some days i get so frustrated with myself for not being able to do more things in a day.. ik that’s stupid but like why am i not better at using my time… and they all seem like little things but they aren’t….everything takes so long.. or maybe i just have awful time management/no attention span. i wish i could sleep only when i had to. i would have so much more time. i also wish doing things just came more easily to me. ideally my sunday would’ve gone like this. wake up, make breakfast, head to work till noon, nap once 2hrs once i’m back, work continuously on class work till 6, cook dinner and eat, work on an internship app, read before bed. but instead this is how my sunday went: wake up, hurriedly grab a croissant and eat it while driving to work (dangerous. do not try), nap after work, and then spend the rest of the day half heartedly trying to get assignments done and suddenly it’s 2 am and nothing else got done. not even the damn assignment. to be fair this thing is supposed to take two weeks to finish so at least i got started but still. am i just lazy? like internally i want to get things done so badly but.. that’s it. none of it really comes out in what i do.. every day i wake up and try really hard to have a better day where i use my time wisely but it just slips out of my hands like always. too much other stuff happens around me too. my house is a very difficult place to focus in but i think mostly it’s me. i am so scatterbrained it’s a mental hell each day. i literally can’t get shit done how have i made it this far honestly. i try not to pile too many things in my to-do list so i usually only keep 3 goals for each day and that makes it much more manageable but god… i wish i was more put together. i wish i was that person that cooked often and painted on weekends and could focus long enough to get basic tasks done. it makes me kind of really sad honestly. i feel like i’m not using my time in the best way and i’m just slowly dying.