never gonna hide #and im not getting paid for any of the projects and stuff #...... actually. i just remembered we get money at school. for doing that. but not that much and im doing it for other reasons #just gotta remind myself that i am doint stuff lmao #been dancing along the very last line a while now #snapped today #again #but this time my mum noticed so we talked and now i feel a lot better #and i cancelled stuff for today bc tuesdays are more than packed really #as in i hardly get any time at home packed #but now i di have time. (and homework.) and i feel better #gonna get off that edge soon enough lol #a biscuit's rambles #i gotta get more stickerd tho i hardly have any left

[radelenagreco]

i'm #newtoradblr i've spent so much time these past two weeks scrolling through radfem blogs i knew i had to make an actual radfem side of tumblr blog for my own sanity. the way i "peaked" is kinda funny 3-4 months ago i liked a radfem post without realizing and all of a sudden i had other radfem posts recommended to me by the algorithm and i was so annoyed because i was very anti-terf etc but for a couple days i read through a bunch of radfem blogs and it was actually such a relief to encounter FEMINISM not some watered down version of it but i felt guilty due to 5+ years of conditioning (and also because i had a nonbinary friend sitting right next to me in class as i was doing this) and i also didn't like the prominent use of the word moid? but anyway, 3 months later, i'm not sure why but the mra nature of the trans movement has grown so much more apparent to me i have like three mutuals who are trans men on my other blog and i would find myself rereading the few feminist posts i would reblog/write because these people are literally reblogging shit like "don't think like a terf. men aren't your oppressors, they're your friends/neighbors/brothers/fathers. if you think that any man could harm you you have been fooled by terf rhetoric" like actual morons/meninists. anyway two weeks ago i saw a post made by someone i knew was a radfem on my twitter tl and i don't know why i knew i was ready i went through her blog and through many others and now here i am.

#still dislike the word moid i know it's in response to 4chan people saying shit like femoid but it reads too much like a racist slur for me #to be cool with people saying it #i don't mean it reads like a racist slur towards men i mean it's way too reminiscent of the word negroid #it really made me think people were right about radical feminism being a gateway to being a conservative because...it literally feels #racist to me lmao i don't think i'll ever like it #gonna go follow the few blogs i followed on my main + others now #and i was actually always pretty radical in my feminism i was never what one would call a libfem i just wasn't A RadFem because i was into #the whole trans thing #it's different when you're not on tumblr/not exclusively interacting with trans people on the internet. people taking such an issue with #feminism and claiming that its most basic aspects (men oppress women) are transphobic and terf rhetoric is really only a thing on tumblr #and in those circles it's especially different when you're not talking in english #and i'm pretty sure everyone i follow on twitter supports trans people but the mra nature of trans right activism just has not hit them the #way it has hit tumblr they're still very normal about feminism it's actually so nice to go there and say i hate men with no caveat #the only people who would bother me if they came across my tweets saying that would be: cis men misogynists and people on the far right in #general #crazy that on tumblr it's the most leftist people i'd have to worry about hahaha... #ipost

[machinavocis]

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#re: previous reblog: this is also why i don't like Anticapitalist Onboarding Rhetoric that borrows the narrative tropes of Grand Conspiracy #sorry but genuine systemic analysis is fundamentally incompatible with the image of a Secret Room full of malicious cackling puppetmasters #like is that not the WHOLE POINT..? that there are conditions under which Bad Things can perpetuate themselves absent Bad Actors..? #(like we could evaporate all Racist People with an anti racism laser tomorrow but b/c of current inequalities in income housing school etc #without actual wealth redistribution that won't actually FIX the inequality because it's entrenched enough to have become self sustaining) #idk maybe it just exists disproportionately where i've been looking but i feel like i'm seeing a huge upswing over this past year #in people who act as if the only two narratives are 'Everything Wrong is Your Own Fault' or 'Someone is Fucking With You on Purpose' #& i've felt like a crazy person for a while shouting about how leaning into the rhetoric & mentality of the second one is NOT HARMLESS #just because you point it at some person/people too powerful for you to really materially do harm to. #(introducing it under those parameters alone doesn't domesticate it! doesn't make it Safe to keep with you in your brain house!) #like i didnt Really Not Enjoy the gleeful countdowns of 'only x hrs of air left in that submarine lol' b/c of my deep love for billionaires #but i was struck by how many selfdescribed leftists really do seem to want to act as the agents of an equitable redistribution of suffering #& that just...doesn't ever lead anyone to good places. & it feels insane that i have to say that lol. but i'm right. & it doesn't.

[poisonandpages]

Disabled Lesbians talking about relating to the Beast from Beauty and the Beast stories: Yeah so I guess for various reasons since childhood I've always connected with characters considered to be "monstrous", even before I really knew why. I was always sort of othered by my peers, and that led to some temperamental issues when I was younger because I didn't really know how to express my frustration with the way I felt I was being perceived by the society around me. However, as I've matured I've found that there are plenty of people out there willing to get to know the real me, and while some people will always think of me as being like some unnatural animal others will consider me their knight in shining armour, so for those people I think I owe it to them to try to be that better version of myself, and work to be kind even when others consider me something of a freak.

Able cishet men talking about being the Beast: yeah I get it, everyone hates me because I'm the manliest man so I punch things and break furniture when I have feelings. 😠 They just can't handle a real alpha. 😠 But my girlfriend keeps me tame and I've only hit her twice this month.

#abuse mention #this might seem like an exaggeration but really it's only a slightly paraphrased version of conversations I've actually had #with multiple men online and off #y'know when you're so used to talking to other queer and disabled leftists that talking to someone else feels like you've met a space alien #anyway I was thinking about how when you talk about monster loving #everybody assumes you relate to the human character that loves the monster #nah I'm the monster that wants to be loved #I may not have cool fangs or wings or horns #but I've got trauma and my body doesn't work like a normal one #surely that's enough right?

[bijoumikhawal]

"leftists don't fall for/into right wing hate campaigns for other groups as much as they do for antisemitism" is a really funny way of broadcasting which groups you pay attention to. Anyway we all do remember V*ush and his sycophants constantly claiming "land back is a call for ethnostates" and baiting WOC to intentionally misrepresent their politics on race up to and including claiming they want white genocide, right.

Acting like somehow people on the left are often progressive about every other thing but are antisemites is absurd. It happens, but its not common. An antisemite is often also a racist, a xenophobe, religiously intolerant overall, etc. There are plenty of racist, xenophobic, shithead leftists. Anyone who's actually a leftist would know there's constant tumbling online with shithead leftists and they never have just one shithead opinion.

#cipher talk #V*ush is also an antisemite but his hate campaigns to my knowledge focus on people of color #Antisemitism is more like a sickening bonus he pulls out in these debates #Also! This sort of shit in my experience is more common than isolated 'leftist antisemitism' among actual leftists #The people following V*ush's lead consider themselves leftists #Some examples of 'leftist Antisemitism' people pull really feel like they saw an antisemite express one progressive opinion and screamed #'ITS THE DAMN LEFT AGAIN' #I promise you. A lotta people doing that are not leftists #It annoys me because there are actual common tropes of leftist antisemitism I experience but it feels like people only bring up the idea #When talking about Zionism #Actual things I've experienced have like. Nothing or little to do with that. It's more 'a lot of shit c*ntrapoints has done' and militant #Or utoptian atheism (the latter being something I've had other marginalized religious people tell me was making them uncomfortable but that #They didn't feel comfortable speaking up about in leftist spaces) #Or like. People who didn't grow up in the West saying offensive shit because they know what a Nazi is but never got a proper education #About Jewish history- generally they aren't trying to be offensive. They literally do not know better. It doesn't make it okay #But it's not the same as the other shit #Or in some cases they're like. A hypocrite who believes in anti colonialism but only for themselves #Such as that one guy who saw me speaking about Coptic issues and the importance of leftists to not cede ground to Zionists by letting them #Coopt ideas from MENA indigenous groups and said 'shut up Jew'. He didn't know I was Jewish. He was making an unfavorable comparison to #Shame me into silence #Admittedly it was funny and I still think it's funny because jeez man. At least say a slur! But it was antisemitic regardless of the fact #That I found it to stupid to be upset by #It's also notable there that like. The guy was not primarily mad because of Judaism. He was angry because of a Copt existing and talking #The Copt happened to be my freak ass and Coincidentally was what I am

[shararan]

If i wasn't so bad at watching any series I'd try picking up vinland saga again cause i swear its the only good viking fiction out there

#certified viking hating nordic #slightly hyperbolic i just really hate the valorizarion #both in terms of WS but also ''leftist reclamation'' and cutting out the uncomfortable bits #either way its always taking a part of history with a lot of things that cannot be confirmed #and slapping on a lot of fictional rebranding concepts and proclaim its history #frankly i was so surprised when vinland saga was like #an actual good story that felt really authentic??? #and like up to where i got just acknowledging the inconcrete borders #the process of the christening of the north #the pillaging!!!! like hello!!!!! #not to mention the CLOTHES #and the houses!!! the furniture!! food!!!!! #like its actually mindboggling how often viking fantasy is marketed as historical fact #and that actually accurately sourced depictions feel so shocking in their unusualness #im rambling and this doesnt pertain to this blog really #i just have a strong interest in nordic history folklore and culture #and so it bothers me how much vikings are used as a political sledgehanmer from multiple sides #and are used to make false claims about nordic history even past the viking age #i have too may thoughts about this to fit them in the tags #sharan talks #sharan yells at cloud #i need to use that last tag more honestly #dont mind me im just being a little bitchy rn

[freytful]

Catherine misericorde is living in my head rent free btw I know she dies aprox. 30 minutes into the game but shes my fave. i love post mortem characters i love having to piece together different perspectives and i love messy dykes

#I've got some kind of thought within me about Catherine being the unnamed ''She'' the Mystery Nun mentions in the secret scene #and possibly even being Alex. Catherine has some kind of meta presence and she seems so. modern leftist. #that she might actually just be a modern leftist i.e alex #but timetravel in such a direct way doesnt feel right so idk #misericorde #anyway the Secret Scene is actually very easy to find but only about half of people who finish the game did so? #which. huh. do most people not go through the extras after finishing games? #anyway Mystery Nun only really says one thing about ''her'' #which is that she doesnt like it when you mess with her hobbies. meaning This Game. #and the two main traits we know about Catherine is that shes got a lot of hobbies #and that shes very passionate about everything #also that she has some kind of maybe meta perspective?? maybe?? #so. i wonder. #i guess Catherine is invested in Stories in a way alex is not. so maybe she isnt Alex. but.

[puppygirlkat]

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#i can go on like long rants about us history #its been a long time since i like actually studied history #most of my knowledge is of 20th century US history #i need to get back to studying history #ive been a leftist basically since i was a teenager #i dont think i still have the pamphlets that really pushed me into learning about communism #though again i was still learning mostly from the imperial core #so there were some gaps in my knowledge #but even learning from that was enough to be like 'ok this shit fucking sucks ass #idk #my memory is spotty so i dont remember super well #god i remember trying to stand against my dads islamophobia and homophobia #shithead #i dont talk to him anymore #learning history is important #i still need to read a lot of books though because my picture is always feeling incomplete #it will never be complete and ill be arrogant if i ever think it is #but my knowledge still feels woefully inadequate #anyway enough rambling #rat thots