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chirpsythismorning · 16 days
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S5 opener REAL
#byler#will byers#stranger things#every season besides s4-5 opens with non main characters#for el we got a flashback of the lab followed by her perspective in the scene directly after#and I think for Will we will see something similar#with us getting the flashback of him in castle byers in the UD#followed by him in the present in the scene after#but what exactly would warrant that memory being brought up in association with Will in the present?#mayhaps his connection to the mindflayer and the UD run deeper than we realize…#it’s likely not something he could just rid himself of in s2 and now he’s all good#he literally still feels a connection to everything he is feeling#that means he is still technically at risk of being the spy in some capacity#the massacre at Hawkins lab also was a guiding force for El discovering the ‘truth’ in s4#so it’s likely for Will this instance will operate in a way that re-contextualizes the events in the past up to now#like that time Will suggested they go to the hospital in s3 only for the flayed to be waiting for them#or how flayed Billy knew they were at the cabin…#all while Will was looking cryptic as hell in that scene watching over el#or the fact that he picked Billy in the first place the season after he focused on Will…#you know.. williams#I think the easiest way to introduce the castle Byers flashback is a dream honestly#specifically a dream within a dream#seeing that recent leak and Will looking like either he has a black or hasn’t slept in days#is giving very much ‘I am afraid to sleep bc I’m scared of what will happen’#I think dude is not exactly possessed in the sense that we already saw in s2 with like the particicles#but he’s still vulnerable#the door is still ajar…#no but fr this idea of opening a door in your mind was so blatant in st2 AND s3b of teen wolf#I think a big part of it will be guilting Will over the fact that Will has helped him before without Will telling the others#hence his weird vibe in s3… like he’s already successfully fucked with Will post s2 potentially with us being none the wiser aka here we go
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hope-i-dont-choke · 1 year
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Meet the Robinsons is a father-son movie and the best one
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symbioticsimplicity · 17 days
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Y’all what if Lilith didn't choose to take a vaycay in Heaven? What if she got redeemed?
#if she got redeemed and it got hidden by Adam and Lute#then having Sir Pentious pop up in front of Sera and Emily would have been also to keep that possibility from being hidden again#not sure what deal she would have made with Adam in that case#other than maybe to keep the exterminators from cleaning house altogether once they learned it was possible??#maybe give a double meaning to Adam's line about no one learning the truth???#and it would make sense Lilith seemed by all accounts a good wife and mother as well as a good queen who wanted the best for her people#so it stands to reason she could have been redeemed especially considering her sin wasn't like...huge#maybe she got taken out during an exorcism since she wasn't technically hellborn she would have been fair game#and it would make sense that she'd want to spare Lucifer the pain of finding her dead so she slunk off somewhere???#only to then find herself alive in heaven with no means of telling her family#it would also explain why she's just sitting alone on a beach instead of interacting with people when she's clearly a people person#she doesn't wanna be there so she'd rather be left alone#and if her deal was to help spare the rest of hell it would make sense as a perspective for having her go talk to Charlie#plus it gives a chance for her to be a rebellious little shit and tell Charlie her idea works and not to abandon it#if viv wants her and Luci to still be a thing and a healthy thing this would be a hell of an angle to hit it at#as well as giving Lucifer more motivation to take an active role in things#and maybe earn redemption for himself too??#idk but i think that would be really interesting especially with the fans expectations leaning so far the other way rn#hazbin hotel#hazbin hotel theory#hazbin hotel lilith
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arklay · 1 year
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DIANA x ALBERT WESKER / template.
#mine.#pair: ewskers#oc: diana#click for better quality ♡#posting this before i start changing more things lmao but yes i went nuts and made my own psd from scratch... don't look at me#changed ages to birth years cause of how much time passes in the story!! and also gives cheeky fc for you hehe runs away#the checkboxes make me scream like he almost had a clean sweep it's so funny. and he could've had one more i'm not even joking. cause their#first kiss was technically both of them... like idk how to explain this but they were already standing close then diana moved even closer#and was tracing his jaw and such and they were just lingering while holding eye contact but he was the one who actually closed the distance#so i mean... yeah. she was just about to and he beat her to it!! but diana made the move to get them into that position in the first place#is what i mean. i just couldn't give him more it was already too hilarious lmao#can't tell if i like the lil icons but i can't doodle so peace and love on planet earth but yes i'm happy with how this came out hehe#clueless levels are cause they are clowns <3 i have a lot of thoughts about all that but yes they both take hints in some aspects but i#think they both have trouble telling if they are genuine or not or if they are misreading the situation or whether something is romantic or#not (unless ofc it's over the top and ridiculous. ahem. excella. cough. explodes her with my mind) but yeah hit him with the tism so he's#learnt how to read people very well as he's gotten older but i think when it comes to actual just genuine like wanting to get to know#someone and not just someone wanting to get in his pants he seconds guesses it a lot. and diana's all stems from being rattled by her past#experiences oughguhh and i mean her not actually having experienced proper feelings for someone until him lmao but she's got trust issues#also there were so many tropes i could use (thank you to bestie elliot for helping me finds names of things) but i had to do i got you a#drawer specifically because that moment has such a special place in my heart!! like i need to finish the wip where i talk about that cause#it makes me so silly i'm not even joking#anyway omg i hope the mentions work because doing this on the legacy editor after copying the html for beta one because the image just#didn't want to work in the beta image for some reason rip
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hqmillioncorn · 8 months
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FFXIVWrite Day Two: Bark
With @winduphaurchefant 's Viggo Umbra
"And that was the only thing that happened?" Lunya asked. Babycorn walked around the room, juggling keeping Cherrypit entertained with a fish on string and talking to Lunya by linkshell, "Yeah! I promise! I talked with Viggo and everything and Cherrypit is totally-!" Babycorn was cut off by the sound of Cherrypit jumping onto the ceiling, the fish was in his mouth. "...as normal as he can be!"
One morning Cherrypit woke up with a pair of dog ears on his head and Babycorn had no idea what to do.
It had all happened so fast. 
Babycorn had just finished up putting the finishing touches on a sweater she had been up all night making as a present for Tilika. When she noticed the sun coming up she quickly made her way over Cherrypit’s designated play corner to close the curtains. 
“Sorry sun but I can’t have you burning my skin again!!” With an angry scowl on her face Babycorn closed the curtains. Just thinking about the week where her entire body burned after a fun day at the pool made her angry all over again. She was so caught up in the past that she failed to notice the blanket-covered lump right behind her. 
Then as she turned to go back to her sweater making, Babycorn tripped over the mysterious blanket lump and landed right on her face in the middle of a pile of Cherrypit’s toys. 
“Owwy…” Babycorn was well used to tripping and falling on her face by now but it didn’t mean that each fall hurt less.
Babycorn lifted her head up and looked up, noticing a small pink blanket flying over her. At that moment she remembered that Cherrypit had been playing ‘cocoon’ the night before and if history was any indication, he always fell fast asleep while playing this specific game. 
“Oh no…!” Babycorn panicked. What if she had woken Cherrypit up by accident?! Or even worse-?! Had taken off his cocoon before he had wanted to take it off?! She was truly the worst big sister ever!!!!
With leg strength that would be more useful in the middle of a battle rather than grabbing a flying blanket for her baby brother, Babycorn jumped up and snatched the blanket in mid-air. Babycorn flapped the blanket around to make sure it was still intact and sighed in relief. “Cherryyyy! I’m sorry I didn’t mean to-!” She turned around to give Cherrypit back his blanket and was met with a sight that left her speechless. 
Cherrypit was sitting down, sucking on his thumb and looking right at her, with a pair of dog ears on his head. 
“Haha! Bebe!! Yaaaay!!” He cheered and clapped for her. The ears on his head were wiggling alongside him. As if to prove to his sister that she wasn’t seeing things, Cherrypit reached up and wiggled them around himself. “Bebe! Look! Look! Bak! Bak!” he giggled loudly to himself and stood up to do a little dance. 
Babycorn fell to her knees and mentally began to beg her parents for forgiveness once again.
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Usually when it came to these sorts of things Babycorn would run over in a panic to the nearest person she knew that was smarter and wiser than her. And usually that person would be Lunya but Babycorn knew for a fact that Lunya wouldn’t be back for a few more days. 
(Meanwhile, thousands of miles away, Lunya couldn’t shake this feeling that something was wrong. Though she couldn’t discern it from the ‘Babycorn is eating bark off a tree again’ wrong or the ‘Babycorn thinks that a papercut she got is going to kill her’ wrong. Either way she would call about it in the morning.)
This left Babycorn with the smartest solution she could come up with. Which to be fair to her-was pretty smart. 
With Cherrypit riding on her head Babycorn made her way down the hall all the way to standing in front of the door to Viggo’s room. The scariest room in the entire mansion according to Coco. He had inadvertently filled Babycorn’s head with horror stories of what lied in this room. Horribly scary stories that Babycorn couldn’t bring herself to remember and not just because she forgot most of them and only remembered the feeling of sheer terror. 
But none of that mattered right now! She needed to be brave now! For Cherrypit’s sake!!
Babycorn began to pound on the door as hard as she could. “Viggo! Viggo! Mr.Umbra! Are you there!? I really need your help!! Please HEEELP!!! UWAUBBWUAWUANWAUNW!!!!” She loudly wailed. It should be noted that the current time was six in the morning. 
As the door opened Babycorn continued to panic and flail her arms around in the air. 
Viggo stood there watching her do this for a good few seconds before speaking up. “Good morning Babycorn, do you need anything?” Or was this the usual and regular morning wake up call by Babycorn that only wanted to say hi and then skip away. 
Babycorn froze and looked up, Cherrypit looked up alongside her. “Viggo!! I need your help!! It’s horrible!!!!!!” She was dancing around in a panic and screaming as loud as she could. 
“W-What?!” Viggo stepped outside of his room and held onto the door frame in shock, “Did something happen?!”
“I-I-It’s Cherry!!! Look!!! Something happened to him!!!” 
Babycorn moved her head into a position where Viggo could see Cherrypit. The dog ears that Babycorn had seen that morning were still on his head and unbeknownst to her, he had also grown a pair of little fangs in his mouth. 
Cherrypit gave Viggo a little wave, which Viggo returned with a little wave of his own. 
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Now that she was inside Viggo’s room Babycorn could clearly see that…
…Coco was 100 PERCENT RIGHT. This room was terrifying!! There were lots of glass bottles in things that she had no idea what they were and there were various papers all around her with big words she didn’t understand!!
“Brrrrr….” she trembled to herself. 
Viggo had placed Cherrypit on his couch and had begun a regular check-up on him. Which was usually a very short process when it came to Cherrypit, considering the lack of a heartbeat and the way most of his body was static and unchanging. 
…Most of the time at least.
“So, when did you first notice the ears?” Viggo handed Cherrypit a piece of candy to keep him distracted long enough for Viggo to examine his new ears closely. “Wow…Four pairs of ears…” Viggo said to himself, wondering if this somehow gave Cherrypit a heightened sense of hearing.
Babycorn ran over to where Viggo was and recounted the events of that morning.
“-And well it’s not like ears like that are a weird thing-! I know lots of people that look like that! Like B’ig and Cola and G’raha and B’rent and Linnet and Khloe and Zhloe and Centella and K’achow and-”
“Babycorn?”
“-Cait Sith and Vertical’s Brother Who’s Name I don’t Know and-”
“Babycorn.”
“-Himbo Hooters and Y’sthola and F'lhaminn-”
“Babycorn, do you want a candy?” 
Babycorn paused and looked over at Viggo like she was about to attack him. Really she wanted to attack the lollipop. “Omigosh! Would I?!” Babycorn jumped over and happily bit the lollipop and also Viggo’s hand. Something that Babycorn didn’t seem to notice she did but Viggo sure did. 
Babycorn had eaten both the lollipop and the stick. She thanked Viggo with a curtsy.
“N-No problem…A-Anytime Babycorn…” Viggo turned away and rubbed his hand which had a big ouchy on it now but he was being really brave about it. He may have been a doctor and not a dentist but he was fairly sure that lalafell teeth were not supposed to be that sharp. Ignoring the searing pain in his hand, Viggo continued to check over Cherrypit. Who happily continued to wiggle around in place. 
Babycorn popped out from behind the couch. “Is he dying?!” As usual she was jumping to the worst possible conclusions. 
“Well technically from what you already told me he’s already dead.” 
“Oh ya. That’s right!”
Cherrypit giggled, “Bebes funny!!” 
Viggo handed Cherrypit another piece of candy and let out a hum. “Cherrypit? Do you know where you got these ears from?” History had proven time and time again that Cherrypit remembered things much better than Babycorn did, and this time might be no different. 
Without any hesitation Cherrypit pointed straight at Viggo.
“BWA?! M-Me?!?!” 
Babycorn pushed herself up onto the couch and jumped in between Cherrypit and Viggo. “What did you do?” This was the scariest Viggo could ever recall Babycorn looking, even in the middle of battles.
Even so, he was determined to prove his innocence. “I didn’t do anything!!” Not that he could recall. “I promise!”
Evidently that was all the evidence Babycorn needed. Her deadly glare switched back to a cheerful smile. “Ok! If you promise!” she sat down and looked down at Cherrypit, her cheerful smile quickly switched back to her panicked expression. “NOOOOO CHERRYYY!!!” 
At the risk of having Babycorn turn his anger towards him again, Viggo decided to ask Cherrypit to clarify what he meant when he pointed to him. “Did I do something Cherry? Do you remember?” He watched earnestly as Cherrypit processed his question while he bit down on a piece of a steel ingot. 
Cherrypit looked up at him and smiled, one of his doggy ears wiggled. “Abbababayaaaaapoooogagagaweeeesaababanenebebeggyhabababa” he answered. 
“Ah. I see.” Viggo said. He did not see.
On the other hand, Babycorn had surprisingly stopped her panicking and let out a “Oooooohhh!!” Almost as she had understood the long string of baby babble that Cherrypit had just said. Mostly because she had. 
“Viggo! You did this!!” 
“H-Huh…?” That made two people saying he did this now.
Babycorn picked Cherrypit up and held him closer towards Viggo. “Rember’?! During dinner you were talking about how you could turn into a big doggy!! Cherrypit said he really liked that story and wanted to be more like you!!” That was what Cherrypit had told Viggo just now. He was really happy that Babycorn had been able to explain it. 
Viggo wanted to cry. “R-Really…?” He did remember talking about that particular topic yesterday but he was sure that Cherrypit hadn’t been listening at the time. Just how good was this kid’s hearing?? Besides that, it was really cute that Cherrypit wanted to be like him. 
Cherrypit let out a laugh and wiggled around some more. “Awoooooo!!” he laughed to himself.
Viggo and Babycorn let out a simultaneous “Awwww!” 
Though it didn’t worry Babycorn that her brother could grow dog ears in an attempt to imitate a grown-up he thought was cool, Viggo was a little concerned that Cherrypit found a way to do this. But before he could ask if Cherrypit had ever done something like this before…
“Haaaa! Vautreetrree!!”
Viggo looked over to Babycorn. “What did he say this time?” he asked.
“Oh! He said he was gonna go and eat some people later! Just like you! But don’t worry I’ll tell him that’s a bad idea! Haha!” Throughout that entire sentence Babycorn’s smile did not waver. 
“Yeah that’s…” Viggo adjusted his glasses and noticed the wagging tail that Cherrypit now sported. “...That’s a good idea.
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goldiipond · 11 months
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i adore thinking about the fucked up tpn stuff that was either not considered during the writing process or deliberately left unexplored.
tpn really said 'each house has about 6 shipments and receives about 6 new children to replace them each year. the minimum age a child can be shipped out is 6. tpn begins with conny's shipment in october, after which dominic is the only remaining 6 year-old at the house' without even considering the implications of that. how about 'we know literally nothing about anyone from the age group between anna+nat's and thoma+lanni's groups because theyre all gone by the time the story starts' also literally no one ever brings them up. or my personal favorite of 'isabella painstakingly hand-made little bunny for conny's 6th birthday. conny turned 6 in september, about a month before she was shipped out' like do you think isabella was at least a little pissed about that. i like to think she was
#skye's ramblings#its totally my love of unexplored side characters but. i do get a little unwell over dominic sometimes#like. hello??? its like a well-established thing that kids in the same age group usually have closer bonds w eachother than others#youare telling me. he watched all 5 of what were probably his closest friends leave in the span of a year. this is what you are telling me#i mean maybe yvette could be considered part of his age group since they were technically born the same year??#but her birthday is also literally new years eve n shes usually grouped in w the 5 year-olds as a result#also the shipment record in the anime says that hao and sadie were 6 but the 2 kids that left before them were 7#so maybe dominics age group was just particularly small but. he still watched them all leave in a very short amount of time#canot imagine how his conversation w don and gilda abt the escape went. god this series can fit so much childhood trauma in it#also w how close thoma and lanni are dominic and conny were also probably really close due to being the only ones left of their group#thinking abt don n dominic bonding amd sharing happy memories of conny. ijust live for older/younger gracefield kid interactions#also shamelessly stealing rachels hc of ray using his photograpic memory to share happy memories of everyone who died at gracefield#ithink dominic would really like hearing abt his friends from ray. especially happy/funny stuff he was too young to remember#and also literally any interaction w ray n the younger kids is everything to me. oh hes healing hes a good big brother... dont talk to me#'this is all most likely just a plothole' well where you see a plothole i see a GOLDMINE OF TRAUMA AND CHARACTER DYNAMIC EXPLORATION. anywa
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milf-harrington · 10 months
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why do people get pets this is fucked
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idiaa-shroxd · 11 months
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YOUR WRITING IS SO PRETTY I COULD EAT IT. YOU CHARACTERIZE THE CHARACTERS SO WELL TOO!!!
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thank you so much!! ʕ•ᴥ•ʔ happy you think my writing is very pretty!! and also makes me happy you think my characterization was correct.
when writing for characters always take a bit of extra time to ensure they sound good? thinking about having an actual conversation with them for a minute and what they’d do! ♧ personally a big fan of viginettes since that reveals a lot of a character more than mainstory.
Σ('◉⌓◉’) mini (huge) rant within the tags of the way of my process to understand a character!!
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#i’ve been trying to work on characterization with trey for example because in the main story he is relatively nice#but within his viginettes he’s a bit more than that like a slightly smug teaser than boy next door.#the characters tend to have complexity rather than one dimension traits people tend to stick by#which isn’t a bad thing but to start writing it could help kick you off but majority of the time your characters do have many emotions to#aspirations- such as vil being mean BUT that coming with subtle charm of care- he does not derive pleasure from purposefully degrading other#he firmly believes he can see the beauty in everyone if they try and he attempts to get others to apply themselves so they can be pretty#he does not go around like ew you’re ugly go away unless you have a negative attitude like leona who purposefully does not put any effort#but sometimes his pursuit for beauty can go out of hand like with epel or neige but his dorm ssr perfectly illustrates he knows what he does#he does not always explain himself with having epel do heavy lifting which only helps epel improve but he would not tell him this directly#there are other characters i can rant about the way i write. such as sebek being a malleus fanboy#but that was not a central part of his personality to warrant every fic just mentioning malleus each sentence#the best way to learn how to write for him would be looking at his viginette or his event story without tsunotarou!! he is quite a wonderful#-ly designed character but gets overlooked due to his ‘louder’ part of his personality. but he genuinely has captivated me as a character#the best examples for eng players would be during harveston- when he was extremely passionate about what he did with a soft side for his#plush!! he’s a big softie. he’s just very confused because his grandfather openly hates humans. he acknowledges marja and complimented her#he’s not hating humans for no reason but because it was taught to him. he’s trying his best to be what he is but you can tell he is not too#prideful that he would refuse to acknowledge marja just for being a human. in fact in his viginette he HELPS humans with their lumber#though that is technically due to him being confident he can do so compared to a human thanks to being a guard for Malleus but he is quite#happy to be complimented!!-. he is a character with more depth: ceremony viginette next#he tells yuu to just let him handle things since he’s stronger which shows he’s also blunt and says things without thinking about others at#times. but people are MISSING out on fics with sebek yuu and tea bonding over tsunotarou because he has no hostility to those who like#tsunotarou. he is happy to teach!! his other viginette think pe??: lilia tricks him into eating steak with yogurt iirc and he does honestly#it’s disgusting but he trusts lilia and 100% believe the old fae. THE POTENTIAL. authors need to use that?? just lilia messing with him or#how he can sometimes be so gullible you can get him to trust you mixed together with how attached he was to squirrel plush#he’s actually such a cute character.#there’s also Kalim who KNOWS there are bad people. he is not innocent as he knows there are bad people that want him gone#his least favorite food is curry because Jamil got sick for a week after taste testing his food.#Kalim just chooses. he wants to believe the kindness of the world not due to purity but due to the fact he does not want to live in constant#fear. which in itself already makes him more than one dimension. he may seem carefree but there’s room to play with when describing him??…#questions of styx.
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tragedykery · 4 months
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I love going completely overboard with worldbuilding as soon as I get an idea for an au. will this be mentioned in the fic? probably not. am I doing it anyway? of course
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running-in-the-dark · 4 months
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aw man. for a minute there I thought I might be allowed to take Ibuprofen again since I stopped taking the antidepressant that I was on. but sadly no, you're also not supposed to take it when you're on the anxiety medication I'm on 😔
#I guess I could take it anyway... but the leaflet says not to so I won't#this reminds me of thr last qtime I went to the ER because of my stomach pain (that turned out to be gallstones)#before I went there I called the.. idk on call emergency doctor or whatever#and it was this awful awful woman. anyway she said I should just take Ibuprofen so I said I'm not allowed to take that because it's a#blood thinner and I'm not allowed to take those#and she was really mad and said no it's not. it's pain medication 🙄#I was in so much pain and also kind of stunned by her reaction so I just. hung up#like I know it's not. I guess technically considered a blood thinner? but it does increase the risk of bleeding and that's why you can't#take it with certain other meds#which I think is irrelevant tbh. it's pretty clear what I meant and it's kind of. scary that this doctor would tell someone who says they'r#not allowed to take Ibuprofen to take it anyway. especially since I was having extremely bad stomach pain with no known cause at that point#like that feels dangerous#but anyway what do I know (nothing)#I miss Ibuprofen though 😔 I hate paracetamol#personal#cw medical#(also just. generally. being told to 'just take Ibuprofen' when you've already told this person that you've taken a looot of stronger pain#meds already and they're not doing anything at all is just. wow such great advice thank you! so helpful!)#(I mean I'm glad she was useless because that's why I went to the ER and they finally found out what's wrong. but still 🙄)
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maddy-ferguson · 1 year
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once you see the single nancy vision you really can't unsee it
#single nancy truther 4 life#since as we all know i hate st4ncy right after volume 2 i was like. this makes me want to go back to being really into j4ncy just out of#spite but i couldn't do it because i don't...actually care about j4ncy anymore and i haven't in years#but nancy not ending up with either of them makes so much sense narratively for all three of them and it's half as plot twisty as byler#since stoncy's the more publicized love triangle and is seen as left open-ended by the ga while willelmike...isn't#which is fun. nancy ending up single being unexpected#and something that's really funny is that people who are rooting for j4ncy are like 'well they'll just have a conversation in which#jonathan tells her the truth and then well they'll figure out. emerson or lenora or long distance they'll make it work' even though that#could be said about mlvn too and that's what mlvns expect i mean it's possible...technically...el's like oh that's not my painting btw and#mike says oh that's fine and el says i don't like that you see me as your superhero and mike's like oh don't worry i don't. and then#they end up together like😭 but we don't expect that to happen because there's this elaborate plot line#+ you could lowkey also say they built them up for two seasons only to break them down because they spent season 3 fighting and then well#Fighting (and i dont like how they made up. but thats personal. maybe) and in season 4 he was lying to her and she was ogling her ex..kinda#and i mean it's not like i have a vendetta against them like i do mlvn and st4ncy i'm just saying#and like i say: brf slt
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#mom says that the reason she didnt comfort me while i was having one of the biggest meltdowns of my life was cus i wouldnt tell her what was#wrong and i clearly was capable#like i hate to tell you but just because im technically capable doesnt mean i can communicate easily#im too upset to be able to communicate my thoughts to you about why im upset#she literally told me that its annoying when i cry and scream without telling her whats wrong#she said and i quote I could ask anyone in the world and all of them would be annoyed by this#she said if i just said Sorry i cant calm down i cant talk right now that would be fine like hello? is that not fucking obvious?#i said wouldnt this (being a more concerning thing) make you more sympathetic and she said no it just makes me more annoyed and this is the#normal response#she said even when normal people are throwing up and retching they can communicate whats wrong#that im just pretending to not be able to talk to her to manipulate her and that im being disrespectful by intentionally getting louder and#more disruptive#my parents are convinced i do things on purpose to guilt trip them all the time and i dont understand it because theyve known me for#my whole life and thats the most out of character thing i could ever possibly do but they wont even consider that im not doing that#i asked her why she didnt believe me when i said i wasnt manipulating her and she said I do believe you! when did i ever say i didnt#i dont understand. shes convinced that every normal person behaves like her#and the worst of it is i know shes trying her best and yet still refuses to acknowledge the fact that#I DONT FUCKING MAKE MYSELF MORE MISERABLE ON PURPOSE!#she doesnt seem to understand that overreaction can be conscious and still unavoidable#like yes its not like if i tried i absolutely couldnt calm down and talk to you#but thats not helpful! i dont WANT to try because i am screaming so hard that mythroat will be sore for an entire day!#because i am upset!#i am too upset to care that i can tecxhnically stop#i just dont understand why its so hard to believe im not manipulating her when im genuinely upset#i dont understand why she looks at me like a loose screw. something annoying but not something worth fixing#its always bad enough to warrant anger and never bad enough to warrant a solution#because im crazy but im fine and im not disabled at all
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skrunksthatwunk · 10 months
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im finally going to replay y0...
#it's been a little over 2 years#and ive never replayed any of the games before so im very interested in what this is gonna be like#i just played them slowly and in order + lad ishin at the end#i kinda wanted to do the judgments first but uh. they're never on sale <3#someday though#ugh im nervous though#not about this but like. ok real ones will remember that a couple of months ago i mentioned i finally asked my mom for like. mental health#assistance that wasnt her telling me to stop spiralling. the two appointments we could do were like. next week or october#i technically have enough time to get my shit together but ive also like. never talked to an actual doctor about this stuff before#and she kept asking me if i could be more specific than 'general longterm mental health issues' (and anxiety which she added)#but like. i dont wanna tell her Shit about that yknow#especially not like. just woken up at 2pm no preparation#also she added anxiety on her own. so you KNEW it was an issue and you didn't fucking do anything about it? at all??#truthfully i don't think it's nearly as big of an issue as before. i get stressed about stuff sure but it's pretty circumstantial#like these days i dont have anxiety about much of anything because im not trying to decide my entire future between 8 hour days in the#bright lights and eye contact factory#girl you don't have any idea what we're getting into by doing this#anyway if i get an ocd diagnosis that'll be the most awkward because that's the only one they actively joke about and that i've butted head#with them on. (i mean theyre also shit to npd/aspd ppl i just haven't chewed them out for it yet bc every time i do that i end up useless#for the rest of the day at least and i gotta pick my battles)#and idek what i wanna do about the Probably Autism going on man. i've been thinking about doing foster care/adoption for years now#when im older/if im ever financially stable. a diagnosis could basically nuke my options for that#but they'd NEVER believe a self diagnosis#whatever FUCK JT ITS YAKUZING TIME!!!!!!!!!#OH AND IT'S THE FIRST TIME DOING ONE ON LEGEND#which im nervous about bc i never really play stuff on anything but normal#so uh. 😬😬
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opens-up-4-nobody · 11 months
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#i truely have so much anger built up inside me about my job. ive done a very good job of making it unbearable#and after taking a 10 day vacation. plus 2 days of not working bc im sick. i really dont wanna go back#i was planning to take 3 days to not do fucking anything but my boss just emailed me with some time sensitive#logistical things. so like i guess i gotta fucking do that tomorrow. i started reading the email and it made my head hurt#and she started it off like. hopw ur feeling better and i dont wanna cause stress but...#like bro. listen. if u tell me these things u put them in my head and i csnt stop thinking abt them until theyre done. and its not her#fault bc im the one that put myself in a place where im barely keeping it together. its just frustrating#bc it feels like hope u feel better but also kill urseld 💖 but again thats just how it feels bc im so. idk how to describe it im like in a#state of post burnout. im sitting in the ash. alone in a desolate landscape and its like jesus how tf do i fix this?#and i cant even run out my anger rn bc im sick. and i mean i have the energy to run i dont feel lethargic but like i doubt that would aid#recovery lol. ugh. 2 months. thats all. then i move away. assuming i find a place to live lol. bc i currently haven't yet#but whatever. assuming i get better quickly and dont get worse and dont get covid on top of this cold bc my dad got covid#it will have been a bit of a blessing i came back sick bc i have a clear justification for not working and for telling people to fuck off#when they ask for things from me. like today a lab mate asked if i could sample Monday. which it technically#a holiday but i probably would have said yes if i wasnt sick. and i would have had to teach undergrads some bullshit friday if i wasnt sick#instead i just did nothing all day bc i almost moved bsck my flight and didnt leave home until the weekend anyway#i guess its good i didnt bc then i would have been stuck in ohio bc my dad found out he had covid yesterday#idk its all just frustrating bc im halfway in a transition and im not doing very well but i cant do anything to fix things until i leave#the southwest. like i dont even kno if i have health insurance rn. my benifits change request was processed but like does thst mean it was#approproved? fucking idk. so everytime i do anything i imagine a worstcase scenario where i end up hospitalized and damned to an empty#bank account or eternal medical debt. tho my mum said they passed a law where they arnt allowed to do thst to u anymore 🤷‍♂️#whatever. im annoyed. i dont wanna work 😫#unrelated
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pearl-kite · 2 years
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Okay, follow-up got a reply that they're having trouble getting in touch with my references, which is mixed news. Two of them are overseas but have current emails, but they said they've been trying to email my last principal and haven't heard back, and I don't remember including her as a reference, only in my job history. I haven't talked to her about it, so I guess now I do need to 😩
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#i feel so guilty about this thing but it’s not really my fault but it’s a little bit my fault#this girl at work who works at the same business but not in the same department as me was asking if she could use the machine#and i was like??? do you know how to use this machine???#and she was like yeah i use them all the time at school and i was like okay well#i mean technically no but if no one catches you who’ to say#and she was like oh i don’t want to be a troublemaker or anything and i was like well you could ask my manager about it if you want but#the answer is probably no but like i said no one is ever paying attention up here so ¯\_(ツ)_/¯#and she was like well can you help me with the alts and i was like yeah sure! bring your dress and i’ll take a look at it#but if it’s a lot of work i might have to charge you#and she was like okay yeah!#and then i just found out that she not only did not know how to use the machine#but she tried to CALL THE OTHER TAILORS TO HELP HER USE IT#and when they told her no you can’t use this she ARGUED WITH THEM AND TOLD THEM I SAID SHE WAS ALLOWED#and like bitch???????#what the actual fuck i trusted you?????#i feel bad but i’m not going to lose my job over this i will throw you completely under the bus and say you’re a total liar#like i literally told you it’s not allowed and don’t get caught like the fuck????#you don’t both call the cops on yourself and also tell them the name of some rando who told you to do it#ugh anyway i was so stressed and it’s fine bc no one believes her bc that would be insane#but i feel guilty like i should have just said no and not trusted her and i don’t want her to get fired or anything but also what the fuck#anyway sorry for the dump lmao i just need to get it off my chest
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