#I need to worry less

[mokeonn]

"But if college was free, then people would abuse that and get useless degrees" hell yeah I would! If I could go to college without debt I would make it my job to get a degree in every little thing that interested me. I'd get a doctorate in film studies. I'd have a bachelor's degree for every science I like. I'd try to learn at least 5 languages with varying results. I would learn something "useful" like coding and then follow it up with a ""useless"" degree like art history. I'd be the world record speed run holder for getting every degree possible.

But I can't afford college without going into massive debt, so instead I spent the last 5 years trying to figure out what I am passionate enough about to consider going into debt over, because unfortunately being passionate about everything is extremely expensive to pursue.

#simon says #i love learning so much and I hate the USA's college debt system #once they make that shit free I will be unstoppable #this topic sprung up because I had the idea that im very academic and annoyingly analytical that I might as well get a degree in it #because without a degree you just seem like an autistic asshole #but with a degree? then you look like a CREDIBLE autistic asshole #don't worry I will still learn but I still want that funky piece of paper to tell everyone I learnt it #also there's some things that are VERY difficult to learn #like I would love to persue this topic further but unfortunately I would need help with that #also before you say 'try taking [blank] classes instead! it's less expensive than a degree!' im broke #my only learning resource is the library sorry about that #also this is not the post to give me unwarranted financial advice #finances are one of the topics I DO NOT care about and I WILL NOT listen to a word you say

[tam--lin]

The thing is, you don’t have to have a diagnoses to make simple “unmasking” changes that make your life easier. You don’t even have to self-diagnose! You are not appropriating anyone’s culture or struggles or hijacking anyone’s movement by allowing yourself to sway in line at the grocery store or buying a weighted blanket or using study or household hacks intended for people with ADHD. If you start favoring the needs that make your brain and body unique over the arbitrary norms of society, you’ll be better off, and you’ll be expanding the norms. It’s a win/win.

#sometimes I consider What I Have Going On Upstairs #and think 'should I try to get some sort of diagnosis?' #but it wouldn't help me right now! I don't need work accomodations - work IS the accomodation #but allowing myself to sit on the floor in the corner of the airport instead of on a chair #or fidget in lines #gives me one less thing to worry about AND makes my brain happy AND makes 'odd' but harmless behaviors #more normalized which ultimately helps people #who have needs that are several standard deviations away from ~~normal~~ #it's a win-win-win #tam.txt #related but on a different line of thinking: #somewhere along the line we majorly screwed up with how we talk about appropriation #I think we're getting better but whoa boy... #seen some baffling takes about pretty normal things like socializing color codes for get-togethers #or weighted blankets #being Only For Autistic People #nah bro that's the last thing on earth the vast majority of disability advocates are interested in

[ofswordsandpens]

thinking about how the (greek) big three swore to never sire any more demigod children because those children are just too powerful (dangerous) and also thinking about how the characters that, arguably, seem to have the greatest proclivity for cruelty in the name of justice or vengeance are also the (greek) big three children... there's something there, a connection to be made I'm sure of it

#and its not just cruelty... #its like this spiraling into... darkness? power? #for percy and nico at least #thalia we dont get to see as much and I need to reread ttc #but like... she's SO tempted by power #its like she has to actively fight against those base instincts to rule (like her father) #when she chooses the hunters #she removes her role (her power her agency) in the great prophecy #and idk I feel like there's subtext there that she's worried what she would have done had she been the prophecy child #but sincerely there's something about greek big three kids thats off kilter #and that aspect only gets more pronounced as time goes on and they get older #like not only are they scarily powerful #but their mental states are just... messy #almost like in comparison to other demigods #they're a little more god a little less mortal if that makes sense #and they have to fight to maintain that mortality (their humanity)

[autisticlancemcclain]

Could you explain your position on Shallura? Since Allura was established as a teenager when she started dating Lance and Shiro was very clearly an adult. I can understand the bi shiro headcannon but the shallura thing worries me

i am going to remind yall that i have been in this fandom since 2016. and in the early seasons, allura was not established as a teenager. in fact she was coded as older, as closer to shiro's age -- there was a specific divide between her and the younger paladins that she did not have with shiro. they made her younger (both explicitly and in mannerisms) as the show went on. and i do not give a fuck about voltron like...post s4 and i didn't even watch s7-8. so like. especially with older fics, im going to enjoy shallura.

#also this is less relevant and i was going to put it in the main post but i cant find the words for it #but i found your last sentence kind of condescending. “the shallura thing worries me” as if i am your little project and things arent going #to plan. as if you are the Knower Of All Things and i am straying from my path lol. twas odd #and this is a controversial thing to say i know it but like #we take fandom way too seriously. if someone decides in fic to make two characters the same age to ship them or whatever. do we really need #to get the torches and pitchforks. like i can understand discomfort when people ship like shiro and pidge or something but. also. i feel #like you can just block and move on?? like i dont ship sheith bc they are brothers. to me. but also i dont think sheithers should be #harassed or any dumb shit like that. i think its so so whatever like theyre Lines man theyre moving lines #at the same time i understand that peoples headcanons can be reflective of their worldviews (like when racism/transphobia/sexism shine #through someone's headcanons/characterization) but how much scrutiny is too much? when do we get to remember that fandom is a place to #work with the FICTIONAL? where you can change details without consequence? i saw a fic where keith was the older sibling and shiro was the #younger once. it was a good fic. how come we can play with ages but only when the Fandom Council approves? #i guess this is a really long and clumsy way to say like. you do not own the fandom nor do you get to dictate my work. and while there #is always room for necessary criticism please also think critically before you post your criticism #anyways #rant #ask

[daftpatience]

one thing I have learned about being poor is that you cannot for a moment stop thinking about it

#theres no peace #every little thing reminds me we are poor #seeing friends having electricity wifi heat food gas. it all costs money. and bills and fees and charges happen all the damn time #im constantly worried that i am measing up somehow or im not keeping track of my finances properly #the person handling our disability assistance application keeps coming back with question after question about my job #and i have so much doubt and fear that ive made some mistake in my answers that will disqualify us from support #and theres this sick backwards stupid thing where applying for and being on disability support is discouraging me from trying to make money #because the more i make the less likely we'll get support but i need to make money to live #its just fucked. and once we're on support i have to make monthly reports of my income so ill feel like im explaining myself all the fuckin #time #cus the system isnt built in a way that makes sense for self employed ppl who have business expenses to account for #sorry for the ranting i cant sleep #truly truly i think poverty is making me a worse persin #more anxious more resentful more jealous more miserable more spiteful #i have so little and there is so little i can do to help it #i want things in a more desparate and even childish way than i used to eant things #spend a lot more time fantasizing about magically having expendable income #not to mention the constant exponential guilt that comes from asking for help or recieving help. its guilt i need to unlearn but i feel it

[cryptid-condor]

little snapshot of a zelda 1/2 au where the Prince actually sucks and he puts a bounty on the wielder of the triforce, which leads to link stealing a horse named Pony who joins him on his new quest to overthrow the monarchy

please click for quality i promise its worth it :)

#linked universe #linkeduniverse #lu hyrule #all my rat #i really need to learn how to draw leaves #legend of zelda #u wanna know a secret? #i made this au as an excuse to give roolie a horse #i know Pony is Large but just remember: link is tiny #i went down a complete rabbit hole of rein-less horseback riding during the process of this one #ik this au only works if u assume the prince is still alive (meaning hes probably old) or he left behind a triforce cult or smthn #but dont worry about it #i have a lot of headcanons about what rule's hyrule looks like

[morganbritton132]

I need Eddie's jealous moments!!!!!

yk... for research

Eddie once came home from a three-week stint playing shows in middle-of-nowhere Ohio to find a man sitting on his couch. Steve was newly diagnosed and newly moved in, and Eddie was prepared for anything.

Except for a man sitting on his couch. A very distinctly Tommy H-shaped man, sitting way too comfortably and way too close to his boyfriend. On his couch.

Eddie was expecting throw pillows not – “Hagan.”

“Munson.”

Eddie wasn’t due back until tomorrow and Steve is surprised to see him, and he’s happy. He lights up like Christmas, but this is not the homecoming that Eddie was expecting. He still gets a hug, but it doesn’t linger and it doesn’t lead to where he wants them to go (the bedroom). Steve awkwardly pats him on the shoulder when he pulls away like they’re bros.

It’s kind of obvious that Steve had some of his jock friends from high school over to watch the game because the people on tv are talking about sports and there’s a letterman jacket too big for Steve or Tommy forgotten on the kitchen floor. The fact that Tommy is the only one that remains irks Eddie though.

It sets his teeth on edge, especially when Steve settles back on the couch and Tommy refills the space next to him like they were still friends. Tommy throws his arm over Steve’s shoulder, absently touching his hair the way that he always did in school. Steve might not notice it, but Eddie does.

It ain’t subtle. Not to Eddie, who knows what it looks like to be in love with Steve Harrington.

He’s not dumb. Eddie might be out of town just as much as he’s in it nowadays, but he knows what the rumors are about why Steve is living here. He also knows that if he was the one harboring a crush on a boy since grade school and there was even the slightest change that he might be gay than Eddie would be here too. Testing the waters.

Too bad for Tommy though because this is Eddie’s pool.

Despite the loud and obnoxious presence pressed up against Steve’s side and Steve awkwardly reintroducing them to each other, Eddie still asks, “You have people over?”

“Wayne said it was okay.”

“Course it is,” Eddie grinned. “You live here, sweetheart.”

Steve tells Eddie how Tommy was home from college for the long weekend and about the game of telephone that led to him hosting his friends. He even tells Eddie how he recorded the game on tape to watch with Wayne later. Eddie listens and he maybe agreed to watch the rerun with them, but he’s waiting. He’s watching Tommy squeeze the back of Steve’s neck and make some joke that’s not funny, and he’s waiting.

And it happens.

Steve asks Eddie how his shows went, and Eddie grins. He’s not an insecure man. Not about Steve and not about their relationship. Tommy can make all the moves he wants, Eddie knows where Steve’s sleeping tonight. So, he grins.

He startles them both with a running jump onto the coffee table and he takes up all the attention in the room, Tommy left an afterthought. Eddie regales his time in the far off land of Ohio. He paints a perilous picture of nights driving through cornfields and cows like an adventure. He recounts their shows like he’s slaying a dragon, and he draws Steve in like he knew he would.

He physically draws Steve closer, crouching down in front of him and putting his hands on his shoulders. One hand slides up to caress his cheek, and Steve leans into the touch. Eddie pulls him forward until he’s barely on the couch at all and Tommy is left leaning against nothing, and then Eddie pulls him to his feet.

High school Steve probably would’ve sneered at the Eddie of it all, but this Steve – his Steve – laughs and lets Eddie pull him where the story needs to go. He drags Steve through the living room as he weaves a tale in movement about Corroded Coffin’s harrowing battle against the one lone preacher protesting devil music.

Their feet get tangled together when Eddie zigs and Steve zags, and they end up toppled into Wayne’s favorite chair. Steve laughs in that way that squishes his whole face and he tells him without thought, “Missed you.”

Eddie knows that those are words that Tommy wants to hear. He knows the taste of a friendship lost and he knows that Tommy wants this, but this isn’t high school anymore. Tommy can’t just take what he wants. It’s a deep and settling smugness playing on Eddie’s lips because this his and he says, “I know.”

Tommy leaves with very little fanfare. Forest Hills may not be a castle, but it’s Eddie’s domain and Steve is a very captive audience. Tommy, at least, knows when to admit defeat.

He’s standing on the gravel outside of the trailer when he says, “I’ll drive you to that appointment Monday. What time was it?”

Before Steve could say anything, Eddie’s throwing his arm over Steve’s shoulder. He gives Tommy a grin that’s all sharp corners as he threads his fingers into Steve’s hair and tugs on it, “Don’t worry about it, Tommy-boy. I’ll handle it.”

Eddie only kinda feels like an asshole when he smudges Tommy’s name off the calendar stuck to the fridge later that night, but then he gets into his bed for the first time in three weeks. Steve curls up closer and Eddie finds it really hard to care about anything else.

#not sure if this reads as jealous but I think Eddie is less petty in his jealousy. he doesn’t need to worry that Steve is going somewhere #he just needs Steve’s eyes on him. if that makes sense #this is almost long enough to be considered a full fic #eddie munson tiktok saga #steve harrington #eddie munson

[trinitywc]

the appeal to apathy

#he isnt gonna help with shit #warrior cats ocs #warrior cats oc #warrior cats comic #oc : blackwillow #oc : pinefrost #+ bayfeather design i need to update and a ghostly friend #TGL3 #i wanna do more comics and worry less about like. perfect lining and shit ig

[iamsonormalaboutninjago]

TW: Heavy talk about death

I think the reason why Kai and Cole had such a radical emotional change after March of the Oni was because Lloyd died

We’ve had plenty of characters die in Ninjago, and it always had a horrific affect on the ninja emotionally. Despite all their adventures and godlike powers they’re still older teenagers and young adults- of course when their sibling or lover dies in the fight they’re gonna want to avoid the fight itself

I think it was different for Lloyd tho- Lloyd despite losing the golden power is still the most powerful ninja. He’s not meant to lose, out of all of the ninja he’s the one who’s least likely to die and I think they know that.

So when he died facing down the Oni, even briefly, that would make the ninja doubtful and even afraid of their own mortality-

Kai’s hotheadedness and desire for the fury of battle dies when he see’s his little brother unresponsive on the floor. If he can die, so can Kai

Coles stubborn facade and die hard attitude gets a reality check when the kid who defeated the incarnate of evil lies dead in front of him

It would just be a reality check for them. Both have had to look death in the eyes many times before, but experiencing death is something that they themselves wouldn’t often think about.

Just a theory

#yes I know it was really cause S11 sucked #I just like to connect the dots for shows and make up canon explanations for things that only happened cause of decisions in our world #it’s fun #I also only did cole and jay cause their character changes caused them to be more timid #Jays was about being less selfish which I think is because his selfishness was caused by being scared #so he’d horde what makes him happy and would be terrified if it seemed like it was leaving #sadly he needed to have the yin yang bond with Nya to finally see she wasn’t leaving him #so he didn’t have to worry anymore #ninjago #lego ninjago #ninjago secrets of the forbidden spinjitzu #ninjago kai #ninjago cole #kai smith #cole brookstone

[stuckinapril]

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#Bisan’s voice memo made me go insane I haven’t been able to sleep all night and now I’m just up w crushing anxiety about it #I need to go on a run or something but I have to study #I just feel physically sick and idk what to do with myself #I just wish people didn’t have to die #Please don’t be worried about me btw I’m fine I just feel wired. Idk #I usually don’t share stuff like this bc I don’t want people to get worried or for it to distract from my posts but I just wanted #to say something so I can feel less alone about it #Bc I know a lot of people on here really care #I need to get up and get my day started eventually but im like . Peaking #And I haven’t eaten anything in like 19 hours i feel empty in every sense of the word #p

[sysig]

Flowey has become my on-theme spacefiller and he’s so happy about it (Patreon)

#Doodles #UT #Flowey #Lol #He's a perfect spacefiller! He's tiny so he can fit anywhere but his text can also be as big or small as needed #He ends up reacting to nearby doodles in inappropriate ways which is fitting lol #Like the UGHHH one was in reaction to babybones lol ♪ They're so cute! And he is tired #Mostly he's just being silly and grumpy normal-style tho haha #He is also a great expression of my frustration with hell boxes ughhh (lol) #It's nice though since lately I've been less bothered with leaving some extra space on the page :) #He can still pop up! But just as an invitation not as a necessity #It's nicer to have a fully filled page of course haha but it's not so bad to have a little extra space here and there #And mostly to not have Worry about it to not be stressed about Having to fill a page #Still - having a little extra with a funny face hehe that I got toss into the mix and make my brain happy - it's nice! :D #Options ♪

[damsxlette]

the photographer is plaguing my thoughts

#niki the photographer #dol niki #degrees of lewdity #I need them in away that is concerning to feminism #mental health professionals worry about me #as you can see i lost the battle against gibing him long hair #I'm a weak woman ✊🏽😔 #Niki is always amab for me but I like to think they could care less about pronouns #sketchybun

[ganondoodle]

its kinda weird to think but in my comics story ghirahim is probably the most 'normal' one of the main characters

he still has his dad master after all

#ganondoodles talks #zelda #i keep thinking i need to make ghirahim more fked up but then i remember that happens through losing the only thing he cares about #...and in my story not jsut demise but also hylia and fi bc yes he likes all of them #i keep feeling like im letting down ghirahim fans bc hes not yet like in skyward sword #and thats two points im worried about bc demise isnt the kind of evil monster most might expect #and yes demise i ghirahims dad- more or less literally #he is forged from a part of demises own spirit AND was raised by him like a son #and while losing their home fked them both up ghirahim still cared the most about demise #:^)))

[mifflebat]

emerged from the depths to bring This Accursed Hedgehog

christened Tempest it/its

#own art #sth #sonic oc #the blue makes the grey look less grey and more blue FUCK #it’s okay i need to just throw art down and i’m relatively proud of this even though it’s not actually finished #it’s finished ENOUGH i need to feed the masses #don’t worry about the fact it’s not in the official style #i got fed up with the proportions and i needed to make something Long and Worm-On-A-String esque #anyways hope you guys r good #i’m putting this on queue i can’t actively press the post now button without getting strangely nervous

[vonnegutcunt]

If anyone is interested in drawing commissions I am doing them again 😲 40 dollar for headshots, 60 dollar half body 100 dollar full body fully rendered. sketches, lineart, painted portraits etc. .Let's talk! anything full rendered will be in a 50-100 dollar range depending. I'm only a dm away and don't bite (promise)

#cowboy kandi #i do not urgently need money However it would be nice to not have to worry or at least worry a little less about an upcoming expense 👍

[butchratchettruther]

Thinking about a the vampire dies in no time au with arlefuri. Just this fearsome, threatening, deadly calm (and also good with kids but shhh) vampire hunter Arlecchino turning up to slay a vampire nicknamed the goddess of the waters of blood or whatever in order to rescue this child she’s kidnapped only to turn up to realise that this vampire is actually a cringefail dramatic spoiled brat of a vampire who dies if she so much as comes into contact with a stiff breeze, and the child broke into her home to play her video games (Furina’s favourite is ace attorney) and the ACTUAL menace in this situation is the child. Then Arlecchino accidentally blows up Furina’s castle and when she returns home Furina has moved into her house (she found the directions on Arle’s website) and she just has to put up with this absolute loser of a vampire housemate/coworker and definitely not have feelings for her. At least Furina can cook ig

#genshin impact #arlecchino #furina #arlefuri #the vampire dies in no time #tvdint #Neuvillette would be a much less indulgent Draus (although he’d still spoil her out of worry bc Furina is WEAK in this au) #the other archons would form the family (Raiden Shogun would be Aunt Gorgona. important note) #maybe Zhongli would be the progenitor? #Lyney Lynette and Freminet would all be vampire hunters Arlecchino has taken under her wing #we need someone to venomously and irrationally HATE Arle who can be besties with Furina #maybe Wrio? Childe? #not sure who would be Hinaichi either #CLORINDE #CLORINDE WOULD BE HINAICHI #I will be thinking about this for at least the next week thanks #also. murderous vampire hunter Arle. hehehehehe