#I procrastinated so much yesterday

[mattodore]

playing with dionte's hair bc i'm procrastinating

#river dipping #dionte duval #lykos #ts4 #i do really love how dionte and nicholas kinda have a b4b (bald for bald) thing going on.... but that first hair........ #he looks so good... the urge to keep it is gonna make me develop a twitch under my eye... #i love the shadows the locs add btw like i personally loveee when hair creators add shading #like the DRAMAAA it adds!!! #also don't look too closely at him here bc i actually haven't updated him yet hence no proper edit of him (tho i probably won't change much #i'm really just supposed to be cleaning out the hundreds!! of duplicate households in my library dkhjnkfgh i just. get so distracted #i also have to fix mattodore's households bc i think i accidentally deleted the updated version of them at 20... #like there are multiple other saves?? but they're all with matthias's old chin??? like literally WHERE did the updated version go #so i need to clean out my library from the top down and fix their sims #i really messed my sleep schedule up the day before yesterday when i was working on those edits of delphi btw #but i did enjoy rewatching secretary and watching charade while staying up all night to do them <3 #also listened to the first two chapters of freedom is a constant struggle! editing may take me forever but i do do other things as i do it #...........talking a lot in these tags bc i'm seriously procrastinating jdkhnf i do NOT ! want to clean through my library it's a mess #OH. ALSO GOOD MORNING I FORGOT TO SAY THAT ‼️ #seeing this again two days later and seeing the amount of notes....... y'all weren't meant to reblog this kjhdkfjhndkjgnh #now i'm like damn... is there any reason to make his intro edit like i did for ria and delphi 😭😭😭😭😭

[peridots-pixiwolf]

Highly doubt I’m the first one to point this out with seven months since act II released but. y’know the sentient terminal theory from the p-1 entry

[Start ID. An ULTRAKILL screenshot of the terminal at the end of the level 5-3: SHIP OF FOOLS. It has been tipped over on its side from the Leviathan capsizing the ship, and its Tip of the Day has been replaced with the word “Ow.” End ID]

#nothing more to say about it really. but i never noticed cause i never realized the entrance and exit are the same for this level #you will all be subjected to more ultrakill theorizing and rants by the way. i'm brainrotting over this game so much right now #i also feel like there was something in the p-2 entry about this so maybe this doesn't matter anyway but idk yet. actually refusing to spoi #this for myself for once. yippie #terminal ultrakill #ultrakill #bots #i like them actually...ai friends :] #peridots-nonsense #does?? this count as spoilers???? for p-1 i mean. i don't think i'll tag it as such cause it's been a while anyway. also it's speculation #alright gonna stop here. i have a related art piece that i finished yesterday but i've been procrastinating on posting it. hopefully should #be up tomorrow! #update got the time wrong. i thought it was sep not aug

[erporo]

gotta hate this cycle of everyday guilt for not doing stuff im supposed to do for the following day bcs of being tired af

#i had (or rather have) sm shiy to do for... basically today in my timezone #yet i spent my entire day yesterday w/ my best friend:✨procrastination✨ #i hate this system. so so much. #fuck capitalism #yappps

[kyouka-supremacy]

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#random rambles #Technically I'm done with this month's header since yesterday. #Practically I've been feeling so insecure about it I've been procrastinating looking for an icon or uploading it at all #Like it *was* natural to have a downgrade in themes I've said it myself a lot of times. After 24+ themes it's understandable I'd run out– #of inspiration (or even simply material) for the very cool stuff #That said. I did very much spend the whole entire day from when I woke up to when I (started studying at past 2am) went to sleep on it #That's what I get for working with the anime tbh. Bones artstyle is ugly there's little to be done about it #While making it I also came up with other two themes concepts. #One is probably going to replace September's plan and the other idk will probably slid to the next year #Idk looking at this year's planned themes lineup it all feels full of things I'm not skilled enough to make... #On top of everything this February's theme wasn't even what I had initially planned!! The one I had initially planned was a chapter 33 pane #Idk why I didn't follow up with it. Maybe I've just grown to think manga panels are too simple (terrible choice) (rip) #I think the thing that bugs me with both the initially picked image and the anime header I made yesterday– #is that there's no smooth transition with the blog. And I know it's not a big deal but pretty much all my themes do and it's bothering me.. #And it shouldn't. Like nearly everyone uses an header that is sharply separate from the blog and they make it work #Uhm.............. #Idk I should be studying besides. #I think I'll either go looking for an icon and see how the overall theme looks on the blog. Maybe I'll like it better then. #Or I'll just start over and see if I can use the ch 33 panel I had in mind and see if I'll like THAT better #It'd just be a shame if after all the time I've spent on it yesterday I'd just let it lie unused on my computer #There's also the fact that black and white of the manga doesn't feel very February-esque... (Don't ask) #Ugh. I hate looking for icons it's always the worst part 😭😭😭 #I was considering the last Beast Atsushi illustration (because ofc I was) but idk. Idk if I can make it work. #And part of me is also like “don't use beautiful Hoshikawa Beast Atsushi on an ugly theme” LOL #But I also suffer heavily from the lack of Beast in this year's lineup. #Okay rant over. Shutting up now #Edit: If this month's theme is ugly please be kind #Edit 2: Jk I've found like four icons. Maybe I'm just very dramatic

[whumpy-wyrms]

can someone just like spam me with tllr things you want me to draw. can be anything i just neeeed motivationnn

#wyrms says stuff #speaking of asks #i should PROBABLY answer them shouldn’t i #i’m not ignoring u guys i’m just lazy or busy or i forgor #it’s weird i have soooo many wips but when my art has a deadline i can finish it EASY and FAST #(i did an art secret santa yesterday and i finished mine in 4 hours ON the due date and even though i finished it at the last second #it turned out AWESOME. and i drew so much cool stuff during art fight in only a few hours. but when it comes to my ocs or fanart #i’m just slow without a deadline) so guys. honest to glob just threaten me in my ask box. #i wanna get all my cool tllr art wips done but i have no motivation!!! feel free to threaten me with a deadline. or something else #in fact just scream at me to finish chapter 12 i actually work very very well under pressure you guys #anyway i don’t know what im rambling about. its just me procrastinating drawing/writing again isn’t it #OH SHIT I JUST REMEMBERED MY GOOSE CAME IN TJE MAIL

[yes-i-exist-shutup]

I want to make cupcakes with colour schemes from my fav books but

A) where tf am I going to find black food dye

B) how in the world will I differentiate between the raven and six of crows cupckaes

#I panicked so much abt this yesterday #im procrastinating making them for this sole reasons #istg #I cant even draw the birds bcs Ravens? Crows? to similar T-T

[tvrningout-a]

so!! i'm gonna be out of town tomorrow through sunday on a wee family vacation. while i'll try to write in my downtime, i can't guarantee i'll be able to post anything until i'm back -- i'm bringing my computer, but i'm just not sure how things are gonna go! i might be tired or might not wanna type stuff up around my family uvu so just a heads up that i'll probably be here very little for the next four days!

that being said, i'm placing my discord below the cut bc i've got a drive ahead of me for which i'll be a passenger, so i'll probably plot, send asks, and attempt some writing to keep myself occupied. just make sure you let me know who you are if it isn't obvious!

bel#7244

#i'm packing and doing lil last minute things tonight but if i can i'm gonna see about cranking out the last of the starters i owe #if not it'll just be a lil longer of a wait ;; #through and through i'm a procrastinator and it kills me as much as it kills y'all i promise #i actually would've packed yesterday!! but my sister wanted me to wait so we could suffer together asdfgh #get ready to ramble | ooc

[cheekblush]

spent almost 24 hours on finishing my work portfolio with only 2 hours of sleep in between but i'm finally done 😭

#just in time for christmas #but now i am soooooo sleepy #i sat down at 5 pm yesterday & worked through the whole night until 6:30 am #then i slept for 2 hours and continued working and finally finished at 3:30 pm #my neck hurts so bad from sitting in front of the laptop so much #it's my own fault for procrastinating so much but i'm just happy i'm done with it in time for christmas #and i hope my boss will like it and won't suggest many changes 🤞🏻 #i literally JUST decorated our christmas tree bc i've been so busy this month #my dad spontaneously bought a huge real tree it's so lovely <3 #merry christmas and happy holidays to everyone stay safe and healthy 💌 #☁️ #i can't wait to go to sleep 😴

[isablooo]

I've resolved to use the most Victorian™️ facial hair that I can in Dracula's Guest because when else am I going to get this opportunity

#need to draw a mf with friendly mutton chops it looks so wacky #i get the feeling that this is a slightly earlier style #but I have found examples of it in photos and fashion plates from the 1890s #though it tended to be on older gentlemen #I procrastinated so much yesterday reading about the beard movement #seems to have been more of a thing in the 1850s/1860s #by the 1890s being clean shaven started to gain popularity with younger men again but ofc there were still a mix of styles #text post #victorian fashion #dracula's guest comic

[ehlnofay]

Efri finds a cave.

“Cool,” she says into the dim mouth of it. She’s definitely not supposed to go in caves. There can be things in there – like trolls – and the passages can be dark and winding and before you know it you’re lost and you’re starving to death deep below the earth. That’s what everyone says.

She wants to go in the cave. She hopes the passages are dark and winding – she can map them. She can mark where she’s been with her stick. The goats can stay up above on the plains and eat the itchy grass while she charts the unplumbed depth of this random cavern forty minutes’ walk from Rorikstead. She knew this was a good direction to go in.

Sissel wouldn’t think so. Sissel would think it was dangerous. But Sissel’s not here today and it’s so much more boring when she’s not here. Efri’s gotten too used to the plains. They’re fine when she has a friend, but when she’s alone they just go on and on and on. (Maybe she could make friends in the plains. She’s thought about going up to the giants she sometimes sees and saying hello. But she’s not sure if they even speak the same language, and maybe even Efri isn’t quite gutsy enough to strike up conversation with a giant.)

But it’s fine. She’ll be fine as long as there are new things to find, like caves. Maybe there’ll be bones inside. Or mushrooms. Efri doesn’t really know what kind of things are normally in caves.

She beats her stick against the ground so the goats look up at her. “Stay,” she tells them, authoritatively enough that they might even listen, and marches into the cave-mouth alone.

(Even if the goats don’t listen it’s okay. It’s not like they’ll go missing – the plains are flat and bare around for ages – and she can just chase them and round them up again. It might be fun.)

The cave is mostly dark, inside. And it’s kind of wet – her shoes squelch on the ground. The walls are all rocky and dripping, with moss and things on them, but not much is growing from the ground. It’s all just dirt. Some stones. She picks up a pointy rock and puts it in her belt-purse for safekeeping.

There’s not any winding passages, either, which is a shame. Just walls. This cave is a bit of a disappointment. Sissel might have liked it better – she always likes small dark quiet places, and the cave is dark and quiet and much, much smaller than Efri hoped. It’s barely the size of her one-room house (though maybe a bit taller). She could walk all around it, see every nook and cranny and step on every bit of dirt, and she’d still be done before the goats even had a chance to wander off and go missing. Efri sighs, loud enough to echo off the wet walls, and turns to go.

And freezes.

Staring back at her from a recess just beside the way she came in is a sabre cat.

Efri whispers a rude word.

It’s huge. Twice her height, almost, with all this shaggy gold-brown hair round its neck and paws braced into the damp dirt beneath it. She’s always heard sabre cats were big but seeing it is something else. She’s heard they’re fast, too, can rip your throat out before you even blink. Damn it damn it damn it. Sissel would have told her not to come in here and Sissel would have been right.

Efri slowly, slowly, not even breathing, holding her stick out in front of her like it will do anything at all, reaches for her knife –

The sabre cat meows.

Efri almost drops her stick.

It does it again, loud and low and strangled, sounding more like a cow, to be honest, than any sort of cat Efri’s ever seen. It kind of recoils, like it’s trying to fit all its huge body further in the crevice it’s tucked into, and Efri has no idea why it would be but it really seems scared.

Hand on the pommel of her knife, Efri peeks around the stick braced in front of her and whispers, “Hello.”

The sabre cat lows again. It blinks its eyes hard, tail lashing at the wall behind it.

“Sorry,” Efri tells it, still whispering. “I didn’t mean to scare you. I didn’t mean to come into your cave.”

It makes a different noise this time, soft and feathery, and takes a half-step out of its corner – Efri flinches. It backs into the wall again.

Efri is pretty sure it’s not going to eat her.

“You’re not going to eat me,” she says, louder now, and it tilts its head. She’s not sure why it isn’t eating her, but she’s definitely not going to complain.

It slinks out of its recess in the damp wall. Efri stands very still. It pads towards her but stops before it comes too near, staying in the faint light coming in from the cave’s mouth.

It’s gold, Efri sees, a burnished sort of deep gold. Its fur is matted. There’s blood behind its front leg.

“There’s blood on you,” Efri says. It stares at her with big grey eyes and slowly inclines its head. There might actually be blood around its mouth, too – there’s some kind of dark staining there – and Efri wonders uneasily if maybe it’s just not eating her because it’s full already, but then it turns a little and oh. No, that’s not blood left from eating a messy meal. There’s a deep, ragged gash over its ribs, tucked behind the joint of its leg.

Efri’s untying her canteen from her belt before she even realises she’s doing it. She’s about to pop the cork, but then she thinks about it, and thinks that coming close to a sabre cat the size of a horse and messing with what looks like a very painful wound is probably the worst idea she’s had in at least the last month.

“Do you want me to wash that for you?” Efri asks, before thinking that that’s also one of the stupidest things she’s done in the last month, because what is it going to say, yes miss, please and thank you? The sabre cat looks at her like it agrees, staring with narrowed eyes and inclining its head and – “Wait,” Efri says, louder than she’d meant to, “are you nodding?”

The sabre cat nods.

She thinks it does, anyway, and she seems to be proved right, because when she approaches it careful as can be and trickles water on the nasty cut it winces, muscles coiling tight, but doesn’t bite her. She tips most of the water in her canteen over the wound – it’s not really bleeding, it’s old enough to be crusted and beginning to scab at the edges, but fresh enough that the water that runs down the cat’s dusty fur is pink – and then dabs it dry with her smock skirt. The orange cloth looks more red-brown at the ends, after, but it doesn’t matter, it’ll wash out.

“Can you understand me?” Efri asks curiously as she works, and the sabre cat nods, a rumbling like a purr starting deep in its belly. She says, “Huh. Cool.”

(That night, after she brings the goats into the garden, she pops in at Mralki’s inn and asks Erik – who’s helping cook in the back tonight – if sabre cats can understand people speech. He looks at her like she’s a bit daft and asks her to run a bowl of stew to Ennis’ table on her way out.

The next day, early in the morning, she finds the cave again. The sabre cat is there, huffing and squinting at her; its side is smooth and unblemished, as though it were never hurt at all.)

#this is the piece I wrote. literally yesterday I think. and liked so much I had to post it immediately #this scene has been lurking in my head for a while. but it's important and I always get nervous and procrastinate writing important scenes #but I'm SO GLAD I got around to it because it was SO FUN. #anyway. in which efri takes everything in stride and makes the third friend she's ever had. #hope you enjoy reading it as much as I loved writing it! #oc tag #efri #kazari #my writing #fay writes #skyrim #rorikstead #the elder scrolls #tes #blood cw

[opens-up-4-nobody]

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#other ppl: youll be fine! u r passionate abt what u do #no u dont understand. its not passion. im being consumed. im being devoured whole and alive. #its out of control and its killing me #stop trying to tell me im good. i can assure u its a problem and i want it to fucking stop. whats the point of being successful if u cant #even fucking breathe? #this has been my weekend in purgatory for some reason. but fuck u i got the fucking application 98% done so im gonna read it over tomorrow #when my brain doesnt feel like its gonna explode and thrn send it to the dude and idk see wtf he has to say about it bc im positive i #overwrote it bc im unhinged. whatever tomorrow im gonna spend another 4hr transfering algae #if i can. turns out ive given myself a headache and now i cannot sleep lmao #lol i wrote all that yesterday night. it appears i was having a bad time. and i continue to have a bad time bc my manuscript is 98% ready #for submission but i leave at 7.20 tomorrow morning for my flight and wont be home until 7pm in this time zone at the very least #which means ill have to fucking wait all day to submit i guess unless i use plane wifi or something. fucking idk #i also havent sent the application in yet and i havent bought any Christmas presents bc my brain is splitting into a million pieces #its 10 pm now. will is sleep tonight? who's to say i still have work to do on this fucking manuscript #at least my coauthor thinks itll only get sent back with minor revisions so it must look pretty ok #part of it is just me bitching abt inconsistent methods across papers bc it annoys me but also i dont give a fuck #i will fucking psychically control ppl to read this paper and use its knowledge bc the way they talk abt the topic annoys me so much #which is additionally annoying bc like i said i dont give a fuck #anyway im procrastinating #unrelated #my parents texting me today: yay we r excited to see u 🤗 #and im just laying on the floor eminating a demonic aura

[aria0fgold]

whenever i need to make a new work in ao3, i always end up practically forgetting the most basics of it and have to go to my other fics for ref memory too weak

#aria rants #rushing the valentine's day oneshot #cuz i procrastinated a bit too much yesterday #I WANT THIS OUT TODAY #and im so happy that im done with the baking bit of it #my brain can finally rest from the confusion #so all i need to write is just fluff #i love fluff

[starrytalking]

I don’t know who needs to hear this right now but it’s okay to struggle. You don’t have to have your “life under control” right now. No matter your age and if it seems like everyone else is doing oh so well (believe me, there’s others who struggle as well!), it’s okay to still figure things out and feel like a complete mess. You still have time to grow as a person and find out what works for you and how you want to live your life. Be forgiving with yourself, I know it’s hard but you deserve rest and compassion from yourself!

#starrytalking #yes this is totally about how I feel like I didn’t do enough (aka barely anything) for uni and now have to do everything (which is a lot) #at the same time while I don’t know how I’m suppose to get everything done on time #because it’s so much; so I procrastinate all day and get even less done #but yesterday in the evening I remembered that while I feel like I should be organised and grown up enough to have done better beforehand #so that I wouldn’t feel like this right now #this isn’t actually true. like it feels like this rn but actually‚ I’m in my first year of uni technically no one expects me to have it #all figured out. like sure it would be great but I can still learn how to deal with the different work load and way things work at uni #and it’s okay to fail at times (although I still need to work on accepting that) bug that doesn’t automatically make myself a failure #and it doesn’t erase what I accomplished so far to get where I am right now and it doesn’t erase that I still have plenty of time to grow #so I’ll try to tell myself that more often and just give my best #and yes it feels like my best could be so much better if I had just done things differently a bit ago but NO I can’t change that anymore and #my best right now is still my best right now no matter what I did or didn’t do in the past #but even if you’re older by however many years and you’re reading this: you’re never too old to grow as a person and to figure things out #so if you also feel like a mess right now that’s super valid as well and you don’t need to have figured it all out yet #you can take time as well‚ I hope you’re okay and if you’re not: you can be okay again I think <3 #lol when I’m not ranting to my best friend than on here it’s like a diary xD #uni #college #student #stress #forgiveness #struggle #it’s okay #it’s okay to struggle #compassion #take time

[keepingthepeaceinouterspace]

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#Cw food #My relationship with food has been not great lately (aka eating constantly as a form of procrastination/ avoidance) #So I started calorie tracking just as a way to make me stop and think and TRY #And so far (aka like 5 days) it's been super helpful #Previously when I did this I felt myself like low-key developing bad relationships to food but like #It's a good reset right now #And I decided I just track when it will be helpful and ignore other stuff #I went to a wedding yesterday and was like. The goal is not to count all of my calories. The goal is to check in with myself and make sure #Feel good about my decisions so I paced myself on apps and my entree and got the desserts I wanted most (aka #A dairy free and a dairy full cookie. For science.) #And only weighing myself when I feel like it will be helpful #Anyways that got long winded. I came here to say this because I feel so much lighter and better #And it's not the literal weight because I weigh basically the same. It's just that I'm not on my second ice cream of the day lol

[annikuh]

my life is becoming increasingly more unbearable & my overall health is taking a nosedive & I spent most of my commute to work trying not to cry and punch a pedestrian’s head off

BUT

the bagel place made my bacon egg & cheese extra cheesy today & packed that mf beyond what a bagel could theoretically hold.

small win for miss annika today :)

#annikuh’s speakin #I have BARELY been functioning well so I have a feeling I’m crashing soon #i procrastinated everything so much this week and had an entire breakdown yesterday bc I can’t function well #so I’m gonna have to get up at 5:30 tmrw and slam everything out #which I don’t like doing but I have uhhhh No Choice #& I’ve been doing it for over a year now like almost every week to some degree

[ii-zi]

sister tested positive last Friday & my father+me are symptomatic lol had a kitten fall ill for several days and literally just yesterday got better made 2 notebooks out of scraps + started painting mini painting in those tongue pushing wooden stick thingies as PT bc my hands are getting worse ever day but I've been lucky overall bc of a slight decrease of other like. Symptoms. Oh also my mother is Literally gaslighting me like she's outright stated multiple times already that I'm making up having been sick for months bc it's impossible and I'm crazy like. ????????????

#quick update lol it's not like i /have/ to be active here but it feels weird being offline and not even saying a word.. #for some reason???? I've been doing so much gift wrapping?? i have no money to get gifts lol but like. other ppls gifts #ik not everyone has hand issues like i do but i like making the gifts easy to unwrap for ppl w motor skills issues jfjdjf my favorite is #the string to rip it open without struggling. something i struggle picking up the string tho but i don't have #ribbons :/ so gotta make do w what i do have jdkejg #been thinking abt putting like a little piece of wood or something easier to grab 🤔 like those accesible zippers i really like the design #been Obsessed w mini personal projects lately??? like for a week straight working on random mini projects til 5-6am lol #and out of the blue yesterday (or two days ago??? idk i just found out that it's already friday n almost had a panic attack LMAO) i #started like. looking back at personal long term projects that are still v much in the brainstorming phase and #actually got to do a bit of work for one???? i love typing lol i hadn't in quite a while bc using computers hurts my hands a lot but #i really missed it JSJSJS #my house is a pigsty im sleeping like so many hours a day and only have enough time for a single meal so only have #energy to sit and do nothing 😭 but the cats are alright 🙏 #I'll have to do a fuckton of cleaning in the next two weeks tho bc im going back to classes fml #and my sister never arranged my therapy session that her therapist asked her to bc she's procrastinating on it 🥳 I'll die ill and insane #OH I've had coffee three times this last week and didn't destroy my stomach!!!!!!!!