#I know this song almost by heart

[catastrxblues]

EVERMORE by taylor swift (feat. bon iver) — “and i was catching my breath, floors of a cabin creaking under my step. and i couldn’t be sure, i had a feeling so peculiar, this pain wouldn’t be forevermore.”

my #swiftiegiftexchange2024 for @lovesickallovermybed!!!! 🫶🏽🫶🏽

#HIII HII HII how are you <3333 SO sorry for being slightly to the party but HII #i saw that you are currently recovering from surgery and i‘m wishing you all the best and =a faster recovery 💗💗 i hope you’re okay and #are feeling and getting much better every day 💗💗💗 #i’m your anon swiftie and it was really nice to get to know you!! 🫶🏽 you’re super super talented and your gifs are so so STUNNING #it was such an honor to be your anon for this event and i had such a fun time making this ! #i was SO excited when i saw that some of your favorite ts songs are evermore and idsb. really really sorry i didn’t have the time to make #something for both because my laptop went dead for sometime and i ended up only having the time to make this 😭 #evermore the song is something i hold and cherish deeply in my heart too and it was something that has seen some of the worst of my days #and so i decided to do this song for your gift instead! #i can’t really gif much and couldn’t even try #because my laptop in which i had installed ps in went rip so i decided to make you this #(slightly messy sorryy) scrapbook of my view of the song! i tried to incorporate some of the descriptive lyrics and the objects mentioned i #the song and i hope you like it 😁! #and because i think evermore is also something that IS meant to be incredibly personal to the people that listen to it #i decided to include some photos (+added highlights on every lyric that has ever touched me which is almost everything as you can see 😭) #of some of my journal pages on which i rewrote the entire lyrics (except bon iver’s addition 😅) in ‘21 when the song meant to me the most! #i hope you're having a great dayy love 🫶🏽🫶🏽 #SwiftieGiftExchange2024 #taylor swift #tswiftedit #evermore #*my edits #nadine.mp3

[uncanny-tranny]

Every time you think, "Oh, I don't have [x condition], I'm basically cured!" that is the devil talking. You aren't cured, you are likely going through periods of your symptoms waning. Don't cease whatever you're doing to help yourself, like medication, for instance, because it's likely you still have the conditions or symptoms, even if you aren't noticing them as frequently or severely.

#disability #this is a callout post about myself #i genuinely thought my GAD was cured because my symtoms had lessened significantly since i've transitioned #turns out my anxiety is just as killer and awful - it's just muted slightly #i am currently laying down with my brain convinced that i'm About To Have a Heart Attack #(and not in the fun demi lovato kind of way) #(that song is a little over a decade old... what the bingle) #anyway please don't do what i do whenever i experience ANY level of symptoms getting better because it will shock you... #...when those symptoms come back and remind you that you Do Indeed have [x condition] #i now know how a wolf girl feels when they say they are Actually Feral because that's how i feel rn 💀 #even I'M not immune to the idea that the things i suffer from are things that can Disappear Magically 😭 #it's wishful thinking and almost like... imposter syndrome because you're *so* desperate to prove to yourself you're Fine or A Faker #and you become hyperfixated on picking every tiny little waxing and waning of symptoms like you're a fortune teller #and honestly it's really stiffling and it's a lot of work to kill the cop in your head that says you are secretly Not All That Affected... #...that you're either exaggerating to the Extreme or you're just a bored faker who's trying to Get Attention (bad somehow)

[serendipititties]

Some of you are like "Mother is innocent and can do no wrong!! Mother has been taken advantage of and been oppressed at every turn!!!! Jail to you!!! Jail to you for a thousand years u filthy misogynist!!" And mother is a conventionally attractive white blonde girl with rich parents who dated a highschooler at 23 and can't be a associate with someone who isn't a sex offender/apologist to save her life. Good job.

#anti taylor swift #i forget some of u are really THAT white american #like its a disease sometimes i swear #ya i know theres poc and queer people who also do this #breaks my heart fr #she likes minorites the way she writes her songs #almost entirely for PR and only to line her pockets

[mitamicah]

An aromantic autistic reading of Joker Out's "Bluza"/"the Blouse"

I have a few words about Bluza. The Blouse.

When I first heard the title, I felt a connection to this song yet in a very tongue-in-cheek way. Because I read the working title was a nod to the white holed sweater blouse (the slut shirt) Bojan forgot at Jere’s place last autumn. But then thanks to JokerOutSubs I realized that this song really speaks to me in another way.

Disclaimer: I am speaking about this from an autistic aroace point of view and as a person who has masked most their lives and doesn’t drink. I hope to explain why this matters in the post below.

The lines that especially spoke to me are these: Ja ko pijana budala Ali čaše nisam popio Jamislim da sam se zaljubio u tebe

I’m acting like a drunk idiot But I haven’t had a single glass I think I’ve fallen in love with you

As a person who has spend most my life being critical about what to say, do, and how I show of myself to people I see the drunkenness described here not as literal but as a form of unmasking. When you find that one person you feel so comfortable around that you know that they won’t leave you or care if you stop being presentable in the eyes of society.

The result is that you may seem drunk and out of character when you are close to them. Drunk as in unlike yourself but also much more yourself. You dare to be authentic and to be silly and vulnerable because this person next to you gets you. No alcohol you could consume would fill you with as much giddiness as being with this person does. There is something about this one person that just speaks to you and let you know that you are safe.

While not having been drunk myself this is what I expect is the feeling most drunk people are searching for: the experience of not caring about what other people might think about them anymore. They just exist outside time and space in a bubble of bliss.

The person in the song is that for Bojan. His bubble of bliss – his safe space.

I’ve been lucky enough to have people like that too for small periods of time. And just like the next line I have felt very strongly connected to the person in those moments thinking “is this was love feels like?”. And here I don’t necessarily mean romantic attraction/love. I mean love as in a deeper, more profound level. The love that is outside of bodily desire. It is two spirits – two beings finding a home in the other person. A home where you can be giddy and drunk without having touch a single drink.

It is no secret that I love the idea of queer platonic love. When I read this, I read it as queer platonic. I read it as beautifully strange, brotherly, romantic, and platonic all at once.

The chorus kind of develops this feeling and adds and aromantic layer to it: Baš ja Koji nisam verovao Da za nekim biću lud

Yes, me who didn’t believe I would be crazy about someone

I read this as a very much an aspec experience.

You may have gone most of your life feeling othered for not experiencing those feelings of romantic attraction the world around you constantly tell you that you should.

Then this person comes along. This person that is your haven, that you can fool around with and open up around. There’s something that seems different, seems honest and so it brings you that feeling of bliss I mentioned earlier. That feeling the world around you have tried to tell you exists for years, yet you never believed would happen to you.

You may have believed yourself to be broken or maybe the world around you too much for seemingly being crazy about love. But now in this moment of bliss, drunk without having drunk, you get it. You want to be with this person, do all the silly things the media tells you are romantic. Not because you are forced to but because it would mean spending more time with your person. And every little second you can spend with your person feels like a blessing.

That is my take on the song at least. Thank you for reading.

#my first try making an analysis that I can remember so please be kind #I just couldn't stop thinking about it #almost cried when I read the lyrics #and this may just be a sappy song idk but it spoke to me this way #so I offer you my aro and ausitic reading of it it here #thank you to jokeroutsubs for the quick translation that gave me the chance to babble about this song #I feel so honored having been in the crowd that heard it the first time live :'3 #I really adore sta bih ja too but mostly for how catchy it is #it is pretty as well when you know the lyrics #but this prechorus chorus just spoke to my aching queer platonic aro heart #okay I am done venting now #joker out #bluza #the blouse #mine #micahs thoughts

[candied-cae]

All I have to say about tonight's episodes is that I deserve a new Frenchie song RIGHT GODDAMN NOW

I have been waiting oh so very long, looking forward to my little guy's delightful little jams, and now that The Revenge isn't just the most depressing boat sailing across the Caribbean, he better put that fucking lute in his hands and get to work.

I need a new sprightly little pirate song to play when I need a dopamine hit. Please, Frenchie, have mercy on me.

Please, David Jenkins and Joel Fry, have mercy on me.

#Cae Has Lots of Feelings About Our Flag Means Death #I need a new Frenchie song like I need air to breathe #You don't get it - I almost cried in my car today zooming down the highway when 'A Pirate's Life' played bc I missed that vibe so much #I miss the joy and upbeat catchy little tune #And I was so hoping we'd get more than two this season #And I know we're only 3 episodes in #BUT I NEED THEM NOW #I can't be expected to continue on this mortal coil in this condition #I need my jaunty little seafaring tunes to survive in this world like how some people need cigarettes #Give me my Frenchie singing fix or I'll start shaking and writing more Room People Fics to fill the whole in my heart #Our Flag Means Death #OFMD #Our Flag Means Death Season 2 Spoilers #Our Flag Means Death Spoilers #OFMD Spoilers #OFMDS2 #OFMD s2 spoilers #OFMD Frenchie #Joel Fry

[swinging-stars-from-satellites]

connection between "the poets are just kids who didn't make it" -> "I went to sleep a poet and I woke up a fraud" -> "I'll check in tomorrow if I don't wake up dead"

also a branch off there that ties Hand of God with TMOTM but that's actually a lyric comp I'm planning to make soon more than an actual note

#lftos essay #I'm just posting notes now. apparently. I'm trying to write out an outline rn skfnskngsk #EDIT the connection between hand of god and tmotm is the fraud/liar bit #hand of god is very eh whatever about it. hand to my heart gun to my head swear to God I'm through with this - I'm the worst liar I know #tmotm is CONCISE and DIRECT and SPECIFIC. I went to sleep a poet and I woke up a fraud #which. idk when tmotm was written exactly. patrick wanted it on the album proper instead of dark alley and champagne #but the song released in march 2006. I'm just saying that in a lot of ways hand of god feels like a draft almost #and MUCH of what it says both literally and thematically is transfered into tmotm #the contrast of the 2nd verse of hand of god vs the clarity and precision of ''went to sleep a poet and woke up a fraud'' ? #um.... hm. I won't conjecture #especially not on main. but....... I do have An Emotion about this ngl #ok that was just for my own notes ignore me. pencil in hand I'm just trying to make this work #moving on.

[akhaste]

Lee Yoon - Song of the Bandits Sketchs/ Studies 1920's & 1890's

Bonus: 1920's, but without the 'stache

#song of the bandits #lee yoon #kim nam gil #도적 #descriptions are on the 1890's close ups if u want the general historic background/ timeline I'm thinking of! #The hold this show & this man have over all my remaining brain cells #I'm still very HHHHHHHH about all the backstory they apparently saved? for S2?? and going all AHHHHH about it #also early 1900s fashion my beloved <3 #but ngl lil salty we were likely robbed of the hanbok content so i'm adding it here <3 #and Yoon w/ long hair...our time was too short but you will live forever in my heart <3 <3 <3 #so here ya go. very much in the spirit of make the content you wanna see #side note: while figuring out the timeline for this I realized there is. a 9 year gap. between Yoon's emancipation and the ball scene #9 YEARS. ALMOST A WHOLE DECADE. THAT WE KNOW 0 THINGS ABOUT. #LIKE WHAT WAS HE DOING THEN!!! HOW DID HE GET BY!! WHAT WAS HIS LIFE LIKE!!! WHAT WERE HIS RELATIONSHIPS LIKE!!!!! I WANNA KNOW!!!!! #this also means when we start the show it's been like. 20 years??? since Yoon was a free man??? #also somehow this makes his relationship with gwangil even more fucked up i don't know what to do with this 😭 #i mean it's assuming the timeline is strictly historical but #this is all i'm gonna think about now #I need every year and character in this show accounted for i'm not even joking #my art #my art*kng

[probablygayattorneys]

So as while you all know, I've been super excited that Ashley is coming to the switch, but something about it that I've kind of kept to myself because I wasn't able to describe it was also this feeling that something was off. It was just... not right. I thought maybe it was a kind of selfish apprehension, like perhaps I just was so used to this game being something it felt like only I knew about, and then it was announced in a direct with over a million people watching and it felt like my secret treasure wasn't a secret anymore, and while I am selfish and childish, I don't think it's that.

After watching this video, it seems more clear to me. This is not just remastering the game for the Switch, like the Ace Attorney games. This is a remake. This is an adaption. I understood that some changes would have to be made to change from a two screen, one of which is touch device to a single screen that technically has a touch screen but also needs to be able to be played with a controller, changes would have to be made, but not to this degree. This feels like a different game. Especially the graphics. They may be much more smooth and technically higher quality now, but the original also had a certain charm that I'll miss.

And taking into account all of this, I have a message just for Nintendo, so if you don't work at Nintendo, feel free to stop reading.

Look at me and listen closely. Do not even fucking LOOK at Kyle Hyde or anyone else at the Hotel Dusk or even the building itself unless you're going to respect it's incredible unique design and honor it for what it was. Out of the quadrinity of puzzle games I loved as a child, even now, Hotel Dusk reigns supreme in my heart. I know it's only a matter of time before you port him over but you better ONLY remaster him, not remake him like you did to Ashley. You show him and every single guest and employee at that hotel some respect or I'll show you my crossbow, got it?

#another code #another code recollection #trace memory (always forever in my heart that's the title) #ashley mizuki robbins #hotel dusk: room 215 #kyle hyde #despite my medical condition that causes really bad memory problems #like i have almost no memories that are over 15 years old #and even since then it's incredibly spotty #i remember hotel dusk incredibly vividly #the song timeless is actually about me and kyle hyde #i would know him anywhere in any lifetime #even in the 1500s i would know him #even on a crowded street in 1944 #that game is a huge part of who i am today #and if they fuck him up then it will fuck up part of who i am #queue takumi defense squad #Youtube

[walmart-miku]

This one's for all the trans girlies and girls that struggle with girlhood

Also translated lyrics

#its the trans song to me #but i felt this song in my soul as a girl who was never taught and never quite learned how to be a girl #im not trans myself #harumaki gohan really just makes songs that hit you in your heart and vocalize exactly what you feel #harumaki also has one for the sapphics #its called zero talking #highly recommend #if you couldnt tell harumaki is my fav artist #harumaki gohan #trans #also i see tumblr hating on you trans girls and i want you to know that i love you #i love you trans women #this is way outside what i normally post but i need people to listen to this #i have been looping it for the last almost 2 weeks #Youtube

[moth-bells]

Calling literally anyone who can help me!!!! I NEED to know the name of a Miku song that has a character that looks like the above in it!! It is gnawing at my brain and I can not rest not being able to remember the name of this song I am not joking, I will draw something to anyone who can help me figure out this fucking song I heard something similar to it but it wasnt it and now I NEED TO HEAR IT AGAIN PLS All I can remember is I think it was sad, had a girl like this in a tshirt and an oversized blue-green dress that was way too big for her and was almost falling off of her and lsakgdhlkh pls rb or message me I will seriously do an illustration full color and rendering for whoever can help

#benji rambles #benji's art #miku #hatsune miku #vocaloid #I can see it almost clear in my head #I have some mild aphantasia so it might be off #but this FEELS right in my heart of hearts #lwjfghlrwgh #I know I used to listen to it a lot so its an old song #and its soft and cute sounding #but I feel like it was sad too

[gncrezan]

anyone get it or

#was the fig tree from the prologue intentional. maybe not. did it cause a heart attack when i reread foa. most certainly #not to mention the tone shift in the songs too. and theyre about descent. its too easy LIKE WHATEVER. #like im being realistic about how figs are quite common in ancient greece etc but lord fucking almighty.... #plus the patreon snippet of a younger pc and hermes. im going to be sick #<- about to start making some shit up about how they have shared so much with each other their entire lives #traded kindnesses and gifts and confided in the other with their worries . and the other being there is just SO EASY!!!!! #and when hermes offers seph a fruit. like of course they accept #and OF COURSE they try to share it. and like every time they've sat together (on olympus/in the underworld/in the gardens/during a party) #hermes gladly takes it!!!! it's a habit !!!!!!! IT'S AN INSTINCT!!!!! the offer is almost a surprise but hermes shouldn't have been #not really when his hand moves faster than he thinks and he realises he expects that kindness #not in an unkind way or a selfish way. but because he knows seph the way they know him !!! and seph has always been kind!!!!! #and then he realises that he expects /seph/ in his life and suddenly cannot imagine it without them !!!!!!!!!! LIKE CMON #yes this has me by the throat and im ALMOST webweaving but this is mostly about me forcing de selby onto these two #have been fixated on this moment and the sharing and the exchanging since ch8 dropped . hozier is just exacerbating the visions #('sure sunshine. let's share') <- this is not just about that fucking fig #foa

[daddy-ul]

heya, i'm jinn, i am a basic and i miss atlas rise! live.

#i know it's the most basic song ever from metallica BUT #i just love it. i embrace my norminess sjsjsjsns I WANT IT BACK LIVE PLSSSSS #im not asking for spit (oh man i WISH) but i know in my heart that its destiny will be the same as cyanide #and </3 #gotta say im glad that almost 8 years later and 3 concerts in that tour i still wanna hear HTSD songs #(not moth. it's good but enough. and i am still ?? over confusion being in s&m2 but i mean. pun intended djsjjsjs) #song related #sorry duder if you read all this way i am tired and i forgor what was my point #htsd is still good. still loving the songs. i was v tired today and man looking at the making of of the album helped #i LOVE the making of sweet revenge #james doing the chugga chugga heart beat at the beginning etc #jinn out #i think it has been a while since i did a ramble in the tag while sleep deprived snansnsns #anyway. #ATLAS RISE IS GOOD AND I MISS OT. WE HAD A GOOD TIME TOGETHER AND I WANT IT BACKKKKKKK #*HERE comes revenge #not sweet revenge. geez im tiredddd sksksksks

[that-angry-noldo]

Just wanna say I love the way you write Eonwe. I am so used to him being written like a clown; always on the receiving end of disrespect and portrayed to be dumb af that when I stumbled on your fic (the one where Finarfin was kidnapped), it was such a breath of fresh air because he is portrayed as a competent leader and a terrifying eldritch dude (that scares the elves) and with dignity. Amazing, kudos to you and your brilliant mind babe.

thank you so much anon! i'm sorry it took me so long to answer <3 i'm glad you like my portrayal of eönwë. i think the fandom at large overlooks his canon characterisation: he is the lord of the maiar, he is a warrior (the strongest of arda iirc), he is a war leader, and he is also knowledgable and respected, as his stay in Numenor indicates. let him be all these things! let him be competent! let him be smart! let him be scary! if the istari were powerful, imagine how terrifying their lord must be.

i am also glad you are enjoying ashes! ashes eönwë is my favorite eldritch guy i can't wait to write more of him

#eönwë #ashes #noldo answers #if you want to know ashes!Eönwë's song is ruthlesness from epic the musical #esp the lines #the line between naivety and hopefullness is almost invisisible: so close your hearts the world is dark and ruthlesness is mercy #and #you are far too nice; mercy has a price; guess the pack of wolves is swimming with a shark now #actually if someone has more eönwë thoughts feel free to share them with asks i want to talk about he

[vimbry]

I know I post about the unrelenting passage of time on here constantly, but it's so messed up how when I first watched the experimental film homestar runner video it was like a year old and now it's coming up to 2 decades ago.

#there's something very affectionate in this song. I don't know if that's the intention or if it's just straight-up poking fun at pretension #but it's almost like someone looking back on their younger years #creating things that were ultimately a bit silly that they thought were so meaningful and important at the time #but not having the heart to be fully cynical about those memories because they had fun #something in the cheery ''yeah! you're all gonna be in this experimental film!'' chorus has me visualising a bunch of bright-eyed students #ready to create their magnum opus #but they're still figuring out themselves

[braceletofteeth]

tag someone you want to know and/or some of your besties.

I was tagged by @fourth-quartet 😊 Thank you!!

favourite colour: Gray but I'm currently in a brown phase

last song: I've got recently reacquainted with Beginner by AKB48 😄

last series: The Kidnapping Day. It was a lot more wholesome than the name suggests.

last movie: Saw X (surprisingly also a lot more wholesome than you'd expect????)

sweet/savoury/spicy: Sweet :3

currently watching:

Koisenu Futari

Chains of Heart

The Golden Girls (season 1)

Love in the Air (2nd rewatch)

other stuff I watched this year: Not listing all of it here (I've never watched so much stuff as I did in 2023), but I'll mention the ones that I enjoyed watching the most from each month so far (*not including rewatches):

JAN: Wednesday

FEB: GAP

MAR: Not Me

APR: Tick, Tick... Boom!

MAY: Utsukushii Kare

JUN: Tale of the Nine-Tailed 1938

JUL: Takin' Over The Asylum

AUG: Marry My Dead Body

SEP: Utsukushii Kare: Eternal

OCT: The Sandman

shows I dropped this year/didn't finish: I barely remember the ones I watched till the very end 🤡 But ok, let me see...

Eve (dropped after one episode; Rich People and their Rich People Problems™, I think was the reason)

A few straight GMMTV shows that I didn't really catch the name (I. Well. I just. I just couldn't make myself give a fuck, ok 😔)

+ Currently deliberating whether or not I should drop Chains of Heart. All the subtitles I've found are lacking in terms of coherence, and the story itself is already not the most straightforward, so I can only hope I'm understanding what's going on at all? 😀 And I'm also not feeling the main couple from either the present nor the past (? I suspect they are the same (but I may never know))... HOWEVER, I like the acting of the main, and the Thai scenario that is not Bangkok for once. That's always refreshing. And sometimes the cinematography is pretty too... Decisions, decisions...

currently listening to: Back for More by TXT & Anitta (I went after the link for it and distractedly searched for "banger" instead of the title 😆)

currently reading: Codename Villanelle (it's a small book but I'm. ..struggle)

current obsession: I'm not obsessing over anything at the moment 😟☹😫 Have been too busy with mundane adult life problems (therefore, as you can imagine, I'm just about going up the walls here :))

tagging: @eatprayworm @thisautistic @hyp-no-tic @visualtaehyun hi 👋

#tag game #it's one of those weeks when I feel like my old acquaintances might be sick of me already #SO I tagged some people I think might be really cool but haven't directly approached yet #you know. for maximum anxiety #I've lost many songs over the years (it's never safe to have only one copy of them; thankfully I can afford more now) #the first time I found Beginner (as a pre-teen) I just downloaded it randomly listened to it and liked it so much I decided to keep it?? #oh to be young and not care about stuff like viruses or managing your time #at some point while writing this post I finished watching Ko¡senu Fut@ri #10/10 no notes #(lies. there are notes. dozens and dozens of reblogs just waiting for me to spread them all over your dashboards in the near future) #tick tick boom was quite nice... for a musical #(not a fan of musicals so to have one on my list is. wild) #already four months since the Lee brothers left me 😪 #and I haven't heard a word about LDW's new drama in MONTHS. actively gnawing the bars of my cage rn #OH OH WAIT I ALMOST FORGOT #SPECIAL MENTION TO <SUMMER STRIKE> IN MAY #if my other option wasn't Utsukush¡i fricking K@re I wouldn't even hesitate. but. it was #and everyone knows I'm not normal about this one 😀🙂 #if anyone wants to advocate in favor of Ch@ins of Heart. please. I'm all ears. is it worth it? #uhh. I'm not gonna disclose much but it's true I'm under a lot of stress lately. there is a lot going on right now. #I might not be able to watch new shows/be around tumblr while I (try to) sort my shit out #just a quick heads up 👍

[jinx-on-mars-19xx]

@ yungblud: hated. tomorrow. 3pm bst. 🖤🤍🖤

#i... fuck... holy fuck 🥺 i dont know what to say besides im amazed by him more and more every day #im so proud of him #im almost scared of this song now but at the same time im even more excited #i always wondered #id say poor thing but no hes strong as fuck 🖤 #yungblud #dominic harrison #dom harrison #black hearts club #bhc #doms instagram #yungblud instagram